#but im v anxious about that sort of stuff

[orbch]

people talking about analogical and being like “their identities balance each other out really well” and im like NO KIDDING!!!! 😂🤣

anways heres an essay about their storylines and how they mirror each other

(everything im about to say is very mentally unconstructed and thought up in a 3am haze. and also i feel like all of my thoughts abt sasi are stagnant and surface level so please argue with me if you think im wrong..) (also these ideas have likely already been written a bajillion times. but let me do it anyway LOL)

^ with that being said i feel the need to set a definition on what makes sasi sides “dark sides” and “light sides” because like,, to me the only difference between them is the means in which they get the rest of the sides to listen to them

obviously.. none of the sides are actively trying to be evil. or trying to hurt cthomas on purpose. OBVIOUSLYY. because why the hell would they want to do that? they are all literally That Guy, and all of the sides have their own personal goals for thomas that they want him to follow. this is like. the plot. and very known information..

but remus, janus, and formerly virgil are the “dark sides”… like what? because janus manipulated and pretended to be the other sides because thats the only way he could get the others to really listen to and consider his ideas of self preservation and prioritization? and virgil would actively terrorize the others and thomas to get him to be anxious about the stuff virgil believed it was IMPORTANT for him to be anxious about? and remus. listen remus is a whole lot of “being awful for the sake of being awful” but evidently in DWIT he has a strong attraction to the idea of infamy and legacy. so even he is sort of looking out for thomas in. uhm. his own way i guess…

so obviously we know virgils storyline was;

purposely scare the others to get them to see situations from his point of view -> always get insulted and pushed away for being a “pessimist” (its his entire purpose) -> “duck out” and leave thomas and the others to discover the negative affects of zero anxiety -> only after that, finally become recognized as an important aspect of thomas

tw: mention of suicide [not in detail] (and on that note, i think its a little morbid that the light sides only fully realized virgils worth and objective after he attempted the sanders sides equivalent of suicide (which you can NOT convince me isnt what the concept of “ducking out” is. they are all metaphysical personifications of instinctual human traits. what the hell are they gonna do? become real and walk out of the house? bffr))

and whats logans journey?

be considered the [reasonable problem solver] of the group -> be placed in a MULTITUDE of situations where the range of solutions are emotions v. emotions v. emotions and suddenly be considered “cold hearted” and “uncaring” for your objective view points -> get excluded from discussions and ignored when you try and help in the only way you know how -> ???

i (and most of the fandom) fully believe logan (ESPECIALLY after WTIT) is going to start resorting to some pretty drastic measures to be acknowledged by the rest of the sides + thomas. some actions that are likely incited by a “dark side” (nudge nudge the orange guy nudge nudge). and if the harshness of the measures he takes in order to be listened to is all it takes for the rest of the dark sides to be considered “dark sides” in the first place. then uhh well… well!!!

but anyways yeah. yeah. logan and virgil kinda have mirrored character development and that is so fucking interesting. virgils path from dark to light and logans path from light to dark… sighhh.. good stuff

[magnoliamyrrh]

It really sucks bc I’ve had this sneaking suspicion since my early adolescence that I was molested by a preschool teacher. I have no actual memory but just a combination of UTIs + sadomasochistic behavior + nightmares + hypersexuality later made me suspect. But like. It could have been from everyone and their mom in my Balkan family constantly groping me :/ like it’s already blurry in my head this is just confusing me even more but at the same time I’m not sure I wanna know

thank u for sending this, i know its hard to even write this shit out sometimes. im sorry you went through any of this. yea, i went through a long period of not being sure what the hell happened if anything at all too. i still do at times. all the same symptoms + i also thought for a long time that maybe it was from all of,, the other stuff instead of anything else. its rly hard to try to make sense of it all, especially at those ages, and tbh yea, all those symptoms could v well just appear from the general family shit, especially depending on the severity of what was allowed and starting/ending when

... i think its fair to not want to know. i think its rly fair and normal to b either entirely opposed to knowing or just anxious and adverse sbt it. missing as well as blurry memories at those ages can v well be just normal, theres plenty of things ppl start to usually forget, but,, they can also be a sign of your brain trying to protect you from shit it deemed too hard/too much/too distressing to handle.. and that's,.. fair. thats a survival adaptation.

when you go knocking on the locked doors in your mind its often far from a pleasant time.. and tbh shit tends to get worse before it gets any better. On the other hand this is just. personal philosophy/conclusion; i think... the only .. way to Really truly deal things - the issues themselves not just the symptoms caused by the issues - is to face them. must go through the eye of the needle sort of thing. this is how ive dealt w recovering from bpd, ana&mia, and ptsd shit and generally got myself to b a lot more sane, after a period of time in which it drove me more insane. this is what psychedelics reinforced in me anyway.... i dont recommend going poking around in your brain too much if youre not in a remotely stable and safe environment,,, i did that, not the best time

poking around and trying to figure this sort of shit out can often turn into a whole spiral. be gentle with yourself, dont try to rush yourself into wanting answers, and take care of yourself. sometimes it is best to let your brain let you know about things when it deems the time is right, rather than trying to tear down every door

but,.. . something that my ex whose also been through some pretty severe shit said to me when i was falling down a "is this real?" hole: you kinda just.. you feel it. somewhere if youre being real serious with yourself, deep deep down inside you know if you know. we never really forget things. somewhere, they are ingrained in us, our bodies remember even if we dont.... and, tbh, the other thing is. people see it on you. like, recognition of the self through the other sort of thing. something that always got to me before i actually rly idk accepted a lot of things is how much i related to ppl who have also gone through that sort of stuff. could just b the family shit but also 🤷‍♀️ . even if it isnt i guess the question would be, what is the drive behind your suspicion. why there. why that teacher or why a teacher. why that time and place. does it remind you of something else or another time?. and on the flip side.. something else that ive learned is that. predators see it on you? they truly do. i remember when i was questioning shit id tell myself, well, both of these things cant be true right??? thats ridiculous, who has that sort of luck to not only deal with this weird af normalized family shit + other stuff?? i must just b exaggerating things.... except in reality, most predators can tell which victims are vulnerable and they can most often tell which kids have some sort of history of sexual trauma. once it happenes, its actually statistically more likely that it will happen again...... which really fucking sucks

idk, i hope any of this made sense i probably went on for too long but. im rly sorry again u went through any of this im v much sending u a virtual hug. i rly do get the frustration and confusion and... all of it. im sorry but also, thank you for sending me this bc its... both horrible and comforting at the same time to know someone else has felt this same mess. i hope youre going to find some consolation and peace and healing soon <3 <3

[arcadequeerz]

Also feel like people would hate Henry because he’s autistic, depressed n has anxiety, n not just the symptoms people deem ~totally ok~(idk how to word what i mean? theres a word for what i mean n i have completely forgotten it) n i feel like people would think he is ~annoying~ for those reasons, or belittle his trauma, or not take him as a serious character.

[nemossubmarine]

🔥 Scented Candles: Do you have any favorite smells? 🦇 Vampire: What is/are your favorite supernatural creature(s)? 🎉 Party Games: What are some of your favourite games (of any kind)?

Scented Candles: Do you have any favorite smells?Roses, evergreen trees, birch whiskes (that’s what dictionary tells me to call it, but basically you tie together birch branches, take it to sauna and beat yourself with it and then you smell of birch and everything smells of birch :D), rain and snow.

Vampire: What is/are your favorite supernatural creature(s)? Hmm, I’m rather fond of lot of väki (which are sort of like spirits in Finnish mythology, väki = power / people), namely väki of the dead, väki of the well and väki of the woods. In general a lot of the (un)dead variety of creatures are my jam.

Party Games: What are some of your favourite games (of any kind)? I don’t get to play a lot of board games, unfortunately, but I’m fond of trivia games and anything involving storytelling. I think I’d like Scrabble (and other word-games, though nothing with a timer!) if I ever got to play it. Clue(do) is something I’ve actually played a lot, I love it. Space Fluxx is another one I’m always willing to play. Oh and Love Letter!

Roleplaying-wise I’m far more fonder of Dragon Age TRPG than DnD, but that’s more to do with my awesome play group than the system. I dig Fate as a concept a lot, haven’t gotten to play it yet.

Video games is RPGs of course; Final Fantasy IX, Dragon Age (Origins being my fave), Child of Light, Divinity: Original Sin (1 and 2, though I havent had the time to finish DoS2 and it makes me saad :(( ). I’m a bit more old-school I think, I like my combat turn-based and a bit slower etc. (also if you can romance people that’s a huge plus :P) Also love stuff like Heroes III for the strategy, Stardew Valley, bc I get to be super-organized and Binding of Isaac, which is a rogue-like shooter (there’s a lot of stuff on the screen and it reminds me of Diablo 3 which I also love).

I don’t like any actual party games very much. I don’t do deception well (which seems to be often involved) so I just suck at a lot of them in general. :D

[xiaq]

Hi, I have a question re:sex and Christianity. Small background: I still go to church, and I still live with my parents even though I'm not much younger than you, because housing is very very expensive where I live (pretty common here, I would say about 2/3 of my friends live with their parents and we are decently privileged kids)

Anyway. How does one get over purity culture? To be clear, I've never been told in church not to have sex, I've never gotten the gendered lessons that you got. But I am terrified of having sex. My first real, multi-year relationship just ended and while there was hand stuff etc, there was never any p in v sex (lol I feel 12). But I still had insane anxiety about being pregnant despite being on bc. And I think its because I know my parents would be so disappointed if I had sex. And if I was pregnant I could imagine all the gossip. And honestly I think im from a pretty open church, b/c one of our previous ministers kids recently got married at 8 months pregnant and lots of church people were at the wedding and supportive and her parents were there and everything.

I dont even think I particularly like sex, i might be on the ace spectrum, but how do I remove it from all the anxiety that's tied to it so I can even give myself the chance to find out???

(Asking because it seems like you've been pretty open about purity culture/removing yourself from it)

CW for sex talk (again)

How does one get over purity culture?

Oh man. That really is the million-dollar question, huh? Obviously, I can only answer re my personal experiences, and this is something you should talk to a therapist about, but I can tell you how I’ve tackled it with my therapist at least.

Purity culture is, at its core, an ideology that is perpetuated by shame. If you’re indoctrinated into purity culture when you’re a kid, the concepts become baked into the way you construct your identity, your perception of self, and your perception of your sexuality. It’s practically intrinsic, by the time you’re an adult, to feel shame any time you’re reminded you have a body, much less a sexuality.

According to the chapels I sat through every week as a kid, a girl's body could be 3 things: an intentional stumbling block for men, an accidental stumbling block for men, or unnoticeable. Women were to strive for the third option so as to keep their (and their male friends/authority figures) purity intact. After all, if a boy, or even your male teacher, had impure thoughts about you, it was your fault for tempting them (which, holy shit. I still can’t believe that was a thing I bought into for so long. If my 45 yr old grown-ass teacher had impure thoughts because he could see my 12 yr old collarbone, that sure as hell wasn’t my fault. But I digress.) The Only time a woman’s body can be something else, is when she gives it to her husband, at which point she must suddenly flip the switch in her brain that she is now allowed to be a Sexual Being and she must perform Sexual Duties despite living in outright fear of her own body and sexuality for years (decades?) up until this point. Jesus take the wheel.

Purity culture isn’t a thing you can just decide to walk away from if you’ve grown up in it. Because its ideology is insidious and internalized. So first you need to submit to the fact that you’re going to be fucked up about sex. It sounds like you’re there. Second, you need to interrogate what you believe. If you’re leaving religion behind entirely, you’ll approach removing yourself from purity culture differently than if you still identify as a Christian. It sounds like you might be the latter, which meant, for me, separating what’s actually biblical and what’s shitty, contrived, doctrine that I was told is biblical but is actually more political than spiritual. This helps you address the shame issue.

You need to throw away I Kissed Dating Goodbye and Lady in Waiting and all those ridiculous books you read and reread in the hopes of somehow obtaining impossible marriage perfection and look into actual scripture interpreted within its historical context. I could write a book on this, but the TL;DR is that the text of the Bible was written, translated, curated, and changed multiple times over thousands of years by human beings with human biases and, often, personal and/or political agendas. It contradicts itself! Reading it as it is—a flawed historical document—rather than some sort of God-breathed perfect document—is incredibly freeing. When you do, you’ll probably realize that purity culture is bullshit on a spiritual level. Which is a good start, if that matters to you. Because any time you start to feel shame or guilt you can ask yourself: does God actually care if I wear a bikini or touch a dick I’m not married to? Probably not. Wear the bikini. Touch the dick.

The most important therapy session for me was when my therapist asked what I would do if I got to heaven and God was actually the God I’d been raised to fear. What would I do if he condemned me for being bisexual and having premarital sex and becoming educated, for arguing with men, and failing to isolate while menstruating, and wearing mixed fabrics? If Montero had come out at the point, I probably would have said I’d pole dance down to hell. Instead, I said I would spit on heaven’s gates. If a god that cruel and that pointlessly demeaning really exists—a god who would create in me condemned desire—I won't worship him. The good news is, I’m 99% sure he doesn’t exist. At the very least, he isn’t supported by scripture.

Okay. The final thing you need to do is figure out what you actually want, sexually speaking. This bit is probably the hardest. I’m still in the early stages of this myself. You say: “I dont even think I particularly like sex, i might be on the ace spectrum, but how do I remove it from all the anxiety that's tied to it so I can even give myself the chance to find out???” Bro, I wish I had an easy answer for you. For me, whenever I’m feeling anxious about Sex Things, I tell myself: 1. My God does not equate my worth to my sexual habits. 2. My partner does not equate my worth to my sexual habits. 3. I do not equate my worth to my sexual habits. It seems silly, but reminding myself of those three things is massively helpful. If, after I’ve sorted through those, I’m still anxious or uncomfortable, I stop doing the thing. I evaluate. Am I overwhelmed and I need to try again some other time? Do I just not like the thing? Sometimes it’s hard to tell. Sometimes you change your mind. Sometimes you just don’t know. That’s why having a partner who you trust and who’s willing to patiently explore your interests (and respect your disinterests) is so important. Half the battle, for me, was having a partner who told me they’d be ok with no sex at all. Because that took the pressure off me. If the bare minimum they need is nothing, then anything more than that is a bonus! Hooray! This is maybe TMI, but let me tell you. I thought I was asexual* right up until I was able to have moderately non-anxious sex. Never in my life did I think I would initiate a sexual situation but… I do now. It’s a fun thing to do with a person I love and, holy shit. I am furious that I nearly missed out on it.

Finally, re birth control: I don’t know how you can approach that fear in a way that works for you. If you don’t want to ever have penetrative sex, that’s fine! If that’s a point of anxiety you can’t get rid of, then don't push yourself to do it. If you find out you like other sex things, do the other sex things! If you don't like doing any sex things, don't do any sex things! Also, have you considered sleeping with people who can’t get you pregnant? Always an option if it’s an option you want to consider. ;)

Okay. I hope this was even a little bit helpful. Sorry if it’s a little convoluted, I typed it up in bursts during my work breaks.

*This is not at all to say that asexuality can be “fixed." Rather, it’s to say that things like purity culture can drastically confuse your sexuality in general. If you’re asexual, then this process is still important to discover what you like/dislike. Then you can be explicit about those necesities and find a partner who’s a good fit (if you want a partner at all, that is).

[angfdz]

i think i gotta delete tik tok off my phone

but bro i fr feel like i’m going crazy im trying to limit my social media use so ive been going on tiktok which is like watching way too much tv that’s not even good and is probably making my shitty attention span worse right?? like tiktok seems like a prime attention span reducer

(& i mean that whole mechanism is so fucked like ur basically on there chasing a 3 second laugh there’s so much shitty content on there u scroll for 20 minutes and maybe TWICE get something that MAYBE sort of draws a smile out of u its trash!!!! 

ive been posting my painting edits on there tho like i’m hoping eventually i’ll get tiktok famous which like AM i hoping that?? honestly i hope not bc the ap is making me psycho)

and ive stopped kind of, drawing and making stuff for fandom & so i’m not getting my dosed with serotonin from that. & anyway digitally drawing right now feels like MORE just like screen time which... u know!!!! like I BE ON THAT PHONE it’s too MUCH

& i’ve been trying to u know... live my life lmfaooo & do things outside of my comfort zone which unfortunately causes me a lot of anxiety as well

also i had a visitor just recently so i’m super tired from that also i just hung out with legitimately 7 ppl in the space of 1.5 days

and i keep saying YES to all these social engagements because

BECAUSE

IDK WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF now that i don’t have my twitter addiction to entertain me with, i’m like at least hanging out w ppl forces me to be in the moment 

but then my social batter gets all filled up

& lately weed smoking hasn’t even been fun u know? like ive been feeling some v strong take a break from weed vibes n every time i smoke i’m anxious so vibes confirmed

and yesterday i had this super long dream of this guy i went on a sort of date with who is cute but last i spoke to him 1.5 years ago he had a girlfriend also like, i feel like we wouldn’t actually relate to each other very well he’s just hot but it was weird to get such a long dream of him & i’ll be real when i first met him before i knew he had a girlfriend i did a lil witch mindlink on him (which i felt bad about afterwards!!!!! BC I DIDNT KNOW!!!!!!) 

but anyway the clown is me bc now i’m dreaming of this mf

anyway

tomorrow i’m going on a walk in the woods okay????? i’m promising this to myself right now

and i’m also painting

and i’m NOT listening to things with words in them tomorrow only white noise

[moved-19871997]

yeah hard agree on everything!! about talking outside streams like yeah they do that a lot but don't all friends. and even the 10hr call thing. like im a very socially anxious introvert to the point where sometimes i like get out breath speaking v v easily and it physically exhaust me and stuff, but i still have a fair number of people that I could talk to for that long. if i call a friend it's 4 hrs minimum no sweat. so 10hrs sounds like a lot but it's not that deep lol

!! yeah especially if you dont have anything to do (no school/work) + its essentially your only way of hanging out its remarkably easy to just hang out in a call talking or doing ur own thing + w the 10hr thing i rmr dream sounding suprised ab it anyway kjghsdkfjg and its kinda related but rmr when dream talked ab watching something on the tv w sapnap and chat was like . aww or smth like that and he was like 'wow ! people who LIVE TOGETHER watch somethign on the TV 😲😨🤯' liek a lot of the things they do . most if not all are just regular friend things and this sort of . hm. okay i think a lot o f people who take every single dream and george action in a romantic way/people who freak out every time d+s talk about doing something together just havent ever rlly had good friends before (i dont mean like them being friends since they were 10/11/12 or like george talking about moving to the us or dream saying 'come blow up with me/take your friends with you' and stuff like that bc thats rare like what they have is rare and im not disputing that and all is very 🥺 worthy just the regular best friend/roommate things they do)

[cattles-bians]

damie vibecca exes au part 21

post directory

em: viola and becs love their lil hikes

em: oh actually did we already designate hiking as a damie thing

em: hmm.

em: yknow what damie and vibecca can both enjoy their weekend hikes

em: they bring isabel and she’s RUNNING up the path and tires herself out in 10 minutes and rebecca and viola swap out piggybacking her

obsetress: yeah it tracks because they both like fitness and viola likes her walks

obsetress: plus viola's like "it's good for isabel"

em: vibecca power lesbians love the challenging trails and damie just enjoy the sights

obsetress: dani venting to jamie one night: they don't even LIKE hiking, but they still had to do the blackjack loop, and WE won't even do the blackjack loop,

em: dani and her fanny packs... every time she sees isabel on a trail she like

em: stuffs her pockets w granola akdhdkfhdj

em: drives viola NUTS she’s like we packed our Own snacks

obsetress: dani gets SO excited

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obsetress: man i love these lil gay bitches

obsetress: no but um

obsetress: jamie gets in some fight w rebecca early on after they've reconnected

obsetress: prob about her dating vi tbh

obsetress: and jamie's so put off by the whole thing and is ranting to dani about it and dani's all like "you just need to have better boundaries, jamie, they're her choices, aren't they? not yours"

obsetress: and jamie just stares at her like.........................................

obsetress: "dani, you literally continued hooking up with viola for weeks after you broke up"

"oh, c'mon jamie, it wasn't weeks"

"no?"

"it was months"

em: dani shooting herself in the foot to like. correct jamie is so funny

em: not even ‘no that’s different’ or ‘no i’ve changed’ like ‘actually it was months’

obsetress: she says it w such a lil pleased smile on her face too

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obsetress:

obsetress: like who the FUCk gave her the right???

obsetress: a whole babe

obsetress: she didn't need to smirk like this

em: god she’s so Hot

obsetress: just think about all the times she and viola get into the banter

obsetress: and this exact face

em: i know we veered dramatically into soft territory w exes au but vi extremely stubborn lloyd and rebecca lawyer do no harm take no shit jessel truly. have some spectacular arguments

obsetress: they have absolute blowouts

obsetress: and then blowouts after the blowouts iywkim

obsetress: like dani's do no harm take no shit but she and vi also enable the SHIT out of each other

em: like dani tried but dani wasnt like. fully baked yet

obsetress: yeah! and then when she finally does and breaks up with her, she's back in her bed a few weeks later

obsetress: rebecca is the first person to not take viola's shit and to tell her no and viola can't fucking stand it

em: jamies convinced it’s a ruse for more make up sex

obsetress: dani's like "no, babe, trust me, i know what that looks like and this––"

"wot"

"what?"

em: dani (hushed) no she’s regular mad this isn’t fun mad

em: jamie (hushed but incredulous) FUN MAD?!

obsetress: please tell me how dani explains fun mad

em: a lil eyebrow waggle and a wink but then i like

em: thought abt her going to lift jamie up on a bench ‘well she kinda’

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obsetress: the way rebecca looks at peter when he is (seemingly) (unfortunately) good w the kids has me thinking about like

obsetress: rebecca seeing vi w isabel for the first time and just

em: turns out the evil landlord shes banging is also…… soft

obsetress: rebecca and jamie on the phone and rebecca's like "i know she's... a landlord and all, but you should've seen her with isabel"

"you've gotta be fucking kidding me, becs––"

"no, maybe you're too quick to write her off. maybe people can be more than one thing"

and jamie just groans

em: poor jamie and her class traitor ex gf

em: blows kiss to rebecca

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em: dani: i gotta go to the bathroom i’ll be right back

em: jamie: ok love

em: dani; (elbows jamie) ive Gotta Go To The B

obsetress: screamed

obsetress: dani trips over her own feet as she gets up to go

obsetress: then i just start thinking about dani absolutely pouncing on jamie the second they get into the bathroom and then i just start thinking about. how often that happens

obsetress: bathrooms or closets or wherever else

em: dani has this 6th sense for places to sneak off to

obsetress: god she DOES

obsetress: she's so good at it

em: she enters a new building and is taking lil notes just in case

obsetress: meanwhile rebecca and viola exchanging a look while they wait, knowing EXACTLY where they're going

em: viola leaning in like how much time do we have and becs is like vi. where’s your decorum

em: then she looks down at her watch and lists it down to the second

obsetress: she pauses

obsetress: then

obsetress: "and another six minutes if––" and vi's like "she'll want to go again"

em: viola buffing her nails on her blazer: she’ll want to go again

obsetress: rebecca rolls her eyes but she's grinning

obsetress: "you're all too smug" "me? smug?" becs just shakes her head and tugs her in by the lapels of her blazer

em: damie coming back to a fairly chaste vibecca kiss: BLEH can you guys GET A ROOM

obsetress: rebecca's just verly placidly like

obsetress: "dani, your zipper is still down, by the way"

em: dani; thanks :)

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em: dani clayton voice i’m braver and severely Weirder than ppl think

obsetress: she's a bit of a weirdo

em: see now i’m thinking about dani glancing away going dang i thought i was keeping it under wraps

obsetress: ngl i think about that a lot like

obsetress: she IS a weirdo but what does jamie know

obsetress: that she's like yeah she's a fucking weirdo

obsetress: like she's anxious and jumpy but jamie wouldn't call that weird

obsetress: what did she know and when did she know it

em: i’m thinking about jamie catching dani doing something like. idk eating a burger layer by layer or w a knife and fork and going

em: what a freak. i’m gonna marry her

em: dani tells jamie no this is a normal american thing and then when they go to vermont jamie realises no this absolutely is not

obsetress: she says something about it and dani doesn't even remember saying it in the first place

obsetress: "i didn't say that"

"you literally did say that"

"why would i say that"

(jamie taylor eyebrow raise) "you tell me"

(dani clayton flush and stutter) "i–– i..."

em: dani mumbles something like i didn’t think it’d pan out like this i just wanted the cool gardener to think i was. semi normal

em: jamie waggles her eyebrows like cool gardener???

obsetress: dani bumps her shoulder into jamie's "shut up"

"don't think i will, actually"

em: jamie starts to v seriously eat her burger layer by layer. danis like ‘ur taking the mick!’ and jamies like (sheepish) naw i just. wanted to see what it’s like

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em: every so often they’ll run into someone who went to school w jamie or knew her as a youth and they’re like ‘wow you’ve mellowed out heaps’

em: therapy queen

em: theyre in a pub and someone’s like ‘as i live and breathe! jamie taylor! i heard you died! someone told me you were arrested for (crime that becomes bigger and more outlandish w every new person)’ and jamies like ‘aye’ and they’re like

em: all sharing a beer at a quaint little pub n this old acquaintance from before has these v chaotic stories and danis like

em: jamie? my jamie? u must be confused. jamie goes to bed at 9:30pm watching antiques roadshow

obsetress: jamie just grins a lil

em: danis like haha jamie wow ur so mysterious and (she is already casing the joint for places to sneak off too)

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em: damvibecca sittin in a circle passing a joint around

em: a nice thought

obsetress: Wholesome

obsetress: dani falls asleep first, with her head in jamie's lap and they're all just kinda vibin and rebecca gets up to get her a blanket or smth and vi's just kinda like

obsetress: "you're really good for her, you know"

obsetress: all quiet and pensive

em: jamie takes a loooooonng pause and she’s like. i was sceptical but. you’re good for becs too

em: and then even quieter she’s like

em: thanks

em: the softest thank u from one jamie taylor

obsetress: rebecca gets back and looks back n forth between the two of them

"why are you two being weird"

"we're not–- what?"

"we're just sitting here, baby"

obsetress: rebecca narrows her eyes

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obsetress: jamie likes vi for becs because vi reminds her to live a little

obsetress: and can also keep up with her temperament because holy shit did jamie hate all of becca's bougie shit

em: jamie absolutely has um

em: like a repairs pile that shes gonna get around to Some Day re fixin clothes etc and

em: as much as i love 'rebecca and jamie worlds most calm and collected no drama couple' im defs toying with like

em: their ONE Big fight is beccs throws out the repairs pile

obsetress: "i was gonna––"

"no you WEREN'T, jamie!"

em: jamies like i The Tool I Needed is outta stock i had to- and becs is like? what, like you couldnt make do?

em: and even then when the heat dies down its still v calm and civil but like

em: FINALLY a lil dramatic angle to jamie rebecca

em: dani loves the repairs pile bc she loves a project

obsetress: she's also very content to let jamie have her silly little thing

obsetress: because it doesn't bother her and jamie is very good at keeping it in her space

obsetress: rebecca asks her about it one day and dani's like "oh i'm just glad she has a hobby :)"

em: couple times jamie's like. shes been tryna repair this one chair for months and eventually shes like

em: (swings axe) winters coming

obsetress: dani just watches with the dopiest grin

obsetress: jamie's all wot

obsetress: and dani's like

obsetress: :) you're hot :)

em: danis like hey i know its a brisk autumn but um

em: if u wanna

em: mimes taking shirt off

obsetress: jamie does it

obsetress: jamie rolling her eyes as she unbuttons the top couple buttons then tugs her shirt over her head

obsetress: but she's grinning

obsetress: dani sneaking up behind her as she's sorting the wood and just leaning into her bare back

obsetress: jamie jumps "oi!" and dani grins and nuzzles between her shoulders

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obsetress: been having so many becca feelings in our rewatch

em: oh gosh

em: i love her she truly is a tragic character

obsetress: same

obsetress: i just want her to live happily ever after in her lil power lesbian outfits with her lil power lesbian wife

obsetress: like she needs someone who can MATCH her

obsetress: her energy and her intensity and her passion

obsetress: and like she and jamie can push each other to be better but jamie’s just kinda like “lemme chill n do my gay little tasks” yknow

em: ya and like they Worked but they worked Much better as friends than anything romantic

em: jamies the lesbian best friend that’s like girl. stop settling for mediocre men with accents

obsetress: yeah!

em: jamie ‘how soon is too soon to ask out my good friend rebecca jessel after her v messy break up w peter quint’ taylor

em: and then rebecca ends up being the one like ‘have you ever thought about us?’ while jamies agonising over it like four months later

em: rebeccas a little go getter and jamie needs a little bit of a shove sometimes

obsetress: jamie, surrounded by three shovers,

obsetress: rebecca says it so casually over dinner like she’s talking about the weather and jamie’s like !?

obsetress: i can also see like

obsetress: rebecca says that bit about "have you ever thought about us" at dinner and jamie blanches and second guesses everything they do "is....... is this a date" becca just shrugs "do you want it to be?"

em: jamies motormouthing like ok but i cannot stress enough that i was comforting you about ur break up in a friend way no ulterior motives way i am ur friend first and foremost and rebecca just like

em: lets her get it out of her system

em: ‘well what about my ulterior motives’

obsetress: she WOULD

obsetress: "did you ever consider that maybe i had ulterior motives"

em: jamie: (pursing her lips, furrowing her brow that way she does) you had a messy break up with peter quint….. to seduce me.

em: rebecca: mmhmm

obsetress: jamie: me?

obsetress: rebecca: well, maybe a couple of reasons, but... yeah. you were up there

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em: after i asked out [ex] i spent ages agonising over when it would be appropriate to kiss her (i know...) and then one night at a party she’s like ‘so why haven’t u kissed me yet?’ and i’m like are u fucken. mate it takes two to tango

obsetress: oh my god?

em: drawing from that

em: jamie thinks they’re taking it slow (but not that slow) and rebecca is like girl what

em: ‘i never took you for old fashioned’

‘wot, me?’

'mmhm’

‘old fashioned?!’

‘well, you haven’t kissed me yet-‘

‘you haven't kissed me! i figured you wanted to take it slow after p-‘ and then rebecca like full on dips jamie and kisses her

em: rebeccas like always wanted to do that at least once lol

em: jamie is speechless for a couple minutes

obsetress: rEBECCA

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obsetress: thinking thoughts rebecca jamie same height but rebecca heels

obsetress: jamie looking up @ her all

obsetress: rebecca in her heels and is chilly and jamie getting up onto her tip toes to wrap her big coat around rebecca's shoulders

em: softtt

[horde-princess]

How do you think Catra made peace with her role in Angella’s entrapment (or death, depending on how you interpret it, i’ve seen both)? When she’s speaking to Hordak, she seems quite proud of it- “It worked out for us, didn’t it? Their queen is gone, the rebellion’s a mess!” And following Catra joining the rebels, it isn’t really addressed, as I know you & others have lamented. I think your metas are extremely well-written & I was curious about your perspective on this. Do you think she was

(2/2) remorseful? How do you think she made peace w/ it after the fact? How do you think the others would go about forgiving her for it, if at all? (I’d imagine Glimmer would have the hardest time, but she’s also caused similar harm to Etheria, so maybe not? I believe that’s what allowed her to empathize most with Catra also.) I apologize if you’ve answered asks related to Angella before! Also, your religious metas have been extremely cathartic reads & I wanted to thank you for them!

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thank YOU so much for reading them 😭💕 yeah the thing is there’s so little in canon to go off of so ill try to get that sorted first and go from there

thats an interesting quote to bring up from 4x01. part of me is like “noo she didnt mean it she just needed to sell her worth to hordak” and another part is like yeah it makes sense she’d be proud, the leader of their enemy was gone even if its not something she can really take credit for it was still a huge victory. but in my opinion it doesnt weigh for or against any conclusion since its pre-redemption so lets try looking at some other moments

there’s her confrontation about the portal with scorpia in the same episode, you could argue her extreme anger there and the way she forces herself to relax shows that she’s trying to shove down her guilt. then ofc she has that nightmare in 4x03, and afterward her anxious reaction when adora brings it up. this stuff is super consistent with the way catra’s character is written, like they never spell her feelings out you gotta dig a little deeper u know

also this is stretching honestly but its something ive been thinking about a lot???? in 5x07 when glimmer mentions her dad? why have catra jump off adoras lap after THAT particular line.. if not to associate her unease about returning to etheria with angella 🤔🤔 super curious what yall think about this

(side note, not canon per se but storyboard artist Mickey Quinn drew this picture of Catra saying “I’m sorry” to Angella during a livestream -- could just be her own thoughts but likely reflects general feelings of the crew!)

idr anything else in canon so yeah unfortunately the writers didnt want to address angella directly, but with these brief moments i think there WAS a deliberate intention for fans to kinda read between the lines and assume that catra’s guilt re: the portal also related specifically to angella. it took me forever to get over it lkdfjld im still not tbh

but as far as catra making peace with it, season 5 is proof enough that yeah she would take full responsibility and feel terrible about it, like next to hurting adora it would have to be her biggest regret... its not something she’d come to terms with on her own i think it would take everyone’s reassurance and thats part of the beauty of the show u know the theme of friendship and forgiveness 😌 but before that could happen personally i wouldve liked to see everyone have time to grieve and process and just be angry. but like i agree i think glimmer would logically understand why catra did it but the emotional process of forgiveness would be a much longer journey for her and itd be amazing to see their friendship deepen because of it.. also i dont think we talk about this enough but angella was like a mother to bow and adora as well!!! i think they’d be v protective/defensive of glimmer for a while and there’d be some interesting tension between the 4 of them..  thats in my perfect world like if the show had 10 seasons haha. heres a post that talks a little bit more about what i wouldve liked to see happen in canon

also self plug i wrote a fic about this actually where i explore some thoughts on how catra and others dealt with her role in angellas death if ur interested 😇 just bc i think it expresses my feelings better than anything else i could say

[mrs-nate-humphrey]

aight aight, real shit; let's say you got the chance to rewrite the entirety of gossip girl exactly how you want. make a brief description of what would happen in each season. (you can decide whether there's a fourth season or not)

oh i LOVE this ask, and i am so flattered to be asked this, haha. i have SO many thoughts, i’ve been thinking about this non-stop, but i’ll try to be as brief as possible. also, disclaimer, i don’t remember all the seasons equally clearly. like i barely remember s2. haha, whoops.

season 1: i love this season as is, for the most part. i think the tone of it was actually very serious and involved? like the show was actively trying not to be frivolous with heavy topics, and the way we were getting to see the characters seemed like they were trying to bring out character depth and the complexities of their lives in very deliberate ways. nate’s whole thing with his parents gets so much focus, and it’s not something the show glorifies, it’s something that is meant to make you uncomfortable and worried for him. 

i would have nate be less of a dudebro, jenny & nate’s friendship being a little more solid, dan being a little more involved in jenny’s problems + helping her find her space, vanessa/nate to happen earlier - after nate breaks up w/ blair and realises she looks happier, i would have him not try and get back with her (lol, dude, the fact that she’s happy after breaking up with you means you probably shouldn’t be dating her.) more exploration of eric’s mental health. more dan and blair friendship. i would keep chair the way it is this season. i would not have a derena breakup - i’d have them take a break after the georgina reveal and get back together during the summer after talking about it and deciding to be more honest & open with each other. and, what the hell, i would have lily not blame serena (???) for being taken advantage of in the whole pete fairman situation. serena wasn’t sober, she was 16, that dude was in his 30s, georgina was taping her w/o her consent. how is any of this serena’s fault??? i hate lily’s reaction so much.

season 2: i... don’t remember enough of this season, sadly. it’s been too long since i watched it. i would majorly change jenny’s arc here, though. eleanor stealing her dress was majorly, majorly fucked up, and i think jenny should’ve done something then and there. also the whole thing with ‘lily is a mother to chuck’.... i would’ve loved it if lily had been like that to jenny. the girl needed it, and lily would’ve actually been able to help jenny establish connections in the professional world and whatnot. i think jenny should’ve transferred out of constance - not necessarily homeschooling maybe, but gone somewhere else. unlike dan, she didn’t even want to get into an ivy, she wanted to make it big as a designer. so. that. 

oh nate my love. i’d get this trainwreck of a boy some therapy. while i hate that the catherine thing happened, things like that do happen all the time, and i’d be interested in sort of handling the aftermath of it in a responsible way. i would not have... a lot of serena’s arc and decisions (from what i can remember) were really random in this season. i’d have her break up with dan at some point. and vanessa would need a new subject for her short film, and she’d choose serena.

nate doesn’t really date anyone, this season. but he and jenny open up to each other abt having gay crushes on people who treat you like shit - jenny’s thing with agnes - nate rescues her when they’re taking those pictures in her flat and let’s say she doesn’t go back to agnes. instead of kissing her, nate talks to her instead, and tells her about carter, tells her about chuck. and jenny talks about her feelings for blair, her feelings for agnes. and both of them sort of go... “it sucks, but all we can do is try not to become the kind of people we hate, right?”

dan pines for nate. majorly. massively. obviously. i think the only person who really notices is blair, and this would lead to new hijinks and shenanigans. also!! i do not want chair in s2. maybe it can go there for a bit but definitely not to the extent in canon. i want blair to have the same moment of being unable to deny her cruelty / needing to be accountable that she did in that ‘age of dissonance’ play. and. this sounds fucky but i want the dan/rachel stuff to stay as it is, and later, in s4, for dan & serena to talk about rachel & ben respectively and be like ‘hey, this was a fucked up thing to happen to us, wasn’t it?’ 

i would also like to get to know blair’s “minions” better as people. i mean. they all seemed hella fascinating to me, and the show’s decision to make them superficial and unidimensional was very depressing.

season 3: hot garbage, throw canon away. when chuck goes away to paris or wherever, let him not come back. goodbye, dude! dan, blair & vanessa friendship at nyu is so, so important to me. also im losing my mind always at how vanessa and serena catch dan on that walk of shame and they’re both like ‘college is a time for experimentation!’ and nobody does anything even slightly bisexual (unless you count that threesome later, which, blah.) a serenessa / date dynamic in college would’ve been great. dan transferring to columbia like blair does and rooming with nate and just, the gayness of it all. dan & blair become really, really close, and d&b&v watch movies + go to art exhibits together and are all SO DAMN PRETENTIOUS. serena finds it sexy, nate finds it terrifying. 

the william stuff would be interesting if he were actually held accountable. like that man has no right being a doctor, and medical malpractice needs to be brought up. and jenny’s whole arc this season makes me so sad. i think it would’ve been interesting if she’d been a ‘queen’ and ruled alongside eric, and just, the two of them forcing people to be nice, sort of like they try to do with people who are mean to nelly in s2 i think it is? but also.. jenny out of constance is very good, and i think i mentioned that earlier, haha, whoops.

season 4 : serenessa breakup, for whatever reason, probably to do with the william fuckery, because i think vanessa would react in similar ways to nate (”serena, i know he’s your dad, but we have to do the right thing” / “it still wasn’t your call to make” / “he’s a certified doctor, serena, a man like that has no right -” / “god vanessa, you really don’t get it, do you?” ). uhhh i would actually... if i had to choose i would honestly go blairnessa >>>>> dair. i love how blair & vanessa can keep each other on their toes and hold each other accountable. like? blair’s classist or racist and dan’s just like, *smiles*. vanessa would actively be like ‘hey, stop that.’ (this is one of the few actual criticisms i have about d/b as a relationship, RIP.) 

(edited to add: yeah, i think blairnessa WOULD be a sustainable relationship, more abt that here! )

yes to the milo arc, but dan gets to keep milo (his friends threaten georgina and go all ‘you made him sign the certificate. don’t make us take you to court’ because i love these morally grey assholes but also because g DID trick dan into thinking milo was his and dan was ready to reshape his whole life around that kid which is more than georgina was willing to do. plus endgame: jack/georgina are not parents i want milo to have.) i would also have more of a rufus & dan fallout over the milo thing. i think rufus would be really nasty about it all tbh.

the dair arc for blair and vanessa! let the juliet stuff happen, but let it be less awful + let it be seen as Bad + let serena get help & not forgive her for it. let serena NOT date ben after, what the hell. i want d&s to talk about their shared feelings for high school teachers and to realise, in retrospect, as adults, that what happened was crossing lines. let blair and vanessa suddenly drop dan and do the movies + galleries stuff on their own. and dan’s like ??? but he’s busy being a parent with nate supporting him. dan’s drama is very much parenting things. there would be some nonsense involving nate’s family pushing back, because ‘we stood by while you dated him, nate, we thought it was a phase. but raising a child with another man? this is unacceptable.’ i would like nate to get disowned by the family, and need to find his own feet. and to get a REAL SHOT AT HAPPINESS away from that terrible environment.

season 5: i want this to be a good serena season. let her find her calling doing creative things. let her and carter travel the world. let her just be whoever she wants to be. let her and vanessa patch their friendship up. let her have an open relationship with carter, let her have a lot of sex with a lot of random people and not feel guilty about it. let her really really blossom. i want more eric! maybe he’s in london with jenny, and she’s working on her fashion stuff, and he’s realising that he really wants to be a counsellor. 

some time-skips, maybe. i really want to see dan’s whole thing of being a parent. sending milo to kindergarten and spending the whole time milo’s gone on edge and anxious about everything that could go wrong, while nate comforts him. let nate try to get a job because he no longer has a trust fund, and navigate everything that comes with that. let vanessa be there for him. why the fuck am i phrasing my sentences like this - can you tell that i studied physics once?? oh well.

blair & vanessa handling a lot of things. vanessa meeting harold!! vanessa’s parents being disapproving of blair, but ruby standing up for her. blair & vanessa planning their future properly. blair & vanessa babysitting milo and talking about kids. 

and there can be drama too, there should always be drama. but i would like wholesome stuff at the centre of it too, you know? the ivy/lola nonsense can go on in the background, i don’t actually care that much. as long as ivy doesn’t go around fucking people’s fathers for no understandable or discernable reason, i don’t really care lkdhlfdkhg. (it was just so inexplicable and so random!)

season 6: uh, i don’t know. this was a bad season for everyone in canon, except chuck. i would throw it all away. i would actually love if we had pre-series rufly instead: every time those two bring up their past together i’m like 👀 because it sounds like a dream. or focus entirely on jenny and eric and their life. i am obsessed with jenny and eric being... sort of queerplatonic, sort of like, best friends. there’s no romance and no sex between them (eric’s canonically gay, and jenny’s a lesbian because i said so) but i think the way jenny and eric are is very, very life partners in a way that isn’t romantic OR sexual. so they’d have a little place together and would support each other. and just. what are they up to now? also. kati, iz, penelope, hazel, nelly... what r they doing now? one of the few things i actually liked about s6 as it was was that nelly was that reporter and that she’d found her people in yale. nelly yuki getting a happy and fulfilling ending and being a successful woman was so good and we actually got a little bit of that. i’d like more of that, for the rest of the girls, you know?

[likesomekindofcheese]

BohRap Boys as Elementary Teachers!

An HC inspired by an anon suggesting this idea on @almightygwil​ blog and encouraged by @postercalum​ and @im-an-adult-ish​!

Joe, the Homeroom Teacher:

Joe would be a homeroom teacher and all the kids l o v e him. Don’t get me wrong, they love all of the guys, but Joe especially.

He would have all sorts of toys and play things out. His homeroom would be really colorful.

He would make things like getting in line a fun game, “Okay, if your favorite pizza topping is pepperoni, get in line! Now get to the line, but walk like you’re in peanut butter!”

Tells the funniest stories in class that makes everyone laugh.

Takes them on field trips to the Natural museum for the dinosaurs of course!!

Sometimes when he is explaining a basic math problem makes funny voices for the numbers to get them to have fun. “Oooo nooo! Don’t subtract me! I’m breaking up! NooooOOoooo!”

His kids would always want to hug him and not let him go, they always get huggy especially at the end of the school year.

Would come on colder days wearing sweater vests to where one Halloween all the kids decided to be “Mr. Mazzello” for trick or treat and came in to see a sea of ginger wigs and sweater vests and they took the cutest picture.

Rami, the Social Studies Teacher:

Rami would be so good at explaining history. Someone would say “Mr. Malek? I can’t understand what the textbook means, why did they get upset about taxing tea?” 

So he would say “what if someone asked for a hundred bucks from you every time you ate pizza?” and they would go “oh.”

He also comes up with fun little plays about history and encourages kids to dress up like their favorite person from history.

He would be more quiet, but somehow get those kids attention really well.

He has a signature “swirl” dance (like on the Ellen interview/game with RDJ for Dcotor Dolittle) that all the kids like to copy.

He understands how homework can be hard and stays after to help kids and even talks to them if they are anxious about a test.

He even talks about his own history and being Egyptian and one week teaches the kids all about ancient Egypt! They even color pictures of the hieroglyphs and reads them myths and makes pyramids for a craft and they love it!

Sometimes thinks of small gifts to give to shyer kids or kids who come from poorer homes and don’t have stuff or Christmas presents and they always love him for it.

Ben, the P.E. teacher:

Although Ben is extremely athletic, he knows there is only so much those kids can do. When the board suggests having all the kids run a whole mile he adamantly refuses. “They’re kids, not bloody Olympians!”

Instead, in PE, he comes up with walking a mile-they can run if they want to! Some even walk with him, he always keeps up with the slower kids.

Talks about how to make vegetables yummy- like noticing the colors and even ways to cook them for the older kids.

He even introduces fun dances- like waltzing or country dances or even bringing in an Irish dancer to introduce a little cieli to the kids with all the basic steps!

He teaches everyone a little bit about rugby and is so verbally supportive, especially with kids who aren’t as good at sports.

“See there! You got it to score! You’re doing so good!”

He has too much fun playing with the scooters and setting up the scooter course for the kids: though he always has little water bottles in the fridge for them if they need it.

Some of the little boys notice his biceps and try to imitate with flexing their muscles and it’s really cute! He would also teach the kids early on that their bodies are cool and worthy of being loved in some way.

“You don’t have to have all sorts of muscles here: your arms can do all sorts of things! See!”

Gwilym, the Librarian:

Gwil would fill the library with plants for the kids. Sometimes they take turns watering it. Every plant is named after a book character: Harry Potter, Anne of Green Gables, etc. and the kids love it.

His readings are really animated during story time and they adore it!

Plus he even hangs out after school to help teach kids to read a little bit better.

When they find out he’s Welsh (in a non Welsh school) he teaches them basic phrases, so when they gather to see him, he says “su’mae!” and they all say loudly “su’mae Mr. Lee!” and he almost cries at the sound.

He even gets them into Shakespeare at least for the stories and the different ways they can be done.

He always hosts the most fun book fairs and there are treats and games and they all love it. If a student has trouble buying a book he will secretly get it for them, “everyone should have a book they love” will be written on a note to the kid.

Has the best recommendations for kids if they can’t think of a book they want or need something like they just love! And he always talks to them about it and sees the passion in their eyes shine.

Some kids as gifts give him little dandelions or wildflowers from the yard and he has them pressed into books at home.

Of course all these, kids, like @almightygwil​, would fight over who was cooler and you would end of with the teacher of your choice!

Taglist: @queenlover05​ @stardust-killer-queen​ (I forgot to tag you at first bc I forgot and I’m not used to having more than one person want to be tagged and I am sorry, lovie!!!)

[elysicndrcvm]

━♡ guess the 23 YEAR OLD FEBRUARY baby just arrived to dallyeog! it makes sense, because CHU EUNHA is just as BEDAZZLING as the month of FEBRUARY. wait, why do they remind me of JACOB BAE? beyond that, they seemed JOYOUS and SAVVY upon first glance. i heard someone say they’re sort of DELICATE and QUIXOTIC though. i hope they get acquainted here in COMPLEX 1 / APARTMENT 0215 / FLOOR 3 ; HE seem(s) to have a lot going on with HIS job as a PATISSERIE OWNER/NUTRITIONAL SCIENCE STUDENT. ( ez, 21, she/they, gmt. )

     well hey there !! im ez but you fellow dallyeogers can call me ezzy, i have been in dallyeog before so some may remember me as having someone v different to my new bb i bring u now, i joined before with miss tam carmen !! anygays i return with this lil angel who i am all ‘ i say that’s my baby and i’m proud ’ over already even tho i literally came up with him like two days ago. you can find his pinboard here ( which btw i fuckeN love like he’s so aesthetic to me u go king ) and i made him a lil playlist which u can vibe to here. you can learn more about him under the cut but he’s a super soft-hearted gentle dove of a muse and quite...simple for me ?? sdhdh that’s not the right wording but U GET IT djjflg he isn’t super full of angst or trauma he’s just kinda viBIN livin his best life so that’s fun !! but ye without further ado: 

so as u kno from his app he owns a patisserie, it’s his lil babey and he is very dedicated to his craft and makin sure all his ideas for the place and the baked goods he sells are like rlly quirky and avant-garde. like he is so passionate about it u dont even KNOW, he tries to make sure most of the stuff on his menu is something like fun and new u wouldn’t get at just any old patisserie or cafe and that it’s super varied and also kinda aesthetic af? the place is very like trendy. it’s called patisserie d’elysian cause ya know he’s an extra biTCHH and proud.

he has three pupperino’s. all as adorable as each other, snickerdoodle is his golden lab and often ppl shorten it down to snickers, butterscotch is his dapple daschund pup, shortens the name to scotchie often. toulouse is his fancy toy poodle boi, shortens the name down as toto. if u are on the shortened name basis with his pups then u can consider urself one of his close pals. 

he’s actually adopted by his aunt but she raised him like she was his mother so that is what he considers her, she’s on his mother’s side but they are half-siblings. in terms of first name reasoning as well she just liked eunha as a name and didn’t even think about how it is traditionally for a female, she liked that it meant gift from heaven so it stuck. his father is still around, he’s just quite elderly so it felt like a better living situation for him to be raised primarily by his auntie. unfortunately his mother has passed on but no tragic story, she just went peacefully in old age. 

he dyes his hair quite often, it’s currently like a really pastel blue with black streaks consistently throughout like lil ones so it looks super cool. but he’s also had it be a more electric blue, lilac, and a duck egg kinda faded silvery blue. it’s naturally dark brunette. has brown eyes kind of a hazel hue. 

his style is kinda androgynous ig?? he just lives for soft retro fashion, lots of color in his wardrobe but also lots of tapered short and t-shirt fits frequented, sweater vests, rolled up jeans, high skater boi socks, soft jumpers with shirts, shirts in bright colours or satiny texture worn over plain white t-shirts, cardigans, pastel denim jackets, jeans with printed patterns on like clouds, flowers etc, favors yellow and blues. sometimes does eye makeup, occasionally wears heels bc he’s a baddie or super heeled boots/chunky shoes. 

obsessed with music, can play violin and guitar. he’s a big mitski and rina sawayama fanatic, likes anything that sounds peaceful or calming or has like a good fun vibe to it. also likes the trademark gay icons like carly rae jepsen, lorde, etc. he’s not ashamed. obsessed with mamma mia movies. but also likes rap which is rlly funny cause its like the bad bitch female rappers only and like he’ll listen to it while arranging his sock drawer or making his bed or something ajdjdj it’s like hype anthems for being a baddie and a hoe and he’s just doing his night sleepy routine adkfkf. 

showers, blankets, music, baked goods especially bagels are his happy places. 

very much a sensitive lil romanticist, falls in ‘love’ like five times a day, he just likes to giggle and smile around pretty people and admire the artwork hnghdh, he’s like yeARNS though ya know?? like he’s all i will flirt by making prolonged eye contact, i made you a playlist, this song makes me think of you etc. it’s either memes as flirting with him or elaborate love letters u never know what ur gonna get akdkd. 

awful sense of humour, loves his friends more than anything on earth except his pups, would fully live in a huge house of just like his pups and all his closest buds for all eternity. likes fruits way too much, enjoys puns about fruits way too much. milkshakes, sushi, orange hues and bus rides are some of his absolute favorite simple pleasures of life. clouds, flowers, salt lamps, the sunrise over the sea, skateboarding, fresh soda, teddy bears, busy street markets, parasols, fish tanks with exotic fish, sorbet, bike riding, polaroids, record players, rain at night against floor to ceiling windows with a fresh steaming pot of tea on the desk beside it and warm fresh sheets from the laundry on his bed, ponds, skateboarding. all little joys in life that give him like the biggest pleasure dopamine hit in the world. 

his cousin actually owns a florists so he has flowers just littering his apartment like a lot and it just looks like he has ten million suitors from the late eighteenth century attempting to court him but no all these flowers are from him to him or worse from his aunt djfjg she sends him some for valentines every valentines, pls help him, pls send him flowers. 

studies nutritional science and he fucken hates it. do not ask him shit cause he doesn’t KNOW OKAY? he doesn’t understand it either. he took it because he needed something to go alongside the passion for baking that was a real ‘qualification’/job so that is the only reason he’s doing it. no point doing a baking degree after all when he’s already a baker with a business, he’s super young still he gotta keep his prospects open. so YAH. he’d rather be doing culinary arts but eh. nutritional science sounded better and more logic based. the real miracle is he still gets top grades all the time even tho he spends his life like wtf am i even doing is this even legit akdkdk. school is the worst thing in the world for him watch his mood instantly deflate the second its brought up. 

despite being a quixotic, he’s a lil afraid of intimacy. like oh god does he love it, those small touches and acts of affection u kno? the subtle things that normally go unnoticed, eye contact, brushing of hands, linking of little fingers, rubbing a thumb, kissing eyelids or foreheads or palms or shoulders in little gentle pecks, back massages and rubs or finger tracing patterns absent-minded, shoulder massages, laying your head on someone’s shoulder or on their lap, knocking knees together, exchanging a small glance only the two of you get before bursting into laughter, smiling into kisses, napping together, having blankets placed over you warm and fresh, or towels put ready like it, someone making you something they know you like a lot. that’s his sHIT. but like he’s terrified still, someone skimming their fingers on his skin makes his breath hitch like he’s a scandalized and alarmingly aroused victorian woman sjdjd. he’s literally still a virgin, he hasn’t even had his first kiss okay my baby is delicate be gentle with him akdkd but he still LIKES PASSION AIGHT kfkf. 

real soft spoken, honey tinted voice like i shit u not this boy talks like he’s an angel sent from heavens above to guide you to the paradisaical garden of eden or some shit akdkd. ur gonna fall in love with eunha’s voice before u even fall in love with any other part of him like his adorable beaming smile or stunning eyes akdkf. 

has dance parties around his room when getting ready in the morning, listens to bella’s lullaby unironically yes from twilight yes u heard right, bit of a himbo streak sometimes in his obliviousness djfjf. quite silently subtly funny actually much like jacob himself. 

he is gay, afraid of driving, cannot do math, blanks out often and he is valid for all of those things. has a collection of cartoon and disney animal movie dvds. has a dream notebook. always has blue painted nails in some kinda shade. 

does not enjoy turning in assignments bc he is scared he’ll fail, avoids looking at his grades for weeks after they’re released and hates knowing that they’re out. 

cannot dance, dances often. collects vintage stuff esp clothes and mostly sweaters. likes midnight trips to corner stores and fields where he can just lay and look at the stars. makes friends rlly easily but has super bad performance anxiety. cannot ever have a messy room like even the tiniest bit messy. even like clothes being stacked on a chair instead of away. 

bakes peanut butter, banana and choc chip muffins (they r called monkey bites normally) whenever he’s super stressed. if u want to cheer him up when he’s anxious or stressed then u should give him french lavender honey, chia seeds and caramelized pear on toast/bagel. it is his comfort food. he fancii when he needs a pick me up. treat urself and all that. 

[minteyedoll]

can i ask for an RFA(+V and Saeran) x MC wherein she's sort of a shut in or maybe just introverted MC that led her to be friendless? perhaps one day she just realized "wow! im actually lonely outside RFA/offline haha rip" quarantine got me thinkin so.. );

Haha SAME. I have like ONe friend I really talk to but even then I feel like I am bothering her so I just talk with the RFA 😔. I hope I did this right and that you enjoy it <3 

P.S: I had a hard time thinking how to name this, I hope it is okay 

RFA+Saeran, introverted MC with few to none friends 

*Yoosung*

He is also an introvert so there is never too problem with the both of you preferring to stay home and enjoy each other's company for a while

In the beginning, he wanted to push himself and be extroverted, go to dates everywhere and talk with everyone since he thought that what you wanted, and you won't believe how relieved he was to learn you also preferred to stay inside in your own world, just the two of you

It has become a given that you will always go with him to his university events since he gets very anxious when he is there alone, not that you love to be there but it is better when it's the two of you

Same with the RFA parties, it is not weird for the rest of the members to notice that you both are nowhere to be seen because you are far away from people after you finished greeting all the guests

He admits that sometimes he felt strange since the only time he got to hang out with someone was at the RFA parties, but now he feels so much better since he loves to hang out (or in jsjsjs) with you

There nothing strange for you to have friends through the internet, most of his friends he met them playing LOLOL and if you like games too, he can introduce you to them and have your own online squad

*Zen*

He is used to being surrounded by people, and talk to those people, and be admired and complimented and charming and...

He didn't stop to think that you didn't like that kind of environment, when you started dating he thought you were just nervous about his fans (or haters) talking about you

But even when they were so supporting you seemed extremely nervous and would be even worse if he left you by yourself in a party or with his friends

He would eventually catch up to the fact that you don't like to ve surrounded by strangers and would try to introduce you to other people hoping that would make you less anxious

It obviously didn't work, and you didn't want him to try any more of that stuff, so you opened to him about how you felt around other people

He had trouble understanding why you would have trouble talking with people, you are so beautiful that they should be honored to be in your presence.

Contrary to Yoosung, it is easy for Zen to have a more substantial group of friends which was overwhelming for you most of the time.

He also became a little bit confused when it came to your online friends, since he was more used to hanging out with people after rehearsals.

But overall, he tried to ask you what he could do to make you more comfortable, and would stay stuck at you the whole time at parties if that is what you wanted.  

*Jaehee*

She wasn't one to have may friends either. In school, she was always busy studying or preparing herself for woking. and now that she worked for Jumin she had to decline every invitation to go drink after work since she always stayed extra hours.

She learned to be happy with herself and just watch musicals. However, sometimes it became lonely and logged to hang out with friends and laugh all night.

In that sense, she was very happy when you came around and the whole RFA revived, she felt as if had people to rely on once more.

She is not so used to talk to people outside of her work so she totally gets how it can be difficult for you to form new relationships.

But there is no problem since you two can stay home after a long day of work and watch Zen's musicals together

*Jumin*

When he first saw texting all day long he thought you were in the messenger listening to Zen brag or something, but he realized that the number of chatrooms didn't match the time you spent on your phone  

You explained that you had some online friends and he thought your social skills were pretty god since you managed to be friends with people on the internet

It was only until he took you a dinner party with him that he got confused. If he ever left to talk to an acquaintance you would disappear from the salon only for him to find you hidden in a quiet spot

"Is everything alright my dear? You look a little uncomfortable".

"Yeah, it's okay Jumin, I just get a little anxious when I am around so many people and know nobody".

From that moment on he tried to glue to you the rest of the party, but if it still too much for you he will gladly leave the party and take you home so that you can rest, after all, there is nothing he enjoys more than a quiet evening with you.

*Saeyoung*

KING OF ONLINE FRIENDS

When he is not busy(or is just procrastinating) he likes to talk and troll people in forums, always covering his trace as the hacker he is.

However, even if he wanted to, he has to immediately erase any evidence that he existed, so he can't really maintain a friendship

Tbh the only civilian he knows outside the RFA is Tom, and even with that, they not meet very often.

He knows who you've talked to and who are your online friends, it's not about possessiveness or anything, but he had to make sure nothing around you was suspicious.

Due to his work in the agency, he had to learn how to talk and charm people, but in reality, he preferred not to interact too much with others as a result of trying to always be invisible.

So he was kind of relieved that he didn't need to be introduced to a group of your friends.

However, he knows it can be difficult to feel alone and lose that physical contact with the world, so he promised himself that he would become more than your boyfriend, your best friend and be there for you in any way possible because you deserve it

*Saeran*

After he recovered and felt comfortable enough to incorporate into society again, he was still scared of not being enough for you.

He was so grateful for you coming into his life, but he was scared you would want to do all these things with other people, to go to parties and travel and drink and, he was not ready to form new bonds yet.

One day you asked if he would be alright with you introducing him as your boyfriend, and don't get me wrong, he was super proud and happy to be with you. But he expected to be faced with a whole 20 people group when he pictured your friends because, well, you are amazing and he is sure everyone you ever talk to will want to be your friend

So when he was greeted by just one person in your favorite cafe, he was... relieved.  And then it clicked.

He remembered that you are the one that understands him the better, the one that knows how he feels and can comfort him. And then he understood that maybe it was because you felt the same way sometimes

*V*

He knows how to make his way through a conversation, and even if he doesn't like it, he can get away with small talk.

With what he has gone through, he has learned to appreciate true people, and will also appreciate your friends. Even if you have never seen them, he understands you are special enough to make a connection while being physically apart.

If most of your connections are online, he would be glad to know them either way, to talk to them even.

But overall he is happy that he knows most things around you and that you are close to the people he cares for and appreciates.

Well I hope you liked it, and I am sorry for the delay I have been feeling down since school finished 

Anyways, feel free to check my masterlist and my rules to make request, love you. 

[lgcsehoon]

hi hello it’s blossom ( junkyu’s mun ) back here with my second muse, my other son, han sehoon !! v v excited to bring him, i have been planning him for a good two ??? weeks and now here i am bringing him to life.... i am so sorry in advance he’s not the... nicest.... he’s just... self destroying and holds in a lotta feelings,,, but that being said !! i won’t ramble too much so i’ll get right into it - han sehoon, twenty five and he wants to act !! loves it sm, wants to do that for the rest of his life ( you’ll see why below ) and you can peep him more below !! if you’d like to plot, just give this a like and i’ll slide into your ims and i will reply to everyone v soon, if not tonight then tomorrow bcs it’s 1am here HHHH !!

stats / plots

he’s the older brother of allie ( @lgcallie��� ) !!!

originally he was born as han hyungsik, but once he was old enough he had his name legally changed to han sehoon

but if u know his old name..... don’t call him it or he’ll get angy ( unless ur close w him )

from a young age he’s always been v protective of allie, especially with her heart condition

she had always been the best thing in his life and as the older brother, he wanted to look out and after her so when she went to america, sehoon felt v ????? lost, worried, anxious, uncertain bcs that’s his baby sister!!! he just rlly wanted her to be okay

obvs their parents split up and it was rlly hard on sehoon, he took it really hard bcs he was dealing with his own things and felt like he couldn’t talk to anyone, would constantly hear their parents arguing, hadn’t seen allie or spoken to her

but around this time, this was when sehoon really started to change, became a lot less talkative, more reserved, quiet, just sort of became like a black sheep kinda??? his parents were arguing and allie wasn’t around and he couldn’t talk to anyone so it just took a toll on him

when allie returned and the split became final, sehoon decided to go with their mother bcs he got along better with her than he did their father.... kinda regrets it bcs he’s not fond of their mothers new guy but what could he do about it huh ?????

around the time allie returned from america was when you could visibly see that sehoon wasn’t the same

went through a lot in high school that he never rlly told anyone about ( black sheep kinda guy, snide comments, questioning himself and who he is, what he wanted to do, didn’t rlly have anyone, pretty depressed and alone uno, it’s rooted pretty deep )

he’s always been a drama and movie fanatic.. rlly loved watching them when he was younger and has done ever since

loves it sm that he didn’t hesitate to take up any drama or acting related course in high school

fun fact he loves acting bcs he finds comfort in acting as another person/character..... finds it peaceful to be someone else,,,

auditioned for legacy in janurary 2018 so he’s been a trainee for three years as of this month!!!!

tbh he’s.... pretty intimidating, not known to be the Nicest guy out there just bcs he’s so ?? blunt and honest, v detached and tends to close himself off when / if he ever shows signs of vulnerability and weakness and such

bcs tbh stuff like that scares the Hell out of him considering he’s not use to it having closed himself off for so long, it’s just.. what he’s use to ( someone help him break out of this habit!!!!!!!!!! )

he’s just.... a guy with a whole lotta feelings n emotions suppressed for a long time and he doesn’t know how to change that or anything

this is a mess pls forgive me

[thecourtsknight]

for that dnd ask im gonna throw alot so :3c 21 and 7 for taeral, 58 and 41 for quill, 2 and maybe 47 for alexandra, and maybe just a little 69 (nice) for luther.

aahHh thank you reed ; v ; !!! okay lets see here.

Taeral:

12: If they were a potion, what would it look like? (Color, glass shape, smell, etc.)

Taeral as a potion would be thick oil, a couple of leaves yanked from things like banana leaf plants and vanilla. It would look like a low, deep greenish colour with flecks of white and gold inside and it would smell of burnt wood and sea salt.

7: How impulsive is your character?

Not very surprisingly! Taeral tries to think things out before doing them, he is much more a fan of having a plan that just going and doing things on a whim and anything sudden or unexpected, despite he can handle it, does tend to stress him out a fair bit. Unless it's an actual situation where he can't lean against a wall n think of course, then he'll be as impulsive as he likes, but usually thats not a natural reaction to him. Plans before stupid, sudden shit, please and thank you.

Quill:

58: What’s a habit that needs to be broken?

Honestly I'd say Quill's baddest habit is not talking about things and bottling stuff; its a little funny because Quill is kind of an open book so with most things that bother her she usually comes clean pretty quick. As my dear friend Jayson one said, Quill trying to bottle things is like pouring water into a thimble. But the one thing she struggles with is when someone pisses her off or does something she dislikes that makes her specifically hurt or angry she has weird hang ups coming forward to talk about.

I think its something about appearing weak or feeling bad about being hurt by something but she's working on it. It's something that certainly needs to be sorted less another Florence situation arises but thankfully she's doing better with it now.

41: What’s a texture/sound your character cannot stand?

Interesting... hmn. I feel like the sound of like- blacksmith's hammers on metal makes her twitch? Like the consistent plink, plink, plink sound. I also feel in that case the sound of water dripping would drive her fucking insane if left long enough, she loves rain but that has layers to it. It has texture its hitting so many different things and the rhythm is uneven but with a single drip like water dripping from a roof she would hate. Her ears are super sensitive so anything rhythmic sounds would drive her fucking nuts.

Alexandra:

2: Do they consider themselves an optimist? Pessimist? Realist? What are they like in actuality?

Alexandra, herself, would probably consider herself an outright optimist. Even in situations where she's utterly terrified and anxious beyond belief and truly believe theres no way out she will always raise her voice and keep her crew in good spirits, even if she cannot put herself in that place and believe it fully herself she understands its important to have share the minuscule amounts of belief with the people shes working with for it to grow and spread.

I want to say truthfully that shes stuck somewhere between realist and optimist but sticks firmly more to the side of optimistic. She's always looking on the silver lining for things and its very unlike her to struggle in finding even thinly stretched ones. She does her best.

47: Do they consider themselves funny? How do they use humor?

Hmnn... Alex tends to consider herself vaguely funny, she knows she can make people laugh and thats important but she doesn't consider herself like overly hilarious. Folks like Cornelius she'd consider more hilarious than her, better at telling and delivering jokes and sarcasm.

Humor for her often comes off as dry sarcasm with a hint of a smile or a good, healthy amount of teasing but the way she would use it would usually be a show of comfort. She does her best to read folks to make sure making jokes isn't an appropriate thing during the time; but its not too uncommon for her to use humor to make light of a situation that might be difficult for her.

Luther:

69(nice): Which do they value more? Journey or Destination?

OUGHHGHh this is a hard one! Luther's job is being a historian, specifically researching and making information about cultures and places available to people. He loves learning traditions and the ways people did things so long ago and hows its been translated, tweaked and upgraded, had its own little handful spice added to it over the years to make it tied to its roots yet still feel like its progressed and traveled with people throughout the ages.

And in saying this, as much as the destination, finishing a breakthrough and having hard work pay off or even just going through something with someone close to him all for it to end in a satisfying way is a good and wonderful thing. The strides, moments and things that caused that to happen are what make it memorable in its own way and I feel like for Luther's case it'd be the journey.

Sure, he can say that he found out something that led to a breakthrough and ended up discovering something that might otherwise have been missing for years but the time leading up to that, figuring things out with friends, going places and seeing things, the times of laughing and struggling through what seem like impossible puzzles is something he'd hold close and relate to the accomplishment more than the accomplishment itself.

[fairycosmos]

Bro my therapist was the same like I’d talk about something and she’d just say “sounds like you have anxiety about that” like yes bitch that’s why I’m here??? Can u give me some coping mechanisms or something??? Anyway I know it’s not always easy/possible but I do hope you get some actual meaningful conversations from her or a different therapist soon. Sending u love

SFJTEX wtf like ???? idk if it's some sort of tactic they do but thank u for stating the obvious and reiterating why i'm here. not like i live with my own symptoms every day or something :) i just don't get it like what your response is supposed to be?? ya.....i am very anxious about it......what now. honestly i feel like mine just says stuff like that to fill up the time. i told her the other day about how my family r fuckin assholes and they always pick at my insecurities in a passive aggressive way n she was just like 'ah that generation never realizes when they're being offensive.' bitch they know what they're doing now can i have some coping mechanisms pls orrrr 😭 ANYWAY im really sorry to hear you've had a bad experience as well. it's literally the most discouraging thing ever. i hope u were able to move on from yours or find help regardless, you deserve it. thank you v much angel 💕 honestly im thinking of just paying out of pocket for one even tho i straight up can't afford it lmfao but idk what else to do at this point. sending love your way!! 💖