#but meg shaped 😍

[derangedbookworm]

ok guys, here are some of my marauders headcanons. they're pretty modern (mentions of modern artists, technology, and media), and are not hogwarts/canon specific. i think the only ships i directly mention are dorlene, marylily, jily, and rosekiller, but they also aren't specific to any ship. i'll also add picrews of how i imagine each of them.

also, hey! if you don't agree with some of these, that's ok! please do not come into my tags or ask box hating just bc you don't agree! thank you!

(tw: colleen hoover mentions 😔)

~marlene: -lesbian -irish (galway or derry) (she and peter grew up together, and were childhood best friends) -i also love filipino marlene (i literally cannot decide anything) -very blonde hair -has hetechromia (one blue eye and one green eye) -she has cystic acne (dorcas thinks it's so hot) (me too dorcas) -LOVES messy buns with her entire being -cannot sing for the life of her -girl in red -renee rapp -5'8 -she and dorcas like to match outfits -her favorite color is orange -most septum piercing to ever septum pierce

~mary: -pansexual ~colombian (she speaks spanish) (her and james talk shit all the time) ~black (her skin is really dark) -has rosacea (you can't really see it bc her skin is dark, but when it gets hot she gets RED) -she likes wearing her natural hair (in the summer she gets protective styles though) -hazel eyes -showtunes and chappell roan -5'7 -waitress and wicked are her favorite musicals (she thinks glenda and elphaba should have been lesbians) (doesn't everybody?) -loves experimenting with makeup -yellow is her favorite color -wants to wear a yellow sun dress and go frolic in a meadow (real)

~lily: -bisexual -has curtain bangs for sure -scottish or irish (probably scottish) (and she speaks gaelic) -cheek dimples -she's a ginger so she freckles super easily (they're mary's favorite physical attributes of lily's) -anne of green gables (gilbert and anne are such a jily varient) -ambidextrous -she can sing really well -5'6 -PLUS SIZED LILY MY LOVE (i feel very strongly about this) (she's my baby) (i love her so much) -green eyes -six, waitress, and ride the cyclone are her favorite musicals -olivia rodrigo and maisie peters -loves experimenting with makeup -wears very boring clothes (never wears graphic tees or anything like that) (dresses like a beige mom most of the time) (it's ok though) (we forgive her) -her make up always eats (it has not missed once) (her eyeshadow and eyeliner skills are unmatched) -chappell roan

~dorcas: -lesbian -has a very wide nose (marlene worships it, so i had to give it an honorary mention) -5'10 -sza -wears a few different styles, but box braids are her favorite -doesn't actually wear that much makeup (probably just does mascara and eyeliner) -eyebrow piercing -BILLIE EILISH -very dark brown eyes (almost black) -lets pandora try different makeup looks on her and dress her up all the time -naturally very clear skin (marlene is jealous)

~pandora: -pansexual/queer/demisexual (i literally cannot choose) -probably polyamorous as well (she just loves) -black (lightskinned) -she and evan both have vitiligo -5'5 -blonde dreads (her and evan both) -loves those star and heart shaped pimple patches (she wears them even if she doesn't have a pimple) -pink doc martens and those valentines converse -either pheobe bridgers, penelope scott, gracie abrams, or ppcocaine, meg thee stallion, nicki minaj (and there's no in between) -sza -strawberries are her favorite food (she LOVES them) (wears clothes with strawberry patterns, watched strawberry shortcake growing up, strawberry flavored candy is her favorite) -refuses to wear wireless earbuds (1. she's scared one would fall out and she'd lose it) (2. she likes the aesthetic of wired ones better) -autism -light brown eyes -tooth gap (😍) -rock collection

~evan: -gay/asexual (i can't decide) -vitiligo -ocd -i love trans evan as well as cis evan -5'10 -black (lightskinned) -he and pandora have matching jewellery and he wears it all the time -the best brother EVER tbh -would literally kill someone who looked at panda wrong -snake bite piercings (he got them as a dare but ended up loving them) (barty also loves them) (they're so bad for your teeth though 😔) -his favorite color is pink but he pretends it's light blue (he's fooling no one) -blonde dreads -light brown eyes -deviated septum (he hates it but barty loves it) -nirvana, korn, and slipknot

~barty: -pansexual or unlabeled -italian -mullet (the underside is died neon green, and the top is black with some green highlights) -6'2 -raised catholic -BLUE eyes (seriously, someone get this man some brown contacts) -wears those collar chokers unironically (evan secretly loves it) -piercings everywhere (eyebrows, bridge, septum, tongue, ears)(evan won't let him get an albert though) (he's afraid it would get infected/heal wrong) -his favorite color is dark forest green -black clothes (he doesn't own any other color istg) -graphic tees and wife beaters -ripped black skinny jeans -black doc martens but he colors the yellow lining in with sharpie bc he doesn't like it -low-key kind of emo -metalhead but secretly enjoys all genres of music -ethel cain (was raised queer and catholic) -mother mother -mama's boy -him and evan are so fucking freaky (it's actually insane)

~regulus: -gay -autistic (got the good at school autism) -chronic insomnia -5'9 -loves oscar wilde -him and remus DESPISE colleen hoover (me too) -wireless headphones (probably beats bc he's rich) -half-deaf in his right ear, and no one knows why or how -left-handed but was forced to write with his right so he uses his right

-the original sad boi poetry writer -french -gray eyes -gets hot super easily and turns red -but has poor circulation in his hands (he's so me) -hozier -paris paloma (no one knows, don't ask) -ethel cain -loves greek mythology (his favorites are icarus, and pyramus and thisbe) (he just loves doomed love) (i may be projecting a little) -evan and barty have asked him for a threesome at least once -on earth we're briefly gorgeous, the picture of dorian gray, the song of achilles, and a good girl's guide to murder

~james: -pansexual -bpd -adhd or audhd -6'1 -desi (monty) and latino (effie) (i couldn't decide so now he's both ❤) -only wears gold jewelry -speaks spanish -listens to traditional music and abba -taylor swift and hozier -super smart but got burnt out by the time he was 13/14 -bluey and paw patrol (tell me i'm wrong) (this man would eat up paw patrol) (marshall and chase would be his favorites) (and everyone loves bluey) -has the best singing voice of the group -a singular lobe piercing -his favorite color is red -VERY long lashes (the girls are so jealous) -scared of deep bodies of water and abandonment (omg reggie?) -prettiest hazel eyes you've ever seen -can dance really well -red converse -big pants, little shirt typa guy

~sirius: -bisexual or demisexual -french -gray/blue eyes -anxiety disorder and seasonal depression -cptsd -5'8/5'9 (he's shorter than regulus) (i have decided it) -freckles that only come out in the summer -poor circulation in his feet -left-handed -black converse and doc martens -draws on his converse -has a tattoo of the leo constellation on his chest (right above his heart) (☺) -is math and science smart -can't write for the life of him -pheobe bridgers, boygenius, conan gray, and olivia rodrigo -hozier -metallica and dream theatre -band t-shirts and ripped black skinny jeans -leather bracelets -double lobe, septum, and lip piercings

~remus: -gay -welsh -dyslexic -very tan skin and freckles -scared of heights -english and history smart -colleen hoover's biggest hater (real) -6'4 -scoliosis -chronic migraines -ren (go listen to him rn, he's amazing) -david bowie -brown eyes (hazel or dark brown, depending on his mood) -hates red velvet cake but loves chocolate (?) -greek mythology (likes medusa, and achilles and patroclus) -grandpa sweaters and cardigans -levi jeans and fuck-boy pajama pants -sleeper build -awkward as hell -fucking loser (and we love him for it) -bde -song of achilles, they both die at the end, the fault in our stars, the invisible life of addie larue, the picture of dorian gray, and the seven husbands of evelyn hugo

~peter: -omnisexual/straight/unlabeled -irish (galway or derry) -or german -learning disability -anxiety disorder -5'7 -plus sized -his hair is almost brown but still kinda dirty blonde -green/hazel eyes -favorite color is yellow or orange -probably listens to basic white girl music, or rap (idk which one😭) -like, he's either listening to taylor and ariana or he's listening to kendrick and tupac (i don't make the rules 🤷) (both are great anyways so it doesn't really matter) -wears button up shirts and khakis (his parents were super religious and proper growing up, and he hasn't been able to kick the habit) -loves christmas but hates new years -would be fantastic in american football (trust me on this one) (he's a little short but he'd do great) -he's an only child, but he grew up in a more suburban area, so he had lots of neighbors (marlene) -his parents struggled to conceive, and he was a rainbow baby after 2-3 miscarriages (he and james are kinda similar in that sense)

[fandom-hoarder]

S7 pregnant Sam going into labor while at the mental hospital during The Born Again Identity 👀👀👀

😱😱😱😱😱😱 anon, you are after my own heart 😍

Hallucifer taunting Sam the whole pregnancy-- about whether he's even really pregnant; about whether the baby is really Dean's; about how fucked up and fucked over this kid will be; about how Sam's body is insufficient; about how Sam wants it to be Lucifer's anyway, doesn't he; about how Sam let Lucifer in---

And Sam can't take it anymore. He's trying so hard to make it long enough to have this baby---maybe she'll be real enough to fix him. But he needs sleep so bad and he hasn't been able to eat and he's so strung out nothing seems real anymore but Lucifer. He leaves the motel just to take a walk---curb walk, to promote labor, or at least wear him out---but it turns into yet another perpetual lurch for distance between him and Hallucifer. Sam still says yes to the drug dealer, because he's desperate; and whether or not the baby is real, he figures pills are the least of its problems---

And when even that doesn't work, and Sam ends up in the hospital after walking into traffic---with soft cuffs holding him to the bed as they tend his injuries and check the baby's vitals; CPS worker waiting in the wing with the cop that accompanied him in---Lucifer laughs hysterically about the awful thing Sam has done to "our baby." And Sam wants to gag, but doesn't even have the energy to vomit.

When Dean finally finds him, he's pissed about the security detail on Sam's room, but he's also pissed about the pills and his rant turns into Lucifer's matter of fact commentary on how much easier Dean's life would be without Sam and this baby. It doesn't stop until Dean presses hard into the bandage on Sam's palm, and Sam blinks at him, trying to see him clearer than Lucifer. When Dean sets off, promising to find Sam a healer, kissing Sam's forehead and his belly like it might be the last time, Lucifer congratulates Dean on the perfect excuse to leave. 'Don't worry, Dean, I've got it covered. Looks like I'm the man of the house, now,' Lucifer says with his cutesy little shrug.

Sam doesn't really notice his contractions at first. He's in so much pain and fatigue they don't register. But when he's helping Marin, she notices in the middle of his episode---how tight his belly is getting in regular intervals; how even the shape of it changes; the altered rhythm of his breathing. Sam lights her brother's bracelet on fire as Lucifer pulls a bloody umbilical cord from Sam's body like a mime with a rope, and the next thing Sam knows the orderlies are holding him down, his throat hurts from screaming, and they're telling him his water broke.

They make him keep the soft cuffs on--hands and feet--through the onset of labor, despite how much he begs to be able to walk around or even move his legs. The pain isn't even that bad, comparatively, so it doesn't really matter that they don't give him anything for it; but Sam is restless and scared, and the alarms on his vitals start shrieking when a black-eyed nurse grins up at him and tells him to push on the next contraction.

They turn off the machines, and it's just Sam's screams of NO down an empty corridor as he tries not to push but his body bears down anyway.

Sam swears the baby is born in a flash of unnatural light, and Lucifer holds up their horned, yellow-eyed child and says, in Dean's voice, "Sammy, look at our perfect baby girl."

"No! No, no, no," Sam panics, dread filling him, trying to scramble away as he swells with milk and Lucifer brings the sharp-toothed baby closer.

Then another Lucifer is holding him down, and Sam's pain burns a path through him, seeking its way out. And then it's not Lucifer touching him---it's Cas. And it's not Lucifer holding Sam's demon baby, it's Dean holding their blue-eyed, bald daughter.

"Dean?!" Sam exclaims, but before he can breathe in relief, Dean's handing him their baby and helping Meg restrain Cas as he tries to attack Sam and the baby.

"Don't kill him!" Sam begs---he still can't find it in himself to hate Cas for what's happened and he doesn't deserve to die for what he's hallucinating. "It's just Lucifer. It's not his fault!"

"Not his fault?! Sam---"

"Hey!" Meg interrupts. "It doesn't matter, we still might need him." She gives Dean a significant look, and Sam frowns, wondering what deal Dean made with her just to save him.

The thought scares him, but not as much as it floods him with love to realize Dean really had saved him---again; still.

They barely get Castiel restrained in a straitjacket with angel warding before Sam has to push out the afterbirth, and the bloody mess of it is nothing like the things Lucifer had been showing him. He realizes they still need to clamp the umbilical cord and cut it, and Meg suggests that she can take care of that for them. Sam all too easily imagines the ways a demon might want to 'take care' of it.

"We're good " Dean says, in sync with Sam, and grabs the clamps and scissors.

They leave the hospital without registering the live birth of babygirl "Smith," dodging CPS and the cops easily thanks to Castiel's earlier smiting, but stop at another hospital a couple states away to get Sam and the baby checked out. Despite the fact it's been nearly ten days without sleep, Sam still can't seem to let himself sleep until they've made it there and Dean's warded the place for demons.

The next three days, Sam barely wakes up for anything more than eating and nursing the baby. Dean tries to let him sleep through a couple feedings, but she cries instead of taking the bottle. So Sam wakes up to Dean helping their daughter latch onto his tit a few times. He's too exhausted to even make a show of complaining.

[rainmono]

Interests: Books

Point Horror collection/Goosebumps and all the others: Best book collection(s) I own, collecting them over the years really shaped me as a person, I love the chilling stories told by such amazing writers and don't get me started on the book covers..

The Mediator series by Meg Cabott: I love so many different trilogies Meg has written but this one in particular realllly is my favourite😍, she is one of my favourite writers and I love how detailed and badass her main characters are especially Suze in the mediator, every single book of the Meditator series is amazing and I hope to god it never gets adapted into a show because nobody could do this series justice.

Interview with the vampire trilogy by Anne Rice: I love ALL of Anne's books and was so upset when I heard she had passed, she has left a legacy behind and I simply loved the unique adaptions that have followed the books including this year's show. In depth characters and deep deep plot just my kinda thing.

The Sandman by Neil Gaiman: Neil is a legend and has countless of amazing books but the sandman book/graphic novel is 10000% my favourite of them all. The characters, the lore, the art. Just beautiful.

Keeper of the lost cities by Shannon Messenger: A much lighter carefree fantasy trilogy that I stumbled upon and accidentally became obsessed with, usually fantasy isn't my thing but this one is AMAZING I recently just got the newest book in the series and can't wait to read...

Virginia Andrews books.. A LOT of ppl criticise her works and I can understand why.. she has veryyyy dark books and I probably started reading them WAY to young but I can't help but love them and her writing style was incredibly unique and I will never part with my collection.

The picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde was such a beautiful book and I felt so speechless by the end it really made me think deeply and its Oscar Wilde, who was a master of literature and poetry. What more is there to be said?

Jacqueline Wilson THE OG, the first books I ever read were hers and to this day my collection of her books grow, her books remind me of my childhood whilst also touching on the issues young teens face, she will always have a special place in my heart.

that is most of the most influential books I have read/own. I hope you enjoyed this brief analysis, please do reach out if you have recommendations or opinions to share :))))