#but that will be later. too complicated

[mpreg-ask-blog]

Are you the only one expecting or are there others like you who are pregnant?

Alastor’s the only expecting…for now.

Unless people want another pregnancy to happen -can’t blame them since it would fit the title of the blog- in which case send in requests and I’ll make a poll for the most popular ones.

[egophiliac]

Since book 7 part 5 (the part where we meet Meleanor/Maleanor 👀) is coming to EN this month, i would love to see your take on lilia’s proposal to meleanor! i mean they were like little kids right? it couldn’t have been that serious…i think the only reason she even brought it up again is because she could tell lilia still genuinely loved her…(even if he didn’t realize it himself?) but, oh well! Let’s think about silly childhood shenanigans to numb the pain! ^_^ (orz)

oh shit?! get ready for a doozy guys, it's comiiiiiing ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

I chickened out of posting the whole thing (look, I get VERY carried away when it comes to these wacky kids and their Tragedy), but I do believe that it probably ended with Lilia getting embarrassed and just shoving the first thing he sees into his mouth to try and cover for it.

(we're just lucky it wasn't a frog this time)

[cometblaster2070]

ranting for a bit because the entire scene where elphaba tells glinda her secret makes me go rabid and actually makes me want to chew concrete because not only is it actually absolutely heartbreaking to see just how deeply elphaba believes all the horrible things her father reinforces; how she thinks she's responsible for her mother's death and is the reason for nessarose's disability even when it's literally not her fault in any way and is actually DIRECTLY her father's fault.

and just the fact that elphaba tells glinda all this and tells glinda her father hates her and that everything's her fault and glinda looks at her and she's absolutely heartbroken to hear elphaba saying all these things and she becomes the first person in elphaba's life to look her in the eyes and tell her that none of that is true and that it is NOT her fault, it was NEVER her fault despite whatever anyone said.

ik a lot of ppl see glinda's "it was the milkflower's fault" line as a very sort of shallow take by glinda (I'm explaining it poorly but ik some ppl wonder why she didn't just call out governor thropp directly) but I've got to disagree with that take because personally I think glinda heard elphaba talking, heard her describe her secret and heard how her father forced her mother to chew milkflowers constantly during her pregnancy all because he was afraid the baby would come out green like elphaba and she heard all this and she hears how elphaba thinks this is all her fault.

and yk they're roommates. glinda sees the way elphaba talks about her father and how even though she says that he hates her in an almost casual manner despite how she says he's justified for hating her, elphaba still loves her father and she still wants to do right by him and she still wants him to love her.

so glinda knows that elphaba will not listen to her if she straight up tells her that her father's fucking mental and completely wrong and that it was all his fault and that she's probably going to bludgeon him to death. she knows that elphaba will never accept this and she knows that right now it won't do any good for anyone.

so instead she tells elphaba it was the milkflower's fault. and she looks her in the eyes and she tells her this was never your fault you shouldn't think this was ever your fault and anyone who ever told you that it was your fault was completely and totally wrong and I need you to know this.

because the primary concern isn't about telling elphaba she's got a shitty dad the primary concern is telling elphaba that it is not her fault for simply existing. and to let her know that there is nothing wrong with her and that there is someone here, right now, who loves and cares for her so so much and wants her to know that. that there is someone who will hold her hand and who will tell her that they are there for her and that she is fine the way she is. that she is loved.

[zenshigarakilover]

I think if AFO's care for Yoichi was simply only out of a desire to control then it would've been easy to find a quirk that would brainwash him and make him compliant to AFO's demands. He wouldn't be the same Yoichi, but he would have full control over him and AFO would be content with that.

Yet he insists on having Yoichi join him willingly. Whether that compliance is gained through Yoichi deciding on his own that AFO was right and chose to join his side or through coercion. He desires that verbal agreement from Yoichi for him to be by his side. Its better than any I love you Yoichi could say out loud, he needs him to say that he will walk with his brother no matter what path he travels and would never leave him. Because at the end of the day what AFO fears the most is being alone and he wants Yoichi to agree to stay with him and support him instead of fighting him as he pursues his dream.

Unfortunately the only way AFO feels he can get that support he craves from his brother is through control. But control isn't the end game when it comes to Yoichi for him it's simply a means to an end. To get that love and support he desperately craves from his brother. It makes their relationship extremely toxic as a result and this controlling aspect of AFOs is what ultimately causes him to lose the person he values the most.

Don't get me wrong I do think AFO gets off to the idea of breaking Yoichi's beliefs and will to prove that heroic ideals are fallible and not worth pursuing. But it's not the only thing that motivates him to try to get Yoichi to join him.

[brokenheartwithheartbreak]

No but there’s actually something so poetic about Theo’s approach to Liam’s anger post-hell. Like, the way he immediately hones in on that as a Problem he can Fix just by being the way he is (locker room scene my beloved) after everything that happened in S5, everything he did to rark Liam up and drive him to such intense rage he tried to kill his own Alpha.

For Theo to come back, see Liam losing it a little bit and falling back on his rage and the violence that comes with it and be the one to get in his way, to stop him from doing something he’d regret by knocking him out (five times :) ), to show up in that locker room and talk him down just by being a sarcastic little bastard.

I don’t think Theo feels guilty as such about a lot of what he did in S5, but I do think he saw Liam after he pulled Theo out of hell and saw the anger that he himself weaponised and maybe felt a little bit of regret, a little bit of responsibility for where Liam is now, and realised that he was uniquely equipped to actually help him.

[buttercupshands]

*looking at isat ss discord* my power of being silly got out of control

or how I tried understanding rpg maker basics by literally trying to do one (1) thing I really wanted to see ever since seeing Loop unused sprites lying on wiki months ago

the reason I mentioned isat ss discord was simply bc guys were the first people who saw me trying to draw close to pixel sprite face sprite for Loop to,,, do something at some point just to see how it works

and nope I'm not making this into anything, but I really like the fact that I managed to do this

(now with video post edited into this sentence!)

[kirby-the-gorb]

[coldsummernight]

Arg crime time watch horror movies and nothing bad ever happens ever.

This is lazy, but it was fun to make.

[arttsuka]

🐝

[evelynpr]

Might be a hot take as a bkdk and tgck truther here, but I find izuocha endlessly fascinating, beautiful, but also tearfully tragic.

I see their love for each other as something representative of their innocence and naivety when they only knew so little about who they were, and what was to come.

I think the main barrier of their relationship is that its rooted in how they see each other very idealistically, specifically that they're attached to the image of their Best Heroic Selves, and not the deeply selfish, destructive, freaky, and egotistical parts of them. To each other, they need to keep fulfilling that image or else that same person they looked up to would almost die in front of them, and that would be too cruel. Although that hero is still there, that same person they looked up to is not the same now because of...well...everything.

Izuku had barely even talked to girls when he first met her. She was Izuku's first ever real friend (Sorry Kats, everyone and him knows he was terrible), so he saved her in that entrance exam even if it was so dangerous. She gave a new meaning to his derogatory nickname just by being a friend that believed in him. After that, she saved him several more times (Blackwhip and Megaphone are the biggest samples iirc). It makes perfect sense that she is Deku's hero.

Ochako hardly knew what it meant to be a hero when she first got into UA. Just by reaching out to some kid tripping, she made a new friend who would then save her in that exam, then save him again in return. This boy then became someone who was always working so hard to save everyone in trouble, and she realized she wanted to be just like him too. "I want to save people"

But...Deku changes. The weight of One for All is on his shoulders and he needs someone to carry this burden with him. He continues to want to save other people at the expense of himself, still not letting his true selfishness and ego ever show- and it only grows more and more unbearable.

Then...Ochako fell in love with Himiko. Truly, relentlessly, selfishly and devotedly in love with a girl who then dies giving her blood to her- the greatest expression of love Himiko could ever give.

Not that they can't love each other because of this happening (and...so many other things oh god), I'm honestly not sure how to explain it- But them ending up together after losing that innocence and naivety? After Ochako will forever grieve the girl who showed her love in its most beautiful and ugly form? After Izuku changed so fundamentally as a person that the butterflies of a nice girl talking to you doesn't exist anymore? After that simple image of being a hero and being in love has completely changed for them both?

Even so, I believe they still love each other. There is no label I know of that can properly describe them though. They are each other's image of being a hero when it comes to saving people. Aside from Shoto, no one else can grasp the grief of the person you tried to save dying in your hands. They would no doubt try to cope with these losses together, and just try to get better together...but so much has changed. They've changed. The world changed. What are they now? Who are they now?

"What happened...to us?"

[irrideemaple]

Aventurine learns how to play chess (Gone wrong?)

[anxiousapplepie]

Hmm, probably better for pretending to be a blue rose that Lapis has brown hair, blond hair would stay healthier without all the need for bleach, but it also looks too much like an actual rose color for those who see her roots. While the brown just looks concerning for her mental health.

Whodathunk sounding brown/depressed was going to be the best possible option for a human pretending to be a Prophetic Hero!! Not Lapis! and she's stupidly lucky it worked out in her favor! XD

[wackywatchdotcom]

something i genuinely adore about tadc is how painfully flawed everyone in the circus is. and not in a small way

everyone does SOMETHING that negatively impacts the others. but it makes the fact that you are supposed to sympathize with and really connect with them all the more potent. because its easy to want to put a bunch of characters in a bad situation together and to just have them all be nice to each other and everyone and never make mistakes because theres no reason to hurt each other, and most of them dont TRY to, but the way they cope is so, so realistic for each of their personalities, and it doesnt always mesh with the others, and sometimes it exceeds self destructive and Just Hurts Others, Too

they still generally care about each other and the mistakes they make and the ways they end up hurting each other dont lose their weight but like. it doesnt take away from their humanity and the fact that they are all trying so hard to manage in an awful situation

and the characters seem to have sooome sort of understanding of this too. not fully, because the characters dont tend to be 100% communicative, but when they hurt each other, it often makes EVERYONE uncomfortable. because these are the only people they have. these are their friends. and theyre all coping. but it doesnt change how much it affects them (best illustrated by ragathas lines at the start of ep 2 or gangles 'i love her, but after a while it gets kinda hard to tell how genuine shes actually being'). its not all like this, theres a good amnt of variety, but characters knowing this but not really knowing what to do about it is very painful in an effective way

(i think a subtle example of this is how zooble handles gangles situation in ep 4- they were so genuinely trying to help her because they care. but could tell as the day went on that oh, this is not working at all and its making things worse, and they leave gangle alone- something that very genuinely couldve been the moment she abstracted, because of the mask zooble gave her- and we dont get to have a super blatant explanation of zoobles thoughts on it, but they reach a fairly healthy conclusion about it that helps both of them, and i like that a lot, because on paper zooble could be placed at fault but the narrative doesnt dwell on it excessively, because thats not the point. i dont know if that tangent makes sense but i think about it sometimes. i think zooble wasnt 'to blame' but it was still a mistake, which is a hard balance to strike, and having them help at the end feels extremely effective at rounding it off!!!)

but like. in general its complicated balancing making characters in a bad situation act flawed because it can run the risk of seeming like the story is scolding them or blaming them for the situation theyre in, or like youre expected to not sympathize with them despite it (though the inverse also has complications- if characters in a bad situation never mess up, it feels unrealistic and hard to relate to, and can imply that their innocence is why whats happening to them is bad at all), but the show handles it so well

even the characters who are genuinely trying all try in different ways- some of them have similar outlooks or attitudes towards these thing but theres vital differences for ALL of them- sometimes it works and sometimes it doesnt. in fact some of the more painful mistakes characters have made in the show have come from them so genuinely trying (like the thing i mentioned w zooble, or basically Everything Ragatha Does, or pomnis first attempt at helping gangle, etc), which hits harder than if every mistake characters made had wholly selfish and cruel goals.

i mean, there is a selfishness to many of the characters' actions but imo not in a way thats not warranted. because all of them are in a horrible setting. its uncomfortable to watch characters be selfish. but it is a natural instinct to survive. its not the foundation of most of their actions, but when it is, its uncomfortable but hard to completely disparage them for in a way that makes you feel kinda conflicted

and like. it hurts to be doing your best and for that to make things worse, but its what happens often in the show. because no one in a bad situation is gonna handle it well. by the very nature of trying to survive something is gonna give, but it makes the themes of the show so much more powerful. that making sure the people around you dont feel unloved, cherishing them and finding meaning with others is no less important just because everyone is fucking up. it complicates things, for sure, but it doesnt make those characters exempt fromt this. theres a reason pomni tells gummigoo that she doesnt want "anyone" to feel like theyre nothing, and that kinger doesnt add ANY quallifiers to making sure people feel wanted and loved (not that i think either of them were thinking SUPER super hard, but it conveys smth from the perspective of the narrative

it gets complicated when you add in jax for sure, since i think on the surface he IS the exception to this concept- none of the characters like him, including pomni or kinger. but i think this is something thats gonna be examined further down the line, bc hes the main complicating factor in this reading of the show, but i feel like thats on purpose. hes universally disliked (and so is caine, in a different way) and his actions arent mistakes. they are him coping. the show has made it clear that he can be a complex person AND also a piece of shit. his actions dont detract from the fact that hes a person and the show reminds us of this. so it makes things so messy, but im genuinely super excited to see how the show examines that. where his character goes is, imo, going to be a massive piece of how this show fleshes out this concept

[shrinkthisviolet]

Helena kissing and sleeping with Innie!Mark in 2x04 is in fact sexual assault and not sweet or romantic or whatever, by the way. Yes, Innie!Mark is in love with Helly, and I do ship them! But that is not Helly, that is Helena. She is sleeping with Innie!Mark under false pretenses. That's literally the definition of rape by deception (“the perpetrator deceives the victim into participating in a sexual act to which they would otherwise not have consented, had they not been deceived.” Mark would not have slept with Helena if he knew who she was).

Even if Mark does catch feelings for Helena later in s2, he did not feel that way about her in 2x04—he felt that way about Helly, and Helena knew that and took advantage of it.

And sure, yes, to a degree, Helly and Helena are the same person. But like...they're also not. They are, and they are not—that is the point the show repeatedly makes. Ex: Helly's rebellious nature is an inversion of Helena's entitlement, and a stronger manifestation of Helena's own rebellious nature (unconfirmed that she has one, but likely). But also, Helena lives for Lumon, while Helly wants to burn it to the ground. The same, but different. The same person, but also not. There is a reason reintegration is such a painful process mentally.

Different enough, certainly, that Innie!Mark sleeping with one is not the same as him sleeping with the other...especially when he doesn't even know that this is Helena and not Helly. If Mark decides that it is the same to him, then fine, but he hasn’t decided that. As things stand, he slept with Helena believing she was Helly, and that is not romantic.

[arsenicflame]

currently craving some S1E2 canon divergence where Stede captures Izzy when he's trying to get his hostages back-

It doesnt really go much differently than it did, only when Stede's holding the knife to Izzy's cheek, he decides to take it seriously- maybe its that Stede is an unknown, a threat he hasnt quantified yet (he didnt flinch when he told him who he was, after all, even if he did ground his ship), maybe he simply doesnt want the fuss today, knowing he could escape from their ship with much less fuss than an all out fight will be, maybe, maybe, hes just tired too. With Ed in a slump all the work falls on him, and managing the ship and his captain takes its toll.

So, he surrenders to Stede, sends Ivan & Fang away to inform Ed of the situation, and goes back to The Revenge. He'll somehow end up helping them right the ship despite the fact he's technically their prisoner, and find that they dont actually have a brig, instead left in a small cabin that they hastily attach a bolt to the outside of.

As the door bolts (really, its a terrible job, he could have it out with one push) he yells through about how they'll regret this when his Captain comes for him, but somewhere in the back of his mind, he doubts.

Is he still worth that effort to Ed? Would he even be able to make himself care?

[rileys-battlecats]

just spent approx. 6 hours working in a kitchen and my back hurts from leaning over the counter for so long BUT i finished baking and decorating a cake for my mom’s birthday tomorrow :)