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theloveinc · 1 year

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Same person as anon abefore! I wanted to ask about any personal rules you have for this blog? (Only if you feel comfortable answering ofc) bc i saw your post about adding thoughts onto other peoples post and had no idea some people dislike that! But it makes sense why it might make others uncomfortable in a way

-curious question from someone who would very much like a moot (only if you want one too :D !!!!)

hello dear friend :) ... yes ofc you can ask!! tho apologies in advance if this is a complicated answer (and i got your other ask too, tho imma save it for tomorrow bc i'm exhousted)...

i actually personally don't have, nor have ever had, rules for my blog.... mostly bc people have their rules broken ALL the time and i just don't want to worry myself w/ accusing askers/followers of doing this or that (can't break any rules if there aren't any), you know?

but also that's pretty easy for me to say bc i don't really have any like... big triggers or icks or things that bother me, either, so like. if i get something i don't want to address ... i just won't lol? tho that rarely happens cuz i want to get to everything even if i CAN'T or don't

as for like... additions to posts, i think everyone has different preferences regarding how one should go about it? so i can't answer for everyone... but asking is def a safe and kind bet, ALWAYS.

as for me, NORMALLY (adding thoughts) isn't something that bothers me! i love seeing what people have to say, esp if they're friends of mine or add acknowledgements to the creator of the post.

but i think what p*ssed me off today is the fact that........ even tho the reblob was most definitely well intentioned, it just felt a little like i was ransacked of my own idea, esp since that blog has way more followers and friends than i do and i felt like people were responding to them rather than like... me/my idea/OUR idea (and we've never spoken either so .... ??? double whammy)

but anyway. i really want to say like, don't be afraid of adding onto my stuff, or doing anything really idgaf, cuz usually i totally don't mind and esp now that we're friends and have chatted!

but now... i guess i can say, in MY case specifically, recognition does go a long way. even just adding a little like... "hope you don't mind if i add to this!" or "great idea!! this makes me think of ___" would make it feel so much better than just reblobbing as if it were your (as an example) idea in the first place to contribute to.

BUT USUALLY I'M NOT THAT PICKY. TODAY WAS JUST :/ bc i felt a little ignored by someone i do admire and appreciate. but please don't stress yourself, whatever happens i'm always happy to forgive<333

but thank you so much for being so considerate, for my sake and everyone's. i hope this wasn't too hard to read, new mootie friend☺️ (fyi, i follow from @virtualizated)

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madmutts · 10 months

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For the peeps that have been here since the beginning: Update on my eating habits!- Bad!

#angelo txt #hea au #/hj #gdjfshfj #just ate lunch #ate too fast again and now my tummy hurts #granted we usually eat together but.. didnt feel like it today ig

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graveyarrdshift · 4 months

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ok time to get my shit together

#finally? ig #maybe i just had too much caffeine today but #I finally know what I should do and I rarely feel as motivated as I feel today #all because i love money so fucking much #and I fucking need it to finally start feeling alright #I don't have much trouble with my stomach anymore #and my knees no longer hurt when I walk #so you know what that means #TIME TO GET MY SHIT TOGETHER BUT FOR REAL THIS FUCKING TIME #LETS FUCKING GOO #rambles

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bunnihearted · 24 days

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#today i thought about this a lot because #it was a veryyyy bad day noise wise #it goes up and down even if im generally easily disturbed by noise #but sometimes i feel more ok with it and can cope somewhat #but some days it is just extra bad and it is physically painful and im constantly stressed #today was one of those days where i almost just broke down and started screaming and crying #i managed not to. but god my upper body hurts a lot bc i get so tense and i cannot relax #all the CONSTANT noise is so painful lol #so yes i thought about it a lot today bc i was doing bad and i realized.. even if i already know #how like.. amazing it is that i can feel such a way .. and that in this existence a safe space for me does exist #his voice just does smth to me on metaphysical (is that the word?) and undescribable levels. it just /reaches/ me #it's so cool that i have physical reactions to just hearing the sound of his voice? i feel my heartbeat slow and my body relaxes and im like #idk how to explain but i feel soothed to my bones and my soul feels cradled. it's like his voice just erases everything else #i just think that is so amazing? like how can that be? how can i experience all of this inside of my existence?#im just in awe of how that can work. how this person's voice has such effects on my being. how it makes my hyper stressed body just feel #okay and calm and soft when i exist in the space of hearing his voice..#maybe i sound crazy :$ .. but thats just how i feel. like today when i was on a walk..#and omg it was noise overload it was crazy i felt my entire neck and throat and shoulders hurt so bad and i wanted to scream and rip my #hair out. i just kept imagining his voice and wanting to just be in that space and soothed state my body enters his voice alone puts me in #im not sure if thats weird or bad of me.. :c but thats just what happens!!! and selfishly i crave it!! i'd never be demanding or forceful #i have more than i couldve ever dreamed or asked for. i can listen and breathe and be ok. and i can imagine his voice too..#soft fluffy cloud that envelopes me.. maybe i *am* crazy or too intense but its just the truth #and ig what im trying to say it is that im infinitely thankful & grateful for this. that i can have felt this. & know it exists like wow??

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spaghett-onaplate · 1 month

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i need to pack my bags and get the hell out of frown town

#i realise that recently i have been disgustingly self absorbed with my own issues 😔#there is a line between discussing bad feelings with friends and being stiflingly negative and i leapt across that line a few weeks ago #like yeah my own issues feel horrendously overwhelming at points but i can't always be caught up in that when i'm around my best friend #i think it's a mix of just exhaustion and also the fact i see her after school where i'm more positive #so i just crash after a tiring day and become the mayor of frown town #it hurt to hear but i mean she worded it much less directly than i have been wording this #and the vibes have been feeling rancid lately so im glad i recognise the issue now and things should feel a bit better between us #just ough it's so easy to become an unpleasant person #not even necessarily by inflicting harm on others but just not inflicting any joy #it's rough out here but it's good to find out negative aspects of yourself and improve them ig #bc i have had friends that are horribly negative and it's just difficult to be around them sometimes #ugh anyway sleep will help all this #oh also in the morning today seemed impossibly exhausting but i got through it #woohoo #now i desperately need to fix my sleep schedule starting with now. bye bye tumblr

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pussymasterdooku · 6 months

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another day another medical malpractice…the allie experience!

#this is overdramatic but miss no hands me is having a rough time #and so i was brave and called my doctor to be like Hey It’s Getting Worse…Should Something Be Done Sooner Than Next Week’s MRI?#and she was like. huh. it shouldn’t hurt. maybe you have some kind of disorder. definitely inflammation is your issue #(inflammation is not my issue. reinjury seems to be my issue but i don’t think she is hearing me when i say that)#anyway bloodwork all normal but they BLEW OUT MY FUCKING VEINNNNNN #it feels better today but eva (doesn’t drive) had to drive me home from the lab lol #anyway i also finally got and read my mri analysis from last spring and got a MUCH better idea of my initial injury. doc was SO vague #she’s a reassurer not a problem solver ig. i’ve liked her except uhhhh the part where Things Keep Getting Worse so maybe she is.#not a good doctor lol #at least i’ve been able to work through all sorts of lingering uterus trauma or whatever i guess. silver linings etc #so we deal we deal #wrist saga tag

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lucifer · 11 months

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I’ve legitimately had a rotten day today. :(

#it’ll get better probably but I’ve been close to tears all day and I’m not really a crying person #never cry ever but today has made me want to pull my hair out!#I wake up late for work and then I go to close the door to my kitchen and the HANDLE falls off #had to move everything from my living room to the kitchen because there are workers fixing a part of the wall #forgot my headphones #get to work and my manager just randomly decided to switch everyone’s seats for the fun ig but like #I have issues with change and routine and blah blah also he sat me next to a dude that makes me uncomfortable #so I asked to move and then we had to move all the pcs around and all the cables were messed up #chest hurts my asthma is acting up and I still don’t have an inhaler #got into a fight with my bf over something stupid and almost cried in public #(all is well it was a silly fight)#didn’t get to get the hot chocolate I wanted because I was upset over said fight and just walked back to work #I go to get lunch and the place closed early somehow when they never do that #I am almost completely broke #get home to relax and the workers are STILL HERE even though they were supposed to be finished hours ago #it’s all a lot of silly small things but I do feel as if the world is against me today #bf is going to buy me pizza for dinner and also I have a rp reply from Simon I can distract myself with so all will be well soon!!!!

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olli-online · 10 months

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#one day imgonna matter but that day is not today #idk why i try tbh.. i never fuckin learn #3pm and already resigned to crying in my bed :)#did everything in my power to avoid this and rhen i got too comfortable and now im paying the price like always #idk if i can do this again #when i ghost everyone and just vanish completely uhh sorry ig idk #my throat feels tight my head hurts #just a convenience.

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waywardsalt · 3 months

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anyways. holding linebeck gently

#some assorted untagged linebeck thoughts tonight cuz hey why not its been a Day of ups and downs and he’s been there in my mind #sometime this month i do want to make some images of him w/ the pride flags of my hcs so general gay and then mlm and then intersex #general post ph crew rundown theres linebeck and then damien is bi and trans and bellum doesnt fucking care and link is figuring it out #so its half we got it and half man i have other things to worry about #i feel like you put linebeck and midna in a room and they are gay/lesbian buddies mlm/wlw solidarity thats what they are to me #anyways. revisited my post abt possession aftermath effects. you can probably tell i enjoy hurt/comfort/whump #smth darkly funny to me abt extremely sick and delirious linebeck and worried link kinda hanging out in his room #with link being like i bet youll be fine!!! you’re recover youre fine. and linebeck just saying kid i have rabies symptoms #anyways he lives hes fine he survives the magic squid rabies. to calm the characters nerves and my own ive decided that once hes well enoug #linebeck and link decide to visit the fairy queen to get some kinda divine checkup and to get the closure of. linebeck is fine he’s fine #nothing malicious is lingering youre good just. get some more bed rest #i do like the idea that when hes got some minor injury to the degree of some little papercur linebeck is incredibly bitchy and whatnot #and then when he’s in genuine danger of dying he’s eerily chill abt it. while recovering from possession one day when he can walk he just #chills on the deck when theres no breeze just smoking. ofc hes terrified inside but fuck if hes going to be obvious abt it (when lucid)#could tie that to his trauma n whatever ig but rn i dont have the energy to really think on it idk hes had enough bad injuries #and has found that when hes actively distressed crying out and whatnot didnt really get people to help #like its smth he learned early on his brother was there and there was just enough but like yknow. wasnt ingrained ig #thats a different thing to be lumped into the idea of him learning that its fine to be more vulnerable abt what you feel n need n want #prob smth he practices with link i mean damien is good but he needs to learn to listen instead of assume for that first bit #uhhh. earlier today i almost made a vent post but didnt but i think the gist was god i need to stop comparing other loz things to my iwn #bc it never never ends well. anyways. uhhh. came up with a possible post ph story arc for bellum n link #and decided to revive an older one with link and linebeck. post ph is really really just its own thing tbh #ofc meant to be a sorta fan sequel thing but between the disregarding of canon sequel stuff and not really adhering to the feeling n whatno #its just its own thing and i like it. ill prob delete this later

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aria0fgold · 4 months

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Is... is a wisdom tooth growing... ON THE TOP RIGHT OF MY MOUTH?!!?!?!?!? NO!!! STOP! STOP IT! WHY?!

#aria rants #CMON NOW!!! WHY?! I DONT LIKE WISDOM TEETH!!!#bruh am alrdy so annoyed by the one wisdom tooth on the top left of my mouth cuz it grew so off center #like-- its leaning towards my inner cheek the crown(? yaknow the top of the tooth) of it is facing my inner cheek #which gets too annoying when food gets stuck to it esp cuz the goddamn wisdom tooth is soo huddled to the back of the mouth #I DONT WANT ANOTHER ONE!!! i was wondering bout the top right too like-- i remember it being EMPTY #and then just one day i noticed it getting food on it and i was thinking like: oh ig its the tooth near the end #but then when i was just cleaning it with my finger cuz it was still too early to brush my teeth and the thing was bugging me #it was bleeding so i was like: huh. i mustve accidentally scratched it and then NOW! TODAY! i realized that that side of my mouth #suddenly hurt a bit and i was feeling around it to figure out: why are you hurting and then i noticed... the small tooth i touched #days ago wasnt the alrdy existing molar i had... IT WAS A GROWING WISDOM TOOTH GODDAMIT!!! I DONT NEED ONE!

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binders-and-beanies · 4 months

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#sry I need to vent more abt my tattoo pain bc I physically cannot do anything productive rn im completely and totally incapacitated #can’t read anything beyond short posts or texts. can’t eat or move at all #tried to sleep through it so it would at least Be Tomorrow so I can get medical help. but the jolts of pain make me like Jump #hence me being sent home from work early today like it’s not even that I was complaining I was just flinching involuntarily so much #and was unable to work or function at all. thank god I don’t work retail rn I remember the pain of tattoo infections in that context #it’s so Abrupt it feels like I’m being stabbed or repeatedly bitten #literally trying not to scream bc I have a roommate. but he almost certainly hears me crying and saying ouch #which sucks bc I barely know the guy lol he has no context. At least on my drive home I could scream as much as I needed #literally would go to the ER if I could afford it and that sounds so dramatic bc it is #it doesn’t feel like it can wait. genuinely don’t know how I’m gonna get through the night #I haven’t slept in like 60 hours and I doubt I will tonight. but it hurts too much to even tell if I’m tired #and I don’t have time for this!! I have so much I need to be doing. I hate that the only way I can have Time is to be Extra Disabled #in a way that leaves me completely unable to do the things I normally can fight through despite burnout #and I was just at health services yesterday asking them to do insurance paperwork that they couldn’t do #it’s embarrassing having to be like hey I was just there but can I come back #I have Another tattoo infection but I pinky promise I take such good care of them #and my artist is like the best of the best too. it’s like it doesn’t matter what either of us does to keep me safe #and I know if anyone responds to this it will be to tell me to stop getting tattoos #but that’s literally like telling me not to get top surgery if I’m immunocompromised n might have recovery complications #both are equally important gender affirming medical procedures to me I’m not joking #and I hate always having to justify this whilst in agonizing pain. I hate answering the same things every time bc still no one believes me #I say this as someone who lives every moment in baseline pain that would have your average person writhing on the floor and I ignore it #this is truly unbearable if I hadn’t been through it a million times I would think it was life threatening #just needed to get it out ig. bc it’s all I can physically do. until health services opens in 12 hours #PLEASE let them have availability tomorrow bc i have literally no option on weekends #this is just. so upsetting and embarrassing. I don’t have time or emotional capacity for this #personal #mine #vent post

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that-was-anticlimactic · 2 years

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there’s something so sacred about sharing what you love with others: whether it be a song or food or clothes, a show or a movie or pictures. it's just... such a deep and personal thing, you know? having someone carve out a little part of their heart and gift it to you with an abundance of joy and excitement and passion... yeah.

#i lowkey had an awful day today lol #and it was my first day taking over as teacher so that's a great way to start it #there are people in seventh period who literally despise me and maybe that's an exaggeration but i looked over their creative writing for #the day and one of those kids literally wrote about how he was having a good day but then it turned into a bad day when i started the #creative writing with them so that was great and other stuff happened idk and one of my tics was really... uh... present today and i was so #aware of it and i feel like everyone was laughing at me because of it even tho ik that was just me being self-conscious but God i wanted to #cry and i shared a piece of my heart with them today for the creative writing exercise and so many of them just. told me how awful it was #like someone straight up started with 'this song is terrible' and then proceeded to write a paragraph about how bad it was #idk. it made me feel like a young kid again - sitting by myself on the playground and reading books. like i was in middle school and #everyone was telling me that the things that i loved were stupid. like i was a kid getting teased just lowkey enough that the teachers #couldn't tell because it wasn't necessarily outright bullying but they were making fun of what i loved which Hurts and then i was in high #school having to defend what i love and then in college hearing 'you ruined this for me because you liked it too much' and it just. idk.#it hurts. i find sharing passions and what i love with others so sacred and important and it Hurts when they just tear it and you down and #ik they're juniors and ik there will always be people like that but it was constant and idk. i'm just sad lol #so anyways even if someone shares something with you that you don't like there is literally No reason to be rude about it. you're allowed #to say you dislike it but it's not okay to just tell them straight up it's stupid or awful or you'd rather get hit by a car than hear the #song again. hm. ig i have some unresolved trauma lol #sorry for the rant y'all i just. needed to rant ig idk

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bunnihearted · 5 months

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#ugh im so anxious and like i think i have more pains bc of it #i overslept bc ever since i got a new phone my alarm is so quiet i never wake up?? this is the third time this happens for this class #but i cant miss more bc if i have more than three weeks absence they'll fail me :< so i hurried and walked to school #i wish i had a bus pass T-T since they introduced civilian clothed controllants i havent dared taking the bus at all i dont wanna get a fine #so yes anyway. on top of that im pretty sure my sister stole my keys. bc they were in my jacket pocket yesterday and today they werent there #and she left somewhere earlier this morning. so now im anxious abt not knowing where they are + will i get inside?? my mom wakes up late af #ummm what else???? idk im just so stressed. i got to class and have been here for 40min now and the teacher left for lunch #i'll leave now bc i cant focus enough to sit here more. my tooth aches too :((#i just wanna cry tbh #the entire way here i was like i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die #i feel so awful.. and stupd and worthless. why am i incapable of getting a job? or even studying at university? im so bad at everything #im like an anxious wreck who can barely function. everything hurts both physically and emotionally #i dont even wanna walk home im just sitting in my empty classroom bc i dont wanna kove #move*#what's wrong with me? how did i turn into this? i miss school. like i miss being able to actually do my work and talk to the teachers etc #im only a shell of what i used to be. and im scared i'll never be anything other than this :((((#well i gotta move ig bc the sooner i do the sooner i can get home and lie in my bed & cry over how useless i am :3

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emulation-0 · 6 months

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i have to be one of the dumbest people alive

#this happens every single time like this entire week i was going insane out of my mind and i thought to myself haha this happens all the #time when im pmsing but im sure im just being irrational rn like this whole week. ive been whining and crying and cramping and hurting #in weird places and getting bloated and all these things and i was like well ig im just being hysterical maybe i need to go outside #and honestly going outside did help a little but today like. for so long i was like DAMN this really genuinely feels like im pmsing #like i could actually be on my period. it feels like it. LMAO. but i know thats not true 🥰. i went the whole day like that doing wudhu #and praying and reading quran like that thinking everything was fine because i was being irrational and guess what i found tonight 😐#i really dont understand how after this long of doing stupid shit like this i havent learned my lesson yet but here we are ig #hanancouldyounot

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justonefeather · 7 months

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I don't mind the mouth guard *as much* now that I have one that fits better. I still don't like it. It makes me drool more bc my mouth can barely close lol but I can already feel where it's not as smooth cause I'm still grinding my teeth, or attempting to. Sooo I'm definitely swallowing micro plastics in my sleep but that's just sort of what it means to be alive rn isn't it lmao

#🪶.exe #I woke up early and now I can't go back to sleep I think I'm too nervous #This is a very unfortunate time to have a car issue lol I gotta bring it to my guy later today #And I have a virtual meeting with a new person from the career center since the last one ghosted me a week before the due date #Hhhhhghgggdbandkjajsidjwbhdj oh and my insides hurt now that's cool. I think the ramen I cooked for the last week's dinners is the issue #Both of us have had issues. Maybe I shouldn't have put those chilies in it. And the 1/4 cup of spicy bean paste lol but the chilies are #What did it. Every time I bit into one i knew immediately. Like don't get me wrong I like spicy food but this one isn't.. hmm #Pleasurable? It didn't feel like it had a taste. Only pain and making my throat itch/cough #I can handle hot sauce with ghost pepper but these little chillies in ramen did me the fuck in IG

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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grabbing the ichi plush by the neck and death gripping it like 'good things are to come its all going to be ok good things are to come' like its a lucky amulet

#snap chats #i didnt even pre order the ichi plush but spiritually i did. good luck charm.#anyway rant time look away from here. Im At My Limit <- i say this every week #I DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS WRONG <- lying. my moms home #i just feel terrible again. i feel so awful i gave myself a headache from being upset #do you know how upset you have to be to give yourself a headache just sitting and thinking #that happened when i was taking a spanish test once but i think i was just so stupid my brain actually started to hurt trying to think #i also remember being sad as hell that day tho so....... maybe it was both #everyday it feels like im sad thats so fucked up and theres nothing i can do about it #ALSO IT'S RAINING AGAIN rain never promises anything good unless you're a plant #im working but i should have this done in. idk a few hours #and then its the weekend right.... there's no limitations for sadness though brother doesn't run on a schedule #unless we're talking about seasonal depression but we know what i mean #ew im supposed to go to that con tomorrow i dont even know if i want to go anymore #i just don't want to do anything anymore ig is the vibe #idk i have a journal to whine bout all this in ╮(╯-╰)╭ squeezing ichi plush is a mood tho so im still posting #maybe if i play a lil y7 ill remember theres good things to wake up for..#also i gave myself another headache OWOWOWOW STOP when will it end #wait let me be sad again because my dad said we'd hang out today or tomorrow #but i just know that's not happening and now im even more sad WEHHH no one loves me etc etc die #sometimes you just need a melodramatic teenager moment i think we're all due that right like once a month #ok i have to stop my head really hurts ☠️☠️☠️

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