ID: Four drawings of Houston Spies players holding one of the four Umpire masks in front of a Solar Eclipse. The images are mostly grayscale, with the exception of the players' eyes, the accents on the Umpire masks, and the background details, all of which are the color of the associated Umpire. The first image is Esme Ramsey holding the Rogue Umpire's mask with flaming skulls (the icon representing incinerated players) and fire in the background. The second image is Rivers Javier holding the Knight Umpire's mask, surrounded by hands reaching up from below. The third image is Ivy Mason holding the Bard Umpire's mask. Above them is a circle of seven daggers pointed at them. The fourth image is Howell Franklin holding the Mage Umpire's mask. The background resembles the Alternate modification icon, with the person in the center replaced by Igneus Delacruz. Iggy has a hand on Howell's shoulder, and Howell reaches up with their free hand, as if they're trying to hold it. End ID.
strike one: esme ramsey, familiarity with death
strike two: rivers javier, familiarity with the shadows
strike three: ivy mason, familiarity with curses
strike four: howell franklin, familiarity with alternates
the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
Vander makes Vi believe that whatever happened is on her. So Vi suffers and her guilt is so deep and destructive, believing that she turned Jinx into a monster and that what happened to Caitlyn's mother and to Piltover is her fault, she wants to prevent more ppl from getting hurt, and she feels she needs to go after Jinx, and she even believes that the war that will happen to Zaun is her fault.
So she tries to make things right as much as possible in a way that she believes is right. Like Christian Linke said here👇
But unfortunately she will fail for some reason and will become a Pit fighter.