Hi hi, I was drooling all over the tags of Who holds the devil again and I remembered to ask if the kidnapping will refer to Ga On? Or if it's a big spoiler then maybe you could please tell if we'll see protective Yo Han because you write his feelings so well I just can't get enough or over it, you're so talented.
I wouldn't call it a big spoiler, exactly, since I think most people can (correctly) guess that it refers to Ga On xD I mean, what kind of BL fanfic would this be if it was someone else? Gotta check all those dramatic romance boxes!
That said, I will repeat what I've said before, which is that it won't happen anytime soon and, if I were you, there are other tags I would be more worried about. But that's just me ;)
As for Yo Han being protective, that will feature quite heavily as a part of another plot thread long before the kidnapping tag comes into play. And I do mean protective as in full-on Abyss — with all the violence and ruthlessness that entails. To be honest, one of the scenes I look forward to writing the most right now is the culmination of that whole plotline. Partly because writing Yo Han when he's like that is so much fun, but also because Ga On will do what Ga On does best.
That's to say: Place himself in front of Yo Han and be the immovable object to slow down the unstoppable force.
And it will be delicious.
Because with all that Ga On has learned about Yo Han at that point, he's going to realise that the best way to calm Yo Han's desire for vengeance — and remind him of his humanity — isn't to get preachy or aggressive and demand he stop. It's to go soft and vulnerable and needy and a little desperate and just say:
"Please come back to me."
... I think we ALL know Yo Han won't stand a fucking chance.
So you've got that to look forward to, I guess ;)
And thank you so much! I have a lot of fun with Yo Han's emotions, not going to lie. He's got a pretty unique way of both showing and dealing with them and it's particularly interesting to try and convey that from an outside POV (Ga On's in this case). Because even if Ga On is correct in his observation the majority of the time, there are still times when he misses certain details. He often gives Yo Han the benefit of the doubt when he maybe shouldn't, for example x'D
Like, there are times in this story when Yo Han may seem kind, caring, and vulnerable but, in reality, something COMPLETELY different is happening inside his head.
Chapter 39 was actually a good example of that, specifically when Yo Han was pressing his thumb against the scar on his palm. Ga On automatically assumed that had to mean Yo Han was in pain, but that's not it at all. Not even close. Pressing the scar (which was first established in The Gentle Light, which I wrote over a year ago now) has become Yo Han's way of curbing his less-than-moral impulses when it comes to how he approaches his and Ga On's relationship.
Yo Han wasn't pressing the scar because it hurt (though he does have flashes of psychosomatic pain, too) but because he needed to remind himself not to do what he ACTUALLY wanted. Which certainly wasn't to resign himself to being rejected and go: "Then I won't."
In that moment, Yo Han wanted to claim and possess — not surrender.
And it was a struggle for him to choose the path he knew Ga On wanted him to.
In short, both Yo Han's protectiveness and possessiveness are sometimes hidden in the small things he does, which might not always be apparent to Ga On or the reader. Remember that Ga On is an unreliable narrator and while he is astoundingly good at reading Yo Han sometimes, not even he sees all.
And that, on the whole, Yo Han is a lot more vicious and immoral than Ga On wants to admit. It may not be as apparent now that Yo Han is without a revenge quest and more focused on doting on his family, but it's by no means gone. Just dormant.
The Abyss will never fully stop abyssing.
(Yes, I am definitely making this fic and the characterisation unnecessarily complex with breadcrumbs sprinkled across stuff I've written literal years ago — thank you for asking)
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Twewy acoustic
10/10 FANTASTIC album! Your ocean, Voices, and Breaking Free were the highlights for me :] Voices especially! I never really payed special attention to that song before but man...it's so good
I kinda wish we'd gotten at least one more fast-paced song but maybe that's not in the acoustic spirit? Idk I'm not much of a music buff. Shibuya Survivor, Unpainted, bird in the hand, or Storm would've been really fun to hear though! Or yknow what fuck it. We're Losing You. Don't ditch the screamo vocals just throw in a guitar player and listen to them hang on for dear life in the background I'm sure that'll sound great
No Twister? Really? We got a twewy album WITHOUT a millionth Twister remix?? I'm shocked
It's So Wonderful didn't really feel super different to me (I think mostly because what I always remember best of it is just the opening riff) but I like it on there anyways. Feels right yknow?
Calling though. It did feel just a smidge unnecessary to me. There's already been a ton of great Calling remixes and this one's just kind of...eeeeeeh. It doesn't really stand out against the crowd.
Disconnect Me I'm a huge fan but where did you come from. I swear to god I've never heard this song before in my life it's driving me crazy trying to remember it
Get that Final Fantasy song out of there right now THIS IS OUR MOMENT!!!!!!1
So...no Transformation?
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so happy my additions to the post about concert tickets helped you feel better lovely!! thank you so much for talking ab this, it was 100% needed. a decent artist who genuinely loves their fans would not at all want one feeling bad if they couldn't make it to a show :) i think you're also a swiftie so i wanted to say that there's a clip from the eras tour where taylor mentions that she loves everyone in the crowd as much as those who care enough to watch livestreams (basically fans who couldn't make it to tour!) <3 anyways hope i didn't ramble too much lol, sending my love 🤍
this is genuinely such an encouraging comment, thank you for that <33 i agree, i think any decent artist wouldn't think any less of the fans unable to go. i love taylor's music but don't follow each eras livestream so i had no idea she said that, it's very kind of her <3
i was disappointed i couldn't find affordable seats since she came right to my city and no one i like comes here ever :(( but it makes me feel a bit better (?) that not everyone who tried succeeded and i didn't panic buy tickets way out of my price range. it'll sting a bit to look back on but i learned a lot about ticketing, it'll be fun seeing the tour clips, and i know there'll be other concerts!
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