#changedme

[muffingnf]

anyoneelse think this is the most beautiful boy in the whole wide world

[tigerstarsr]

i kno i dont post on this blog like ever but the tgirlclaw post frm a few days ago got me thinking about her

[nat-20s]

THE GIRLS (FOURTEEN AND DONNA) ARE FIGHTIIIINNNGGG'

aka Donna has some lingering Feelings on the whole mind wipe thing and she's gonna shout about it <3

The Mess That's Made of Us

She didn’t mean for an outburst. They were having a calm, rational, adult discussion, not a fight. She didn’t even want a fight, not really. But The Doctor, he couldn’t just let it go and let her sort out her big stupid feelings on her own. No, he had to needle, he had to inquire, he had to push. He had to say that “everything had turned out all right, in the end”, and oh, that so wasn’t the fucking point. Nearly choking on the words, she yells out, “What would you have done?!”

After he startles and she has a moment to be thankful no one else is home right now, he’s shockingly even when he replies, “You..you know what I did.”

She lets out a right and proper growl of frustration. Clenching and unclenching her fists a few times in an attempt to ground herself, she grits out, “Not what I meant.”

“Donna, I don’t-”

“I meant, you pedantic little-”

She cuts herself off, takes in a deep breath in and out through her nose, and tries again. “I meant if our roles had been swapped. If I had been the one to take that year away from you, if you were about to have an essential part of the person you had become stripped all away in a moment. How would you have reacted? What. Would you. Have done?”

“I..”

She doesn’t let him finish, collect his thoughts, say pretty words that would fix it all. See, she can push, and push, and push too, now can’t she, Doctor? Generally, Donna doesn’t consider herself a cruel person. Sometimes oblivious, sometimes obnoxious, sometimes inconsiderate, but not cruel. But she knows she’s capable of it. She knows, if she so desires, she can hurt someone. She’s not trying to hurt The Doctor, except that she is, not to wound but to pull him to where she is right now. To make the grief and the rage and the conflict be shared. So she keeps going. “It’s not the same though, right? No, of course not. One year out of a billion, maybe more, that doesn’t make much of a difference, does it? Like forgetting what you had for breakfast that morning, barely a breath. I bet it would’ve been so easy, for you.”

“Donna!”

When he says it, his face is hard, and frustrated, but not cold. That’s something she’s still getting used to, with this new-old face. He used to have the coldest rage she ever saw, standing like a stranger. Now, he doesn’t tend to rage at all. It’s enough to make her clamp her mouth and actually listen for a second.

“Respectfully, what the hell are you talking about? Barely a breath, easy for me? Do you really believe that our time together meant that little to me? Do you really not understand by now? I mean, look at my face, Donna. And this is the second time that I’m completely rearranged myself in memory of you! One day with you changedme. One full year with you? Rewrote me.

So yes, removing my time with you would’ve made a difference. It would’ve made all the difference in the universe. And I don’t know what I would’ve done. If I had to get rid of the part of me that was made from you. I’m not sure I could.”

Such pretty words. And, well, the face in front of her right now does suggest some truth to them. But she can’t quite believe them, and she can’t quite look at said face, so instead her vision drifts over to the Tardis parked outside their kitchen window. Folding her arms and staring listlessly, she counters, “Yeah? Don’t you think you would’ve, I dunno, blinked and gone ‘oh that’s odd’ before putting on one of those manic smiles and inputting the coordinates to Venus in the 15th century, and that would’ve been that?”

Out of the corner of her eye, The Doctor’s face goes through a rapid series of motions that she can almost sort out, before stopping at realization. Oh. She didn’t like that one bit.

“Ah, that’s what you think did happen, huh? You think I flew away in my box and had magical adventures and found someone else in a day. It would make sense, right? Start pallin’ around with the nearest redhead I could find, forget all about me ol’ mate Donna, it’s not like she was gonna remember, so why should I?”

She sniffs, and tilts her face up, and resolutely does not let any tears fall. She also does not look at him.

“Donna, there was no one else, not until I was someone else. You want to know what happened, after I lost you? I broke. And then died. There was no me without you.”

Fuck. He changes his tune then, and she’s pretty sure they’re no longer fighting. They’ve always lacked a talent for it. He comes closer, placing both his hands gently on top of her still crossed arms, and moves until she has to look him in the eye. He even throws in a smile. Damn him to hell, he knows it’s near impossible for her to see her best friend smiling and start smiling a bit herself.

With a breath that borders on being a laugh, he continues, “But you! You got married, and yelled at parking attendants, and had a kid, and you existed. And I can’t regret that, I can’t. So I’m sorry, I really am. I ignored your pleas, and I took some of you away, and I’d do it again. I’d do it every time.”

She lets out a sigh and lets her arms drop to the sides. “I know.”

Wiping a hand down her face, she mixes a huff and a shrug. “Honestly, Doctor? I think I’ve already forgiven you.”

With a nod, she stands up straight and tells him straight, “I think I forgave you the moment it happened. I just..I just need time. I know it’s been years but I’ve only been able to think on it for a week.”

“I understand. Hell, there’s things that take me a couple thousand years to process, so.”

Donna rolls her eyes and let’s out a small chuckle, before opening her arms and saying, “C’mere, spaceman.”

The Doctor quite readily does, and the hug fits just as naturally as it always has. They take a moment to breathe together, and Donna gets to listen to the comforting double rhythm of the two healthy hearts in his chest. The silence is comfortable and the sharpness has eased.

When she pulls back, she can’t help but ask, “Wait, second face? What was the other one?”

“Ah. About that-”

[26dot0148829330268]

finally will get a mushishi &tatami galaxy tattoo next month. 🙏🏻 #blessed #Ginko4Life #changedme #nostalgia #taketheoppurtunitythatsdanglingrightinfrontofyou

[hannsimp]

Amazingly, ten years ago marks a point when I was very much in an open-secret “beta mode” of Hannah (left), even though this was not quite ready for prime time. By the end of 2013, there are zero more photos of anything prior to Hannah (right), but here you also get an idea of what I looked like when I felt I could only get dressed up at home prior to starting hormone replacement. I have come a long way (center), especially around the waist. #tenyearchallenge#10yearchallenge #transisbeautiful #transvisibility #lgbtq #hannahsimpson #changedme #mtf #hrt10years #girlslikeus #transwoman (at Manhattan, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CYLQoX2uU8C/?utm_medium=tumblr

[figdays]

The LGBTQ + TRANSGENDER Rainbow Pride Flag Pin // ChangedMe

[magicalshopping]

♡ Rainbow x Trans Pride Flags Pin by ChangedMe ♡

[aggressive-defiance]

#spoiled #spoiledrotten #daddysgirl #donthurther #myworld #changedme https://www.instagram.com/p/BqY_xJkFf6L5q1syuSkR8XS3xueslXej-CgPfs0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=4jdo8a1zrtqp

[thevegasbabyy]

If you don't expect to like someone and then you do, that's an incredibly exciting moment.-Steven Moffat I was never expecting to feel the way i do about you but i also never expected for a woman like you to come into my life. Everything about you evokes me and you have so quickly and honestly change me and my life. So its only fitting to make you my #wcw you deserve so much that this world has to give and i know it is my purpose to show you that. #cutie #beautiful #stunning #gothgirl #longdistance #sweetheart #sweet #babygirl #womancrush #changedme #crushing #evoking #exciting #ftm #f2m #transman #cisgirl #transgender https://www.instagram.com/p/BpVaDh4heXq/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1qv6jnlx33oig

[anagha-kulkarni]

#tbt #tbthursday #me #lostme #changedme #meandme

[sacredsocialjustice]

Received an amazing rainbow Star of David pendant from @hsimpso of the @changedmeshop. I look forward to wearing this at Pride events. #pride #lgbtqjews #ChangedMe #ChangedMeShop #lgbtq #lgbtq2s #starofdavid #jewish #judaism #yegjew #jewishyeg https://www.instagram.com/p/B6TlcOegkIE/?igshid=19dftrzof6w5l

[mostlykind]

just finishing watching the queer eye episode ‘hose before bros’ and I am DYING at karamo shamelessly thirsting over that fireman 😭😭

[habibharry]

and yall say Harry doesn't DO ANYTHING for his fans like........what more could we want

[chickenkooks]

fuck y'all im rooting for the oc & jimin

[neotrances]

this changedme when i first saw it i remember sitting in my room when i was like 8 thinking this was the coolest thing ever and it was …shes a monster… a beautiful monster….

[hannsimp]

We’ve made it this far! Just one last push to #UnleavenTheCurve! Get your vaccination over Passover, check your local state officials for new eligibility windows like lower age groups, medical conditions, and job sectors you fall into! What better way to celebrate collective liberation than by accepting medicine that will keep you from getting covid at all, or at least out of hospitalization or death, while also protecting those around you as we build heard immunity and return life to normal? #passover2021 #jewishfood #jewish #pesach #pesachrecipes #matzahface #matzahfacemask #instapassover #passoverseder #jewsofinstagram #quarantineseder #hannahsimpson #changedme #lgbtq #transvisibility (at Manhattan, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMwwl3hnPMd/?igshid=1ufncha3qi9yb