#chay kittisawasd

[kimkhimhant]

imagine being eighteen and getting kidnapped and then suddenly finding out that your brother has been lying to you, your boyfriend has also been lying to you and is also in the mafia and is also not your boyfriend anymore, your dead mom is alive in some crazy mafia overlord's attic and you're now a mafia kid and you have to leave your childhood home to go live in the weird villain lair and cope with your broken relationship with your brother and your heartbreak and your trauma all on your own. haha (i'm sobbing)

[pepsi-pinacola]

Chay: I want to wake up with you every day for the rest of our lives

Kim: I get up at 5:30

Chay:

Chay: I want to see you at some point every day for the rest of our lives

[mortimerlatrice]

when kim is happy, his pupils go all big like a cat 😺 another illustration (that i didn't mean to do) for melt your silver down by the lovely @mightymightygnomepriest find the other one here.

[chalkrevelations]

Proposed:

Vegas and Porsche spend a whole bunch of time plotting to kill Korn, only for Macau and Chay to get there first.

Some intense questioning and emotional manipulation by his Hia finally get out of Macau that he lied when he initially told everyone that he stumbled into Korn and accidentally knocked him down the stairs when Korn grabbed his wrist during an argument, but he wanted to protect Chay. He says that the two of them didn't think people would believe Korn fell accidentally when Chay tried to push him away from Macau, after Korn grabbed Macau's wrist during an argument.

Some emotional manipulation by Porsche does not get anything out of Chay, who just looks at Porsche with big wet eyes from under his bangs and doesn't uncurl from the corner of the couch in Tankhun's rooms.

Some intense questioning by Kim does not get anything more than a "fuck off" out of Chay when Kim 1) calls bullshit on Macau's confession to Vegas and 2) accuses Chay of now taking the rap for Macau because they all know that no one would ever believe it was an accident when the displaced second son of the minor family pushed Korn Theerapanyakul down the stairs during an argument.

(Kim is not ... entirely correct. He's not entirely wrong, either, for all the good it does him.)

Kinn gets nothing out of anyone, because neither of these kids trusts him as far as they could spit. If Kinn was the least bit trustworthy, Vegas would be head of the minor family and Porsche would not - this is something both Macau and Chay have been in agreement on for a long time.

Tankhun takes one look at both of them in tears, Macau practically hyperventilating, just after they're pulled away from Korn's body in the stairwell - these two boys who previously have always been protected in one way or another from the dirty work of this family - and he KNOWS there was nothing accidental about it. He's just not sure who actually did the pushing, so he keeps his mouth shut because he doesn't really care about Vegas's brother, but no one is going to do anything to his baby chick Chay if he has anything to say - or not say - about it. (Pa shouldn't have given him a kid, if he didn't want something more important than Pa in Tankhun's life.)

Tankhun's right about one thing - it wasn't an accident.

Macau never - ever - admits to anyone that they did it together, 1-2-3-go, when Korn made the mistake of turning his back to them while he was at the top of the stairs to Nampheung's garret. Occasionally, Macau will catch Pete looking at him speculatively, head tilted just a bit, and Macau just stares back with the blandest look he can manage until Pete shakes his head and looks away. (These are, in fact, the only times Macau can manage to win a staredown against P'Pete. He doesn't realize how suspicious that is, in and of itself.)

(Macau never, ever, wants Vegas to know that their family - who Vegas tried so hard to protect him from - stained him enough that he could commit murder, even if it was in order to protect his Hia.)

Chay tells Porsche three years later during an argument right before Chay packs his things and moves out of the main family compound for the last time. He doesn't tell Porsche that Macau was the one to first send a significant look Chay's way when Korn dismissively turned his back on them at the top of the stairs. He does tell Porsche that he's the one who gave the final go-ahead nod to Macau.

(Chay absolutely wants Porsche to know that the Theerapanyakul family - who Porsche exposed him to - stained him enough that he could commit murder in order to protect his Hia.)

Working title: Nobody Talks, Everybody Walks

[kinnporschegl]

kinnporsche twt au bc i have been bored

[iveneverdoneanythingwrong]

This line. This one line for me colored all the rest of Porsche's journey in this show. This one line really grabbed me and percolated in the background of my mind throughout the rest of the series, because, seriously?? Who says that to their kid? Why make it obvious that you have a favorite child? Porsche was 10 when the "accident" happened so not only did his mother say this to her child, she said this to her prepubescent sponge of a child who will internalize just about everything.

As the rest of the series goes on, this is the line that made me think that Porsche and Chay are actually half brothers (or at least everyone but them thinks they are, including Nampheung). Bear with me here:

For context, this line came right after Kinn asked about Porsche's tattoo, and Porsche says that his mom liked phoenixes and that she talked about them all the time.

This context adds an element of rebirth to her directive not to "die" until Chay has graduated. Before the "accident" Chay was much too young to take in anything from such talk, so the phoenix imagery was directed solely at Porsche. So what "death" and "rebirth" was Mom expecting for her eldest?

The easiest explanation for this is that (only?) Porsche's (assumed?) father was in the mafia. We only get two real examples of Porsche's relationship with his mom pre-mafia-events and they both revolve around phoenix imagery: the sauna scene, and the memory scene where she tells him to "Grow up and fly with freedom, be strong and immortal like a phoenix."

When she talks to child!Porsche she talks of being strong, being free, of dying and rebirth. She's preparing him for the trial of being hunted/taken by the mafia. She's instilling the yearning for freedom, and the idea that no matter how hard or how bad it gets (death), it won't last forever (rebirth). In telling Porsche not to die until Chay has his degree, she wasn't suggesting that Porsche is worth less to her than Chay. I think what she's asking is that no matter what happens, Porsche should try to make sure that Chay is set up for a good life away from the mafia. Porsche cannot die (be subsumed by the mafia) until Chay finishes his degree (is independent of the mafia). Because no matter what happened to her, the mafia would be coming for Porsche sooner or later. Which they did. And they did only come for Porsche.

Being half brothers would help explain the way the mafia was completely focused on Porsche and only treated Chay as an information source on Porsche/hostage for Porsche's behavior. Korn only mentions Chay as part of the deal for Porsche to work there (ep1) or as a carrot after punishment (ep5). Because he was important to Korn as Porsche's brother, not as Nampheung's son. If Korn's and Gun's obsession with Nampheung was the reason for bringing Porsche in, then they would have done the same with Chay.

(Is it possible for Korn to also already have other plans for Chay? Absolutely. That fucker is a fucker. But once he had Porsche he said that all the pieces were in place. Chay had not been secured as a piece on the board.)

(Also, I don't think Chay's age would be a barrier for Korn/Gun; they're not waiting for him to get older before doing to him what Korn did to Porsche. For one, Macau goes to the same school Chay does. For two, Chay is at least 18 and applying to university. I don't think a year or two will phase the mafia. Especially since Vegas' goons had no problem kidnapping him, twice!)

Porsche was deliberately hunted, kidnapped, and manipulated into the mafia because of who he is. Chay only experienced any of these to the extent he did because of his relationship to Porsche. Nampheung knew that the mafia really had no inherent interest in Chay, and that Chay could be permanently Out of the mafia (except, you know, for him stalking crushing on Kim who is also wrong in thinking you can get out of the mafia).

So if the interest from Korn/Gun in Porsche is not from being Nampheung's son, then why? Why does Korn want Porsche working there and being happy? Why does Gun want Porsche to switch sides and come to Gun for "protection"? Who do they think Porsche is?

In semi-related meta, this also makes me think that Porsche's dream is not so much A Bar on the Beach specifically, but that it represents the freedom to live for himself. He specifies a private beach, where he opens when he wants, closes when he wants, and serves what he wants. Where his actions aren't constrained by other people at all. He took Nampheung's directive to heart and has been living his entire life for Chay. He only had a few more years to go for Chay to get his degree, for Porsche's life to be his own. But then he was kidnapped by the mob to live the rest of his life for them.

[lu-sn]

Chay wakes up every morning, alone in his big, quiet house, and thinks about all the ways his last conversation with Porsche should have gone.

In his mind, every new line he tries sounds more convincing than the last. Pa and Mae wouldn’t care about the house. They would want us to stay together. They would want you to be happy, too.

If you’re not happy, I’m not happy. Don’t you want me to be happy, Hia?

If you’re going to destroy yourself, I’ll destroy myself too. I’ll quit school. I’ll get a job. You can’t stop me, just like I can’t ever stop you—

Chay is not stupid. He knows it could never have gone that way. There are things that Chay cannot bear to say — lines that he will never cross — because to do so would break Porsche’s heart.

But he thinks about it. He thinks about the staggering bravery it would take to say, your dreams for me are not my own. Ask me what I want. Listen to my answer.

-

#kpanniversary2024 episode 5 + prompt 5: regret

[kinnbig]

KP Anniversary | Favourite Main Characters [3/?] | Chay + 🌈

[kimkhimhant]

yeah

[pepsi-pinacola]

Kinn: You need a hobby.

Kim: I have a hobby.

Kinn: Creating scenarios in your head of you and Chay together isn’t a hobby.

Kim: You’re right. It’s a profession and I excel at my job.

[mortimerlatrice]

illustration for melt your silver down, an incredible fic by @mightymightygnomepriest for the @kinnporschebigbang!

[sasa-chan]

Kim: I have no interest in dating.

*Chay walks into room*

Kim:

Kim: ...I-I want him.

[kinnporschegl]

kinnporsche twt au part 4

[lobsterjimsourcream]

i’ve seen a couple people saying chay is “not being subtle” with describing his crush to kim, playing his clearly-about-kim song to kim, etc, but i also think he knows he’s not being subtle. he’s FLIRTING. he’s shooting his shot. he’s blood-related to PORSCHE for god’s sake. he asked a celebrity to be his guitar tutor because he saw his opening and it WORKED. he’s getting all these opportunities to live his y/n life and he’s is 100% aware of it, and so far it seems to be working for him so he’s running with it. like multiple posts have said so far, he’s just mistaken about which genre he’s in. it’s gonna be devastating when he learns that - which i’m looking forward to because i live for angst.

[nooowestayandgetcaught]

kinnporsche the series s1e11 /// love in the air s1e12 

#otherwise known as pain. pain. more pain.