#complicated feelings about this series

[hakugreenfinch]

my friend sent me a screenshot of an old fb post of mine that she was tagged in and in which i complain that the new snk manga chapters were killing my motivation to write my fanfiction (that i was actually passionate enough about to then rework and start drawing as a comic in 2019. didnt finish but thats not the point now)

the thing is that post was from november 2014. i got into snk in july 2013. i dont actually remember exactly what made me post that, i looked up what chapter came out that day and i have guesses. probably just got annoyed that i had to rewrite the entire lore.

...actually tumblr is a great platform to post this on bc my blog probably documents my entire journey with that series. like the thing is. i started getting less joy out of this manga a little over a year after getting into it. i remember buying the first volume in december 2013, ive been reading it for less than a year at that point. and thats like, curious because i dont recall any story that i was/am into as much as i can sorta say i was into snk that started to become disillusioning this soon.

i started becoming less hopeful regarding snk in a year and my hopes for it only declined until i finally quit in summer 2016 and like... this is not me saying "ooooh it was never any good and i knew it deep down" because the main beef i have with it is that it has very good points its just less than the sum of its parts. its just... very weird to me. ive been into jojo for 4 years, n+c for 8, fma at least 13 and i still dont pick up any of these with the feeling of "well for whatever reason this is worth my time less and less".

i guess im just stuck on the part where i keep being told i have no right to say this show isnt The Best Ever because i "dont even know anything about the story" because i actually held out for it so long. i read a majority of the manga i spent most of my time in the fandom apparently hoping for it to make sense again and it just sucks remembering how it never delivered to me and how i keep being shut down because i dont know what im talking about, apparently.

[isjasz]

☀️⭐🌙👁️👑

This is the way you are supposed to play this game.

[sollucets]

THE EIGHTH SENSE

aired march 29th - april 26th, 2023

[youngpettyqueen]

I know the decision to have Julian's parents have him augmented was made on the fly but imo its pretty obvious from early on that Julian has Family Issues because he avoids talking about his family like the plague and I think they should've incorporated this into the Julian and Sisko dynamic right from early on because I think it would've made for some really compelling stories and moments and could've set up a REALLY interesting Julian and Jake dynamic which they kinda started to do but never fully went for

[bonefall]

Bones someone did a "Worst Parents" poll over on Twitter and it's going about as well as you'd expect.

"God people will do anything to hate on mentally ill male characters" and it's the guy who hits and yells at his son.

"Crowfeather's only crime was being a bit mean" hitting and humiliating your son= bit mean.

Yes these are things I've actually read

I'm not saying Curlfeather (who was pitted against him in the poll) is better or worse than Crowfeather, but I've seen a lot of people downplaying his abuse towards Breezepaw and acting like people are crazy for thinking Curlfeather was better

It's really wild to see it in action, isn't it? When a dad manipulates (Po3 book 2) and smacks his son (Po3 book 3) for absolutely no benefit besides his own ego, it's "mental illness" and ergo not a big deal. As if they think mental illness is a get-out-of-jail free card for child abuse.

The "Crowfeather Mental Illness" Crowd couldn't HANDLE the kind of mentally ill characters that I stan. They are weak and will not survive the winter.

When they say "stop being mean to boys with a disorder" they mean "stop holding an abusive father accountable for teaching his son slurs so he could get back at the ex-girlfriend who dumped him." When I say "stop being mean to boys with a disorder" I mean that I want to give Breezepelt a gun so he can enforce it himself. We are not the same.

[peachblossomdrama]

The Trainee ep 7 Tae sleeping on the job

[zhi-liet]

"Nezha had everything she used to want. He was aristocracy, beauty and elegance.

Nezha was the north.”

[crispywizardtale]

[mpreg-nouveau]

Since I'm in a Kurt Wagner mood...If y'all don't think Kurt Wagner's Catholicism isn't a huge crutch for being abandoned by both his mothers you are dead wrong.

Dude probably has a little figurine of Mary he talks to and prays to on occasion. Hell maybe has his own little collection of them. He fell into the "Mary is every Christian's mother" mindset hard. Probs refers to her as his mom sometimes reflexively. Dude has a rosery on him at all times and probably prays with it whenever he thinks too hard about his abandonment to comfort himself. Knows the Fatima prayer and hail holy queen. Has visited the various Mary centric holy sites and absolutely believes in the story of our lady of Guadalupe, Fatima, and the crying Mary statue.

You can talk shit about the Catholic church all you want to him. Talk shit about God and religion and he will nod along and listen respectfully. You say shit about Mary tho he will stab you.

[guardian-angle22]

TK/Carlos + Looks

↳ 3.02 - 3.04

[thepunkmuppet]

ok but the unspoken parallel of faith being attracted to angel to deflect from her obsession with buffy and lindsey being “in love” with darla to deflect from his obsession with angel is making me fucking INSANE

[sketchyracoon]

Rapid Eyes as a series is so haunting in a subtle way it's great.

[welostutopia]

the fact that every time winteam have had sex it hasn’t been in either of their rooms, first the hotel, then the locker room, now a public restroom, but they fall asleep together in win’s bed every night, it speaks volumes to how they aren’t ready to blur those lines yet. for them sex isn’t the most intimate part of their relationship, the most intimate part is falling asleep cuddled together in win’s room, it’s team’s safe haven, but they aren’t ready to fully express how they feel about one another.

i think win was almost ready, at least getting close to accepting things, and then team almost drowned and it shook him, he is now hit with this realisation that he loves team and if anything ever happens to him he wouldn’t know how to go on, but it also just confirmed all of his fears about losing someone he loves because he came so close to losing team, so while he now is more open and accepting of what he feels for team, it’s pushed him backwards from admitting that out loud. and herein lies the problem, team relies on win to lead, we’ve only ever seen him initiate two kisses, one a chaste thank you, the other after he almost drowns and win is near hysterical in front of him, everything else has been win leading, opening doors and allowing team to either follow of close them. team won’t admit his feelings until win does, he only admitted to caring and feeling protective of win after win pushed for those answers, and now win is taking a slight step back and telling waan that whatever happens next is up to team, which sure it always has been because while win leads he only leads as far as he thinks team will go, every last decision has ultimately been up to team after win gives options, now it seems like win needs teams confession before he can confess, but team doesn’t realise confessing is even on the table, he doesn’t know how deeply win feels and it’s holding team back.

all of this was to say that when win and team finally can accept and confess their feelings for each other, we will see more physical intimacy, aside from sleepy cuddles and chaste thank you kisses, in wins room. when they confess and accept the other feels the same, they’ll be able to bring parts of their relationship into their safe haven that before didn’t seem right to, the first time they have sex after confessing will be them making love, it’ll be different from all the other times they’ve had sex, it won’t be a one night stand neither thinks is going anywhere, it won’t be a quick fuck in the locker room or the public bathroom, it’ll be them finally matching up their sexual and emotional intimacy.

[that-ineffable-devil]

Feeling so incredibly sick right now but watching Loki S2 and like...

That blip of a scene in Ep5 where Loki fixes his hair and his coat when he pops up outside of Mobius's house has done me in.

Just like "Oh gosh, there he is, lemme just... Primp a little... There we go..."

[the-crooked-library]

IWTV characters are so real to me. my personality disorder has also caused me more angst and problems than my queerness ever did. the queerness is still a major theme though

[20001541]

it's so disappointing that we didn't get more of tomura and afo interacting after that huge revelation about afo being involved in his life from the very beginning. he had his dad giggling and kicking his feet. he even encouraged him to have another child. tomura thought afo finding him that day on the street was a coincidence, but it wasn't. none of it was, he was even given the quirk that killed his family then told he wanted every single one of his family members to die and that was born twisted for years after. he even thanked afo for making him for who he is today in previous chapters!

I wanted there to be an actual encounter between them where he is distraught that the man who he thought was his savior has been planning his downfall since before he was even born. I wanted more of afo telling him to his face how he has meant nothing to him and his usefulness begins and ends at him being a possible vessel for himself, and how he's never had any control over his life. then have tenko argue back against his words. to finally stand up to everything afo has tried to ingrain in him. to cast aside the name of tomura shigaraki which was the name he gave him and tell afo how he doesn't need him anymore. that he finally sees him for the pathetic man he truly is. I want to see afo's reaction to losing control over him permanently. izuku would also be helping him through this encounter as well, might write a fic about it tbh.

oh well best I can hope for now is tenko discussing his feelings about what was revealed in 419, that is if he survives. I have a feeling something will happen that will bring him back in some way based on how only the name tomura shigaraki was said but not tenko which is an important distinction to make. a tomura dies, tenko lives situation if you will.