#cuz i wanna like. be safe. obvi.

[mistervixxen]

pretty sure this is not a safe practice but

holy shit the burn from hand sanitizer on a small cut is soo hot. sometimes when i know ive got a nick or picked at a scab, i’ll dab the injury with extra sanitizer under the guise of “keeping it clean” but it’s because i like the sting 🥵

[loser-otaku-girl]

answering @maskedrealities questions

to be part of the jirai community u should be mentally ill (this is not me saying u need to become mentally ill if ur not im saying its prob not a safe space for u if u do have good mental health). most people in the community dont wanna get better and dislike ppl w good mental health in our spaces. this is a space where we can all be messed up together.

you can leave the community whenever. id suggest leaving if u want to get better because often being in a community full of illness (and other stuff) can make it harder to heal.

me personally i wouldnt tell others to join the community especially if theyre mentally sound (or like not mentally ill, doesnt sh, doesnt have bpd (or any other disorders that can be heavy do deal with just bpd is the most common among us (u also dont have to have bps obvi))), ect cuz that can mess them up. but if there is someone you know who wants a community to be themselves in that fits the jirai lifestyle/ideals id say tell them about it but dont force them to join.

my fav parts of the jirai community is having a place to be insane without being judged.

hopefully that answered all ur questions and if anyone has any other questions just lmk!

and if u want to add anything feel free cuz i have not double checked what i wrote...

[mysicklove]

i say “teacher” cuz im not a native english speaker and had no clue there was a difference between “professor” and “teacher” jshsjhd i’m so sorry

omg no pls don’t be sorry, tons of my friends call their professors teacher. that’s why i put it in the tags more bc i’m not worried about the word teacher LOL

it’s more when ppl talk about parents i’m a context where it just feels…kid like. and when ppl mention classes that are obviously only highschool related/mention how they go to lunch (which obvi only happens in k-12).

i won’t block just because of anything of these things mentioned, but i may be like, “hey! are you a senior in highschool or above 18??” bc i know some ppl are in highschool that are above 18, it’s just not the majority of highschoolers and just wanna keep my area a safe space from that

it’s not that big of a deal, and i’m sorry that i made a few of you guys worried/upset, i was just kinda mindless saying how i feel, i didn’t know it would spark all of this 😰😰😰

so yeah, sorry for going in depth, but pls don’t worry!!

[the-cat-chat]

May 25, 2024

Extraction (2020)

A black-market mercenary who has nothing to lose is hired to rescue the kidnapped son of an imprisoned international crime lord.

Warning: Review may contain spoilers. Read at your own risk.

JayBell: It's Memorial Day weekend, and how better to celebrate than a movie about an Australian mercenary. Patriotic? Maybe not. But close enough.

If someone told me this movie took place in the John Wick universe I would believe them. Chris Hemsworth's character has the same health stamina as Keanu Reeves, and the same ability to survive the impossible while also dealing with extreme loss. Don't get me wrong, I love this type of action movie that walks the line between superhuman and regular badass human. And I think this is a pretty great showing of the genre.

It's got great fight choreography, some emotional moments, betrayal, exciting car chases, and of course a wild David Harbour appears. I appreciate the relationship they built between Chris Hemsworth's character and the teenager he was guarding. Although the teenager was maybe a bit too emotionally mature at times. I know they did it so that the viewer could learn more about Chris Hemsworth's character's sad past, but the level of the teenager's awareness is a little crazy.

Basically, this is a great action movie. So if that's what you're looking for, then no complaints. Well my only complaint is the almost silly way for them to contrive a "cliffhanger" type ending. I really don't think it's necessary, and that's probably the only thing I'd change about the movie.

Rating: 6.5/10 cats 🐈‍

Anzie: I had no expectations for this movie bc I only knew it had Chris Hemsworth and it was a Netflix action movie. And bc of that the plot was whiplash inducing. First- watching it is exhausting, I legit joked the whole two hours was going to be the same fight scene from the start of the movie but just continued and I kinda wasn’t wrong. And can I just say I really didn’t appreciate the bone crushing of the one guy fixing his busted up nose or the way Chris Hemsworth killed some guy with that rake. Why was a rake even inside??? Just to harm my psyche??? I CLOSED MY EYEeeesss!

Anyway it is very nerve racking and gets you invested in what’s going to happen next and obvi we know this tough guys gonna go soft and wanna keep the kid safe- not just bc he’s a job but cuz he likes him. And speaking of Ovi. Where’s his degree is psychiatry?? He’s good. Anyway—- I totally knew David Harbor would be evil. Netflix just wants to keep crushing my soul? Right?

And can I say even that- I was “ok” - but the end. I’m mad. And I know it’s drama- it’s how it goes- blah blah blah. I love that he’s indestructible until the very end when the helicopter is THERE and ONE BULLET takes him down and OF cOuRsE he’s next to ThE BrrIDdge!! And of course it’s a callback to him jumping off the cliff in the first scene. And of course Ovi has to jump off the high dive into the pool to blurry looking Chris Hemsworth standing off to the side- so we know he’s actually still alive. Ugggh. I hate it. I can’t waiiiit for the sequel just to get more of Ovi’s words of wisdom.

Rating: 5.5/10 Cats 🐈‍⬛

[rancid-jester]

i had a strider bros AU dream last night?

so basically there was this like complete govt takeover and they were using kids to complete like, unsavory tasks (idk it was mostly just random shit) they had all these kids in like seperate camps.

the striders were in camp 12 which was meant to work on the time continuum or some shit? the govt did not know that dave could time travel. they had these like, big boxes you'd go in and it would scan you and put you were you were supposed to be, with a set of instructions you needed to enact.

except the striders were rebelling obvi. Hal hacked the time machines so that him, Dirk, and Dave could go back to before the fascist govt takeover and help the rebellion against them.

then like randomly some kids from camp 11 showed up. one of them was Karkat and obvi he immediately fell in with the Striders. the govt officials then came and their strat to find these missing camp 11 kids was to start jokes and see who could finish them.

(camp 11 is the entertainment camp)

they kept raising their hands to answer. lil hal also wanted to answer but he kept answering them wrong so the guards were just like. staring at him like "wtf kid".

eventually dirk was like "guys stop answering this shit its clearly some weirdass interrogation tactic" and so they stopped raising their hands to answer.

so the govt officials shot all the kids who had answered the jokes right. immediately the Striders started leading the rest of these frantically running kids to a safe place outside of the camps, where time travelling would put them directly into the rebel compound.

Dave and Karkat led the charge and then they kinda stopped outside of camp 1 cuz there was a bunch of random backpacks outside and they wanted to nab them. Dirk and the majority of the other kids caught up while Dave was arguing with someone at camp 1.

Dirk's like "Yo man, Lil Hal's at the end making sure the others keep up, but the guards are after us, we gotta keep moving."

and then Dave's like. "Okay. Yall camp 1 bitches wanna get out of here?"

so they take the camp 1 folks they were arguing with, and Dave starts like mass-time traveling them into the compound. He gets everyone but him, Karkat, and the camp 1 girl through, but he doesnt have the energy to pull them through with him.

the three get captured by the guards and Karkat is like "dude, you should just go. youre clearly more important than us, you have superpowers and shit"

but daves like "nah man, im gonna get us all outta this bs"

then they get interrogated for a minute. they get left alone and then dave travels them back and they find the others.

anyways the dream ended with some shit about how all the camps have started to be killed ruthlessly because those damn teens are too rebellious or w/e.

[keepermcge]

Rules updated! 

[alwaysf0rev3r]

avenger men in bed ;)

pairing: bruce banner x reader, bucky barnes x reader, steve rogers x reader, thor x reader, stephen strange x reader

warnings: smut, oral sex (f & m recieving), somnophilia (consensual), hair pulling, semi-public sex, restraints and tying up, choking

a/n: let me know if i missed any warnings :)

Bruce Banner

you. you you you you it's all about YOU always.

he literally just wants to eat you out like ma'am coochie plssssss

obvi he likes a good blowjob and fucking you, but god there was absolutely no better feeling for him than you sitting on his face.

you barely did it, but when he did, he prayed he could die right then and there with you just grinding on his face

he literally just shoves his fingers in his mouth after fingerblasting you cause he's so obsessed with your taste

im sorry but this man absolutely loves to stick a finger in your mouth... the way you suck on it and hallow your cheeks slightly, LORDDDDDDD thats it for him truly

he's more cautious than the rest, but god when he gets horny, he gets HORNY he doesnt gaf where you are

like you guys can be out but he will put his hand in your pants under the table as subtle as possible and then suck on his finger in front of everyone, pretending he was just cleaning some food off his finger

like horny bruce is an absolute different person....

he just doesn't even think about cumming he just gets absolute and total pleasure from watching you finish, there are so many nights he forgets and doesnt cum, and he doesnt care

after care is his thing, he doesn't even mean to do it, he just loves you

brings you tea and some midnight snack while you guys play a board game or watch a movie after

but then he wants to fuck like 5 mins later cuz this man is so desperate for ur cookie ong

Bucky Barnes

he's definitely rougher with you, into more bdsm type stuff and is super experimental

i feel like he's so into mutual masturbation

like nothing would get him off like telling you what to do while you touch yourself, making you cum without even touching you

HE ABSOLUTELY TIES YOU UP

mild choking would fs be a thing, but i think he would just always tie you up somehow

metal hand metal hand metal hand

if he doesn't have a tie to tie you up with, his metal hand pushing you down does the job

vertical sixty nine. i said it.

he loves watching you cum, like seriously, the sight of you moaning and twitching relentlessly is enough to make him cream his pants like a teenager

he'd be a huge talker

"you're so good for me" "i'm gonna cum if you keep doing that" "i just wanna fuck the brat out of you" shit like that yk

i think he likes to take control to kind of cope with the fact that he never had any, but its all safe and fun, esp for you cuz yum

this is so random but i can just imagine him coming into the kitchen while you prepared a snack and just putting whipped cream or icing or something like that on your and sucking it off. like its so him

Steve Rogers

i know a sub when i see one.

this man is a knee begger crier all of it like

i can imagine the first time you guys are in the bedroom, making out more heated than normal and all of a sudden this man WHIMPERS

hes such a boob guy

peace and luv but he is so desperate

like you guys will be out eating dinner with the others and you'll just see his pecker staring at you

he wants you everywhere and any time.

i could imagine you at tony's for some cocktail party, and you go to the restroom to take a piss, but you cant cuz your 6 foot something super human boyfriend is already in the stall waiting for you, hand in pants

he just humps you like a dog and whines so loud, hes definitely a moaner j whispering in your ear in public "im so hard right now, please touch me, i'll do anything" "you're so hot, please just jack me off before i cream my pants just looking at you, god"

HANDJOBS god, you just sitting next to him and jacking him off while you whisper simple "good boy" "you like that, baby?" in his ear... he'd just be thrusting into your hand and moaning so loud he can barely hear you

he loves when you use him to get off, like when you ride his thigh or abs

THAT AMAZONIAN POSITION FUCK WHAT IS IT CALLED cuz god ik steve would just absolutely cumbust when you did it

he basically j loves being your bitch and wants you all the time

Thor

i do not fear much, but lord knows i fear being anywhere within a 100-foot radius of a bed with this man.

he will literally fuck you until you're on the brink of unconsciousness

he's in control but in a more aggressive (consensual) way

FREE USE i j know this man loves to just eat you or fuck you when you're cooking or watching tv, using you when he wants

he loves fucking you in your sleep (you agreed and spoke about it before, its 100% consensual)

like he literally naturally wakes up at 8 everyday just to finger fuck you til you wake up

this man comes home and doesn't even say shit, just bends you over and goes to pound town

no bro face fucking???? absolutely his thing

theres nothing hotter for him than grabbing your hair and just thrusting in and out

the slightly watered eyes, the messy spit, god he sometimes comes close to cumming just THINKING about it

he shows no mercy. oh, you came 10 times and cant move? too bad spread your legs

since he's so rough, i feel like he'd get a little guilty and do the absolute MOST to pamper you afterwards

face masks, full body massages, he'd even give you a little nail trim. like you're in a whole mf spa after you fuck

Stephen Strange

confidence. this man has it. (ok but if i looked like him i would too tbh)

he's so chill it scares u, like what is this man up to???? even when he takes control, he has this smug chill 'i know it all' tone to him

he absolutely makes you call him doctor when he's in control...

he loves blowjobs like fuck there is nothing hotter than watching you so passionate about taking the most of him you can, the sight of it is even hotter than the feeling

"you're so warm, fuck, just a little longer" "you're being so good, i'll give you a reward, darling, don't worry."

THIS MAN IS AN ABSURDLY GOOD PUSSY EATER LIKE not like ohhh thats a dude who can eat puss its like WTF THAT MAN CAN EAT PUSS...

like it is the most toe curling hair pulling lip biting eye rolling headboard grabbing head like where did this man learn so much

i feel like he is in control more often, but every now and then he presses your buttons (not washing the dishes, being late to dinner, leaving dirty clothes everywhere, etc) just to get you angry. once you're mad enough he just says "show me how angry you are"

when hes sub, he still has a certain chill to him, but its hot

his eyebrows furrow and he just does as told, wanting you to touch him

"yes, i promise, i'll be good." "yes, yes, that feels good, thank you" like this man breathes so deep and just groans so loud

[kittydripuwu]

♡. - bf!gojo headcannons

+ pairing - gojo satoru x reader

+ word count - 2000+

+ cw - gojo satoru. warning. fluff and smutty stuff <3

+ a/n: HI this took me too long to write but here <3

SFW

- he is so fucking ANNOYING like actually this dude is a fucking menace to society

- shows you he likes you by teasing you <3 he absolutely loves to annoy the fuck out of you and make you all flustered and blushie for him

- super straight up with asking you out, cuz he knows he's hot and like let's be honest who wouldn't wanna be with him tf

- super duper playful person so prepare for one HELL of a relationship. he's like a little angel and devil and the same fucking time.

- loves spas? he will go to spas with you and get massages w u.

- rich ass danger to society. will take you out on the most creative and fancy dates like he'll take you absolutely anywhere you want to go

- even though he's cocky as fuck and kinda selfish (sorry it's true) he will treat you like an absolute princess

- spoils the FUCK out of you. you want something? you don't even have to ask you've got it.

- takes you on expensive vacations and trips because once again hes RICH and likes the beach.

- takes so many random pictures of you? like you can be sitting on the couch doing nothing or taking a nap and he'll just take pictures of you. OH AND he has the absolute worst pics of you too oml he WILL tease u about how u look in them constantly

- really really really nosy. u can't hide anything from him cuz he'll end up finding out somehow if you do

- that also goes for you if you're sad, he will instantly know if something is off with you and honey he doesn't take no for an answer so you will be forced to tell him what's wrong and you wont be able to leave his arms from the rest of the day after that

- love language pt1 -gifts. like i said, he spoils you, so anytime you guys get into a fight or anything, he'll buy you something to make up for it

- love language pt2 - physical touch. clingy ass man who just wants to cuddle and hug you and hold ur hand and kiss u and ugh so cute

- MAN CHILD. dude he may be the strongest sorcerer but he's so fucking stupid sometimes. so please help this man out when he needs it

- really likes being taken care of. sometimes six eyes can be a lot for him to handle and his ability can really wear him down so please hold him and play w his hair and give him kisses cuz he needs it sometimes <3

- really bad at communicating his feelings at the start. he hates being vulnerable and seeming weak so there will be some issues with communication until you basically force it out of him. like pls show him it's okay for him to vulnerable sometimes

- stupidest and most obnoxious pet names for you along w the classic ones obvi. he'll call you shit like "sugar muffin cupcake" or just "baby" OOh also loves using "kitten, puppy, bunny" cuz pet kink (we'll get into that in the nsfw section)

- has no idea what personal space is. will sit in the bathroom while you shower, always be in the same room as you, CONSTANTLY touching you.

- cannot go w out holding your hand in public cuz like everyone needs to know you're his.

- and w that he's very very very possessive. like you're his property, he's yours. he won't let ANYONE else touch you ever.

- a BITER. he fucking bites??? like this lil shit is so hostile he will actually bite you out of nowhere cuz he feels like it

- takes up the whole bed when sleeping and will deny it when you confront him about it.

- also a super deep sleeper like this man is IMPOSSIBLE TO WAKE UP ugh

- just jump on him to wake him up <3

- but also loves to fall asleep with you in his arms <3 he jus wants to protec you n make u feel safe (but he won't tell you that)

- FINDS ways to annoy you, it's a whole game to him, just purposely trying random pranks and doing strange things to see what ticks you off

- will then proceed to tease you about it

- always wins pillow fights. don't even try babe. you won't win.

- really bad at cooking. like terrible. like don't let him near a kitchen. he'll always just get you guys takeout instead

- SHOWS YOU OFF. he's such a bragger but also the second he sees someone lookin at you a lil too closely, they are done for.

- ok this one may be debatable but i feel like gojo would actually be a good driver when he's not fucking around on the road for his own fun. like c'mon please control this man and stop him from going like 100 over the fucking speed limit cause he thinks he's such a "risk taker"

- hand on ur thigh while driving. maybe he's also teasing you. and also constantly pulls over to make out or fuck if this is one of those night drives.

- also drives a really expensive car cuz once again, RICH ASS DANGER TO SOCIETY.

- absolutely loses it when you wear his clothes he thinks its so fucking cute cuz he's so big n tall and they fit so baggy on you its adorable to him

- if he starts talking he actually will not be able to shut the fuck up because that's simply something gojo satoru does not know how to do so like please kiss him to shut him up if he talks too much pls and thanks <3

- the least DRY texter on this planet, this dude will send you the most confusing and hilarious text messages

- makes you befriend his students because everyone needs to know who you are and gojo wants to show you off and also wants his students to be friends with his girlfriend

NSFW UNDER THE CUT 

- meow purrr hes so sEXIE

- domain expands you lol

- to start. KING OF CONSENT!! will make sure you're okay the full way through.

- switch switch switch switch.

- w obvi a dom lean cuz i mean have you seen him this man is a fucking tree and he's strong >:)

- only switch when he's lazy or wants to try something new but most of the time he will dominate you. sorry hon i don't make the rules but we're talking mostly dom gojo here

- knows what he's fucking doing. all the time. he's super experienced it's kinda annoying sometimes like wtf gojo why are u so good at everything you do.

- please ruin me gojo <3

- anyways

- call him daddy please

- he's a fucking tease and a half this man does not care where you are, who you're with, what you're doing, he will fucking tease you and get you all hot and bothered.

- this goes hand in hand with him dragging you to the nearest bathroom or empty room and fucking you right then and there because gojo just can't hold back.

- whispers filthy things in your ear at the most inconvenient times. thanks gojo.

- goes MAD when you moan his name.

- "don't hold back those pretty moans of yours baby, make as much noise as you want for daddy"

- likes referring to you as little because size kink goes hard with him. i mean. he's like. 6'3 or 6'7 idk he's fucking tall and hot either way.

- "my good little girl doing so well for me"

- also likes to see his cock in your belly, and press his hand on it to feel how deep and good he's fucking you

- PUSSY ENTHUSIAST. really likes eating you out.

- praise and degradation go hand in hand with this man. will praise you so much and so well if you're really good for him, but the second you disobey it's all degrading from here on out sweetie.

- he can pull a "you're doing so good for me kitten, yeah just like that baby"

- or a "you're nothing but my little whore for me to use and fuck when i want, understand slut?"

- LIKE?? OK GOJO DEGRADE ME

- brat tamer asf. be a little brat? get bent over his lap and get fucked like one right after. simple.

- CRUEL with punishments. so so so mean but he'll be so nice to you while punishing you sometimes just to confuse you and make you lose your fucking MIND.

- makes you take it like a good girl. take whatever he's giving you. and ik you wont say no because if ur reading this far you clearly want gojo to ruin you too baby, its okay ik. me too.

- puts his blindfold on you nnnghhh

- sometimes ties ur hands with it too

- on the topic of blindfolds, gojo LOVES torturing you with all kinds of toys. this man will use all kinds of shit to tease you and have as much fun as he can pushing you to your limit <3

- sadistic fuck lowkey like did yall see the way he ripped jogo's head off in the anime dude he will take his time to leave some pain marks on you (if ur into it obvi)

- loves restraining your hands absolutely LOVES when you're fully submissive for him and have no way to stop anything hes doing to you

- big fan of edging and overstimulation. once again these 2 go hand in hand. (that's just how things go with gojo).

- gojo can go on with edging you for hours (one of his fav punishments for you) until you're literally begging on your hands AND knees to cum

- and then he'll let you. but then comes the overstim. good luck baby. you'll need it.

- LOVES LOVES LOVES to finger you holy shit have you seen his long ass fingers

- would make you sit on his lap when both of you get home from work and tell you about his day while he fingers you. he'd start with one finger to throw you off guard, and then slip another one in as you continue talking. "what was that baby? i couldn't hear you" he'd say as he would SLOWLY thrust his fingers into you. and by the time you're all incoherent and begging him to cum, he'll simply pull out and say "cmon sugar, from the top. we're going to keep doing this until i hear everything, and you learn to speak clearly". fucker. you'll be so frustrated by the end.

- sometimes fucks you in his domain. cause he has full control and can do anything to you. god he loves being in CONTROL.

- big cockwarming enthusiast. likes to have you cockwarm him while yall be wtachin a movie or smthn. good luck taking his FAT COCK. you'll be crying by the end cause he gives no mercy.

- likes trying new shit. he's literally open to almost anything and actually likes trying new kinks and things cause he thinks it "really spices things up". he's not wrong

- LOVES roleplay. especially teacher x student. he finds that shit really hot. mainly because he is an actual teacher. and you may be his student. he'll make you wear a little short skirt and spank you with a ruler.

- now let me begin. PET KINK.

- makes you keep your mouth open when he fucks you because he adores the way your eyes roll to the back of your head and how lewd you look with your mouth hanging open and drooling like a puppy.

- fucking adores to call you kitten, puppy, bunny, those sorts of nicknames. i mentioned this in sfw. but gojo has a pet kink. you cannot change my mind.

- has a collection of collars with his initials on it. they're all different colors, usually to match your lingerie or clothes. and they have matching leashes.

- makes you wear ears too awh

- WILL MAKES YOU CRAWL TO HIM AND SIT ON YOUR KNEES IN FRONT OF HIM WEARING ONLY THE COLLAR, LEASH AND EARS

- also has handcuffs n ropes to match the colour

- COLOUR CODES EVERYTHING TF

- SPITS IN YOUR FUCKING MOUTH TOO

- dirty dirty dirty mf

- teaches you tricks <3

- "good kitten"

- constant reminders that he owns you.

- "and who do you belong to baby?"

- oh and he makes you add "sir" at the end of anything you say

- fuck you gojo ur so fucking hot and annoying and stupid i hate you please ruin me

[ndiecity]

idk ur still doing the confessions thing but anyway. it's not really wild or anything, i just needed to get it off my chest lol (you can ignore this if you want this gets pretty long and confusing i think so buckle up)

also shoutout to the 6th grade anon, i had a similar 6th grade exp. middle schoolers are the worst. i literally had little no friend AND was bullied lol.

anyway there was this one girl in my class that was like a sorta popular girl i was friends with. so during 6th grade, i had no friends except for her (i dont think she saw me as a friend tho or were even friends in the first place?? idk) and i would always crave her attention. i didn't know i had a crush on her i think.

(side note: i would rate the girls in my class based on how pretty and nice to me they are, (i think i put her on 2nd lol))

so then whenever she was absent for the day i would feel sad and all that shit. whenever she was around i always do anything to please her or make her think im cool or something (i was not cool, i was a loser). we would talk endlessly on messenger, talking abt random shit, how shitty her mom was, how shitty my mom was etc. one time during our first class for the day (which was about 5am i think) she was acting weird, i asked her about it, she said her stomach hurt. so me, being all lovesick and shit gave her my lunch ( i didn't have lunch money and only had sandwiches lol) when she thanked me for it, and said she felt better, i felt so proud. idk i just felt so happy then

fast forward to end of 6th grade, we were graduating. by that i mean transitioning from 6th grade to 7th grade. anyway. so we graduated, kept in touch, still messaged her on messenger, and then school got in the way and my phone got taken away cuz i failed sum classes in the 2nd quarter. never had it back since. so we didnt talk for about 4 years.

so back in 2020, my parents got me a laptop for school, and i made a new mess. acc. i reached out to her again. we talked, talked abt shitty moms, i found out she's bi and i told her im a lesbian. after a few days i asked her if she'd ever had a gf or bf or whatever (like the idiot i was) and said she didnt have to answer if she didnt want to obvi. she said yes she's had bf's before. i said, cool. then she asked me why i was asking i told her i was just curious.

then came out of nowhere, she said, "wanna try?" so then my brain shut off and i didnt reply for minutes then she just sent a "haha"

and she was like, "oh sorry was that weird? sorry😬"

but i said it was fine and shit. we didnt talk about it for about a day.

then we were talking again and i was like, "so this is gonna sound weird but do you ever like, like someone and would want a romantic relationship with them but wouldn't like, mind being their friend instead? like youre in the middle?"

and she said "yeah, i have" so then i was like "oh cool, cool"

then she asked, "why? have you?" and i said yes.

then she asked who. and my brain shut off again lmaoo so i was just like "you" the speech bubble appeared multiple times lmao then i followed up with like, "sorry! that was weird! please just forget about it!"

then she was like, "no no, it's fine. i feel the same way" (and i beliived it. how naive was i?)

so then i was like, "really?? cool cool cool" (im a really awkward person okay)

then after a few minutes of talking again (you know when you're like flirting as a joke but then it's not a joke anymore? lol) she was like, "so wanna be my gf?"

my brain shut off again. i didnt answer for a few minutes cuz my brain was dead. then she was like, "um was that too fast? that was too fast sorryy"

by the time i read that my hand was shaking lmaoo (from nervousness or shock i dont know) so i hastily replied with, "nah its fine. i would love too" after overthinking it and shit

does dating count when your just talking over text? what is dating????

anyway we flirt a lot, saying goodnight, i love you's and shit. she said i was her first gf, i said she was my first relationship and what not. i was genuinely happy. i had a person who understood me, and liked me, and i was happy. she even said she saved my bday on her phone

so then like about a week and a before my bday was when shits started to go down.

i messaged her, said a quick goodmorning cuz i had classes and how i wanted to kill myself and shit like that (dont worry, im not actively suicidal and she already knew this) she replied and i quote "Good morning, love. I love you."

then like after classes, i messaged her, asked how her day was, told her about my day etc. i waited about an hour. (she doesnt typically reply for about 10 - 15 minutes cuz duh she does have a more eventful life than mine) so i thought none of it. thought she was just busy. so it was nighttime and still no word from her. so i said good night and wished for her to be safe.

morning came, i checked my messages, still nothing, she didnt even see it yet. i went on with my day thinking nothing of it. told myself she might have some problems at home and all that. by the 3rd day, i was pretty anxious and i couldnt think properly. my brain conjuring up scenarios where her mom found out, and her phone got taken away. anything just to convince myself what the dreaded truth was.

it was the 5th day was when i gave up. i saw she changed her pfp, and captioned it like she would normally caption it. replied to the comments, that kind of shit. so then i was so mad by then so i commented too. ofc she didnt reply. i spent days worrying over her safety, when in reality she's just an asshole. and i really thought she really like me you know? i really thought she'd at least considered me as her friend, i guess not

my bday came, we had a party but i wasn't really feeling it ya know? by then i'd already spent the past week crying myself to sleep. no one noticed a thing.

a few months ago i saw she had a bf, and by that time i already felt like my old self again, no longer the broken pathetic shell she left. i was back to square one. so i cried again.

present day, i still see her posts, her ig stories, (i dont think she blocked me). and i cant bring myself to block her either. like idk on one hand i'm so mad that she just left me hanging, that her relationship with her new bf lasted longer than we were together and on the other i knew if she ever reached out again, i would latch on to every inch of her. (that's probably bad lol)

anyway have a nice day/afternoon/night!!!! i hope i havent troubled you too much lol sorry!

Damn that's a lot to take in, I'm sorry 😔

[cuinnamonbun]

I really love ur headcanon about Hijabi Mc with the brothers! I really love it cuz there is no one writing about us in any fandom =(

I was thinking would u do the (un)datebale characters with Hijabi Mc if u can ? =3

If u don’t want then u can ignore the ask 🖤

Hello there, angel! I assume you meant the chaotic Hijabi MC headcanon that I wrote, so I hope you enjoyed these xx

she/her pronouns!!

The (Un)Dateable Characters' + Luke’s Reactions to a Hijabi MC That Looks Extremely Pious and Quiet but is Actually a Chaotic Mess

Diavolo

As future king of the Devildom that wishes to strengthen the relations between the three realms, prejudice and discrimination against the human exchange students’ choice of religion is a HUGE no-no

Diavolo would not mind the fact that she is wearing a symbol of her devotion to God on her head, but he would be so intrigued by this human at first meeting

Not about her religion, of course, he is well aware of all the religions in the world; Abrahamic religion being the one he is most familiar with (obvi)

What excited him was the fact that this human was so. friggin. hilarious.

He’s not even sure if this human is doing it on purpose because something would happen that would catch her off guard and she would just say?? the most random shit???

Like say, she got jumped by Mammon and her response to that would be a monotone scream and a “sTOP i could’ve dropped my croissant!” but she was actually genuinely startled

He’d be so fascinated like wow! Go girl, give us nothing!!

He would invite her over for tea so many times just so she could explain slang to him

Diavolo: Tell me MC, what is the meaning of DILF?

Due to personal reasons, MC will now be passing away

He would abuse the usage of slang everywhere and he would be so excited to finally understand what Leviathan is talking about

Lucifer: Diavolo, we must talk about the student council budget

Diavolo: That wasn’t very cash money of you

Lucifer: ....excuse me?

Diavolo: Periodt okurrr slay queen

MC has to go hide to avoid being slaughtered like a sacrificial lamb by Lucifer

Diavolo would be also be curious and impressed at the intricate planning of each and every one of her pranks

Like sure, it may be annoying to be the one at the receiving end of it, but understanding the details behind it?? All the logic, physics and patience put into it just to ensure a flawless delivery??? Absolutely stunning

MC has him mesmerised

He would absolutely want to learn the art of pranking from her

Honestly, at this point it’s no longer the human exchange student and the Devil King, it’s now the mentor and the mentee

Lucifer has to demand MC to stop teaching him these things for the sake of his sanity because it’s taking him away from his royal duties that’s keeping the Devildom from falling apart

They still meet up in secret though screw you, Lucifer

Barbatos

This is another demon whom would not mind the fact that their chosen exchange student is a Muslim

Lord Diavolo’s reputation hangs on this exchange program going extremely well, he would not let simple prejudices put a smear on that

He has prepared himself well to receive people from different walks of life just so he can provide all students a comfortable stay during their term in the Devildom

But wait...what is that human doing?

Oh...this poor man

Not only does he have to keep that ginormous labyrinth of a castle spotless and immaculate at all times and ensure that every event being hosted by the castle is going perfectly without a hitch, but he also has to take care of an overgrown man-child that is also known as the future king of the Devildom

Now, he has to make sure this...mess of a human doesn’t go stir up trouble anywhere?

Barbatos is a calm and collected man, but he’s still a demon; virtues aren’t exactly something they practice 

He would need to down three cups of melancholy coffee and squeeze a stress ball whenever he catches MC in her antics whether it is alone or with someone in tow

Somehow he’s the only one whom MC would find almost impossible to prank

Like she managed to catch Lucifer off guard once (that was her proudest achievement) but BARBATOS???? yeah, it’s like he has a pair of eyes on the back of his head or something

MC: *tries to sneak up on him*

Barbatos, not even turning back: Enough of that now, MC, come enjoy this tea I’ve made

Pranking Barbatos will become her number one mission during her entire term in the Devildom

Barbatos would be really amused and impressed at the lengths she would go through just to see that shocked look on his face

Why, it might even be—dare he say—endearing

Though MC will cause this man stress and grey hairs, Barbatos couldn’t help but appreciate her company every time she came around

When she’s not up to her daily shenanigans, she would simply opt to help Barbatos out with some of the chores or preparing the treats for a tea party with the student council members and the exchange program, even though he’s mentioned that she should do no such thing

But knowing that this girl is constantly energetic and restless, Barbs agreed to let her help since he would not want to deal with her breaking some priceless antiques or getting herself in trouble with Devildom law again

She helps to remind him that it’s okay to be laidback once in a while and that he doesn’t need to be so uptight all the time

These two have an unusual friendship but it’s only good vibes all around ^^

Before she leaves the Devildom though, he would pretend that she actually managed to startle him with her last grand prank and the look on her face was worth his reputation taking a slight hit

He totally has a soft spot for her

Solomon

OOOOH THESE TWO

THESE TWO ARE THE EMBODIMENT OF CHAOS ITSELF

Solomon and MC would be the best of friends man

The minute this shady sorcerer laid his eyes on her, he KNEW...this would be his new BFF

They would wreak so much havoc together that they give Lucifer a migraine the size of Lord Diavolo’s castle because they’re rUiNiNG tHe iNtEgRiTy oF tHE eXcHanGe pRoGrAm

Psh, as if that’d stop them

Honestly, it was like they each have one braincell that cancels each other out every time they get together

Lucifer: You two better have an explanation for this

MC: We have three actually. 

Solomon: Pick your favourite

Lucifer hates it whenever they get together and he would always try to prevent them from meeting up 

But his wits are no match for the power of their friendship!!

Solomon would defff try to persuade MC to get more pacts with other demons

Solomon: C’monnnn MC, we could be powerful! :c

MC: Bold of you to assume we’re not powerful now, bestie

So we have established that MC loves to pull pranks right?

She would have so many ideas on the top of her head that she would never use because 1) they either defy the laws of physics or 2) she would need magic to pull it off perfectly

So imagine her excitement when she found out Solomon is the greatest human sorcerer

She would 100% reel him in her plans and schemes and NO ONE (except the angels, they have immunity bc they’re babies :] ) would be safe from them

Despite all the fun they would have though, Solomon definitely treasures her as his greatest friend

I imagine life for Solomon would be quite lonely and he appreciates the constant joy and company that MC would provide him

He would definitely fuck a bitch up if someone dares to mess with his bestie 🙄

These two adore each other so much but they would be caught DEAD before they would admit that to each other 🤭

Simeon

When they first met, Simeon was so happy to find a person so devoted to God such as MC

He takes it upon himself to become MC’s guardian angel around the Devildom

He would helicopter them for a while and would (reluctantly) back off if MC finds it a bit suffocating 

(don’t be mean MC, he just cares about u alot that’s all :( )

This man is capital P patient

I mean, that’s a given with him being an angel and all

But seriously,,, one has to be in awe at how calm and collected he is even when MC would pull pranks that would cause a normal person to wanna punch the living daylights out of her

Eventually she would feel bad and stop pulling these pranks on him though, he’s just too sweet and she can’t take advantage of that </3

They would be really close though (along with Luke) because he would frequently invite her to pray the 5 essential prayers together with Luke or read the Qur’an together and it’s just wholesome vibes all around man 🥺

As angels, him and Luke would have such beautiful recitations of the Qur’an and I can picture MC frequently dropping by Purgatory Hall just to listen to him recite the kalimahs with the perfect tajweed (Non-Muslims if you’d like to hear an example, check out Sheikh Mishary reciting Surah al-Kahf, it’s beautiful man 🥺)

He would frequently invite MC and Luke out for walks too and these three would look so domestic together people often mistake them as a little family (much to the brothers’ chagrin and Simeon’s amusement)

Simeon has such a calming presence that he could even tame a chaotic MC down and have her sit still enough, it will be as if she turned into a completely different person

Lucifer, in his demon form: MC STOP RUNNING AROUND YOU’RE GOING TO FALL AND HURT URSELF

MC, violently shaking like a hamster on crack: U CANT STOP ME LUCI, URE NOT THE BOSS OF-

Simeon: Hello, MC! Would you like to come and have a pleasant chat with me? ^^ 

MC, as if in a trance: ...anything for you, Beyonce

MC is such a simp for Simeon and honestly, who can blame her?

Luke

Luke was extremely happy when the two of them met

This cutie is a proud servant of God and he loves humans who loves Him as much as he does

So it comes as to no one’s surprise when he attaches himself to MC

This would heighten when MC stepped between him, Beel and Lucifer during that,,,,incident

His favourite time of the day is praying in congregation with MC and Simeon and baking with MC

MC would steer clear from involving Luke in her pranks and/or outright pranking him

He’s just a precious little child okay, MC has a soft spot for this angel

She would definitely try to tone down her chaotic energy around him, but she would NOT hesitate to verbal + cyber bully any demons that dare to bully her child

Rando demon: haha shortstack

MC: So you have chosen death

Seriously, Luke would gawk at the obscenities coming from MC’s mouth

He would have to physically drag her away before the demons could devour them both

He would be absolutely SHOOKETH at the language she used because she has been nothing but sweet and polite to him. It was like she switched into a whole different person right in front of his eyes

Luke: MC! I knew living with those horrid demons is a bad idea! They’ve corrupted you now!! *crying Luke noises*

MC: Lil buddy, I was born this way

He would definitely feel really touched that MC is so protective of him though, but he would have to tell her to never say those words again, even if she’s trying to protect him

She would (hesitantly) tell him she would try her best but that would literally only last for half a day because another demon has foolishly decided to mess with him with her present

MC is Luke’s mother point blank period.

[jennrypan]

Why is no one talking about how Billys aunt said Hughie reminds her of Billys little brother!! And how he almost went sicko mode to safe Hughie?? Like he cares about this dude like he was his family, oml.

Soo..maybe Billy sees Lenny in Hughie and thats why hes so damn hard on him cuz he doesnt wanna get that close then have Hughie die, but he cares about him!! He cares about his team!!

Also Black Noir doesnt seem as bad as the rest of the 7 (Maeve and Starlight excluded obvi) cuz he just seems to do what hes told?? Like he doesnt seem that evil just really obedient compared to the comics. So maybe in this hes not homelanders clone?? And just someone different whos strong as shit-

and the fact that all the heros are so fake is hilarious. Like theyre doing these dumbass movies and its alll so cringey but..If I didn't think about Avengers 1 during them shooting the movie- lmao-

Also..Can Stormfront not die?? What can kill this bitch if lazers cant- and the fact that her and Homelander had some wild ass crazy sex wasnt surprising but surprising at the same time-

[hockey-player-jeno]

Masterlist Update!

Hello!

So, I finally figured out how to make a masterlist (which is *also* now available in the description of my page)

Thank god for google lmao cuz I was legit lost for like half hour not knowing how in the hell to put it there.

I promise I have some new stuff in the works. I have a few Stray Kids ideas in mind! :)) I have also added The Boyz to my stan list cuz they’re actually amazing and I’m already obsessed!

I wanna try and write as much as I can now cuz I start school up again on the 24th this month and the majority of my focus will have to go to that obvi.

Anyway, hope you are having a lovely rest of your day or have a great day where ever you are! Stay safe and healthy! :))

[cchanhees]

for the meme, i'll send u a bunch of boys since this is your bg blog <3 shinee, seventeen, ab6ix, cravity, up10tion, stray kids

omg lemme insert a read more cuz this one’s gonna be long haha but yes!! thank u so much carly! :D

shinee;  yes | only for the music | attempting to | no; ok,

who or what caught my attention; taemin! i’ve actually liked shinee since view/marriedtothemusic era! honestly, their title tracks are phenomenal and i love every one of them.

why i want to stan; songs!! all of their albums (that i’ve heard) are soooooo good!

what i already know about them; they’re legends! 

current favorite member; taemin :D

a question i have for veteran fans; hi, yes, how are all of shinee so talented and amazing? ;;;;

seventeen;  yes | only for the music | attempting to | no

my bias + bias wrecker; seungkwan + minghao + wonwoo! no bias wreckers, i am loyal to those three :) pls ignore the fact that hoshi is definitely rising in my svt bias list.

first time i heard of them; debut lmao

when i became a fan; debut! i followed them closely from adore u to i think...aju nice? i took a kpop break for a while so i fell behind D”:

favorite (and least favorite) title track; don’t wanna cry!!! :D least favorite is hit

favorite (and least favorite) b-side; oh! hm!

favorite (and least favorite) mv; home! hm, probably hit lmao im sorry i’m not a hit anti i just didn’t really vibe with the song

favorite (and least favorite) album; you made my dawn as favorite! i don’t listen to svt’s albums enough to have a least favorite D”:

ab6ix;  yes | only for the music | attempting to | no

my bias + bias wrecker; i bias daehwi but woong is a major bias wrecker D”: at this point in time, it’s probably safe to say i co-bias them. also, donghyun has been rising the ranks haha

first time i heard of them; daehwi cuz wanna one

when i became a fan; breathe era!

favorite (and least favorite) title track; breathe as my favorite! and, blind for love as my least? y’all, they only got three titles haha

favorite (and least favorite) b-side; red up + sunset! :D least favorite is deep inside

favorite (and least favorite) mv; favorite is the answer! least favorite is, again, blind for love.

favorite (and least favorite) album; vivid! blind for love is my least favorite, which i know is weird since it’s a full album and i enjoy a majority of the songs but like, bruh, b:complete and vivid are just superior

a concept i wished they’d try; i kind of want them to stick with this playful fun concept like they had for the answer a little longer pls, but i think they would totally slay at anything they wanna do.

what i like most about them; their group chemistry is fun to watch, plus their discography is amazingggg!

cravity;  yes | only for the music | attempting to | no

my bias + bias wrecker; taeyoung + seongmin! bias wreckers are allen and minhee!

first time i heard of them; x1 for the ex-x1 members, but lmao i’ve been with cravity since debut

when i became a fan; break all the rules

favorite (and least favorite) title track; flame is superior

favorite (and least favorite) b-side; sunrise or breathing! i also like jumper a lot too! least favorite is blackout

favorite (and least favorite) mv; cloud9 as the best, and flame as my least favorite.

favorite (and least favorite) album; the newest one lol

a concept i wished they’d try; space fantasy!! give me!! more space-aesthetic starship pls

what i like most about them; ok i haven’t really seen too much of them on variety shows apart from asc, but i am naturally drawn towards them because wjsn + monsta x’s junior group so obvi gonna check them out but then!! their music!! it’s so good!! i really enjoyed this latest comeback too, so haha looks like imma accidentally become a luvity soon

up10tion;  yes | only for the music | attempting to | no D”:

who or what caught my attention; wooseok + xiao!

why i want to stan; they seem cool! i like some of their titles too!

what i already know about them; not much except title tracks and pdx101

current favorite member; i dont have one! D”:

a question i have for veteran fans; give me up10tion content, please

stray kids;  yes | only for the music | attempting to | no

my bias + bias wrecker; jisung! felix + chan are bias wreckers

first time i heard of them; hellevator

when i became a fan; astronaut is when i looked into skz more closely. before that, i was title tracks only

favorite (and least favorite) title track; god’s menu + miroh are my faves! i don’t really care about double knot tbh

favorite (and least favorite) b-side; can the tower of god op and ed count as bsides because i am obsessed with them. booster maybe least favorite?

favorite (and least favorite) mv; god’s menu is fun to watch ngl, but least favorite is probably also double knot haha

favorite (and least favorite) album; go live as favorite and i am you as least fave

[whenimgoodandready]

🎶Why can’t we be friends? Why can’t we be friends? Why can’t we be friends? Why can’t we be friends?🎶 Why!? We have really nice friendships in the show! Marinette and Alya, Adrien and Nino, Max and Kim, Chloe and Sabrina (in a twisted sense) there’s also “Juleka and Rose” along w/ “Nathaniel and Marc” *wink* Who’s the most questionable person you wouldn’t wanna be friends with? Let’s find out:

*Ikari Gozen-It’s Friendship Day in Paris! (Yes, it’s a real holiday, look it up) and the weather girls, Aurore and Mireille, who’ve now become friends, are celebrating by having a contest pairing up random strangers in town w/ others to form friendships and work together through a scavenger hunt all to win a fun filled day with Adrien Agreste! Marinette and the girl squad participate and Marinette is selected to be friends wiiiiiiiiiiiiiith-(drum roll) Kagami Tsurugi! Whomp! Whomp! Whomp! Oh boy! Out of all the 2.141 million population in Paris, she’s partnered up with one of her many rivals for Adriens affections! What a kick in the a**.

Fearing that Adrien will chose Kagami to be his girlfriend if they win since they’re already so close and developing feelings for each other, Marinette does everything she can to sabotage their chances at winning, but like she said, Kagami is brilliant and they achieve in all their challenges. It doesn’t get any better when in the middle of one challenge, Kagami kept asking her weird random questions all w/ a quick forced awkward smile that was quite unsettling for our heroine. Another part of the challenge included swapping phones with your partner and this was a callback to all those times Marinette stole peoples phones and she discovers something about Kagami..........she has no friends :(. (sad violin music plays) Hell! The only person on her contacts list is her mother! There’s absolutely nothing from Adrien on her phone and she was looking up “How to Make Friends” using an app. Marinette felt like sh*t now that she realized she was ruining what could’ve been a beautiful friendship.

Kagami heard about the sabotage from Marinettes phone when Alya sent a video wishing Marinette luck on losing w/ Kagami and she wasn’t mad, but disheartened. Like she failed at friendship :(. (sad violin music plays) Poor girl, she wanted other friends besides Adrien and now she can’t have her own gal pal. No one to shop w/ or get O.J w/ or discuss blood types since that’s kinda her thing right now or whatever. Hawk Moth sends out an akuma on her for that. Oh God, who’s she gonna turn into now!? Kagami gently backs out on the competition feeling unworthy, but Marinette has a change of heart and accepts her friendship even trying to convince her mother that she’s her friend which cheers her up. Not today, little butterfly! Not today! However, we learn Kagami never asked her mothers permission to enter the competition which upset her to steer the akuma in her direction instead and she becomes Ikari Gozen! A giant mechanical centaur w/ her walking cane bokken as a weapon! She has a cool car though. It’s voice activated since she’s blind which is pretty awesome. Better than a chauffeur!

Kagami gets eaten (she’s still alive just kept captive in Ikaries stomach) and Ladybug is given a lucky charm to find Master Fu (who’s still in Paris despite Hawk Moth being aware of him) and she chooses the dragon miraculous! Fellow Miraculers, I present to you the holder of the dragon miraculous, Kagami Tsurugi! A.k.a Ryuko! (trumpets sound). Obvie. Her Kwami was a dragon named Longg, her weapon:a sword, her miraculous:a choker and her power, get this, is a choice between three elements! Yeah! Three! Water💦, Wind🌬 and Lightning⚡️! But wait! There’s more! She doesn’t detransform after one is used, but until all three are used! Best.power.everrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

During this years SDCC, someone uploaded the whole ep of this on YouTube when it was shown in the English Dub (thank you kind stranger, much obliged) and although it was in bad quality, I appreciated it and hearing the audience in the background of the sneak peek made it look like a sitcom which was kinda fun! Nice to see friendships formed here such the reconcile between Aurore and Mireille, Alya and Wayhem and now Marinette and Kagami! Thank goodness! It’s what the fandom wanted! Marinette has enough rivals already and it’s time she made friends with one of ‘em. Besides, we all know how Adrien feels about each one of her rivals (Chloe has no chance, Lila is unredeemable, Aurore and Mireille are barely around, so we don’t need to worry about ‘em and Wayhem, well...........it depends on how Adrien rolls). Kagami was the closest (next to Ladybug) on winning over Adrien and even though there were moments where she was nice, Marinette was clouded by her jealousy over her and cuz she always saw her as cold and reserved. She has feelings too Marinette! Shame on you! (course now that they’re friends I don’t know how that’ll work w/ the whole Adrien issue still up in the air. Especially for the season finale!). Strict parents raise rebels they say and we’ve seen Adrien do that, now he’s encouraged Kagami to do the same since “Desperada”. We’ve seen Kagami train her fencing many times (“Onichan” and “Feast”), but the girl needs a break Tomoe! No wonder she and Gabe are close, they both keep their children occupied w/ no time for fun! Master Fu is being extremely cautious now that his identity was discovered (“Feast”), but as we saw here and “Party Crasher”, he needs to still be close enough to train Marinette into guardianship and give her miraculouses when needed. Although, its not necessary, it’s only his name Hawk Moth knows cuz he can’t see from his supervillain form and only sense feelings. Master Fu also used a fake name in “Syren” just to be safe. Ryuko was ✨amazing!✨By far, she’s the best superhero with the best superpowers I’ve seen in the show. The fandom has done it again, Kagami got the dragon miraculous! She has three powers! Sooooooo much better than a single power one shot use! I always thought she’d have pyrokinesis since dragons are fire breathers, but I guess the lightning power was close enough. Still, three powers! More important, her weapon of choice was a sword! Perfect! Unfortunately, it was her first and last day of being a super due to her cockiness and exposing herself in front of her mother and Hawk Moth finding out about it. Damn! In and out in just one day! That’s the shortest superhero career I’ve seen since Electra in the 2003 “Daredevil” movie! Phffft! Guess this means I have to call in the trumpeters (summons the trumpeters and they arrive. I motion for them to play “Taps”. They play “Taps”). Oh Ryuko, although we’ve only known you for about 15mins, you were a gift. Your powers surpassed that of the dynamic duo with your elemental abilities and multiple use also your experience with fencing in your civilian form helped you to wield a true sword. Shame your hastiness exposed your identity and you were forced into retirement, but we shall not forget your presence and pray to the stars that you will one day come back to us. Great! Just great! The best superhero to come into the show and now we’ll never see them again! (crosses arms and pouts). Thanks a lot Hawkdaddy :P.

[gardeniabloom]

2/26/22

ok so catch up entry i guess in case i reread this or something. so yesterday i just dicked around and went to lloyd center and was going to just hang out and clean the rest of the night but that guy who kinda ghosted me that one time hmu to come over and i was like fuck it he obvi wants a booty call but hes fine soo ok. so he comes over and we get high and hang out and honestly? hes really nice and respectful actuallt and chill and i dont hate hanging out w and makin out w him. which is crazy right cuz of u always in my brain!! so anyways hes over a while we get food we talk abt life dtuff we fool around a lil but nothing crazy and im super talky ripp but he seemed like. ok w it . anyways he has to work early next morning so he leaves but hws like can i see u tmrw?? and im like but i thoughr u had a party tonight?? and hes like i do but i'll come after and bring u shit and i'll sleep over. and im like uhh i was gna hang w this other guy but like. im not that excited anf this guys cute so im weak and im like ok fuck it i'll cancel u can come over. ANYWAYS fast fwd today i wake up super late cuz its saturday im lazy. i workout eat lunch ish and like fk around a lil while not important and eventually boy snaps me a pic of the vodka he got for me (i literally didnt ask him but he was like i'll bring u smthng cuz i'll be drunk anyways and we can drink togeher so i was like lolll okkk) so i was like o!! btw context he also said he doesnt rly text except to make plans so thats why i wasnt texting him before or keeping it min. so im like nice , short text abt like hows work whatev. and he says im coming from party at like 11-12 ish and im gna sleep over and im like ok cool. so no texts for a while i hang out n stay up cuz i gotta let him in . anyways 11:20 ish he texts me like "im too drunk im not coming" which im kinda like aww but not a huge deal i get it. so im like ok get home safe and lmk if u wna hang out some other time and he says kk and i drop it cuz hes still at th party. OK context over.

so now im like kinda in a weird spot cuz i dont like this dude that much yet cuz like obvi met him one (1) time so i knew it could literally just be him lying and he did just wna booty call cuz he was sorta handsy w/e and i cant read ppl. but he Did seem genuine. and now im likw ok obvi tonights settled but now idk where to go from here. cuz i feel like im gna want to see him a sec time but he's literally never gna want to make plans w me again cuz he doesnt seem interested anymore and probably something or someone else got his attention so im kinda bummed bcoz i would LOVEEEE to get out of this sitch w u and whining abd feeling shitty abt it all the time to a lil stable casual sich w someone in my area but i might have just blown it idfk. so im not srue what to do cuz i dont wanna do that thing where i get suuuper clingt and irritating right off the bat and drive him off BUTTT i also dont want to just have it be a ghost sitch where i never text again so neither does he . like idfk . also u started watching my finsta story again literally im so confused cuz u WERENT which is why i posted abt the hickey as a haha joke cuz i was like oh he wont see it cuz he doesnt look there BUT NOW UR WATCHING IT AGAIN AND IM CONFUSED. like i cant predict u ur very weird and i cant tell if ur still into me or if ur into miss other girl and tbh u should just pick a side cuz its weird and it comes off creepy for me cuz i feel like u like her but u wanna be fucking me . so weird. cuz im not tryinga to hurt ur feeligns deadass but idk if its ok territory cuz u wouldnt say if it WAS a sensitive thing for u. and like i dont wanna be a hypocrite and piss u off. so like i mean just be more predictable and boring so i can tell what ur deal is ur very weird and i dont get u. like if ur gonna be mean just be fucking mean . ok rant OVER

[survivor-ingary]

Episode 3 - "RIP tribe Jenkins we were too powerful" - Riley

The 3 tribes of Pendragon, Hatter, and Jenkins have been reorganized and condensed into 2 new Hatter and Pendragon Tribes. Tribal immunity is Scavenger Hunt.

The fact I have Brayden and Toph in my merged tribe boosts my serotonin. i have a feeling colin may be someone to keep an eye out for in the future now...

RIP tribe Jenkins we were too powerful. I guess we'll see how Pendragon pans out.

yall doin me dirty putting me with brayden i just hope that by some miracle me him anastasia and ellie can work together? like i still dont know if theyre plotting on my ass vdshibshj i know brayden told anastasia to take me out when this game started oop but lemme see if dis works. i hope riley follows the logic of the old tribe sticking together and thatll be 5 votes. im kinda obsessed with toph like since the beginning of the game he looks like someone i could totally play with so def wanna work on that relationship. ava and nya? i believe? lets say hello and work on those relationships as well. dis is a bit overwhelming but we shall see how it goes

uh... well... i am SCREWED. me and ginny were the only ones separated from the Jenkins tribe... RIP. 4 pendragons, 2 hatters, and 2 jenkins... the main things i see here are pendragon yoinking one of the hatters / jenkins and voting the other off... OR a 4-4 tie... OR they're gonna target one of me or ginny cuz none of us have gone to tribal council yet. this is really dicey, and I need to tread very, very carefully from hereon. (ALSO GINNY BARELY TALKS PLS I NEED YOUR HELP GIRL)

This swap actually turned out pretty amazing for me. I still have Keith and Moth who I worked semi-close with in the pre-swap. Additionally, I've met up with Colin and Babs. A little Raffy magic could keep me very safe on this tribe. I think Kenneth is super fun as he is a newbie AND active. He will definitely make it far in this game. I hope, at the very least, that I can be by his side to make that happen. However, I am wary he might just be making these strong social connections with everyone. As a final note, OG Pendragons have this tribe 4 to 8. That's both good and bad. Good because we have numbers. Bad because that may make people target me very early on just for being a part of it. So, I have decided that if I were to throw any of my OG Pendragons to the wolves it would be Jonathan as I haven't been able to connect with them as well as Keith and Moth. Other than that, I hope this tribe doesn't have to go to tribal all that often between now and the next swap/merge. These people are lovely.

I'm getting a bad feeling about this... Since most of my Jenkins tribemates are on the other tribe, I KNOW they're good cuz we just keep getting W's... so I think there is a good chance we might lose the challenge. I contributed a good amount, so I hope that the target won't be on me if ever we lose the challenge :( I really don't wanna go, and I wanna reunite with Dennis/Ellie and maybe Anastasia and get further in the game.

i worked hard on this confessional

Our tribe did our absolute best in this challenge. I have no idea who is getting targeted if we go to tribal as everyone is so quiet. All I know is that I want to keep Colin, Kenneth, and Keith close to me for this stage of the game. They are the only ones who consistently talk to me. Challenge results: Pendragon wins due to a 10% advantage, Hatter Tribe must go to tribal council the following day.

THANK GOD I FINALLY GET TO GO TO A TRIBAL, ITS BEEN TOO LONG!!!!

Look, before you go to tribal with a group of people it feels like there’s a barrier of game socialization because you haven’t been able to go to tribal with them. But leading up to tribal and after it, a whole new can of worms is available for game talk. Unfortunately it’s an extremely simple vote because Nya has ghosted all of us, but at least we still get to go to tribal so I can talk game with more people even if it’s only a small amount with this easy vote. But who knows, someone might decide to switch shit up!

And also I absolutely love this tribe (Minus Nya cause I haven’t met them) so I’m glad that I get to go forward with this group although I won’t be nearly as happy if we go to tribal again because as I said, I do enjoy this group of people a lot

Moth (Tumblr will only allow me 10 images so player banners stop now, whoops) I believe the only reason I will make it to the next round is because of Raffys advantage. I’d be so screwed otherwise

I like Babs. They got good vibes.

Also I’d kill to know how the other tribe reacted

Dennis in a perfect world i would try to not vote out nya but bdksksksoksks theyve done it to themselves. no need to make waves. unless someone else is secretly plotting on me i think this is about to be an easy tribal. damn one point. miss ellie had her name down on stuff that she didnt do. also overslept that first challenge is she purposey trying to sabotage and play the villain? who knowssss also ive broken my streak of never going to tribe tribal sigh

Toph So what’s happening, I can’t remember the last time I made a confession but the tea yall ?! Soooo the tribe swap happened and my gut was right soooo okay intuition work ! I feel like I really like everyone from the merge and nya as remained inactive since, after losing the challenge it seems like an easy vote but you can never be to safe, I have my little allinnce with Brayden and Ava which is wig and I really dig Ellie , Anastasia, and Dennis too, I’m gonna be so nervous if we have to go to tribal agian because it could be me ! I’m not to sure about Reilly but they seem nice ! I feel pretty good with Anastasia as well and feel we could rope her into an alliance easily, I’m just gonna due my best right now to play the middle, keep my head down and speak positively. I really need to find an idol or something even better just so I don’t have to worry as super much and just plain worry then lol. If anything I’m gonna stay loyal to brayden and Ava the most since there my day one homies. Brayden seems to be close with Anastasia which could definitely help in are favor of having the numbers on are side. But could mean he would easily cut me for her if needed, so that mean I need to get closer with Ava, just to gaurnetee my safety, I have to look out for me this game and only me, making sure the numbers are kn my side I’m constantly on the right side of the vote should help me strageticly float to the end and win my crown thank you very much. I’m also lowkey worried about alliance’s being made right now without me! Everyone seems to be online but my chats are a bit quite but this could be me overthinking things mmmhmm I’m not sure, we’ll anyways it was nice to vent to y’all. :)

Riley Nooooooo I can't believe we lost by just one point. Damn the Hatter tribe's secret bonus point boost >:(

Kenneth I am honestly in such a shock that we won that challenge... Raffy really came in clutch and helped us win AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! Now I don't have to worry about being randomly blindsided or targeted for at least a couple more days now pls I just hope we get lucky again and another swap happens where I would be on the right side of the numbers, all prepared for merge domination >:) Raffy Oof. I know the other tribe is MAD because I would be too. Like, we only won because of my advantage giving us a 1 POINT LEAD. That's crazy! Honestly, this works for me as I can still focus o n making strong social connections within this tribe. By the time we go to tribal, I will be so integrated with this tribe that voting me out would do a lot more short-term harm than long-term good. I want to see if Kenneth would start an alliance with me as that is someone I want to work closely with. In this alliance? I have no idea. I'll probably let Kenneth take the lead on that since I want him to feel like he is in charge. Dennis nothing is real

if i go tonight i would applaud it bc i am so sure nya is going. it would be a goop if the vote really wasnt nya but everyone is more or less trying to do the easy thing i think. i just hope she is okay and just too busy for dis.

some time has gone by and im just chilling. im not chilling because i feel safe, im chilling because i dont know what else to do. i cant be all game talk 24/7 because then im an outcast and would get targeted. besides the obvi alliances like a+b and maybe(?!?!??) an e(?!) in there, idk what alliances there are. like there has to be something but i dont have the picture yet. as yall know im not in any alliances in my current tribe besides i guess ellie who i fear is a saboteur lol and most likely working with a+b. a+b are such a double edged sword for me ugh. am i really in their best interests???????????????? am i really in ellies best interest???? do they know about her idol too?????????? likeeeee thats the issue. if im not really in their best interests then im the next to go after nya. i am probs very low if not the lowest on this tribe if dats true. i mean what if i really am in their best interests and theyre all genuinely trying to work with me? idk! if not then im next to go efuhijdhvbf and i fear im probably not.

i really like toph. taurus sun (in the 12th!) gemini everything else king. hes got social game on lock like who wouldnt wanna work with him ?! and hes a cutie ?! ?! ?! but i seen the chart -.- i know what hes doin. i think hes working with ellie. but he reaches out to me and probably others but i like our conversations. (but im sure everyone loves their conversations with toph!! hes great!!!!! friendly ol toph wont harm a fly ?!) i hope he likes me and sees i actually would wanna work with him above all the gorls and chooses me over them too.

ava also knows what theyre doing. saturnian legend. we barely talk but little short bits here and there. i hope its bc theyre busy but im sure ellie is talking to them more than me amongst others too. oop also possible alliance, brayden toph ava who all swapped together. so gotta keep that in mind. but yeah i dont really think im much of their priority esp if theyre on vacay they would hear a name and not stress too much if its mine bc we dont have ties like that.

riley and i talk here and there, had a lil chat today

someone once told me that i just look like someone you cant trust but you can :( sometimes :)

so yeah here i am having lots of thoughts over the last few days.

maybe im not super super invested just yet bc i feel like the rug is gonna get swept out right from under me again :))) also back on my bs telling people im a leo moon. i shouldnt weaponize astrology but hey.