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nartothelar · 2 months

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disbelief

#I like to think that emmet had a moment of denial and numbness after the realization before jumping into action #this was actually a response to an ask for daily emmet but it became a comic sksksk #submas #emmet #kudari #subway boss emmet #ingo #nobori #pokemon fanart #fanart #pokemon #angst

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thegirlivealwaysbeen · 4 months

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CLOSE TO YOU BY GRACIE ABRAMS ୨୧

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daily-crowley · 1 year

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Crowley Of The Day: some turtleneck content for today

#Late Post Because I Was Asleep Oops #Also When I Woke Up I Had To Wait Like 3 Bloody Minutes Since I Slept In An Odd Position And My Arm Was Completely Numb #Crowley #Aziraphale #Good Omens #David Tennant #Michael Sheen #Good Omens Prime #Neil Gaiman #Terry Pratchett #Ineffable Husbands #Crowley Of The Day #COTD #COTD New Post #New Crowley Of The Day #Daily Crowley Content #Daily Crowley #Good Omens Season 2 #GOS2

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bamsara · 1 year

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ok no yeah i hate human hormones and body chemicals actaully because the anxiety caused some physical symptoms and i had muscle spasms and speech problems for 30ish minutes and i havent had a Moment™️ like that in like 6 months, i think this game is rigged

also, i should stop drinking caffeine. again. attempt 2# at quitting caffeine i believe in us

also 2x i want to art stream. i want to draw. i will force this body to my will

#i havent had any brain damage shit in a while i was just chilling man #at least its not a daily hourly thing like it used to be in the start bruh idk how i handled that shit #anyway i have heating pad and chugging water #and the numbness is subsiding #i need to draw my ocs and also sun n moon and also commission #sara shush #sorry for the word ramble #tw health issues

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old-long-john · 5 months

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there's a unique sort of black comedy to transitioning in a public-facing job. every damn day I get called 'the lady' at work. sometimes it's only once a day, sometimes I get very lucky and go a day without, sometimes it's relentless. I cut my hair short in the hopes that I'd hear it less. that didn't work. I wear a pronoun badge on my lanyard to give people the hint. one single person has noticed it and corrected themselves in the last 4 months. I figure the tits are kind of a giveaway, but binding makes me more uncomfortable a lot of the time. still, today I wore my binder, with the short hair, with the pronoun badge, and I swear I got called 'the lady' more times than any other day I can remember. at this rate I feel like I'm gonna be out there with a full beard and people will still be calling me the fucking lady

#the best part is that being called 'the lady' as a teenager was one of the first times I ever remember #feeling deeply uncomfortable with being viewed as female #it's one of the things that's written in my dysphoria diagnosis #and now it's back as a daily refrain just to remind me of how everyone sees me #I'm half numb to it at this point #it's almost funny but it's also fucking exhausting

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neverbeforeandneversince · 6 months

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i know this sounds so silly (it even sounds silly to past me 2 weeks ago), but i’m going to face my fears and go on a walk 🌼

#this time of year is a major trigger for me #and every time i’ve tried going on my daily walk… i’ve had a freeze response #it’s actually scary #like my tongue went numb #i couldn’t feel my legs #idk if it’s ptsd or just a trauma response #but anyway i’m going to be brave and try and go on my walk #it’s silly bc past me would be like let’s go on walks every day!!

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grumpyoldsnake · 1 year

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One of these days. One of these days, I will figure out what the hell makes the tipping point beyond which either a) there’s socialization that I feel insulated from and kind of numb about and too tired to pursue, or b) socialization where the very notion of so much as expressing one (1) internal thought or emotion suffuses my whole body with adrenaline and blaring Nope instincts.

#don’t get me wrong I think I *do* feel fairly Normal about. idk. a good portion of my social interactions #enough that I can go about my daily life just fine #but the numb times and the freeze-or-flight times are always Mightily inconveniently timed #with regards to actually forming new friendships #and there’s a certain threshold of Acknowledging that I Personally Exist where it *all* becomes freeze-or-flight fffff #(it goes like this: I start to think ‘it’d be kind of neat if—‘)#(and then I consider the actual logistics of getting TO the If. and one way or another — fear or tiredness — it becomes ‘ah. right. nvm.’)#(and then if it’s a bad day I have the further thought that the If probably wouldn’t be fulfilling for other involved parties anyway)#(which is. self defeating in the extreme and a distortion and I know it. >_>)#(but it’s ALSO objectively true on some specific axis and like. mm. some nights finding that balance is hard I guess)#(on the one hand not putting myself down but on the other hand being realistic about what I need vs. what other people need)#(and the fact that there are just some types of socialization that just aren’t a good fit for me)#(and that I can’t be for or have with other folk without burning out spectacularly)#life flails #mental health flails #my stuff #complaining

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calamitys-child · 1 month

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I'm being so serious rn if I ever talk about doing another fringe festival run in the next like 3 years at least send me to fucking therapy. It is a cry for help. This is bad for me.

#im over halfway at least. but fucking christ.#ive barely seen anyone i care about for weeks. im hardly sleeping. im in knee braces and im still in pain.#13 hours a day of people yelling at me. the busiest ive ever seen public transport. eating the most random sporadic shit.#no hobbies. very few friends or family. crying twice a day. i still havent been paid. binding!! binding 7am til midnight!!!! daily!!!!!#my whole body hurts im physically mentally emotionally exhausted im desperately lonely im not doing the things that make me feel fulfilled #when my loved ones are free im either working or passed out in pain and exhaustion #the boss is enabling all sorts of bullshit yet again #im not able to be a person anyone i care about deserves to know #and that makes me not want to know me either #that is at least when i have enough fractions of a spoon left to feel anything at all except upset or numb #i NEED this all to be over #my next free day is my sisters 21st birthday next month my fucking baby sister is turning 21 and i dont know what to get her #i dont have a brain im not being!! a person worth knowing!!!!#my gran fucking fell the other day she's hurt ive not visited her in ages bc of work and finance i want to see my wee gran i want #to buy her ice cream and tell her i love her #i had to clean up an old guy who smashed his face on the pavement today and im just putting That trauma off til at least mid September #my BEST FRIEND gets MARRIED next week #and i can barely think about it because im on empty #im on below empty #they deserve so much better from me #im out. im not doing this again. not like this.

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see-arcane · 11 months

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Mina after each hypnotism: Sorry for the Bastard vibes everyone

The Bastard vibes aren't her fault, they know this

#honestly wonder how detailed she'd get if it was just Dracula complaining about every little sensory detail #'Ass has gone numb. I got in here with a rock in my shoe and it's slowly driving me insane. I can control rats but not cats and this little #--bastard keeps scream-meowing while I'm trying to sleep. I think he knows I'm here. I can't tell if he hates me or expects me to feed him.#--Either way I cannot get him to shut up. There's a load of onions in here going to rot and it makes the Carfax chapel smell like perfume.'#I just want him to be suffering and for the Drac Attack Pack to know it uwu #mina harker #dracula #re: dracula #dracula daily

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chicago-geniza · 5 months

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Reading the SSI chronic migraine criteria and beginning to understand why everyone thought I was perpetually stoned in high school

#Blood vessels rupture in my eyeballs on the daily #Eyelids turn red and swell #I get too dizzy to walk and my speech slurs #Etc etc etc #My pupils like. Go elastic? They expand and contract and I can't focus my vision #In either close or far-away fields #And I sweat like crazy but my limbs and extremities go numb #And I can't open my left eye

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newlacesleeves · 2 months

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feeling a lot of fucking dread right now

#look this blog is a place for me to escape from like the ACTUAL horrors of my daily life so i don't WANT to talk politics on here #but i am oscilating wildly between sheer panic and absolute numbness

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bibelots · 8 months

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every now and again I think of the bit in Maurice when he is explaining Clive's symptoms to the doctor and is like "can't stop crying." me too bestie

#piffle #a past version of me who was just clearly numb to everything would be shocked by my almost daily 2024 cries lol #i am doing okay i swear #i'm just hugely overwhelmed #and in a job i never really planned to spend a year doing #whilst still incredibly burnt out by four years worth of university with no break inbetween and part of it alongside a full time job #i'm just running on mostly adrenaline at this point and finding very few successes or things to be proud of and! am fed up :)#not being listened to by those who should and being expected to manage spinning 382882 plates at once ! woo hoo #personal #it is really okay i just thought for the first time in weeks i'd had a good day and then it all just flipped

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valewritessss · 25 days

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I feel like I came out of the womb with raging anxiety

#never been fully relaxed a day in my life #literally had a panic attack at age 6-7(?)#I’ve been super self aware for as long as I can remember #the tension in my body is my natural state #I’ve BEEN imagining every worst case scenario since I could form thoughts #7th-8ish grade is where it got worse #had panic attacks like four times a week #and then heart palpitations started and holy shit I was googling symtoms and that would make it worse #was convinced I would get a heart attack #having a headache is part of my daily routine #then I got a crush on a guy and with it came body dysmorphia #couldn’t look people in the eye from how ugly I felt(still struggle with this one but we got this💪🏼💪🏼)#now I mostly just cry #like I deadass get stressed and overwhelmed and just cry #depression came next and I was honestly not surprised #and it tampered my anxiety a bit but I’d honestly rather feel stressed than feel so numb #yeah I wouldn’t recommend #so basically I lie awake feeling aware of my own heartbeat or of my body #oh and I can’t forget the physical pain that anxiety caused me #muscle aches literally convinced me there was something wrong with me #went to the doctor numerous times bc I NEEDED to be diagnosed with something or I would go crazy and instead got told to see a therapist #and the therapist basically told me everything I had already figured out myself but at least I can talk to someone #tw anxiety #tw depression #tw body dysmorphia #anxiety #mentions of depression #and I’m only a teenager so should I be worried about what happens in the next few years? bc this already sounds like a lot to me #this was supposed to be a funny little post but nvm I guess?? don’t worry about me I’m good though many good things in my life #teenager

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gh0str3c0rd3r · 11 months

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bingle bongle dingle dangle yikity too yickety ta ping pong lippy tappy too tah..

#daily stuff i guess #i have never watched a single episod of doctor who #but this man is my favrite #doctor numbe 10 #david ten ants

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dreamyghostie · 8 months

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#i successfully established the most boring life #work from home #dont have to go out much #no regular social connection #just going through the same daily routines #everything has become so numb #no motivation to do anything especially if its alone #not really enjoying anything i do all the time #spending most of the time looking at this screen not knowing what else to do #how do i change that #how do i make this life more than just existing #i have no clue #personal

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poetrywizard · 10 months

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I was so nervous

While writing poems for you

I tried to show you

How much I liked you

I agonized over it

I couldn't express

The extent of it

My feelings overflowing

My thoughts and words mix

To create for you

The pinnacle of my love

I poured out my soul

I was too scared though

To put my own name on it

I left it nameless...

I'm glad that I did...

I was near when you read it

Aloud to your friends

After the first line

I hear laughter all around

You continue now

Laughing as you go

You were the first girl I loved

You were also queer

I thought it could be..

Even if it was slim I

Thought I had a chance..

But I received scorn

And derision from my love

She pointed out flaws

She said, "who wrote this?

It's awful, is this a joke?"

But it wasn't one

It was real for me

I was too scared to speak up

I froze, I felt sick

I excused myself

And holed up in the bathroom

I weep silently

I want to vanish

To no longer exist here

The pain is too much

I feel my blood cold

Hyperventilating now

My face flushes red

Why would she say that..

I wanted to be honest

To show her my love

And she thinks it's fake

It was just terrible, In

An ironic way

I'm a joke to her

My feelings and thoughts, funny

I weep harder now

I only feel numb

I clean myself up and just

Erase the traces

I never cried here

Nothings wrong anymore, im

Just fine, numb for good

#queer #daily haiku #haiku poem #haiku poetry #poetry #original haiku #please be nice #queer community #lgbtqiia+#love #sorrow #unrequited feelings #numb #true story

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