#daniel howell smut

[achromatic-bot]

I've decided we need an AU where Phil is the king of England and Dan is the Prime Minister.

[venuslester]

does anyone remember my fic “how much for that bear in the window”?? what if i made another chapter but as a 23 year old adult and not a 13 year old gay virgin

[everything-is-as-it-was]

Ranking all DnP videos 2024

Hello everyone here to hear me yap! Below I am including all of the videos dnp have released in 2024, rated from my favorite to least favorite. PLEASE NOTE that I actually do love all of them! And this is just a silly thing! But feel free to discuss or send me asks with your opinions :)

I'll start from the bottom up.

10. i have a spicy confession...

This one was lots of fun (wtf is wrong with yall with these confessions) but I'm not gonna lie Phil felt incredibly off in it and like... really performative? Like idk something didn't feel right to me and although he said some really sweet things it felt... off somehow. Not sure how to describe it. Funny though lol

9. HONEYMOON IN JAPAN!

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW

It was a good video!! I just feel like it didn't have a lot of *those moments* that these other videos had idk. Like yes it was very sweet and a milestone for the sims universe but it kind of felt like that was it for me. The symbolism was inSANE but just strictly talking about the video itself yk. New pics released were nice though

8. Poppy Playtime Chapter 3

This one was a lot but it was SO nice to have such a long video- two hours long who??? That's tbh the reason this one goes above the honeymoon video- the length. The reason I put it lower is that although I am NOT complaining about the length, both of them were SUPER focused a lot of the time and not really talking much haha

7. Viewers Pick My Birthday Presents 2024

The only reason this one isn't higher is because all the ones above this I consider part of their *magnum opus* era. I loved the mini golden pig, the omatone, the shirt, and the Shrek smut. Always fun to see him surprised with cursed stuff loll

6. THE PUBLIC WOOHOO INCIDENT

Pretty self explanatory I think. Dan SCREAMING as Dab and Evan got it on made me actually piss myself. I can still hear it echoing in my head.

5. Phil's Birthday Livestream

Another case of "the only reason this isn't higher is because the ones above it are SO good." I loved the livestream, and was able to attend live for about the first hour. Such chaos. Such good. Amazing.

4. Dan and Phil Get Married, Have Kids, and Retire

Saw the notif while I was getting out of school and I literally snorted out loud, very embarrassing. They're just taking the piss at this point and I'm loving it. Phil's teasing him towards the end with "oh, I think I'll start another photo album!" GOLDEN. "Henry gives me that good dick." "Me and Susan have been rawdogging it." Amazing. Incredible.

3. Phil Pushes Dan's Button for 18 Minutes

A comfort video for REAL. When this came out I was SHOCKED that they had two BANGERS one right after another, but boy was I in for a surprise.

The slime? The slime on Dan's head while he's talking? Phil placing it on his forehead while he stares off into space? Hell yeah I want more of that slime I could look at it all day.

2. Who is the Real Daniel Howell?

Yall. We were fed GOOD today. Dan singing 'my lumps' absolutely DEADPAN while Phil looks at him in Awe? I WANT PHIL'S SWEATER IF ANYONE CAN TELL ME WHERE IT'S FROM I WILL BE GRATEFUL.

So? many shoulder touches? idk what that's about but i aint complaining ig

editing tips! *stuff* coming out your nose! etc!

This one had such a particular vibe to it- I think partially because it wasn't edited by the editor they've been using! To be clear - the editor has been doing a great job and I applaud them :) but sometimes it feels a bit over-edited, if you know what I mean? (For example the count-downs on the sims video going down the mountain felt a bit much) But having a video that was edited by Dan or Phil kinda hits different idk

WDAPTEO2024

I cannot, CANNOT say enough good things about this video. I cannot. I cannot. It holds my whole heart and soul and I have only rewatched it twice because I am trying to preserve the magic but GODDAMNIT I love their shenanigans. What a series.

I was very worried when they came out with this video STRAIGHT into 2024 because I was like, "WOW. that was amazing but idk how they're going to follow this up? will everything feel like a disappointment now that this masterpiece has come out?" (not that dnp uploading could ever be a disappointment, but I digress) BUT I WAS NOT DISAPPOINTED. Still though, wdapteo is 10/10 my fave so far.

I hope you enjoyed my yapping! I know many of you don't agree and that's okay lol, feel free to share your opinions if you so please ! And also with the ones that were lower ranked, the reasons I listed for the being lower ranked was NOT me complaining. Each video is different and awesome in their own right, this is just a ranking of how much I personally enjoyed each one!

Thank you and goodnight!

[phanfictioncatalogue]

Domestic Fluff (2) Masterlist

2009, 2012, 2019, 2022 (ao3) - OliveTheHobbit

Summary: “Most people have like yearly photo books, we have this weird ass videos” - Daniel Howell, some bloopers from phil is not on fire 10.

Some of the memories they gathered along the way got fresh in their minds at the moment they decided to buy a photo album.

In celebration to Dan and Phil’s 10th anniversary.

adapt (ao3) - orphan_account

Summary: this is the story of how dan grew to love neon lights

A Day in the Life of Dan and Phil in Quarantine! (ao3) - silentdescant

Summary: Phil posts a Day in the Life video of a typical day in quarantine.

a room full of my safest sounds (ao3) - snsk

Summary: day five: domestic fluff

A Sleepless Night With Phil (ao3) - Not_Dans_Secret_Account

Summary: A jet-lagged Sleepless Night With Phil

baby blue and bubblegum pink (ao3) - phantasticworks

Summary: Dan paints his nails. Phil wants to try it.

Basically I’m Gay (ao3) - ChainedKura

Summary: Dan is editing his coming out video when a deep sadness takes over his body. Lucky for him, he counts with a Phil Lester on his side that will do everything in his power to make his partner feel better.

blankets, coffees and afternoon naps (ao3) - zsunsetz

Summary: Blankets, coffee and afternoon naps have become the new normal.

Coming Clean and Kisses on Screen (ao3) - hygge

Summary: Dan and Phil are finally ready to make the news of their marriage and their new family public.

Dan and Phil and DOG (ao3) - nivi_chip

Summary: It’s Phil’s birthday, and Dan gets him a gift that’s long overdue

Dan and Phil Make 'Food Stew' - The Howlter Family Edition (ao3) - gerardopoly

Summary: Dan and Phil feature their son Dil in a special episode of their "baking" series. They both had thought it would be a great way to display their relationship as a family on film, and a way to change their content up a bit. However, the roles are switched around when the couple play the sous chefs, and their son, as the head chef. Come on down and learn to make the perfect 'food stew' on this special episode of cooking with Dan and Phil (+ Dil).

Doing Nothing Often Leads To The Very Best Of Something (ao3) - kae_karo

Summary: based on this (x) and a lil imagine i wrote (x) and expanded on so thanks to the lovely anon who originally sent “that pic phil posted of dan for his bday i think where dan is making a funny face and theres a nearly empty wine bottle in the background hhhhh that makes my demon heart drop” and to the lovely anon who asked for more!

Home With A Heartbeat (ao3) - JenCollins, WordsAblaze

Summary: Uni’s hard, so sometimes Dan ends up missing lunch. This time he goes to Phil, who gives him not only worried looks, a meal, and cooking skills, but also a home.

kitchen hazards (ao3) - manchestereye (orphan_account)

Summary: dan and phil take cooking lessons, only for shit to hit the fan

Magical Healing Properties (ao3) - adorkablephil (kimberly_a)

Summary: Phil’s sick and wants his mum’s chicken soup

Night In (ao3) - antiadvil

Summary: Phil feels bad after a five second fight with his boyfriend. He is extra soft to make up for it.

security! (ao3) - natigail

Summary: Dan comes home to Phil after tour rehearsals. They cook, kiss and banter. And Dan reflects on the word "security".

the stupid sushi bubble bath fic (ao3) - itsmyusualphannie (itsmyusualweeb)

Summary: dip and pip cuddle and eat sushi and take a bubble bath like the nerds they are.

Today Is For Us (ao3) - CaibrynM

Summary: Dan and Phil take a day for themselves in between the tour ending, planning for their premiere in Brazil and the upcoming Christmas Holidays. Lots of Fluff and a little smut.

Worth the Wait (ao3) - JudeAraya

Summary: It’s pretty hard to stay mad at Phil, even when he’s forgotten date night.

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[joetasker]

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Be My Mistake

A/N: lmao it's been awhile hasn't it. Soz not soz for not updating lmao just had no inspiration and tbh couldn't be bothered

Song(s) Used: Be My Mistake - The 1975

Started: 18th February 2019

Finished: 11 March 2019

Genre: Angst

Word Count: 592 words

Third Person P.O.V

Dan lays alone in bed, seemingly thinking of a time where he wasn't alone, well more importantly, where he never felt alone; because the fact is that he wasn't alone. There was a girl who came around every now and then. Her name was Amelia. She was a friend of sorts. She worked for Dan and his best friend, Phil. But this girl was more than an employee, she was a re bound of some sort.

A few months prior, Dan and his longtime girlfriend (Y/N) broke up, and unsurprisingly, Dan hasn't been taking it well. When he's alone, he longs for her touch, her scent, her kiss, anything that could make him feel like she was still with him. But at the same time, he wanted to forget. He wanted to forget how she felt, forget how she smelled and forget the feeling of her lips on his.

The feeling of fleeting loneliness descends upon Dan. He wants to feel something other than loneliness, even if it's only for 5 minutes. So he does what he does all the time when he feels this way; he calls Amelia.

"Fuck, you know how much I love these jeans on you, but they have to come off." Amelia says seductively, pulling at Dans zipper and unbuttoning his jeans. The jeans that (Y/N) bought him. It's almost ironic how much Amelia loves them. She must think that Dan wears them because of how much she loves them on him, but he only wears them because it's the only thing he has left of (Y/N).

After the jeans are off, she goes back to Dans face, kissing him or making out with him or whatever you want to call it. And, Dan would be lying if he said he didn't find Amelia sexually attractive, she could get him hard, but in the end it was (Y/N) who made him weak to the knees. She always had that affect on him, and she always will. But he would also be lying if he said he never thought of (Y/N) during their scandalous encounters.

Dan knows he shouldn't keep on calling Amelia, because they shouldn't really be talking unless it's business related. But he just can't help it. Sex with Amelia seems to be the only thing that takes his mind off of (Y/N).

But when the deed is done, Amelia wants to cuddle and stay over, but Dan just wants the lights off and to fall asleep, and to dream about a time where he was happy and things turned out right for him.

He doesn't want her waiting outside of his hotel rooms, waiting for him and waiting for sex. He doesn't necessarily want her specifically. He just wants to feel something that isn't sadness and longing for (Y/N) and Amelia just happened to be around. Because Dan gets lonely without her. And while Amelia makes jokes about how they should get together, and Dan walks around with a glass of whiskey in hand, laughing at the so called jokes she's making, He knows deep down;

That Amelia is nothing but a mistake, She's just his mistake, and something to help him forget about the one he truly loves.

[homo-terezi]

Dan and Phil AND Dogs// June

[philanddanxreader]

Want To Shoot A Video?

Hello, Lovebugs.

Dan X Reader

Warnings- smut. A lot of smut.

Blurb where Dan and the reader finally agree to his wishes for filming them do the sexy times and Dan gets off to it later on 😌 please I need this •_• ~ 🌹

You were leaving back home in two days. The last two weeks had been wonderful together. Dan took you to every touristy thing he could think of. He took you to his parents for a few days so his mother could show you and tell you every embarrassing moment of his life. But now it was just the two of you hanging out in his room trying to get in as many cuddles as possible before you had to catch your flight.

Dan had released a heavy sigh as he squeezed you tight around your middle.

“Penny for your thoughts?” You said receiving his kiss on your cheek.

“I know I'm not supposed to be thinking about it yet but I'm going to miss you like crazy. Are you sure you can’t come move in sooner than half a year?” You returned Dan’s kiss as he snuggled his face into your neck.

“Shhh. You are ruining the cuddling mood.” You had pinched Dan’s arm as you innocently looked up at him. “You are right. You’re not supposed to be thinking about things like this.” Dan’s breath was tickling your neck as he breathed in and out. “I don't want to talk about moving, or leaving. I don't think I want to do anything today. The only thing I want is to just stay here with you and cuddle. Maybe even pretend that I'm not leaving so soon.”

“I hope you can add something else to your plans.” Dan had raised his head from your neck making sure to give you a cheeky grin.

“Hmm, thinking of trying to get into my pants? I think I may need some deep convincing.” Dan made a face at this.

“You have never needed much convincing before. Shall I wiggle my eyebrows suggestively? Maybe I can stroke your hair and sing you a love song through the window from the garden down below.” You let out an audible groan to let Dan know you weren't impressed.

“You really are a regular old Juliet.”

“I think you mean Romeo,” Dan said matter of factly.

“Really? I think you would be the one who would fake a death and then fuck it up so bad that you end up having your plan backfired.” Dan thought for a moment as he was about to make a comment then decided against it.

“See. Now kiss me already. Just like in that stupid old story.” Dan did as you said kissing your lips softly like if he kissed too hard you might break. “I think I'm truly smitten with you.” You said returning another kiss to Dan.

“Smitten? You have spent much of your time around my grandmother and her posh accent.”

“I love your grandma! She is the sweetest. Oh, and the stories she told about you. You could make a whole series of reasons why baby Dan was a fail.”

“I think I change my mind. You can go home now. You are annoying me.” Dan was about to give you another kiss before pulling slightly away from your already expecting lips. “I think I’m going to keep you from telling the world all my embarrassing stories by just never stopping kissing you. I don't know what I'm going to do without you here. I like to kiss you and cuddle you.” You would never admit it but the kissing seemed to work.

“Mmm, what else do you like to do with me?” You said receiving another peck from Dan.

“ Excuse my french but I also really love fucking you. When you leave all I have is my imagination to fill in the bits of you being with me.”

“That was strangely sweet of you just now. You know in an ‘I don't like to masturbate because I would much rather prefer your sweet sweet lady bits.’ kind of way.” Dan pushed you over on your back as he hovered over you.

“I have a proposition for you, and it's not a business one.” You knew exactly what Dan had in mind as his proposition was pressing into your thigh at the current moment.

“You have peaked my interest. Go on.”

“So you can absolutely say no but remember when you said you wanted to get me a goodbye present?” You nodded along thinking you knew where Dan was going with this. “ I want to shoot a video together. But not for youtube.”

You had to take a moment before realizing exactly what Dan was requesting of you. “Are you suggesting that we make an adult video?” Dan had the cheekiest grin on as he nodded his head.

“I know it's probably a no but I do have to ask if you would consider it. It’s just. It would be something just for me. You are the one I am obsessed with. Nothing would make me happier than to have you be the one I get to watch.” It didn't take very long for you to make up your mind. This really wasn't the worst idea. You had been sending Dan photos and little videos for at least a year now. This wouldnt make you worry about it getting in the hands of the wrong person. Or the risk of it being sent to the wrong person as it would be for Dan and only Dan.

“I don't see why not? I think it may be a bit of fun. But no fancy camera. God knows we don't want our sex tape to be in HD.” Dan laughed as he planted a loud kiss against your lips before jumping out of bed to find all of the things the two of you would need.

It had been a week since you had left and for some reason, this time felt even harder. Dan missed the way you would play with his hair in the bed. He hated having to figure out the time difference to even talk to you. If Dan was being honest he really missed fooling around with you. He loved everything about you. You made him laugh like no one ever has. He never felt awkward around you. but at the moment all he had on his mind was your body.

The way his hands roamed over your body. When you would get goosebumps when he would touch you lightly or run slow circles on your thigh. The way you would smile after as you made him cuddle up. Dan didn’t like to feel vulnerable or needy. He liked to be in control of everything he possibly could be. You being gone was something he couldn't control. If it was up to him you would be living here with Phil and himself. Dan tried to push you out of his mind but unfortunately, he had something else that wouldn't let him forget.

Dan decided to run his palm over himself over his boxers before releasing a little whimper. He had been so busy with his new video and missing you that he hadn't had time to properly take care of himself. He dipped his hand under the fabric to give a squeeze to his balls. The more attention he gave himself the more he realized how much he needed this release. He gave a few long strokes before remembering of your little parting gift.

Dan tossed the blankets quickly to the side to grab his laptop and headphones off of his desk. After the two of you shot the risky video on his phone he put it on his computer then quickly forgot about it.

Opening up the video player Dan clicked around until he found the one he was looking for. The video started black making Dan think he must have clicked the wrong thing until he heard your laugh through his headphones. Then suddenly a flash of light as you screeched at him to turn off the flash. The video quickly ended making Dan remember that he did, in fact, have to start shooting the video again.

After clicking next he found exactly what he had been looking for. Dan hit play as he got comfortable against his headboard.his screen lit up from him removing his hand from the phone to rest against the book he had on his side table. There you were looking back at him through the video. You were smiling with nothing more on than your bra and panties. Dan was off screen probably grabbing a condom from his dresser drawer. 

“Should I say something to you? Well, not you but the future you who will watch this. Hi, Danny. It’s me. your smoking hot girlfriend. If you are watching this I am either not reachable by phone or you are all alone sad and in need of some porn. In that case. Enjoy, and tell me how it went afterwards. Sound good? Future you better be telling me how much you miss me.” Dan was back on the screen as he jumped into the bed behind you.

“Oh, this will be the last resort for me. As I would much rather be talking to you. Or actually touching you.” Dan was hovering over you making sure to give you lots of kisses. It was always like this. When you first got there and right before you left. Dan couldn't stop leaving kisses everywhere.

“Do you think we should make this a proper porn video? You know with the whole shebang. Oral for both of us, sex, and then you finish on my boobs.” Both video Dan and watching this Dan gave an audible sigh.  

“You are adorable, I love you so much. But please stop talking.” You made a little zipper motion over your mouth to signal you would try to be as quiet as a church mouse.”Good. Now let me go down on you then fuck you so hard you are feeling the repercussions days later.” You couldn't help the giggle that escaped. you knew he wasn't lying about the last part. It was more of an excitement giggle than anything. 

The next few minutes were a mix of clothes being tossed around on the floor mixed with kisses and little giggles from the both of you. Dan had been so interested in watching what was unfolding between the two of you on his screen that he almost forgot that something was straining at his pants to spring free. Well almost forgot. Dan palmed himself once again letting out a strained moan from the pressure building in the pit of his stomach for the desperate need for a release. 

Freeing himself from his sweatpants and boxers Dan’s cock was already rock hard with the tip slightly leaking precum. Running his left hand over the tip he slowly stroked down his shaft to the base. Giving a squeeze to his balls before working his way back up. 

Looking back at the screen Porn Dan was already going down on porn you. Your thighs were being held down with Dan’s arms wrapped around them so you wouldn't be able to squirm as much. From where Dan had left his phone on the nightstand he was able to have a good vantage point to watch your chest rise and fall with every breath you were taking. Your moans and little gasps were echoing off of the wall in the room right into Dan’s headphones. It sounded like you were moaning there right beside him and not from the past. Dan continued sliding his hand up and down his stiff cock with a bit more vigour than before. The way your back arched as he continued licking and teasing at you. Dan knew that was one of your first orgasms of the night. He watched as you grabbed onto his hair while tilting your own head back, letting the orgasm wash over you. One evening after a particularly fun night Dan looked down at you as you cuddled into him with this light flush of pink still on your cheeks even after a while after.

“I think orgasm bliss looks good on you my dear.” Dan knew exactly what he was doing because he got the exact reaction he wanted from you covering your smile while your cheeks started to burn again. “A little bit of shy embarrassment looks good on you too. Cheeks hurt from smiling yet?” You rolled your eyes as you cuddled closer into Dan so you could hide the smile he was so excited to give you.

Dan’s mind came back from wandering when he realized that thought wasn't going to help him with the little problem he had created. 

Stroking at himself again Dan released a heavy sigh, trying to release some or really any tension that was built up. Dan ran his hand over the tip letting the precum help aid in the ease of touching himself. Dan looked down from the hard cock in his hand to the screen on his laptop. The two of you were kissing as Dan rolled a condom over himself. What he wouldn't give to have you under him like that sooner rather than later. 

Dan watched as teased your entrance with his cock. You had already been soaking wet so it really wasn't that hard to slip into you after a little bit of teasing.As Dan thrust in and out of you on screen he matched his own pace as he stroked himself with a bit more of a need of urgency to his pumping. It wasn't going to take much longer for Dan to cum to the view of you kissing along his arms that were planted on either side of your head while he continued to fuck you. 

Dan didn't care to edge this time. He had such a desperate need to release that it didn't matter if it had only been ten minutes. Stroking faster and harder Dan’s movements became sloppy as he pushed his way to the edge of bliss. The ache in his balls told him he was close and only need a few seconds more. This is usually where Dan would back off but instead, he pushed further until his orgasm took over. Dan closed his eyes letting the much-needed release be his only focus. Your voice even seemed to disappear as he shot his cum over his hand and underwear.

As Dan’s final few waves of his orgasm ran through him he let the sound of your little mews ring through his headphones for a few extra seconds. Dan quickly wiped at his cum with a tissue from beside his lamp. He knew that he was going to be jumping in the shower in a few moments anyway.

Dan closed his laptop letting it side to the other side of the bed while he let his eyes close for a moment. This was exactly what he needed. He had to remind himself that he deserved a pat on the back for asking you if you wanted to shoot a little something.

Dan was letting his heartbeat slow back down to a normal speed when he heard the familiar ding from the phone on the bedside table. That ringtone was reserved for one person on his phone only. Reaching over Dan gave a little stretch as he turned on the locked screen. There was your little message that you had sent only a minute before.

“Morning, or whatever time it is for you. What have you been up to?” Dan smirked at his phone before thinking of his reply.

“Funnily enough I was just thinking about you. How’s my girl?” 

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27. Rollercoaster

°Your POV°

My alarm started ringing announcing the beginning of one hell of a week.

With my eyes still closed, I patted the left side of the bed. Dan was not there anymore.

I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel a tad sad that he decided to leave before I woke up.

Jumped off bed and went to the bathroom to have a quick shower and start my morning routine before making myself some breakfast.

As I was rinsing my hair, the smell of melting butter and sugar invaded my nostrils.

Was it possible it came from the coffee shop below my apartment building? Wherever it was coming from, it made my stomach growl.

Wrapped my wet hair on a towel and put on my robe; as I opened the bathroom door, the scent was more intense.

No way! I thought to myself.

I poked my head over the counter and there he was Dan on his flannel pajama pants and a black t-shirt. Humming AND cooking.

He didn’t hear me come out of the shower; maybe he didn’t even notice I was awake yet.

-Excuse me. I cleared my throat. What are you….?

-Pancakes! Didn’t you say yesterday you much rather be waken up with this over music? He said without even facing me, fully focused on the stove.

-I remember saying something about a kiss too. I giggled.

-Well I’m kind of busy at the moment. He turned his head towards me shooting me a smile.

I walked towards him and wrapped my arms around his waist, leaning my head on his back.

-This smells delicious. I don’t recall ever having pancakes before.

-I know! You didn’t have anything I could have used to make them. I had to go to my flat and ransack our fridge.

-Sorry! I’m pretty basic when it comes to breakfast. Coffee, toast and I’m on my way.

-I can tell. Why don’t you go get dress before you get sick again? Not that I mind the robe at all. He said with a wink.

I cupped his cheeks on my hands and planted a small kiss before heading to my room.

It didn’t take me that long to get dressed as I already knew what I was going to wear so I used the few extra minutes to put on some light makeup. There wasn’t much time to do a full face so I limited it to some foundation, concealer, and loose powder to set it all; A hint of blush and mascara.

I made it back to the kitchen and found Dan already seated in one of the stools.

Our food was served, a few pancakes for each of us, a glass of orange juice and a cup of coffee.

-Oh my god, this smells delicious. Thank you.

-Don’t thank me until you’ve tried them. He smiled.

We ate our breakfast as we talk a little. I’m telling you, it was the best breakfast I had in a long while and the fact that Dan made it for me, made it taste even better.

I caught myself staring at him a few times; he probably noticed but was too focused on his food to even say something to me.

I liked the view almost as much as the way that he made me feel. I liked him, I really did. It was bizarre, as I don’t tend to grow attached to people I barely know but there was something about Dan that would make you love him even at first glance. Well…technically, at second in my case.

-I really have to get going. I announced as I was taking our dishes to the sink.

-Yeah I know, unfortunately I can’t persuade you stay in, can I?

-I’d love to stay and hang out but I have an office to run, a dress to pick and…

-A dress? Like in…

-The dress I’ll be wearing to your gala.

­-Oh! Will you show me?

-No way in hell! It’ll be a surprise.

-I normally don’t like surprises but I guess I can live with it for just a few days. Can you at least give me a hint? He said as he put his hands together as he was praying.

-It’s purple.

I grabbed my stuff and before leaving, I put on some perfume.

-I love the smell of it. He said grabbing the bottle

-Thanks. It’s my signature scent. I’ve been wearing the same perfume for 10 years now.

He vowed down and brushed his nose through my neck so as to fill his lungs with my perfume and leaving goose bumps all over my body.

-It definitely suits you.

-Stop it, Dan! I said as felt my cheeks turn bright red.

He wrapped his arm around my neck as we walked towards the door.

I locked the door behind me as I turned back to face him. We got lost on each other’s eyes before kissing softly.

-Text me later?

-Pinky promise.

I planted one more peck before the elevator doors shut in front of me.

 ~Time Lapse~

 I was drafting a presentation for Russel as my chat lit up.

Laura:

When are we getting the hell out of here? We have a dress to pick!

You:

Ugh! I haven’t forgotten about that!!! Russel needs some stats for a meeting. I’m half way through it

Laura:

This is more important! Let’s go.

Plus my stomach is growling already

You:

I know, mine too. I haven’t eaten anything since this morning.

Laura:

Oh yeah….the pancakes <3

Bloody hell, you are lucky.

You:

Oh shut up! Last thing I need right now is to get lost in my thoughts.

Give me 30 and we’ll be on our way.

Laura:

Just 30. Not a minute more.

You:

Yes mom!

I typed as fast as I could. I don’t know if it was because of how nervous I was due to the dress or the fact that I was actually famished.

Saved and sent I said to myself as I clicked the send button on my email.

Grabbed my purse and sprinted over Laura’s spot at the front desk.

-Shall we, madam? I said as I extended my hand

-I thought you would never ask.

We got out of the office and into the tube.

I briefly told her about what happened yesterday after she left during a short coffee break, to say that she was shocked it’s an understatement, so she took it upon herself to interrogate me the entire ride.

A few minutes later, we got off on Covent Garden and walked the few blocks that separated us from the store.

I didn’t realize it was a vintage store which made me extremely happy. I love vintage clothes and thrift shopping.

The place was packed with sequins gowns, long, short, anything you can think of and it was divided by color, which I really appreciated, otherwise, I’d have felt extremely overwhelmed.

I was distracted by a text from my boss for, kid you not, a split second and when I raised my head from my phone, Laura was already diving into the hangers on the purple section.

-FOUND IT!!!! She yelled at me with the dress in hand and a huge smile on her face like if she just won a trophy.

As she approached me, I stared at the size. That’s not even going to fit me I thought to myself.

-Maybe we should contemplate others; I don’t think I will look good on that.

-Oh come on, Y/N! It’s perfect. C’mon, let’s go try it on. She said as she dragged me to the fitting room.

I never met a woman that doesn’t dread a fitting room. I was no exception. I’m mostly happy with my curves, but there is always an icky feeling when I try on clothes.

I peeled off my clothes as I stared myself in the mirror with only my underwear. Took a deep breath and put the dress over my head, making sure I wouldn’t stain it with my makeup.

It fitted and I didn’t look half as bad as I thought I would.

I put on my glasses to have a better look at it and the moment I gazed onto the reflection on the mirror, it downed upon me: I looked nice and I felt pretty.

-C’mon, mate! What’s taking you so long?

I shoved the curtain to a side and stepped out.

Laura just stared at me for a moment.

­-Mate, you look bloody gorgeous!

I smiled as kept on staring at my reflection.

-Ok, I’m taking it! Now, let’s just go and eat before I go all Hannibal Lecter on you.

I got into the small cubicle again so as to get back into my clothes.

-Y/N, your phone is ringing.

-Ugh! I bet is Russel! I bet he still doesn’t understand what I sent him. Can you please pick up for me and tell him I’ll call him right back?

What is it with bosses calling at the worst possible time? I sigh.

-Y/N’s phone, Laura speaking. I heard her as I was struggling to get back into blouse.

-Oh, Hi Daniel! Y/N is in the middle of trying on dresses, would you like to leave her a message?

I immediately poked my head through the curtain, still in my underwear the second I heard Dan’s name.

I started waving my hands and making gestures so she wouldn’t tell him anything about the dress if he asked which he did.

-I’m afraid I can’t tell you, she’ll kill me if I do but I can say one thing for certain…She will look absolutely breath taking.

-SH-SH-SHUT UP, LAURA! I shouted as she started giggling.

-You shut up, it’s the truth! She hissed. I will tell her to text you as soon as she can manage to put on her trousers again. She now burst out laughing.

-Asshole!

She stuck her tongue out.

-Pleasure to talk to you, Dan. By the way, BIG FAN of your videos! Ciao

She proceeded to hung up.

Stepped out and Laura still had my phone on her hands.

-Did I just spoke with THE Daniel Howell?

-You sure did!

-Oh girl! You are so lucky and he is even luckier! You will look amazing that night.

-For the millionth time, shut the fuck up and let’s go eat.

After paying for the dress, we headed out.

Took my phone to check my messages, Dan texted me shortly after Laura ended the call.

Ok, I know I’ve said I could wait but I can’t I want to see you in the dress.

Patience you must have, my young padawan

See you tonight?

I’m going to try. I have rehearsals

Boo! K…text ya later! :*

 As I put down my phone over the table I had a bit of a bitter feeling suddenly. Little did I know that was about to be the last time I spoke to Dan in a while.

[rebeccalynndufresne98-blog]

Afternoon Tea (part 2- rewriten)

So the first version I wrote everything happened fast, so in this version I slowed it down. It is kind of way slowed down, but I like it because it gives me more to work with to make this a full series. Also a slow burn am I right!

Dedicated to: @iamthepenguinwhosearseisonfire and @macchii-ato

Warnings: none (just a really slow burn)

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A few hours have passed since Phil came back, and now we are all three sitting together on their couch watching Riverdale. I am sat in the middle on the couch closest to Dan. Our knees where touching. Normally it would have felt awkward and one of us would have moved, but this time it felt......nice. I'm zoned onto the show when I suddenly feel Dan's hand rub against mine. I blushed and looked downwards in an attempt to hide my blush, as Dan had done earlier. I didn't need to see Dan's face to know he probably had a cheesy smile and a bright pink tint to his cheeks, or he just didn’t even notice which is a definite possibility.

Dan began to move closer towards me. Now not only were our knees touching, but so were our thighs. We sat there in silence with only the sound of the tv.

After the episode of riverdale and a few movies it was about 2 in the morning. Phil decided he was going to go off to bed. We said our good nights, and I prepared myself to leave. As I was gathering up my things I heard Phil's bedroom door shut.

“Y/N,” Dan spoke softly, “I-I want to tell you something, but I’m not quite sure how to really go about saying it.” I turned around to now face towards him.

“Okay?” I say confused and sort of anxious, “whatever it is I’m listening.” I say to him trying to instill confidence in him.

“Um..okay.. here we go.. well.. you see... I-I um... I’ve sort of fancied you since I met you. Well I've been attracted to you since we met, but I didn't really fancy you until that one night at Zoe's party when we drank a little too much and we went up to the roof of the building the party was at and we just talked for what seemed like forever." Dan rambled as his cheeks had turned a crimson color. I looked at him in awe. I always figured he'd forgot about that night, I mean we were really drunk.

“Oh,” was all I managed to say. My mind went completely blank. Like I actually had no thoughts at this moment. I could see in his face he was hurt by me just saying “oh,” but I couldn’t think of anything to say. I tried to say something but nothing came out.

“Oh?” He questioned. His face dropped. His eyes went from their usual brightness to a deep saddened brown.

“I-I mean oh as in.... like.. oh.. like oh you like me? Well I find you attractive and I’ve thought about that one night many times before, but like that’s the only real conversation we’ve ever really had and I don’t know if I like you per-say just yet. Like I like you as a person I just don’t know if I like you in a romantic style, and I know that’s not what you want to hear but that’s all I’ve got for right now.” I took in a large breathe once I finished my ramble not realizing that I had been holding my breathe for a while.

“Oh, okay. I mean I get it. We haven’t had a real conversation before, so I understand. However, maybe if we changed that then maybe we could see where things go in the future. No pressure to like me like that now or any time soon. You can’t control your feelings I know that, so let’s try to become better friends. If you’re up for it?” He rambled now.

“I would like that, and you’re right feelings may grow in the future but I can’t promise anything. Let’s start by building to our friendship and take it from there.”

“So, does this mean you may-maybe want to go out sometime as friends, of course? Phil could even come with! We could go see a movie, go to dinner, or just walk around London. I d-don't know.." he asked.

"I would love to do any of those things with you, as friends of course.” I responded sweetly.

"Ok good, so um I'll plan everything and I'll text you the details. God now it sounds like we are doing a business deal." Dan laughs.

"Well that's the best way to plan a friend date, hangout, get together thing. Treat it as a business deal." I joked.

"You're right. That's exactly how it's supposed to happen." He bantered. We both laughed, and I began to finish gathering my things.

"Oh, um let me help you get the rest of your stuff out to your car." He offered.

"Thanks!" We grabbed all of my stuff, which was only my laptop, chargers, and my camera. As we walked to my car we had light conversation mainly discussing the the movies we watched. There was no awkward silences or situations, which was kind of surprising. It was a nice change in our dynamic. We got to my car and placed my stuff inside it.

"Thank you Dan."

"You're very welcome Y/N."

"Dan," I started, "I don't want things to get awkward. Like I don't want it to become awkward between us if I don’t develop any feelings later on, or even now. I know it can be hard being friends with someone when you fancy them, so if it becomes too much please tell me. I’d rather just end our friendship then drag it out to be this big awkward mess where we are both walking on eggshells around each other trying to avoid the inevitable.” I tried to reason.

“Okay?” He seemed confused but understanding at the same time if that’s even possible. I smiled at him and nodded my head as a reassuring response. Dan smiled slightly back at me. His phone rang in his pocket causing him to take it out to check it.

“Oh wow it’s already 2:30 in the morning.” Dan exclaimed.

“What? Really? Oh my god I need to get home and go to bed! Goodbye Dan.”

“Bye Y/N.” We hugged goodbye once we pulled away I got in my car and Dan walked back to his apartment. I began to drive still seeing Dan out of my window and gave him a small wave and then proceeded to drive back home.

[danielhowellx]

Anything he can do, I can do better

“Phil! Put me down!” You shout through the apartment, startling a restless Dan upstairs while he edits a video. He quietly gets up and tiptoes toward the kitchen, following the sound of laughter. Dan pokes his head through the doorway to see Phil placing you on the counter, nibbling on your ear while you laugh uncontrollably. There is flour all over his black skinny jeans and some in your hair. He rolls his eyes and walks back to his room, mumbling to himself at his desk.   

“Dan, are you in your room? Dinner’s ready!” You make your way down the quiet hallway and knock lightly on his door. No answer. “You’ve been in there for hours, come on!” You knocked again, this time quite forcefully. Again, no response. “Dan? Are you okay in there?”You carefully twist the doorknob and peek in. Dan is fully invested in his desktop. You quietly walk in and nudge his shoulder.

“I think getting you those noise cancelling headphones for Christmas was a mista–’ he grabbed your wrist just as you were about to tap his shoulder again. “Dan, what are yo–”

“I can do it. Anything he can do, I can do better.” He stands up, towering over you. He presses his hand into the small of your back, pulling you close. He plants a kiss on your forehead. “See, I saw you two in the kitchen.” He rested his hands on the underside of your thighs and lifted you up, carefully dropping you onto an open space on his desk. Bringing his hands up to your waist and under your sweater, you shudder under his freezing touch. He tightens his grip on your waist and starts kissing your neck.

“Dan, st–” Before you can finish your sentence, he locks his lips with yours. As much as you want to pull away, as much as you want to run to Phil like a loyal girlfriend, you just can’t find the will to say no. You dive into the kiss, letting vice take over. You move your arms from their frozen state at your sides up around his neck.

“We have to go the kitchen before Phil’s notices how long I’ve been gone,” you whisper, pulling away from his soft lips.

“Okay, okay.” He loosened his grip on your hips and helped you off his desk.

“Not a word of this to Phil, understood?” you warned.

“Yes, of course,” he said with a wink. You rolled your eyes and made your way into the kitchen, where Phil was grabbing some plates for dinner. Dan showed no signs of guilt as he made his plate and sat down to eat.

[awkwarddezzy]

It Will Always Just Be Me

Pairing: Dan x reader

Genre: romance, smut, angst, fluff (though it’s mostly angst)

Song: Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off by Panic! At the Disco [I’ll never get over how long this song title is]

TW: swearing (aka I lost count of how many times I used the word ‘fuck’)

Word count: 3,212

For @phanny-fics writing competition. This song has been a guilty pleasure of mine lately, and my mind screamed ‘FANFIC THIS.’ Cause you know, this is what happens when I turn to the emo trinity to keep my writing juices flowing. Also, on a random note, when I Googled the lyrics for this song, I literally just typed in ‘panic at the disco lying is’ because there was no way in hell I was gonna type in the entire song title in the search bar. 😅

When she shows up knocking at my door, I’m this close to slamming the door on her face. For an entire week, I didn’t receive a call, text, or any form of communication from her. Not only did she make me crave for her attention, but her ignorance made me feel pathetic. Here I am, pinning my heart for the girl of my dreams. Too bad I’m too stubborn to see that my dream girl is also my worst nightmare.

“What are you doing here?”

She glides into my flat, initially not answering my question. She’s wearing those pair of heels, the black “fuck me” heels that she purposefully teases me with. And her dress… damn it, she shouldn’t be wearing such alluring clothing in public.

“Why do you think I’m here?”

I lock the door. Thank god Phil is spending the entire day with PJ. I don’t need Phil to pity me again for having a weak resolve.

“Who is it this time?”

“What makes you think there’s a who?”

I laugh bitterly. Does she think I’m blind? “I know you, (Y/N). Who’s the poor sap this time?”

She pouts, dropping her purse on the floor. “His name doesn’t matter.”

“So there is a someone.”

“It’s none of your business.”

“It is if you’re just here to fuck me again,” I snap.

She tenses. Gotcha. She’s way too transparent.

“Stop talking.” She steps closer to me until the front of our bodies touch. “Don’t worry, I’ll tell you later. For now-” she snakes her arm around my neck, “Let’s have some fun.”

I have to resist. This isn’t worth it. I’m only going to be left with disappointment again.

“Look at me, Dan.” Her thumb brushes along the corner of my mouth. “I’m sorry, okay? I’ve been busy-”

“Bullshit. If you were busy, you were busy finding another fuck buddy.” I try to put some distance between our bodies, though she won’t let me. Her arms stay around my neck and now her breasts are squished against my chest.

“It’s not like that.” Her voice trembles and vulnerability replaces her apparent lust. “You know I want to be with you. But we can’t be together. My parents don’t like you. Your fans will bash us.”

Shit, I hate when she pulls that card. She isn’t wrong. Her parents aren’t entirely accepting of the idea of us as anything more than friends. The Phan shippers and zealous fangirls will definitely direct flames toward her. As much as I loathe her behavior, I know she’s doing this to protect my reputation. She’s scared of her feelings for me, so she’s quick to say yes to any man who shows any interest to her, even when all those men only want her for her body.

I’m not that kind of man. I want all of her and so much more.

“It always boils down to that reason, huh?”

She nods. Her dropped guard disappears and her (E/C) irises are back to their lustful state. “Let’s forget all that for now. Please?”

I can’t say no to her.

I cup her cheeks and mash our lips together. She groans, tangling her fingers in my hair. She steps backward until we both fall on the sofa. Our mouths disconnects, and her tantalizing smile makes me forget my resistance.

Our clothes are discarded, left as a messy heap on the floor.

Her heels stay on. If she wears “fuck me” heels, she’s going to get fucked while wearing them.

When we’re naked, I tell her to bend over the arm of the sofa.

“We’re doing this my way,” I whisper huskily in her ear.

She obeys, and I bite my lip at the sight of her wet and ready for me. She yelps when my palm spanks her ass.

“This is for fucking someone behind my back.” Another slap. “This is for making me go seven days without you.” Slap. “Seven.” Slap. “Goddamn.” Slap. “Days.” Slap. “And this is just because I wanted to.”

“Stop teasing me,” she whines.

“I’ll tease you as much as I want to.” When we’re alone like this, I’m in control. She can have me wrapped around her finger again when this is over.

“Fuck me,” she murmurs.

“Beg for it.”

Her breath hitches. She knows this was coming. I won’t give her what she wants that easily.

“Please fuck me.”

“Where would you like me to fuck you?” I graze over her slit with my index finger. “Here?” I move the same finger to her anus. “Or here?”

“W-Whatever you want.”

“Ah.” I move my finger back to her slit. “So here. How would you like me to fuck you?” I use my thumb to rub circles on her clit. “Like this?” My index finger buries into her and I slowly move it in and out. “Or like this?”

“T-that works.”

“Or…” My unoccupied hand guides my cock to her pussy so the tip brushes along her clit. “Would you like me to use this?”

“I don’t care!” she wails. “Just please… please fuck me already.”

There. That’s how I want her: reduced to a needy mess.

So I give her what he wants. She screams in relief when I finally push my cock into her. I pour my week-long frustrations into her. My body thrusts rapidly in and out of her, my hands gripping her hips roughly that I’m certain there’ll be bruises forming by tomorrow morning. In the back of my mind, my gentle side is begging me to slow down, to savor the moment and remember that our time is limited. For her, the concept of forever doesn’t exist for us.

But I don’t care. I’ll take what I can get, even if what I get are scarce leftovers.

Curse words fall from her mouth constantly. Her arms struggle to hold herself up, until it gives out and the upper half of her body slumps atop the couch arm. I’m glad these walls are somewhat soundproof; god forbid the complaints from our neighbors who might think I’m murdering someone in here.

“That’s it,” I croon. “Let it out, (Y/N).”

“Shit… I’m gonna come.”

“Good girl. Come for me. Show me who’s mine.”

She shouts my name, her orgasm causing mine to follow a few seconds later. I drown in the sounds of our pleasure. This was worth waiting an entire week for. This was worth the tension when she waltzed into my home and was capable of shattering the barriers I put up around me.

“Whoa,” she breaths once we finish riding our highs. “I totally missed that.”

“Same here, sweetie.”

“Mmmm…” I pull out of her, moving to lie on the couch. She takes a minute to remove her heels. I’m tempted to spank her again; if she’s showing her backside to me like this on purpose, the joke is on her. I’ve already gotten what I wanted. I can wait another ignorant week.

“His name’s Gordon.” She kicks off her heels and lays down on top of me. She rests her head on my chest. “I met him while I was at a bar with (B/F/N).”

“And you slept with him.”

“Nope.”

“But you will.”

“Maybe, if I like him enough.”

“Have you kissed him?”

She lifts her head to look at me. The slight glimmer in her eyes confirms my question.

“We only kissed. Don’t make a big deal out of it.”

“I’m not.” Yeah I am. I have to know how much of an asshole he is right of the bat.

“I’m going on a real date with him tomorrow.” She caresses my cheek. “We had a good conversation when we met. If our date goes well… Dan, I think he could be the one.”

“You’re saying that and you barely know him.”

She sighs. “Yeah…but I’m crossing my fingers. Heartbreak is a bitch.”

Of course it is. But she wouldn’t have to keep experiencing heartbreak if she just picked me.

This is what we are. We’re more star-crossed than Romeo and Juliet. Our teen-like hearts, beating fast in a secluded flat, close to touch but unable to beat in sync.

˜:˜

Gordon is a dick. I don’t know the guy, but I know he is. Every man that (Y/N) has been with is. They’ll use her, trick her into thinking she’s the only apple to their eyes. It’s a lie, because they only see her as the bruised apple and there’s another woman out there who’s the ripest apple of their tree.

Phil doesn’t seem to think so. He thinks Gordon is different. It’s the first time that Phil has ever said that about her boyfriends. It worries me, because if Phil is right, Gordon isn’t an asshole and he’s falling in love with her in the pure way that I’m doing. He’s stealing my girl. I won’t swallow that fact lightly.

I deserve her. I deserve the love that she gives to other men one hundred percent. I deserve her at her best and worst. Not Gordon. Not a man who’s going to be another ex.

A few days pass. Then a week. A month. Three months. She barely comes to the flat. We haven’t had sex since she dropped by the flat to first tell me about Gordon. Thankfully, there aren’t long durations without receiving texts and calls from her anymore. We’ve reached a point where I can call her anytime and she’ll be likely to answer it.

However, it doesn’t remove the ache in my chest at the thought of (Y/N) and Gordon as a couple. The longer they’re together, the less optimism I have of (Y/N) and I as endgame. Phil still tells me to keep my hopes alive, though I’m beginning to truly give up this time around. What’s the point of waiting for a girl that can’t reciprocate my feelings?

Why am I still choosing to be single?

˜:˜

I try not to think about (Y/N) at the next YouTube party. I have a blast hanging out with Phil and our YouTube friends. I drink more than I normally do. Louise teases that the beast in me is finally released.

Oh Louise, if only she knew that there was already someone else who has seen my beastly side before.

I’m flat-out drunk before midnight. Phil calls someone to pick me up. He knows he should go home too so he could look after me, but I tell him to stay. I know he wants to. I’m not letting my drunkenness take away his night to have fun.

Despite my hazy mind, my tiny bit of soberness sees who took me home. She doesn’t talk during the entire ride and she doesn’t turn on the radio. The silence in her car brings peace to my brain. It’s lessening an urge to vomit.

She helps me walk into my flat. Or rather, stumble my way through. My urge to vomit returns and I immediately throw up in the loo as soon as we get inside. My brain is desperate for sleep, though my tired body wants me to stay awake. So I stumble back into my bedroom and collapse on my bed. Not too long later, she joins me.

“You shouldn’t have gotten drunk,” she scolds me, sitting down on the mattress.

“Didn’t want to turn down free drinks,” I mumble.

“You’ve done that before.”

“I regret doing that.”

She shakes her head in disappointment. “What’s gotten into you? You normally don’t drink yourself to this point.”

“Why do you think I got myself drunk? I think you know.”

“No, I don’t.”

“It’s because I love you, okay? I love you and I can’t have you and we’ve talked about this so many times already. But it’s still the same. You want love, just not with me. For my sake and all that other shit.”

“Dan-”

“I fucking hate you,” I spat. “I hate being in love with you. I’m sick of you telling me that you’re sacrificing our chance to be together to protect my reputation. But I’m fucking sacrificing shit too. You’re not even giving me a chance and I’m forced to just watch you get your heart broken all the damn time. I’m tired of it. I’m so, so, so tired of it.”

I close my eyes after my outburst. I don’t see nor hear her reaction. As I fall unconscious, I smile at the burden I’ve finally gotten out of my chest.

It feels better than all the orgasms I’ve had from her.

˜:˜

I wake up the next day with a massive headache. I feel like a boulder pounded through my skull repetitively and I haven’t died from it. The sweet release of death would’ve been so much better than to be conscious with this mental hell.

(Y/N) is nowhere in sight. There’s two Tylenol pills and a glass of water on my dresser. I don’t know if it’s Phil or (Y/N) who left it there.

I swallow the pills and drink the water. I wait for my hangover to subside. I stay in bed for nearly an additional hour before I can stand up with minimal pain in my head.

Phil is eating a sandwich in the kitchen when I exit my bedroom. He grins upon seeing me awake.

“Hey,” I grumble.

“Hey! You feeling better?”

“I’m feeling more shit than usual.”

Phil chuckles. “I’m not surprised.”

“Where’s (Y/N)?”

“She left a couple of hours ago. Said she wanted to stay, but she had something important to take care of.”

Ugh. Gordon is that important thing.

Phil gives me a hesitant gaze. “Ummm… (Y/N) texted me not too long ago.”

“What’d she say?”

“She broke up with Gordon.”

I freeze. Am I hearing this right?

“She texted you first, but you didn’t answer back. I told her you were still asleep. She said she’ll call back tonight.”

Fuck it. I’ll call her right now.

I dash to my room and grab my iPhone. There’s one unread text from her, though I ignore it and dial her number instead. I know what the text entails. What I need is to hear the news through her own mouth than words on a phone screen.

“Yo.”

“You really broke up with Gordon?”

“What, I don’t get a good afternoon?”

“Good afternoon, (Y/N). Now spill.”

She sighs. “Yes, Dan. I broke up with Gordon.”

“Why?”

“Do you not remember what you told me last night?”

I rack through my memories of last night. There was a party. I got drunk. (Y/N) drove me home. I said some things to her… wait.

I told her I love her.

I said “I love you” to (Y/N).

Fuck. My. Life. I wasn’t supposed to do that.

“Meet me outside your flat. I wanna talk to you face-to-face.”

“Uh… yeah. I’ll… see you.”

The surprise hits me more when the call ends. She knows how I feel for her. All this time, she only knew that I was interested in pursuing a relationship with her. Not that I love her. No, I intended to save those three words until we got through a first date.

Phil notices my shocked expression as I walk out my room. He’s done with his sandwich, and he beams, probably knowing what we talked about.

“(Y/N)’s coming over?”

I nod, still speechless.

“I’ll be in my room if you need me.” He winks. “Just don’t be too loud, eh?”

I scowl, sticking my tongue out. I’m going to talk to her, not fuck her senseless. I can save that for a later time.

“I’m happy for you, Dan. Go get your girl.”

My scowl switches to a grateful smile. It’s thanks to Phil’s advising that I’ve been able to rationally deal with my emotions toward (Y/N).

“She was always my girl,” I reply. “It just took her a lifetime to accept it.”

˜:˜

When (Y/N) arrives driving her (your favorite car), I open the car door and sit down on the shotgun seat. It would be more comfortable for us talk in my flat, but if we wind up arguing, it wouldn’t be fair for Phil to be forced to eavesdrop on it.

“Hi,” I greet.

“Hey.”

“So…”

“Last night made me think about a lot of things.” She unbuckles her seatbelt. “It was a lot to take in. I… I was ashamed. I knew you were hurt from all the dating failures I’ve had and me going to you because of it. But I never thought you’d be in love with me. I thought you only cared about me as a close friend. In all the relationships I’ve had, you’re the only one I’ve ever felt insecure about falling for. All the other guys, I didn’t mind if I got my heart broken. As long as I tried, hey, at least I know they’re not the one. With you, I was genuinely afraid I’d really lose you as a friend if we fell in love. Liking: I’m okay with that. Sex: I’ll roll with it. Love: I’d rather lose a limb than have my heart make that commitment. Gordon’s cool, but he isn’t you. He’s funny, he’s understanding, he’s hot as hell and a fantastic kisser. But I can’t love him. I can’t see myself saying yes if he proposed to me one day. If you proposed… I’d honestly say yes before you even asked ‘Will you marry me?’”

“(Y/N), are you saying you want to get hitched?”

She giggles. “You’re missing the point. I love you too, you dork. I broke up with Gordon because I realized I’m supposed to be with you. I don’t care what my parents and your friends will say. If I want to have Daniel Howell as my boyfriend, then I’ll let him be my boyfriend.”

“So you want to be my girlfriend?“

She grins, her head moving up and down excitedly. She moves her mouth to my ear. “I want the man who’s a freak on YouTube and in the sheets.”

I laugh, elated that my nightmare is over. I don’t have to keep us a secret to the public anymore. “Want me to prove that to you in here?”

She raises an eyebrow. “Is that a challenge?”

“Maybe.”

Her grin doesn’t falter as she drives her car elsewhere. She moves it at a more isolated location, and once she finishes parking, she pounces.

We kiss each other hungrily. We move to the passenger seat so we have more room. I inch her dress up and slide her panties down her legs. She pulls down my pants down to my feet. We groan in unison as I bury myself to the hilt inside her. My movements are slow, a first since sex became a factor in our lives. Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking her Clothes off by Panic at the Disco is playing on the radio, partially masking the sounds of the moans and groans escaping our lips. How fitting, except now my girl is officially my girlfriend.

We don’t fuck. We make love. We take our time, and after we reach our peaks, I hug my lover close.

We can dance to this beat for as long as she’ll have me.

[phanfictioncatalogue]

Dan Proposing To Phil Masterlist

2009, 2012, 2019, 2022 (ao3) - OliveTheHobbit

Summary: “Most people have like yearly photo books, we have this weird ass videos” - Daniel Howell, some bloopers from phil is not on fire 10.

Some of the memories they gathered along the way got fresh in their minds at the moment they decided to buy a photo album.

In celebration to Dan and Phil’s 10th anniversary.

A Christmas Proposal (ao3) - Carryonmywaywardlester

Summary: A Christmas Proposal (Or the one in which Dan proposes after six years of trying to muster up the courage). Huge smut warning on this story!

Another Day, Another Proposal - fanfikwritings

Summary: Dan and Phil propose at different restaurants to get free food, then Dan decides to actually propose (with a fancy ring and a really emotional speech) and Phil thinks it’s just another stunt.

A Video Proposal - philpocalypse-please

Summary: Dan wanted the moment when he proposed to Phil to be special.

Cereal Box Proposal (ao3) - HanWritesTrash

Summary: Dan wants to propose to Phil and has a cute way of doing it.

Deep In Thought - myxphanxaddiction

Summary: Phil and Dan are having a conversation about who would take the other’s last name if they ever got married, and the conversation ends with one of them proposing to the other.

Easter Surprise - isitcoldinhereisitjusthephan

Summary: A fluffy little thing about a ester egg hunt Dan has Planned for Phil.

Engagement (ao3) - dansleftboob

Summary: Basically Dan proposes and then they have sex because why not

Everything About You Resonates Happiness - anonymousphanfic

Summary: songfic where dan proposes to phil with bliss by muse playing in the background.

for the rest of our lives (ao3) - lyricallyharley, writtennotsung

Summary: “Dan's kept a lot of secrets in his life.

The ring is the biggest one though.”

Every time Dan attempts to ask Phil one simple question, something goes wrong. Perhaps even some of the most important events in his life don’t have to be perfect.

Or alternatively, the five times Dan tries to propose to Phil and the one time he gets it right, although not in the way he expected.

Forever And Always - dxnhowell

Summary: Dan proposes to Phil on the beach. 

Fortune Cookie - dxnhowell

Summary: It’s Dan and Phil’s fifth year anniversary of being together, so they spend the whole day celebrating together and ending with a nice dinner at home. Dan wants to propose, and Phil is a little surprised when he gets a little more than just a fortune cookie.

giving you my forever (ao3) - dvp_95

Summary: Phil gives him a little wave and goes to water their semi-neglected plants. He's wearing glasses and ugly pyjamas, and he looks like the rest of Dan's life.

"Hey," says Dan. "You wanna get married?"

Gotta Go Fast - velocijaster

Summary: Dan proposes to Phil through “A day in a life” video.

Happy Birthday My Love (ao3) - phansuniteinluv

Summary: It's Phil's 33rd birthday!!! Laughter, fun, and a birthday proposal that Dan has been planning for ages!

How To Get A Fiancé In 24 Hours: A Comprehensive Guide By Dan Howell (ao3) - stylinshaw

Summary: On New Year's Eve, Dan decides he wants to propose before 2016 ends.

I'd Like To Hang Out With You For My Whole Life (ao3) - cafephan

Summary: In which Phil’s advent calendar is a daily treasure hunt, and Dan has planned everything to perfection.

Just One Last Thing - adayinthelifeofphan

Summary: He loved Phil deeper than anyone he had ever had in his life before.

Marry Me? (ao3) - yikesola

Summary: Dan isn’t sure why he gets it in his head to propose over a video. But once it’s in there, he can’t quite shake it.

A fic about traditions and scripts.

Most Likely To...? - philhcwell

Summary: Surprise question at Vidcon.

New memories (ao3) - R3ad3r1

Summary: Phil looks at their new house with a hint of sadness. Dan fixes it in the most romantic way.

New Years Proposal - phantasticating

Summary: Dan and Phil proposal fic.

No Time Like the Present (ao3) - brookwrites

Summary: It was Christmas morning in the Lester household. Well, really Christmas Eve morning, but Dan bumped it up so he could give Phil a very important gift before leaving for his own home.

Not The First Time (ao3) - danrifics

Summary: Some of the times Dan almost asks Phil to marry him and the one time he actually does.

Once I was 30 Years Old - manchestereyes

Summary: Phil’s 30th birthday brings a flood of growing up-related anxieties, much to his dismay. Dan, however, knows just how to fix it: by recreating the day they met, swapping out Manchester for London–and with a surprise Phil never sees coming.

Once More with Feeling - phinalphantasy7

Summary: Dan has ring and a plan: he will propose to Phil while they are in Los Angeles. But every time he tries, something goes wrong.

One Hell of a Show - dxnhowell

Summary: A drabble in which it’s the last show of the tour and Dan has a proposal planned for the end, little does he know… Phil does too.

run away with me (ao3) - orphan_account

Summary: they're grown men, and if they want to run full pelt across the isle in the early hours of the morning, who's going to stop them?

Say Yes? (ao3) - cheekyhowell

Summary: Dan has a habit of taking photos of people without them knowing, and Phil has been his main target for many years throughout their relationship. Dan decides to save all the photos and uses them somehow to propose to Phil. In which Dan proposes to Phil in one of the cutest ways imaginable.

Signed, Sealed, Delivered (I'm Yours) (ao3) - dip_the_pip

Summary: Meeting extended family for the first time, especially after a decade of being together already, is difficult. Cornelia helps Dan navigate the difficult party, which leads to Dan making a big decision when he finally gets to be alone with Phil.

Third Time Lucky - camisadan

Summary: Dan keeps trying to ask Phil the ‘big question’, and Phil is a little oblivious to it.

Today's the Day (ao3) - JulienneJc

Summary: Dan proposes to Phil

Youtuber Whispers - dxnhowell

Summary: Dan proposes to Phil while filming Youtuber Whispers.

[tofandomhellandback]

At this point reading phanfic is just me trying to get good rolemodels when it comes to healthy relationships. All the adults in my life always had toxic and overall shitty relationships and communication. I NEED THOSE GAY GUYS TO SHOW ME HOW TO COMMUNICATE WITH PEOPLE YOU LOVE

[joetasker]

Periodt

Ah the sweet feeling of suddenly starting your period. The cramps, the bleeding, the crying, and sometimes the unintentional attitude. Dan was the man, the man with a plan! And the plan was to keep you warm and cozy and happy, but the plan had flew off the tracks. I was yelling and I was throwing pillows at Dan who was only trying to help.

"I just asked if you wanted apple juice or tea!" He ducks as another pillow flies over his head.

"I. don't. care!" With every pause, another pillow is thrown, leaving no more on the bed.

"Okay then! I'll just get you Apple juice!" He pulls on his hair.

"No! I'm so cold!" I go under the blanket.

"So I'll make you some tea. Are you done being a-"

"Being a what? Mcscuse me Daniel? Are you really going to finish that sentence?" I sit up.

"No ma'm!" He runs out.

—

"Dan!" I drag out his name.

"What!"

"Come cuddle with me!!!!" I yell, slightly straining my voice.

"Going!" I hear his sweet voice.

—

"I think I'm in love with you!" I hug him tighter.

"I think I'm in love with me too." He smirks. I lightly hit his shoulder.

"Dick." I mumble.

"Oh shut up, ya little shit!" Dan squeezes my cheek.

"No! You're a dick! Dick dick dick! Ugh! I-You are so annoying sometimes." I roll my eyes.

"Okay Miss Cranky pants! I'm such a dick." Dan releases me from his grip.

"No no! I was kidding." I roll closer onto him.

"Oh no, I'm such a dick! You said it yourself." He says in an exaggerated voice.

"Fine whatever! I'm going to Phil's room." I sit up, immediately groaning and falling back down on the bed, which sparks Dan's laughter.

"Oh god, you are such a sweet girl." He pecks my cheek, still laughing at my failed attempt to get up.

"Look, I'm sorry for calling you a dick, even though you are-"

"Nuhu! I am not a dick. You wanna see what a dick lo-"

"Oh yes please! Only yours." I wink.

"I'd fuck you if you weren't on your period." Dan pouts.

"I heard orgasms help cramp pain." I smirk.

"Well you better take out that vibrator you tried hiding." Dan laughs.

"What-Which vibrator? I have like three!" I laugh, confidently. He turns bright pink which flips the tables from what he wanted the situation to end.

"That's some tmi shit." He covers his face.

"You're my boyfriend." I mimicked his action. "Besides, you've shared your own tmi type of shit that I enjoy listening about!" I rest my chin on his shoulder.

"Me talking about the time I thought I had herpes isn't something enjoyable!" He points a finger out. It was completely enjoyable. I could tell he was super nervous the week he thought he had that but I just didn't know why, and now, I know why.

"Remember, back when we weren't dating, you told me about this ex you had, Ally? Was it?" I lift my face from his shoulder and push him down on the bed with me lying on top of him.

"Annie? Ann? Whatever the fuck." He shrugs.

"Why do you still remember her name? I bet you still like her don't you?" I turn away dramatically, giving him the silent treatment for a good three minutes, somehow resisting the temptation of turning back and giving his nose a little kiss.

"What about her?" He lazily asks.

"You used to tell me how she was extremely freaky, sex wise." I point out before continuing. Oo when Dan and I were just friends, we could go hours and hours talking about what he missed about his little bitch ex Ann.

"Oh god Y/N, yes-Yes I remember! What does this have to do with anything?" He groans.

"It has nothing to do with anything, I just wanted to say how much you definitely talked years about her. What about now? Can you talk about me for hours?" I pout falsely.

"Of course! I'm sure I could! I fucking obsess over you in the healthiest way possible! You're so wonderful and—Shit! That's exactly what you want me to do! Talk about you for hours! Nah mate! Ain't about to do that! Cheers love but I'm out!" He stands up. (Why did I just turn Dan into willne)

"Mm-no! Give me food please! I'm hungry and I'm mad and cranky and I'm scary because I'm mad! Right?" I grit my teeth.

"Aw dear, you're fucking precious! That's probably the cutest thing you've done today Aw baby" he slides back onto the bed, probably earning him a burn mark.

"Please get me food." I whine.

"Right away!"