#deadass I was going to make a post like this myself but. lazy and now I dont have to do it. yay.

[stankhead]

very good video for any friends who need it

the artist who made the video is @/veno-net on Tumblr :]

[huellitaa]

hello hello huelittaa 👋✨ do u have any tips for someone struggling with motivation to workout? or even to take a simple walk? thank uu 🤍

bee's physical activity handbook: motive 🎀 . ݁₊ ⊹

hiiii ml!!!!!!!! 🫶🏻🩷💗 sorry this has been sitting in my inbox for a few days BUT IM HERE NOW !!!!! honestly this is something i also struggle with myself ,, i am still recovering from depression personally so this is still difficult for me sometimes too but these are some things i do !!!! ♡

🧁𓂃 ࣪˖ 1. prepare urself for the possibility

so since i know i have this problem a lot, it helps me to be prepared for this in advance. i actually have a whole notion page filled with a table of letters to myself in specific situations i find myself in a lot, this included, and have a whole archived stored of cute photos and motivation and things like articles and videos and tumblr posts on the main page and in the letters that make me wanna get up and do shit and its my LIFESAVER. (should i make a post on this?)

but i'd suggest to keep a note or page or document , physical or digital, filled with just motivation for this specific thing, like things you like about it, photos romanticising working out or going outside, songs that motivate you, etc etc etc. the list goes on but you get the point ♡

🎀𓂃 ࣪˖ 2. detective chapter: analysis! ♡

figure out why you dont want to. this is the main thing that helps me and its so simple but once u figure out the root u figure out the rest and this applies just the same here too. is it laziness? mental health? exhaustion? overworking? burnout? you won't be able to continue until you haven't found the actual problem. it's like trying to travel with no path to travel on.

💭𓂃 ࣪˖ 3. pep talk!

one thing i do that helps me the most is literally just lay in bed or wherever you are where ur procrastinating and thinking about this over and over and going back and forth whether to do it or not is to force the thoughts out (literally. u can envision it if it helps!) and deadass bully myself into doing it 😭😭

(🗒🎀 note: i've also found it helps for some people to do this in the mirror, just so ur face to face w urself as it were. plus u get to admire urself at the same time so its a win all around)

if ur not into harsh motivation, another thing i love, esp when im not feeling great enough to deal w harsh motivation is pretend ur giving advice to a friend or ur child in this position. this is one of the greatest pieces of advice ive ever gotten i literally cannot stress this enough. do this‼️ p.s. you can do this in ur head or out loud. i usually do some mix of both because i am a professional at talking to myself constantly literally all the time

🧁𓂃 ࣪˖ 4. use gratitude in ur favour!

one thing i like to do is essentially guilt trip myself into doing it. erm. you can also call this gratitude it sounds a lot better. think of how grateful you are to even have the opportunity to go outside safely to go for a walk, to be able to work out and keep urself healthy, because there's always someone who's not going to be able to do those things. it is a privilege to live your life and this should be classed as one too.

🎀𓂃 ࣪˖ 5. all about the outlook

another thing i love that falls into the category of motivation is treating it as an act of love and luxury rather than a chore and changing ur outlook on it. for example,

"oh, i have to do this or i'm a failure" or "i really don't want to do it today"

🎀𓂃 ࣪˖ into...

"i deserve to do this for myself because i deserve to be taken care of and kept in good health."

and i find this makes me so much more open to it because you do deserve it.

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ 6. romanticism; obviously!

okayyyy i know you hear this EVERYWHERE but ‼️its‼️because‼️its true‼️ romanticism is my LIFE not a day goes by where i dont act like im a silly girl in a pink girly shoujo world, and i do this even more so when i dont wanna get up and do simple tasks like this.

some things that give me motivation via romanticism is getting dressed up and cute even if i'm just going for a walk and listening to music and appreciating the world (🗒🎀 note: i love taking pictures or going on different routes whenever i go for walks! it makes the experience so much sweeter and more enjoyable ♡), or putting on cute clothes, loud music and grabbing a pretty waterbottle and hyping myself up to do even just 10 mins of pilates because something is always better than nothing!!!!!!!!!!!

🎀𓂃 ࣪˖ 7. something is better than nothing

with the last note from my previous point in mind, try and always do just a little bit, even if it's not the amount you intended. say you wanted to workout for 20 minutes every day, but you really weren't feeling it today? do 10 instead. this way ur still doing something. we always have tomorrow. take it at ur own pace. you wanted to go running every day? just go for a walk. you can always try again. there is no limit on how many attempts you have with these things. this is always better than just doing nothing at all. this is basically finding the middle ground when you do these things. which leads me onto my final point ,,♡

✨️𓂃 ࣪˖ 8. finding the middle ground

the no.1 thing in all of this is please don't beat urself up for it if you don't feel like it sometimes, but still keep to it as best as possible. say for example you really didn't want to one day but you had no real reason not to, you should still do it. but if your emotional or physical health or anything like that is in a bad place right now, then allow urself to skip for a day or two. dont beat urself up over it, but keep to it when and where you can because i know its difficult sometimes ♡

all my love, and u got this!!!!!!!!!! 🩷🫶🏻💬💗🎀

[itsluhhhhh]

My success story

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Backstory/about me: So I’ve never posted on here before but i wanted to share my success story cause I’m insanely proud of myself and I wanna be able to motivate people to get their desires, just an introduction my names Alesha, im 15, im Italian and Brazilian and live in Australia, I got into manifestation in 2020 when law of attraction was popular I tried that but tbh I gave up but in 2021 I started learning about the law of assumption and that’s when I really got into it, tbh in 2022 I was a lazy bitch I didn’t affirm nothing and I was really depressed but I promised myself in 2023 everything would be different. All I did was affirm and persist I literally just persisted and persisted even when i didn’t have enough energy to do anything.

Appearance

I literally manifested a huge glow up and looking like my desired self WITHIN A WEEK mind you I never wanted to look like anyone else my desired self was just me but 10x better and with a few different features and y’all I literally had a huge glow up idk how I had this big of a glow up I was not expecting it and I look exactly how I’ve always wanted to look, I manifested black 3a/3b curly hair that’s super bouncy and perfect little ringlets and so shiny 😍, I manifested like insanely clear skin like my skin looks fake an I have tanned skin naturally and my skin tone is completely even now, my lips are a lot more juicy now and smooth, my waist is tiny and my ribcage even smaller, my butt is a-lot bigger now and I’m naturally skinny so it was always harder for me to gain weight but my butt is so big 🤭 and I got those sexy ass Kendall Jenner type legs now, I manifested like perfect eyebrows, my eyebrows literally look like they were just freshly waxed and my eyebrows are so full and arched now I love them, I manifested the curliest thickest LONGEST EYELASHES omfg my eyelashes look FAKE cus of how long and thick they are I deadass had my friend ask where I got my eyelashes done, I manifested getting my braces off and having the most perfect, straight, white, healthy teeth and the prettiest smile and I manifested being insanely gorgeous and pretty

Dream Life

I literally manifested my dream life, Im popular asf now and we haven’t even started back at school yet (in Australia we start school again January 30th) so I still have a week left of my school holidays and I’m so popular now I’ve got people asking to hangout everyday even tho I decline cus i hate going out 😭 and I’m literally everyone’s favourite now, I’m the family favourite and my friends favourite and idk how to describe it my life just keeps getting better and better like my life genuinely improves in every aspect every single day, my home life is perfect like we all get along and we have the best time ever, they are so lenient and chill I’m deadass allowed to do whatever I want and I’m talking to my desired person again but I’m gonna manifest having a secret relationship with him cus i don’t want anyone knowing 🤭 I’ve got my first job and bitch I’m making BANK im making a lot of money 😫 and my life has just genuinely gotten so much fucking better

Mindset

Pretty simple, I manifested a perfect mindset, a perfect self concept, I rarely get negative thoughts anymore I’ve got a very clear mind like I can think really clearly now and I know my power cus well I literally manifested all my desires like it was nothing, I manifest anything I want instantly, I’m a master manifester etc

If I can do it u can do it too trust me Ik what it feels like to not be motivated or have enough energy to get out of bed and ik what it feels like to be anxious and depressed but it is so so worth it when u finally start living the life u deserve and it can be hard at times but as long as u persist you’ll get there it’s literally law, there’s no point moping around being a victim because no one else is gonna fix ur life and manifest ur desires for u, it’s all up-to you. Anyways I hope this post motivated you to persist for ur desires, have great 😽 love y’all 🫶🏼

[fernweh-s]

Deadass! Like now I’m stuck like SpongeBob twiddling my fingers cuz I don’t know what to do with myself, just getting dropped off on a cliffhanger.

I’m thinkin of just getting the audio book for the first book at least so I can kick off the gears in my head to actually start reading the series.

Omfg you’re a trooper idk how you do it. There’s so much content my brain overloads idk how you juggle it and meanwhile if they reference something I will litterally backtrack till I get to the point n understand it cuz yeah that totally make more logical sense 😅 my brain is built different.

RUBY ROSE WAS IN BAT WOMAN ?!? Omfg WHAT. N yes it’s the CW curse for sure. I stopped watching their superhero adaptations after they ruined Arrow.

Batman the animated series was top tier. Chef kiss. I’ve been wanting to rewatch it again but my roster rn is so jammed packed and same I grew up watching it too . ima 93’ so then Saturday mornin cartoons were the the highlight of my youth.

Oh shit I didn’t know that, is the comic with the same name ?

I was hooked on shield so bad like they really brought me into the universe n it was like I was in the backstory of the movies. N then they go into the future n do dumb stuff like this does not interest me what so ever -.-“

Facts it really do. Is today your day off?

Ahhh so your an east coast BB, it’s 10 min till the afternoon here on my side. My day just getting started. But it’s Friday so it’s my lazy day today. I Just got back from the post office n sending out orders so I’m done with the day n just get to lounge.

It's really just the worst lmao. 😭😭 I wish that when shows got cancelled, they'd get like, one more season or even like half-season to tie everything up neatly so people don't gotta be left with questions when the end is just so abrupt.

Lmao I wish I could do audiobooks but I am just way too ADHD for that. 😂😂 I'd just end up zoning out, and when I zoned back in I'd probably have missed half of it.

😂😂 Lmaoo, see I've had to do enough of that with older comics, when I first got into reading comic books. Now I'm like; I WILL stay caught up even if it kills me!!

YEAH!! She was Kate Kane/Batwoman. Then she left, and instead of doing the reasonable thing—which would have been cancelling the show, they replaced the character of Kate with Ryan Wilder

It really was. I did a rewatch of (some) of it (and some of Batman Beyond) like, last year, I think (time has no meaning to me lmfao). Still SO good.

The comic continuation is called 'Batman: The Adventures Continue', and there's three volumes('seasons') total so far. There's Batman: The Adventures Continue, then Batman: The Adventures Continue: Season Two, followed by Batman: The Adventures Continue: Season Three (which is still currently ongoing!).

Lmao for real. Agents of Shield, you failed us!!! 😭😭

Yep, I'm an east coaster!!! Ayy, lazy dayyy, nice!

[calypsoff]

Fifty Five. Part 2

Mel’ voice scared me out of bed “Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday dear Robyn, Happy Birthday! To you!!” She shouted with a cupcake in hand, a lit candle on top “are you serious?” I said groggily “deadass ma’am, oh my god. You’re twenty six, but you look twenty” I chuckled “you really scared me” shuffling up on the bed slowly “I was out, nobody was going to wake me. How have I woke up tired still” resting my back against the headboard “wow, oh my god” Yusuf said pointing at my stomach “hey” pulling my top down “you lucky I wear panties” leaning forward closing my eyes, making my wish and blew the candle out “yay! Happy Birthday baby” Mel hugged me “aww thank you, I will forgive you all for scaring me. I love you all” Mel moved back from the hug “come here” waving Yusuf over “chile, I don’t know what I expected but I can’t believe how pregnant you are. I don’t know why I am shocked, but I haven’t seen your stomach since, I mean you are very much pregnant” Yusuf is shook “does it look that bad?” I questioned “no, just it too me back. Robyn is actually pregnant” hugging Yusuf as I cooed out, he isn’t used to it I get it “you know what we were waiting for you to wake up, but we were done waiting, we have breakfast waiting. Tina cooked so ain’t no ordering or anything so get out of bed, you missed all the birthday love last night. Noella text me like is that bitch going to respond. I said listen, her life has changed now. She is with child, we got to give her time to catch up” I huffed out smiling “how you think I feel, so I spoke to Chris in bed and then I was all comfy and then I needed to pee, my bladder felt so weak last night and I don’t get why, I will be back to my usual self, I promise” I am awful, I can’t believe how much I just slept last night, what is wrong with me.

Waving at all my team as I walked out of my room “oh god, y’all are so embarrassing. I feel like I should have dressed or something, god I am a mess” I am so shameful, here I am just walking out with my big tee on and half asleep still “oh be quiet, happy birthday baby” Jen gave me the biggest hug “thank you, that looks like a big breakfast, come here Tina” waving her over, I want to hug this tiny bitch “my tiny little child, look at her” hugging Tina “happy birthday to one of the most amazing boss, best friend” I cooed out “thank you Tina” she is so cute bless her “I heard you cooked this, it smells delicious” Mel my stylist came in for a hug “happy birthday my sexy baby mother, you are one sexy baby mother” the girls laughed “no, but am I joking. How fine does she look, her skin is popping too” he is too kind “stop it, I am just a lazy bitch now but come on babies. Let’s eat, before I become very angry. You know this baby likes food” walking towards the table “I am guessing this is my chair, seeing as it is decorated with balloons” pulling the chair back “of course, tonight we will turn up a little. But we shall start with breakfast” sitting down shuffling my chair in “is mommy blowing a fuse?” I asked, I know my mom probably is “she said where is my baby? I don’t think people are used to you being this quiet” my poor friends and family, this baby just wants me to sleep and hibernate. I want to do things, but this baby has other plans.

I have kind of peeped the start of Chris’ text and I have left it to the side because I just seen a picture of Chris and Drake in Vegas, I have just commented on his post. He really went out of his way to post such a nasty picture of me “do y’all believe that Chris liked this” I turned my phone to the table “like do y’all really think he liked that, look at me. My hair was barely done, this was before Joyce did my hair, those white folk weren’t good. I am mad at him; my hair was terrible. I looked so scared”. Mel chuckled “no it’s not even that bad, it was so sweet of him. It shows that he loved you then, you really had a forehead that only a momma could love” slapping Mel’ hand away “I am joking but to me that is sweet Robyn, I don’t know why you’re so offended” rolling my eyes “probably because his ass is in the club in Vegas but I looked terrible” a knock at the door of the apartment “get that” Mel said to Tina “you’re just being sensitive for nothing, he is in Vegas he is going to have fun but that is sweet, ok who else on the table thinks that post was nasty?” Mel announced to the table “I liked it” Jen said “see you’re just being negative about yourself; he did like you then so there you go little sensitive ass” I suppose, let me answer his text. I won’t call him because obviously he will be in there and I can’t be bothered to be shouting over that music.

To: Chris

From: Robyn

That is fine, be safe x

Pressing send on the message shaking my head “did you leave a comment on his post?” Mel asked, nodding my head “yeah, I put I really wish you didn’t with this picture but thank you baby” Mel rolled her eyes at me laughing “special delivery for you Robyn” looking behind me at Tina “what?” seeing the bouquet of roses “is it my secret admirer? I hope so” I joked, Tina placed the roses on the table “you wish bitch” grabbing the card on the roses “oohh, who is this” opening the envelope smiling “Happy Birthday Twin, sorry I can’t be with you right now. I want you to have the best day ever, I hope you like your gift from me to you, I chose this myself, so I hope you like it. I love you” I read it “oh my gosh, a gift” I beamed, Tina placed the box in front of me “House Of Miyake-Mugler?” I questioned “right, who helped him? Since when does Chris know fashion” I laughed, this is a lie ���I swear I didn’t even help him, on my mother” Mel said, she knows I do not trust her. I can imagine she would help him, Chris really bought me a dress “right, let’s see what he got me. I don’t believe he can actually pick something nice” opening the ribbon on the box and then opening the box “oh we going white” getting up from the chair, pulling out the dress “oh it’s strapless” holding the dress up “oh this is cute, but it’s going to be figure hugging. I will have to get a jacket or something, you think it could work Mel? I need to hide my stomach” Mel nodded his head “that is a nice dress, he chose well. I am proud of him” Mel my stylist likes it so that means he has done well.

I hate myself; I missed my flight that left at eight so I am sat in the airport having to pay above the price I paid in the first place to get the flight at Ten which means I will get to Robyn late as hell, I text Mel that I will have to meet them at their meal because I am going to be late. I overslept, I drank a little more then I should have maybe but then I went to sleep, I shouldn’t have but I needed to sleep the booze off, I can’t be drunk on this flight. I see Robyn did text me, but she seemed annoyed, I don’t think she was happy that I went but I had a good night, I met Dr Dre, I was a big fan to him. I am sure he hated me, but Drake really made it known I was married, he announced it on several occasions and then was getting all hype about it, played Rihanna’ songs too but even though people knew who I am married too, females didn’t care. They were still there, just there sitting with me asking me questions but like, I wasn’t here for that. I mean girls are always going to be there, not like I care but I don’t want it to be more then what it is, because it’s never that. I am just happy that I had a good night, I didn’t pay for no drinks. Just good vibes, that is all I wanted. Looking down at my phone, my followers have shot up. Like we in hundred thousands now, that is because of the Vogue thing “wild” I said to myself, tapping on my tagged photos. I knew it would be full of the Drake pictures, I mean all we did was take pictures. Oh I don’t remember that one, maybe I do. It’s a group picture so it’s whatever, but what is my arm doing around her, she is something to do with Drake, I think anyways but it was all harmless.

I am stood in the disabled toilets waiting for my flight, I am stood in here because I do not want Robyn to know anything that I am going to see her in London. Pressing my phone to my ear as it rang out, I hope she pick up. I do assume that she is annoyed with me that is why I want her to pick up “hey” Robyn answered finally “happy birthday twin, aye. How are you?” I sound so husky there “I am ok, how about yourself you sounding a little rough there baby? Long night” I chuckled “could say, I did text you, you got it right?” I am saying it like she didn’t text me back “I did but you had to go out on the day of the announcement, I see the little video of you turning up too, least you had a good time. You going out tonight too?” she is not happy “I am, to celebrate your birthday twin, I think I will be. I will tell you now because you may go to sleep early, you sleep well yeah? You weren’t even picking up” I know my wife, she wants to be annoyed with me, but she can’t say anything “I slept a lot, this baby is taking out of me, but I love the dress so much. I just wanted to say thank you, you really set the tone for my birthday, I wasn’t expecting anything from you, so this was such a surprise, just shows you think about me. You have taste too, I love the dress so much” I cooed out, I am happy she liked it “you know I got you, I wouldn’t forget your birthday just sucks that you are there and I am here, I miss you” I need to stop teasing her like that “yeah” Robyn breathed out, I do hate it that we are apart “I really hate it, I wish I was there” oh god, now she is crying “stop crying Robyn, please not on your birthday. I know you been a little sad about it, I felt it in my heart but don’t be sad, I promise you we will have many more, you got mine to celebrate” Robyn laughed “you’re so annoying, I just miss you. I miss your touch Chris; it’s been so long. But I will be ok, just be careful out there, I am trying to get this all done and dusted soon, I need to have my appointment” I feel bad now “it’s been a while Robyn since I seen you too, I can only imagine you have changed. I wanted to see that change myself, I wanted to be there but we going to be ok Robyn so please be optimistic. I love you” that is my little words of wisdom done.

With every little delay I am getting annoyed, we were supposed to leave at ten and fifteen minutes has gone, and we are still here not left “excuse me ma’am” I said to the flight attendant “yes sir?” she said “why are we still here on the ground, are we leaving now?” this is annoying “we will be leaving now sir so please remain in your seat” nodding my head, I am sat in business class, this flight is long as fuck so I wasn’t about to be sat squashed in the back, I am not doing that at all. I am actually trusting both TJ and Barry with my business right now, Cena and Neima left too, they are going to work on what we discussed so I have to trust them two, I am not even going to lie how pissed off I was about them doing what they did, how can they fuck up a supplier like that. But they are my friends, so I got to just relax on that, I don’t want to break that friendship over this. I do need to mention to them that they won’t have a big role in the business like that anymore. So they won’t get the big money like they do unless they do want to work for me.

I feel so groggy, this time difference is really hitting me. It’s no good, I am going to be sleeping well tonight. I am just so glad that we have landed, and we can get off this plane, people are all rushing to get off the plane, I should be doing the same. It is so late, like I am hitting Robyn’ bed time right now. Tapping on Mel’ name, I bet Mel is panicking thinking what am I doing “I will be back, yes sorry” she said down the phone “where are you? Robyn is acting like I am holding her hostage now, have you actually landed here? Please say you have” Mel pleaded “yeah I am here, I have landed. So where are you? You told me I forgot” she did mention it “The Arts Club, it’s on Mayfair. Tell the cab to drop you off here, you will need to come by security. Tell them you’re here with Rihanna” pulling a face “is this place fancy, I have my suitcase with me?” Mel huffed out “our car is parked there, you know what. Rich will be around; I will text him to meet you. Put your suitcase in the car, don’t bring that in here, hope you’re dressed nicely” pulling a face “Mel, I ain’t getting changed. I will knock a nigga out, they will let me in” Mel chuckled “just come, hurry about it too” she disconnected the call, standing up on the plane. I need to leave “hi, excuse me sir” looking over at the lady as I shuffled out of my seat, turning to her “can I have a picture with you” pulling a face at her “me?” this weird “please, I love Rihanna and I seen recently that you both married and I find the whole story so cute” I chuckled “oh yeah, why not” this is mind blowing that people want to take pictures with me.

Rich is stood waiting for me, he opened the cab door “come on, get out” he started laughing, he grabbed my suitcase for me “thank you friend” I said to the cab driver as I got out, taking my backpack with me “you come to surprise me?” Rich joked “you happy that I am here?” he shook his head “I will take your backpack too to the car, it’s a very upscale place so let’s not take big bags with you “and” moving my face away as the flash got into my eyes “that, yes paparazzi are posted outside” that looks fun, they rushed over once one of them saw me “I ain’t even famous, what the fuck. You good with my stuff?” I asked, he nodded his head walking off. Walking towards the front door, the paparazzi are really on my ass “how does it feel to be married to one of most beautiful popstars?” one shouted, the guy opened the door for me as I got inside. I am glad that is over “hi sir, what are you here for?” this big guy asked, security of course “Rihanna, she is in here” he looked me up and down “the dress code does state no trainers” I groaned “bro, I have just come on a flight from Vegas to surprise my wife that is sat in there you really going to play in my face when I am this jet lagged” he went quiet not saying a word, he nodded his head and opened the door for me, he knows not to fuck with me because either way I would go inside.

Mel and I caught eyes straight away, she breathed out. She looks so relieved to see me, you can tell they purposely sat Robyn there because she can’t see here. Robyn has her hair in a ponytail, the way I have won right now, I love when her hair is like that “sorry” hitting into someone, I am too mesmerised by the fact my twin got her hair up, she knows that my weakness, she knows this. Getting closer to the table, it’s like everyone is staring at me but not making it obvious at the same time, they are trying not to stare but they are staring. I am just behind Robyn’ chair, she is so damn loud with her mouth. Leaning over slowly, placing my one hand on the table and the other behind her chair “you finished being loud?” I said, Robyn froze and then turned to me. Her face all in mines, I have missed her so much, she yelped out getting up from the chair and I moved back. Robyn grabbed me, her arms around my neck as she sobbed out crying “happy birthday twin, I know it’s late, but I missed a flight here” Robyn is about to make me cry, she is really crying a lot. Her grip around my neck is so tight “you came” she managed to say “I came here for you, you look so good Robyn, you really do” rubbing her back as she continued to cry, she is so sad.

“Oh my god, my makeup is a mess now” Robyn stepped back trying to save her makeup “here you go mama” Jen gave her a napkin “you got me fucked up, look at me” I chuckled “hi everyone, hope y’all well. Has she been complaining about going home?” I questioned “baby she was ready to walk, I am glad you came now” Yusuf spat “we are here drinking on her behalf too” looking over at Robyn smiling “they kept you here for me, you think I would miss your birthday” Robyn shook her head “stop, I am not going to stop crying” wrapping my arm around Robyn “you look so beautiful, I wouldn’t ever miss a birthday Robyn, we missed too many important dates already, never again. You know I would follow you anywhere” pressing a kiss to the side of her face “best gift to me, look at me. I can’t stop” nodding my head understanding, Robyn’ stomach caught my eye “no way, oh my god Robyn” I stepped back, that stomach has come out. Looking up at Robyn’ face in shock, my mouth hung open “that is really a bump” she is showing “stop, don’t make a scene” Robyn hugged me, I am in shock.

We moved places with Mel to sit in the corner, Robyn is getting me fed anyways “I am so tired, look at me. When I called you I was drunk, well not so much drunk but yeah. I was so angry, I was supposed to be here for you like two hours ago, I would have been here for your cake and stuff but just like you. I am tired, we about to sleep good tonight” Robyn looks so happy, she is so damn happy “trust me, I was about to send you pictures of my fit actually, I did a ponytail for you. I was like Chris likes my hair like this” nodding my head smiling “I am in shock, you have been so busy on skype with business that you never showed me” placing my hand over Robyn’ bump “wow” Robyn raised her hand up “ignore me, I am ok” she is really crying about everything “stop it” holding Robyn’ hand “stop crying, I am here now. Once I ate we can go, I am tired. Like if I am talking shit ignore me” she is emotional “you have made my birthday, you really have. I have been somewhat so miserable, I didn’t want to celebrate my birthday, but I also didn’t want to travel back and forth, I promised myself to not be acting stupid. I am here so I stay here until it’s done, I am not travelling back and forth” nodding my head understanding “and you think I wouldn’t come to you, my clothing line is not above you” Robyn lower lip quivering “look at you, you got a tan. You look so well, you were on the shade room and I was like look at him. He looks so happy, so I didn’t want to you know, bring that down with my mood because that is unfair on you” shaking my head “stop it, well I am here now” Robyn placed her hand a top of mine “you not going to let me go now are you” she shook her head laughing.

[lia-the-potato05]

Ler Mood

Reader (Ler) x Jimin (Lee)

Description: In which you're in Ler mood and you wanted to tickle Jimin

Author: This is my first ever tickle fic🙈 I felt nervous as f*ck, debating wether it was a good idea to post this or not but eventually I did😐. Anyways Im still new to writing so please excuse all the errors here I feel lazy to edit them😂 so other than that uhm I hope you enjoy😬

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You're just not feeling it today. You sat on the couch boredom taking over your system making you feel like exploding. What's worse is that you're in Ler mood right now and you have this dying urge to tickle someone. But alas its just you alone in your apartment.

You let out a small whine as you slid down your couch slowly making your way to the cold tiled floor

*Knock Knock* Your eyes lit up when you knew someone was outside. I wonder who it is. You stood up and made your way to door, opening it to find out that it was your good ol friend Jimin.

"Jimin! It's nice to see you come in" You smiled gesturing the male to enter inside

"Thanks, It's nice to see you too, I brought some popcorn wanna binge watch some movies?"

"Hell yeah!"

And just like that both you and Jimin spent the last few hours watching movie. There are instances wherein you'd forget your in ler mood but it was still there and you'd be reminded of it from time to time.

You'd be looking at Jimin from time to time wondering if he is ticklish. The curiosity in you made you tempted to attack him with tickles at any moment. But... For some reason you felt to embarrass or scared to do it

"Y/N?" Jimin's voice snapped you out of your train of thoughts. You turned your head to him responding with a hum "You good? You look so uneasy for some reason, wanna check and see if you're ok"

You let out a sigh, you can't f*cking take it anymore. You turned your entire body facing the male with a deadass serious face. "Jimin..." You started off

"Y-yeh?" The male stuttered. He was confused for a sec, wondering why your suddenly like this

"How well can you handle tickles?" You asked, crossing your arms. Your question took Jimin by surprise

"I- uh... Not so well I guess, I'm real ticklish w-why?" Jimin scratch his nape. You suddenly smirked at him

"Good" You then tackled the male to the couch without him being able to react in time. With your swift hands you grabbed a thin rope and bind his hands together securing them above his head.

Jimin looked at you in horror. All weird thoughts consuming his minds. Knowing exactly what assumptions his making you spoke up

"Chill...I'm not doing any of that shet, I'm just simply wanting to satisfy my needs, not just how you think of it" Jimin looked at you in pure confusion "You'll see" You smiled sweetly at him

Without wasting time you decided to go easy on him first. "Boop" You said as you poked his sides

"Y-Y/N" He giggled "What are you doing?"

"What else you think I'm doing" You look at him innocently before poking his sides again. Jimin giggled again amd that's when you started poking both his sides fastly

"Y/N! Hahahahaha stohohohop thahahahat!" Jimin's giggles were getting louder

"Your laugh is too cute why should I?" You began scratching his sides as you started moving your fingers all over his tummy.

"Nohohohohohoho!" Jimin's eye smile started to display as he shook his head side to side wiggling under your weight.

"Yes~" You teased. After a minute or so you stopped giving him time to breath.

"Why are you so cute?"

"I'm not!"

"Whatever helps you sleep at night, let's continue now shall we?" You clapped your hands with a smile. You then reached into your pocket pulling out a  cute small feather.

A smirk was on your face as you slowly lift up Jimin's shirt. Slowly you dragged the feather around his cute tummy drawing patterns. Once again he burst out into cute lil giggles. "Y/N! hahahahahaha"

"Does this tickle? Is wittle Jiminie ticklish? Coochi coochi coo~" You teased him. Making him a blush as giggles continue spilling out of his mouth.

If you were wondering what's Jimin thinking about at the moment or how his feeling, strangely he was enjoying it. He wasn't a fond of being tickled, but you, you made tickling feel different to him. Like he wanted more of your attention as you do this to him.

"You're belly button looks cute too I wonder what will happen if I-" You then started placing the tip of the feather on his belly button then started swirling it around the area "Do this".

Jimin had a bright smile on his face, his giggles filling inside the room as you witness floods of tears escaping his eyes.

After minutes you gave him another break. The boy was already a sweaty mess, panting, tears at the corner of his eyes and his face so close to a tomato.

"Now now Y/N you had your fun, you can untie me now"

"C'mon don't act like you don't enjoyed it"

"I- uh..." Jimin started blushing. He got caught off guard when you face was suddenly so close to his.

"So you enjoyed it didn't you?" You smirked, finding his flustered state utterly adorable "Now tell me Jimin... Where is your worst spot?" You asked

"I-...I'm not telling!"

"Feeling a little bratty ey...Fine don't tell me, I'll just have to find out myself then" Jimin gulped, What did i get myself into?

"Now where should I start? I've already seen your sides and tummy, I doubt your feet is ticklish seen Hobi done that before, Hmmmm what about" You started going for his thighs giving it a couple of squeezes making him giggle.

"Nyahahahahahahaha"

"Well... Its something but not the reaction I was hoping" You stopped going for his thighs as you then went to his ribs. Using your thumbs to rub it against every rib, aswell as wiggling your fingers in between each rib

"Y/N!" He screeched

"Hmmm not quite" You pouted as you stopped tickling him. Suddenly a memory hit you "Ah I remember now" You smirked

Your eyes suddenly diverted to his underarms. "I remember you mentioning it in front of Hobi once how could I forget?" You face palmed

Jimin taking in what you said suddenly felt nervous. "Y-Y/N? What are you talking about?"

"You'll see...this is what happens for not telling me" You pulled his shirt up until his underarms were exposed enough for you to attack. "But I'd find out one way or another" You attack his pits wiggling your fingers fastly on the flesh, receiving the reaction you were hoping to get

"Y/N! NOHOHOHOHO NOHOHOHOT THEHEHEHEHEREEE PLEHEHEHEASSEEE" Jimin squealed, his laugh got louder as he squeezed his eyes shut , hands balled up into a fist, arms harshly tugging on the rope and his head going side to side. He couldn't escape this torture and he had no choice but to endure it. But he was enjoying himself anyways

"Tickle tickle tickle Jimin~ Your so cute~ You like being tickled here don't you?~ This is such a good spot I can tickle here for hours" You teased

"Stohohohohohop with thehehe teheheheheasseesss" He blushed a bright red color, more tears streaming from his cheeks

After a while you finally stopped. You untied his hands and got off of him. The boy hugged his body giggling, the tickling feeling still there.

"I hahahate you" He glared at you "But...your lucky I actually had fun" his words made you smile

"But don't you think I won't get revenge for this" Jimin suddenly stood up wiggling his fingers infrot of you

"Oh sh*t" You suddenly ran. Jimin chased you all around your place. He then tackled you to the ground and that's when tickle fight has begun.

[naturaldisasterfanfiction]

36. Part 2

Chris is staring at me because I told him that I need to talk to him, he needs to be told about himself and it has to happen because he can’t be scaring this poor child like this “are you done?” I said to Mel, she’s hovering over me with her damn phone “done!” Aeko yelped out at the side of me, looking away from Mel and at him “awww yay! Good boy” he ate all his breakfast “yeah I have done it on my instastory, I put innocent bond and posted it. Let them die inside with that” Mel walked off “oh wait, can you put Fenty in the crib please” she might as well because I won’t be getting up anytime soon “of course I will take my beautiful niece. The angel is sleeping to peaceful, love her so much” Mel picked Fenty from me and before she even moved to put her in the crib she started showering her with kisses “oh leave her alone” rolling my eyes at her, she needs to start having her own so we can both have our own mini Mel and Robyn “all done then” moving the plate away from Aeko “I like it” I chuckled “well Jen makes some good eggs, you know Jen” I pointed at her, Jen waved at him and he waved back. Placing the plate at the other side of me so he don’t kick it “you like your sippy cup now” Aeko got up from the couch and shuffled over to me “no more ba” I added “I like it, Bobyn” he tapped my shoulder “yes?” He’s come even closer to me but he just giggled “I go play” he pointed upstairs “where?” I mean we have no room with toys “I play please” he said please oh my god, my heart “oh yeah, I let him play in Fenty’ room” Chris added “right, I see then you need to go with him and let him play” he has to be there, he’s still a child and I don’t want to leave him alone “but why are you annoyed with me?” Chris is dying to know “ok, you can go there but I just need to speak to your dad ok? Sit back and watch this” Aeko placed his hand on my arm as he got comfortable right next to me, sitting down. Looking down at him and he looked up at me giggling, his head is resting right against my arm, that is how close Aeko is next to me.

Dennis is entertaining Aeko with his camera so I can now go and see to Chris and let him know what he’s doing wrong, watching Chris stretch his body out as he let out a yawn, wrapping my arms around his torso, hugging him close. Dragging my hands down to his crotch “aye!” Chris laughed as I squeezed his dick through his sweatpants “don’t do that unless you tryna suck” moving back from Chris “I miss it, I miss you” Chris placed his arm around my shoulder, pressing a kiss to the top of my head as we walked out of the living room “man, I miss you” holding onto his hand that was hanging from my shoulder “I’m still here but not in the bedroom, you know” hearing a little pair of feet hitting the flooring “Bobyn, Bobyn. Don’t leave me” he ran ahead of us “ginger spiced latte, what are you screaming about” I hope Jah can get him “I am just going to speak to your dad, I will be back. Go and show Jah PJ mask, he loves it” I laughed because Jah is sick of watching it “I mean I am not watching that but, I am going to do some work in the mess room that these both call a dining room, you can pick out some sexy things for Robyn to wear, come” Jah held his hand out “it’s not a mess ok, we just don’t have a work room as of yet, thanks!” he is rude “mess room, Tina! Come down, we have work!” he shouted “we have work” Aeko repeated “you are damn right we do, let’s go” he went with Jah luckily because I really need to do things right now, like packing.

Walking into the spare bedroom “you don’t make beds here?” I pointed at the bed “for what, it’s just Aeko and I, we good over” I know that is not my husband speaking “uhh not you’re not, when was the last time this bed was made?” is he crazy “the time you did the bedding because he peed on it” I gagged a little “that is nasty Chris, really is. That is not it, you’re not mess you are being childish because if that was our room you wouldn’t do that, right?” Chris laughed, he is laughing because I am right “but it’s only us, you would cuss my ass out and I don’t want to hear it so yeah” he is right “I need you to keep up with the same vibe, what is this? We are literally in the same home and you’re just not complying with the simple rule of cleaning the damn bed, why is his clothes on the floor, those are his pee clothes right?” Chris finds everything amusing “I am not laughing Chris, I would expect your son to be crying, throwing fits, even wetting the bed, that is what I expect from a toddler but you, I tell you to sleep elsewhere you feel all hard done by, I am not going to scold you. I just need you to get with the programme, I can’t carry you. It’s simple right, you put this shit where I can wash it or better yet in the laundry basket that are placed around the house. Even our guests are being better then you” Chris nodded his head, he isn’t laughing now “I get it, can we just skip the hostility and get back to the point that I miss you and he’s ok now” I laughed “oh he is ok? What makes you think he is ok? Let’s talk like adults now, come on. What is the issue, is there a reason to this or you’re just being lazy on purpose?” I need answers.

Chris sighed out “I just forget, I just walked out of the room in a huff because like that little nigga just doing shit dumb. He knows what he should be doing, making more work for nothing. I forgot ok” now I have bought forward serious Chris “I had Aeko crying saying you shout loudly, you turn all the lights off in the room and leave it dark and then play on your phone, ignoring him sounds like. Then he can’t get up on the toilet seat Chris, he can’t do it so yes he peed on himself, he needed you to pick him up like I did today, it’s simple things of actually listening to him. He cried to me, you’re being the least bit loving. Then you come into the room being all my gummy drop to Fenty, what about him huh? Doesn’t he need some cuddles and cute baby names. This is so important to him Chris, this is the point where they remember things, I am not telling you how to raise your child. I want your son to get the best of you, just because the mother is a bitch and you hate her you are reflecting that on him, I know you are. It’s not a chore to be laying in bed with your son when he is in a stranger home, you should be hugging him. Asking him is he ok, not just be an ass because I know you wouldn’t just leave Fenty in the dark, we don’t even do it now and she sleeps in the bed with us. I just want you to think Chris, you are probably angry at this situation and equally I am too, I am angry at her just throwing her son to us like he means nothing, but he is here and he is the sweetest little thing, I have really just bonded with him, he is comfortable with me. But this issue of you shouting at him needs to stop, I mean it. Don’t take it out on him because you are angry at her, come to me and vent to me” I hope I haven’t been too harsh on Chris.

Chris doesn’t look best pleased, I mean I have just clocked his behaviour which is very poor on his end “and honestly, this is your son but if you want to continue this kind of set up you can rent out a home and do that shit elsewhere, because I am not here for that” I am deadass too, I don’t like it “it’s not that, I don’t hate my son but shit is annoying like with him coming here when nobody was actually ready and now it’s like he is here, we should be going California and now we have to take him with us and it’s your birthday. The bigger picture is that he is a nobody to you and your family, she messed up my plans and it has made me angry. The child just, I don’t know. He is mind but it’s just not there, Fenty is just literally my gummy drop and she is there, that bond. I want it but I find myself hating this, hating the fact I see her when I look at him” Chris really hates her “I don’t actually see that and it’s because I don’t exactly care for her. I think he has the cutest little face, and he is the most perfect eyes, very expressive with his sadness. I have met many kids in my life but he’s the sweetest little boy that you are missing out on because you hate her, don’t let that taint it. Don’t shout at him either, he doesn’t like it. That was it really, but I am not impressed either. It just made me think when he was stood there in the bedroom and how he stayed away from you in the room, he was sad with you. He doesn’t deserve that Chris; my heart is literally upset for him which makes me angry with you” Chris’ phone started to ring “keep the anger up and then you can fuck me in anger, please. If you are taking requests” he is so annoying “wow, it’s the bitch” Chris said, I guess that is her.

Chris put it on speakerphone “little awkward to be calling me now?” Chris said “I don’t give those people to post my son, not even his hand. You tell them off” she has got a nerve, she really does “them is who?” Chris questioned “Rihanna’ friends, don’t post my son. Post her daughter” I am not even going to get involved because fuck that bitch “listen here, they can post what they like. If they want to post my son they can, even now. I will make sure they post him having the best time ever because they can, what you going to do? Sue them? You can’t even afford to look after him and you want to come to me and say that you fucking bird. I fucking made the biggest fucking mistake with you; I really fucking did. I wish I weren’t so fucked up in my head to know what you are like, you fucking say my wife’ name again I will make sure you are on the streets, you can’t even take care of one boy! You threw him to me, you knew, you knew he barely knew me, but you did it!” Chris is angry, he is so very angry at her about this “I am going to get my son back, Joyce is giving me money to help. I will be arriving in London on the weekend” Chris laughed down the phone “so either way you’re using my money, oh god. I hate myself, listen after this stunt you ain’t having shit, you gave him no clothes and you expect me to let an unstable bitch like you take care of him, he is not safe with you. You’re mentally unstable to be honest and that is coming from me. I am going to block your number; I don’t want to hear you. You speak to my lawyer, you want to see him then you’re going to have to battle me for it after all this proof I have on you letting a toddler travel with no clothes to change, with a stranger and then claiming you have no money but flew to California, you going to wish you never did this, cry to Joyce. She’s crying too because she can’t see my kids, bye” he disconnected the call “fucking bitch!” Chris threw his phone on the ground in anger.

Clasping my hands together sighing out “what is wrong? You need to really let this anger go” he is just angry, like I think I should be all uptight about this whole thing “this is not good, he’s there. He will be there like Chris’ spawn; at the end of the day he was supposed to be in Germany” frowning at him “the plan was to just keep him there and he visits one a year?” Chris nodded his head “you’re being paranoid, people are gonna think you did good by your son Chris. You’re just being drama and overthinking things; he hasn’t ruined anything. I am not going to leave you over it. I am not going to lie but he doesn’t deserve both of his parents being complete idiots, I get it! You regret it, he was a mistake but having sex while being doped up didn’t help and you know what happens when you have sex unprotected whether you were there mentally or not, and it happened. You need to get over it, you want him here, but you don’t want him here, what do you want huh?” Chris turned away walking off, he needs to either have a blunt or have a tantrum about shit. He is being so paranoid that he’s ruined our marriage and that people will judge him, he practically wanted to pretend like this boy doesn’t exist and he does, he’s right here. Men are a weird breed; they can just pretend kids don’t exist when they not in their face. He needs his space, and I am giving it him, let him think on it and he will soon have his answer on what he feels.

I was going to pack but Chris went into the bedroom and I want him to have his space so I will just go down for a while “ah, there you are. Meeting is booked in for when we get to California, I have rented out a five bedroom home for us, I am getting the home prepped for the babies to arrive so make sure we got the cribs there and stuff. Rich and Frank will meet us at the airport, the home is like a ten minute drive from Chris’ home, keep it close like you said. It’s private and Rich will be staying with us while we are there, that is all” Tina said everything as walked to the dining room “thank you, I know Chris will want to go to his home but I don’t exactly find his home the most safest place when I have my loved ones with us” Jah is right, my dining room is literally a mess. Full of stacked boxes of my own brand stuff to try out “so you think we should go for the orange?” Jah said to Aeko “owange” he pointed at the material “mhmm, perfect. Who said kids are annoying, oh yes me” Jah laughed walking off, look at the bond they have “Bobyn, I have juice” Aeko has caught me “sure, you need to go pee pee first?” I want him to tell, he shook his head.

[unordinary-analysis]

Episode 159

So apparently “later in the week” means ‘literally next week’ for me digiudgg

Also, I won’t be able to post the day the comic comes out because christmas and all that and family idk so I just want to say HAPPY HOLIDAYS :DD hope you guys have a nice time :))

Honorable mentions:

Very happy that the theory is thriving

I love Arlo with all of my heart and soul there i’ve finally said it

Do we know yet if Arlo knows that Cecile is working with John? I can remember the superhero posse knowing it, but did the info ever reach arlo? Comment if i forgot something lol

I’ve talked about all of the possibilities of a joker impersonator in recent posts, so I won’t go into all of that again here. You see, it’s laziness. I’m sure you guys understand lol.

I literally don’t know how to write this in a detailed way which is why it’s in the honorable mentions, but I just feel that Cecile has to just snap soon right? I’ve been hyped about her character as a whole for so long ugh, I just need some developments

I say “anyways” a lot. Is it too much? lol

Okay, first of all: Elaine:

    Elaine, elaine, elaine, elaine, elaine, you’ve finally done it. You’ve interested me.

    Harsh, I know, but honestly, she hasn’t really been doing much. I thought her character was cool to read a couple of times when she was literally terrified to death of Joker, but now I feel that her intrigue is actually due to her own self if that makes sense? Anyways-

    Moving past the obvious difference in her hair (only because I’ve already pointed that out lol), In this episode, WE GET TO SEE ELAINE IN OFFENSE MODE OEIRHGIWUHIWUH

    I’ve been hungry for some good developments on people’s powers ugh. It’s been dry ever since we saw Isen fight like forever ago. Or maybe Cecile. I don’t know. I just like to see people fighting oof. Anyway, we don’t even get much of Elaine fighting, all we see is like a block and a punch, but that’s not even really the only thing I’m excited about seeing.

    More so than other characters, Elaine has always been this docile type, you know? She’s just there whenever anyone needs healing and whenever someone needs someone to yell at them for being stupid. All Elaine ever is is worried, scared, and submissive. Well, not counting the beginning of the comic because I’m still not over that loss. Her character at the beginning of UnOrdinary? Superb. She was bitchy and yet weak at the same time. Classic combo. Anyways~ ;-; 

    Elaine is usually terrified of something and rarely stands up for herself or anything else, so seeing her stand up for herself, kind of, in this episode was really something to see. It wasn’t something big but, it was just a breath of fresh air to see a defiant side of Elaine. I wonder, is she growing more and more fed up of being weak? Is she done being scared? I don’t even know if she has the power to stop being scared, but, I don’t know. I’m kind of intrigued by the possibility of Elaine just snapping, aren’t you?

My main man: Arlo: 

    It’s got to be so weird going back to school after everything that went down, huh? Yet, the way that the safety of the school is still on Arlo’s mind? Even after he was publicly dethroned and now that everyone is staring at him wherever he goes? That’s the real evidence of what a true leader Arlo was. The best king we’ve seen in the UnOrdinary world I said what i said. And now he’s not even king anymore? Sidfhsiufhsiguh

    And the fact that Elaine went straight to him when she found a problem? It’s obvious that everyone still thinks of Arlo as the king. 

    I’m just in awe that Arlo’s first priority seems to be the school. It really… just helps paint Arlo in this different light. I’ve made countless posts talking about how he is obsessed with order because of the influence left on him by Rei and Rei’s failure, but now that his hierarchy has fallen apart, he hasn’t exactly reacted in the way I always used to think he would. And, yes, this is very late considering how long ago John ruined the hierarchy, but I haven’t talked about it yet I think so I’m here now. 

    I used to think that Arlo loved order so much. That maintaining it was his ultimate goal. I’m positive I’ve said that a few times before at least. But, it’s easy to see now that it goes deeper than that. Arlo really loves his school or at least he feels he owes it something, something that runs deeper than the surface hierarchy. And I’m not even sure if he’s always been like that or if it’s changed over the course of the story. I can’t ever seem to tell, no matter what, if Arlo’s character really has developed, or if I just never saw an aspect of him. It’s infuriating and yet so interesting at the same time…

    Anyway.

    Arlo’s rage is also something I want to touch on. It’s not exactly something new, but compared to the beginning of the story, it’s definitely something much more common recently, even though he usually is able to maintain a cool now as well. In this episode, Arlo punched a wall hard out of anger, which wouldn’t exactly be news for characters like Blyke or John, and maybe wouldn’t be for Arlo either, but I can’t help thinking about how out of character it would be for the Arlo of the comic’s beginning, at the beginning of season one. I feel that anger is something that we’re only being introduced to in regards to Arlo, like easing yourself into cold water, you know? Yeah sure, it doesn’t feel too out of character for Arlo to get so angry he literally decimates a wall, but it feels like every time he loses his cool, it either gets more over the top or it is incited by smaller and smaller things. His tendency to turn to anger is getting bigger. Arlo is angrier now than he’s ever been. 

    But, Just as I just said. I can’t tell if this is a totally new thing for Arlo, the anger, or if it’s been inside of him all along, just brewing beneath the surface, repressed in a way, similar to John. Except John knows what he’s running from. I don’t really know what I’m saying I just really love that uru-chan is tapping into Arlo’s emotions more and more as the story goes on because I can’t tell if they really are new things for Arlo or if they’re finally getting the best of him.

    Wording is hard so I have no idea if that last section makes sense.

    So: summary: I’m currently waiting for some sort of enlightenment on Arlo’s emotional state and character growth because damn

We love our dark king John: 

    So, um. John.

    He’s really something, isn’t he.

    I can never just hate him… no matter what he does… because everything he does is just so interesting. 

    Anyway back on topic. John’s current motives are actually really interesting. I’m not sure if I’ve talked about this yet because to be honest every time I write one of these, I rarely ever go back to see what I’ve already written in previous weeks and I never just remember because once I post one of these, you can bet that it’s out of mind. I know that John really just wants to create chaos. That’s clear enough. He stated basically that Arlo when he said he was taking down the hierarchy. But the thing is, I really don’t get why John is so for chaos? Like? I understand taking down the hierarchy because everything John hates about life, about his life, it really has stemmed from this system, the hierarchy. And finally after Arlo proved once again that the hierarchy could do nothing but hurt him, John vows to destroy it. Makes sense. And when the hierarchy is destroyed, obviously chaos is going to occur. That’s inevitable. We saw something similar with Rei and just basic sense seems to suggest that people do not not know how to function when there aren’t rules to follow. That’s chaos. Got that. But while John’s hate for the hierarchy and motive to destroy it make sense and the natural path that follows that leads to chaos, it’s John’s particular want for this chaos that keeps throwing me off.

    I don’t get why John wants chaos. I don’t get it. I don’t, okay? You know, he was a lot easier to understand when the only things he had going on were a. Lie to sera and b. Take down the hierarchy. But, yay, he’s achieved those things (some more successfully than others), and now..?? Why would John want chaos?

    I’m just repeating myself in hopes of making sense of my own thoughts but I can’t. I really don’t know why John seems so keen for Wellston running itself into the ground.

    So I’m deadass going to leave this here until I can think properly or something iuwfisuhg. I don’t know. It’s kind of late and I have to be up early tomorrow.

Some developments on the imposter Joker theory:

    Yeah, so, this isn’t really a theory aymore. It’s kind of proven now, but still it’s an easy way to refer to the whole situation. Anyway, on my longer post before specifically on this, I pointed out that because it used to be a common belief among low-tiers that Tuesday (back when he still was Tuesday) was Arlo, even though Arlo’s eyes glow blue and John’s glow orange. So: I said that it was likely that students can’t see the color of the eye glow or whatever through the mask. 

    This was only supported by this episode because not once does Elaine mention the color of the imposter’s eyes when determining that it is indeed an imposter. She thinks, “Wait a minute…! Something isn’t right here! That’s not John! …. This imposter’s ability level is nothing compared to the real Joker!” And that’s about it. So. Yeah. I think I was right about the eye thing. Not much else to say lol.

        Something else I want to say about the Joker imposter thing is that it really doesn’t matter who each imposter is. We wasted breath trying to think of who the first imposter was and if they don’t keep the same one, it doesn’t really matter. So because this imposter was not the same as the last, I think we can move on from this particular guessing game.

[ocular-intercourse]

i keep going over some bits of the convo with my mom

and my favorites were when she said that i keep excusing my behavior (texting more than phone calls or face to face convos) with my autism but when i really want to do something i can do it real quick.. which, yeah, okay, i definitely get myself to do stuff i want to do quicker, who doesn’t, but that still takes me months to years to get there that’s just all a struggle she does not see, like, it took me pretty much 10 years to contact doctors regarding the transition, in her mind it’s like i just noticed and decided to transition and picked up the phone to get this rolling last year. i’m just over here laughing bitterly at the implication that doing things comes easy to me as long as i want to do them, god, i wish

and, when i told her regardless of the transgender topic, if a person comes to you and asks you not to call them something but you keep calling them that, that’s disrespectful no matter why or who’s involved, and her answer to that was just ‘we picked your name because we liked it’ as if i had told her ‘how dare you call me this hideous name', in any way ‘i wont call you this cause i just like xy better’ is not exactly a great excuse

she also said she is losing a daughter (but is gaining a son, so that note was nice at least) and that’s still the most surreal feeling about this thing, as if i died and she’s mourning now, like, if she’s really mourning losing the concept of ‘daughter’ then she never really saw me as a person in the first place, cause she’s somehow expecting me to change now that the title switched from daughter to son, like she legit told me ‘i’m still calling you laura cause i still see you as the same person’ as if that’s an excuse?? and i said ‘and i will keep being the same person??? maybe a little bit happier, a little bit more confident, but the content is the same??’, she said once there are more male attributes it will be easier to her, but i honestly don’t know which changes she is expecting at this point, i don’t know if my voice will get any deeper, looking at the men in my family beard growth is not exactly high as is, i am and have already been hairier, leg hair wise, then my brothers are for years, and am often enough wearing a binder around her, i’m seriously wondering when the switch will flip in her mind and i will be ‘male enough’ to get recognized as such

but! the whole convo stuck with my parents enough that they are now noting whenever they say my birthname, at dinner the next day my mom suggested they’d have to establish the rule that they’d have to pay 1 € any time they call me by the wrong name and maybe they’ll learn quicker

so success?? kinda? i think they understood what i was telling them, that this will not be a magical switch, that something needs to happen on the outside and suddenly it works, but that it is something they will have to practice to make it work eventually

but also the convo really showed how skewered her perceptions are sometimes, when she was talking about how bad she was doing, and crying how nobody would see it, i had to remind her that literally every longer conversation we’ve had in the last three months or so included me begging her to get some help (remember that post i made about how she thought therapy would be good for her but my dad does not want her to go.. yeah, this has been going on for a while) i keep telling her i worry and she needs to say no to people and look out for herself and fuck my dad’s opinion and everything, but in her mind nobody sees her struggling. we also had this bit about our last discussion about them deadnaming me getting cut short and me offering her, via text on the way home, that we can talk about it some more on the phone if she wanted too, and she answerd that she would only want to talk about it face to face, and then she deadass blamed me during that conversation on sunday that i refused to call her, she was like ‘i told you i did not want to talk to you about this over the phone but then you did not call me for 10 days??!’ to just chat and talk about other stuff, how silly would that have been, yeah we are in this fight rn but let’s just pretend sometimes that we are not and talk about our day to day hasdghjk i offered her that phone call for HER sake, cause i know this weighs heavier on her than me, i personally did not need to talk this through but i knew she would struggle with it till we would, but noo i never try and accommodate her. that’s why i seriously hope she’ll get therapy and work on her perception of things cause she assumes when nobody shows her her worth in the way she would that obviously nobody loves her?? i had to go on a whole tangent explaining the love languages to her, and that if nobody spoke to her in her language that did not mean there wasn’t any love expressed towards her, she’d just need to learn to see it. like one thing she said was legit ‘your father only ever tells other people how great i am but never says it privately to me’ which, okay, i get that you’d want to hear that too, but he keeps bragging about you to others?? and you don’t see how great that is??? but no that doesn’t count for some reason

that whole fight between my parents was just my mom needing constant reaffirmation and my dad being unable to provide that, and both of them going ‘you know how i am i’ve always been like this, you should have learned that by now and act accordingly’ and i can see both sides cause i am like my father and struggle with expressing or even perceiving these things, but i also see that my mom struggles with constantly telling my father she needs this but him not complying. that’s one of the rare moments she accepts my autism diagnosis and tries to apply it to my father cause we are so similar (but boy does my dad not want to hear that) BUT accepting my diagnosis might be the wrong word cause with everything my mother just sees it as an excuse, but refuses to see that there is an actual problem at the root. it’s never ‘i understand that this is because of the autism and this is harder for you than it is for neurotypical people’ but always ‘i know this is hard for you (do you??) but you should do it anyways cause i need it and you saying you can’t just means you’re not trying hard enough (meaning you dont care about me at all)’ translation being: you’re just being lazy and using the autism to make things easier for yourself at the cost of others

the new allegory i came up with was that my mom asking my dad to notice these things was like asking a deaf person to watch out for the microwave beeping, sure the deaf guy could probably find a way, stand in front of the thing to see the timer run out or anything, but it would be much more effort than it would be for a hearing person, just going about their day waiting to hear the bing. i told her that my dad would have to get creative about it and that might not be something he realizes cause he sees himself as a neurotypical person that should not have to resort to these things, cause he is normal and not noticing these things is therefore just his personality. i told her he should like.. set a timer on his phone that’s like ‘tell my wife i appreciate her’ every sunday or whatever, and my mom would be totally okay with that. i wonder sometimes, how they view my thoughts on these things, the difference between their generation and mine, are they.. impressed? at the level of reflection, the things we learn about working on ourselves and our relationships, or are they like.. silly children that’s not how this works wait till you are my age

okay this turned out a way longer rant than intended lol

[bi-bobbysoxxers]

🏀, 📖, 🎸, 🚗, 👤, 📼, 💄, 🔮, 🎁, 💞, 👭, 💘, 🕛, ⛅ for the Gay/Lesbian ask game please?

Alrighty lol xD

🏀🏐 Do you play any sports?

Uh, not anymore unfortunately. When i was in middle school, i played basketball, volleyball, did cheerleading, and was in running club. In highschool, i did cross country in the fall, and i think that's it lol, since i was mostly obsessed with doing theatre lol. I realy liked building the sets and painting, and being on running crew lol. If i ever decided to join a sport, it would be either soccer or beach volleyball, since those seem the most fun. And good cardio too!

📖 Do you write?

Yeah, occasionally lol. I'm not the greatest writer ever, but i'd like to think i'm proud of the work that I've posted. Mostly just Haikyuu and K Project fics. Here's my AO3:

https://archiveofourown.org/users/ElotheFairy

Eventually i want to write some BSD and She-Ra fics, cause i have some ideas, i'm just pretty lazy when it comes to writing, whoops.

🎸 Are you a musician?

Oh I wishhh. That would be so cool. I used to be able to play the piano, and I'm able to reteach myself the scales and play simple songs if I'm sitting at home, but that's about it lol. I need one of those lil whiteboards that you can stick right above a keyboard so i can just have the scale in front of me and learn cute studio ghibli piano songs lol.

🚗 Can you drive?

Surprisingly, yes. Lol I'm a Midwest American queer, so we gotta either learnt to drive ourselves to the cool places, or date someone who can drive us everywhere xD I'm great driving in my hometown and in my college town, but I still can't drive in super big cities quite yet. That'll have to change soon tho once I move for my apprenticeship!

👤 Favorite LGBT fictional character?

Does Kakashi count xD

I'm sure there are a bunch of good queer characters out there, but deadass, most of the shows I watch, it's merely implied, oof. If we're going with canonly queer, i guess i like Simon from Love, Simon a lot. Oh, and of course, Scorpia from She-Ra lol. I hc her as a nb androg lesbian lol. Oh, and Chloe and Max from Life is Strange, and that one chick from Stranger Things, i guess.

If we're going with just, an implied/possibly coded queerness, I love Oikawa from HQ, i headcanon him as a demiboy who is bi or pan. (I headcanon that most fo the dudes from that anime are bi lmao). Uh, I also love Akutagawa and Odasaku from Bungou Stray dogs. I headcanon that Akutagawa is a trans nb guy, demisexual, and panromantic. I also hc Oda as bi lol. I also love Akagi and Misaki from K project, i hc Misaki as a bi trans guy, lol. And i hc Akagi as cis and bi. For She-Ra, i adore both Bow and Sea Hawk, i think it might be implied that Bow is a trans guy, so i hc him as trans and bi. And for my love, Sea Hawk, i hc him as bigender and bi, who laters gets into a polyamrous relationship with both Bow and Mermista lol. Sorry, I have a lot of implied queer hc's, lol.

📼 80's or 90's?

90's for fashion, hair, and makeup.

80's for great music, cute ppl, and fun design ideas lol.

💄 Do you like makeup?

Uhhh, it's kinda complicated.

I like makeup as a concept of freedom of expression, feminity, a way of transforming yourself into a piece of art, blurring the lines between gender ideals, presentation, makeup for fantasy concepts, etc.

But i also dont't like makeup sometimes because it's def been used as a tool to pressure women into performative feminity, used, as a way to groom young girls, used a sneaky way of breaking down a lot of ppl's self confidence, it encourages highly unrealistic beauty standards (for both women and men), i also hate how motherfucking EXPENSIVE and unsustainable it is.

So as a tool for art, genderfuckery, and self-expression, i love it. But as a msrketing concept mostly driven by male CEOs and years and years of misogny and captialism? Not so much lol. I like wearing makeup for big occasions or for when i feel hyperfeminine some days, but I usually prefer going without it.

🔮 Do you believe in astrology?

Yeah, to a reasonable extent lol. I'm not one of those queer that obsesses over every little detail tho. I'm still def learning about it. I recently lesrned that you can combine astrology, with tarot readings, which can greatly specifiy the readings, for both yourself and other people, so I think i'll try that once I get a tarot deck for my birthday lol.

🎁 Fave holiday?

Well, I could be one of those queers who automatically says Halloween, but the more i think about it, i think i like the fall/halloween season waaayy more. Which makes me think that I actually like Thanksgiving a lot, as just, an American holiday. I don't think we shoukd really celebrate it for it's historical reasons, but i also will never say no to good food, family, friends, and a general warmth and sense of peace during that time of the year :3

💞 Fave thing to do on a first date?

Festivals!!!! I looooovee going to any type of market, festival, etc. with someone. I think it's a great way to explore, start conversations, and learn about someone. Cuz like, the type of art, food, trinkets, and music that draws someone in can you a lot about that person, if you think about it! It's hella cute. And then once you're tired of the crowds, most festivals usually have quiet garden or parks near them that you can escape to for some quiet time and deep conversations, lol.

👭 Do u have a gf? Do you want one?

No, I don't have a girlfriend lol. I have an amazing and very caring boyfriend tho. I have briefly dated women in the past tho. It's been fun, lol. I've always wondered, if i had more past romantic/sexual experiences with women, then maybe i'd possibly identify as a lesbian, but honestly, I'm proud of my journey, and I get very happy when I think about my bigender-ness and bisexuality lol. I don't think I would change that for anything. For whatever reason, i think I just click better with bois and nb ppl rather than with cis girls, i'm not sure why lol. But good for anyone who has a gf right now plz treat her like a kweennnn xD

💘

Do you believe in love at first sight?

No, lol. I used to, back in middle school tho. I def believe in love at second sight, or love at first conversation. Ppl are so damn cute when they talk about things they're passionate about, or even when they just get goofy and rant to you about a crazy story lol.

🕐 How old were you when you realized you weren't straight?

Oh god, lol. I was... *tries to do math* I think 16 or 17? I uhh had accidentally fallen for one of my best friends in high school lol. It turned out okay tho, we're still friends to this day. Thanks for that, friend, I'm so glad i realized that sooner rather than later lol.

⛅ Winter or summer queer?

Oh def, winter, lol. Altho winter depression is real most years, idk, i feel lkke i would rather be anxious and cold, rather than angry and sweating buckets lol. Actually now that I think about it, the summer always makes me a little more moody than winter, cause i always feel like i should doing more, but summer's really a time for waiting and rest, if you think about it. I'm always happier in the winter cause most of the time, i'm slowly moving towards certains goals in my life, and the world just...seems happier and more cozy in the winter season, idk.

Thanks for these asks, dude! I had a lot of fun with them, lol.

Anyone can ask me any of the other q's on the pinned pride game list if you'd like! Happy Pride, BLM!!

[buttjaehyun]

me vs. my best friend (kpop edition)

welcome to whatever this is i guess, well my nickname is nana so nice to meet y’all and since this is a post about me AND my best friend her nickname is kun so i’m just gonna refer to her as kun so just saying that now do y’all don’t get confused later

WARNING: this is an extremely long post so if you don’t want to read all of it i can’t blame you but it did take me roughly 8 hours to write this so i’d appreciate it if you read it but it’s okay if you don’t^^ also please respect our opinions and if any of you want to answer these questions in the comments or reblogs then please feel free to do so!!

so this was originally gonna be a youtube video but honestly i’m way too lazy to edit roughly 82 different music videos into 15 minutes. so i’m just gonna do it here until i get motavated enough to actually download 82 music videos and edit them down into clips. at the bottom of this is a spotify playlist of the songs i was gonna download audio/music videos for if you want to take a listen, there is one for me and one for kun ^^

so i guess i’ll start btw kun’s list took me SO LONG cause she’s also indecisive so we sat on the phone for 2 hours while she was answering these questions i swear

me (nana)

kun

both of us

1. Favorite Male Group:

- got7; im not even gonna lie those seven goof balls mean the world to both of us, like we’re seeing them on july 6th for the second year in a row, how can they top the greatest day of our lives?

- i adore all of them so much and they’ve made me the happiest i’ve ever been and i can’t believe i actually fell in love with one of them??? like it sound STUPID AF but like i deadass fell in love with mark tuan and i don’t regret it at all

- MY BOYS! honestly because of them i laugh constantly and can’t help but love them! especially yugyeom! he’s so cute i can’t! his eyes, his voice, his everything i adore him and he owns my heart from now until forever

2. Favorite Female Group:

- aoa; aoa was my first girl group besides f(x) and they have a special place in my heart but other then them i also adore twice

- red velvet; im not too into girl groups but i’m trying but so far i really enjoy red velvet and their personalities and they’re few of the girl groups i actually know the names of lol

3. Favorite Band:

- day6; we’re jyp stan’s at heart (and sm stan’s im not gonna lie) we’ve loved all of jyp’s groups and soloists thus far, honestly day6 doesn’t have a single bad song if you ask us

(dowoon owns my heart just thought you would like to know that)

(and brian owns mine whoops)

4. Favorite Underrated Boy Group:

- the boyz; they’re so cute and talented so stan them asap plz (also stan astro my bubs) okay so this one was hard for me ngl, i adore the group kun chose from the bottom of my heart but a lot of our answers are similar so i wanted to change it up

- astro; thanks to nana she dragged me into loving these goof balls and i’m so glad she did, they’re all so adorable and they have great music so stan my babies :(( sanha is the cutest babie and i love him please love my beagle boy

5. Favorite Underrated Girl Group:

- dreamcatcher; hands down one of the easiest questions for me? like idk i adore these girls and they’re great so please stan :D

- clc; MY GIRLS MY QUEENS okay so other than red velvet they’re my favorite girl group and i’m absolutely not gonna deny that

6. Favorite Rookie Boy Group:

- stray kids

so i’ve stanned stray kids since predebut, specifically when hellevator was released, YALL HAVE NO CLUE HOW HYPED I WAS im serious i didn’t shut up about these boys and i’m so glad they’re so beyond successful and i adore each and every one of them p.s stream side effects

i’ve liked stray kids since predebut but after nana’s persistence i ended up adoring the members more than anything (except yugyeom) i major stanned since january of 2018 and i’m so proud of my boys :((

7. Favorite Rookie Girl Group:

- itzy; so other than everglow it was hard for us to make a decision on this, neither of us STAN STAN many girl groups so most girl group debuts slip our minds after watching them but dalla dalla had been stuck in both of our heads for months now so that’s why we ended up choose itzy (also jyp girl group duh)

8. Favorite Disbanded Group:

- speed; okay so most people don’t know them and i am: depressed about it but it’s okay, they’re my boys and i love them, one of the members is actually zico’s older brother so oof yes talented family, they’re great and i miss them so much :(((

- history; so roughly towards the end of 2016 i saw their video just might die and queen, nana had already played me queen before and i really enjoyed the song (bop listen to it plz) and i just loved them from then on, after they announced their disbandment last year ngl it hurt cause i love them

(i could only find the audio of just might die without having to download the video so the link to the video is attached to just might die)

9. Favorite Sub Unit:

- NCT Dream; okay i’m not that person to be like Oh I oNlY stAn ThIs UnIt OF nCt no i stan all 21 members and whoever else joins from that HOWEVER all of the dreamies are really really high on my bias list so that’s why i chose them for my favorite unit (stream dnyl thanks :D) im actually listening to dnyl while writing this so love that

so i couldn’t find any gifs of nct dream ot7 so i settled for this cute gif of jisung

- WayV; i love all of nct but kun (+johnny and mark) are at the top of my nct bias list. i love take off and i love every song they’ve released so far, my boys ARE APART OF NCT (for y’all dululu fans) also stream dnyl for nana so she’ll shut up about how much she adores dream not that she’ll ever shut up about how much she loves them tbh

10. Favorite Duo:

- Jus2 + JJ Project

- again here comes the utter LOVE for jyp groups along with got7 i adore both of these duos beyond belief and i need mark to have a duo or a unit or SOMETHING cause i love him with every ounce of my being

- yugyeom. that’s it. yugyeom is the loml and there’s nothing he does where i won’t love him, focus on me hit somewhere different and i LOVE IT and HIM and of course jaebum cause he’s great too uwu i also love both of jjp and i was so exited for tomorrow, today so that helped too^^

11. Favorite Senior Group:

- infinite; so infinite. yeah i’m a HUGE inspirit and i miss hoya, sunggyu, and sungyeol like hell but it’s okay, i adore infinite im not gonna lie (to be fair i adore a lot of groups) and they mean a lot to me, out of my ults i think myungsoo has consistently stayed at the same place since 2016 as my second ultimate bias oof wow, it was also hard to choose between infinite, suju, and shinee like damn

- super junior; so i love suju? i love them more after once again thanks to nana’s persistence after black suit came out even though i was gonna listen to it away, i already loved heechul and leeteuk but dang i really love them and so does nana. but she likes too many groups to just choose one without overthinking it ALOT

12. Favorite Debut Song:

- come back again by infinite; okay so this was also a really hard one cause i love nct’s debut as well as ateez and astro but i ended up choosing come back again cause i find my self searching far and wide just to listen to this song (cause it’s not on apple music or spotify)

- pirate king by ateez; so yes i know that their debut was TECHNICALLY treasure but i love pirate king too much to not say it was my favorite debut, this song is still on constant repeat and always will be like uGH

13. Favorite Male Soloist:

- jeong sewoon; so im a big ol mush pile for all of the produce 101 s2 boys so of course sewoon would be up there with jinyoung, donghan, and SO MANY OTHER GREAT MEN, i adore his voice and the way he sings, he’s just so? great??

- dean; dean was the first kpop artist i ever listened to even without knowing he was a k-r&b artist, i love his voice, it’s so soothing and i can never stop listening to it

14. Favorite Female Soloist:

- chungha; coincidently snapping came out the day before i started writing this so yes?? queen?? but seriously i love her so much and i can’t ever contain my love for her music

- IU; she so ADORABLE? i love all of her music and i can’t believe she’s an actual human being, i seriously love her so much that it’s just uncontainable, she has one of the best voices in the kpop industry

15. Favorite Male Vocalist:

- baekhyun of exo; exo was my first group i ever got into, and they never cease to amaze me when it comes to their music. they never and i mean NEVER disappoint with their albums and bsides, as to why i chose baekhyun is simple, HIS VOICE SENDS CHILLS DOWN MY SPINE i mean so does jongdae but still

- kyungsoo of exo; i love kyungsoo and his voice and i’m going to miss him beyond belief after he leaves on july 1st :(( but seriously his voice knows no bounds and i can’t help but melt when i hear it

16. Favorite Female Vocalist:

- seola of wjsn; so i’m just saying now i don’t know much about wjsn but this girl. her vocals. yes? after her song with kihyun came out i fell in love with her vocals from then

- sunmi; i love my supportive queen, she’s great and beautiful and i love all of her music, i will never fail to bop to heroine at any time of day just because i love her that much like yes queen

17. Favorite Male Dancer:

- ten of nct; i don’t think much needs to be said as to why ten is my favorite male dancer. he is beyond anything i’ve ever seen before and has my complete respect for his passion for dancing and it makes me want to be a better dancer just so i can be proud of myself

- yugyeom of got7; oH i WonDer WhY yUgyEoM iS heRE, seriously i love his dancing more than anything and all of his freestyle clips on instragram make me have the utmost love for him beyond what i already have for him

18. Favorite Female Dancer:

- seulgi of red velvet; i’ve watched her dancing over the years and i’m never not mesmerized by her stage presence and the way she is so detailed with how she moves

- lisa of blackpink; she’s a great dancer and i will never deny that, she’s also a great rapper and her stage presence is great especially when she’s dancing (specifically taki taki)

19. Favorite Male Rapper:

- changbin of stray kids; okay so i knew from the moment i heard hellevator that this group would be big and man did they not disappoint, changbin has one of the best rapping styles and voices i’ve ever heard in my life, his speed and his lyrics are so amazing and 3racha songs are AMAZING too like wow this man and his power over me

- jooheon of monsta x; not only has joohoney wreaked my bias list but he has absolutely one of the most unique voices i’ve ever heard, his raps are so hard hitting and i can’t ever get over them, his solo work has potential to be soty because of how talented he is

20. Favorite Female Rapper:

- jessi; okay so i actually had a few female rappers in mind by it kept going back to jessi each time, i genuinely love her voice and i LIVE for her roasts like yes, also i love all of her music? like she has great music i 10/10 recommend

- yeeun of clc; i don’t know many female rappers but yeeun has been one of my favorites for awhile now and i love her voice, it’s just so great to see how much she’s improved and i’m so proud

21. Favorite Male Choreography:

- superhuman by nct 127; so honestly this was absolutely the hardest question for me, i love dancing and i love most male choreographies so idk why i came to this decision, actually i do, superhuman is honestly a wonderful dance and i love watching it each and every single time i seen it on my recommended on youtube

- highlight by seventeen; the performance unit has so much power and stage presence that it was so hard no to choose this song, they all have such great and precise movements when they dance and it’s beautiful

22. Favorite Female Choreography:

- chase me by dreamcatcher; i love this choreography so much? seriously these girls always kill it and i really want them to grow because they really deserve it

- hobgoblin by clc; this was the first female choreography i really really wanted to learn based on the dance other than russian roulette and dumb dumb by red velvet!!

23. Favorite Male Solo Song:

- fire by sik-k; i absolutely LOVE sik-k so naturally i wanted to choose one of his songs so i went though a bunch if my favorite songs of his and settled on fire, it was a very hard choice though cause addict exists and so does iffy but still

- crooked by g-dragon; crooked has always been one of my favorites by GD it just sounds so different and his voice just makes it one of my favorites, middle fingers-up is a close second for GD

24. Favorite Female Solo Song:

- why by taeyeon; idk why i love this song so much but i just do, i also love taeyeon so much like uwu yes, but seriously i really love all of taeyeons solo music as well as snsd

- honey tea by oohyo; honey tea is one of those songs you could listen to in a cafe or on a relaxing walk with your earbuds in just taking in the crisp air. it makes me feel super calm and just in a space where i feel like everything is chill and cool

25. Favorite Non-Kpop Artist:

- luhan; by baby lulu uwu, i’m absolutely a mushy gushy soft mess for that baby, he’s so cute and kinda and his music is just?? great????? what??? i seriously did not even have a second thought about this but some honorable mentions are definitely big time rush, 5sos, kris wu, joji, etc.

- conan gray; where do i bEGin?! his songs are by far some of my favorites. not only is he a great artist, he has this way with his music that is almost melancholic in sound. it sounds so entrancing and crush culture, generation why, and lookalike are some of my favorites^^

26. Favorite Non-Kpop Song:

- imitation by luhan; remember when i said i was gush for this man? i wasn’t joking. at all. i seriously love his voice and i just UGH love him, and this song?? bop.

- honey by lay; this song has taken over my life. i have it on repeat almost every night because lay did so well. it has such a good beat and so easy to just listen to over and over (but not out loud lolol)

Top 10 Groups:

nana:

1. GOT7

2. NCT

3. Stray Kids

4. Ateez

5. Monsta X

6. Day6

7. EXO + Astro

8. Infinite

9. SF9

10. The Boyz

kun:

1. GOT7

2. NCT

3. Day6

4. Stray Kids

5. EXO

6. Astro

7. Monsta X

8. SF9

9. Ateez

10. Seventeen

Top 10 Biases:

nana:

1. Mark Tuan (GOT7)

2. Myungsoo/L (Infinite)

3. Doyoung, Donghyuck/Haechan, Jaemin, Jaehyun, Jeno, Mark, Yuta, and Taeil (NCT)

4. San (Ateez)

5. Hyunjin, Jisung, Changbin, Felix, and Chan (Stray Kids)

6. Brian/Young K (Day6) + Youngmin (ab6ix)

7. Minhyuk (Monsta X), and Hwiyoung (SF9)

8. Chanyeol, Sehun, and Baekhyun (EXO)

9. Minhyuk/Rocky (Astro)

10. Kevin, Changmin/Q, Eric, Jacob, Sunwoo and Hwall (The Boyz)

kun:

1. Yugyeom (GOT7)

2. Dowoon (Day6)

3. Seungmin & Felix (Stray Kids)

4. Jooheon (Monsta X)

5. Rowoon (SF9)

6. Kun + Mark + Johnny (NCT)

7. Yunho + Mingi (Ateez)

8. Sanha + MJ + JinJin (Astro)

9. S.Coups (Seventeen)

10. Kyungsoo/D.O + Chanyeol (EXO)

[ nana; tumblr playlist ]

[ kun; tumblr playlist ]

btw for kun i added my favorite songs by some of the artists she had listed cause i didn’t ask her and i was too lazy so i hope y’all enjoy both playlists if you want to listen to them ^^

[steviestevington]

All the questions

oh fUCK okay here we go

1. Are looks important in a relationship?

Yeah they are

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

Of course they are omg

3. Are you a virgin?

No

4. Are you in a relationship?

Yes indeedy I am !

5. Are you in love?

God I sure am

6. Are you single this year?

Nope

7. Can you commit to one person?

I can and I am committed to one person !

8. Describe your crush

His name is Jay he’s got long black hair currently and green eyes and wears glasses he’s gorgeous

9. Describe your perfect mate

Jay lmao

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

No

11. Do you ever want to get married?

Absolutely

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

Betrayal meaning like cheating? If so no

13. Do you get jealous easily?

Unfortunately yeah rip

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

Yeah don’t tell him but I got a big fat crush on my boyfriend

15. Do you have any piercings?

Just my earlobes

16. Do you have any tattoos?

Unfortunately no :c

17. Do you like kissing in public?

Deadass love it so much

20. Do you shower every day?

Fuck no I ain’t got time for that

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

Well I sure hope my boyfriend does lmao

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Idk Jay might be but who knows

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

Of fucking course, easily

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

I do not know honestly I could see it being maybe possible but who knows

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

I am and I am very happy about it

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

Yes

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

I think so maybe

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

I don’t think so, I hope not

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

Fuck no

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

Ehhh not really but if I had to choose something I would want my nose changed I hate it

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

Of course

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

Uhhh probably

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?

Yes

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?

No

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

No

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

Yeah I mean I liked my ex before we were dating and we were best friends

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

I don’t think so ?

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

Yes

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

Uhh kinda yeah

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

No I’m terrible at that shit

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

No

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

Bitch they wander immediately

43. How long was your longest relationship?

Like 4.5 years or something idk

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

Only one other boyfriend before Jay

45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?

None

46. How many times did you have sex last year?

Zero

47. How old are you?

21

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

Well idk what I would say in the moment but obviously that would mean we’d break up which would be extremely unfortunate and heartbreaking

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

Literally everything there’s no way I can pick one single thing he’s perfect in every way

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

HAHAHAHAHAHA F U C K NO

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

Yeah his name is Jay

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?

Uhhh idk maybe I’ve given up on crushes in the past because it was obviously not gonna happen but that’s all I can think of

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

I doubt it lmao

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

I mean I’ll never forget the shit my abuser did to me unfortunately

55. Share a relationship story.

I can’t think of any sorry agdhgfhsd

56. State 8 facts about your body

I will pass on that I don’t even know 2 facts about it that are more fascinating than “I have two arms”

57. Things you want to say to an ex

You’re a gross piece of shit and you had no right to pressure me into sexual things or treat me the way you did, you traumatized me in so many ways and I’ll have to live with that for the rest of my life, I hope karma kicks your ass one day

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

Bitch I don’t know Jay did it easily ask him lmao

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

I don’t have any good ones on my laptop so just go to my “about” page there’s a link in my description or look at my blog /tagged/my-face

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

I really don’t know I think the age difference between Jay and I is a little bit bigger than the one between my ex and I but I’m too lazy to figure it out

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

Their eyes or smile

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

I’ve got a real damn weird Thing for formal clothing so wear that for me n I’ll be so into it

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

Idk anything with another person involving genitals honestly

64. What is your definition of cheating?

It’s as easy as just having an emotional affair it doesn’t even have to be physical

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?

I don’t want it to lead to sex but some intense making out is my favorite

66. What is your favourite roleplay?

No I don’t do that fuck off

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

Anything with your partner that you both enjoy is a perfect date

68. What is your sexual orientation?

Pan/ace

69. What turns you off?

Bad hygiene and a shitty personality

70. What turns you on?

Good hygiene, making out, neck kissing/biting, hickeys, my partner makin cute noises of pleasure while we are all over each other

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?

LMAO if I ever have sexual dreams they’re extremely frustrating and I can never actually get All The Way no matter how hard I try so I wouldn’t say I have kinky ones cuz I’m always by myself I don’t like sex with other people

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?

None I don’t like sex

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

I like being given flowers

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

A nice smile

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

Uhhh idk Jay always does extremely sweet things but what’s coming to mind is that he decided on his own to stop doing something that causes me severe anxiety because he doesn’t wanna put me through that and that meant a whole lot to me

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

Man I don’t know I always go overboard with things but I think my valentines day with Jay recently is up there with the sweetest things I’ve done

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

There should not me a maturity or development gap at all

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

I really want a dildo from bad dragon but I’ll probably never own one lmao

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

Uhhh idk when one of my bfs friends goes overboard with complimenting his appearance I get weird about it cuz I’m a dumbass

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

Idk I tell Jay I love him all the time so like 20 minutes ago probably afgdhfds

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

My boyfriend, my boyfriend, my boyfriend, my boyfriend, and Brendon Urie lmao

82. Who is the last person you hugged?

My dad

83. Who was your first kiss with?

My ex

84. Why did your last relationship fail?

I don’t know and I don’t really care anymore tbh

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

afdgsfd I mean that’s how Jay and I met so yeah lmao

[serendibidibidis]

Thanksgiving 2.0 but softer… & longer

(Back in November I did a really cheesy post about some people who make my heart happy. And today I’m gonna do it again because fuck platonic relationships not expressing love.. I have more to say.)

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@aomgworldwide this list is in no particular order, expect for you… lmao. You get the top spot, only because you supported me becoming an official blog. (You liked the post about the porn account reblogging me and I found it funny so here you are.) I know we only like interact through likes and reblogs really but I still love and appreciate you.. I always fan girl a bit when you like/reblog something of mine. Because you’re just damn. (Sorry I'm clumsy and accidently deleted the person who was right under you originally so I think the two morphed together?!)

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@mybrainsamess hello hi hey what’s up how are you?! I hope you’re having a good day!!!! And that you’re doing well!!!! Recently I took a test to see which house I’d be in, but it told me huffle puff I don’t think that’s right because I read the snake one (I forget the name) and that seems more like me… plus I’ve got lots of snake puns. So I was kinda dissapointed. But I thought I should tell you. Anyways I hope you’re doing well. (Also I still don’t know your name because I’m too chicken to break the bond of mystery you had so that’s why I haven’t talked to you I’m sorry!!!)

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@seungcci IF YOU WONT SUE I WILL. All though I’m glad we found a common ground, catfishing sugar daddies. I’m gonna take my half of the money hire the best damn lawyer out there and sue. That’s such plagiarism (I say as I deadass copy and paste answers for school 80% of the time) thank you for always putting up with me btw. I’m really overdramatic and probably a pain to deal with. So thank you for sticking through it so we can cry over the lack of bastarz songs together. I seriously love you more than ri loves gucci..

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@ssamdominic wow hello a queen thats met bts 😭👏😂 my idol an icon the true star. Thank you for being supportive on me on my other account. You were my first supporter and I know I’ve been lacking with supporting you I’m sorry I gotta get my shit together. But yeah I love you and if you don’t start modeling soon I’ll fight.

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@merlionmen hey there (Wow awkward) I’m sorry my tags haven’t been funny lately. I’ll have to fix that. However i hope you’re still finding things to laugh at because the world needs to hear more of your laughter. Not to mention wow your face is such a gift to this earth. I hope you’ve recived a lot more love!!!!

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@8bityeol hello 🖐 it’s been a while, are you doing good? I hope you’re eating well and staying hydrated!! I love you lots and I hope you have a great day

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@coffee-and-kpop / Kenna sorry I don’t know your personal blog and I’m to lazy to look (whoops) thank you so much for everything you’ve done for me you are so supportive of me and motivate me to do better. You want me to create content and you push me out of my comfort zone to write how I want to. I can’t thank you enough for that. Also good luck in Korea. I hope you find your boy and tell him to calm the fuck down. (Also remember if he hurts you I’ll beat him up) don’t let anyone give you shit because you look different. you’re a fucking babe. If they don’t see that it’s cause they’re blind. I love you so much & I’ll fight everyone who doesn’t.

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@coffee-and-kpop / Luna I also don’t know your personal blog and I’m to lazy to find it but wow you’re such a soft little bean. I wish I could hug all of your suffering out of you. Also I want that professor’s email address thanks. I’m gonna fight him & everyone else making your life difficult. You also have given me a chance because you believe in me or maybe because Kenna told you to lol but I believe in you so much more beyond your works. I’m proud of you and I love you so much okay. I’m always here for you!!

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@soul-less23 I’m so glad you’re back 🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️ (I’d continue the hugs but then you’d be the whole post and I’m trying to include more than just you my love) you’re such a beauty. First off. Your Snapchats 👌 I have to wait like a week before I open them to prepare myself for that cuteness!! Next up you’re trying to murder me (But I’m not complaining) you’re such an Angel and you tag me in such amazing posts and I could scream because God bless. I love you so much and you we’re like my first mutual and friend on this blog so I’ll love you forever.

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@jjeonguk A STUNNING ANGEL. WHO LIKES FERRETS what more could anyone ask for really?! I hope that you’re days have been going good and you’ve been feeling better. If you need a spam of ferrets hit me up though. Seriously you’re so precious my heart can’t handle it. I hope the world treats you gently bby

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@ludeere the exact deffination of “what a babe” tbfh. you’re a goddess. I’m so soft for you. Seriously you’re such a pure angel and I love you with everything I have. Like wow. How can you be real?! I’m speechless. Nothing I have to say is good enough for you because you deserve so much more. Please take care of yourself!!

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@namjoon-moon we communicated once in the form of Namjoon. And I fell in love. I hope your day is going beautifully. You angel!!! don’t forget Namjoon and I love you very much.

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@wonpillily hi I miss you, I hope schools treating you well. Please come back soon. I love you. Stay safe!!

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@smittenbyschmidt oh wow look who it is?! The person I’d fake my death for. (I’m sorry, I’m way too dramatic) first off you’re blog, 👌👌👌 idk what’s more perfect your blog or yourself because damn. I am utterly in love with your edits I wish I would’ve found you sooner.. I can’t wait for the day one of you’re edits gets used on a shitty gossip site and they think it’s real… that will truly be the best day ever. Also congratulations on submitting everything!! I hope everything goes amazingly well for you (I know it will) but seriously keep me updated!!

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@noona-clock I don’t know either one of you really well or at all honestly but, you’re one of those mutuals who we both interact through likes and reblogs and I feel like I could tell you I killed a man and you’d help me dispose of the body. (Wow dramatic much.) Like you give off such a warm vibe and I love the both of you to death. And your works are equally as amazing as you are!!

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@127hearts it’s 11:11 as I’m writing this and I wish that you never scare me like that again okay thank you. I just found your blog wow I’ve been missing out. But please continue to kill me with everything you do (Also if you ever actually started losing interest or anything know that I fully support you because you shouldn’t feel forced to do something for others) Anywhooo you’re adorable & your blog is amazing and yeah I hope you have a great day!! I’d love to be a friend of yours and I’m sorry in comparison to everyone else your message was kinda weak but I hope your day is as bright as Ten’s smile okay Ily 💕

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Wow I started this as 6am it’s now 6pm.

[noexit-ff]

33. Part 3

Disconnecting the call smiling wide, my mom is missing me which is random. I think her excitement in becoming a grandma is so exciting to her, she wants to see Robyn and she wants to be around us all the time and I don’t blame her. We are going Barbados next because Robyn didn’t want her mom popping up at the home, Barbados is ok though, besides her dad and brother trying to kill me. I hope no drama happens, we don’t have a bodyguard around either. I prefer it actually, we have so much privacy and honestly, nobody has actually come up to us or took pictures. We been hanging with people too, we went on some safari tour, we doing couple things which I am enjoying. Making my way back into the bedroom, Robyn ain’t shit at all. Look at her fat self “so it’s happy thirteen weeks and you here getting comfortable in bed?” this woman “but we been having sex all the time, I feel lazy” she feels lazy, her ass be leaving me to carry her ass during sex “my muscles are coming out though, all the weight lifting” flexing my muscles, smiling at Robyn mean mugging me “say it” she spat “nothing to say but can I suck ya titties though” looking at my baby sprawled out, she is a mess my wife “if it shuts you up, you can do what you like” I grinned wide, slowly walking over to the side table. Pulling it open, I kept this vibrator because I know Robyn hates it. Pulling it out and turning the base, watching Robyn’ reaction “oh what, you said you got rid of it?” busting out laughing “why would I get of something you hate? You was wetting the sheets, or should I say you was peeing on the sheets” Robyn put a finger up at me “I’ll pee on your face if you don’t be quiet” pulling a face turning it off “I don’t like that but whatever, I guess we sleeping?” I will leave her alone tonight “please” she opened her arm out to me.

Pulling the covers back “you not getting naked?” she questioned “mhmmm no, I ain’t about to sleep. I will cuddle and annoy you until you sleep” shuffling into the the bed “but then I don’t like that, you in bed with your clothes on” resting my head on Robyn’ chest just above her boob, she closed her arm around me “deal with it” placing my hand on her stomach “I want you to stay in the bed with me though” feeling Robyn press kisses to the top of my head, sticking my tongue. I can see Robyn’ nipple through her tee, flicking my tongue above the material on her nipple “you have one nasty ass tongue, in a good way” stifling out a chuckle “you know, I can’t wait for you to breastfeed me. I have feeling your milk will taste of coconut heaven” Robyn busted out laughing “you are so nasty, be quiet” I am being deadass “look babe, your pussy juices taste like Barbados heaven so I know your milk will. Don’t play me, I want a taste” sticking my tongue out again, Robyn’ fingers gripped my tongue. I groaned out “stop it, you’re wetting my top with saliva” I whined out, this actually hurts “you going to stop?” nodding my head, she let my tongue go. Lifting my head up, nipping her nipple with my teeth “such a dog, honestly” she moved my face away as I was about to kiss her lips.

Furrowing my eyebrows, feeling a slight breeze sway pass my body. Groaning out turning to my side but was stopped abruptly, my eyes shot open hearing the jiggling of cuffs hitting the wooden bed posts, I gawked at both of my arms. Moving my arms like anything would happen “what the fuck” I blinked several times, resting my head back. Looking down at myself, I am butt naked and where is Robyn. I hope this is Robyn and not some crazy person “Robyn?” I said lowly, she may be angry at me but god damn I knew it. Yanking my arm, I should have hid these “Robyn, come on. This is not fun, my arms hurt” why is it quiet, what if she has left. Seeing my phone on the side table, I can’t reach that shit “Robyn!” I spat, hearing her giggle finally “it ain’t funny, least let me go. Are you eating breakfast?” I can smell food “why are you torturing me, what did I do?” I did nothing but love that woman, hearing Robyn walking “you right, I am eating” glaring at Robyn in a robe, I am annoyed “ok, so can you please get me out of this, this is not nice. My wrists hurt” she is eating that piece of bacon without a care in the world “stop moving, it will stop hurting” is she being real “but why!? I ain’t do shit, I am hungry. The fuck am I going to eat” she leaned against the side of the wall watching me yank at my arms again “you’re eating me” she ate the rest of the bacon, I opened my mouth but then closed it because I don’t mind that.

I am going to stop pulling at this and see what Robyn is up too “I am glad you have decided to stop acting like a damn animal, I wouldn’t leave you butt naked for nothing” watching her untie her robe but then stopped, staring at the robe “you got something under there?” I questioned, my heart fell seeing Robyn get so shy for no reason “I mean yes” she is trying to be mean but since being pregnant she has become soft, and lazy. It takes a lot for her to be triggered “so, I await baby” she looked down at herself “I mean Jen said it was nice but like, you might think it’s not. You know, I mean maybe skinny Rihanna would look so bomb but this one I don’t know” rolling my eyes “show me, you can’t say all of that” Robyn took in a deep breath moving the Robe off her body ever so slowly, the air got caught in my throat. My eyes travelled slowly down “wow” I breathed out, she looks so beautiful “what goes on in your mind, Jesus” Robyn turned to the side, the crotchless lace thong “I am speechless, oh my” I can feel my dick stiffen “you can see what you are doing to me right? Look at me, Robyn look at me now” I demanded, she looked at me “my dick is getting hard for you, now can you ride me with yo fine ass” Robyn covered her mouth with her hand giggling “I want you so bad, stop playing. You boobs about to leak out of those” licking my lips.

Robyn walked off again, even though I liked the view because that thong and her booty is the most beautiful thing to see. Robyn like this is so good but yet tiring at times, I enjoy seeing her body so full. Raising an eyebrow “and what are we doing with this?” I questioned seeing the chocolate syrup bottle “how?” I questioned, where does she hide such things “I have my ways, I thought why not” she needs to hurry up, am I eating her or is she sucking on me. My arms hurt though, Robyn separated my legs wider “I have more you know, close your legs again then I will strap them down” look at my wife being demanding, she climbed onto the bed “when you get me out of this, I will be getting you for this” even though I like it but I still need to teach her not to disobey me “for now, I am Madame Robyn. And you peasant are my servant, so what I say goes nigga” she is funny “I can keep you there for however long, like a sex slave. Don’t push it” she pointed at me, she playing games like this. Watching Robyn with half hooded eyes as she snapped open the bottle of syrup and squeezed some onto her palm before grasping my dick, I hissed and bucked into her palm.

Robyn gave me an evil seductive grin before licking the chocolate from the head of my dick, she got me in the palm of her hand alright, my god. I can’t even move. She licked my member, starting at the base and working her way up. Clenching my jaw as she stared at me lapping up at the sides before dragging her tongue flat across the slit, I clenched my fist as Robyn sucked on me like I was a lollipop. Robyn smirked and released my dick with a wet smack of her lips “you like that baby” she said while pumping my member with one hand “I would like it more with my hands free” I mumbled “I could just leave you like this” her eyes never leaving mine, her tongue darted out and licked the the tip “mouth getting dry there, it’s ok baby. I got something for you later” she winked at me and began to bob up and down on me. Her teeth scrape the delicate skin that covers me, and her tongue slides along the ridge of my head, dipping into the slit on top “oh shit, don’t stop” I started thrusting my hips up and then I felt the warmth of her mouth disappear, opening my eyes “do that again, I will leave you here” she means business.

Robyn took a hold of my member and placed my dick back into her mouth with a moan. She started to pump, my breathing hitched just watching Robyn do her thing. She dropped down more taking me deeper into her mouth, my eyes closed moaning out “oh my god Robyn” I said in a whisper, I am dying to thrust into her mouth deeper but no, she is doing well by herself. Robyn gagged, my eyes opened but she dealt with it. Robyn bought her head back up, sucking on the tip while pumping me. My toes curled, tensing my arms as I could feel the orgasm hitting me “aaahhhhh god” feeling my cum, filling her mouth. Robyn slowed the pace sucking every drop out of me, Robyn moved back swallowing and still pumping me. My breathing ragged watching Robyn lick my shaft, cleaning me off. She pressed kisses to my member “that was bomb as fuck” she good.

Licking my lips lifting myself up a little “I actually like seeing you like this” she said, I know Robyn does but I am not liking it “keep annoying me and I will break out of this” I can’t touch her and it’s driving me crazy, I am like an animal because I want to touch her so much and her boobs alone get me now. I smiled at her throwing the thong at me, aimed right in my face and it landed “I can’t move that” shaking my head from side to side, feeling Robyn straddle my torso. She moved the thong from my face “this can be classed as rape too, I don’t consent in you doing such things to me but, we can come to some deal. If you take your hair down for me, I will forgive?” I like to see Robyn’ hair free from the ponytail, looking down at her bare body and her pussy just right there. Robyn reached behind her and pulled at her ponytail, her hair fell free and around her shoulders “I like it, now kiss me. I missed you” I murmured “you don’t demand things, that is my job” she side eyed me “but I want to kiss you? Come on, I miss your lips” Robyn pulled a face before she covered her lips on mine, Robyn pulled back but I bit onto her bottom lip, she slapped my chest before I released her bottom lip “this is why you are in this position” I couldn’t help but do that.

Robyn has got issues, I don’t know why but she loves riding my face and her ass is big “if I suffocate then I died in pussy, I can live with that” Robyn hovered over me “shut the fuck up and eat me out, you talk enough shit” sticking my tongue out and her pussy landed perfectly, my tongue over her clit. I moaned out, and she started rocking her body against my face “fuck yes, Chris” moving my mouth down and slipping my tongue into her warm pussy opening. I groaned, Robyn clenched a bit around the tip of my tongue “yes, yes yes” she crooned “ooohhh yes” she gasped out with each thrust of my tongue inside her. Capturing her clit with my lips once again “Chris!” she bucked. Robyn gyrated against my face long and hard, my tongue never leaving her clit, feeling her juices drop down my chin.

Breathing heavily “let me out now” I don’t know what else she want from me “I mean you could have asked, I don’t mind you riding my face you know” Robyn shuffled down, she didn’t even speak a word and placed my member at her entrance “this is rape, I swear Robyn. Let me hold you! Fuck!” I am getting so angry “when I get out of this! I swear to god” Robyn started riding me without a care in the world, she started rubbing her clit while staring at me “don’t be mad at me daddy” she moaned out, I want to be angry but fuck her pussy is so good. The clasp of her thighs on my body and the tighter grip of her pussy making me forget why I am mad, I wish I could picture this moment. I think I am just going to cum watching Robyn ride me and making the sex faces I love seeing.

Robyn bit my nipple before getting off me, my limp dick just slipping out of her “not nice when your nipple gets bitten” she stepped off the bed “ok but, can you let me go? I need to pee,” Robyn placed the robe around her body “you have done nothing but tell me how you going to get me, I feel like that is mean. You always taking over Chris, I prefer you like this” resting my head back sighing out “I get it but baby, can you please let me go. I will be good” I say a lot but I don’t mean it “on baby Brown you won’t?” she really had to do that “fine, but let me out” she opened the side table draw “or I could put this up your butt?” she held up the vibrator “I will give you hell!” she is crazy, she closed the draw. Robyn climbed onto the bed, placing herself on my torso again “you want to ride me again?” she shook her head and reached up to get me out of these, feeling my right arm becoming free “thank god” my left arm soon followed “I am marked now” my wrists are so sore “you kept getting angry and moving your arms like that” rubbing my wrists “thank you anyways, I did enjoy it. You know I do anything to see you naked, but can you walk around in those panties? They beautiful” Robyn leaned down kissing my lips.

[jonathan-joestarberry]

How about 1, 6, 7, 8, 9, 12, 13, 21, 22, 25, 30, 31, 32, 33, 35, 40, 43, and 50. I know that's a lot >.>

hallo :D thank u for sending this in

let’s begin! btw, i’m sorry if anything gets personal or may make anyone uncomfortable, ask me to tag later. also, i’m gonna be using one of those “read more” things because this is very long.

1. do u ever wish u were someone else? 

yes. i wish i could be like a dolphin. they always look like they are smiling, no matter what. a baby dolphin’s mom could have been caught by a tuna net, but it still smiles. dolphins are strong.

6. ur opinion about ur body and how comfortable u are with it?

i don’t like it. i have so many stretch marks because my weight has fluctuated a lot. i’m hairy. my chest isn’t perky and feels really heavy. i wanna hide most of the time. i don’t like to be looked at. i used to feel comfortable enough to wear dresses and i wore a lot of makeup, but i now wear loose ts and leggings a lot. i also used to seek validation from others in the worst ways, like posting and sending nudes. i’m sorry if this is negative, but it’s honestly how i feel.

however, i will say it’s not all too bad. my skin is really soft and warm. one time, my little sister and i were walking in sprouts. she comes up behind me and says, “soft!” :D it made me feel good. at least i am soft.

7. do u have any tattoos or piercings?

oh my gosh. i saved up enough for a belly button piercing! i hope to get it this fall. i am of age, but latino parents wouldn’t let that slide. in the fall, it’d be easier to hide since i’ll be in school. i really would love some tattoos! i’d like a dolphin, a bunny (because i loved mine so much), two strawberries, and a bear. i’m going to work later this summer, so hopefully i can get some of them

8. what would u say is ur best quality?

that’s really hard oof. i’m really soft. on the inside and outside. i get hurt really easily, but i also get happy really easily!! and that’s a good thing. i laugh at the dumbest things, but that is good a nosy bitch curious. i want to make a living out of learning.

9. what are u really bad at?

everything. i have really poor self-discipline. and i am a very selfish person.

12. what do u think about the most?

i think about ideas a lot o: i doubt my own faith a lot, so i think about faith and Jesus. i think about sabrina, my little sister, a lot. like if she is doing okay at school, how is she getting along with my parents while i’m away, if she remembers to take care of bemo. i think about jonathan joestar a lot (no joke) and wonder how his heart feels :v like how he could be so forgiving, how he would have felt about his family. and bunnies, and dolphins. i think about people and my research too

13. things u like/dislike about urself:

i like that i am curious. i like that i think a lot. i don’t like that i am selfish, that i am lazy, that i lack self discipline. 

21. do u believe in love at first sight?

yes!! i do :D u don’t have to fall for someone like that, though. love is different for everyone, but i am a sucker for fairy tales.

22. do u believe in soulmates?

yes!! that is such a beautiful thing. my dream is actually to be married to my soulmate one day.

25. would u date someone off the internet?

yes

30. have u ever liked ur best friend?

as in like like them? i have not. 

31. how does someone win ur heart?

um, i’m not sure actually. i’m really inexperienced with this kind of stuff. i guess we talk a lot?

32. what turns u on?

i relate to kira so much. i love hands. hands are my favorite. being taller than me is appealing too, but most people i meet are taller . also, idk why but i really like short hair. long hair is lovely too, but short hair looks so cool!! 

33. what turns u off?

if u are mean and a big smelly. deadass, please wash ur hands and brush ur teeth.

35. what is ur definition of cheating?

ooooh boy howdy. my last relationship actually ended because of cheating. we were ldr and would call often, for as long as we could. but near the end, it was weird. he avoided me, rarely left any messages. it turned out he was talking to someone else ^^’ i believe he even admit to me she would provoke him, “flash” him when they’d video chat, and yeah…

cheating is just being unfaithful. biblically, i committed adultery in my heart when i’d see someone and think “oh wow, they are cute

40. first concert u attended.

i can’t say i have attended one ^^’

43. is there something that happened in ur past that u hate talking about?

kinda, yeah. it was traumatic. i still feel very bad because i can’t bring myself to forgive the offender. for the longest time as a kid, i hated being touched and the grown ups in my family thought i was being cold, but i just didn’t want anyone near me. i felt disgusting, i still feel disgusting. i was really aggressive to others, including my little sister, just because i wanted to be alone so bad. and she is my strength, but even then i was so angry. i was also convinced i could never see men the same way again. i love girls, but i was still uncertain about my sexuality. i found some boys attractive, but felt such fear and hesitation. and for the longest time, i didn’t know why until i went to therapy as a young teen and was told, “this isn’t right.”

i shared a lot, but u get the idea. 

50. what’s ur type?

jonathan joestar and utena in the streets dio in the sheets i’m not sure. i don’t have much experience in that. but i like talking a lot. i don’t usually talk much during the day, so i usually talk a lot in private to get it all out. so, someone i can easily talk to. someone outspoken and interested.

again, thank u! this is a very intimate post, but some of the things here have been kept inside for too long. thank u for giving me the space to vent.

[shiningrey]

thoughts on tlj

so its no secret that im not the biggest fan of riad johnstones fucking flaming mess of a movie. and i think finally, after a slew of smaller rants, i’m finally emotionally stable enough to summarise how i feel about tlj as a whole star wars movie; my views on which can be summarised in a quote from this awesome review; ‘the impersonal nature of star wars is starting to give me the creeps’ (and fuck how it is). through its awkward dialogue (and awkward delivery), odd and jarring self depreciating comedy, broad mischaracterisation, sweeping commercialisation, unnecessary subplots and resulting laborious run time, and overall complete lack of any creative, visual, narrative and underlying thematic originality and flair that defined the original trilogy, this blunderous commercial failed to resonate with a large percentage of audiences (myself included). hating this movie the way that i do has made me unbearably upset, just really fucking sad, because i love star wars, i love its characters and creative originality, its unique flavour. tlj has kind of just left this behind completely. and trust me, we’re allowed to critique this film because when one is given all the materials to make a star wars movie (namely $200 million), there is little excuse for producing something that is anything less than incredible, plot holes and flaws become inexcusable.

(cont under the cut, spoilers obv)

for general cohesion i’ll list my arguments in dot points (because if i write paragraphs i’ll just start getting sad again and ranting) - this mostly has to do with characters as opposed to broader narrative issues

➣ the complete disrespect and mischaracterisation of luke. his character integrity and development is sacrificed (and even regressed) purely for the purpose of rian johnson’s shitty marvel-esque humor. (which i talk about here) 

➣ THE HUMOR. oh my god, its absolutely strange, terrible and out of place. its self aware and self depreciating, completely ignoring the flavour of past star wars humor. (for example the alien tiddy scene, the poe and hux scene?) ‘A phrase often repeated in reviews is that the movie is self aware, and they’re applauding that as though it is a new benchmark in intelligent filmmaking. For me this isn’t the venue for that. The constant winking to the audience is not boldness, but a lack of confidence in the material. It was hyper colloquial, trying to be hip’ x. this is a good example too

➣ finn & rose’s entire subplot was a literal sidelining of poc characters, the narrative of which ultimately culminates to.. absolutely nothing? they add maybe 40 minutes to the run time but contribute absolutely fucking nothing to the plot. the story seemed to target the audiences ‘feels’ but seemed strangely devoid of emotion (explained well here), and sadly i think the romance felt forced (despite this i think kelly and john did an awesome job and i love them both)

➣ REY is completely shunted into just another character in kylos redemption arc, which feels like such huge disrespect to a character that i love and look up to, my thoughts on this summarised in this awesome post. (and kylo mostly sulks for the majority of the film? i literally cant take him seriously as a villain anymore, and this) 

➣ snoke was just killed off? we learned absolutely nothing of what ‘it’ is, character background & motivations, why is it so powerful with the force etc. such a waste. same arguments can be made for phasma.

➣ hux, who is established as what could possibly be a genuinely threatening, and interesting character in tfa, is immediately shunted into a comedic role, literally just there to diffuse the tension (the tension being a huge part of what makes these films fun to watch). this is one of the most obvious examples of jj’s hard work on tfa going to waste, a whole character is now absolute trash. i mean watching this (hux’s speech) it becomes so evident that rian has squandered his potential (and domnhall is an amazing actor as well so like yeah...what a fucking waste)

➣ the dialgoue.. the characters bark out their inner monologues and motivations like they’re hosting TED talks on mindfulness, infusing the film with this awful emotional sterility. And heaps of the lines feel strangely out of place in a star wars film? for example when poe says ‘i’ll hold’? and when they refer to the jedi order as a ‘religion’, which seems openly sloppy as i don’t think this is done in any other star wars film?

➣ leia (my favourite star wars character of all time) spent most of the film silent.... Awesome. (AND WHEN SHE FLIES THROUGH SPACE.. DEADASS I CANT!! but like humor aside didn’t she renounce the use of the force because of her fathers misuse? hm). her dialogue was just bad and her very minor slice of screen time left me feeling pretty fucking disappointed, she seems to now be reduced to just ‘kylos mother, lukes sister’, which sucks more than i can describe, carrie deserved more respect.

➣ and i mean.. the blatant attempts to create merch for disney (it seems to have rightly backfired), at least wookies had a place in the narrative

➣ rian’s plot seemed really formulaic but somehow still in a clunky and strange way, just really lacking in any creativity. (for example on crait when poe says ‘theres only one way in and out’, but not 5 seconds later they’re shown a ‘secret’ exit, this just seems lazy)

➣ the casual destruction of what were probably hundreds of rebellion lives, picking off the ships one by one toward the climax of the narrtive? i mean an argument can be made that this was necessary to the plot (i don’t make this argument at all), but regardless it sat wrong with me that this blasé mass murder was brushed over. we feel nothing for these hundreds of dead characters? this seems really really wrong - the complete opposite of what Rogue One was trying to accomplish

➣ the beauty of the CGI visuals often felt patronising. like i was meant to sit there and mindlessly go ‘oooh’. whilst i was appreciative of the CGI during certain moments, generally i just felt it didn’t really excuse the empty plot and characters. 

➣ even more minor things, where was the ‘i have a bad feeling about this’. did rian even watch the other movies????? for a movie thats referred to as pure fan service, it sure does a poor job at servicing fans

so all these things culminated to create a super bland, flattened, sterile and commercial star wars movie, with no actual creative vision (besides some admittedly beautiful visuals), disney has failed to create a star wars movie. even jar jar binks was, for better or worse, a bold creation, nobody could say he was a rehash of pre-existing characters, and tlj lacks this quality utterly and completely. in trying to both adhere to the structure of previous films, whilst also being ‘different’, it loses its sense of cohesion entirely. not to mention this movie is completely out of sync with tfa, besides basic plot points it seems to have no continuity whatsoever. all of jj’s beautiful work on tfa characters and dialogue, has gone to waste. i look forward to him salvaging the burning scraps of this trilogy.

maybe i am reading into this too much, maybe i am critiquing for no good reason, and the reviews would certainly suggest that. but this movie has really upset me, not only in concern for star wars, but for the wider film industry, the business of blockbusters, sequels and ‘subtle’ commercialism. the future, it seems, does not look bright.