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Married to my Rival— Carlos sainz x Teammate!rival reader

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Mentions drinking/drunk reader and Carlos

Pierre is a bit of a jackass in this

Kimi and max both tease the reader about her feelings for Carlos

Vegas Wedding

Reader is described to be the female version of Kimi

Carlos call the reader Reyna de Helios (ice queen)

Rushed ending

Angsty the ends with hurt/comfort there is some fluff

Word count of 13599 words

2025 Carlos is the first driver lined up for Audi racing and unfortunately for him, you were his teammate. A 24-year-old female driver who wasn’t afraid to speak out about the wrong things. People often describe you as the Kimi Raikkonen reincarnate. You both had the same personality. Some people loved you and others hated you. You were brash and you didn’t show your emotions very often.

Carlos loved to tease and joke about you with you and it got on your nerves and he pissed you off. Honestly, how can one person be so happy about everything and touchy? That was one thing you couldn’t stand touching.

You couldn’t stand Carlos’s playful touches. It annoyed you because you considered it an invasion of your personal space. At times it even angered you that he couldn’t seem to read the signals, as if you were screaming at him to back off, but he never did. Despite your attempts at pushing him away, he remained unfazed.

It frustrated you that he refused to give up. Despite your best attempts to keep him at arm's length, he was always there, invading your personal space. You wondered if he was doing it on purpose to irritate you. You couldn't deny that his constant presence was affecting you though.

Carlos however loved touching. He loved the gentle curve of your body and the warmth that radiated from you. He wished he could hold your hand and run his fingers through your hair, but he knew that would be out of bounds and that it would be pushing your boundaries.

He never wanted to make you feel uncomfortable or that he was invading your space. He wished that you would just once not push him away when he got too close, that you would reciprocate and embrace him. That for a moment maybe things could be different.

The two of you could never admit it to each other but you felt the same way. It was like a tug-of-war. The more he pursued you, the more you resisted. But the more you resisted, the more he wanted to be close to you. And the more he wanted to be close to you, the more you resisted. It was a never-ending cycle that neither of you was willing to break. Neither of you was willing to admit that you both wanted the same thing.

It was a constant game of cat-and-mouse. You both knew the other was playing, but neither was willing to budge. Each of you wanted the other to make the first move, to take the first step. And each of you was holding out for the other to surrender. Neither of you was willing to admit your feelings. You both tried your best to hide it, but everyone could see it. Everyone could see the chemistry and the sparks that flew between you two.

It was a classic case of opposites attracting. Carlos was the optimist, while you were the cynic. Carlos was the extrovert, while you were the introvert. Carlos was the happy-go-lucky joker, while you were the serious and brooding type. Despite being opposites, you were drawn to him and he to you. You both found each other intriguing because of your differences.

It was like a challenge. Carlos wanted to crack the shell of the ice queen. He wanted to get under your outer barriers and tap into that emotional side that he knew was hidden deep within you. He wanted to break the shell and get to the heart of the matter. And that challenge excited him. Carlos wanted to be the one to melt you and get you to open up.

“Good morning Reyna de Hielo (ice queen)” Carlos says with a smile as you enter the Audi racing motor home

“Ice queen?” You say skeptical raising an eyebrow

“Fitting, no?” Carlos replies

You hated that nickname. You did everything you could to hide your softer side, but Carlos still thought that nickname was fitting.

He never ceased to annoy you with his playful taunts and teasing. It was like he was constantly poking at you and pushing your buttons just to get a reaction. You knew he was just looking for an opening into your shell, but you couldn’t help but be irritated by his persistence.

“Leave me alone, Carlos. Just because I’m not overly enthusiastic doesn’t mean I’m cold.”

He smirked at you as he replied, “Oh, I see, you are the epitome of warmth, aren’t you?”

His sarcasm wasn’t helping the situation. He knew how much it irked you when he made jokes at your expense, but he couldn’t help himself. He just couldn’t help but try to get under your skin and push your buttons.

“Would you let it go? Just because I’m not as extroverted as you doesn’t mean I’m a cold, heartless person,” you reply. There was an underlying edge to your voice that made it clear why the nickname was fitting.

“Touchy. Sensitive. Someone’s not happy with her nickname. Let me guess, what would you prefer? Ice princess? Snow princess? Ice queenside?”

He was never going to let it go. Your mood wasn’t helping though. You were playing right into his hands by showing that you were bothered by his words. He couldn’t resist seeing just how far he could push you before you snapped.

You had no idea how close to snapping you were. You wanted to yell at him but you knew it would be pointless. He was just looking for a reaction out of you. You were not going to give him the satisfaction of showing him that he was bothering you. No matter what he said or did, you weren’t going to let him get under your skin. He was just a pain in the ass, and you were not going to let him ruin your day.

Carlos continued to taunt you, laughing at your efforts to keep your composure.

“You know, you don’t have to put up such a defensive front. It’s adorable when you act so tough and then pout like a little girl when someone calls you out for it.”

“I don’t pout,” you say with a pout

The pout was too cute for him not to laugh at.

“That’s a pout if I’ve ever seen one. Who knew the coldhearted ice queen was such a sensitive little snowflake,” Carlos teases.

“Your a pain in my ass Carlos you know that”. You said crossing your arms and cocking your hip to the side

The pose was far too feminine to be intimidating. Carlos was tempted to comment on it but he decided to keep his mouth shut.

“I’m just trying to get on your good side, Reyna,” Carlos grins. That grin did something to your stomach, but you wouldn’t admit it out loud.

“Yeah whatever” you replied rolling your eyes and walking away.

The way your hips swayed as you walked away was just too irresistible. It was clear that the conversation was over, but Carlos couldn’t resist the temptation to call out after you.

“I see you got the point of my nickname now, sweetheart. I get that you don’t like it, but I just can’t help myself. Reyna de hielo, so fitting.”

Carlos giggled to himself as you walked away. He knew he had gotten on your nerves, and it was just too damn much fun. The best thing about messing with you was how unpredictable you could be. Sometimes you would just brush off his remarks with little to no reaction, others you would go ballistic on him, yet others you would pout like a five-year-old.

Carlos liked all those versions of you. He hoped that one day he might get to see the other sides that you were so good at hiding.

You stormed into your driver’s room huffing and puffing as you plopped down on the couch beside Kimi your mentor/manager.

“He’s so infuriating. Like who does he think he is? Honestly, I can’t believe him” you ranted.

“What is it now?” Kimi asked

“He knows exactly how to push my buttons. I swear, he’s just doing this on purpose now.”

You sat there shaking your head as you tried to process the conversation. Carlos had gone from trying to get under your skin to calling you cute names, all within a matter of minutes. You didn’t understand what his endgame was. One thing you knew for sure was that he was not gonna give up.

You let out a frustrated sigh. You did not have the patience for this kind of mind game. All you wanted was to focus on your racing and win this thing. You had worked too hard to get to this point to let some guy get in the way of everything you had worked for. You knew one thing for sure though. That one guy was determined to prove to you that he would not walk away quietly.

Kimi seemed to sense your frustration and tried to calm you down. He was good at calming you down and helping you keep a cool head. He put a comforting hand on your shoulder and looked at you with his calming eyes.

“You know he’s only doing this because he likes you,” Kimi said

“What? He can’t like me. There’s no way,” you answer

“Come on, Y/n. Anyone can see how much he likes you. The way he teases you and the way you react. It’s obvious.”

You scoffed a laugh as the realization came crashing down. You couldn’t believe it. Was that possible? Could he like you? You never thought of it that way before.

“But how can he like me if he doesn’t know me?” You ask.

“Oh, I’m sure he knows you way better than you think he does,” Kimi answers with a nod.

You remained skeptical. Did he know you that well? You barely even showed him a glimpse of the inner you. You were always closed off and reserved around him. It was hard to believe he could see beyond the exterior when you put in so much effort to hide what lay beneath it.

“I don’t believe that,” you said rolling your eyes

Kimi smiles at your disbelief.

“I think you’re being a little naive, Y/n. Carlos is not like the other men you’ve been around. He does care about you. He sees that wall you put up and he knows there is more to you than the icy exterior you like to show. You just have to let him in.”

You sat in silence for several seconds, thinking about what Kimi had said. Could it be true? Could Carlos see the deeper side of you that you worked so hard to keep hidden? The idea began to dawn on you and you couldn’t help but feel a flutter in your stomach.

“When did you become so wise?” You asked

Kimi chuckles. “You act like I’m some sort of sage. I’m just offering some advice based on my observations. It’s so obvious the way he looks at you when you’re not paying attention.”

“No way.” You deny once more. “He’s not interested in me like that. You must be mistaken.”

“Y/n, please. How many times must I tell you that men are not that hard to read? Carlos is interested in you and if you can’t see that then you’re blind.”

You roll your eyes and ignore Kimi’s advice. If Carlos was interested in you then he made a very poor effort to show it. This was all just some big misunderstanding. You refused to believe that he cared about you and saw you in anything other than a professional capacity.

“And how would you know?” You replied

“Because I’m a man y/n,” Kimi said

“And that means you can read his mind?” You ask in response

“No, but I can see when another man is interested in a woman,” Kimi says, and even his tone says he is serious.

“Carlos is a player. He’s probably just trying to toy with me. How do I know he truly has feelings? He’s always going after every other woman in the pit lane.”

“Well, I haven’t seen Carlos chasing after anyone else lately. Have you?” Kimi asks.

“That-“ you stutter. You can’t recall the last time Carlos had been with someone else. It was true that he was a lady's man, but for some reason, he had been focused on you lately.

“And let’s not be so quick to label him as a player,” Kimi adds.

You thought about that. While Carlos could be flirty, it was true that you haven’t seen him hooking up with anyone else like he used to. The more you thought about it, the more you realized that Carlos was acting a little different than he normally did.

“But, the big question is, what about you? Do you have feelings for Carlos?” Kimi asks you point blank. Your cheeks heat up as you realize you have no way not to answer.

“No.” You say as quickly and firmly as you can. But it’s a lie. You do have feelings for Carlos, even if you can’t admit it to yourself. You have an attraction to him, both physically and mentally. He is the only guy who ever truly got you and he knew exactly how to push your buttons.

“Hmm I don’t believe you,” Kimi says with a smirk. You can’t help but smile since he’s one of the few people who sees straight through you.

“No matter what you say, I can just tell by the way you talk about him that you have feelings for Carlos. You’re not fooling me.” Kimi says

You don’t know how to respond. You know he’s right. You have feelings for Carlos. But you can’t admit it so you let the silence linger. You just couldn’t believe it. How could you be into him when he was the one who annoyed you the most?

“Just admit it,” Kimi says again with a smirk. “It’s okay, we’ve known each other for a long time so I know when you’re lying. And believe me, right now, you’re not fooling anyone.”

You remained silent. You couldn’t tell him the truth. You couldn’t admit it not even to yourself. You were just too scared to admit that you were attracted to Carlos.

Kimi lets you off the hook for the time being. He knows that you are not ready to confront your feelings just yet. You were struggling to process the reality of your situation. You have never felt this way about someone before. It was all very sudden and intense.

“I know you have feelings for him. Just take some time to process it. When you realize that it’s okay to have feelings for someone, then you can talk to me about it.” Kimi said with a sympathetic smile.

You sit in silence for several awkward seconds as you try to come to terms with your feelings. Kimi’s smile was reassuring and comforting. He always seemed to know what to say to lift your spirits and bring you out of your shell.

“I guess there’s no point in telling you to keep your distance from him.” Kimi laughs

You couldn’t help but wonder what had changed between Carlos and you. You used to be able to ignore him or keep him at a safe distance, but now you just couldn’t. The more you were around him, the more you couldn’t help but notice his charm and presence. There was something uniquely attractive about him that you couldn’t ignore.

The way he teased you, the way he pushed your buttons to get the reactions out of you. It was intoxicating and you couldn’t help but keep coming back for more.

“I guess not,” you say with a small chuckle.

“Let me know when you are ready to take the next step and start dating him.” Kimi jokes.

“Yeah that’ll never happen,” you said sighing.

That got Kimi laughing too.

“Keep telling yourself that, but I can see the sparks between you two. There’s something there, I just know it.” He said as he smiled at you.

“I’m being serious we’re teammates it won’t happen it can’t happen,” you said

“Why not? Is it against the rules?” Kimi asks, teasing you.

“Yes, it is as a matter of fact. I can see the headlines now Audi f1 racer Y/n l/n in a relationship with fellow driver and teammate Carlos Sainz. Kimi, it would be a nightmare for me a lot of people already don’t think I belong here” you explained

“That’s why you keep it a secret,” Kimi said

“What?” You asked.

“Well, come on. Do you think no one ever dated their teammates? They just kept their relationship under wraps. And I’ve got to be honest, you and Carlos would make quite the pair.”

“And we both know how private Carlos is. The last thing he would do is tell anyone about his personal life. No one would have to know. This could be our little secret.” Kimi said while giving you a little side-long glance, his brow cocked and his mouth curled up into a smirk.

You sat in silence for a second, thinking about what Kimi had said. Could this be possible? You never saw yourself dating someone you were competing against, but Kimi was right, Carlos was very private and secretive about his personal life. Nobody would ever know.

Your cheeks flushed at the notion of a secret relationship. The more he said, the more tempted you became. Keep it a secret? You could do it. It was a little crazy and very risky, but it was a tempting thought.

You stepped away from Kimi and walked over to the team meeting. Your thoughts were scattered from your conversation with Kimi. All you could think about was how tempted you were by his idea. Should you take the risk? Go against the rules? Keep things a secret? The temptation was too much but you knew you shouldn’t. You were supposed to stay professional and focus on your racing.

You couldn’t help but look over at Carlos. He sat there laughing and chatting with a few of the other drivers. He was the polar opposite of you. He could interact and joke around so easily. You didn’t know how he did it. Your mind began to wander.

You couldn’t take your eyes off of him. There it is again, that weird feeling inside of you. You knew you had to pay attention to this meeting, but you just couldn’t help but keep glancing over at Carlos. You tried to ignore him but it was impossible. There was just something so captivating about him.

“You staring again,” a voice said from beside you. Turning your head you see Max.

Your cheeks flushed with surprise as you snapped back to your surroundings. You couldn’t believe you were caught staring. You just hoped it wasn’t obvious that you were staring at Carlos.

Max smirked at the look on your face and gave you a teasing side-eye. “Oh, I know who you’ve got your eyes stuck on. What’s that? Do you have a little crush on someone? I didn’t know you were capable of such feelings.”

“Shut up.” You said, your voice softer than you intended. You could feel the heat rising in your cheeks but you tried to deny his allegations.

“Ooooh, it’s true. The icy queenette had found her Achilles heel. It’s so cute how you’re trying to deny it. Who is it? Is it Lewis? Bottas? Or is it that other guy? Oh, that’s right, your “arch-nemesis” Carlos. Did he finally break that heart of ice?

“Shut up Max.” You couldn’t help but blush as Max continued to throw out more and more names. Your mind could only think of one person.

“Ooh, Carlos is it? So what, he won you over with his cheeky nature? The way he teases you and pushes your buttons? Or is it his killer looks?”

Your cheeks flushed red as Max started pointing out all the reasons that you found Carlos attractive. Even though you were denying your feelings for him, his words cut deep.

“Look at you, can’t even deny it. How cute. You finally found yourself catching feelings for a man. You’re starting to thaw out just in time for summer.” Max teased and you couldn’t help but feel your whole face heat up in embarrassment.

“Just admit it,” Max said in a singsong voice.

Your eyes fell over to Carlos, noticing that he was still sitting there, looking all fine and handsome as always. He seemed oblivious to your conversation with Max.

As you stared at Carlos you could feel yourself getting lost in his beautiful dark eyes. Everything about the way he looked at you made you feel so drawn to him. The way he was looking at you now made you feel warm inside.

“You’re in deep, aren’t you? I hope the icy one has the hots for Carlos.” Max teased.

Your cheeks flushed once again as you realized just how obvious your feelings for Carlos were. It was like the entire room could see it.

“Max please stop” you beg

Max laughed, amused that he did his job and got a reaction out of you.

“Why? It’s so cute seeing the cold-hearted y/n being head over heels for a guy. Maybe we can arrange for the wedding.”

“No there won’t be any wedding Max,” you say

Max smirked and laughed. “Yeah, right. But, I have to admit, you and Carlos would make a pretty cute couple. I think he likes you and I can tell that you like him too. It’s only a matter of time until you two are an item. You can’t hide it forever.”

“Why does everyone say that” you whine

Max laughs again. “Because it’s so obvious. Don’t you see it? There is something between you and that sexy Spaniard. I think you two should give in and just become a couple already.”

“I rather get hit by a car,” you said

“I can rearrange that,” Max says taking a sip of Red Bull.

You groan with annoyance as you stare at Max. “Why are you like this?” You were getting fed up with his joking around.

“I dunno, I guess I just like teasing you,” Max says

“Because you’re the only one I can pick on. It’s fun seeing you get flustered and annoyed.”

You rolled your eyes and made a face at Max. “Just shut up.” You snapped at him.

“You think you can take me?” Max asked with a smirk.

“I could take you.” You replied.

“Oh?” Max asks with another cocky and mocking laugh. It was tempting to just sock him right in the face.

“Yeah.” You say with a bit of an attitude. “You won’t be the first guy I would have taken down.” You add on, trying to act tough and not let Max see how flustered you are.

You and Max stared at each other before you both started laughing at each other. You both were starting to crack up when you noticed Carlos walking by and looking your way. Your faces quickly went back into “professional mode” as you both stopped laughing.

Carlos’s dark eyes met yours for a moment and he smirked. He seemed amused by your interaction with Max. He had his arms crossed, leaning against the wall as he looked at you both.

He looked so handsome and intriguing at this moment. Your heart skipped a beat as your eyes met his. The way he smirked at you was like his way of flirting with you. A sense of confidence just washed over you as your eyes remained locked with his.

Breaking eye contact with Carlos you looked down at your feet before you got an idea. You excused yourself from the conversation with Max before leaving the room taking one last look at Carlos hoping that he would get the hint.

Carlos watched as you left the room and he smirked, a bit amused by your little escape. He knew exactly what you were doing, you weren’t fooling anyone. He had been watching the whole conversation between you and Max and he found it funny how flustered you got. Carlos waited a minute before he followed you. He was curious about why you left the room. Following you from a distance, he was curious to see where you would lead him. You hadn’t noticed him following you as he kept his presence a secret. He didn’t want to alarm you. You stopped at one of the offices in the corner and walked inside. He watched you walk into the office and he waited to see what you were up to.

Once you walked inside, you closed the door behind you and took a deep breath as you rested your back against the door. This was the room where you usually came to prep before your races. It was private and no one was allowed in unless they were specifically invited.

As you stood inside, it was a moment for you to let go of your stress and tension. It was like this little room was your sanctuary and you could just let yourself relax here.

The moment you rested your back against the door, you felt a presence behind you. You instinctively knew it was Carlos.

You turned around and saw Carlos right up in your space. He was standing so close to you that you could feel his breath on your face. He had a slight smirk on his face as he observed you.

“Thought you could get away from me so easily?” Carlos teased as he took a step closer to you. His presence felt intoxicating and your heart began to flutter as he stepped closer. Your eyes remained locked with his.

Looking deeply into your eyes, Carlos took another step closer. Your breaths both grew heavier the closer he got. Your lips felt just inches apart when he stopped in front of you.

He discreetly looked into your eyes. You could feel your heartbeat skip a beat as you stared back at him. The air felt thick with the energy between you two. Your skin tingles anytime he gets this close.

Your eyes look for his to his lips and then back up to his eyes.

His eyes met yours and the tension and heat between you two rose exponentially. He couldn’t look away and neither could you. It was almost like you both were getting lost in each other.

The air between you both got thick as the moment went on. You felt like you couldn’t breathe as he stepped closer. You felt both thrilled and nervous at the same time as that feeling only grew stronger.

Your lips almost brushed against his as you both remained locked in place, staring directly into each other’s eyes.

This moment was so intimate and intoxicating. You could feel the heat radiating from his body when he got this close. The tension between you two only grew stronger as your eyes remained locked.

He could barely keep his composure as the moment went on. He didn’t care how bold he was being right now or whether or not this was all just your imagination. All he can think about is how your soft lips would feel against his. The urge to just let his desires take over him was intense.

He leaned his head forward, his lips only inches away from your own. He was trying to fight the urge to just pull you in and claim you. As his lips got even closer, he could feel your breaths mixing with his, your breath becoming heavy and irregular. You were both so close to giving in.

For a moment you thought he was going to kiss you, and a part of you wanted him too. Your bodies were close, your breathing was rapid and irregular, and you could feel his heat against yours as you both remained there, in a trance.

And just like that Carlos pulled away “Not like this ice queen” Carlos said walking out of the room.

You felt the breath leave you as he stepped away. You were slightly in shock that he didn’t take this opportunity to go for it. A part of you was thankful that he didn’t, but another part of you wanted him to. You could tell he was still being affected by the intimacy of that moment.

The Las Vegas Grand Prix has finally come and you feel like these past three months have flown by. You haven’t talked to Carlos since that intimate moment in the office.

While that moment has been on your mind ever since it happened, it was too awkward to address and you both kept a distance from each other. However, you both still are forced to interact with each other due to the proximity of your work environments. The two of you have to keep an air of professionalism no matter how awkward and uncomfortable it feels.

As the Las Vegas Grand Prix begins, the two of you are required to be around one another. The atmosphere between you two is still tense but you are both being as professional as possible. You can’t help but feel awkward and uncomfortable around each other.

Despite your awkward and tense interactions throughout the days leading up to the race, you are both extremely focused and determined to win. You didn’t have time to let distractions get in the way so you two focused on preparing your cars and preparing yourselves physically for the race.

On race day, you were both in a state of hyper-focus. All you can think about is winning the race. You barely even pay attention to those around you and you can tell that Carlos was doing the same.

As you get in your cars for the race you both give a professional and stoic nod to each other. With no time to let your emotions get in the way, the two of you race the track and are both neck and neck during the race.

In the closing laps, you both are in a battle to get ahead of the other. You try to give it everything you’ve got as you push yourself to the limit. You can feel him behind you, getting close to your car.

You are just barely in front of him, but he is gaining on you as the track begins to narrow. You can hear his engine getting louder and closer and he is breathing down your neck. You push yourself even harder as you do everything in your power to keep him behind you, but it’s difficult.

You are both neck and neck with only one lap left to go and he is still trying desperately to get ahead of you. You notice that you are starting to lose steam as you try to focus on just getting through this last lap.

You push your car to the limit as you try to hold him off. You can feel yourself starting to get drained and you don’t think you can hold him off for long. He is getting closer and closer.

The final lap almost felt like an eternity. The adrenaline pumping through you was intense. You can hear his engine closing in on you and getting even closer. Everything seems like a blur as you just focus on trying to keep him in your rearview mirror.

As the finish line approaches, it becomes more clear that he is about to pass you. You can feel the heat as your heart beats even faster. The fear and anxiety is almost too much to handle.

The finish line is only a few feet away and you see him inching closer and closer to passing you. You are doing everything in your might to hold on but it just seems like your tank is empty. The last few feet feel like they have doubled in length because of the intense moment.

As you approach the finish line at top speed, you see him pass you and you can’t help but feel disappointed. You had put up a good fight but it just wasn’t enough.

You can hear the commentators going wild as they witness the tense and exciting finish that you two delivered. You cross the finish line and try to compose yourself before the podium ceremony begins.

A few minutes later you walk up the stairs to the podium. You’re standing in the middle as you look across at the podium to your left as you see Carlos win the first position and to your right as Max takes the third position. The two of you are smiling and are being congratulated by the other drivers.

You take your place next to the other two and the three of you stand together as the camera flashes are directed at you. You all stand at the podium and the commentators describe the tension and excitement of the moment

You stood there with your hands clenched tightly together as you stared ahead at the crowd. You feel yourself starting to get choked up but you try to remain as stoic as possible. You couldn’t believe you allowed yourself to come in second when you could have won this race.

You felt so many emotions all at the same time as the disappointment washed over you. You wanted to just storm out of there because you couldn’t stand to be there. The feeling of your hands being clenched so tightly together made them sore. You felt like you wanted to start crying.

As the moment started winding down and everyone began to leave the podium, you noticed that Carlos was still there. He was standing close to you on the podium which caught your attention. Your eyes remained averted but you could feel his stares. It felt like he wanted to say something.

You felt a tense atmosphere between the two of you and you were still too upset to even look at him. He remained where he was, looking at you and you could sense him waiting for you to say something but you were too angry to even face him.

“You’re to hard on yourself” Carlos says as you walk way.

“I know” you mumbled to yourself

The bar is usually a place for you and the other drivers to take a breather and decompress after a race. It’s the place where you usually unwind for a bit and catch your breath. This is especially important during a stressful race like the Las Vegas Grand Prix.

As you walked in, your attention immediately shifted towards a group of the drivers gathered at the bar. You could see that they were all relaxed and enjoying a drink. The tension between you and Carlos had you feeling on edge as you entered.

You spot Carlos towards the back of the group, as far away as he could be from you. You can feel his gaze as it follows you as you walk in. You tried to ignore him and focus on finding somewhere to sit. Your anger was still building inside of you.

As you try to find a place to sit, you notice that all the seats are already taken. You were so frustrated that you wanted to just walk out of there. When you realized that the only place left to sit was next to Carlos you sighed and decided to just sit down next to him.

You sat down next to Carlos and it was only the two of you at a table off in a corner. The drivers all stopped what they were doing to look over at you. It felt like they were all staring at you two as you sat silently next to one another.

“I guess the ice queen has decided to join us,” Pierre says with a sarcastic tone as the others around you start laughing.

You wanted to roll your eyes but you stayed silent and tried to keep your face as neutral as possible. “I guess since she didn’t win, she wanted to hang out with us instead.” Pierre continued as more of the other drivers laughed.

“At least I can get a podium finish. How many have you had this season, Gasly?” You asked sarcastically.

Pierre was taken aback by your sarcastic tone and it caught him off guard. His eyes widened a bit as you snapped back at one of the other drivers. Some of the other drivers laughed as Pierre got quiet.

Pierre stared directly at you for a long moment before finally speaking “I almost feel honored that you finally decided to speak to us” Pierre said sarcastically again. The others began to laugh again.

The way Pierre spoke to you made you feel like your blood was boiling. You couldn’t believe that everyone was just laughing off his disrespectful comment. You felt your patience wearing thin as you stayed silent and continued to stare in his direction.

Pierre kept a smug look on his face as he continued to stare at you. The way he spoke to you was condescending and disrespectful. You felt the heat rising in your body as your patience ran out. The other drivers laughed along and didn’t say a word to defend you.

“I’m surprised you even came over to join us considering that you couldn’t even win the race,” Pierre said with a smirk. He was trying to get under your skin and he was doing a pretty good job of it.

The disrespect was unbearable at this point. Everyone else was just laughing along and you felt like the butt of the joke. You were beyond fed up with Pierre and how he was treating you. Your eyes were beginning to darken as a wave of anger started to rise inside of you.

Pierre continued “I guess you had to settle for second place after all” Pierre teased. Pierre had always been like this but this time around you just felt your blood beginning to boil. You weren't going to let him get away with calling you out like this.

“Knock it off Gasly,” Carlos says from beside you, placing a hand on your thigh.

You were caught off guard by Carlos's sudden action. All the air was suddenly sucked out of the room as all the other drivers' eyes immediately fell on Carlos. Your mind had to process the thought of him just randomly placing his hand on your thigh in the middle of the bar when you both were still fighting and annoyed by each other's presence.

The touch from Carlos caught you by surprise and you could feel him squeezing your thigh slightly. Pierre was taken aback by Carlos’s sudden interruption and the tone in his voice. The drivers around him went silent as they watched the two of you.

Pierre’s eyes narrowed a bit as Carlos placed his hand on your thigh. Pierre’s lips thinned slightly as he tried to keep his calm. The tension between the two of them was palpable and it was making the others around them feel slightly uncomfortable.

The two of you leave the bar and decide to go bar hopping. The night is turning out much different than either of you expected. You are both a little drunk and the tension between the two of you has only gotten hotter with every bit of alcohol that passes through your system.

“Maybe we should,” Carlos whispered next to your ear. He was pretty drunk at this point and his words were slurred. His voice seemed a bit deeper than usual and you couldn’t help but want to get even closer. The tension between you two was intense and the alcohol just made it feel even hotter.

“We could get married right now and no one would even know,” Carlos whispered again. The alcohol made him feel brave and you were starting to feel that way too. The thought of being married to him just made your heart start beating faster.

“Let’s do it,” you say.

“You sure?” Carlos asked in disbelief. You were feeling very drunk and you couldn’t believe the things coming out of your mouth. Maybe you were just joking, but all the alcohol in your system has you feeling very confident right now.

“I’m sure,” you say looking up at Carlos

“Well I’m down if you’re down,” Carlos said with a drunken grin. You couldn’t help but notice how attractive he looked right now. His grin just made him more irresistible and you just wanted to get closer to him.

You both make a drunken stumble towards the chapel as you both laugh at the thought of getting married on a whim. The alcohol was making you feel so carefree as the tension between you both only continued to grow. The drunkenness was making your desires start to take over.

“I can’t believe we’re going to do this” Carlos whispered to you with a drunken grin on his face. You could smell the alcohol on his breath as he spoke and the smell was making your desires grow even stronger.

“Me either” you smile.

“Well, we might as well see it through” Carlos laughed as you both made your way inside the chapel. The alcohol in your system was making each step seem like the hardest thing you’ve ever done. You had the intense feeling of wanting to be as close to him as possible.

As the two of you step inside the chapel, you look around as you both try to hold your balance. The chapel was empty except for the pastor standing near the altar. The alcohol has made you both a little disoriented but you two try to compose yourselves together.

“So I’m guessing you two are going to get married,” the pastor says with a slight smirk. You’re too drunk to even react to his comment as you continue to struggle to stand. The alcohol is starting to hit you hard now.

“Uh yeah, we kind of decided on it just right now” Carlos laughed drunkenly as he kept trying to keep his balance. He turned to face you as you both swayed side to side. The alcohol was making the two of you very disoriented and it was becoming more difficult to keep your balance at this point.

“Are you sure you’re both even mentally fit to be making this big of a decision right now?” The pastor asked in amusement. He couldn’t help but laugh at the sight of the both of you leaning on each other and swaying back and forth. He could tell that the two of you were extremely drunk and it was making your coordination even worse.

“Yes, we’re sure we want to do this,” you say, tightening your grip on Carlos who buried his head in the crook of your neck.

The pastor just smiled as he walked behind the altar and asked the two of you to do the same. Your faces were now very close to each other as you both had to lean on each other for balance. You could feel Carlos’s breath on your neck and the heat between the both of you became even more intense now that you were almost touching.

“If you two can make it to the aisle without falling over then I guess we can go ahead and do this” the pastor teased as the two of you leaned on each other to stay standing. The pastor couldn’t help but laugh at the sight of the two of you clinging to each other to keep from falling.

“Yeah sure” Carlos mumbled as he tightened his grip on you. The alcohol was making him even more disoriented than you were but your drunkenness didn’t take away the feelings between the two of you. You felt the desire for the both of you to be as close to each other as possible and it was becoming more obvious to the pastor.

“Okay then, by the power vested in me by the state of Nevada I now pronounce you husband and wife,” the pastor says as he holds up a small Bible. You both felt the moment get very intense as the alcohol made it all the more real for both of you.

“You may kiss the bride” the pastor continued as he looked over at Carlos. The alcohol only made the entire moment even more intense and you just wanted to kiss Carlos now. The urge was becoming too hard to resist.

The pastor stepped away as the two of you looked at each other. The heat between you two was still intense as you both leaned in closer and closer to each other. This was definitely not your sober self talking. The alcohol had taken over now and you had given in to the desire.

Your lips finally met with Carlos’s in a sloppy kiss. Your tongues got entwined as both of your mouths moved against each other recklessly. You felt the alcohol making you lose yourself as the kiss continued.

You wake up from a drunken slumber only to realize that you can’t even remember the night before. Your eyes feel heavy and your head feels like it’s going to explode.

You take a deep breath and feel the hangover hitting you now. The room is spinning and even the slightest movement makes you feel like throwing up. You try to recall what happened and how you got here but your memory is completely foggy.

You close your eyes again as you lie there quietly, your head slowly clearing up. Once you begin to remember more of what transpired the night before your eyes start to open again. Something feels different though and you can’t quite pin point it just yet.

As you finally open your eyes, reality sets in and you look around the room. Suddenly it hits you that something feels different about this room and you realize that you are nowhere near where you were supposed to be. Your first thought was that perhaps you had woken up in a hotel room.

You slowly roll out of bed and try to maintain your balance as you walk towards a mirror. You glance into the mirror and your heart drops as you look at your reflection.

You feel the reality set in and your brain begins to piece everything together. You realize that not only are you in a different room but the reflection looking back at you is wearing a wedding ring. You can’t believe it. You feel like this is all a dream but it’s starting to feel very real now.

Looking around the room for your phone you find that you have a bunch of missed calls and text messages from Kimi and the others. Turning your back off to think you hear groaning from the other side of the bed. Getting up and walking to the other side you find your teammate passed out on the floor also wearing a wedding ring.

What the fuck happened last night? You thought to yourself.

“Carlos wake up” you say shaking him.

Carlos stirred slightly as he was still trying to recover from his hangover. His eyes opened for a second and then closed again as he struggled to even keep them open. He grumbled when he heard your voice and tried to roll away from you.

“No carlos get up” you say again hitting him with a pillow

Carlos woke up with a sharp groan the pillow hit his face. “Ugh what the hell” he mumbled as he got up. He rubbed his eyes for a second before looking over to you. “What time is it?”

“It’s 12 in the afternoon” you said

“12 o’clock in the afternoon?” Carlos glanced at you and then over to the clock on the wall. “What the hell did we do last night?” He groaned as he sat up on the bed.

“We got married last night. Ok Carlos look around you were not even in our original hotel.” You rant getting louder

Carlos’s face paled for a moment as he looked around the room. He had no memory of what happened last night but now he started to get a sense of the gravity of the situation. The realization of what had happened started to come creeping back into his head.

“Are you serious? We really got married?” Carlos questioned as he started to think back to the night before. He barely remembered a thing and now he’s starting to wonder if he was in some kind of drunken haze the entire night.

“Yes I’m serious, here's the wedding certificate” you said handing the pics of paper.

Carlos glanced at the certificate and then back at you. The confusion was slowly turning into disbelief as he realized that the certificate was real. “Let me see that again” Carlos said as he held the certificate in his hands and skimmed through it.

“This is a legit wedding certificate from the Las Vegas chapel” Carlos stated. The realization of what had happened was slowly soaking in. He couldn’t believe that he had actually gotten married to his rival and his teammate. You started to wonder what everyone’s reaction was going to be.

“We’re married?” Carlos asked again as he looked up at you in disbelief. The thought was surreal and you felt a little stunned yourself. His disbelief was slowly turning into a bit of shock and he looked around the room for a second to collect his thoughts.

“We actually got married” Carlos stated again as he still struggled to even process the news. The thought was still hard to believe and even the headache from the hangover was still there. You both were now going to have to live with the consequences of your drunken actions from the previous night.

“This is crazy,” Carlos continued. He was still feeling shocked by the news and he didn’t really know what to say or think. It was crazy to think that he would actually end up getting married to his rival and teammate.

“What are we going to tell the team?” Carlos asked you. You both had to figure out a way to explain this to the rest of the team. You doubted that they would be very pleased to hear what you both had done.

“Absolutely nothing Carlos because if this gets out you’ll be fine you’ll bounce back from the scrutiny and bad publicity me me? I’ll be screwed over by everyone. So we say nothing about this and I mean nothing” you tell him

“So you’re suggesting we keep this to ourselves?” Carlos asked you. He was beginning to realize how big of an impact this would have on their careers. He knew that he would be able to bounce back but you were right in saying that you would take the brunt of the fallout from this.

“Exactly we say nothing” you repeat

“You realize that we have to wear these wedding rings?” Carlos pointed to your ring. You both still had your physical proof of your drunken actions last night. A part of you felt relieved that this would all stay secret from everyone else.

“No we don’t” you say taking off the ring and tossing it in to trash can. “Like I said no one needs to know” you said grabbing your stuff and leaving the room.

Carlos sat on the bed thinking about last night and what you said and he’s was slightly disappointed that you wanted to forget about this accidental marriage.

Sighing to himself he gets up and gathers his things and looks at the trashcan and takes your ring out and pockets it leaving the room disappointed.

As you grabbed your things and headed straight for the door Carlos realized this is what you were going to do. Your plans didn’t match up with his and he was disappointed. Carlos just couldn’t believe how quickly you just wanted to move past this whole situation without showing any regards to what the two of you had just committed to.

Carlos headed down the hallway and tried to catch up with you. He caught up to you at the entrance and leaned against the wall. “So we’re just going to pretend like last night didn’t happen at all?” He asked you. his tone was full of disappointment and he couldn’t help but feel like you were being very dismissive of the whole situation.

“What else is there? We made a mistake, we were both drunk and last night was just one big drunken mistake that we’re going to keep secret from the world” you replied back in a careless and dismissive tone. You just couldn’t understand why he couldn’t see the situation the same way.

“A drunken mistake?” Carlos asked you as he looked at you. The disbelief was painted on his face and he looked very frustrated. “Is this what you think marriage means? An impulsive drunken action?”

“Yes Carlos it was a drunken mistake. We can't be in a room together for five minutes without fighting.” You said loudly and frustrated.

“So we fight sometimes so what?” Carlos was also getting frustrated by the way you were acting. He couldn’t believe that you were so flippant about this whole situation. The more he thought about the marriage the more he began to believe it wasn’t a drunken mistake but a real decision that you both made.

“You do realize what we just did right? We didn’t just do some impulse drunk hookup or something” Carlos continued. He was trying to get you to see his point of view but he didn’t think you were really listening to him.

“We married each other last night” Carlos repeated. You both had said some vows while you were completely drunk but the words you promised to each other were still valid. The gravity of the situation was slowly starting to sink in for Carlos.

“You just don’t care that we got married?” Carlos was beginning to feel furious and the anger was starting to build inside of him. You just seemed so careless and unconcerned about what had happened last night.

“No I don’t care because it was a mistake”

Carlos just couldn’t believe your response and he looked at you in pure disbelief. This marriage to him meant more than just a drunken mistake and he couldn’t believe you were so nonchalant about the whole situation.

“And you wonder why we call you the ice queen you’re a cold hearted person who only cares about herself” Carlos says through clenched teeth pointing a finger in your face.

Carlos felt a surge of anger run through his body as the name calling started. The two of you had always had a very competitive relationship as teammates. You both had pushed each other to the limits as you went head to head on the track but this marriage was something deeper than that.

Carlos didn’t like being criticized and insulted in this manner and his anger was starting to surface. His frustration that you didn’t seem as invested as he was was slowly boiling over. He couldn’t believe how coldly you were treating something that he felt was important.

“What the hell do you mean I only care about myself? Do you honestly think that I would marry you because I was just feeling spontaneous?” you exclaimed, getting even angrier. You felt the anger and frustration starting to overtake you.

“How can you say something like that so carelessly?” Carlos exclaimed angrily. “I think this whole thing was a big ass mistake and I wish we could take it all back too but we can’t. We made a drunken decision and now we have to live with it” Carlos continued. The anger and frustration was getting the best of him and he was starting to lose his temper on you.

“This isn’t about taking it back though, we made a serious decision last night and you’re just dismissing it as a mistake and nothing more” Carlos said with a tone of contempt towards you. He was starting to question your character and he couldn’t believe this is how you were acting now.

“What do you want from me Carlos?” You asked

“I want you to take this seriously!” Carlos screamed. He was beginning to get angrier and angrier as the frustration built up inside of him. He couldn’t believe that you were treating this marriage like it was a game.

“You think you can just say these vows and get married to me and then just brush it off in the morning like it meant nothing?” Carlos screamed again. He was so angry at how dismissive you were being about the whole situation. He was starting to feel like the only one who cared about this whole marriage.

“Why do you care so much?” You yelled asking.

Why was this so important to him?

“You seriously have to ask me that?” Carlos screamed. He couldn’t believe you were asking him this question. “Because this is more than just a drunken mistake to me!” Carlos had tears in his eyes now as he realized that he cared so much more about this than you did.

“This is something serious and I want you to take it seriously just like I am” Carlos said desperately. He just wanted you to see things the way he did but you just wouldn’t listen. Your dismissive attitude was making him feel like his feelings didn’t matter to you.

“It was just one drunk night, what’s so serious about that?” You responded angrily. You were annoyed that he wanted to make this a big deal now. You couldn’t believe that he actually cared about this drunken marriage.

“Because I love you Y/n! There I said it!” Carlos added.

When you heard him say those words something in your heart began to stir. You had heard him say those words before but this time they had a whole new meaning to you. You couldn't help but feel a rush of emotions as you realized the gravity of the situation. You had always loved him but now you realized that you had been too stubborn and prideful to truly admit it.

“You love me?” You asked him. The words slipped out of your mouth without thinking and the instant you said it the feeling of realization washed over you. You realized that you really did love him and all the anger and frustration that had been building suddenly disappeared.

“I do regret getting married last night when we were both so drunk” Carlos continued but this time with a gentle tone. “But I don’t regret marrying you” he added. The way he said it you knew that he meant every single word.

“So what are we going to do now?” You asked. Your emotions were still running high and you felt a mixture of relief and excitement as he continued to express his feelings towards you.

“I want to be with you” Carlos said firmly and then he took a deep breath. “And I want to make this work” he continued. This whole thing had been a lot for both of you to process but the feelings of love that he was expressing towards you made it feel like it was all worth it.

“We didn’t make the best decision last night” Carlos admitted. “But maybe it was meant to happen” he continued. He wanted to believe in the whole fate thing and this situation was really making him think that maybe there was more to this marriage than just a drunken action.

“Can we start from the beginning and do this right?” Carlos asked. He sounded like he meant it and all the anger and frustration that he was harboring earlier was gone. He was ready to commit again and take this one step at a time.

“I think that would be for the best” you replied softly. “Can we just start over and do this the right way?” You continued. You wanted him to take this seriously and you wanted to prove to him that you were in this with him.

“Then I guess we are starting over” Carlos stated. “This is still new to me but I’m ready to give us a proper start” Carlos replied and he looked at you. You felt a sudden rush of warmth and joy as you looked into his eyes. The two of you just stood there for a moment holding each other’s gaze and you both felt so content in each others presence.

“Can I ask you a question?” Carlos asked you after a moment of silence. He looked at you curiously and he was eager to see how you would respond.

“Yes?” You replied softly. You didn’t know what he was about to ask but you were ready to answer him.

“Did you actually mean the vows that you said last night? Were they just meaningless drunk words or was there some truth to them?” Carlos asked you softly. His eyes were locked into yours and he was waiting eagerly for you to answer.

“I wanna say yes but I don’t remember our vows” you admitted

“Well do you remember anything else from last night?” Carlos asked with a teasing tone. The teasing was playful and he was trying to lighten the mood now.

“I barely remember anything,” you replied honestly. “It’s like a blur,” you continued. You knew what happened last night but the whole thing was almost incoherent to you.

Carlos couldn’t help but laugh at your response. “Well I guess it’s better that you barely remember anything than remembering everything” he replied with a laugh. The humor seemed to break the tension between the two of you and it allowed you both to relax a little bit.

You and Carlos had been living together for a few weeks now and it’s been a strange and surreal experience. You had gone from barely even tolerating each other to living under the same roof. You were learning to adjust to this new dynamic but it was taking some getting used to.

Carlos had asked you to move in with him after the last race of the season and you had taken him up on his offer. You felt like you didn’t have a choice since it would be difficult to maintain this marriage from two different homes.

After a while of living together and getting to know each other’s personal routines and habits you began to see a new side of Carlos. You began to see his humorous and playful side and you were starting to form a sort of connection with him.

You had started to feel more comfortable around him and you weren’t as quick to get defensive or fight with him as you once were. You had to admit that there was some part of you that was enjoying this new dynamic between the two of you.

But there were, of course, some moments of difficulty along the way. You both were still prone to fighting and arguing and it could be exhausting at times. You still had trouble communicating with each other and sometimes it felt like the two of you were speaking completely different languages.

The two of you also had to adjust to the fact that you were in a serious relationship now. Despite the amount of difficulties that had come up between the two of you you were able to push through the struggles and you found yourself truly caring about Carlos in a way that you had never cared about anyone before.

In particular you had to learn how to interact and deal with Carlos' family. This was all very new territory for you and you didn’t have any prior experiences to base this off of. It was a learning process and you realized that it was going to take some serious effort and commitment to make this relationship work with his family too.

“What if they don’t like me?” you said, voicing your concerns to Carlos.

Carlos looked at you with a genuine smile and he tried to reassure you. “My parents are going to love you, you don’t need to worry about that,” he said confidently. But you weren’t so sure. The thought of meeting his parents for the first time made you nervous and you didn’t know how they were going to react to you.

“Just be yourself and there’s nothing to worry about,” Carlos continued. He really wanted to make you feel comfortable and he wanted this meeting to go as smoothly as possible. The last thing he wanted was for this to go awkwardly.

“But I’m just nervous,” you replied back. Your anxiety was growing as the date drew closer and you couldn’t shake whatever feelings of doubt that were cropping up.

“Don’t worry you’ll be fine” Carlos tried to reassure you once again. He knew you were prone to getting anxious in stressful or unfamiliar situations and he knew this was just one of those times that you needed some extra reassurance and support.

“Besides, just think of it as an opportunity to get to know my parents,” Carlos said, trying to make the encounter sound less intimidating to you. It was his way of trying to put your mind at ease and make the situation feel less scary than it actually was.

“Yeah ok” you replied back a little unsure. You still had some anxiety about the situation but you felt a little more reassured after his comforting words. You had to admit that Carlos could be quite sweet and endearing at times which helped to settle your nerves a little bit.

The day of your first meeting with Carlos’s family finally arrived. The two of you were headed to his house and you couldn’t help but feel a little bit nervous as you approached. The house had all the hallmarks of a typical Spanish estate and you could already feel the pressure of the situation starting to weigh down on you.

You looked over briefly at Carlos and he gave you an encouraging grin. He could tell that you were a little bit on edge and he wanted to give you a boost of confidence before you arrived at the door. “I’m right here with you Y/n, and I’m not going to leave your side” Carlos said quietly to give you a sense of safety in the presence of his family.

As Carlos was saying this you felt like your anxiety was being eased. The fact that Carlos was so supportive and he was going to stay with you the whole time made you feel more relaxed. As the two of you approached the door to the house you noticed it was unlocked and you could already hear a few voices inside.

“Ready?” Carlos asked you as he reached for the doorknob to open the door. You gave him a slight nod and he swung the door open and you both stepped inside. Immediately you could hear the voices of Carlos’s parents speaking in Spanish which made the situation more nervous than it already was.

“Mami esto es Y/n” Carlos introduced you and you noticed his mother seemed surprised when she saw you. Her face quickly turned from surprise to a warm smile and she took a few steps closer to greet you.

“Hola Y/n, es un placer conocerte” Carlos’s mother said to you as she reached her hand out to shake yours. The Spanish sounded nice and it made you feel a bit more at ease. The pressure was still there but at least she seemed nice and friendly which was very comforting to you.

“Mi hijo te habla mucho de ti” Carlos’s mother continued. She said it in a friendly and welcoming tone and she kept the smile on her face. The warmth and friendliness that she was emitting made you feel more comfortable and it helped to put a little piece of your anxiety at ease.

“Mami, Y/n is a little nervous so could you please not be too scary with her?” Carlos said in a teasing tone to his mother and you couldn’t help but laugh at the playful exchange between them.

“Por supuesto hijo, seré muy amigable” his mother said happily. Her tone was a bit playful and she couldn’t hide the pride and affection that she had for her son. She looked at you with a welcoming gaze and you could feel the warmth of her smile as she spoke to you. You already felt a bit more relaxed in her presence and you were grateful for Carlos’s intervention.

Carlos’s mother then took the opportunity to introduce his father who was standing just a few feet away. His father looked a little bit more serious but he was still smiling warmly at you. “Hola Y/n, it’s nice to meet you” he said in English with a bit of a Spanish accent

“Hola” you replied back trying to remain calm. Just like his mother, his father’s friendliness and warm attitude made you feel at ease. Even if his tone was more serious you couldn’t help but feel comfortable in his presence. It was obvious from their body language that they liked you but they also seemed a little bit skeptical.

After you were introduced to Carlos’s parents you all went to sit down at the dinner table for dinner. The dinner was in typical Spanish style which meant lots of delicious food and warm conversation. You found yourself enjoying the whole experience even though it was all still a little bit surreal.

As the dinner went on you began to ease up even more than you originally thought you would. The warmth and welcoming energy from his parents was making you feel like you were part of the family, at least for this moment. You found yourself enjoying a good amount of the food and you even managed to crack a few jokes that actually made Carlos’s parents laugh slightly.

You were surprised with how much you were connecting with his parents, especially since you had been feeling so nervous and anxious before. But at the same time you realized that you were also a little bit nervous that you may be letting your guard down and revealing too much about yourself. You didn’t want to say or do anything that would ruin the atmosphere or cause you to lose the momentum that you had been gaining with his parents.

By the time dinner was over you felt like you had gotten over the worst part of this whole meeting with his parents. It was still a little bit surreal but you had already done it, you had met his parents and it was a good first impression.

“See? Wasn’t that so much better than what you had anticipated?” Carlos said to you as you were walking back to the car. He could tell that you were feeling good about how the meeting went and he wanted to reinforce your positive thoughts about it.

“Yeah it really wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be” you replied with a small smile. You had expected the experience to go horribly but things turned out much better than you could have possibly imagined.

“I told you it wouldn’t be as bad as you thought” Carlos said with a hint of playful teasing in his tone. You could tell that he was just a little bit proud of himself that the meeting had gone so well. He was also happy to see that you weren’t too overwhelmed by the experience.

“Well you were right” you replied with another small smile. You couldn’t help but feel a bit affectionate in this moment and seeing Carlos be so happy made you feel even better. You could tell that he was quite pleased with how things had turned out and you wanted to let him know that you were too.

“Plus you made a really good impression on them,” Carlos continued. “They seem to really like you,” Carlos added. He seemed pretty excited at this prospect and he was glad that his parents seemed to approve of you.

“It was kinda obvious that they did” you replied with a slight pout. Maybe it was true, they did seem pretty fond of you, but it also felt like they were trying to read you like a book or something. They were probably trying to size you up and figure out how seriously Carlos was really taking this relationship.

“Well don’t you worry” Carlos said softly to you. “My parents like you and that’s what really matters” he continued and you could tell he meant it. He genuinely wanted his parents to like you and he was genuinely relieved that they seemed to like you already.

A couple of weeks later just before Christmas your mom called you with bad news about your great grandmother and how she was in the hospital. The news hit you hard because you were really close to your grandma.

“She’s in the hospital?” you asked softly. Your mom explained to you that your grandmother’s health had taken a turn for the worse and she had been rushed to the hospital that morning. It was a startling and sudden change in her condition and you couldn’t help but feel concerned. Your grandmother had always been a vital part of your life and the thought of losing her was upsetting. You didn’t have many words to say in response and you could feel the weight of the situation pressing down on you.

Your mom asked you if you wanted to come home for the holidays to see your grandmother and you thought about it for a moment before you came to a decision. “Yes, I’ll be home for the holidays” you replied back softly. The thought of missing the holidays with your family was enough to make your heart sink into your chest and you couldn’t bear the thought of not seeing your grandmother one last time.

“Are you sure?” your mom asked just to make sure. You could hear the concern in her voice and you assured her that you were sure and you wanted to come home. You wanted to do whatever you could to see your grandma one last time and there was no way you were missing this chance.

“Ok” your mom said and she seemed a little relieved to hear that you were coming home. You could tell that she had been worried about you and she wanted to make sure that you were doing alright in light of your grandmother’s situation.

“Well I’ll see you soon then” your mom said with a soft and reassuring tone. You could tell that she was worried for you and that she cared about you a lot. It was comforting to know that you had a good relationship with your mother and that she was there for you whenever you needed her.

When Carlos got home he didn’t see or hear you so he went looking around for you. After searching around the house he found you curled up in bed crying.

“ Amor what happened?” Carlos asked you.

“It’s my grandmother” you said softly back to Carlos as you wiped tears away from your eyes. “It’s not looking very good for her” you continued and you continued to cry. Carlos had heard about your grandmother’s worsening condition from your previous conversation with your mom but even he hadn’t realized just how much it was really affecting you.

“She’s in the hospital and it doesn’t sound like it’s looking too good for her right now” you added. Carlos’s face scrunched up when he heard the news and he was genuinely pained for you. He knew that your grandmother meant a lot to you and he hated how you were feeling right now.

“Oh no that’s terrible” Carlos said, clearly upset and concerned. He couldn’t imagine what you’re going through right now and he didn’t know how to comfort you. But he was trying his best. “I’m sorry honey” he continued “I know how much she means to you and this must be so hard for you.”

“I just don’t know what I’m going to do if…” you continued through your tears. Your voice was shaking slightly as you struggled to get the words out. You were clearly distressed and afraid of the possibility of losing your beloved grandmother.

“It’s going to be ok amor” Carlos whispered. He didn’t know if it was really going to be ok but he wanted to be supportive and provide you with any sense of comfort that he could. He didn’t want you to be in this situation by yourself and he hoped his presence would ease some of your heartbreak.

“I know…” you replied back between sobs. You couldn’t stop the water work and you continued to cry softly. You could barely even say those two words since your throat felt so tight with all the uncontrollable sobbing.

Carlos couldn’t stand seeing you like this and he wanted to do something to ease your pain. He crawled into bed with you and he wrapped his arms around you and held you close to him. “I’m here for you amor” he said softly. He was trying to comfort you anyway he could and he didn’t want you to feel alone during this difficult time.

“I know” you sniffled and Carlos was glad that you could at least reply with a few simple words. He didn’t expect you to stop crying the second he held you but he was glad that you were at least able to let out some of your pain. You were still shaking and you didn’t want to move but Carlos held you tightly against him in an attempt to make you feel as safe and comfortable as possible.

Carlos continued to hold you and he felt your body trembling slightly and you were still crying faintly but you were calming down a little bit. He didn’t want to let you go and he wanted to continue to provide you with as much comfort as he could at this point.

“I love you amor” Carlos whispered softly into your ear. He was trying to ease your mind a little bit more and he wanted to make sure you knew how much you meant to him. He was trying to distract you from yourself and your tears and he wanted you in a better mood before you left for your grandmother’s bedside hospital.

“I love you too” you replied to Carlos back. Even though you were still having trouble speaking and you were still a little shaky Carlos was happy that you were able to reply back to him. This whole situation had taken such an emotional toll on you and the fact that you were able to express your love back to Carlos gave him some indication that you would manage the situation with your grandmother alright.

“Let me take care of you amor” Carlos said softly to you. He thought he could still hear a faint quiver in your voice and he wanted to make sure that he would be there for you during this difficult time. He continued to wrap his arms around you and his body felt so warm and secure and all of a time you felt like everything would be alright. You were still a little bit shaky from your tears but the calmness that Carlos was emitting was helping you to feel much better.

Carlos’s touch was incredibly soothing for you at this moment. His embrace was so warm and secure that it made you feel completely at ease. You were still feeling a little bit shaky and your tears were drying up but you felt safe in his arms and that the world was a much brighter place right now than it had been just a few moments earlier.

“I’m here amor,” Carlos continued. He didn’t want you to be anxious or afraid right now and he wanted to just comfort you as much as possible. You were still feeling a little bit fragile but being surrounded by Carlos’s warmth and gentle nature made you feel so much more at ease in this moment.

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