happy birthday, green druidess.
i hope today is good, because... oh, boy, is it a good day for me.
in fact, this is the first january in years that’s been genuinely kind to me! been making tons of art and planning stuff for my fics, planning on moving house sometime this year...
i’m writing all of this as thunder and lightning is rolling through my area. if you don’t mind, i’m going to turn into nikolai tesla here for a second. or robert oppenheimer. electricity is everywhere, and if you’re not careful, it can burn you and vaporize you, sweetheart.
now hold onto me, pretty baby, if you wanna fly.
i’m gonna melt the fever, sugar,
rolling back your eyes.
*lights up a bong*
are y’all with me now?
her: “hey, how come you never have anything nice to say about me?”
she asks, completely oblivious to the fact that i was never a serious critic, but someone with a sense of humor and i had every right to stand up for myself.
want me to say something nice about her?
she knows how to appeal to people.
there. happy? am i even being serious right now?
who knows, and who cares. besides, her and her army of nimrods have something new to bicker about when using my name in junction again.
*alex skolnick, eric peterson, joey belladonna, and rob cavestany have entered the chat*
*receives, but whatever.
and...
pfffff, what?
“Or maybe it was the ice cream man.”
i shouldn’t have laughed as hard as i did at that, but i did, anyway. god.
man, and i thought i had awkward syntax. there’s a lot. trust me: from how state of euphoria sits in my mind, she’s known for her awkward sentences, among other things. such that even the teachers of the most entry-level, special ed. english classes would hit the roof.
...edgy strawberry shortcake? but, you know, if it exists, there’s an edgy version of it. it’s like an offshoot of rule 34 (if it exists, there’s porn of it).
by the way, “seafoam”. back up, i thought you weren’t an artist.
u mad, bro?
also, paranoia is not a good look for you, liz. trust me.
ahahahahahahahahaha *fart*
oh, yeah, that’s... that’s real important. thx for that really important info.
you know, there’s building tension and then there’s farting around like this, and you, my dear, fart more than i do (and i have digestive issues so that’s saying something)
in all seriousness, though, she has gotten bad with the filler lately, like... how many times can you show me this. how many more times can you show me this.
“i rubbed my chiny-chin-chin and said, ‘my, my, my,
what sort of this thing might this lady get high upon?’
i checked out her sister who was holding the bed,
and i wondered what sort of thing the young lady was on.”
“snap yo’ fingers, snap yo’ neck!”
i haven’t heard about strippers wearing thongs in like... what, 15+ years? britney spears and paris hilton even stopped wearing them even in the era of low-rise jeans, they’re so uncomfortable and so gross, too, like there’s nothing sexy about having a string between your ass cheeks and your coochie.
“slid off the bed” made me think of homer simpson sliding off the bed and sneaking out in the middle of the night with bart to scour the barrels of booze in the prohibition episode (there’s a bit in the second part of this fic where vince acts like bart reading notes from his palm 😂)
firm tits? if she’s got firm tits, she’s probably got cancer, bro.
or she has pcos, just gave birth, or she’s the three-breasted martian from total recall, like it’s not natural to have rock-hard boobs and a soft body, especially in that situation.
“so i pulled on her hair,
got her legs in the air,
and asked if she had any cooties in there.
‘what do you mean, cooties?
no cooties on me!’
she was buns up, kneeling.
i was wheelin’ and dealin’,
she surrendered to the feelin’,
and she started with the squealin’.
dyna-moe watched from the edge of the bed,
with her upper lip twitching and her face gone red,
some drool rolling down from the edge of her chin,
while she spied the condition her sister was in.”
...this is the woman who made fun of me in 2020 for writing the word “butt” in an otherwise erotic fic. the same one.
good god.
did you have a stroke and lose your sense of hearing, nick? she’s obviously in pain. knock that shit off.
“melted water and her juices”
man alive, that conjures an image.
also, why am i under the impression that she sat down with eclipse open in another tab whilst writing, specifically to angel’s trumpet and summer in the city, and wrote this alongside those chapters, like this whole time i’m just thinking of vampire!alex and his icy cold body... but minus his sensuality and sweetness, and made a lot more disgusting. and it’s kinda creepy, too, like at least i try to make people look like they’re having a good time in my erotica.
i also didn’t screenshot it, but there’s a line in here where nick says “i’d like to lick something” and i was almost immediately reminded of magic stick.
after everything, she is still ripping me off, and badly this time around no less: the first time was actually kind of innocuous in comparison to this, like this is borderline psychopathic behavior.
and it’s so ironic, too. everything i do is all supposed to be fun. you gently rib at someone because you like them.
has she or anyone who supports her never heard of “dramatic readings” or “drunk readings”? or watched a bad movie and made wise cracks all the way through?
if my mental breakdown after all this went down in summer 2020 wasn’t enough proof for you, i don’t know what to tell you.
really, i can forgive spelling errors and awkward sentences and unintentional hilarity, i really can (there’s a trope for that, too, it’s called “so bad, it’s good”), but if you still insist on doing the nefarious behavior i initially called you out on?
she’s insane. she is completely and totally out of her goddamn mind.
and she looks at me and tells me to get over it? that’s justifying your own horrible behavior in hopes to make me submit.
there’s a word for that, too. you may have heard of it, you may have seen her use it, too.
it’s called “bullying”.
look at it this way: if someone hits you and you’re crying, and they tell you to get over it, it’s abuse. bonus points if they’re like “i didn’t do it!” (given bullying is a form of abuse).
when i posted the apple shed back on the 9th, it had pure intentions. sure, when i posted dead man walking, it had the intent of standing up for myself. but that was it, though: i was standing up for myself while writing something that i had wanted to write for a long time, so two birds with one stone there.
when she starts something in response to fics like those, it’s solely to cover her ass, never to contribute to fandom. i promise i’m not trying to be like one of the cool kids, either. so, i don’t know what her logic is because i’m not trying to prove anything. i stopped caring about popularity a long time ago. i grew up in nevada and california: we don’t give a shit if we’re popular or not. it’s nice when it happens, but we don’t expect it.
coming from her, she may as well be telling us we’re all fools. really, this is erotic? this is unpleasant, even for her (and i’ve avoided her like the ‘rona).
a little pain goes a long way, but this left me genuinely uncomfortable. in fact, this happens a lot in her so-called erotic writings. and like, you can’t cover it up with “don’t like, don’t read”, either, because it’s all at the expense of growing and changing.
it’s like she tries way too hard to be sexy and winds up writing some of the most “cannot... unsee” things i’ve ever read. i feel like i’ve actually grown as a writer since i joined ao3. i can tell right away that she hasn’t, not one bit (and she’s been on there longer than i have, too).
in fact, she’s actually the reason why i’m so picky about reading things that are erotic: i don’t ever mean to shame anyone for what turns them on, that’s never my intention. i’ve been shamed for my sexual feelings pretty much my entire life, so you couldn’t pay me enough money to shame someone for their preferences and their kinks, but way too often, i’ll read something that’s kinda hot, kinda sensual, and then something will happen that’s off-putting and it’s immediately gross, or it’s unintentionally funny.
i don’t blame you for it one bit, though: writing is hard, and erotic writing is even harder (no pun intended). you want proof? it took me almost four years to overcome my hang-ups on my own kinks and be comfortable enough to write about them, and yet, i still have a long way to go. i still feel guilt and shame with what gets me going, and though my art is about what i like and who i like, i still am reluctant to talk about my crushes and my sexuality. it’s a continuous process.
what i don’t understand is... what the hell makes her so special? her writing is not sexy. at all.
and i’ve given myself shit for being unsexy multiple times in the past.
but i don’t think i’ve ever written anything that’s uncomfortable, disturbing, and stomach-churning at worst, and unintentionally funny at best like with her.
(and that’s not even touching the plagiarism aspect, either).
there’s someone who comes to mind now that i write this out and really put the pieces together.
so many of you are too young to remember tila tequila: i was 12 when she was the queen of myspace and i barely had a finger in the world of music then. if i was too young to remember tila, i know you all are. but i recommend you read about her. i can’t really explain it, but i keep seeing this weirdly similar arc between these two women: overly sexual to the point it’s obnoxious and squicky, loud and boisterous, big ego, went nuts after a traumatic event (in tila’s case, it was losing her girlfriend and then od’ing on pills during an aneurysm; in the green druidess’ case, it was losing her grandmother and then the rendezvous with me in quarantine). if she starts whipping out the prejudices and really problematic behavior, don’t say i didn’t try to warn you.
“you hurt my feelings”
i thought people got sick of this trope like... six years ago.
sick of the trope. six years ago. nikki sixx.
seems kinda weird…
it’s like watching two people have sex with rubber gloves and soapy water.
okay, i want y’all to take a shot every time she writes the word “butt” from now on.
i actually came up with a few drinking games with her.
for example, take a shot every time someone “hums” during an intercourse scene. take a shot every time she uses a flowery synonym for red hair. take a shot every time there’s a sex scene and you’re more grossed out than turned on.
again, this is the “hot, erotic romance” that readers of bandfic want in 2022/2023? this is torture. like... dude. have you tried just talking to her? why do you insist on spinning in circles every which way: this shit is hard to watch.
this is the scene from tiny bubbles:
Alex didn’t hesitate to take off his jeans right there in the front part of the apartment: he swiped the cordless phone from the kitchen in the instance of someone calling him in the meantime, and he ambled across the carpet to the hallway. He stepped into that large, spacious bathroom and already began to feel completely at ease. The white tile that made up the floor felt like cold stones on the very bottoms of his feet; the white and gray marble on the countertop next to him shimmered and twinkled under the soft light that filtered through the window over the bathtub before him. He peeled off his shirt and lay it on the counter next to him and the edge of the sink. He stood right next to the toilet for a second with his eye on the big silvery shower head on the wall over his head.
A shower wouldn’t suffice. Too quick, especially for his tense muscles in his back and in his legs.
He glanced down at the big bathtub before him, the big pearly white tub that provided enough for him to lay down flat on his back.
That would do the trick. He took the bath mat off of the rim of the tub and lay it on the tiles right next to the tub, and then he reached over to the dials on the wall and switched on the water. A bit too cold at first and then he turned the hot dial a bit. He then reached behind him to the cabinets under the sink for the bottle of bubble bath: what was a boy who wanted to relax without soft-smelling tiny bubbles. Down on one knee, he unscrewed the lid from the top and poured in a slender little trickle of that deep blue liquid in: he watched it bleed through the water for a moment, and then he reached down and stirred the water with a shake of his hand so the bubbles would flurry up and collect throughout the water. He put the bubble bath back into the cabinet and he watched the bubbles form and pile upon themselves.
Every so often, he reached down for a stir of the water with his hands so those little stacks of tiny bubbles collected and formed upon themselves even more.
Once the water reached a certain level on the bathtub, he switched off the water, and then he peeled his underwear off and he let it fall onto the bath mat, around his feet. He ran his hand down his stomach before he stuck one foot into the water: nice and warm, almost perfect. It was a bit colder than he usually liked, but the tub had enough water in it already; he set the other foot into the water next, and then he took his seat on the floor of the tub. He leaned back against the wall opposite to the faucet and stretched out his long, lanky legs to where his feet reached the faucet. Though he remained close to the wall on the left, there was plenty of room in that tub for two people.
it’s directly from tiny bubbles. she still has not gotten tired of this. as i said, it’s like she had eclipse open in one tab and used it as a base.
it’s like when you’re taking notes from a textbook and you paraphrase as “best” as you can... “best” in that it’s actually not coming from you.
god, where’s miss rocco, my english teacher in junior year of high school. that woman had eyes like a hawk: she knew if you plagiarized or read cliff notes from a mile away. she was tough but she wanted us to do well, and that was my original intent with the green druidess.
but since she’s way too egotistical, stubborn, and dumb to figure it out (as bullies usually are), i had to leave the “love” part out of “tough love”.
by the way, “non-erogenous zone”? what are you, my therapist?
*projectile vomits*
“oh. my. GAWD. chand-lah bing! chand-lah bing-a-ling!”
(this part actually deserves two jokes)
“are you eating a t-bone? why don’t we call you.. t-bone?”
“can i be g-bone?”
“there is no ‘g-bone’, george.”
“T-BONE! T-BONE! T-BONE! T-BONE!”
*later*
“you’re like that monkey that can do sign language.”
“cocoa?”
“yeah! COCOA! COCOA! COCOA! COCOA!”
she also ripped off covalent bonds, i see. not surprised at all, either: it had “easy target” written all over it.
“when you walk in the bar,
and you feel like a star,
rockin’ your fuck-me pumps.
and a man notice you with your gucci bag (crue),
can’t tell who he's lookin' to,
‘cause you all look the same,
everyone knows your name,
and that's your whole claim to fame.
never miss a night 'cause your dream in life
is to be a footballer's wife.
you don't like players, that's what you say-
but you really wouldn't mind a millionaire.
you don't like ballers, they don't do nothing for ya,
but you'd love a rich man six-foot-two or taller.”
vanessa: “we also received your other gift.”
austin powers: “yes, basel! nice rack!”
“you’re being a peñis... colada, that is.” -liz phair
i swear, i used “i want you”... by bob dylan, in either fever or now it’s dark. may have been fever, i remember seeing it in the notes when i was putting volume one on wattpad last week.
speaking of notes, here’s another drinking game: take a shot every time you read her author’s note and they’re like this. when i write author’s notes, i try to be fun and friendly because we’re all fans here, but istg, the last couple of times i poked my head into her fics out of morbid curiosity, i saw her author’s notes and they were... i want to say “businesslike”.
most recently, she hasn’t put any.
it’s like when you have that one mutual on here: you were friends at one point, and something happens, and they end up moving away from their original content, like they got involved in social justice or something, and they start getting hostile and belligerent about it, and they end up deviating away from the original purpose of social justice and turn into someone full of hate, the very thing they were initially up against, and they reach a crisis point where it completely breaks them, and they turn into hipster blogs who don’t bother tag anything or even talk anymore, and then at some point, they leave tumblr. (tells you how long i’ve been on here, too: i’ve actually watched blogs venture through that very pipeline, whereas it’s rare now).
but here, i’m trying really hard to understand her point, or why she’s so bent on making things difficult for me when she just winds up making things difficult for herself as well as everyone who follows her, but she can’t come out front like this. when this whole situation started, and then continued, i really was alone in the whole thing (another key trait that should tell you that i’m not the bully here as bullies usually travel in packs and their prey tend to be loners). some people who had blocked me lifted the barrier and i apologized to them straight up because i knew it was upsetting for them.
add to this, i had people left and right blocking me on the pretense of my supposedly running my mouth. incredibly petty and rude (unless someone’s opinion is actually hurting you, i can’t even tell you how messed up it is to block someone for being themselves: and at that point, it stops being opinion anyway) and it really gave me some insight into this new generation of tumblrs, many of whom are a lot like her: she happens to be a prototype of sorts, a codifier for what tumblr has become. but if there’s anything that this current tumblr is not, it’s that i know you guys don’t cheat.
as much as i dislike the ____ x reader trope and stranger things, the air of “oh my gosh, look what i found!” laced with captain obvious that’s in literally everything you guys do, and as much as i wish tiktok would just go away already, gen z and a lot of her readership do have a lot of charm to them because it comes down to ego.
the pen can’t be mightier than the sword if you let your ego get in the way. fic should be fun, it shouldn’t be about cancelling or getting all defensive when someone notices that you’re fucking up and wants you to stop but you instead double down and continue to do it and play possum afterwards at the expense of everyone in the room. karma is a bitch, man, and a bigger one than i ever will be.
what goes up must come down.
speaking of coming down, there’s...
there’s...
there’s...
*snicker* sorry.
ladies and gentlemen.
boys and girls.
everyone in between.
damen und herren.
madames et monsieurs.
the crown jewel.
the trinity test:
BIT HER BOTTOM
BIT
HER
BOTTOM
WHAT
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALEX
YOU’RE NOT HERE! YOU’RE NOT HERE!
A DIRTY WORD! HE SAID A DIRTY WORD!
WHAT IN GOD’S NAME HAVE YOU DONE
STICK YOUR ARM FOR SOME REAL FUN
SO YOUR SICKNESS WEIGHS A TON
AND GOD’S NAME HAS SMACK THE SUN!
U
G
L
Y
YOU UGLY
YOU, YOU UGLY
YOU UGLY
YOU, YOU UGLY
YOU AIN’T GOT NO ALIBI
YOU AIN’T GOT NO ALIBI
YOU AIN’T GOT NO ALIBI
YOU AIN’T GOT NO ALIBI
YOU UGLY
YOU, YOU UGLY
I AM NOW CHOPPING OFF PHYLLIS’ HEAD WITH A CHAINSAW
I SAID A BOOM-CHICK-A-BOOM!
I SAID A BOOM-CHICK-A-BOOM!
I SAID A BOOM-CHICK-A-ROCK-A-CHICK-A-ROCK-A-CHICK-A-BOOM!
IT IS OVER! IT IS ALL OVER!
FUCK
okay, never mind the image that just conjured up. it reminds me of that eminem song where he’s rapping in an eric cartman voice, and there’s a line where he goes: “that bitch can twist like a contortionist!”
she bit her bottom and ate her own shit 🤣
it’s like, “what do you want for lunch?”
“could you make me a sandwich?”
“sure!”
SPLAT.
oh, my god, i cannot think of a better allegory to her fics, like seriously. between the hyper obsession with ghoulish topics to the point of not doing them right (yeah, i don’t get it either) to the juvenile humor, it fits beautifully and perfectly.
i also feel like it’s foreshadowing like KARMA IS A BITCH, BABY! 😂😂😂
and that’s another thing that’s common in her fics, too, especially as of recently. she’ll omit words (which is a typo i’m often guilty of, this is getting weird) and she’ll put in a shitload of filler to pad out the word count and then shove it out the door so no one can question it.
it’s like she wants to... beat me to the punchline or something.
but guess fucking what?
i have the punchline now, hahahahaha!
god, that is a terrible error, and i cannot believe no one pointed it out, either. but i also can, though, because when i make an error like that, i usually notice after the fact or when i’m editing; the fact no one’s said anything after a month confirms she’s surrounded by yes men. or at the very least, people who don’t know, or don’t care, what a con job looks like (i’ll explain that in a second).
that’s right up there with “angry balls” from twilight (with apologies to stephenie meyer, of course).
and it doesn’t really matter at this point, but it came from this:
george: “you can’t break up with me! i had hand!”
AND YOU’RE GONNA NEED IT.
besides...
the only taut belt I ever want to think about
is his
yeah, i’d like to see him tighten that belt of his, making that little belly poke out even more and bring more attention to his crotch 👀 swish his long beautiful hair 👀👀👀
actually, all the testament guys can tighten their belts for me any time 😏
and joey, too! he likes his belts, too. the man whom she betrayed and left behind in the dirt along with pete apparently.
yeah, she threw not one, not two, but three subcultures, thrashers, grungers, and the goths, under the bus for quite literally no reason: she pretty much gave up anthrax fic after the incident with me and then her eddie vedder/grunge fic and her megadeth fic respectively in 2021, and her updates of like loving the dead since chapter 37 have been hollow and kind of boring, which tells me she’s not putting effort into them, and it’s weird because there are a few people who’ve bookmarked it saying it’s their dream peter fic. she left these fandoms, whole-ass subcultures, hanging for literally no reason other than to be petty and spiteful towards someone who stopped caring in january 2021.
what makes me different? very simple: i don’t cheat. i also genuinely like stuff.
i was thinking about this when i said it’s like she’s not even a fan of these things and she just writes because she thinks it’s what’s cool, too: she’s a grifter.
she doesn’t swindle people out of their money, sure, but her behavior is parasitic enough, though.
she writes fic that appeals to a wide array of people while she keeps a straight face on (”she’ll stab you in the back with a smile on her face”, if you will) and also leeches off them under the pretense of “don’t like, don’t read”, thereby abusing fandom rules and then the very second she comes across someone who doesn’t kiss her ass or is bit of a threat to her or better yet annoys her, she turns hostile, covers her ass and gaslights everyone, and drags everyone down with her, declaring it’s “because they made do it!”
lol, no. you chose to do it. i didn’t point a gun to your head and told you to ditch your fics: you did it because you have a victim complex and frankly, you suck at writing, too. there’s no money involved but you’re a grifter.
i pray for the mötley crüe fandom. really, take this from a girl who’s into alt rock and thrash and death metal, three genres that are notoriously the antitheses of glam: they don’t need the run-around like that, her building up a base only to watch her suddenly leave down the line because she can’t handle some girl being herself. instead of hitching up her bootstraps and accepting responsibility like any person with a spine and common sense, she plays the blame game and goes “look what she made me do”.
who the hell does she think she is, taylor swift? (say what you want about her, but at least taylor has the decency to learn from her mistakes and has a healthy sense of self-awareness. and she’s actually a nice person, too: regina george is more charming than the green druidess)
like i said, i’ve grown as a writer and a person. from the looks of it, the green druidess, formerly known as daveighmustaine, formerly known as fromthewasteland, has not one bit. the only thing that’s different is username and pettiness level.
by the way, alex likes to wear a lot of black and red (and green, oddly enough), too, so before i get called out for double standards: no, context is important.
and speaking of context, there’s also a line in this fic where nick runs his fingers down liz’s bare body to her (’scuse me) “abdomen” and she has a belly button piercing. it’s insufficient to say, but i feel like she had the hanukkah chapter of black moon open, too (fits the time frame: that was posted on the 18th and her fic on the 27th). and maybe disciples of the watch from eclipse, too, and blood & chocolate, and really anything i wrote that’s a bit sexual because i have a belly kink, specifically “little round bellies that look like they’d be fun to kiss, cuddle with, playfully poke, gently pat, tickle, admire from afar with the right fabrics and colors, and maybe fill them up until they’re very full and give them lots of gentle rubs”.
so, she not only copies from me, but she can’t even do kinks right.
how is that possible?
when you write kink, there’s this unspoken commitment behind it, like... you know. commit. shit or get off the pot.
dude, i have written bdsm scenes where they were enjoying themselves.
i wrote temperature play, and elemental play (pyrophilia and aquaphilia), and not once did i inject some painful bullshit.
and i thought we learned from 50 shades, too. there’s literally a right way to do it all and she isn’t doing it.
“it makes it more believable and enjoyable!” no, it doesn’t.
take this from a virgin: if you’re in pain while having sex, stop. extreme pain is not empowering or sexy: it’s quite the opposite. don’t keep going until one of you is crying and then you call the guy a fuckhead and he’s reveling in your verbal abuse. you’re treating not just him like shit, but yourself, too.
how do you people following her sleep at night knowing your precious fic writer, your “gorgeous queen”, is glorifying abuse across the board and is grifting everyone right in front of their faces, not once apologizing or being levelheaded about anything.
she has shown to me, since 2020, that she cannot handle people who are different. hell, it looks like she can’t even handle fandom, period, because i have seen, time and time again, people in fandom far worse than me and i can tell she’s not okay with it. always wanting more attention, more sympathy, just like ol’ tila nguyen who preceded her by 20 years.
i’m just... i’m gonna y’all this right now.
it’s only a matter of time before she says something really problematic, and she loses control of everything.
and you’re going to wish you believed me when it all first happened.
0 notes