#edgelord behavior. embarrassing

[scoutofmymind]

did u see the debate yesterday? i watched a bit but got stressed over all the shouting and interruptions lol ethan is clearly not okay 😭

THIS TikTok hits the nail on the head for like the entire fucking thing. Ethan was there to fuck around and try to “embarrass” Hasan with his billion year old edgelord behavior and in turn made himself look incredibly cringy. Hasan was there to debate facts and talk about Palestine.

His “… whaaaad??” Is so valid

[meatcute]

like i hate that edgelord behavior and attitudes are rewarded now and we see grown adults trying to be cool and edgy with their popular media published with serious establishments. not like im trying to pay any respect to companies but more that i typically consider publicly showing yourself as having a juvenile and unthoughtful attitude to be embarrassing. even if its not, like, randomly making light of serious tragedies, its still grown adults indulging themselves thinking theyre the funniest person in the room. im sorry but if you really want to publish your self indulgent masturbatory "masterpiece" then at least show some basic respect to the audience and make sure theres substance and thought..

[petruchio]

genuine question, what makes taylor embarrassing?

ill put it under a cut i guess but:

idk i guess for me it started mostly all the matty stuff. it was just pretty gross to me. (idc if he thinks he’s an edgelord and claims it’s being ironic and he’s ~actually~ a nice guy behind closed doors. to me it doesn’t matter, because at the end of the day he uses his position of extreme privilege to draw more attention to bigoted racist platforms and that in it of itself just isn’t excusable to me.) (wrt to taylor though, her digging her heels in when people objected to his behavior and pushing it HARD in the media right after leaving her ex… that was just cringey. like aside from the legitimate criticism of the man himself, it was just embarrassing and weird.) then releasing a song about all that that basically just says “you can’t tell me what to do” (admittedly a banger of a track imo but … insane take on that situation.) so all that, compounded with the private jet usage (flying to nyc for one weekend to do a pap walk during your cross country tour) and then responding to THAT criticism with “it’s ok because sometimes i let my famous friends borrow it actually” and then recently the constantly releasing variants and manipulating the charts to keep her album number one (who am i to deny a girlboss from exploiting a rigged system but it’s like … it’s embarrassing!!) idk like sure she can do whatever she wants but it’s just sort of embarrassing to watch for me as a fan. she doesn’t feel cool or aspirational or even nostalgic to me anymore. most of the time it makes me cringe. which is a shame bc i do think she’s talented as a musician and usually pretty good at being A Celebrity and honestly i do still really like a lot of her music. but i have a hard time w a lot of her public behavior since the start of eras.

[damnfandomproblems]

Fandom Problem #6485:

The Chipspeech fandom is so small (this fandom has like 14 people, tops) but it's got so much toxicity and drama crammed into it, entirely because of this one radical left-wing clique that's taken over the fandom. To be honest, the Chipspeech drama is some Mean Girls level stuff. Honestly the drama could fill a whole book, but here's the cliff notes:

Before I got into Chipspeech, I was going through my edgy phase and posted right wing political stuff just to piss people off. Everyone shunned me and called me a Nazi and worse. I got bitter and made extra edgy memes, made up headcanons specifically to offend people and talked about everyone who shunned me and said I wasn't welcome in Chipspeech. I realized though that I wasn't getting anywhere so I stopped talking about the clique and changed my mind over time and became a lot more politically moderate, and even apolitical. I lost my edge and became more peaceful and kind. I was all alone but eventually, likely due to losing my edgy persona, I made some friends and started a Chipspeech Discord server. Unfortunately, in spring of this year, things EXPLODED.

Their leaders (let's name them A and B) lashed out at me when I tried to make amends and call for peace, HARD. A left a scathing comment on my video open letter, and along with B, they lambasted me on Twitter. My friends came to my defense, but they were all subsequently blocked and also blasted for supporting me.

I was blamed for a post a (now former) friend made bullying A, but nobody believed that I had been framed and they still think I made those posts no matter how hard I tried to prove my innocence, even though my other friends and I called the real poster out on her behavior and demanded she apologize.

I joined another general TTS server run by another clique member, whom I'll call C. C would run interference for A and B and heavily police my language, and even forced me into a political discussion, trying to make me say that I agreed with her on something even though I was extremely uncomfortable. I ended up in a voice call with A, B and C and I had a lot of fun talking to them and sharing memes. But later A revealed they were pretending to have fun and chastised me for "sucking up to them like nothing happened". I later found out C was screenshotting my messages to her and sending them to A and B, which led to me cutting C off.

These people are so vicious they excluded a person who made a Chipspeech recommendations blog just because he recommended a song my friend and I made.

And this heavy gatekeeping and "one strike and you get the death penalty" mentality in the fandom has scared at least 5 people away from Chipspeech entirely and prevented numerous others from ever giving Chipspeech a chance. People who like Plogue's other software products (Plogue being the Chipspeech developers) are HORRIFIED by the clique and believe that the Chipspeech fanbase is an embarrassing stain on Plogue's reputation.

The clique is actively killing the Chipspeech fandom, which was already a struggling, fledgling fanbase, but they don't care. To them, it's worth all the bloodshed and pain to keep out the people they deem as "irredeemable Nazis" even though nobody here was ever a Nazi to begin with and I've become a completely different person from the edgelord they rallied against.

I just wish some more people would get into Chipspeech, refuse to bend to the clique's will and not participate in the drama, and just vibe and prove that Chipspeech can't be killed.

[hprambles-blog]

"I can't stand people calling JKR sexist for mocking "feminine" women. Femininity isn't inherent to being a woman and I'm sorry but that stereotype of femininity many women emulate deserves to be mocked."

Being emotional deserves to be mocked? You are talking like a toxic man. Are you one, perhaps? And are you aware that this emotional portrayal is only considered feminine and bad because men and society gave it such weight? But what is bad about being joyful? What is bad about gossiping or screaming from happiness and excitement? Are you an edgelord?

"Being a giggling squeaky shrieky bimbo isn't in any way respectable and it's quite gross actually. Very unappealing and unattractive."

Not every emotional behavior is supposed to be attractive, especially to some random loser like you. "Bimbo" is a female, sexist stereotype that overexaggerates women's behavior into a caricature to mock them and make them feel ashamed. Fuck off.

"I'm not talking about feminine presentation as that's a completely different thing but behavior. You can be feminine in appearance while not acting like a dumb bimbo."

Lavender isn’t dumb for having a crush or being emotional, nor is Parvati or any other feminine, emotional girl. Again, fuck off.

"Fleur is a great example. The Lavender type girls are annoying in fiction as well as real life, the type of girls who infantililize themselves and dumb themselves down for male attention."

Sure, that's a good critique of how women are conditioned to appease men, you could have made it without all the misogyny.

"Irony is not even men truly like these kind of girls and they're always treated as jokes. Very realistic portrayal of this kind of girlishness."

Have nothing else to say to this embarrassing, pseudo-intellectual dumbassery, really.

🐬

[thebanishedreader]

Ongoing Book Review: Dead Inside (Chandler Morrison) Pt. 1

I take way too long to finish books since I read like 7 at a time, so I have decided to start posting my thoughts and reviews as I go along. Also, that way I can actually commit to posting these reviews once I finish the book, which is yet another thing the commitment devils have kept me from accomplishing.

Anyhow, though, here we go: the first ongoing review will cover what I have read so far of Dead Inside by Chandler Morrison.

(CW: mentions of necrophilia, cannibalism, and sex. NSFW I guess).

Description by Seller (amazon.com): "A young hospital security guard with a disturbingly unique taste in women. A maternity doctor with a horrifically unusual appetite. When the two of them meet, they embark on a journey of self-discovery while shattering societal norms and engaging in destructively aberrant behavior. As they unwittingly help each other understand a world in which neither seems to belong, they begin to realize what it truly means to be alive... And that it might not always be a good thing."

Here I am, 15% through the book. I know it's not far, but honestly, it's far enough. All I have to say is-- wow. Wow.

This book kinda sucks. Just an all-around drag. A bore, but not the pleasant boring drawl of a lecturer putting you to sleep. The harrowing, suffocating boredom of having to work a shift with that coworker that you hate, that makes you cringe so hard that it's not even entertaining to hate them anymore. Get me out of here. That's how this book feels.

For a book constantly boasting how readers say it's "not for the faint of heart," it's surprisingly underwhelming. I'm frankly disappointed, and yet this book keeps embarrassing itself so much within only 15% that I can't even be angry at myself for falling into its trap.

My reasoning falls into 3 categories: Let-Down, Cringe, and Excuses.

First things first - I was expecting something raunchy, something gruesome and disturbing. I'm not one of those people who shies away from Dead Dove content, far from it. I love that shit. Literature is a place to explore the dangerous, the taboo, the fucked up-ness of being a person. So, finding a book that pledged it was disgusting, disturbing, and medically horrifying? Sign me up. This book is... not that.

What was promised to be a horror novel that pushes the boundaries of what is too much horror, what toes the line between gratuitous and entertaining, this novel relies on one thing: shock value. And the biggest bummer for that tactic is this: if your audience is not shocked, then there is nothing left supporting the narrative.

Dead Inside relies entirely on the audience not being familiar with horror stories or even true crime stories involving necrophilia or cannibalism. The concept of a perverted security guard using his power to violate corpses is supposed to be mortifying, unbelievably despicable. Yet for a seasoned horror fan, it's nothing short of lame. Juvenile, almost. There is hardly any risk when our security guard goes into a morgue which he holds the key to, wherein there are no security cameras, where he can do whatever he pleases, lay on the floor afterwards, and go back to work-- in a tiny, unbusy hospital. It's boring, it's lame, who gives a shit if this weirdo gets his rocks off in weird ways; it's horrible to think of it happening in real life to the body of a loved one, certainly, but this is horror literature. Stephen King would have had worms crawling up the dude's dick and blossoming into a parasite that whispers in his ear until he castrates himself. Chandler Morrison just has our (I hate to even call him this) protagonist fuck a corpse. Cool, I guess.

2. Number Two. Let's talk Cringe Factor.

This narrator is unbearable. Unbearable. He sounds like the stereotype of a discord edgelord who is narrating this book with the sole purpose of scaring off the normies. He relishes in saying gross things, being gross, all while acting as if he is so much more sophisticated than he is.

It doesn't help that the book is narrated in first person. This goes back to how I described the experience of reading Dead Inside to be equivalent to working a shift with a coworker that is very much not your friend who disrespects you the same way a friend would tease. It's just plain oblivious. Our necrophiliac incel narrator is the epitome of the Riverdale meme where Jughead says "I'm weird. I'm a weirdo. I don't fit in. And I don't want to fit in." Like, Christ man, we get it, you don't shower and your hair is greasy and people don't want to be around you not because you're "weird", but because you're inconsiderate and unhygienic and put 0 effort into anything whatsoever. Having to listen to the narrator's commentary on how he's aware how disturbing his own actions are, how he knows the ordinary person would see him as a freak, it's just so lame. That's the only word I have for it, really. Just completely and utterly lame. This novel reads with the same tone as a Reddit incel jerk-off posting about Elliot Rodger. It's just pathetic, but there's no pity there. It's entirely self-induced patheticness that the narrator excuses as being "unique."

It's fine to have characters in books that are frustrating, irritating, that make you just want to smack them upside the head for yapping too long. But it's never a good sign when the person I want most desperately to shut the fuck up is the narrator. It's not good writing if my method of making the narrator quit talking is closing the book and contemplating whether or not it's even worth finishing. Extraordinarily poor quality character. But it's not intentional - we are supposed to find this character disturbing, threatening, and eerily fucked up. We're supposed to wonder why he got this way, and what it will take to break him. We are supposed to hate him, and relish in his demise. I feel nothing but exasperation from this man. The simplest way to resolve my hatred for him is to close the book and put it away. I don't give a fuck what happens to him. I don't think he even deserves my attention, and he's the narrator. This is bad.

3. And finally. Excuses.

This complaint is a short, but prudent one. The writing quality is mediocre at best. One of the biggest rules of any creative work, but particularly writing, art, and filmmaking, is that your audience is smarter than you think. Leave things open for interpretation. Leave opportunity for ponderance, and analysis. Show, don't tell.

Dead Inside is all tell, with nothing to show. Our narrator is a loser, but Morrison doesn't let us own it. Instead, excuses are made; the most infuriating example of this is after our narrator has finished fornicating with a poor, lifeless victim. The section goes:

"... but my lovers are all equipped with the best birth control the world can offer. As in, dead reproductive systems. I know that goes without saying, but I like to say it." (p. 21)

If it goes without saying, then don't say it. The segment would have been entirely fine without that last remark; if anything, it would have been better, and bolstered the narrator's character as a whole! And this is only one of the outright examples I have of this characterization.

The bitter, dark humor of our narrator would have been brilliantly given if the quote ended at "dead reproductive systems." We would have been left with the pure objectification and lack of emotion our narrator possesses, how he sees dead bodies purely as anatomical tools for his own peak control and pleasure, his own performance. We as the audience would have been victims of him as well, subjected to listen to the gross things he says and does and entirely unable to resist it-- pure puppets for his sick fantasies, just like the corpses he violates. It would have illustrated an actual level of mystique and unsettling nature to the relationship between narrator and narrated and audience. The novel's ongoing themes of fetish and object, the definitions of violation, it all would have been so interesting if only the narrator didn't say something so juvenilely self-aware every five seconds, like he's vying for our attention and approval. Look!!, Morrison makes our narrator constantly wave his hands in our face like a child, Look!! Isn't that fucked up!! Look at how fucked up I can be! Tell me I'm gross, tell me I'm weird!! Look at how gross that is, right!! That's scary, right??

No. It's annoying, and it gets old before it even got a chance to start.

Again, I'm 25 pages into a 191 page book. It's mid as fuck. I hope it turns around, but I don't think it will-- I can see from only 15% where this story is going, I bet I can plot out most if not the entire rest of the book. I think the concept is one spooky "what-if" that goes no deeper than that. Honestly, I'm really disappointed. I wanted to be disturbed. I don't have much motivation to keep reading this book except the pervasive nagging of my soul to finish most books I pick up. Plus, I want to know if I'm wrong about how dog this has so far turned out to be.

If you made it this far, holy shit. Congrats. You're running the Athens marathon by reading this. You're amazing. I'm giving you a small kiss on the forehead.

[radio-charlie]

Our Prime Minister did us a solid and declared Monday a public holiday, since our Independence Day (not for Sabah, Sarawak and the Peninsula, just Sabah and Peninsula) fell on a Saturday this year. I'm happy for the people who'll be getting much-needed time off to spend with whoever they like, but am dreading a bit the third crowded day in a row.

Some things happened at work today that were not completely my fault but there's no point in explaining when people cannot even understand what you're saying. As long as there aren't weird grudges and my pay isn't docked over nothing, it's fine.

I remember my teens reading assorted mainstream edgelord blogs and sites on the Anglophone internet. It was just a thing for grown men to go around ranting about how much they hated kids and babies and how they'd be willing to beat the shit out of a baby for screaming in the cinema. Not saying everything they said was fine lol - this was the Maddox heyday so, the whole point was saying things that were considered not fine by civil society. But they didn't get people trying to make them unemployed and homeless and filling every inbox of theirs with death threats lol. Quite a few people told them they were awesome for Being So Real.

And nowadays some unpleasant-ish adult vagina-haver says they find screaming kids in public places irritating, and everyone's overcome with conniptions about the Emerging Nitpicker Female Sociopathy Problem. Who knows if this he/she/they has literal bodies hidden underneath the floorboards. Maybe super rich and needs to go everywhere in a private jet. Only evil people ever, ever, ever, ever find kids' behavior in public irritating and off-putting. Not, you know, guys like the abovementioned talking about how they'd use your newborn as a doorstop. Just a vagina saying kids are annoying.

So horrible. :(

The nation-state needs that category of people mindful, demure and devoted to breeding and nurturing new generations of organically-grown human beings. So that China/Russia/Japan/the entirety of the Middle East/Jews don't win.

Watching you all fall for this shit over and over again because you are yourself a total misogynist is so embarrassing lol.

All this is to say that kids eating with their families in our restaurant is fine but can you please teach your little retard to eat like its human. It's not "normal kid behaviour" to get random noodles and beans and rice all over the floor. I and the other kids in my family didn't eat like that. My friends did not eat like that. Your kid's an idiot because you have raised it to be an idiot. Sorry if teaching it to keep shit on the table is abusive.

[confessions-official]

I have a kind of imaginary friend as an adult. It’s embarrassing to admit. I started having dreams about this person years ago in 2017. They don’t look anything like anyone I’ve met irl which is weird bc they say our brains can’t create new faces and anyone we see in a dream is based off someone we’ve already seen.

He has very long dark brown hair that falls in his face, is kind of pale, a short but lanky-looking wiry body, a very angular face and green eyes that look amber in some lights. He looks to be somewhere between his late 20s and mid 30s in age. On the surface he has a bit of an intimidating aura and acts like an edgelord to be funny but is actually a very mellow, quiet, gentle person. He’s the only person who has never lost his patience and blown up at me for being stupid. I can’t expect that kind of behavior from a real person.

What’s weird is how much his personality developed on its own. When I have dreams about him it’s like I’m talking to an actual person and not a random thing my mind cobbled together. He seems so human and real but obviously can’t be because he doesn’t loose his temper or become cold and aloof with me due to being off-put by me being high strung, accident prone and extraordinarily having extraordinarily low intelligence the way a real person would. Everyone has their limits, especially when it comes to dealing with my existence, but he doesn’t seem to.

Sometimes I feel like I can sense him around me or something. What’s super crazy is sometimes other people I know irl say they sense him too. People say they sense a protective presence around me. One person, a former roommate of mine who was really nasty to me actually had dreams about someone matching his description warning her not to mess with me again. She was the only person who knew anything about him had no idea what he looked like, but described him 100%. My old roommate was Catholic and convinced he was a manifestation of Satan🤣.

I think that’s bullshit because it’s just my imagination playing tricks and a few weird coincidences. I wish she was a real person tho.

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[primalspice]

aspen: A3, A6, A18, B7, B10, B16, C8, D3, E8, F1, F5, F11, G6, H3, H7, I1, I4, J3, L1

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A3: Do they have any emotional or psychological conditions? Are they aware of it? Do they try to treat it? 

Shes got bpd genuinely and probably also depression. I think she's in denial about it apart from knowing that she feels so intensely full of anger or full of nothing every single day. Considers herself a Tortured Artist instead and tries to embrace that lifestyle instead of like. seeking therapy.

A6: Does your OC tend to assume their interpretation of events and reality is correct, or do they question it? I.e., “I’m sure that’s what you said” versus “It’s possible I misheard you.”

I think it fully depends on the people involved/situation but she is quick to jump to conclusions like that yea. and react readily and accordingly <3

A18: Do they get jealous easily? Do they feel bad if they do?

yea sorry its the Disorder. I think it depends a lot on the scenario again, but the result is usually rage or retreating and punching self to death for being undeserving of whatever she feels is being taken from her or Both.

B7: How do they respond to babies crying in public?

B10: Does your OC find any “bad” or “mean” humor funny? Do they wish they didn’t?

Yea she's an edgelord and will be the one to take the joke way too far to the point that it kinda just makes everyone uncomfortable. Which makes her sad and cringe but she got to laugh at least <3

B16: Does your OC like to be the center of attention or more in the mix?

Being the center of attention feels GREAT to her until she gets a moment to herself and thinks about how HUMILIATING it was. Very fragile balance here.

C8: Is your OC more practical or ideal morally? I.e., do they hold people to high expectations of behavior even if it’s not realistic for the situation, or do they have a more realistic approach and adapt their morality to be more practical?

Unless you've reached idealization status with her like Vic has I think she tends to expect the worst of people generally. But she WILL take it personally 90% of the time. I guess that kind of assumption is also impractical though, in a way.

D3: How comfortable are they with the idea of death?

As much as she seems like she yearns for it I think it just scares her. Too many uncertainties that come with real dying. I don't think she really wants to die she just wants to not feel like she has to. Hoping to take a few notes from Bruno in that area. If she can't die maybe whatever he's doing is the next best thing. Because cutting like some emo poser is NOT cutting it.

E8: What’s one of your OC’s biggest regrets?

I think she's yet to do anything really worth regretting.....SO FAR :3 But think she has plenty of smaller regrets and embarrassments. She's fucked up a lot of friendships due to her sensitive and vindictive nature.

F1: What sort of home do they live in now, if at all? How did they end up there?

She lives by herself in an apartment just off campus thanks to her parents' funding, and she lived with her parents before that in a pretty nice Vegas suburb. She doesn't want to be indebted to her parents like that since their relationship Isn't Great, and is hoping to just finish her degree to appease them and have enough money to take off on her own.

F5: How handy are they? Can they fix appliances, cars, cabinets, et cetera?

Not very handy for appliances and household items and such (kinda just... buys new things as she needs them bcz shes too scared to ask for help. poor financial choices), but she's decent with computers if that counts.

F11: What are some of their favorite things to do for recreation? How did they get into it? What part of it do they like the most?

If singing in the band/writing lyrics counts as recreation, that's really her main thing currently. She'd always written lyrics/poetry since her teen years as a Sad Girl and sang casually, but she only got into bands once she moved onto campus and latched onto Vic (and her band) kinda as a groupie LOLL. Conveniently enough they ended up needing a singer and she auditioned <3 She enjoys it because it's a set group of 'friends' who have too many strings attached (band responsibilities) to leave her on a whim LOL. And she enjoys being with Vic and being able to collaborate creatively and not feel really embarrassed about it for once in her life. She likes that its ok to be 'intense' as a performer. Many things to enjoy. She really is kinda made for it, but no one is ready for her crazy ass.

G6: Do they have any favorite childhood memories?

I don't think she looks back on a ton too fondly but she did get to see a lot of her fav bands as a kid.

H3: Does your OC believe there’s only one ideal partner (or multiple ideal if not monogamous) for everyone, or that there are many people who could be right?

I don't think she has much of a theory on it, but I think she's too jealous and dedicated of a person for the multi-soulmate theory. So at least for HERSELF it's just one. This will surely not lead to heartbreak.

H7: What do they look for in partners? (Emotionally, mentally, physically..)

I1: What are their favorite kinds of flavors– Sweet, salty, sour, spicy, creamy, et cetera?

Eats spicy food even though it hurts her. I think in her heart she is a sweets and desserts enjoyer tho.

I4: How often do they cook? Do they order out a lot?

Orders pizza from Vic whenever shes working <3 and orders fast food a lot in general bcz her parents allowance and also her schedule is so irregular and she doesn't ever feel like cooking by time she realizes shes hungry. needs to get it TOGETHER.

J3: How politically active are they?

Not Extremely, but she's at least aware of the more major things. Votes when she remembers to. Listens to Rise Against and says so true.

L1: How have your characters changed since you created them?

idk she's only existed for like a month but I'm sure things will continue to develop. She's much more explosive than I ever could've imagined. I also imagined her relationship with Bruno would not be as involved as im currently thinking it will be.

[yuri-alexseygaybitch]

No amount of fedora and trenchcoat "I was studying the blade" Redditor edgelord behavior will ever come close to being as cringe and pathetic as a burned out ex-Bernie voter with a podcast who thinks hating trans people (ironically tho) gives them cool kid points. You're the "socialist" equivalent of Shadow the Hedgehog. Embarrassing fucking behavior.

There's nobody I respect less than irony-poisoned "leftists" who think being bigoted and just generally rude and unpleasant is cool/funny. Utterly useless people.

[gncrevan]

i decided not to engage & instead block op for my own sanity, but this is still a bad fucking take.

1. i actually know what person they are referring to and i have seen the horrible bullying and ableism with which they were treated on tiktok, so i literally don't care if they're fake or not, it was bad, they're a teenager and deserve to be defended from adults and peers leading a harassment campaign.

2. ppl online often exaggerate or confabulate, that doesn't mean they don't have a condition. there is a fucking incentive for ppl to play up or even lie about their symptoms online due to how social media works. that doesn't mean they don't still have a disorder, you don't know them personally, you're not their doctor. you can't dx someone over the internet.

3. fakeclaiming always harms disabled & mentally ill ppl. faking a disorder or disability is very rare, but almost every disabled person who talks about their condition gets accused of it. hell, especially when it's about DID. all the DID youtubers i know of have been accused of faking. i haven't met a single disabled person who hasn't been accused of faking or at least exaggerating their symptoms. compiling "masterdocs" to "prove" that someone is faking feeds into harmful ableist stereotypes, plus it's just plain weird and creepy. why are y'all so fucking obsessed with surveillance and online vigilantism, don't you have any hobbies??

4. everybody deserves to be treated with empathy and respect, especially when they're not harming anyone but themselves. it's one thing to "bully" a nazi off a platform (it's not real bullying lol i just don't know what word to use), that's just basic community safety, but a teenager who's only being cringe and maybe perpetuating some comparably harmless misinfo? what the absolute fuck. also, idk, if someone tells you they have a disorder, you don't have to believe them, but it costs exactly zero dollars to leave them alone if you don't. and if your argument is "they're clearly trolling", ok, all the more reason to leave them the fuck alone.

5. yeah, a lot of ppl don't understand psychosis, or delusions, or factitious disorder. and some use these terms incorrectly. doesn't change the fact that it's the kind, morally correct, and statistically supported thing to engage with someone who claims to have a disorder on the assumption that they do have a disorder, whether this one or a different one. if someone claims to have EHS, i know that they don't because it's pseudoscientific nonsense, but that doesn't mean they don't have an illness they are suffering from, and assuming they're a faker or a hypochondriac literally doesn't help anyone. it's frankly childish to call those who attempt to engage in good faith "dumb as fuck" just cause you don't want to have empathy with someone you have deemed a bad person.

[shedidntevenswear]

Middle aged guy here...I used to say I spoke sarcasm and make dumb edgy jokes and see how shocking I could be. But then female friends of mine started to tell me how stupid I sounded and embarrassing I was so I stopped, now I'm deeply embarrassed over my past self and behavior and not sure if this Matty clown thinks he's some groundbreaking artist acting this way but he's just one of many faceless edgelords who have already gone before him with "school of hard knocks" in their FB bio

i am YODELING this is the best thing a man has ever said to me hahahaha thank you.

and not that i have any authority over your life but this is me giving you permission to not be so embarrassed about your past because its actually really impressive that you (1) listened to women around you and (2) had the humility to make material changes based on their feedback. a loooooooooot of men cannot seem to manage step #1.

[spacedreamerz]

Wade Martin Headcanons!

Wade is a huge heavy metal, rock, nu metal, and hip-hop fan.

He’s really moody.

You know for a fact he wears tons of band tees.

He’s thinking about getting a nose ring and industrial piercings but he’s scared to. (not that he’ll ever admit that)

Wade loves watching Jackass. That show makes him laugh so damn hard.

He’s a bit of an edgelord. 

He is addicted to sodas. Especially Pepsi.

He and his dad always have intense arguments whenever Wade’s staying with him. 

When angry, Wade gets a knife (or any sharp, durable object) and just stabs into things (NOT PEOPLE) while shouting profanities.

He has a bit of a fascination with fire. He keeps a lighter on him in case he sees something he wants to light up.

He also smokes.

He loves video games. Especially fighter and first-person shooter games.

He definitely trash-talks people in video games whenever he has a mic. 

He often rage-quits games.

He’s already broken about 6 controllers throughout his life.

Wade has a drum set that he plays.

He’s learning how to play the electric guitar.

Wade has a pet snake named Blade. Blade is a Boa Constrictor.

He loves scaring Trent with Blade. 

Wade used to play baseball when he was younger. He has one hell of an aim. 

He got kicked off his old baseball team for fighting rival team members.

Wade’s really aggressive whenever provoked.

Wade has dyslexia. None of his friends know though. He’s really embarrassed about it.

Wade has the see the school counselor about 3 times a week. 

He has low self-esteem.

Though Wade hates going to his dad’s house, he gets more freedom over there than with his mom. His mother makes him do chores and homework which he hates.

Wade indulges in some self-injurious behavior whenever enraged. His friends really have to watch him whenever he’s like that so he doesn’t hurt himself too badly.

Wade likes watching Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Beavis and Butthead, and Robot Chicken.

He pranks his friends a lot.

Wade loves a good game of dodgeball.

His dad verbally abuses him a lot which is one of the main reasons Wade has such low self-esteem. It doesn’t turn physical unless his dad is really drunk though. 

Christy is his sister. She really annoys him a lot, but he’s very protective of her. 

His dad doesn’t target Christy as much as he does Wade. He’s mostly nice to her in fact. That drives Wade crazy. He doesn’t understand why his dad’s so mean to him in particular. 

He loves walking at night time. Walking under streetlights while listening to his fav song is such a vibe to him. 

[thestarryeyedsapphic]

tlc character cringe compilation

tis jokes. i am day drunk. i belong on this list for that alone.

cinder: her kissing kai at the ball and announcing their love in front of everyone. no choice but to cringe from secondhand embarrassment.

kai: winter kisses his cheek and all he could think about was making cinder jealous. kind of whore behavior tbh. cringe.

scarlet: ‘alpha female’ headass. girly got ‘alpha’ embroidered onto her wedding dress. girly said alpha in her wedding vows. this one was too easy.

wolf: once again—alpha headass. my guy GROWLS. furry on main. not his fault but cringe.

cress: girly SQUEAKS. “only one bed” fangirl personified. need i say more?

thorne: underage girlfriend. manwhore. slutty behavior on main. ONCE AGAIN—need i say more?

winter: she gets a pass bc #mental illness but girly was howling in public,,,cringe me thinks

jacin: betrayed the squad and called someone who game-overed cowardly. resident edgelord. undeniable cringe behavior.

iko: violently uncanny valley. far too human. personally, quite cringe.

kinney: he’s dating an escort bot. that’s all folks.

[2n2n]

just rambling a little about the living Yugi Amane we see. But as there’s mentions of abuse and dynamics of that nature, some real world embellishments, I’ll place it beneath a cut. Thinking mostly about how a situation like Amane’s may have been perceived externally.

my personal current interpretation of the living Amane, is that he was isolated easily. Culturally, that’s not hard to do. We know he skips class, has no friends, and easily snaps at his teacher with rude language.... coming to class covered in wounds, you'd think people would sympathize, but maybe not, if Amane is so standoffish, aloof, distant/rude... he may have just come off as a delinquent. He may have appeared embarrassing, and at his age, chuuni (tryhard/edgelord). 

Peers and fellow teachers may have just not been sympathetic to that, or may have sooner been sympathetic to his parents for having to 'deal with' such a troublesome/problem child.... (as well, corporal punishment from teachers was a problem in Japan, I’ve heard older Japanese people describe) .... there may have even been a sense of, "he's such a problem, he must be picking fights/asking for trouble/being beaten as a lesson...". I’ll be honest-- in normal society, much less in the 50s, people are typically keen to just assume harm is deserved (in families with ‘favorite’ children, often the children themselves internally justify why attention/harm is disproportionate-- people don’t LIKE to conclude abuse, they WANT to rationalize something as 'justified’... be they victims themselves, or otherwise. People do not like to imagine senseless cruelty.).

If he wants the situation between himself/Tsukasa to be left alone, if he doesn't want interference, then fostering this image and playing into these expectations could be intentional. People will stay out of your business and make assumptions, if you seem shitty and rude. “Well, he is shitty, so....”

It may have been less "that poor kid" and more "what an eyesore, what a problem".... if it was more meddlesome and annoying to have strangers asking about his bruises and cuts, then it behooves Amane to be aloof and abrasive, until people leave him alone. Hanako as it is calls Kou simply 'kid', a rude and distant way of referring to someone you ought to know the name of and care to address personally..... If he was even a fraction as rude then, as he is now.... he would not be seen favorably. People would be much more inclined to conclude he's doing something to intentionally incur damage... especially if it continues endlessly, day after day. At that point, they think “well, it has to be something he’s doing....”

What would Amane at that time be like, paired with another kid for a project, or in gym? Probably not so polite or responsive. If nobody at your school has a single good thing to say about you, it’s inevitable they’ll instead concur on your shittiness. Just like all the mysteries in the school feel about Hanako, now. 

The Amane we see at Tanabata is mmmostly polite (he’s a little bit smarmy and overconfident with an older girl, hhhshshshsh), uses honorifics, is amicable to a pretty stranger. Maybe the rude and abrasive behavior we see in Hanako was formed as the grim circumstances set in, and Amane remains attached to this .... dynamic with others, where he’s seen and discussed unfavorably, for some reason. 

But you know, he’s very determined to keep people from asking him questions or bothering him about his feelings on anything, so it really is convenient to foster a reputation and image where nobody would even want to talk to you, because you seem so unbearably shitty. If you act badly enough, it’s more like.... “I don’t even want to know what your deal is.”

[hueningkoi]

In honor of Murdy's first birthday tomorrow I'm gonna info dump about my oc's. Yolo. Long post ahead lol feel free to scroll past 😅

Oldest sibling on the left is 31 yr old Murdy Pine of course they are a lil wild card energetic and obnoxious pansexual nonbinary he/they and acts like the youngest. Gets into A LOT of trouble. Always seems to have new clothes and buys people things for them but neither Zed or Mo have any idea what Murdy does for a living. He disappears a lot and comes back suspiciously overly cheerful. Has a concerning neck scar and missing part of his left ear and they come up with a different ridiculous story about what happened everytime it comes up. The last story he told he said he he lost his ear during a poker game with one of the k*ardashian's bodyguards. Murdy got "caught cheating" and the guy lost it and "went all mike tyson on my ass." No one believes them.

Murdy's younger brother is Zed Pine in the pic in the middle. He is an Edgelord. Angsty little 26 yr old. He is really athletic and loves to play sports but he is also not social or extroverted at all but for some reason attracts jocky social butterfly dude bros all the time? He goes to the gym and everyone there loves him even tho he barely says anything to them? He has been adopted by his entire local gym and he doesnt know what to do about it Murdy help him please. He also is an insomniac and seems like he never sleeps and is a long suffering younger brother to a ball of chaos named Murdy Pine. He's also asexual or demisexual he doesn't know all he knows is he can't be bothered with all that but sometimes the guys at the gym look sorta nice to him physically? Maybe? Meh. Whatever. *pulls his pokemon game out and ignores you*

Mo Pine in the drawing on the right is their younger cousin she's 17 and she tries hard to be a tough person but is such a cinnamon roll underneath. She is like Murdy and Zeds unnofficial little sister even though she's always the one telling Murdy to drink some freakin water and Zed to go THE HELL TO SLEEP Or she'll kick their asses which they know she never will because she learned that she can't throw a punch to save her life. She's not allowed to cook because she'll set the kitchen on fire. She is clumsy on her feet and can and will trip and fall on literally nothing. The ground loves her. She's tired of skinning her hands from falling so. The gloves. Also she's probably not gay right? Murdy always makes hints about it and she's not dumb she knows what they are getting at but like... Yesterday this girl at the Cafe winked at her and Mo ran into a table and knocked the napkin dispenser off and she was so embarrassed she couldn't look at cafe girl but thats just probably because she's clumsy and embarassed herself and not because that girl had the cutest freckles and made her stomach flip and... well it's whatever.

They all are very close and would die for each other but they all also bug each other so much and would not hesitate to tackle one another to the ground at a moments notice. Classic sibling behavior. Mo and Zed think Murdy is secretly an assassin or a spy or something and they get together once a week and play videos games and talk about what the hell Murdy DOES for a living. There is a folder they've been filling up. It's their project.

Murdy likes to plan surprise birthday parties for Mo and Zed at the most batshit times of the year no where NEAR thier birthdays and even if it's weird and out of nowhere they are always THE BEST PARTIES EVER.

A classmate made fun of Mo for falling going up the stairs at her school and she acted like it didn't hurt her feelings but it did and Murdy was furious. The next day the stairs were missing like completely torn out and the girl who made fun of her was hysterical saying that there was an entire giant pile of destroyed crumbled cement in her living room this morning and her parents were furious and confused and called the police but no one knows how it got there at all still and the school is working on fixing the stairs immediately because they also got an anonymous envelope with a pineapple sticker on it with a donation of money to fix the stairs and a note that said "sorry got a little upset and carried away. Kowabunga brother." Mo is very confused but it kind of made her day.