#enby ed

[cats-healing-diary]

My coping mechanism last year was excessive exercise and losing an dangerously large amount of weight

this year it’s planing my funeral and relapsing in s3lfharm. I don’t get better, I just choose a different thing to destroy mys3lf.

[dxmb-xxarr]

Things have still been rough but getting better?? I went longboarding today which was really nice 🍂 been trying harder to eat bc I’ve been feeling really sick and weak lately. I feel guilty for eating and I hate it. I hate the constant battle and anxiety. I wish I never had to eat again. I don’t like food and I don’t like eating. Trying to fix my mindset and relationship with eating and food but it’s hard. This shit sucks so much ‼️‼️

[cats-healing-diary]

My mom is always the victim. Thr victim of my depression. Thr victim of her anger. The victim of my suicide attempt. The victim of thr World. She is the victim from her on actions and my response. I know that her life is hard, but that doesn't make her always the victim and me the villain. I hate her

[cats-healing-diary]

I’m not even trying anymore at this point. Wanna leave me? Okay i don’t give a fuvk. Wanna hurt me? I don’t feel anything anymore so okay. Wanna talk shit about me? Do that, you can’t say anything that’s worse than what I already think about myself. I don’t care about anything anymore.

[dxmb-xxarr]

Spooky season 🍂

I’ve lost around ten pounds in the last 4 months because my anxiety and life are SHIT. I can’t eat when my anxiety is awful. I don’t want to eat and it’s hard to want to live. Shit is rough rn.

[cats-healing-diary]

I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin.

[thesystemcircus]

This makes absolutely no sense but also perfect sense

my pronouns are soft jingling laughter of unknown origin/the screeching of a banshee