#enough making myself upset for the day

[koomaqu]

I'm so freaking tired of female beauty standards and the UTTER IDIOCY of people who have the audacity to leave comments under body positivity content that are along the lines of "omg this is disgusting, I could never... But you do you!" like it's a fucking compliment and not absolutely deranged. You're all fucking sick in the head, imposing artificial standards onto others with such viciousness, yet seemingly oblivious to the active harm you're doing.

Interestingly, I've seen the same thing happen in the barefoot shoes discourse, in regards to how natural feet look like. It's shocking how many people are there spamming vomit emojis and confidently saying they'd pick deformed feet over "disgusting" natural feet ????? After seeing that I have no words. If some people consciously deform their body parts because they deem the natural state this unbearably disgusting, there's no hope for accepting body hair. It's genuinely sickening.

[bellamyblakru]

i will never understand how some people can actively shit on something they know someone loves and finds joy in right in front of them. how can you hate something that makes someone else happy in this absolutely fucked world in front of them.

its the passive aggression for no reason i will never ever understand or do to others. if you have a passion, fucking LIVE it. if nothing else, passion gets us through every shitty day, and i will always support it.

have passion in spite of those who hate.

[faaun]

the forest looks like heaven today i woke up feeling the heaviest weight at the top of my heart

[snickerdoodlles]

there's a lot of things people blame for why fandoms feel like ghost towns these days, but no one's really talked about the way discord's contributing to it

[moe-broey]

Fuck it my brain feels super clogged so I'm posting my agenda with little to no context + one doodle idk if I'll color but I kinda want to but I kinda don't LMFAO

(wips I'm hoping to return to ect ect, just a few snippets from a larger Thing)

[beck-a-leck]

One would think that being unemployed for months and not having to wake up with an alarm and therefore getting to sleep as much as a body needed each night would eventually even out to a nice, consistent schedule. Getting the 7-9 hours of sleep the body needs each night. Feeling sleepy at the same time, not racking up sleep debt and throwing everything out of whack with the debt-collection sleep that's 12 hours long.

But no.

Not for me at least.

Turns out if I consistently get enough sleep every night my body reaches a point every few months of "We've had too much sleep so now we'll have No Sleep for a week or so to balance things out."

I mean. I've always had the ADHD trouble with a sleep schedule. Natural night owl. Can't keep a consistent bed time. Can't fucking wake up without ten alarms drilling into my sleeling brain. Occasional insomnia. It is what it is.

But given that I've been able to long-term live on my own schedule now, I'm understanding that Sleepy is the body signal my ADHD brain is very good at ignoring.

Like. I used to hear stories from ADHD folks going "omg i haven't eaten/drank all day, i didn't even notice i was hungry/thirsty." And think "couldn't be me. I'll interrupt anything for a snack or a drink of water." And then i have insomnia and have to be somewhere on a schedule and get like 3 hours of sleep and can just make a decision that I'm not tired actually and power through the next 16 hours of an active day with one cup of coffee as my caffeine for the day, never feel tempted for a nap, and still not feel sleepy at all when it's time for bed again.

So yeah. ADHD super power, resistant to Sleep Attacks 😂

[somepoetwannabe]

I'm one more panic attack from ending it all

[mejomonster]

I would like. To be in mutual love

[commandermahariel]

siiiiiiigh

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

Using my brain like a metal detector to figure out what the FUCK it wants to do

[i-could-be-so-much-more]

It frustrates me to no end that everyone I talk to someone new my brain catastrophises to the point where even though I know logically it’s fine, and normal, and fun, I end up making it a bigger deal in my head that I know it is…I think myself into spirals that the logical part of my brain knows are ridiculous and dramatic and improbable, which stress me out more than is entirely necessary…it’s so tiring to exist and participate in the social world sometimes

[m--bloop]

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[stellacadente]

i realized how much it scares me that my mind will convince itself of even the ugliest things if i start thinking them often enough and it's... yeah. like i had a good session with my psychiatric rehabilitation therapist i think it was very useful but then at the end i got hit by this feeling of fear... like i'm so scared of myself and how low i can get

[ironmanstan]

I am coming to the realization i have been slowly killing myself with work i think oops

[phantom-does-a-thing]

It’s almost worse knowing they hurt me unintentionally because I don’t have any right to hate them. It was an accident, they didn’t know, but still I have breakdowns at the mention of them and they don’t even know.

[izzy-b-hands]

Putting on last year's trans rigs stream from Drawfee before i have to get ready to go out with my mum and her bf today (bc i have the worst feeling in my gut he's gonna make that An Thing for me if given the chance today, aka whenever i eventually need the restroom while we're at Mystic)