#ep/chp

[mad-pride]

is there a term for like the general [x]p's for pwPDs? like fp, ep/chp, etc ? i swear there was one but i forgor...

I guess? I know this flag and I saw similar flags around such concepts in that blog (@paranoid-and-pretentious). You could also see @pdsarchive, @bpdarchive, and @pdhoard which are specific. Looking through this tag by @radiomogai, I found this coining of person of interest (POI) by @loupgaroualejardin. I guess we just reblogged several flags related to these concepts (which I'm not familiar enough with the macrofamily/umbrella yet) recently, or not. If you found a blog that posts many of such flags, ask them.

@dependencypersonality also used the term archetype, but I'm not sure if it's the same thing it references to. Tag/send it to us if you find.

[averagemrfox]

Ah ok so we will be getting far enough into the story to meet these assholes

[ying-doodles]

// webtoon spoilers (ep 129)

novel javier getting broken out of the crab shell to reveal his beautiful face vs webtoon javier being forced to wear the crab shell just to humiliate him LMAO-

[ghostfacetheballfondler]

hi can people who have a chosen person explain what that feels like? and how chosen person differs from favorite person? i am incredibly confused about what chp means and what attachment it's supposed to describe lol

[lotus-pear]

Do you think I should get back into bsd cause I haven't watched it since middle school 😭😭(bro I keep seeing edits on my fyp this is ur fault somehow)

sumi! what a pleasant surprise. i wouldn’t recommend it since ur playing genshin and alr mentally ill enough as is /j

but if u want to try then have at it ur fav has been saving the agency’s ass these past two seasons i’m sure you’ll be happy to see him be more of a major character now

[xcziel]

the thing i have to admit is:

i don't really care for reality shows, or game type shows where people compete against each other. i don't hate them but they're not something i'd choose to watch when there are so many other options on my to-watch list

so: i don't actually enjoy run bts very much. and people saying this episode was more like a run bts ep sort of confirmed why it seemed less interesting comparatively, for me personally

like the best part was the insights we got into the interpersonal dynamics. and i do love the cute moments. but it just seemed more ... impersonal? for the most part to me it lacked the domestic intimacy and relatively laid back pace that i enjoyed from the first eps.

i know people that delight in shenanigans and teasing or pranks (verging on bullying) probably have a very different view. but i think i would have enjoyed it more if they had just maybe gone sightseeing or out on the water immediately idk

(i think it's just the sensitivity because of having been bullied and teased all the way to high school, i just have a bad secondhand embarassment squick and a dislike for anything with even s whiff of meanspirited-ness. i really cannot handle pranks without feeling anger on the pranked person's behalf, and i'm aware it's specifically a me thing, but sometimes stuff like that is just unwatchable for me)

[writeronartblock]

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WE'RE GETTING THE LOTUS STORY NEXT WEEK!!!!!

LITERALLY NEXT WEEK

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I'M NOT READY FOR THIS

[lavenderjewels]

yesss

[iceywrites]

why do i watch jjk??? like seriously why am i doing this to myself???

[radiomogai]

[PT: What is the difference between a “chosen person” and an “equal person”?. end PT]

What is the difference between a “chosen person” and an “equal person”?

The terms chosen person and equal person refer to the special people a pwNPD have in their life. People with Cluster B disorders may have a “special person” in their life that can mark a difference in the way they have relationships with others. So, much like how pwBPD have their favorite person (FP, for short), pwNPD can have an equal person (EP) or a chosen person (CHP).

But what is the difference?

From what I have seen from other people with NPD, as well as my own experiences, both terms can be chalked up to as this:

Equal person is the person that is equally as important to the narcissist. The EP may be on the same level or close to as the narcissist, hence the name. This is a person that the narcissist cares for, who’s emotions and feelings are acknowledged.

Chosen person is the person that the narcissist values above everybody else. In other words, they are someone worthy of the narcissist’s time. Chosen people may be chosen because they hold a trait or have charcteristics that may interest the narcissist.

Why are these special bonds formed for pwNPD?

Simply put, the traits of our personality disorder may cause us to have rocky relationships with other people. It causes us not to care about other people, see them as inferior/useless, and become distant from some.

Empathy is a struggle for pwNPD, we don’t really have much of it. That is why EPs are special—they are a person the narcissist cares about, and sees close to or on their level.

Some pwNPD may not be all about socialization or having close friends. That is why CHPs are special—the narcissist likes this person a lot, and considers them worthy.

A chosen person can be an equal person, and vice versa. But they are not the same thing.

An equal person can just be an equal person. The narcissist may not have any relationship with them, or consider them a CHP. They are just a person the narcissist sees on their or close to their level.

A chosen person can just be a chosen person. The narcissist may not see their CHP as an equal—they are just someone the narcissist picked.

However, from what I’ve heard and my own personal experience, some pwNPD have CHPs or EPs that are also EPs or CHPs! Whatever they decide to use to describe their person, depends on the narcissist. Some use equal person, others chosen person.

I haven’t seen any posts about the topic, so I decided to make a post to spread the word. I hope this might help clear some things up for non-NPD and for my fellow narcissists!

[thecornchips]

yaur i dont usually comment about ttrpg stuff here but,got gotdamn gotdampit brother im so

[sysboxes]

ok this is my list so far-

NPD:

chosen person (CHP)

equal person (EP)

worthy person (WP) <- coined by Belladonna the Narc anon

respected person (RP) <- coined by @wittness

higher person (someone above equal person; less common)

Superior person (same as higher person)

favourite person (FP)

Ego person / supply person (person who helps with crashes and provides a boost)

BPD:

favourite person (FP)

fixated person

supply person

focused person

PPD:

safe person (SP)

trusted person (TP)

ASPD:

chosen person (CHP)

exception person (EP/ECP)

partner in crime (PIC)

Social person/circle

HPD:

attention person (AP/ATP)

attentive person

AVPD:

safe person (SP)

indulgent person (coined by an anon and their friend)

DPD:

depended person (DP)

reliant/relied person

SZPD:

interest person (IP)

safe person

stock friend (friends you dont care about)

OCPD:

Obsession Person

Compulsed person (when one is the subject of their compulsory thoughts)

Exception Person (EP/ECP)

STPD:

Familiar person

Trustable person (TBP)

Any PD can use:

Partner in crime (PIC)

Favourite Person (FP)

Grounded/grounding person

Comfort person

Attentive person

Attention person

Protected/protection/protective person

Connected person (similar to grounded or could be social)

Stable person (similar to grounded)

safe person

special person

love person or special love person (from anon)

Protected person (im, mod weeping, coining this one. Someone you would do anything to protect)

Protective person (i, weeping, am also coining this. Someone you’re very protective of or someone who is protective of you or both)

Link about OCPD terms

Link two about OCPD terms

[the-label-sanctuary]

・₊✧𝘈 𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘭𝘴𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘳𝘺｡｡｡ -`♡´-

♡Devalued Person♡

✧A Devalued Person (Devp), otherwise known as a “lowlife”, is a term for those with Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) to describe those that are on this level. This is the rung on the ladder of a person with NPD (pwNPD)’s 'ranking system' (explained below) that is below average. While devaluing people will bump them down the rankings, it’s possible to go even further past the average into this category. The pwNPD considers this person to be severely beneath them and everyone else for one reason or another,✧

✧Within NPD there is a mental “Ranking System” in comparison to the pwNPD. This can also occur naturally, if not chosen by the pwNPD themself. This ranking system is by no means the only kind, but it sets a good example.✧

✧Chosen Person (Chp): Someone of higher status than the pwNPD✧

✧Equal Person (Ep): Someone of equal Status to the pwNPD.✧

✧Respected person (RP) : Someone the pwNPD respects✧

✧Worthy Person (Wp): Someone worthy to be a Chp or an Ep but not there yet.✧

✧Adequate Person (Adp): Above average.✧

✧Average Person (Avep): The average human being.✧

✧Lowlife/Devalued Person (Devp): Described Above✧

✧Unranked Person (Unrp): Someone who isn't part of their hierarchy system.✧

For a full list of Special Person terms, I made this doc for a comprehensible list. If you'd like to use my PD flags as emojis, I made this discord server with them as heart emojis! (Originally made to react to my SPs messages)

DISCLAIMER: All of these terms already have existed in the community before I posted them. If you have genuine questions or concerns, feel free to reach out and I will try to work with you! These terms are meant to be inclusive of ALL experiences I have heard of or experienced myself, so I have no issue adding things if necessary. These posts are meant to be short and sweet descriptions, not full deep delves on what each means! Feel free to make your own deep dives posts about your own experiences with these and @ me, I’ll definitely repost as long as they’re done in a respectful manner. 

[tare-anime]

The rumored Garden Endo's style (chp. 43)

The rumored Garden anime style (season 2 ep. 4)

And the actual members we were introduced so far

Mmmmm.... the Garden truly is an urban legend. Because an informant as good as Franky didn't even scratch the surface of info on them. And I bet, despite Director Wilker of the SSS know Shopkeeper, he didn't know who the members are....

Truly a scary organization if the director of SSS didn't hesitate to say it verbally 👀

[i-heart-hxh]

So, a few days ago I found this post on Reddit from 2 years ago (that sadly barely got any attention at the time) that sheds a ton of light on the separation scene between Gon and Killua, and my mind is blown! I've known for years that there was some sort of Togashi "coding" in the dialogue and it was always like I could get halfway to understanding, but this post gives the rest of the puzzle pieces that I was missing, and ties into other scenes that I was uncertain about the meaning of as well. It's heartbreaking, but also hopeful for their future! I had to share it with you all. Please read it!

The original Reddit post has been deleted, but here is a link to the author's Reddit profile. (I received permission from the original author to post this here.)

In-Depth analysis on the Hidden Reasons behind Gon & Killua's separation scene (ep 147) Why Gon is 'Number 2'

The translations across the separation scene in both manga (chp 338) and the anime (ep 147, 2011) have some shortfalls. These dialogues are vital for understanding even the first layer of reasons behind this separation.

REASONS FOR KILLUA'S DELICATELY PLANNED SEPARATION 

1. WHEN -

There are very important reasons why Killua picked a specific timing to tell Gon about Alluka. It was Killua's plan all along, to only tell Gon at a moment's notice, to make sure Gon won’t get time to ask any DETAILS. He is deliberately downplaying the seriousness of everything he’s been through to heal Gon, so it will have less impact on Gon, and at the same time, avoid Gon asking details. Prior to healing Gon, Killua specifically asked Morel and Leorio to promise not to tell Gon that he saved him. After Gon was healed, there was a scene in the anime (ep 148) which showed the three spent a night together before reaching the World Tree. During that time, Killua still haven't said anything. It wasn't until the moment when they were literally saying the last goodbye, Killua casually brought up:

“Oh, by the way, this guy healed you."

I want to emphasis the word Killua used to address Alluka was “こいつ”. This is a very light and overly casual word used to address someone you know, and usually a playful guy friend (e.g. “This guy used to be my neighbour.” type of feeling). The manga and anime translation, “She’s the one that healed you,” did not clearly depict the intentional casualness.

2. WHAT was SAID -

If Killua just doesn’t want to burden Gon with guilt and responsibility, then why not just keep his mouth shut and say nothing? That’s because Killua found a better option than not telling Gon anything. Killua shifted the “priority of reasons” a bit, so the VERSION OF EVENTS he told Gon, was PRIORITIZED on Alluka’s rescue rather than healing Gon. This way, they will also get to THANK Gon, and put an emphasis on thanking Gon because Killua make it SEEMED like it was more important to rescue Alluka, that the INITIAL REASON for Killua to go home, was to rescue Alluka. Only AFTER Alluka was freed, they came to the hospital to heal Gon, out of convenience, since only Alluka has the ability to do so, and since she’s now outside. The MAIN motive for these past events has been delicately swapped around by Killua, so the focus switched to the rescue of Alluka, rather than healing Gon. Hence Alluka is “No. 1”, Gon is “No. 2”. Downplaying it so healing Gon was just a bonus convenience (ep 147, 19:12 to 19:51).

Killua then goes on another level to make this version of events seem even more realistic, by saying “….You owe me a lot now,” in a teasing and playful tone of voice. This is to again, downplay the seriousness of everything he’s been through, to comfort Gon that "Yes you owe me one now, but don’t you worry! I will make sure you pay it back okay?! Hehe!”

3. WHY -

The fight with Pitou allowed Killua to witness Gon's ultimately immature mind set when it comes to “repaying someone, and redeeming himself.” Kite lost an arm and his life to protect him. So Gon gave his life and was even more happy when Pitou took his arm too. Gon will always want to “match” what was sacrificed by another, by throwing away AT LEAST the same. Not “sacrificing”, but THROWING AWAY. It’s so immature, so dangerous, no one will be able to keep up with him. Killua was very confident with how much he could take, but even Killua himself is at limit. This ultimate baka!! (ep 136, 17:50 - 20:17)

If this is how far Gon will go for Kite, he can only imagine what Gon would go recklessly into if he knew the DETAILS. This is when Killua decided on a way to part with Gon the way they did, and to PROVIDE him a particular REASON.

“I’m prepared to spent the rest of my life protecting her.” 

This is the reason Killua wants Gon to know, but NOT what he actually wants to do with his life. Although it’s true he feels responsible and genuinely wish to protect Alluka and Nanika, but it’s not what he ultimately WANTS to do. He NEEDS to protect Alluka, but he WANTS to spent his entire life by the side of a certain baka…

After the previous events, Killua was traumatized, especially when he saw Gon's twisted decaying arm. That was a breaking point for him, after that, the only thing that matters THE MOST for him is for Gon to be safe. He also realized that in order to protect this baka... it’s better if he keeps a distance for now, until he finds a solution to keep Alluka safe from Illumi and his family.

4. THE PARTING -

By planning this parting with Gon, Killua hopes Gon will become detached from him. And that time and distance will slowly render him less important to Gon. So if he was to die... (because Illumi is hunting them down) he did for Alluka, he did it for the vow to protect Alluka, not Gon. We knew Killua always plans ahead, and here, he plants this reason for Gon in the future so he won’t need to feel responsible if he was to die protecting Alluka (or die with Alluka while Illumi is hunting them). This is what’s going through Killua’s head:

“If I die, you’re not responsible for anything. You don’t owe me anything, so NEVER throw your life away again. My only one wish, is for you to be safe. So here I am. I’m parting ways with you... Because I SAID you are only ... No. 2 ... I SAID you are not the most important to me.. So don’t think of me as the most important to you too….”

This, is Killua’s eternal Devotion. 

5. THE RESULT -

As a result of this deliberate planning by Killua,

Gon was made to believe:

While I was recovering in hospital Killua had to go home and rescue his sister 

Alluka is such a cute sister and she can grant Killua any wish?!!! Wow…that’s one cool sister…

Well… no wonder Killua thinks his cool sister is more important than me, it’s only natural. 

Looks like Killua finally found what he wants to do. He will enjoy traveling the world with such a cool sister, it will be so much fun. I should be happy for him, I can’t hold him here... I have to let him go…

VS

The DETAILS omitted:

Gon was not recovering at all in the hospital. Killua RESORTED to USE Alluka in order to heal Gon. 

Alluka’s blood stained dark past and the risks and uncertainty that still involves.

Baka Gon is always No. 1 !

Killua and Alluka are desperately trying to find a way to out of Illumi’s grasp. Illumi is hunting them down and trying to make Killua his puppet again. And this time it's not going to be just a needle in the head... Killua can feel it. And if things doesn’t work out, he will just kill Alluka.

These Reasons are the core of the separation. We have a song named “Reason”… aren’t the lyrics shedding a new layer of light now?

6. IMPORTANT WORDS ALLUKA USED TO FACILITATE A BETTER RELATIONSHIP AFTER REUNION -

Killua promised to “always be together” with Alluka.

But to this promise, Alluka’s response was always silent (episode 145, 3:32 to 4:19). She looked at Killua with deep thought. Because even in such a short amount of time, she realized Killua is doing all this to ALSO or MORE SO protect Gon. It was never just for her, it will never be just for her, and there will never be anyone more important than Gon for Killua. She’s moved by Killua’s devotion and resolve, and she can also feel his sadness…   

If, the situation was different, if Gon was never there to begin with, and Killua just happened to solely come to Alluka’s rescue, and then make a promise to stay together with her forever, Alluka’s natural reaction will be melting with happiness, she’d be crying tears of joy, and hugging Killua. But in this instance, she was composed, she sensed her brother’s deep seriousness and sadness. That’s why later on, she reassured the two at parting, that they will see each other again, without disclosing Killua’s true REASONS. 

The Exacted words Alluka used (Manga chpt 338, 2011 anime epi 147)

a. Manga translation: “I’m going to HUG my brother for a while and then I will LET HIM GO.”  

b. Better translation: “I’m going to have my brother all to myself for a while and then I will let him free.”                            

c. The exacted phrase: “I’m going to Monopolise my brother Exclusively for a period of time, then I will Release him.”

独り占 (Monopolise Exclusively) 

Very strong characters with Explicit meaning. Have it all to oneself. Same characters and meaning used in Chinese as well. （独占）

解放 (Release) 

This is much more formal and serious than “let go”. It implies the subject was initially bound/locked/restricted. Also the same characters and meaning used in Chinese.

Alluka employed these words to imply a forceful lead in this “deal” of owning Killua exclusively. These words have an underlying tone of enslavement. 

Why? Because Alluka knows, the harder she IMPOSES herself on Killua during their time together, the more effective it would be on the easing of Killua’s own guilt. 

Killua felt immensely guilty.

No one will enjoy a relationship bound by guilt. 

Alluka knows clearly that part of her brother’s promise, was formed with guilt, from using her and Nanika, that he was having fun with Gon while Alluka was literally forgotten. Although it's true that this was largely due to Illumi's manipulation, but the fact that he did just left her in the basement all this time was both unacceptable and unforgivable to Killua himself (episode 138, 13:28).

Therefore apart from protecting Gon, this was the other important reason for this separation. Almost as if Killua has accepted this as a befitting price to pay in order to redeem himself as a brother.

Alluka and Nanika have no condition nor demand in return for Killua’s requests. But Killua imposed a price on himself for having Gon healed. Out of guilt. Alluka knows, Nanika knows. That’s why Alluka used the word 解放 (release), because it will make Killua feel better, that he has complied with her ‘enslavement’, so when the time comes, Killua will be able to release HIMSELF from guilt, and go back to Gon, properly. Alluka loves her brother, and she’s prepared to help him towards a better relationship with Gon in the future, by helping him to eliminating this chain of guilt.

lol Alluka totally ships Gon and Killua ! XD

Thank you for reading.

[strawberryscarecr0w]

In honor of shatter ep 1 chp 3 coming out today, I drew Auron as a fox! Might make this a series..? If so, who should I do next?