#existential awe

[blueteller]

[tenowls]

american football

[stardatez3ro]

sometimes when i finish watching a tng episode i kinda just stand in a corner like this

and go what the fuck just happened .oh god .and then i continue with life

[mamawasatesttube]

i don't know what circumstances would require bart to be able to drive a car but i want tim to have to teach him to drive a car so bad. kon is outside going "should i--? do you think--?" about whether to wrap the car in ttk just in case. cassie is sitting next to him like no... shhh... let it happen. bart already crashed a batmobile and tim still let him get behind the wheel of the redbird. kon i wanna see tim's face when this comes back to bite him in the ass and he realizes he really needs to learn how to say no to bart. don't deprive me of this kon

[kangals]

walking Stellina this morning and a car pulls over and rolls down it’s window and a guy I’ve never spoken to in my life asks, with genuine concern, whatever happened to the greyhound I always used to walk?

this isn’t the first time it’s happened, either - it’s been odd but touching how many of my neighbors - some I recognize from walks, many I don’t - have never spoken to me but feel compelled to ask about why I’m only walking one dog now. and they’ve all seemed genuinely sad to hear.

idk. it’s sweet to think about how we’ve made these unspoken connections and they care enough to ask. similar vibes as the anon asks I’ve gotten that also basically say “I’ve only watched from afar but I’m sorry for your loss.” you really don’t realize how many little threads of connection are out there, and how much they matter to people.

[rawliverandgoronspice]

If Ganondorf was lying to anyone during that Wind Waker speech, he’d be lying to himself. The gerudo desert was indeed harsh, and Hyrule sucked during his time, but legit everything he did in Ocarina of Time is completely unjustifiable, except for the murder of the King of Hyrule. The man sat in luxury for 7 years with monsters surrounding the land, while his people remained in the desert. Yet at the end of the day, he believed that he had every right to do all of that.

Self-justification isn’t a trait that’s outright noticeable with Ganondorf, but Wind Waker puts it out in the open and shows that yes, the self proclaimed “King of Evil” truly believes he’s deserving of the world, and that his circumstances justify his crimes.

I feel like the fandom misses that while Ganondorf may not be this complex 5d villain, he still carries an interesting amount of traits like this

Hey, thanks for the ask!! I'm sorry, I haven't slept in over 24h and felt particularly rhapsodic today so uhhhh sorrryyyyy for being cringe about my little guyyyyyy (and the approximate use of English language that might ensue)

So yeah, I think there's absolutely a huge part of that, trying to make sense of the violently absurd situation he found himself in, a monster and one of the last people who remembers Hyrule and how it was destroyed, and rationalizing to himself why it is not meaningless.

I have to say, not to be uhhh a parody of myself, but I think it could be a little bit more complicated than that (all of it being interpretations of the text that I don't think canon entirely backs always, but my point is that it could be read out of it).

If Ganondorf wanted any meaningful chance to reshape his own reality, then there's no doing that without access to the Triforce. If he had wanted to go for the King's head and nothing else, he would have been stopped immediately by everybody who do have access to shards of the keys to the Sacred Realm (not to mention how trigger happy Zelda was about wishing ????? something to the Triforce about erasing him in some form). I don't think it would have been reasonable to aim for anything but the Triforce as a military goal --not to mention that his beef is half with Hyrule, and half with the Goddesses themselves for considering the gerudos beneath them in some form and for some reason (which becomes even more apparent and deranged in Wind Waker, as part of why he can't let go of Hyrule in my opinion is because their intervention was so violent he simply cannot wrap his head around it and, as usual, Will Not Be Defeated >:((( because he's that kind of bitter little shithead, which I uhhhh relate to a little too much maybe). And then, well. You can't exactly ask for the Triforce and be nice about it, right?

I'm not saying he wasn't gleefully horrible about it the entire time, but I can absolutely see a case of him being self-centered enough to see each of his actions as the necessary (or righteous/vengeful) next step to get closer to his goals, and one thing leads to the other, and after seven years of strife, well, the kingdom you wanted to rule is a pile of rubble, ash and misery you enforced at every step, and oops! You have alienated absolutely everyone who aren't your weird moms!

There's a ton of things to say about the many interpretations that could be made of his relationship to the gerudos so I won't over-expand on that, but, uhhhh yeah he probably used them, or at the very least ruled them with an iron fist to enforce his own power he believed unquestionnable (even if the goal was genuinely to do things for their sake, which in my opinion could still be argued --Hyrule is a big nightmare place during his reign, but the Valley is the only location basically untouched with arguably Kakariko after all).

To be honest, I think TP Ganondorf is more accursed with a sense of self-justification than WW Ganon, who has a surprising amount of clarity on his own motives (to restate my tags on a post I just reblogged: I don't think "I coveted this wind, I suppose" is particularly self-pitying, it's soberingly self-aware if anything). TP Ganon is the one who's obsessed with divine purpose and considering himself a weird take on the Chosen One.

But yeah, I think... To be completely honest, I sometimes feel like Ganondorf's potential (!!! not actual execution, very important to draw this distinction) is just kind of too large for the IP that birthed him? The full breadth of his complexity cannot be explored in a setting that demands he merely generates a simple conflict that doesn't seriously question the status quo while everything about him inherently begs for it (and I love Zelda and its simplicity and what it does, to be very clear!). Like, I know this is just me justifying my own investment to a degree, but... his relationship to the gerudo culture, his relationship to gender, to divinity, to fate, to self-definition, to absolute resistance grinded down to the point of absurdity (but at the same time, what else is there to do)... like all of this absolutely has potential to be large and epic and breathtaking, but. Nintendo needs to preserve the statut quo. And Ganondorf just cannot express all of these themes without having this simple world literally collapse around him.

This is what I find incredibly compelling about this dramatic disaster of a guy. And the very media that suggested all of these contradictions and inner conflicts (without necessarily understanding them at first I think) is now fighting tooth and nail against what it introduced, what he can embody and once questioned (in WW most potently) for the sake of Hyrule's moral balance, backpedalling into a state of simplicity that just never truly existed to that degree before --partially, in my opinion, because this conflict is scary to face heads on without taking significant artistic risks I am not confident we will ever see again, to be uhh less than optimistic.

So yeah! He isn't that complicated as the villain of the children video games for sure!! But. As a character, there's so much there, just sitting right under the surface.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

From this article (published july 12, 2023)

[holyshit]

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[sarinatendouji]

re: my last post, consider also the horrifying alternative where kate, being a child, was unable to fully unify with the morph that killed lady catherine when she first presented as a shadow, and in the years to come as she approaches adulthood she will have to grapple with the gradual loss of her humanity as the morph initiates the process of unification on its own

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

so in the acknowledgements of THE CITY WE BECAME, jemisin calls it a trilogy, and i realized belatedly (read: at time of purchase) that THE WORLD WE MAKE says "GREAT CITIES DULOGY" and i had a Hunch about why that was so i went spelunking through book 2's acknowledgements before i started actually reading and, uh.

yeah lmao. COVID and Fascism would do it, huh

[studentbyday]

src: wikipedia

there was a time not too long ago when i used to just eat up everything i learned just because. there was an invigorating hunger, a positive feedback loop of needing to know more.

and now i don't know if i still know how to learn something for the sake of it. i study life sciences because i want a bachelor's degree. i self-study computer science because i think that its applications in life sciences will lead me to a fulfilling and well-compensated career. even my piano progress has become something i've kind of assigned a purpose to: it's for my mental health and i don't wanna become one of those people who learned it as a child and gave it up in adulthood.

if i don't have a purpose for what i'm doing, then why am i spending my limited time on this planet doing it? is being an adult needing to assign a purpose to everything? i wish i could go back to the child that lived in the moment and was truly carefree. (but i can never truly go back unless i lose the self-awareness i've gained and am unwilling to give up)

thanks intro psyc for teaching me about knowledge emotions, triggering this existential crisis. 🤦🏻‍♀️

[bloggingboutburgers]

hihi! i love ur comics!! <3

also out of pure curiosity... what is your favorite thing?

it could be literally anything from like the astrophysics of the big bang to a bagel

Heyyy! And sorry for replying so late TwT Thank you so much for the kind words!!

My favorite thing... It's a tough thing to reply to. If I don't say "my partner" or "my family" or "my closest friends" that makes me kind of a dick I guess? TwT But also by nature it'd be tough for me to have favorites amongst people...

I have a lot of favorites in a lot of categories, like a favorite place or a favorite movie, but a favorite thing... That's tough.

If I had to pick fundamentally and throughout my whole life experience... I'd say probably freedom. In the existentialist sense of the term.

[iamanoccasionaldoodler]

I think I've solved The Marwa Problem, as it were.

What We Do In The Shadows is a show that by its very nature contains a lot of viscerally horrifying things happening to innocent people. You can't watch the show without accepting that.

However, there's a clear delineation in this show between Characters and Plot Devices.

Gregor is a plot device. We're not meant to feel badly for him, because he's not really a person. When Gregor dies, that's just an indication that that subplot is over.

The Guide, on the other hand, is a character. Even though she doesn't have as much screen time as the others, her death would have meaningful ramifications for the plot.

The problem with Marwa is that she was always supposed to be a plot device, but her actress was so incredibly charming that we got attached to her and began treating her as a character. She was never going to get a happy ending because she wasn't a person.

The thing to criticize about Marwa's storyline, if anything, is that she was written too sympathetically, and they didn't make it clear enough that she was just a narrative toy being kicked around. I don't think that's true - again, I think the actress who played her was just that good - but if you're really unhappy with what happened last episode that's the place to put your criticism. Marwa was always going to have an undignified exit from the story because that's the WWDITS way. Her being transformed into a British history buff to go be in love with another version of herself is actually a lot better than most plot devices get.

[devilledeggz]

im not getting fixated on awful hospital im not getting fixated on awful hospital im not getting fixated on awful hospital im not getting fixated on awful hospital im no-

[chaotic-minds-think-alike]

Real quick I just wanna say the reason I decided to bring Eight back is partially because these 2 soundtracks from The Mast mod got me insanely mentally ill /positive

[muu-kun]