#existentialburden

[tegytte]

hellllllo gang! some time ago i asked people to send in their furries so i could practice drawing them for i basically only draw humans lol and i felt the need to step up my game :P

thank you everyone who sent in their darlings, cause wow i wasn't disappointed ! i got sent so many different types and i loved drawing each and every one of them :D (even though it took a lot of juice out of me in the end lel) there is so much i love about all of them :3

anyway thank you @gobbslopper, @existentialburden, @p0lym0rph and @the-overrated-cunt

[atitananimation]

YCH Petting Commission!

Still open, please message me if you are interested! Petting YCH completed for @existentialburden

[santae-salt]

text from the original forum post:

"I'd like to express my concern that genuine questioning, at least from my end, was seen as targeting and harassment on the Discord. I'm autistic, and struggle with tone through text, so I'm unsure what I was actually timed out for. I was timed out for 24 hours without a warning, and without any reasoning being given to me personally beyond the vague, public statement that I'd apparently been "dogpiling". I was not in communications with any other members of the server to form my questions; I had simply been confused with what was being said.

It's incredibly disheartening to try my best to be respectful and keep my questions brief, just to be unceremoniously timed out and told I was, apparently, harrassing staff. I had never pinged, replied, or named any staff members in my messages, nor had I been overly hostile. My messages are still all viewable in the Discord, and after reading them over, I still can't figure out what I did wrong, other than happen to be asking questions while tensions were evidently high.

My question is just this: Why was I timed out? What did I do? How do I avoid this in the future?"

Response:

"Hi @.existentialBurden !

I completely understand the concern you have as to the reason why you were timed out on the discord and wanting to receive feedback on ways to avoid this in the future. While I do not know the exact reason behind the time out as I was not the issuing moderator, I would reach out to support@santae.net to get the best information. I would ask that you please give the administrative team time to properly investigate and respond so that we can best help you and to provide the feedback requested!

We will try our best to get what information we can to help solve this for you, and in the meantime- should you not get a response within 48 hours, please send me a sanmail so I can check in on my end!

Thank you so much for your patience! In the interim, I'm going to lock this thread so that the appropriate avenues can be taken."

☁️

[tegytte]

favorite color: forever and always blue

last song: "the bug collector" - haley heynderickx

currently reading: technically reading 3 books currently, but the only one i'm reading actively rn is "harry potter and the goblet of fire" by that one miserable woman

currently watching: "russian doll"

currently craving: sleep and freedom (food wise? egg)

coffee or tea: coffee, although it makes me twitchy as hell

(hiiiii mutuals *winks* @eeper-eeps @existentialburden @gobbslopper @googlygazer )

get to know your moots tag game ! ✶ answer the questions, then tag six people

favorite color ꕀ green and brown last song ꕀ tú by maye currently reading ꕀ the luminaries by susan dennard currently watching ꕀ the great british baking show currently craving ꕀ massaman curry. like always. and like. alcohol and a couple cigs HAHA. a break too :P coffee or tea ꕀ always tea! i don't like coffee

ty for the tag @saltcxrcle ! tagging: @lelapine @toadspondofwhimsy @outof-spite @h0neyst4rz @hhoneylemon @our-lady-of-venom

[crosspect-101]

could I get a Page of Light plus a Muse of Void if you'd be so kind?

No problem! Those two make a Bard of Chance, one who allows destruction through Chance!

Think of it this way: you take a lot of actions that result in chance-based determination... but somehow, the odds always favor destruction. No matter what risks are brought about as a result of your actions, the most destructive one is always the winner.

Sorry, it’s kind of confusing. Bards are weird like that. Maybe an example will help: say you come across a machine whose purpose is unknown. You will naturally be compelled to press random buttons and see what happens, but your random button-pressing will usually result in something getting blown up. Maybe the machine is some sort of doomsday device, or you just hit the self-destruct button. That’s the thing about Chance: you never know!

-Mod Psycho

[spectralsuggestions]

:3 hi! I'm Egby and I have no clue how to introduce myself in any situation but you always seem super cool so! I am really just vibin. I never stop talking about my ocs so that's my deal. I also don't know if there's a policy on anon vs public asks on this blog so I am simply vibing. lemme know if I'm out of line.

hello!! that’s such a mood, honestly, i’m very awkward too. and that’s so valid!! it’s about the same here--i’ve actually got tags for my ocs from a specific work (considering also doing more, but that takes time and effort) 

and you’re all good!! you sound really cool :) 

[jumblekinz]

if they're open could I get a gecko stimboard? my lil baby boy Gilbert needs some love :3

posted! 

[serotoninsuggestion]

thank you so goddamn much for this blog and these posts. I never realize I need them until I see them on my dash. I finally followed after realizing I keep checking in on this blog for the things I need to hear. thank you.

o H MAN

i got a lil emotional reading this honestly

thank u so much for finding this blog and sending this message and being so supportive (every time i see u hit the like button it makes me smile) and i’m really glad it’s helped

i love u and feel free to message if u ever wanna chat!

[existentialburden]

Hello!

My name is Leila Marigold, and I’m extremely excited to be joining Tumblr after long years of being nagged to join (you know who you are, Miss Meddlesome McFussyfangs, you lousy supportive friend you)! If you haven’t already guessed, I am complete Homestuck trash, though I swear I have interests other than obsessing over webcomics. I quite enjoy reading, and I have a few short stories written myself, though the vast majority are fanfics rather than completely original works. I also have a Pesterchum, and my Chumhandle is existentialBurden, if you could possibly believe it. I am a Page of Light who uses she/her pronouns. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I hope to make a few friends during my stay, or at least a new conversation partner! Do check out my moirail, wolfa542. I’m sure it would be appreciated!

[space-mist]

18, 20, 23 :)

18.) Any OC crackships? my oc x your oc ez every time In all seriousness, not really? if i wanna pair up two ocs it will be canon. if i wanna do a separate pair with them. multi track drifting

20.) Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)? Out of my funny lobcorp ocs? Aria :] she likes to sing old italian love ballads, they remind her of her papa. she has an impressive range but sits around an alto usually. she usually sings to herself versus performing, because it's something that makes her heart ache and she hates feeling vulnerable around people.

23.) Introduce OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like? OH OH OH THIS IS WHERE I CAN INTRODUCE MY FAVORITE AND OLDEST CHARACTER!!! Mercury :] he was originally a fucking homestuck oc heavily geared around sopor slime that caused mischief and issues for my session's players. now? he's an 8 yr old slime kid made to be a bioweapon but failed step 0 of that. he reverse adopts everyone he meets and is present in every universe because i say so.

[crinkliedfries]

i was tagged by @nonsemsical , thank you!! 

favourite colour: i don’t really have one, i don’t think? 

last song i listened to: cold cold man (saint motel) 

favourite musicians: uh!! queen, the amazing devil,,,, i have quite a few and that would be a lot to list really 

last movie i watched: chicago 

last tv show i watched: ,,,torchwood

favourite ocs: there are,,, so many of those. i really love farrokh (he’s very good,,,) and roy. i’m also emotionally attached to freddie (on accident) and most everyone from the bad dnd ghost story. there’s definitely more but for the sake of not rambling a lot,, i’m leaving it at this i think 

sweet, spicy, or savoury: i’m really not sure, maybe sweet or savoury? 

bubbly water, tea, or coffee: tea or coffee!! i’ve been more of a tea mood recently though 

tagging: @earl-grey-is-my-middle-name @existentialburden @sunflowers-and-snowdrops @himborpheus @cheshirecrime @just-a-random-trans-guy @sister-simplice and anyone else who wants to! 

[coconut-cluster]

Family Resemblance

hey look, i wrote it too! because i love angst and pain ig. 

Part 2

based off this post \\ ppl who wanted to be tagged: @remythehero @crazycookie13o @occasional-lamp-doodles @orangegiraffe7 @littlebadrose @heyhelloitsk @sunflower-shitposts @chelsvans @pinkroses030 @overlyinvestednverygay 

general taglist: @shakesqueer-writes @gryffindorofcabin21 @romanticsanders @existentialburden @a-little-bit-of-ace @anon-turtle @kameraishere @thelowlysatsuma @sticksandanxiety @rosesandstuff @adorably-angsty @jemthebookworm @max-is-tired @analogical-mess @a-grayscale-galaxy @sweetsmalldog @tanyatoloni1334 @crookedlyoptimisticdestiny @pawtonsanders

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Virgil, in his defense, was really stressed out.

It had been a long, long day - a long day full of errands and the obligatory human interaction that came along with errands - and he’d been on edge since noon at least from all the travel, not to mention exhausted after yet another night of no sleep, and he couldn’t seem to shake a dull headache all day. He just wanted to drag himself into a corner and curl into a ball until everything faded away for a while. Needless to say, he wasn’t exactly a beacon of patience at the moment. 

“That’s ridiculous, Logan!” 

“I assure you, Roman, the only ridiculous aspect of this discussion is your attitude, but if you’re so irate about my suggestion, then I’m sure you have a far better one to offer?”

“I think we need to calm down a little, kiddos-” 

Thomas gave a discomfited groan, squeezing his eyes shut while Logan and Roman continued arguing over Patton’s futile attempts at mediation. Virgil just kept his mouth shut, chewing on his bottom lip and tugging at the zipper on his sleeve enough that he wouldn’t be surprised if it wore out completely by the time he sank out; this was a stupid argument, pointless and frustrating and way too loud to just be about a video idea, and he was tempted to just sink out right then and there and let the others hash it out by themselves - but Thomas was anxious, so he was very, very (reluctantly) present. 

“What do you think, Virgil?” Roman asked suddenly. Virgil looked up to find his and Logan’s eyes on him, clearly expecting him to pick a side. Hell no.

“I think you should leave me out of it,” he growled, “or you guys could stop acting like children and just compromise for once.”

Roman’s nose scrunched up at that. “Well excuse me, Ruby Gloom, but my idea is perfectly fine on its own, if only Logan,” he sent the logical side a pointed glare, which was quickly returned, “would actually let Thomas have a little fun once in a while!” 

“Your ‘idea’ is hardly developed in any sort of executable fashion,” Logan countered. Virgil huffed a hair away from his face, hunching farther down on his step and curling his fingernails into his palms. “Not to mention-”

“I don’t need another lecture! I know what Thomas’ content should look like, thank you very much; need I remind you which one of us is his creativity, a-k-a the very basis of his life’s work? No? It’s me, I’m talking about me-”

“Aren’t you always,” Logan muttered.

“-and I think my ideas should be heralded with just a little more support, because I hate to burst your all’s bubbles, but I actually have pretty good ones! Just because you don’t like every single concept I come up with doesn’t mean I never have anything to bring to the table!” 

 Why did they have to be so loud? They weren’t even ten feet away from each other-

“Your ideas have been impractical,” Logan said, “not to mention half-witted, on more occasion than one.”

“Half-witted?!” 

“It means foolish or idiotic-”

“I know what it means.”

Virgil gritted his teeth. This had gone on too long; Thomas and Patton knew it, too, and his fuse was burning short while they stood silently. 

“I can’t- I don’t need you to like all my ideas,” Roman cried, “but you don’t even give them a chance! You’re always so stuck-up with your holier-than-thou attitude, you can’t even imagine that someone knows better than you-”

“Remus, just shut up!”

The yelling stopped. 

Virgil expected it to - he never yelled back, just snapped a little louder than usual or, if worst came to worst, Tempest Tongue made an appearance - but the dead silence that fell over the five of them just screamed something bad. He looked up from where he was staring at a hole in his jeans and found everyone staring at him; Patton and Thomas’ eyes were wide, Logan’s eyebrows furrowed, but Roman-

Roman blinked at him with owlish eyes, mouth open as if he was on the verge of retorting but stopped short, and his complexion was ashen, a ghost of Thomas’ usual soft tan - but it was the inexplicable smattering of hurt across his face that made Virgil truly pause. 

He’d told Roman to shut up plenty of times. Like, a lot. And a few of those instances had been fueled by the exact same amount of annoyance, and he knew Roman didn’t care too much about volume, so why...? 

“Oh,” he realized a moment later. “Oh, my God.”

‘Remus, shut up!’ 

Remus- 

“Roman,” he breathed, “I didn’t- I meant Roman, I didn’t mean to say that, I didn’t mean-”

“Kiddo,” Patton said quietly, reaching a hand toward the prince, who flinched away, and Virgil felt something in his chest constrict. 

“It’s okay,” Roman said. His voice wobbled at the end, but he just cleared his throat as his gaze flickered to Logan’s weary expression, then Thomas’ clear discomfort. “It’s okay,” he repeated in a whisper, “I understand. I’ll just- please excuse me.”

And he sank out. 

“Shit-” Virgil gripped the edges of his sleeves in his palms, glancing wildly between the three faces before him. “I didn’t mean it,” he insisted. “It was an accident, I really didn’t mean to-”

“It’s alright, Virgil,” Logan sighed. He shared a look with Patton, something unreadable passing through their met gaze - Virgil couldn’t help but feel it was about him. Couldn’t help but feel he deserved whatever silent criticism they were sharing. 

“I have to go find him,” he said thickly, but Patton held a hand out to stop him. 

“Give him a little time alone, kiddo.”

Virgil wanted to protest, to sink out right then and comb through the Mindscape until he found Roman and apologize til his throat was raw, because he knew how badly a stupid slip-up like that hurt the prince... but he also knew Patton knew best about emotions and cooldowns and apologies. So he swallowed, swallowed again when his throat just felt tighter, and sank back down on the steps, curling inward like his hoodie would swallow him and his shame if he tried hard enough. 

If only. 

[imstraightupchilling]

@qutiepai aaa thanks for the tag!

ancient or modern // bitter or sweet // chocolate or vanilla // coffee or tea // create or destroy // day or night // early bird or night owl // freckles or dimples // gold or silver // Greek mythology or Egyptian mythology // macarons or eclairs // hot or cold // thunder or lightning // typewritten or handwritten // secret garden or secret library // spicy or mild // dark magic or light magic // virtue or vice // ocean or desert // mermaids or sirens // known or unknown // rain or snow //

tagging @existentialburden and @wolfa542 ! don’t know if yall have done this one but

[rowan-at]

who is your faaavorite oc

Oooooooh from the C9 bunch? Hope. I mean really, shes so snarky but she cares so much and her childhood was W A C K Y!

She's got plenty of attitude, horrible taste in fashion, and has absolute bastard energy like c'mon guys

@existentialburden how do you come up with this shit cause Hope? Gud.

As far as outside of C9.... My Monster of the Week character, Jo Jickerson, is a rat and probably one of my favorite characters I've ever made/played.

They're of the playbook "The Flake" and are, subsequently, a superstitious nutcase. They're the socialist heir to the Wal-Mart empire and spend their free time either stalking the local antique shop owner (who is certainly not normal), stealing library records, acting as an unpaid bagger/courtesy clerk at the local Wal-Mart Superstore, or sleeping in the bunker under the Wal-Mart employee break room.

Such fantastic events include: bullshitting their way into getting the contact information of the Big Bad Boss Villain during the 2nd enemy encounter, dressing their injured friend in a plethora of horrid rainbow colors to the point where it looks like a party city threw up on her, and testing blood with a collection of veggie oil, kool-aid, water, a "my first" microscope, and a pregnancy test

God I love them

[lamp-calm-sanders]

Love Is For Everyone: Masterpost

Pairings: Moxiety

Fic Summary:

-My Fic For the @ts-storytime event!!-

What happens when Virgil and Patton adopt Roman, a child who also happens to be a monster from another world.

Will Roman be able to find love in found family, or will the six year old never find friends and family that adore him like he deserves?

After all, everyone can find a place that loves them right?

TW: Past Child Abuse, Child Neglect, Homophobia, Transphobia, Racism, Bullying, Sympathetic Deceit (Mentioned)

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Read On AO3!

Prologue

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Epilogue

See The Art made by artist @hiddendreamer67 (link coming soon!)

Thank you to my betas @omni-hamiltrash @davidthetraveler @enteryourfandomhere

It’s finally time to post!!! I’ve loved writing this story and I’m glad to finally post!

This fic has been my life for the last six months!! I’m so glad to post and share it!

Feel free to talk to me about this au!!! It’s been my everything for a while so I would love to talk and ask questions about the au! (As long they don’t spoil future stories ;))

Thank you for reading!

Tag List: Let Me Know If You Wanted To Be Added Or Removed! (Also Sorry For Tagging You All So Late xD)

@alexross123 @justgalactic @puns-and-patton @irish-newzealand-idian-dutch @tinysidestrashcaptain @monstermemories @angelpatton @will-iswriting-again @nokatai-realm @sanders-specs @vickyderpface @tree4life25 @minietina @loganpatton @existentialburden @generic---blog​ @nerd-in-space @kittycake574

-Lissa

[rawtaytilacigol]

@existentialburden Here's the full thing!