#explodes. too much affection
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11 and 13 for how would they say it f/o ask... :3
wraghh these ones are cute 🥺 thank you for sending an ask <333!!
11. "I like your company."
he always drags me out to go places/shopping, or he asks me to do a few chores with him because "it'd be so much more fun if we were doing together!" and it is <33
13. "You're important to me."
he's very different from me in that I can't imagine he would hold back anything he thinks, he's always just saying what's on his mind thoughtlessly. I think he would say exactly this just casually in the middle of a conversation, or as he's saying goodbye when I go somewhere ("stay safe, I'll miss you :)") and it would make my brain bluescreen probably. like...you can't just say stuff like that with no warning!!
#explodes. too much affection#inkfloat • 🍨#platonic#i think i might be blowing up the platonic eff/oh tag lol
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Subspace doodles (PHIGHTING! Mermaid au)


so I was thinking more about the PHIGHTING mermaid au I’m doing and. What if subspaces’ gas- instead of being like actual gas, was polluted oil? I think that could make for a really cool trope if I ever were to redesign him for it :3!
For the design notes in specific:
When out of control, his “gas” takes the form of polluted oil, in control (as in wearing his mask and tank) it gets filtered into something akin to toxic brine (in which long exposure to can cause a lot of issues, specifically different types of shock, breathing issues, etc). Although the brine isn’t too dangerous to be around in small amounts, it can be harmful over time.
for those wondering what ACTUAL brine water (or more specifically brine pools) are, it’s pretty much a large accumulation of highly concentrated saltwater (which usually is around 10 times saltier then the ocean surrounding it) For most sea animals this brine means instant death due to the fact that is has no oxygen in it as well as the high saline levels.


(Im hyper fixating again can you tell)
#AUUUUUGH#ME WJEN THE#ME WHEN THE OCEAN IS THE COOLEST THING EVER#Anyways yeah! My inner marine biologist is coming out again it seems!#I think this would would pretty well for squidspace#Unfiltered his gas is polluted oil and filtered its lower concentrations of brine#Subspaces filtered brine I feel like would be around a 2-4 on how salty it is compared to the rest of the water#I also imagine that the oil he produces can be collected- and is used to help power the biografts#His urchins are also INCREDIBLY unstable#And will explode if thrown/stepped on/and or are handled a bit too roughly#To subspace hes immune to their affects#But to others they can be really dangerous as oil can stick to fins/gills/or mouths#Anyways enjoy this small thing#i love the world building for this au so much#I’m so proud of myself for coming up with it#I can’t WAIT for mermay >:3#art#artists on tumblr#phighting fanart#phighting!#digital art#roblox phighting#phighting#phighting art#roblox#phighting roblox#phighting! roblox#phighting! art#phighting! subspace#subspace tripmine
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Does my secret problem with object-head characters explain why I like Dr.Strangeglove so much
#sorry but i need every excuse in the book as to why i like him. If I like him it is because of some event that happened thirty years ago.#But also object-head characters are cool. There just arent. many. And I am awful at making OCs.#Part of the reason why i couldnt settle on a design for The Narrator was because vaguely human thing but also. There's like a 'canonical'-#-thing of him having like the TV box head. In an office he makes theres a thing of fanart with it and some people are taking it as a-#-'confirmation' for how he looks.#Maybe Im just waiting for the moment where I open that counter app for 'days since [moment] and hoping it will start ticking backwards.#Okay maybe Im not hoping it starts ticking backwards but yknow.#Gosh I hate/ MMAN. THOSWE TWISTMAS PICTURES JUST HAVE ME SO#hrugh9ty8wytw78htw98ht0drgu894&%#get him out of here im begging.#“No one is going to take him seriously because of me” he already did it himself and he's still Monstro's biggest problem or whatever.#head in my hands over him. Logging onto TF2 before I have to contemplate my burst of affections over him and. oh. oh dear./ oh noo.#oh i WANT to talka about him oohhh noooo ohnnooono no ononono no no nonon on no nooo no..no.#This is differnt. nmormally it is a dam breaking and i HAVE to talk i have no choice.#Now.. I dont have to talk.... nohting that i feel like if i dont share a bomb will go offf... no burst...#i. i dont even have an anallogy for this!!!#i dont know. went from NEED to talk and oh dear if i am drivbing everyone mad but if i dont talk i will explode into bitty bits. vs.#vs. I just. i dont even have anything partiuclar to say. i just. want to.t..talkgsdgww9wethnioengei#Slowly pull pictures of him out of my wallet and wave them around#and then pretend to gasp and point at something dire and then quickly run away when i get asked why theres pictures of him in myh wallet.#this wasnt. this was suppose to end. earlyier. this post. is this why i have been saying too much.#Maybe I cant hide but I can run. I say while opening up TF2. As if ThingsTM dont lie there in general anyways already.
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Hello it's the anon who said about the Ivan collar thing 😭. I come with some little brainrots.
Mizi sang "Black Sorrow" as a solo cover for unrequited love, with Sua being dead.
But the cover made me think. What if somehow Sua, in a way, is the Till to Mizi's Ivan. What if Sua, even if she loves Mizi back, never really fully indulged in it.
Specially in "My Clematis" where Mizi regarded Sua as a god, all I can imagine is Sua who always kept a perfect image in front of everyone including Mizi. Sua who never really showed her vulnerability to Mizi even though the other girl bared her entire heart. Just the idea that she somewhat kept a mask of pretend, letting Mizi be as blissful as it can be before the inevitable.
Aka tragic Yuri breaking my heart that Sua had to keep her own planned death a secret from her beloved because of one (and only) little selfish wish, which is to let Mizi live.
(Also sorry for spamming asks this frequently! I've been going through ALNST hyperfixations and your blog have a great humor.)
DONT EVER BE SORRY FOR SPAMMING ASKS! they make me really happy! Thank you so much! Sorry it takes me a while to answer them sometimes, my brains been pretty messy as of late, and I keep losing track of time.
That's a really interesting perspective to see it from. Regarding their relationship as a whole, I actually think it was the opposite. Sua only ever opened up to Mizi, and to everyone else she was timid and closed off. That was one of the reasons why their bond was so strong, they clung to each other. Sua retreats into herself, avoiding others in an attempt to protect her soft-hearted feelings, only sticking to Mizi because she loved and trusted her most. Mizi loved Sua like a dog because she was a cure for her loneliness back when Mizi felt isolated and afraid of being away from her home. They gave each other everything, which is why the thought of Mizi dying filled Sua with so much anguish that she'd rather die herself.
But if we're talking about the few weeks leading up to the first round of ALNST (you probably meant this, my bad) then definitely. She spent the last of her life counting down the hours, putting on a brave face and trying to make the remainder of her time with Mizi the best it could possibly be. I assume it was Mizi that proposed a tie. Sua played along, or maybe even believed in it at first, because ALIEN STAGE was something that they both looked forward to their whole lives, something that was held over their heads like a reward instead of the death sentence it actually was. Sua most likely started planning her death after she realized the possible consequences. The thing is, according to the MiziSua interview, a tie had never happened before in ALIEN STAGE. Which means that we don't know what happens if a tie actually does occur. It seems unlikely that ALIEN STAGE, which derives its stakes from the deaths of the contestants, would let both go forward thanks to a tie. I mean, if that happened, then everyone else would just decide to tie in order to keep each other alive, and where's the fun in a deathless season? Where's the stakes in that? It goes against everything ALIEN STAGE is built on. If a tie did happen, they most likely would have forced a situation where one of them would have to die anyway. It just lengthens the process and makes it more complicated. I like to think that, at some point, Sua realized this. If they tie, there's no guarantee that they both stay alive. In a tie situation, they might even randomly pick the contestant to be eliminated. The circumstances are uncertain and unpredictable, and within those hypotheticals Mizi dying is always an option. But if Sua adjusts her own performance level without Mizi knowing, she can ensure that the only person who has to die is herself. As stated before, Sua is soft-hearted. Her blank demeanor is indeed a mask for overwhelming feelings that lie beneath the surface. Mizi worships Sua, but Sua loves Mizi an incredible amount too. She must have loved her so much that Ivan, an exceedingly observant asshole (affectionate), picked up on it and was able to discern her intentions. Ivan criticizes Sua for choosing to sacrifice herself, calling her out for "playing hero", but most importantly, accusing her of dying only because she herself cannot handle the pain of losing someone she loves. She cannot fathom living a life where Mizi is dead, so she "runs away" from it by any means possible. He accuses her of being a hypocrite because the future that pains her to think about is one that she is about to inflict on her beloved. Is it an act of love or an act of selfishness? Is Ivan twisting her genuinely pure intentions and chastising her into believing that it makes her a bad person? Despite being hit with this crisis and crying over it, Sua decides to sacrifice herself anyway. And her happy mask was so impressive that Mizi failed to notice she was digging her own grave.
Sua not "indulging" in her love for Mizi is actually really interesting, and I can see how it can come off that way because Mizi is much more affectionate. But I actually think otherwise!
I think it's not really that she refused to indulge in her love, rather she indulged in it so much that she died to ensure she'd never have to live without it.
#i had to delete an entire paragraph just to not yap too much but i completely agree that till and sua are alike.#they are the 'gods' and the life of their other half basically revolve around them#but while till might not indulge in his affections for ivan#sua fully indulges in her love for mizi because its all she has#it's really interesting how sua and till are both sensitive according to the Patreon yet the way they cope with that is different.#till explodes outward and sua retreats within#SORRY I CANT EVER ANSWER AN ASK NORMALLY I ALWAYS HAVE TO TYPE THE LONGEST MOST UNRELATED SHIT#Thank you for the ask!! i really appreciate and i find your take very valid and intriguing actually#alnst#alien stage#mizisua#asks
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i agree with 🎂 anon, you're awesome and I always look forward to your posts!
YOU CAN'T FOLLOW UP NICE THINGS WITH MORE NICE THINGS!!! (silly!!!)
That is very nice of you to say, and it makes me very happy, so thank you!!!
#bean talks too much#oc: bean#sona tag#nice things#okay time for bed before my heart explodes with affection!!! (silly!!!)
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Do NOT update me on that bitch unless he is DEAD (or doing so terribly it’s comical)
#goddddddddddd it’s not fair how much of my mind he still takes up /neg#in like. in a way that every time I’m walking alone in my neighborhood I feel my heart race in fear that Today will be the day I see him#and then what will happen#realistically nothing but he makes me so irrationally scared and anxious#I hate our proximity dear god let him be exploded#cause I haven’t had therapy and don’t know how to unpack All Of That. every time I think too hard about it it’s like#I end up in a negative feedback loop. I’m so sick and tired of it and how it Stays affecting me. whateverrrrrr it doesn’t even matter
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I have a soft spot for jealous leads, mcs who aren’t charming or well liked, or even necessarily nice. I bet on losing dogs type characters. Rat girls and losers. More of that in stories, please <3
#this is where ttp is heading I think#Kellan is like……#he has SO many issues#he literally let someone amputate all his limbs so they would like him more#and he obviously NOT well adjusted about his rejection sensitivity#outwardly he is so charming and almost docile; he’ll give anyone anything they ask for as long as they give him affection#but inside he’s a mess#Ada too#she is like full throttle chaos by the time chapter two hits#she USED to be sweet and kind and she still understands how to PRETEND to be that way#and she knows how to use her ditzy appearance to get what she wants#but she threatens to stab the man holding her boat hostage#she thinks about pushing several people overboard#she lets someone else take the fall for her petty thievery#their sense of right and wrong is so warped and it takes them meeting each other to remember how to be human#sorry I have to talk about them or I will explode <3#they are my horrible little rat children I love them so much and they are awful#squawk tag
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Reg' doesn't know how to ask for attention so when he want it he just stand close to the person he want attention from until they give it to him
Also when the say person start to give a bit too much affection he panic and run away while acting like he never wanted affection at all which everyone know is false
#marauder era#regulus potter#regulus black#regulus being regulus#regulus is a cat#james is the only one he don't run away from even when he got “too much” affection#but don't tell him#his ego would explode
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my freak wife
#tide of consciousness#Being insane abt Entropy in particular is really funny bc if I ever made a story out of the characters here.#Entropy literally does not exist. The impetus of nearly every character I file under ash to dust dust to me#Is that Entropy Does Not exist#I'm obsessed with her she's the definition of haunting the narrative and no one who reads this hypothetical story would#Actually know or care about her. She's literally not even a character and yet I'm insane about her#oc: entropy.#I love getting attached to characters of mine that realistically are barely even characters to begin with#She's literally a side character and then any reality in which this side character exists gets erased#And then she goes on to metaphorically and literally destroy herself for a given definition of herself.#Mechanically she 'wasn't supposed' to be much of a character and is defined solely by what she lacks after the fact#And then she freaks out about that so hard she explodes into nonexistence.#SHE'S SO FUNNY. SHE'S BARELY A THING THAT EXISTS I LOVE HER.#Check out how hard I can apply meaning to and read into typical storytelling roles in a way that is very intense#For something that's not actually that deep or complicated I just have a lot of thoughts about the implied role and the requirements of#A story and how being 'a story' affects the different characters and fillers that are involved in selling a story#And how 'characters' as a concept are more tools to push the meaning rather than individuals#which isn't inherently bad or anything that's how you tell a story#I'm just. Way too abnormal about ideas of personhood and expectations and feeling out of place or fake#Smiling and grinning
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i saw you talk about wolf a few times from sekiro and was wondering if you'd want to share more of your thoughts on him or sekiro as a whole, the game really interests me compared to other dark souls games so i wanted to ask
sorry for the late reply but oh boy do I have thoughts abt wolf. trying not to spoil the game, so I'm gonna refrain from talking about the story. might go into just restating known things about the game, but I'd much rather play it safe and not spoil the story
before going to that. the game is very much different from dark souls (setting wise, while taking place in a fictional country it is in a historical setting. I cannot comment on the setting properly bc I don't know much about the time period, however), most notably in the combat (primarily shifting from a dodge-centric playstyle to a parry-centric playstyle (significantly easier than dark souls/elden ring parrying, however), with dodges having significantly shorter i-frames and being very unreliable for dodging attacks). it's very different but something I really enjoy, even if I'm not as good as I am at typical soulsborne combat. it's really fun when you get the hang of it, and while I might not be The Best at it (which is mostly bc of how different it is from soulsborne games, so ofc I'm not as good at is as I am at the other fromsoft games I've played), it's something I can still enjoy
a huge thing about sekiro is the difference in how the story is told. in soulsborne games the story is something you have to figure out; progressing through the main path doesn't give you enough to piece everything together if you don't read any lore. with sekiro, however, the story is significantly more obvious, on account of the playable character having unique ties to the world and its characters, rather than going the soulsborne route of being one of many people (wording hard, but the chosen undead for example is no one special, just one of many undead trying to link the flame). it's a very different method of storytelling, but is still something really good. for as much as I adore having to actively hunt down lore and story in soulsborne games, it's also great experiencing story through natural game progression
wolf is also canonically disabled (loses his left arm at the start of the game) and has a really fucking cool prosthetic that is a whole part of the combat system (even though I personally keep forgetting to use it). so good for him. he deserves a prosthetic that can have deadly weaponry attached to it. like a mini-flamethrower. he deserves a mini-flamethrower, as a treat.
putting the wolf thoughts beneath a read more because this is getting long and I might spoil some stuff (mostly relationship with another character, I'll try to refrain from story spoilers. also spoilers in general, but there might be some), and he has definitely become a blorbo (additionally, content warning for abuse)
first of all. wolf makes me want to throw myself off a cliff and I mean this in the most positive way ever. he is great and I love him but man he needs so much fucking therapy and he doesn't even realise it (therapy probably doesn't exist in that time period, but besides the point). he is very much traumatised and has been heavily shaped by it and doesn't even know it.
prior to the events of the game (I forgot how long ago it was) he was orphaned by war and got taken in by owl, a shinobi and also a piece of fucking garbage. owl raises wolf to be a shinobi under the iron code, with the number one rule being loyalty to his father (owl), with his master (kuro, the divine heir) a close second (and also to give his life for his master if necessary. which is also a whole other thing to get into).
owl is very explicitly abusive. he raises wolf as a tool rather than a person, and that upbringing severely affects wolf as a character - he is an incredibly capable shinobi, but lacks any skills other than that; he does not know how to be a proper person, he is a loyal wolf, but he does not know how to be anything other than that. hell, without spoiling too much about the context, there is a cutscene in which owl actively attempts to guilt trip wolf, going as far as using fake tears (saying anything specific is very spoilery. this isn't even the only horrid thing he's done, but I'm trying to refrain from too many spoilers).
wolf canonically does not value himself without anyone to serve (we see this at the beginning of the game, as events prior to the start of the game not yet known about leads him to believe he has no one to serve, and thus no purpose, so he isolates himself from the world in a well for 3 years). while he does have compassion for others (most notable example being concern over victims of dragonrot), he starts off the game driven primarily by duty. he is loyal to a fault, willing to do anything for kuro, but also valuing his service to kuro more than himself (cannot remember the exact wording, but when kuro expresses concern for how many times wolf has died for him, wolf states that it does not matter as it was in service to him).
there's also the fact that wolf canonically eats uncooked rice and genuinely doesn't know - as a fully grown adult - you are supposed to cook it, which is... genuinely something awful if you truly think about it and what more it implies about his upbringing especially considering it's one of the most basic things you could learn how to make (just... says a lot about owl if you seriously think about it).
he is a loyal wolf, but he doesn't know how to be more than that. he doesn't know how to just... exist for himself, to be his own person separate of his duty and he doesn't even recognise just how fucked up it is, because how could he, when he was shaped into this as a child, when his own father wanted him to be nothing more than a tool to use.
I could say a lot more about his relationships with other characters (that are actually good people) and how it just. makes me lose my mind, but this post is almost 1k words. so, simply put, kuro genuinely caring about him makes me so fucking emotional, especially bc of owl; his father might be horrible and an abuser, he might not know how to be more than he was raised, but at the very least he can serve someone who actively cares about him and his wellbeing.
#THERE IS SO MUCH TO DISSECT ABT HIS CHARACTER AND HOW HEAVILY IT WAS AFFECTED BY HIS UPBRINGING#I've seen a handful of people call him boring bc he doesn't say much and isn't that expressive emotionally and none of them are valid#I'm gonna explode those people with my mind powers. he isn't boring you just don't understand how to analyse characters#I need need need to get this man to some fucking therapy he so desperately needs it and doesn't even know it#if there ever was a fromsoft character most in need of therapy poll he would sweep and if he didn't I'd explode people with my mind powers#also I realise now a lot of my thoughts abt the game are just. restating known parts abt the game. I apologise for not being more specific#if you wanted to know my thoughts abt the story specifically. oops. I AM sorry but I do want to play it safe#I also do really appreciate how it was like. the (or at least one of?) first game in this time period made by a japanese company#which is part of why there are some things I do not know how to comment on bc I am very much a white canadian#also has a small poison swamp location. might be a plus for some people. I personally don't mind most poison swamps too much though#and ngl I kinda miss the iconic large poison swamp you have to traverse. it could be really fun being able to grapple#did I mention his prosthetic has a fucking grapple built in? well it does and it's really fun for movement.
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... how am I meant to get any sort of restful sleep when it's like 85F indoors in my bedroom at NIGHT .. hhhhhhhhhhhhhh
#why the next poll adventure and everything else has taken so long lol.. I straight up have just not done anything#the past few days... staring down my todo list and sweating hopelessly#AT LEAST it;s relatively low humidity. the highest it's been up to is maybe 65%. but is usually around 50 or 40ish#There is one small window air conditioner in a roomate's room that can KIND OF be shared by nailing a sheet up to block off the hallway#with the rooms in it so the cool air goes into the other bedrooms but doesnt flow out into the kitchen or etc but#wjhen it's the time of day that the sun is directly hitting the window & it's like 102F outside even that doesnt help much. to cool 3 rooms#and I always feel like we're going to explode the air conditioner or something running it too much with direct heat on it. sometimes it#smells like hot plastic or whatever ghj.. so it's mostly just.. block off all windows with 5 layers of blankets and cardboard#starting at 10am (meaning.. no indoor light for days basically.. no natural lighting.. time passes weird. hard to determine time of day).#throw water on the bed every night so you sleep in wet sheets and keep your clothes and hair wet at all times. ice. cold drinks. keep a#little fan running pointed directly at you nearly 24/7 even when sleeping with a fan blowing air on you makes your eyes and throat painfull#dry. etc. etc.. and i KNOW people have it worse in plenty of places blah blah. i am just complaining on my little blog that is about me lol#I think the biggest thing about lack of adequate/central air conditioning for me is just the LACK of productivity!!! I am working on games!#and novels!! and so many other crafts. costumes! sculptures!!! things I want to do!!! we all have a limited amount of time on this planet a#nd I have so many goals!! To lose basically 4-5 days straight or producivity - when if I had been able to temperature#control my environment better I could have easily gotten more done because I wouldn't be laying around nuseous and too hot#and sick to do anything all day etc. -- is like.... GRRRRRR... it just feels so senseless.. i could have USEd that time...#Every CEO who has contributed to global warming owes me 1million doallrs to fund my art projects and make up for all the time#I've lost on them due to their stupid bullshit.. also they should be stoned to death in a public square. but redistribute the money FIRST#to everyone on the planet. but especially people who have been affected by floods. fires. etc. etc.#poor people who have limited choice in housing and access to air conditioning. homeless people in cooling centers. people with disabillitie#and health issues that are worse in the heat so the entire future just seems increasingly terrifying for them. etc. etc.#ANYWAY.... eughhhgh.... It can cool down SLIGHTLY at night but the past few nights I have been sleeping in an 81 degree room and I wake up#and first thing in the morning its like 82 by then and I'm so nauseous and nasty feeling... just so so tired of it.. I NEED SNOW#literally not even joking.. snow would heal me. .. oughffff...#AND i got the new nasty stinky poo poo pee pee tumblr dashboard update lol.. e v i l
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found some of my essays from a world history class i took... you know the essays you spend two nights prepping and panicking for and then scramble to write during the bell period... well i found one about the universal nature of war in response to a class project and What the Fuck was I On when writing that. What The Fuck
#THATS WHY I SCORED ABOVE AN 100% IN THAT CLASS. OKAY#I UNDERSTAND NOW#ramblings#this started because i found my class notebook. which i took very good notes in#so i was like oh lets see whats going on here and then my brain exploded#i love history classes so much im so serious#ive also super lucked out in terms of teachers both this year and last year. and the year before truly#but my brain just goes WHAHAH at info like this. i love looking at the world and Figuring It Out. also like. its a humanitites story yk#my teachers are always very good at showing that aspect too. asking you questions that make you think about it all.#anyways i was looking up illiberal democracy definition bc it got tossed around in class a while back and like Ohkay. i understand#referring to jan 6th as jan 6th and like having the understanding that that Date alone means something symbolic and important. lack of a#smooth transition into power. yk#specifically thinking about the universal nature of war response cuz like. yeah. its universal#histroy repeats itself blah blah but also the people living are intrinsically linked by circumstances that don't seem like they have any#affect on each other but they invoke such a similar feeling#also i ended that essay by tying in the idea of hope like seriously how did i do that#what on earth was i on. i hope i made my teacher's brain explode#i did get an 100 on that essay and a proud comment too i think so it was worth it all#annnnd nobody will ever see these tags. good
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fuck why cant i study for the exams im supposed to study
#ihatearaihatearabicihatearabicihatearabicihatearabicihatearabicihatearabicihatearabicihatearabicihatearabicihatearabicihatearabicihatearabi#and the teacher as well#i have psychics too but even it is easier#ughh if i get bad my general grade will be affected TOO MUCH#and im supposed to study 50 pages and memories like 40 words + some grammar rules#i dont wanna do this shit#why do i have to go religious school I HATE HERE#I DONT WANT A LEARN THAT LANGUAGE#btw our arabic teacher is the worst fucking teacher ever#i hope she explodes#esp today she got on my nerves#bitch you aint my mom STOP ASKING ME PERSONAL QUESTIONS FUCK YOU#AND MY EXAMS ARE MY RESPONSIBILITY NOT YOURS#K I L L Y O U R S E L F#I CANT EVEN STAND HEARING UR VOICE#OR SEEING YOUR FACE#JUST FUCK YOU AND LEAVE THIS SCHOOL#YOU DISGUSTING CREATURE#tmrw i'll look at the pregnant drawing of her that my friend made and chill down lol#(it was satisfying)#anw im gonna eat an apple#cuz im still sick and we dont have any medicine so im trying to recover by traditional way#lmao#`•liviepostin
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what i wouldn't give to be able to consistently breathe through even like one of my nostrils
#i'm like 95% it's allergies because it's Prime Season for my particular set of pollen-related ones#we've had a particularly bad few days of it - several of which we had the windows open for#and one of the worst days i had my window open for the whole day#the air purifier can only do so much alas#and it's the ones that affect my OAS which -- hoo nelly i'm not allowed to have tomatoes at all anymore huh#especially during the months of July-September i think i just have to admit defeat#i react SO MUCH to them and their accompanying grass pollen#gotta watch out and make sure the ragweed ones don't kick off real bad too#it's a damn good thing i decided bananas weren't worth the risk#it's a shame i've taken as long as i have to determine tomatoes might also not be worth the risk#gonna have to keep my eye on a few others too just in case like ugh#fucking.... the worst part is that apparently if it gets bad enough my whole body explodes#that coupled with being unable to breathe through my nose has made existence a little tricky#but i am fairly confident i have missed all of the covid germs somehow#i've not been *stellar* at the preventative measures but it's not feeling like how everyone else described it#and since i know i have really horrible allergies (thanks mom) (fucking bloodline curse) it's more likely that than anything else#it's just annoying and disheartening and scary when we *are* on the lookout for covid symptoms#and everyone's on the up and up and i'm getting hit like a fucking truck#ugh...#anyway. that's my update here's to being able to breathe again soon
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The Boy Is Mine

poly!wolfstar x fem!reader
summary: you’re quiet by nature, content in the background—until someone pushes too far. When a girl flirts with Remus, something shifts. With one kiss and a quiet claim, you remind everyone exactly who he ( and Sirius) belong to.
warnings: possessiveness, jealousy, strong language, suggestive content, heated kiss, and public displays of affection.
wc: 3.4k
a/n: i need both Remus and Sirius at the same damn time.
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You’ve never been the loudest in the room.
You don’t need to be. Not when Sirius is tossing his head back laughing beside you, all glittering chaos and charm, or when Remus leans in close, voice low and deliberate, like every word he says is meant only for you.
They fill the space so effortlessly—Sirius with his magnetic presence, Remus with his quiet gravity—and you find yourself fitting between them like a breath between heartbeats. Steady, constant and soft.
You like watching more than speaking. Not out of shyness exactly, but because you enjoy observing—feeling everything. It’s the way Remus’s thumb circles over your knee under the table without him even realizing. The way Sirius always saves you the last bite, even when he swears he won’t. You don’t need to be loud to be loved here.
They know you. They’ve always known you.
Sirius, who pulls you into the middle of the common room and spins you in dizzy circles until you’re breathless with laughter. Remus, who presses his nose into your hair when the world feels too sharp and mumbles poetry against your skin.
Between the two of them, you’ve never had to shout to be heard. They listen in the silence. They love you in the quiet.
But sometimes, even the quiet hums with something fierce.
And today, it’s starting to burn.
The loud music thumps through the walls, pulsing in your veins, but all you can hear is Remus’s voice rising above the chatter of the party. He’s talking to a girl, one whose name doesn’t matter.
because you’re already irritated.
Sirius is speaking beside you—his voice low and animated, probably bantering with James about something as thrillingly idiotic as who cheated in the last round of Exploding Snap—but the words barely register. They fade into the background like the bass of the music humming through the party, the way laughter spills and drips from every corner of the Gryffindor common room like syrup.
You’re curled up beside him on the leather couch, soft and familiar, half draped across his lap like you belong there, because you do. His palm is warm against your skin, fingers lazy as they trace circles over your thigh, an unconscious kind of touch that says mine without needing the word.
But your attention isn’t on Sirius.
It’s fixed—razor sharp and unblinking—on the girl across the room.
She’s all lip gloss and bright laughter, the kind of girl who doesn’t walk into a room so much as glitter through it. Her blouse is buttoned just low enough to draw the eye, her skirt just short enough to be a statement. She leans in closer to Remus like she’s in a slow-motion daydream, twirling a strand of hair around her finger as she giggles at something he said.
Except Remus isn’t laughing.
He’s smiling, but you know that smile. It’s the strained one. The tight-lipped, please-don’t-make-this-weird smile he gives when someone crosses the line and he’s too damn kind to push them away.
And she—well. She’s not backing off.
Your fingers tighten around the stem of your glass. Not enough to shatter it, but enough to feel it, to ground yourself before the rising tide inside you gets too high. The jealousy doesn’t burn. No, it doesn’t scream or sputter like some childish tantrum. It’s quiet. Sharp. Ice in your veins, snow behind your ribs. It’s precise.
You watch her touch his arm, watch her eyes flutter and her voice pitch just so. You watch Remus stand there with all that quiet discomfort in his shoulders and all that unnecessary politeness keeping him rooted in place.
And something inside you shifts.
You’re not the loud one at these parties. You’re not the girl who shouts or struts or demands. You’re the one who stays curled up in the lap of a boy with stardust in his smile, sipping your drink while the chaos unfurls around you. You’re the calm in their storm, the softness they return to.
But not tonight.
Because tonight, someone is trying to touch what’s yours.
And whether Remus knows it yet or not, whether that girl ever figures out just how royally she’s miscalculated, one thing is already certain.
You are about to stop being the quiet one.
“Moony’s got his fan club going tonight, huh?” Sirius says, his tone casual, his fingers playing with a loose thread on the hem of your sleeve. “I swear, every time he talks to a girl, she looks like she’s ready to devour him.”
You hum, an absent sound, not really acknowledging him. Your gaze stays fixed on Remus and that damn girl, the way she’s tossing her hair back and laughing too loudly.
“You okay, dove?” His voice drops a little, his fingers tracing the line of your spine with a slow, deliberate motion.
You want to lie. You want to say it’s fine, that you’re just tired or distracted, but the words get stuck in your throat. Instead, you give a small shake of your head, the fluttering in your chest too strong to ignore.
“I’m fine,” you mutter, a little too quickly. “Just… thinking.”
Sirius’s eyes narrow slightly, but he doesn’t push. He knows you well enough to sense when you need space, but tonight, there’s something different. The energy in the room feels electric, like it’s just waiting for a spark.
Remus laughs again from across the room, and this time, the girl reaches up to touch his arm, her fingers trailing lightly along his sleeve. The sight, the sound, the way her body leans just a little too close to his, sends a pang of something sharp through you. Your breath catches in your throat as you watch her lean in, her lips too close to his ear as she whispers something.
Your fingers grip the edge of the couch, your nails digging into the fabric. You feel like you’re going to snap at any moment, and you’re so sick of it.
Sirius seems to notice the shift in the air. His hand halts on your back, and he turns his head toward Remus and the girl, then back to you. His expression softens, understanding settling in. He leans forward, his voice low as he speaks, a slight smirk playing on his lips.
“Love, I think we’ve reached a new level here,” he says, voice laced with something almost teasing. “You’ve been staring at him for ages now.”
You swallow hard, trying to keep the fluttering in your chest under control. “I’m not staring,” you say, but even you can hear the edge in your voice.
He raises an eyebrow. “Oh? ‘Cause I think you’ve definitely been staring. You want me to go over there and break it up?”
“No,” you snap, a little too quickly, and then you freeze, realizing just how harsh you sound. You soften your tone, but the words still feel like they’re cutting you open. “I… I don’t know.”
Sirius doesn’t push you, but he watches you carefully, his lips curling into a small, knowing smile.
You shift uncomfortably, your gaze returning to Remus and the girl. It’s like a magnet pulling you in, the way she laughs again, her hand resting on his shoulder now, fingers tracing the outline of his collarbone.
The thought makes you want to scream.
You watch the girl lean in closer, her breath light against his ear as she says something you can’t hear, but you can see it in the way her lashes flutter and her lips curl. It’s an obvious flirtation, the kind of thing that would make anyone else swoon, but you just feel your stomach twist in knots. Remus gives a tight, polite smile, the one he always does when he’s too kind to be rude, but you know that smile too well. It’s a mask, a shield, and you can see right through it. He’s uncomfortable, but he doesn’t stop her.
The touch lingers. And Remus—sweet, gentle, infuriating Remus—doesn’t stop her.
He doesn’t pull away. Doesn’t step back. He doesn’t even glance in your direction.
And maybe that’s the worst part.
Maybe he’s just being polite. Maybe he’s too soft-spoken for his own good. Maybe he thinks you don’t mind, that you’re tucked up on the couch beside Sirius, warm and safe and unbothered. Maybe he’s forgotten that while you may be quiet, you’re not blind.
But oh, you care.
You care enough that your drink is forgotten in your hand, the condensation sliding over your fingers like cold sweat. You care enough that your jaw clenches tight, the muscle ticking with a quiet fury that pulses behind your ribs. There’s a pressure building in your chest, a weight that has nothing to do with insecurity and everything to do with possession.
You’ve always known what’s yours.
And Remus?
He is yours.
The room around you begins to blur, voices fading into background noise, like someone’s turned the volume down on the rest of the party. The flickering firelight, the chatter of students, the low buzz of magical music—all of it dulls. All you can see is the way she’s looking at him, lips parted in a practiced little smile, eyes batting as if she’s never had to work hard for attention in her life.
You hear her laugh—sharp and high and entirely insincere—and it cuts through you like a blade. Remus chuckles along with her, and it’s that sound, that soft little sound of his, that makes something in your spine snap straight. His eyes catch the light just right, that familiar glint of mischief and charm you’ve seen a thousand times when he’s teasing you softly beneath the covers, and it stings more than you’d like to admit.
And suddenly, you are no longer the quiet girl curled in the corner.
You are no longer the soft one who waits patiently for your boys to come home to you.
You are standing up, not with a shout or a dramatic flourish, but with a kind of cold certainty, like the sea deciding to rise. Sirius shifts beside you instinctively, his hand brushing your back as he senses the change in the air, his voice dipping with curiosity.
“Love?” he says quietly, brows raising. “Everything alright?”
You don’t answer. Not yet.
Because your eyes are still locked on the girl in the too-tight blouse and the too-pretty smile and the entirely wrong assumption that she has any right to touch your Remus like she belongs there.
She doesn’t.
And she’s about to learn exactly why.
It never felt like you needed to compete for Remus’s attention. He had always been yours in that quiet, unspoken way—his careful gestures, the soft smiles he gave you when no one was looking, the way he always made sure you were okay, even when you didn’t ask. You had a bond, something deeper than words. But now, watching him allow her to invade that space, something inside you snaps.
She’s leaning into him like he’s already hers, one manicured hand lingering on his forearm, like she doesn’t see the slight pullback in his posture. Like she doesn’t notice the way his smile doesn’t quite reach his eyes.
Sirius’s hand slips off your thigh, stunned. “Where’re you going?”
“To get what’s mine.” you say, and your voice is soft, sultry, but it slices through the noise like a blade.
James chokes on his drink. Lily turns, eyebrows lifting as she watches you stalk forward, hips swaying, jumper slouching off one bare shoulder. You hear someone mutter, “Bloody hell.” and you don’t even need to look to know Marlene is probably grinning like a wolf.
The girl is still touching Remus. Still laughing.
You don’t give her the chance to speak. You don’t give him a moment to explain, or to blink, or to pretend he doesn’t feel the air shift as you close the distance between you like a storm cloaked in silk.
Your fingers slip beneath the hem of his jumper, curl tightly into the soft wool, and tug. Hard. Hard enough that he stumbles forward, just one step, just enough to crash into your gravity.
His eyes find yours, startled and wide, and for a heartbeat he forgets where he is. The party, the music, the girl whose perfume is still clinging to the air around him—all of it vanishes the moment your lips catch his.
It is not a kiss built from politeness or affection. It is not the kind of thing meant for privacy or delicacy.
This kiss is war.
It’s bruising and slow and devastating, like a spell whispered in the middle of a battlefield. Your hand tangles in his curls and tugs, just enough to make him gasp into your mouth. Your other hand slides down to his belt, fingers brushing over the buckle, teasing with the lightest hint of promise. You tilt your head to deepen it, your lips parting just slightly, just enough to taste him.
He groans, low and helpless, the sound caught between your mouths, and you smile against him, smug and sinful.
When you finally pull away, his lips are pink and glistening and parted like he’s about to say something but hasn’t figured out what language he speaks anymore. His hands are still hovering at your hips, and his chest is rising with uneven breath, eyes clouded with something that’s definitely not confusion.
You turn to the girl, and she looks like she’s just witnessed something religious and blasphemous at the same time. Her mouth is hanging open. Her expression is frozen in that awkward no-man’s-land between horror and disbelief.
“Oh,” you say sweetly, voice thick with honey and venom, “were you still talking? Only he seems a bit busy now.”
She blinks. Opens her mouth. Closes it. You don’t give her time to think. You trail your fingers down the front of Remus’s chest, slowly, like you’re remembering the way his body feels under your hands and enjoying every second of it. You play with the collar of his shirt, letting your nails drag across the fabric, soft and sure.
Your eyes never leave hers.
“I mean,” you go on, voice quieter now, conversational in a way that is somehow even more intimidating, “I don’t blame you. Honestly. Look at him. He’s got that whole clever boy thing going on, right? The kind of boy who knows all the answers in class and still somehow makes you want to climb into his lap and ruin his concentration. And don’t even get me started on that body—tall and lean and unfair, and the scars…” you let your fingers trail over his chest again, nails teasing the fabric, “Body built like a sin under those clothes, too bad only me and Sirius get to see it though.”
A grin spreads across your face, wide and wicked like a cheshire cat.
Remus lets out a sound that’s definitely not family friendly and buries his face in your neck for a second, either to breathe you in or to hide the fact that he might actually combust.
James lets out a strangled sound from across the room. “What the actual hell is going on?”
Lily is watching with wide, fascinated eyes, looking between you and the girl like she’s witnessing a lioness dismantle a bunny in slow motion. Marlene, from her spot near the fireplace, raises her drink in silent toast and mutters, “Finally.”
You lean in close to Remus, pressing your lips to the shell of his ear. “But here’s the thing,” you whisper, just loud enough for the girl to still hear.
“He’s mine.”
Then you pull back and look her dead in the eye, your gaze soft but lethal.
“And I don’t share.”
The girl blinks once. Twice. Then turns with all the grace of someone trying not to run.
Remus just stares at you for a long moment, breathless, hands still planted on your waist like he’s afraid to let go in case the earth tilts and he floats away.
“What the hell just happened?” he asks, voice low, rough, and wrecked.
Sirius appears beside you like smoke, sliding his arm around your waist as he grins like you’ve hung the bloody stars for him.
The girl’s mouth parts, clearly searching for a clever retort, something sharp or self-righteous or maybe even pathetic to claw her dignity back from the floor where you left it. But the words never come. Her lips tremble like she’s buffering. You don’t give her the chance to reboot.
Instead, with calm that borders on cruelty, you turn back to Remus and brush your lips against the corner of his mouth. Not a full kiss this time, but something quieter, more dangerous. A period at the end of a sentence she was never invited to read.
You feel the way he freezes for just a moment, breath hitching as your fingers slide up to rest at the base of his throat, just enough pressure to remind him—and everyone watching—exactly who he belongs to.
The common room is stunned into silence. Even the portrait hole seems to creak softer, like the whole castle is holding its breath.
And then James, bless his nosy little soul, practically falls off the arm of the couch. He stares at you with something like religious awe, eyes as wide as Galleons, hand clutching his drink like a lifeline.
“That,” he says reverently, voice cracking with disbelief, “was the hottest thing I have ever witnessed. And I saw Sirius in a crop top once.”
Sirius doesn’t even bother to pretend he’s unaffected. He slumps back against the couch, one hand dragging through his hair like he’s trying to keep his brain from melting. His grin is crooked and wild, like he’s seeing you for the first time all over again.
“Merlin’s tits,” he says, almost reverent. “I think I’m in love. Again.”
Lily, sitting upright with her legs crossed like she’s hosting a panel discussion, blinks slowly. Her jaw is slightly ajar, her drink forgotten on the floor.
“Did she just… flirt and threaten simultaneously?” she asks, clearly reevaluating everything she thought she knew about you.
Marlene doesn’t even bother to hide her grin. She claps once, loud and delighted, and leans forward with sparkling eyes.
“Oh, I love her,” she announces with glee. “Someone give that girl a crown and a throne and maybe a leather corset. She just out-Slytherined the entire House.”
You don’t look away from Remus. He’s still breathless, a little dazed, his lips parted like he’s forgotten how to speak. His hands are at your waist now, gripping softly like he needs to touch you just to make sure you’re real.
You lean in, voice velvet-sweet, and say, “Now Remmy, were you going to let her keep touching you or should I start hexing?”
Sirius, meanwhile, is leaning back like a man thoroughly entertained, one arm draped across Remus’ shoulder with a love-sick gaze in his eyes.
Remus just blinks for a moment, his mouth parted, completely undone. Then a sound escapes him, surprised and delighted, something between a laugh and a groan, like you’ve just knocked the wind out of him in the best way.
“I think I’m in love with you all over again,” he says, a little dazed.
And then Sirius leans over, as if conjured by the heat of the moment, slipping in behind you like gravity itself gave him no choice. His hands slide over your hips, warm and certain, like they’ve always belonged there. He leans in until his mouth brushes your neck, breath hot and voice lower than sin.
“That,” he murmurs, lips grazing your skin, “was art. You’ve officially ruined me. I’ll never recover.”
You shrug, casual as anything, but your pulse is thundering and your eyes are glowing and the adrenaline is still singing in your bones like an aria. “Good,” you say simply, and it lands like a spell.
The common room hasn’t even recovered. Conversations haven’t resumed. Heads are still tilted in your direction like they’re not quite sure what just happened, if they witnessed a declaration or a detonation. And maybe it was both. You were the quiet girl. The sweet one. The one with gentle touches and soft smiles who moved like a secret in a room full of noise.
But tonight? Tonight, they watched you stand like you were carved from something divine, watched you kiss Remus like he was yours and always had been, watched you claim your place not as an afterthought, but as a force of nature wrapped in wool and confidence.
And Remus? He’s still holding your waist like he might never let go. Sirius looks like he’d fight anyone who even breathes in your direction the wrong way.
Together, they look ready to tear the world apart if it means keeping you. And somehow, the quiet girl has become the storm they’d die for
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Fav thing about 9-1-1 are the character quirks
The captain is basically a five star chef. This doesn't affect the plot at all, he just really loves cooking
The senior paramedic loves karaoke. He snagged his hot wife this way
Second paramedic could have been a doctor. She decided not to cuz she loves her bestie too much
The bisexual boy is probably suicidal. This is never addressed
The bisexual's bestie has repressed every emotion ever known to man. This explodes in his face very impressively
#like. these fucking guys#insane#wee woo show#911#911 show#911 abc#911 fox#bobby being a master chef is just so fun#i love whenever it comes up#and i love that he forced that gift onto his son figure#like. he saw a kid lacking a father figure and went#“you will learn how to cook so help me god”
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