#ezri tigan

[righthandedleftturn]

Star Trek a.k.a. GAAAAAAYYYS IN SPAAAAAAAACE.

[starcrossed-perceivers]

“Captain Smiley wants me to… debrief you.”

“Must be my lucky day.”

[hylianengineer]

Ezri said to Jake, "Before I was Joined, I was considered quite the promising young officer." Promising. Not talented. Not skillful, or intelligent, or efficient. Of all the words to complement someone: promising.

And maybe I'm seeing connections that arent there because I relate to Ezri so much. But when you're twenty - yes Ezri really is that young - people care about what you can become, sometimes more than who you are.

Because for years you've been delaying the decision: who are you going to be? And now you've had to make it and you're starting on that path. Now the question is who are you becoming? But the implication there is that who you are now is incomplete.

So in honor of having just seen a Benny Russel episode, "I am a human being dammit!" We all are. I am a whole person, even if I'm not totally sure who that is yet. Even if my brain isn't fully developed and believe me, I know it's not. I am whole even if I have the life experience of a mayfly and the confidence of a chihuahua. I am my own complete person, and so is Ezri. Even as she tries to understand who that is when she's got 300 years of other people's memories and ALSO the confidence of a chihuahua. Which is very relatable. She must have so many expectations, from herself and from other people, now that she's joined with Dax. Every other host has done so many adventurous, incredible things, and she remembers all of them. It's a blessing and a curse, because she has the knowledge, she has the memories, but how can she ever live up to it? Ezri Tigan was an ordinary young Starfleet officer. She was promising, but Ezri Dax, in her own words, isn't.

Ezri Dax is twenty and three hundred; all her plans for that promising young officer who she used to be have just come crashing down around her.

I think it speaks to a very common experience when you're around that age trying to figure out who you are, you're going through a ton of life changes, and sometimes shit happens and suddenly all those plans go out the window because you're just trying to survive - day to day, moment to moment. There's a sense of guilt, and loss, around the person you used to be, and who you didn't choose to stop being. It feels like they've been ripped away from you, as surely and irrevocably as Ezri was separated from her pre-Dax self.

No warning. Nothing to prepare you for it. One day to the next, everything is upside down and you don't know who you are anymore. Any future you had planned is now up in the air, or up in flames, perhaps, depending on the nature of your situation. You were a promising kid. Now you're lost, and people don't look at you the same way anymore. You don't look at you the same way anymore.

People never care half as much about who you are as who they imagined you might one day be.

[astralbondpro]

Star Trek: Deep Space Nine // S07E11: Prodigal Daughter

[subatoism]

DS9 was really like, “What does it mean to be a person? An individual? Do we have free will or can we only ever be what we were made by those who took it upon themselves to shape us?” and then just did that over and over again — from the Jem’hadar and the Vorta to Julian and the other Augments, to Garak being raised as a tool for Enabran Tain, to Dr. Mora ‘teaching’ Odo to shapeshift by administering electric shocks (wtf by the way), to Sisko discovering that his birth was orchestrated by the Prophets. Like that really is what it’s all about isn’t it

[lesbianmarrow]

i got this wonderful ds9 collage from @deepspacequeer :)))) it’s so so gorgeous in person and makes me very happy <3

[leolaroot]

EZRI SONG. literally ezri song

[humanmawile]

Station DS9 is back! with political complexity that I hope is intriguing. Featuring Quark, Ezri, Mirror Ezri, Lusara Belli, Rom, Leeta, Vic Fontaine, Julian, Kira, Tuvok and Janeway! Be sure to check out the other episodes in this ongoing series! I’ll be working on my novel more so it may be even longer periods between my episodes. My hours at work are up a lot too and I have other shit going on. Very sorry!

[trillscienceofficer]

I love that Tendi's family backstory is just what the original idea for “Prodigal Daughter” was like for Ezri, although the most likely explanation for the similarity is that they both reference “The Godfather”:

Behr's basic idea was that Ezri's family was involved with the Orion Syndicate, with Yanas Tigan being a particularly powerful member of the organization. In this conception of the story, Ezri would be like the character of Michael Corleone in the 1972 Francis Ford Coppola movie The Godfather – the son/daughter who has no interest in the family business, who left home to pursue their own dreams, and who now has returned.

(from Memory Alpha)

This backstory fits Tendi a lot better and I'm glad she got it!

[ezrisdax-archive]

Going to go with DS9 for your "5 things you'd change" ask meme. Curious to hear your thoughts :з

send me a tv show/book/fandom and i’ll say the top 5 things i’d change about it

So, I'm biased and I'm tumblr user ezrisdax which means I need Ezri to exist but that said I'd change how Jadzia died. I've personally never been a fan of that, the ending and how she said her goodbye to Worf and Sisko was fine but Dukat killing her like that just...did not appeal to me at all, I hated that. Now how I'd have her die I don't know. Maybe while she was stuck in the Changeling mind trap place they gave her a drug and it's been slowly tearing down her ability to host the symbiont. (maybe that also means it can be removed but Jadzia has to be rushed to Trill and in a coma and thus gone for a time and Ezri is there still, I can still come up with Jadzia lives AUs right?). Or have her die defending the station just not...turning around and hey Dukat is there. At least let her get one punch in to him please.

Ezri and Julian and I don't have to expand on that, dear god, no.

Worf and Jadzia's wedding, not the wedding itself but the lack of the TNG characters. Like yeah I get not wanting to pay them etc etc but also listen, I need Jadzia and Deanna meeting properly and teasing Worf. It has always bothered me they weren't there for his wedding.

Jadzia's lack of interaction with other characters after Worf's arrival. I do feel starting season five it gets really bad; she doesn't have a lot of interactions with the others that don't also involve Worf in some capacity after that and while I do enjoy that ship I wanted more weird Trill adventures as it's own thing.

Alexander's whole thing in DS9, I didn't think it fit him at all and I absolutely hated it. Like first of all he should have just been with Worf anyway I thought we went through this in TNG and second of all he's never been interested in the Klingon stuff and he shouldn't have to and then why did they make him an idiot at it? He was a smart kid, c'mon.

Did I say top five? Just kidding here's more because I can't decide. Everything about Profit and Lace. I tend to skip over that episode during rewatches and it's bad. I think they should have brought Pel back instead and have another episode with her where it shows how much she's flourished and profited in the Gamma Quadrant.

I minute thing that's also always bothered me, Mirror Jadzia dies for....???? reasons? Like Ezri in the Mirror verse is Ezri Tigan, she doesn't have or need the symbiont and they just drop that Jadzia is dead that episode for zero reasons, like why couldn't she be away on a mission or something. I'm sorry but that stuck in my head and ate away at me for the longest time.

Sisko and Ezri and the lack of a relationship in any way after the third episode of season seven. Like she Dax and she pulls him back in and I think them navigating a new relationship again where this time Sisko is the mentor figure would be way way way more interesting then the Ezri/Julian storyline they stuck in instead.

VIC FONTAINE. I hate that fucking holoprogram. Too many episodes were about him and why the fuck is there an alive mirror verse version of him?????

Screw SNW I want a DS9 musical episode.

[ao3feed-ds9]

Love the Path to Kal'hyah and Other Impossible Obstacles

https://ift.tt/U8mtW0n by hingabee, PunishedPyotr "You do have to admit that there is something romantic about not just enjoining with your fiancé, but also binding yourself to his family and household. It's a great commitment - and it feels like something pre-Unification writers would have compiled countless poems about..." Ziyal said, eyes shining. Elim looked to Bashir, feeling queasy. He didn't exactly like to imagine the connotations of Ziyal's proposal in his case. "How degenerate..." "You're no fun, Elim." Words: 5126, Chapters: 1/3, Language: English Series: Part 68 of Does Your Mother Know Fandoms: Star Trek: Deep Space Nine Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: F/M, M/M Characters: Elim Garak, Julian Bashir, Tora Ziyal, Nog (Star Trek), Worf (Star Trek:TNG/DS9), Martok (Star Trek), Miles O'Brien, Benjamin Sisko, Jake Sisko, Alexander Rozhenko, Original Female Character(s), Ezri Tigan Relationships: Julian Bashir/Elim Garak, Nog/Tora Ziyal, Jadzia Dax/Worf Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Age Changes, Age Swap, Episode: s06e07 You Are Cordially Invited (Star Trek: Deep Space Nine), Klingon Culture (Star Trek), Developing Relationship, Therapy, Implied/Referenced Drug Use

[aurora-nova-fic]

Imagine you’re Ezri Tigan agreeing to join with Dax so the symbiont doesn’t die. You take some solace in the fact that the Symbiosis Commission only accepts the best and the brightest for joining, so you should have seven lifetimes of brilliance to draw on as you grapple with this massive change.

And then you wake up Ezri Dax with full knowledge that Dax has had eight previous hosts, and the reason one isn’t common knowledge is because he was a murderer.

(Also, there was that short stint as a symbiont thief, which for some reason no one talks about.)

[nebulouscoffee]

7, 23, 27, and 33 for the Star Trek ask meme?

Thank you for the ask!

7. Who would make up your crew dream team?

You know, this is something I've thought about before (shoutout to @fancy-a-dance-brigadier for always asking the real questions lol) - but I could never quite find an answer I was satisfied with! Because I don't think taking all my favourites and smushing them together works, they just aren't as interesting together as mixups between characters who have bigger ideological differences. Like, he might be my fav captain but I don't want to choose Sisko over Janeway and Picard, I want to see him interact with Janeway and Picard, you know? So here's a sort of half-cooked, this-would-change-every-time-you-asked-me answer:

Captain: Ben Sisko First Officer: Michael Burnham (I wanna see them interact!!) Chief of Operations: Data Chief Xenoanthropologist: Chakotay (I know this is not an actual position in Star Trek but it should be!! The dude who makes sure dealings with alien cultures are being handled with respect, basically) Chief of Security: La'an Singh (trying to mix and match here) Chief Science Officer: Jadzia Dax (ft. Harry Kim always giving her ideas) Counsellor: Deanna Troi (ft. trainee Ezri Tigan) Chief Medical Officer: Julian Bashir (ft. Kes starting graphic and unhinged conversations about autopsies with him) Chief Engineer: Geordi La Forge (ft. B'Elanna on staff. Drama!!!) Helmsman: Ro Laren Communications: Hoshi Sato Also There: Kira Nerys (recurring character who works with them when it's relevant), Guinan (bartender), Admiral Picard (recurring character that makes Sisko do the iconic "Kai Winn is boarding the station" facepalm), Jake Sisko (son), Garak (local menace), and Admiral Janeway (temporal menace)

23. Favorite tropes?

Character's past comes back to haunt them. Character is forced to confront their inner demons in a way that blurs the line between imagination and reality. Member of an alien society seeks asylum. A peek into the world from the "outsider" character's eyes. Two people from opposite sides are forced to spend time together (and the guest character SLAPS). Captain is out of commission and the unlikeliest people are forced to step up. Oh no the holodeck isn't shutting down and the only way we can save everyone's life is to LARP through this thing fully committing to the bit. Here is a spacial anomaly that makes everyone act weird one by one (either revealing important hidden truths about the characters, or just letting the actors have too much fun). ALL of us have to go back in time together for some stupid reason (and it's amazing)

27. What do you wish they had handled differently?

SO many potential answers- but since it's always on my mind, I wish they'd followed through on the thread of Jem'Hadar dissent. In 'The Abandoned' we find out they're genetically engineered to (rapidly) grow very strong, be dependant on drugs, and loyal to the Founders while demanding no individual rights, which frames them as tragic victims. Then we get a Jem'Hadar character who not only broke free of the Dominion's hold on him, not only expresses but also acts on the dream of freeing his fellow soldiers- and a lead character (Julian) risks his career for him! Sisko tries to get through to them in 'Rocks and Shoals'. They're so clearly complex beings with unique thoughts & personalities & feelings & needs, and are constantly fighting this inhumanely imposed programming that tells them they're just killing machines who live to serve their masters. Even in lighthearted episodes like 'One Little Ship' we see conflict between the Gamma and Alpha Quadrant soldiers, for example. We could've had this be relevant to the Dominion War's resolution! We could've had a defector Jem'Hadar as a recurring character! We could've had Julian finally make that breakthrough & help start a Jem'Hadar revolt!! It could've been so much more interesting (and so much less racist)

33. Whose twitter feed would you most want to follow?

My first instinct was Dax, but I'm leaning more towards Jake Sisko- I feel like because he's the son of a Starfleet officer (but not in the service himself) he'd have absolutely zero fear of authority & he'd just post the most savage things about prominent Starfleet officers and blow up incredibly unflattering pics of all the admirals lol

[mirekat]

One weirdly specific hill that I, a genderqueer Trill enthusiast, will die on is reading Ezri as a (binary) woman. I mean, in principle I am behind reading all Trek and especially all Trill characters as queer and trans, and I get the way Ezri’s dialogue resonates with a lot of nonbinary people.* But I also think it resonates with kind of gender positionality I see a lot in life but not so much in lit: someone who’s aware of other gender options** and who’s grappled with other gender options but who decides that, for now, the place they started is the place they belong. Maybe not always, maybe not forever, but for now, it works.

And this is bound up with my other Ezri-related Weirdly Specific Fatal Hill, which is that Ezri is actually more secure about her identity within the host/symbiont system than the average joined Trill. When she tells Sisko to drop the “old man” language and complains about pronouns, I read that as her drawing a line between herself and Dax’s past: she’s determined to build her relationship with Sisko on her own terms, not as an extension of Curzon and Jadzia. And for the most part, she does! Season 7 might not always let her carve her own path but Sisko, at least--the person who knows Dax best--seems to quickly recognize and respect the importance of Ezri to Ezri Dax. And we see glimmers of that independence in other relationships, too. Calling out Worf’s illusions about the Empire, dusting off Joran for a job and then popping him neatly back into her subconscious, taking time off to deal with Tigan family drama--all of that suggests an iron core of no-bullshit that anchors her sweet, anxious demeanor. And if she struggles a lot with her past lives onscreen, well, that just points to how determined she is to retain that core self. Despite the accident that created her, she doesn’t fundamentally question her right to be a Dax. And I reckon that’s why she and Dax, despite their mutual surprise at finding themselves together, both decided to keep their partnership going.

Anyway, she’s also incredibly lesbian. I will die on that hill, too.

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*Plus, like, do what you want interpretation is generative etc.

**because they are literally shouting in her head all the time

[lorenzobane]

Let's talk about Ezri Dax. I feel like she generally has one of the most underappreciated and under-discussed character arcs and traits in DS9.

I think one of Ezri's is interesting because she is very tough, very smart, and in a very different way from Jadzia. It isn't immediately obvious, because we meet her and she's young and she's being bullied by Garak but let's look a little closer (though she's even tough and impressive in that episode- she deals with being roasted by a completely dramatic lizard and gets back up and dusts herself off and keeps moving).

Prodigal Daughter is one of my favorite of her episodes because it tells us so much. Sure, she seemed sweet and soft-spoken, and maybe like a bit of a mess when we see her on DS9, but once we get her context- she's the daughter of a demanding mother on a non-federation planet that opposes Trill Joining- her toughness becomes a lot more apparent. Both of her brothers more or less folded to their mother's wishes, but she said "No" and left and STOOD BY THAT. She doesn't let herself get pushed around by her family, even though she loves them. She is entirely her own person; even as a joined trill, Ezri is distinct.

Another great moment for this is when she's speaking to Worf about the Klingons and completely shocks him by having completely different political opinions from Worf. Again, in a moment where maybe a meek character would have just shut up, she explains calmly that she disagrees with him. And for such specific, politically engaged reasons! It also sets her up as separate from Jadzia, who was so blinded by Curzon that she never seemed to develop any distinct opinions or traits separate from him. Ezri, despite not being prepared for it (or maybe because of it), seems to have a much more singular and individual mindset. She isn't Jadzia, and you can tell by her dealings with her family and her political opinions. Ezri Tigan Dax is a person in the health care field, a person who left a controlling, dynastic family, and a person who likes hiking.

Or even her interactions with Joran (the serial killer in her head) that Jadzia is basically locked away- we see through her interactions here that she has a type of mental fortitude that means that she can deal with the fact that Joran isn't locked away anymore. She knows who she is, she's aware of how to control herself, and she doesn't let herself get pushed around by anyone. Not even the serial killer inside her head.

Also, I know people don't like it- but I find her interactions with Julian fascinating because they are much more similar and theoretically compatible than he and Jadzia were. She notices and cares about his interests (reading); they're both quietly strong (a similar type of person who SEEMS like they'd break but then never actually does), and they're both awkward. Romance aside, their interactions are different from the relationship he had with Jadzia, and that is a testament to the unique perspective and dynamic she creates through being a person who is and isn't bound to tradition, is and isn't a normal Trill.

Anyway- I love Ezri, and I wish people would give her attention because she's SO SO SO interesting, and I have like 100 other things I could say about her at any given moment. She's my girl.