#feels kinda dead without it

[hirazuki]

I've heard over and over and over again how much the 4Kids dub changed things, so I'm finally subjecting myself to watching the entire RAI dub while I work on some art commissions and cosplay photo edits, since I'm almost ready to fanfic...

... 'subjecting,' is the word I want to emphasize here.

[kkolg]

Blank Canvas - Jakeneutron

[lawboymagicshow]

04x17: It's a Terrible Life, Supernatural

[lunar-oceansong]

had a realization bear WITH me for the angst of it all-

i saw someone mention that hoyoverse has been keeping Sethos oddly relevant ever since he came out. obviously this made me realize, huh, yeah, they've brought him up a lot. his first appearance, the sabzeruz, wanderer's b-day art, and now he's gonna get a pose in the imaginarium theatre's next update. i honestly don't remember them keeping a 4-star relevant for this long.

which, y'know, obviously this would imply that hoyoverse has plans. which is when it hit me.

Sethos losing his piece of godly power mirrors Wanderer losing the electro gnosis. we all know this.

the next place we're going to is Nod-Krai, and we've been told that's Dottore's main base. Dottore specifically did a lot of experiments with dead god remains and all that- i will admit, i'm not an expert on this area, but like,

is. it not. really similar to what Sethos and Cyno got. is that not something Dottore would be interested in.

not to mention Sethos has like. a whole bunch of secret information that's been hidden from the rest of the world for an extended period of time.

am i crazy? am i insane? would they really make Wanderer get involved in the Nod-Krai arc by having Dottore/Dottore's men attack the Temple of Silence? or more specifically attack/kidnap Sethos??? i feel nuts. i feel insane. someone talk some sense into me-

[blujaydoodles]

sometimes you just gotta cover your guy in blood, you know how it is

[marstonator]

♡~Bed-wiggles~♡

Fun fact: John in chapter 2 goes to bed at like 1 or 2am

Its cold because of this mod~ Dynamic Seasons

[javierduffy]

I have been having... a very bad day. Any spare fluffy headcanons for the boys? (and maybe some nsfw ones if you're up to it-)

ohh no my dear helena !!! its unfortunate that you’re having a rough day today :( remember that everything is temporary and that this day, like every other hard day before (and all following after), will pass in its own time.

i can absolutely spare some fluff ! that’s all i’ve got !

• javier goes to bed at about the same time that kieran is waking up every morning, right before dawn, and it’s a common occurrence that he will forget to untie his hair before laying down for bed, especially after a long night of guard duty. kieran will notice every time, and knows himself how easily long hair can get matted, so he will beckon javier over so that he can untie his bow. usually, he’ll also take the time to run his fingers through javier’s hair to detangle it as well, so that he’s even less likely to wake up to knots. javier adores it, teetering with the weight of his head and leaning hard into kieran’s legs on each side of his shoulders- sometimes kieran will even indulge himself in giving javier a head massage. javier never sleeps better, and coincidentally, he began forgetting to take his hair down a lot more after moving out to clemen’s point ….

• javier snuck kieran his first bowl of pearson’s stew after ‘making a social call’. john kicked kieran off his horse at the entrance of camp and javier watched as the latter dredged himself through the brush to what would become his usual resting place behind the rock by the horses. he looked miserable, dead on his feet, and javier knew by then he’d been weeks without a meal. he was a dirty, disloyal, unholy traitor of an o’driscoll, but something about his sunken eyes, the shake in his hand as he lit his first cigarette as a free man again- likely to quell off the hunger- it urged javier to act in a way that he’d never felt before. javier could kill a man in cold blood easier than he could stand to watch fear starve a man even after his hands are free to reach for the bowl. the study for learned helplessness in psychology will come years later, but javier understands himself now through watching kieran’s instinctual desire to survive be beat out of him by the gang javier dedicates his life to. with a healthy amount of spite to himself, he scoops a heaping amount of fresh stew into the cleanest bowl he can find, and sets out to add a fresh layer of flesh to kieran’s prominent bones.

• following this, cooking for kieran is one of javier’s favourite things to do when they get together. javier will cook for him traditional mexican dishes from home (as best he can. both with his limited skills and also with his limited accessibility to the proper ingredients. (probably for the best that he can’t get authentic chili peppers from home and has to use a less spicy chili native to this northern climate. kieran does okay with spice but it isn’t in his genetics to truly have a high tolerance.)) and not only will it be an unknown love language from javier, to feed kieran and make sure he is full, but it will also be a love language from kieran, to let javi share a piece of home with him.

• ^ also applies to modern au javieran ! javier loves cooking, and especially for kieran. they would cook together, but kieran struggles to cook with other people in the room, and javier gets so absorbed in it that he’d likely be running into kieran or otherwise being unhelpful in aiding in making sure the dish is being cooked correctly because he’s too Locked In to guide kieran LOL but they’re more happy to simply keep each other company, anyway. kieran on the counter/table/floor, watching javier sing and dance to the music he’s blasting from their speaker. cue dancing in the kitchen when the love songs come on (here’s a good one (rip javier escuella you would have loved dannylux)). the parallel play and quality time with these two is off the charts

• come mid/late clemens point, the way javieran make most of their money for the camp is by going on days-long fishing dates, laughing and laying close to one another in the grass under a tree on the riverbank in the shroud of darkness. they come back to camp flushed as all get out but with stacks of cash in their hands wadded up so thick no one dares to ask where it came from. kieran will get excited at even the smallest of fish, perking up and sharing/asking javier for tidbits on the species. they never miss a bite, either. one time one of the bells on their bobber rods rang once and they both broke out of a very hot and heavy make-out sesh so fast that javier tripped on kieran and nearly broke both of their wrists. they laughed so hard about it, javier was certain that by the time he arrived to his rod, the fish had already successfully ripped the bait off of his hook. he reeled in a boot, at the end of it all. he never lives it down.

• kieran is ambidextrous, and javier is fascinated by it. javier stumbled upon kieran writing on one rare occasion, and noticed immediately that he was writing with his left. “left handed, huh ?” kieran cocks his head at him in thought. javier wonders why on earth he would have to stop and think about a question like that. “uhh, not really ?” well, now javier is simply confused. “right, then ? is something wrong with your dominant hand ?” “um … no, that’s not it either …” and at this point, javier is demanding kieran explain what the hell he’s talking about, and why he’s pulling a prank on him. cue kieran explaining and javier making him do all kinds of silly “tests” like writing, shooting, playing guitar (as if kieran is going to any better with either when neither of them can do it right to begin with) because he finds it so cool.

• modern au kieran gets overstimulated incredibly easily, so he’s got a pair of noise canceling over-ear headphones that he often wears to dampen sensory input and ground himself when there’s a lot going on. when it’s cleaning day, generally no matter what he’s doing, he HAS to wear his headphones. javier is left to dodge him the same way he has to dodge the cats when they’re weaving in and out of between his feet. it also leaves him to dance to his own tunes when kieran suddenly swoops or sways or dips him to the music only he can hear- though just as often, javier will catch kieran dancing by himself and he will simply be unable not to join him, even though he can’t hear what it is he’s dancing to. as overwhelming as they can be, cleaning days for javieran somehow always end up feeling more like a date than anything.

• on a similar note, kieran also wears his headphones to bed, and listens to asmr/white noise to sleep. the pressure helps him feel safe, and the silence of a room makes him anxious. he also has a terrible bedhead and rbf in the morning. both of these things javier finds incredibly charming, and if he ever does wake up when/before kieran does (incredibly rare), this is his pov (right before he tries to kiss kieran’s face off and gets shoved away with a sleepy giggle that only bolsters his aggression);

nsfw under the cut !

and how could i resist a chance to finally talk about this ;3€ ?? i’ll try to keep them fluffy !

(context, i hc both of them as tguys usually (though im content with writing javier as amab too), with both of them being absolute, unabashed switches. they have little preferences anywhere in terms of bottoming/topping, though kieran has a preference for subbing, and javier has no qualms with domming more frequently.)

• as much raunchy, animalistic sex that javieran have, they have double as much slow, loving, tender sex. and most times between, they’re having raunchy, loving, animalistic sex.

• javi loves to turn kieran’s brain off, he loves more than anything to make kieran feel so overwhelmingly pleasured that he forgets everything that ever has, ever could, or ever will happen to him. nothing gets javier off quite like seeing the face of bliss kieran makes when all he can think about is javier’s mouth/hands/cock working overtime just to make him feel good.

• both of them i think are quite vocal when they’re able to be, and kieran tends to be vocal whether he’s supposed to be or not. both of them often dissolve into whimpers and “i love you”s and praise like “you feel/sound/taste so good” by the end. their love for each other has a carnal grasp on every aspect of their sex lives as well <3 so they’re always speaking so sweetly to each other, even if the way they growl it seems violent

• javier LOVES love bites. he loves to mark kieran up and he especially loves to bite and lick and suck on his neck, not only because of the primal aspect of his jugular being so close (as well as the warmth of his pulse thrumming against his mouth), but also because it arouses kieran to the point of making him shiver nearly every time. javier has permission to bite him hard, but it’s pretty rare that he ever does, and it’s only late into their relationship does javier feel like it will be more pleasure for him than it would just be pain. sometimes he can’t help it though, he’ll get so worked up that he just latches on and the way that kieran tightens around him is mind-numbing.

• unironically i think kieran is a GREAT soft dom, and that is something that javier generally had never experienced prior to getting with kieran. javi thinks it’s hot to be man-handled and roughed up, and kieran can do his very best (despite the constant guilt and fear) if javier is really feeling it, but where he really excels is soft domming. once the nerves melt off, he’s so gentle with javier that it makes the latter’s skin hot all over. constantly praising him, cooing at him, asking him nicely, rewarding him for good behavior, all the while touching him oh-so-gently, it all makes javier feel so awkward but so, so good. kieran makes him feel so loved and worshipped that the world in which he has anything to question simply just fades away, and all he has to think about is doing what meager tasks kieran asks of him.

• they find so much peace in each other’s bodies. in every rib and wrinkle and sunspot, these two will spend hours simply exploring and enjoying the body of the other in whatever the closest form of “privacy” they can manage to acquire. turns out, kieran has sunspots all over him. turns out, javier has a keloid scar on the back of his bicep. turns out, kieran has a mole on his scalp right where his part is (this is canon btw i saw it once when i was studying him in photo mode like a specimen in a petri dish), and javier has back dimples, and kieran’s ribs stutter and dance beautifully when he laughs, and the flex of javier’s thighs warps his skin like a marble statue. javier escuella and kieran duffy love like artists, and they spend hours just learning and looking and studying each other, like a painter with his muse, like a writer with his words, like the last things they want to see while they’re dying are all the hours they spent learning the beauty of the other.

i could honestly come up with more but it would never leave my drafts, so i hope u like these that i came up with as quick as i could :’) ! i hope you’re feeling better and have gotten some good rest !! thank you for the ask !!!!!

[slashingdisneypasta]

Hey... what's your favourite urban legend or ghost story?

🌲🕸🌲🕸🌲

[jfkisonthemoon]

they honestly couldve done so much with junpei beheaded/dismembered and im disappointed that it ended up just being mira. so much of his character and his relationship with akane is characterized by his lack of bodily autonomy, and him being openly beheaded during the nonary games would be the ultimate example of this. its perhaps the most brutal death in the game, and it never really gets explained or developed beyond the one puzzle that we get with it. junpei has been shown repeatedly to be subject to akane's plans or follow her blindly and i just think that would have been a really interesting angle to approach his beheading from. junpei has willingly signed up for nonary games in two different timelines just because he knew he would see her. he was infected with a deadly virus trying to find her. he grew desensitized to death as he took underground jobs to try and find her. his safety always comes second when shes in the picture, and his beheading wouldve been a prime opportunity to 1. exploit his willingness to let himself die/be injured for her and 2. make akane confront the fact that her confidence that junpei will always follow after her is not necessarily a positive thing.

[ayara-resara]

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[ymirgel]

not me thinking about how the mourn watch ' brand ' their reapers by imprinting them with the faction's sigil. but ymir takes it one step further & dons an emerald-eyed skull that covers her entire back. dethklok once again supplying me inspiration through their music. the gears certainly feels apt when describing the creed for the mourn watch reapers, here's one example;

You've conquered pain You've conquered fear You've conquered Fire You've conquered Ice You've tasted blood You've taken life Stand proud and salute The bloodied flag here We fear not our mortality We'll serve to the best of our ability We give our lives to our masters We vow to smite our enemies

[vonlipvig]

first thing i did when i woke up was go on twitter and get blasted by that deleted scene in anatomy of a fall of sandra going DROP DEAD!! I CAN'T STAND ANY MORE OF YOUR MEDIOCRITY!! JUST DIE!! DISAPPEAR!! and like 1) sandra hüller the ACTRESSSS that you are, and 2) again, i fully understand why this didn't make the cut. babygirl would be in jaaaaaail lmao.

[longagoitwastuesday]

Kusakabe, dear, you're too beautiful to be saying that kind of stuff

[stopbuggingm3]

I'm realising that i've not actually really explained how Aryas "immortality" works aside from vaguely mentioning it in the last couple posts of her sooo im gonna fix that

Trigger warnings for talk of death, torture, and suicidal ideation

Okay so by definition, Arya technically isn't immortal. Its similar, but theres one key difference.

Its not that she can't die, its that she won't die

Her "immortality" is an effect placed onto her by Slenderman that keeps her from dying no matter how much damage is inflicted on her. Slenderman in my AU stalks, torments, and kills his victims in order to feed off of them, not because he has to but because he can, first through their negative emotional energy like fear and misery and then their physical bodies when they're finally killed and left to rot on the forest floor.

And Arya, being the overly sensitive, emotional trainwreck she is, is a great source of food.

So, rather of just letting her die, he decides to see what'd happen if he kept her alive instead. No matter what happens to her or how badly she gets hurt, he forces her to live through it all and will feed off of all the misery generated in the process. He lets her suffer until she's on the brink of death, desperate to finally tip over the edge and rest, and he holds her there until her body eventually heals itself and the cycle begins all over again. Her inability to die is a curse meant only to torture her and it does a damn good job at it.

She'll still bleed out, go weak, get black spots in her vision and fog in her head, but it never ends with release. It just continues. She can still get infections and experience complications, she's in a near permanent state of anaemia that she's learnt to just force her way through, she feels every single inch of pain the entire time she's hurt and the way her body is forced to heal even around blades and bullets. She can't even starve to death, her hunger will just get worse and worse until it's unbearable and she slips into a haze. Eventually her wounds will heal and she'll go back to her new fucked up state of "normal", but it's never too long until it all happens again.

It doesn't help that the large operator symbol carved into her abdomen doesn't ever heal and just reopens every time it gets close, keeping her in that constant state of blood loss.

For the first few weeks she barely noticed; she was disoriented and barely lucid so she didn't really have the ability to out much thought into it. Roughly a month passed before she slipped into existential crisis territory. She was convinced she was going crazy until she decided to test it for herself, and it took her trying twice (once for confirmation and once out of desperation) for her to realise it was real and she really wasn't going to die.

Though, from the way she acts you'd be forgiven for thinking it's not a curse at all. She'll treat it like an advantage during combat because she knows by now she isn't gonna be taken out by anything Slenders Proxies do to her so its easier to let herself get carried away and act more careless and confident in a fight. But that confidence very quickly crumbles once the adrenaline wears off and she feels the full extent of her injuries set in.

She hates it more than anything, and it's for that exact reason that it works so well. Her views and opinions on death and dying have been considerably warped, especially when it comes to herself. She knows she doesn't want it to last forever and there are days every once in a while where she's desperate to just be allowed to die, but at the same time she's grown used to the twisted protection it gives her and feels a small amount of anxiety over the idea of suddenly losing it. It's torture, but it's torture that keeps her alive.

Part of Arya hopes every time she's in critical condition that she'll finally be let go and allowed to die, another part of her is terrified of it being the time Slender decides she's finished, but more than anything she's resentful of the one who put her in that position in the first place and is all the more determined to get her own back somehow.

[quillandrapier]

I kinda hate how the finale of ghosts killed my enthusiasm for anything ghosts since it....urgh

[daylighteclipsed]

I’m enjoying FF7 Rebirth more than Remake so far (I was so sick of being in that uglyass city), but as someone who is not familiar with the og FF7 the sudden party member affection system absolutely blindsided me