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Können wir den Dezember nicht einfach überspringen?
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Mütter am Rand des Nervenzusammenbruchs
Im Wettbewerb der Berlinale spielen Mütter und ihre Nerven eine große Rolle. Mary Bronstein und Johanna Moder zeigen in ihren Filmen, wie schrecklich, überfordernd, bedrängend und beängstigend Mutterschaft sein kann. Iván Fund und Frédéric Hambalek lassen mit übersinnlichen Kräften unterhaltsamere Töne anklingen.
Im Wettbewerb der Berlinale spielen Mütter und ihre Nerven eine große Rolle. Mary Bronstein und Johanna Moder zeigen in ihren Filmen, wie schrecklich, überfordernd, bedrängend und beängstigend Mutterschaft sein kann. Iván Fund und Frédéric Hambalek lassen mit übersinnlichen Kräften unterhaltsamere Töne anklingen. Continue reading Mütter am Rand des Nervenzusammenbruchs
#Anika Bootz#Berlinale#Claes Bang#featured#Felix Kramer#Frédéric Hambalek#Hans Löw#Iván Fund#Johanna Moder#Julia Jentsch#Laeni Geiseler#Mara Bestelli#Marcelo Subiotto#Marie Leuenberger#Mary Bronstein#Rose Byrne
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Oderbruch
Oderbruch (Serie 2024) #JuliusGause #FelixKramer #KarolineSchuch #LucasGregorowicz #StefanWeinert #WinfriedGlatzeder Mehr auf:
Serie Jahr: 2024 (Januar) Genre: Krimi / Drama / Mystery Hauptrollen: Julius Gause, Felix Kramer, Karoline Schuch, Lucas Gregorowicz, Stefan Weinert, Winfried Glatzeder, André Hennicke, Jan Krauter, Berit Künnecke, Robert Glatzeder, Axel Moustache, Alix Heyblom, Maximilian Ehrenreich, Edgar Emil Garde … Serienbeschreibung: Der Anblick eines Massengrabes im Oderbruch versetzt die gesamte Region…

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Oderbruch – Episodenguide
Episodenguide Oderbruch Bild: ARD Degeto/Surreal Dogs GmbH/CBS Studios/Stefan Erhard/Marcel Weisheit Das Oderbruch wird zum Schauplatz eines Serienmordfalls mit bisher nie dagewesenem Ausmaß: In der Nähe des kleinen Dorfes Krewlow wird auf einem Feld ein Berg von Leichen und Tierkadavern gefunden. Die unzähligen Morde reichen über Jahrzehnte zurück. Kommissar Roland Voit (Felix Kramer) soll die…

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#dogs of berlin#tv shows#netflix#christian alvart#felix kramer#fahri yardim#anna maria muhe#illustration#vintage art#alternative movie posters
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Frank Sinatra: In The Wee Small Hours
Capitol 509996 88654 12, 2009
Originally released: April 25, 1955
#meine photos#vinylcollection#1955 music#frank sinatra#vinyloftheday#nelson riddle#felix slatkin#paul shire#harry bluestone#mischa russell#emo neufeld#marshall sosson#alex beller#victor bay#walter edelstein#henry hill#nathan ross#david frisina#alvin dinkin#paul robyn#david sterkin#stanley harris#eleanor slatkin#kurt reher#edgar lustgarten#ray kramer#kathryn julye#bill miller#george van eps#mike rubin
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Saltburn was just Barry's response to everyone who doubted he could play the joker
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Wie kann es sein, dass die deutschen Medien die ganze Zeit über ein neues Sommermärchen reden und das Studio, in dem die meiste Zeit der EM verbracht wird, so aussieht?
Es ist ein grauer Betonboden mit einer silbernen Couch, die nicht mal besitzbar aussieht. Es wird erwähnt, dass es in Berlin ist, aber das sieht aus, als würden die ModeratorInnen die EM in einem leeren Keller anschauen. Zum Vergleich, so sehen die Übertragungen der englischen Sender aus:
Es scheint die Sonne! Das Leben existiert! Fans sind im Hintergrund zu hören! Im ZDF gibt es eine kleine Gruppe ZuschauerInnen, die danebenhocken, jede Dynamik zwischen ExpertInnen mit Klatschen unterbrechen und ebenfalls aussehen, als wären sie in einem Keller an ihren Stuhl gekettet. Jedes Aufbäumen an Stimmung wird außerdem peinlich deutsch erstickt.
Die ARD hat glaube ich nicht mal ein Studio, dafür ein ganz anderes Problem: Nur einen einzigen Experten? Bei allem Respekt an Bastian Schweinsteiger, aber er ist nicht der virtuoseste Analyst und allein für die Dynamik einer Sendung ist es doch immer interessanter, mehrere Meinungen zu hören.
Das ist das Maximum an Berichterstattung, was die ARD bieten kann? Keine Taktiktafel, keine zusätzlichen ExpertInnen, die Frische bringen können, holt von mir aus Urs Meier aus dem Mallorca Urlaub! Das hier fühlt sich an wie die Übertragung von einem Saarbrücken Spiel im DFB Pokal, nicht eine Heim EM im Sommer! Und selbst da war mehr Action drin!
Da, wo es spannende ExpertInnen gibt, die mit Wortgefechten dienen können, gibt es erzwungen Stimmung von gefühlten 5 Fans im Studio, die jedes Momentum unterbrechen und da wo Stimmung nötig wäre, sabbelt Bastian Schweinsteiger ungebremst von all seinen Fußballfreunden, die er beim Golfen trifft (überspitz gesagt).
Deutsches Fernsehen, wenn ihr Sommermärchenstimmung haben wollt, dann muss ihr hier mitarbeiten! Hängt eine Fahne in den Hintergrund, lasst Per und Chris mehr Zeit interessante Dinge zu sagen, seid nicht zu schrecklich spießig in allen Berichterstattungen und bitte findet irgendjemand kompetentes, den ihr neben Bastian Schweinsteigen stellen könnt. Hat nicht Klopp seine Karriere so begonnen? Warum hat dem niemand bescheid gesagt?
Nach den zwei Spielen hat das Land Lust! Die Stimmung ist gut! Das einzige, was hier richtig seelenlos aussieht ist das ZDF Studio in den Berliner Katakomben.
#ich weiß nicht wie ich es anders sagen soll aber die berichterstattung zur em ist meiner meinung nach sowas von schlecht#wirklich das studio fasst diese seelenlosgikeit zusammen#ich will nicht ewig auf den ollis rummreiten#aber die hatten nochmal zusätzlich schiedsrichter und taktik expertInnen#und die haben stundenlang alle spiele kommentiert und durchgekaut auf eine gespannte art und weise#selbst als deutschland schon rausgeflogen ist#es fühlt sich wirklich an als hätten die sender kaum bock sich anzustrengen was intersanntes zu machen#die zdf tagebücher sind dann er höhepunkt#ich verstehe dass sie hier genau kreativ sein wollen#aber warum ist das alles so sperrig?? so spießig? so völlig ohne enterainment wert?#warum macht das nicht z.B. ein jüngerer youtuber der qualität mitbringt ähnlich wie felix von der laden bei der f1?#zeigt von mir aus fiago videos wenns was bringt#warum ist es so schwer für dieses land gutes fernsehn zu produzieren. warum.#em 2024#ard#zdf#deutsches fernsehen#germany nt#christoph kramer#per mertesacker#fußball#euro 2024
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My Personal Guide to Works pertaining to German, Bavarian, and Alpine Folk Magick
This is not an exhaustive list, just a list of sources that inform my practice. Readers will benefit from being able to read German (and sometimes Bavarian/Boarisch German).
Not all works are specific/exclusive to these folk practices and may include other traditions in addition.
I will be updating this list as I recall or find works to add to it. It is not alphabetized or organized in any specific way. If you’d like to recommend a title for this list, let me know!
Additionally, I cannot speak or vouch for any of the views or opinions of the authors. Some of these sources are certainly outdated and could potentially contain content that is offensive or bigoted, which is not something I endorse. Finally, there are some sources that are of debatable historical accuracy, so take them with a grain of salt.
Books
Pow-Wows or Long Lost Friend, John George Hohman
The Secret History of Christmas Baking by Linda Raedisch
The Old Magic of Christmas by Linda Raedisch
Night of the Witches by Linda Raedisch (a great resource for Walpurgisnacht)
Mountain Magic: Celtic Shamanism in the Austrian Alps by Christian Brunner
Alpine Magic by Christian Brunner
Pagan Christmas by Christian Rätsch and Claudia Müller-Ebeling
Göttin Holle by Gunivortus Goos (also available in English)
Hausgeister! by Janin Pisarek, Florian Schäfer, and Hannah Gritsch
Queens of the Wild by Ronald Hutton
Witchcraft and the Shamanic Journey Kenneth Johnson
Niederbayerische Sagen by Michael Waltinger
Witchcraft Medicine by Wolf-Dieter Storl, Christian Rätsch, Claudia Müller-Ebeling (available in both English and German)
Der Heilige Hain by Christian Rätsch
Von Sonnwend bis Rauhnacht by Valentin Kirschgruber
Witches and Pagans: Women in European Folk Religion, 700-1100 by Max Dashu
Spirit Beings in European Folklore 2 by Benjamin Adamah (I encourage you to read their sources as well, it’s important to find primary sources)
Deutsche Mythologie by Jacob Grimm (English as “Teutonic Mythology”) Please take Jacob Grimm with a grain of salt.
Handwörterbuch des deutschen Aberglaubens (There’s a lot of caveats to this, as it is highly outdated, but it is still a handy resource for reference. HOWEVER, good luck finding it. You might find some volumes available online but there are very few complete reprints of this encyclopedia, at least that are affordable.)
Tiefe Wälder, dunkle Legenden by Josef Probst
Malleus Maleficarum by Heinrich Kramer (This is basically a 15th century manual to “witch hunting” and contains bigotry and a lot of factual inaccuracies. However, it has some content that can provide some insight into folk magic and superstition of the time. It is very violent and explains the torture process of those accused of witchcraft, so be warned)
Volksmedizinische Botanik der Germanen by Max Höfler
Trutmezzer by Frater Acher (Three Hands Press)
The Black Raven: A Study in the Folk Necromancy of Early Modern Germany by Alexander Cummins and Brian Johnson
Speculum Terræ: A Magical Earth-Mirror from the 17th Century by Frater Acher
Journals and Scholarly Articles
Holda: Between Folklore and Linguistics by Thomas Leek
Perchten and Krampusse: Living Mask Traditions in Austria and Bavaria by Molly Carter
Divination: Mother Holle as Goddess of Seerdom by Ullrich R. Kleinhempel
Percht und Krampus Felix and Ulrich Müller
The Distribution of The Legends of Frau Holle, Frau Percht, and Related Figures by Erika Timm
Perchta the Belly-Slitter and Her Kin: A View of Some Traditional Threatening Figures, Threats and Punishments by John B. Smith
Holle's Cry: Unearthing a Birth Goddess in a German Jewish Naming Ceremony by Jill Hammer
Content Creators
Ella Harrison
The Witches’ Cookery
De Spökenkyker: A great resource for Silesian-German folk practice!
#alpine pagan#alpine folklore#alpine paganism#witchblr#witchcraft#bavarian witchcraft#bavarian folklore#german folklore#folk witchcraft#traditional witchcraft#frau holle#holda#perchta#krampus#perchten#rauhnächte#hausgeister
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Throwback Thursday ⏳ The LAMDA Years
A turning point in Richard's early career was his decision to complete a 3-year course in acting at the London Academy of Music and Dramatic Art (LAMDA). There he gained experience in student productions including David Copperfield (as Uriah Heep), The Cherry Orchard (as Leonid) and The Normal Heart (as Felix). 🎭
Written in 1985 by AIDS activist Larry Kramer, The Normal Heart chronicles the early days of the AIDS crisis in NYC. As today is HIV Survivors Awareness Day, it's fitting to consider Richard's performance as Felix, a role that coincidentally won fellow actor Matt Bomer a Golden Globe for the 2014 HBO adaptation. One can only speculate how the course of Rich's career might have changed if he, and not Matt, had been cast in that movie. 🤔

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by Martin Kramer

The text may help to explain a remark made by Israeli prime minister David Ben-Gurion to the Israeli cabinet, after he’d met with Oppenheimer at the latter’s request. Ben-Gurion said he “had the impression that some sort of Jewish spark lit up the man.”
That impression may have originated in Oppenheimer’s speech. Ben-Gurion certainly heard it. The prime minister delivered the keynote at the same dedication, and sat with Oppenheimer in the front row. Oppenheimer, in his own speech, made several references to Ben-Gurion’s remarks. (When Oppenheimer said “It is not only the Prime Minister of Israel who has his difficulties,” he was referring to Ben-Gurion’s admission that he didn’t understand much about physics.)
What’s the source for Oppenheimer’s text? Oppenheimer spoke from notes, but he didn’t have a copy of the speech as he delivered it. “I gave my notes on the ceremonial talk to your press officer,” he wrote to Meyer Weisgal, his host, “and have no record at all of what I said.” At Oppenheimer’s request, the Weizmann Institute sent him a tape with the extract of his speech, secured from the Voice of Israel, which had broadcast the proceedings. The following text is a transcription of the delivered speech, from Oppenheimer’s papers. While the Jerusalem Post reported a few portions of his remarks the day after he spoke, the speech is published here in full for the first time.
I’ve appended an extract from another speech that Oppenheimer gave for the Weizmann Institute on December 2, 1958, at its annual fundraiser at the Waldorf-Astoria Hotel in New York. There Oppenheimer reflected on his visit to Israel the previous May. It complements the Rehovot speech.
Some of the persons mentioned by Oppenheimer in the two speeches:
Niels Bohr, Danish physicist and 1922 Nobel laureate. Although baptized a Lutheran, his mother came from a distinguished Jewish family, so he fled Denmark during the Nazi occupation. He later assisted Oppenheimer in the Manhattan Project. Bohr had already lent his prestige to the Weizmann Institute during an earlier visit in 1953, and he also spoke at the 1958 dedication, for which the Institute commissioned his bust.
Meyer Weisgal, Zionist author and fundraiser, and confidant of the late Chaim Weizmann. At this time, he was chairman of the executive council of the Weizmann Institute. He would become the person in Israel closest to Oppenheimer.
Benjamin Bloch, physicist by training, administrator of the Weizmann Institute, and a friend of Bohr and Oppenheimer. (Felix Bloch, the Swiss-American physicist and 1952 Nobel laureate, also attended the 1958 dedication, but Oppenheimer’s reference to “Dr. Bloch” clearly refers to Benjamin.)
Abba Eban, Israeli statesman. In late 1958, he was at the end of his service as Israeli ambassador to the United States and chief delegate to the United Nations, and had been named the next president of the Weizmann Institute.
Ernest (later Lord) Rutherford, New Zealand-British physicist and 1908 Nobel laureate, a friend to Chaim Weizmann in Manchester.
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masterlist 【!】
• Harry Potter
- harry potter - ron weasley - hermione granger - draco malfoy - pansy parkinson - blaise zabini - tom riddle - fred and george weasley - sirius black - remus lupin
• Euphoria
- rue bennett - cassie howard - jules vaughn - maddy perez - kat hernandez - fezco - nate jacobs - lexi howard - elliot - chris mckay - ashtray
• Life is Strange 1 2 True Colors & Before the Storm
- max caulfield - chloe price - nathan prescott - victoria chase - rachel amber - warren graham - kate marsh - frank bowers - sean diaz - alex chen - gabe chen - steph gingrich - ryan lucan
• The Umbrella Academy
- luther hargreeves - diego hargreeves - allison hargreeevs - klaus hargreeves - five hargreeves - ben hargeeves - viktor hargeeves - lila pitts
• The Sparrow Academy
- marcus hargreeves - ben hargreeves - fei hargreeves - alphonso hargreeves - sloane hargreeves - jayme hargreeves
• Supernatural
- dean winchester - sam winchester - castiel - crowley - jack kline - rowena macleod - lucifer - gabriel
• Stranger Things
mike wheeler - jane hopper - lucas sinclair - erica sinclair (platonic) - will byers - dustin henderson - max mayfield - billy hargrove - steve harrington - robin buckley - nancy wheeler - jonathan byers - eddie munson - joyce byers - jim hopper
• The Walking Dead
- daryl dixon - rick grimes - maggie greene - negan - michonne grimes - carl grimes - glenn rhee - rosita espinosa - king ezekiel - jesus - abraham ford - shane walsh
• Outer Banks
- jj maybank - john b routledge - sarah cameron - pope heyward - kiara carrera - rafe cameron
• 13 Reasons Why
- clay jensen - hannah baker - jessica davis - justin foley - tony padilla - zach dempsey - alex standall - tyler down - skye miller
•Slashers/horror
- stu macher - billy loomis - jennifer check - colin gray - ethan landry - [will be adding more i just dont know how to write for some other movies cause i dont know all the lore for them 😭]
•Jackass/Viva La Bam
- bam margera - johnny knoxville - ryan dunn - chris pontius - chris raab - brandon dicamillo
• Pitch Perfect 1 and 2 (i don't like 3 i apologize)
- beca - emily junk - chloe beale - stacie conrad - ashley - cynthia rose - jesse - bumper - benji - pieter kramer - kommissar
The Vampire Diaries/The Originals
-damon salvatore - stefan salvatore - elena gilbert - klaus mikealson - elijah mikealson - rebekah mikealson - kol mikealson - bonnie bennet - jeremey gilbert - caroline forbes - kai parker -
• Avengers (+Loki and Valkyrie)
- tony stark - steve rogers - peter parker - natasha romanoff- thor odinson - bruce banner - loki laufeyson - valkyrie
• Guardians of the Galaxy
-peter quill - gamora - nebula - rocket raccoon - drax - mantis
• ATSV/ITSV
- miguel o’hara - hobie brown - miles morales - peter b. parker - gwen stacy - pavitr prabhakar -
• Youtubers
- colby brock - sam golbach - jake webber - johnnie guilbert - tarayummy - anthony padilla - ian hecox - damien haas - shayne topp -
• Wednesday
- wednesday addams - enid sinclair - ajax petropolus - xavier thorpe - bianca barclay -
• Miscellaneous
- theodore finch - pete davidson - david wooderson - joel miller (show & game) - jake peralta - tate langdon - willy wonka (timothee chalamet) - felix catton - oliver quick - joe goldberg - spencer shay - freddie benson
[will probably update in the future!]
#the walking dead#outer banks#supernatural#stranger things#the umbrella academy#life is strange#euphoria#harry potter#scream#13 reasons why#jackass#pitch perfect#pitch perfect 2
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welcome to bypeau: home to all of my little brunette bitches (and, of course, a couple of blonds). they might seem like degenerate fucks, but they're good boys at heart — well, some of them.
muse masterlist.
adrian claremont, akeno 'aki' menzies, alfred 'alfie' carmichael, andrew miller, archer ferris, archie andrews, arthur sheffield, ashley clemmons, atlas starlight, atticus welby, aubrey fisher, augustus windsor, bellamy aromdee, benjamin 'benji' cooper, blair liu, bowie lefevre, chaiya 'chai' boonmee, chandler rosenberg, charlie anderson, clint harmon, dallas kent, dante quinn, denver barlowe, elijah kramer, ellery sullivan, emmett fairchild, ethan ayutthaya, evan 'buck' buckley, evan park, felix weston, felix windward, fletcher reid, floyd thatcher, foster conroy, frankie moon, gavin finch, harry hamilton, harvey ryan, heath beaumont, ian kirkpatrick, isaac sullivan, jace wayland, joshua reeves, kaden chang, kit bogart, levi booster, lucky kim, maddox bailey, marcus reddington, mason rollins, micah rodriguez, nicholas 'nick' watson, norville 'shaggy' rogers, orion everhart, oswald 'ozzie' perkins, peyton sharpe, phineas o'connell, rafael flores, remy hwang, river oakley, robert 'robbie' kingsley, rory lim, ryder cooke, samuel hawkins, sawyer park, scott peters, skipper 'skip' richards, skylar michaels, spencer abrams, steve rogers, tatum whitlock, theodore 'teddy' altman, tristan st. clair, victor salazar, vincent josephs, wade tucker, wyatt park, william 'spike' pratt, xavier wright, yuri choi, zeke benton.
faceclaim masterlist.
aaron taylor-johnson, adam brody, adam huber, alexander koch, andrew matthew welch, anthony turpel, archie reneaux, avan jogia, belmont cameli, ben barnes, ben cook, ben hardy, benjamin wadsworth, brendan dooling, cameron gellman, casey cott, chace crawford, chad michael murray, charles melton, chris evans, chris messina, chris wood, cody christian, connor jessup, connor swindells, cooper koch, corey mylchreest, daniel sharman, danny griffin, david corenswet, david harbour, derek luh, dermont mulroney, dominic sherwood, drew starkey, dylan minnette, dylan o'brien, eli brown, evan mock, evan peters, froy gutierrez, gavin leatherwood, glen powell, gregg sulkin, hendery wong, henry golding, henrique zaga, hero fiennes-tiffin, huening kai, jacob elordi, jaehyun jeong, jake gyllenaal, jamie dornan, james marsters, james scully, jensen ackles, jon kortajarena, joseph morgan, johnny suh, jonathan bailey, jorge lopez, joshua bassett, josh dalas, josh duhamel, jude law, julian morris, kit connor, kj apa, leo woodall, logan lerman, lucas bravo, manny jacinto, mark consuelos, mark lee, mason dye, mason gooding, matthew daddario, michael cimino, michael provost, mike faist, matt bomer, matt czuchry, max thieriot, nicholas alexander chavez, nicholas galitzine, nick robinson, nico tortorella, noah centineo, oliver stark, oscar isaac, patrick gibson, patrick schwarzenegger, paul mescal, paul rudd, penn badgley, rafael de la fuentes, robert buckley, robert pattinson, ross lynch, rudy pankow, sang heon lee, scott eastwood, sean grandillo, shawn mendes, ten lee, timothée chalamet, timothy olyphant, theo james, thomas doherty, tom hardy, tom holland, tyler posey, xiao dejun.
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Matt Bomer as my Daneel Olivaw fancast
He has the “woodenly handsome” chiselled good looks, flawlessly clear piercing blue eyes, and coolly mechanical poise. Plus an innate gentleness as a person that shows when performing angry scenes. He might not have the widest range and might also be a bit small, slender, cornily all-American for a Greek god of a Spacer, but embodying the character’s vibes is more important than looks. Circa White Collar would have been perfect.
(Also he's gay)
Daneel's small grave smile:
That’s Bomer’s husband beside him. Bomer went all out for his role as Felix in The Normal Heart and everyone should see that film on living through the beginning of the HIV outbreak, adapted from Larry Kramer’s play).
Daneel's weird sudden smile that doesn't reach the eyes:

Daneel being ordered to go do something:
Daneel's neat hair:
Daneel getting naked in the Personal:
(Bonus) Daneel sexy time with Elijah:
White Collar, The Last Tycoon, The Boys in the Band, The Normal Heart
#r daneel olivaw#daneel olivaw#fancast#r. daneel olivaw#asimov#the caves of steel#the naked sun#the robots of dawn#robots of dawn#isaac asimov#c/fe#gay
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Returning online
My name is Felix Kramer, and I'm the creator of Goodbye Strangers. I haven't been active online for quite some time, and I wanted to address this. There was a major falling out with the former collaborative team, and later on, a public "callout" was made against me. Due to the number of falsehoods in the post against me, I don't feel that it is appropriate to comment on the post in full – and as the circumstances leading to the split were personal and not public, I do not feel comfortable disclosing any information that would violate another person's privacy.
I wanted to specifically comment upon the following two points, however. First, I can confirm my former collaborator's statement that she did not approach me at any time with any of her concerns.
This second point is one that cannot be emphasized enough: I absolutely do not share my former collaborator's interpretation of my work, and fully disavow such a hateful interpretation. If discrimination and hate are the values that you see when you look into my work, you are not my audience. A deliberate theme of the project as a whole is the idea that whether it's because of race, sexuality, gender, body type, mental illness, or something else - every person on earth knows what it feels like to be "left out", or like they don't belong. That is what it means to be a "sensitive", and why members of minority groups are more likely to be able to see the strangers.
I understand that there are people who may have questions or concerns about myself or my actions, and in this regard, anyone is welcome to email me with any questions or concerns. Please consider me an open book, as I am happy to discuss anything that does not violate another person's privacy. I don't plan to give any further statement regarding these individuals, other than to wish them the best.
In terms of what I've been doing the past few years, I will admit that this has been a very, very difficult period for my mental health. My mental state had been gradually worsening prior to the split with the team, and the mass public shaming/ostracism triggered a psychotic break from reality. Recovering has been gradual; this incident was the single most traumatic event I've ever endured, and it has taken countless hours of self-reflection, therapy, and outside support to pick myself back up again. I've talked about my experiences here, and am happy to engage privately with anyone who might benefit from talking further, but otherwise, I would rather look towards the future.
I wanted to end this post with one final note about my mental health and general status. I've been living with psychotic/delusional mental health symptoms for many, many years, and these have had a significant impact on much of my behaviour. Though I've talked to some extent about things like synesthesia and audio hallucinations, the full extent of psychotic states and delusional thought patterns is something that I am only very recently opening up about and addressing more directly.
These symptoms have been a major obstacle in returning online. The voices that I hear are cruel and endlessly critical; the abusive language used in the callout post became a constant internal dialog. In the years following the break from the team, I've drafted countless public statements and responses – and, it has taken this long to be able to 'quiet down' my mind enough to write this without hearing snarling insults and rebuttals to every single line.
I acknowledge that my behaviour prior to the split was erratic, self-destructive, and alienated those close to me. I made poor judgments, my expectations of both myself and others were not realistic, and I was grossly unable to distinguish fantasy from reality. I live with debilitating, lifelong mental illness that includes psychotic and dissociative symptoms. This isn't an 'excuse' for erratic behaviour, and I sincerely apologize to those people made uncomfortable by my actions, or hurt by the fallout of the project, and am happy to answer any further questions via private correspondence.
It will always be an ongoing process to address my mental health challenges and to develop healthier coping mechanisms. This is exactly why I want to do what I can to better live up to my own values of personal responsibility – as well as fight past my own fears in order to share my work with others and contribute my value to the world.
I don't know what the future holds, but I know that I'm not the person I was three years ago – the person I was three years ago would never have been able to write this post.
Thank you so much for reading my words. Please take care of yourself and those around you, and don't ever give up on your dreams.
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What Kramer is essentially calling for is population control by starvation.
Felix de Rosen quoted in an article by Katherine M. Savarese in The Harvard Crimson (Feb. 2010). Weatherhead Fellow Incites Controversy
I am finding Facebook really awful these days.
One troubling part of it is that I look at posts there primarily by people I know. Before "People You May Know" seemed to be people I plausibly know. Now the suggestions are not people I know or know about or can imagine any plausible connection.
More to the point, the persistant Israel propaganda really rubs me the wrong way. I'm old, there's a history to my distress. There's so much I don't notice, but my sense is that USA political propaganda shifted prior to the Gulf War. And then went into overdrive in the lead up to the Iraq War.
I'm no scholar and don't even follow the news well, but with Martin Kramer there ought not be any controversy.
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