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😭 😭 😭 this is a silly post n will probably delete in a while but like…wow people on the earth are kind to and support each other not clickbait….
#idk like someone yesterday was really understanding about an order error and left me a super kind message#& today checked back on my shop & a buyer (already incredibly sweet) had left like a super super super nice review on their purchase#i don’t really know what im trying to say here….i think just like that im really thankful to have run into a part of the world#filled with kind ppl…#im always really shocked when ppl do nice things bc im always like ‘wow…they didnt have to do that…but they did’ so im like. T__T rn#anyway!!! hello if the ppl i mentioned in these tags are seeing this post haha#tysm u rly made my day. days. making my days. week. weeks even. life#its too sweet#talk tag
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i feel like being annoyingly positive. here’s some people you should check out / people that have inspired me a lot for once reason or another
@iowaisms - super cool friend!! got me into koikatsu which led to me having an easy avenue for OC hair and outfits which is worth more than a thousand words to me. also extremely powerful and resilient with learning new things and it’s inspiring 2 me
@hamsterbellbelle - literally. a lifesaver as someone who’s building a cyberpunk-y/sci-fi save. always has super good stuff, as well as my general go-to for good cc finds! and cute hamster pics
@pixelsinmyveins - i’m so happy i stumbled upon your world editing stuff randomly, because it was my main awakening moment for realizing just how much you could do with overrides and TOOL! super pretty worlds and sims
@kanonbreakerz - was one of the main inspos behind the anime head! i’ve always super admired your style for sims, i love to keep checking back to see what new things you’ve made
pokesims crew - thank you for listening to my rambling and also for just?? being so off the rails creative and determined like WOW
#txt#non cc posting#wrist is kind of giving me issues and i wanna. not escalate it to a RSI so. you get sappy posting in the meantime#i am filled with love and admiration for ppl who play ts4 alternatively
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hater minute: ive never been huge on fall/halloween and all the people online that begin yelling about it mid august make me lowkey resent it further.
im watching all of you who go to spirit halloween like its mecca then complain about christmas being a consumerist holiday two months later. we are the same
#i always had really bad seasonal depression in the fall it kind of spills over to fall holidays sadly#so ppl getting really excited for it fills me with existential dread -_-#christmas time makes me happy apart from christmas itself#best part about halloween is that you arent expected to celebrate with family
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#no to be mean but sometimes i just dont have the energy to make myself like reply to ppl nd try to interact#continiously ppl block me bc i dont reply fast enough or etc etc#nd it's just like damn i tried just to get blocked???? 🥴🥴🥴#also funny thing in my experience it's mostly girl mutuals who lose patience nd block me#hmmm inchresting 🧐#anyway im wording this clumsily but like im just so exhausted nd my heart's tired#im tired of building some sort of light online attachment to someone#just to feel crushed when i notice they've blocked me nd i dont even know why???#also wanna be clear that im referring to ppl i've talked to. not just interactions. sksks 🥴#i know not everyone will block me nd i know there r nice ppl here but like i dont have the energy to sort thru it all#or take chances bc im tired 😭😭#i feel bad bc there r ofc very kind ppl who reach out to me nd stuff but in my bones im dejected#like what if i actually do start talking nd i start feeling affinity to u nd slight healthy attachment nd then boom one day u block me???#i feel mean nd oversensitive complaining abt this but idk 😣#i liked this mutual nd talking to them but they blocked me nd idk whyyyy what did i do i always do smth y'all gotta fill out a form telling#maybe if i had irl friends i wouldnt care tho im aware im a loser
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barely 2 chapters into a semi-charming kind of life and i'm already screaming over the parallels i'm seeing between darling and apple, oh my god...
#they're both so desperate to prove that they're capable smart strong ppl but that often gets overshadowed by their beauty#the major difference is that apple is still more than happy to fill the role she's been given bc she knows her future is secure ->#and that she can go on to prove her skills as a queen (which seems to be what she's actually passionate about)#darling... really doesn't have that kind of security#mostly bc her tale is fucking bogus like it's so clear that milton made that shit up on the spot#and what would really be her ending in that tale? just be rescued and live happily ever after in some gilded cage?#do you think darling has any resentment or jealously towards apple bc she'll be able to be recognized for her strengths someday?#meanwhile she's stuck with only ever being pigeonholed as a beauty and nothing else?#*banging my fist on the ground* THERE'S SO MUCH POTENTIAL W/ THESE 2 IT'S KILLING ME UGH#okay back to actually reading#also i'll finish the rest of the blorbo asks tomorrow!#ever after high#darling charming#apple white#dappling#ship : apple & darling#mj.txt
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to the mutuals i have a million threads with & counting, thank you for interacting with me. to the mutuals waiting on a reply from me, thank you for your patience. to the mutuals i have yet to talk to, thank you for following me, & i look forward to chatting with you. i am sending you all my love & hope today goes well for you all !
#( ooc . mun speaks . )#my dash is filled with ppl who are creative & interesting & kind.#& even if we have not spoken yet i look forward to it !#thank you all !
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bitching abt my job again
tags contain frank mentions of transphobia and homophobia
#this happened like. i dont know. a month ago or something but i still keep playing it in my mind#for those unawares: theres been a fucking community outrage over the pride display at the library i work at#and have been working/volunteering at for 5 years#only it never went up. it never went up. bc the mayor came in as a quote unquote private citizen and demanded it taken down#despite the fact that patrons are required to fill out complaint sheets and even then it isnt ensured a display will be taken down#so obviously its a misuse of power that hes spinning into him being a concerned citizen#and i made a whole post bitching abt it and im doing so again (hi) bc i didnt like how our director responded to it#and yeah. so there was a board meeting after that right. well i set up for them as i usually do and let me tell you. that was the first#--time more than like 6 people came to spectate. it was insane.#and i guarantee that this months meeting wont have half as many people that fucking crammed themselves in there to complain abt gay ppl#bc of course they dont give a shit about the library#they just care about how scary the queers are#and yeah it was a shit show. i learned we have a far right organization in our town#and i was sat right in front of her husband the whole time#(standing actually. i was standing between him and my moms chair and he was sighing and grumbling the whole time bc he couldnt muster the#--balls to ask the 5 foot 2 fag in front of him to please move lol. small victories right)#when i say her i mean the leader of the freaks. idk. chairman? anyway she had a whole speech about how like queers are bad and cutting#the penises off little babies or whatever and she pulled up this passage from a book that was part of the display#its some book by the youtuber rowan ellis-- here and queer i think was the title. it was cataloged in our ya section and contained passages#talking about like having safe sex and what dildoes are and all that kind of shit. just really clinical descriptions imo. im not familiar w#--the youtuber really but im assuming they wrote it as informational bc shocker: teens be having sex. unsafe sex. especially queer teens#sourse: i was one of tgose#and...think for a moment. remember when you were a teen. youd rather fucking DIE than listen to your parents give you the sex talk#and chances are if youre gay your parents arent even going to know WHAT gay sex is (hugging without shirts on) so youre going to look#--elsewhere#bc if youre a hormonal fucking teen youre going to figure it out one way or another! especially if youre from (cough) a podunk shitwater#--town like mine that ran on abstinence by way of sex education#i think teens deserve to have access to that sort of information through trusted means. and i do mean het teens too#but no these fucking morons put on airs like everyones waiting till marriage--no! not my becky sue! as if they werent fucking around in#--holy shit i reached taglimit. i didnt ecen know there was one. hold on
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Tbh developing a zero tolerance policy for online bullshit and rancid religious opinions this June bc it hasn't even started yet and I'm Tired. I'm done effacing existence and apologizing for being and feeling sorry for kindness and hating the cruelty of it all, and I already have to deal with that irl where I Can't Escape It
#franposting#im genuinely extremely upset#but that's fine. im upset enough to know there is a boundary and distance here#and i can simply. cut it out. it sucks. but i dont have to listen#i guess its a good sign. my ocd is enough under control that i can ignore religious ppl spouting bullshit#and can do that w/out thinking im damned#bc im not buying into cruel bullshit#and think there is so much more to the world than we can ever know#and that there are more ppl out there who agree with me and believe like i do#that its not just me. and its not just a faith filled with cruelty and lipservice#it is mostly filled with those things maybe. but there are goodnesses and kindnesses too. as small as they are#faith tag#just gonna start. blocking. i cant do it anymore#it isnt even personal hatred. i dont really. hate? i hate opinions and beliefs and cruelty. but i cant hate people#i just. ache. and I am trying so hard to stay hopeful and alive and sometimes all there is is spite#and my head hurts so so bad
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#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol#this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable#im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work#property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me#like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well#and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for#Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too#like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and#down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy#last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just#feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b#put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back#down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then#that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her#i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better#on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out#dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really?#ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious.#i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles#but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol#unrelated
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#ada speaks#im cooking#im scheming#i had to put my full fucking name in for this#hi meg. please allow me to send in homosexual fanart xoxo your besties on tumblr#i dont want to say anything yet but if youre reading my tags hi#i want to compile a zine for the guys (glenn) filled with like. appreciation from tumblr bc i know they dont get to see this kind of thing#like im talking. sunny is a love story type meta.#and vicky art. ofc.#my only thing is like. getting it to them (him)#recruiting someone to hand deliver it at a m&g or something is a possibility too but that doesnt give us much time#anyway yeah im just. i want to compile a bunch of loveposting that goes a little deeper than ppl quoting the show at them#within reason. im sure they cant read certain types of meta for the same reasons they cant read fanfiction or scripts or whatever#but just having them sprinkled in with a bunch of fanart is. u kno. i think it would be nice#hi boys! we are deranged!#i just want time to get permission from people for their posts and allow artists time to finish pieces etc
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can’t believe my brain was deeply intent on a complete ED relapse like 2 days ago .. food is delicious and my body is fat and i love to cook and my life is fuller and more joyful when i do
#UGH it’s so exhausting sometimes#i have a trip to the country i lived in as a kid in europe this summer#and i have vivid memories of ppl making fun of fat americans and treating them w immense disgust#and it’s anxiety provoking to realize i am going to BE that fat american#i can unlearn my internalized antifatness all day long but it is a daunting reality that i cannot extend that to other ppl#it is out of my control if they are unkind and treat me differently#and that is scary and filling me w a lot of despair and anxiousness#but it is not living to my values to restrict food anymore#that kind of lifestyle does not make me the kind of person i want to be#it fosters a sneakiness a secretiveness that i HATE#but idk maybe that culture has changed#i haven’t been back to this country in over a decade#maybe things r better#i wouldn’t know#personal
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for real though that post is so true on the love front i think about it all the time like why is everyone so LOVELESS not even just in like cishetero marriages where they hate each other just in general like platonic too. it drives me craaazy when im exposed to it like why are ppl like this !! why dont you love your friends and partner!! its like everything is a social game that theyre playing just for validation and lacking real connection and its a game where theyre always about 2 steps away from being bitter and hateful towards their friends/lover like STOOOOP! im someone who values love and kindness so much and it baffles me. why do you hate your partner! why do you talk about them like theyre an object of validation! why are you dating someone you clearly dislike! why are u so mean to ur friends behind their backs im cryin. why do you up and abandon them the second you get a partner bc you dont value them over the romantic validation you get. ive always been such an affectionate person at heart and i value what my friends say so much and i always find myself feeling so distant from people in relationships because they just feel?? so shallow?? and distant from me. like i think oh this preson gets me but theres ppl who say the same things how they value kindness and love but its always like, immediately clear they are actually a deeply mean person and just enjoy feeling like theyre 'good'. the way society functions with relationships feels so intensely shallow and i cannot connect to it at all. i love my friends and i love people and i always want to understand them and reach out with compassion and be close to them physically and emotionally speaking and talk a lot and listen to them. however im cursed to live in a world of 1 word responses if any at all and shallow relationships where no one gaf about each other and then i get told i talk too much. hello? *tapping mic* hello? is this thing on? be filled with whimsy and love going forward please. anyway does anyone else feel this way or is it just me feel free to talk about it if youd like
#thank god i finally found some friends who are like this too it was so rough before#it sucks tho bc ive been so tired lately its hard for me to live up to this#which i dont hate myself for its valid its just like waaah i wanna have the energy to really put my all in friendships again#for half my life my biggest want and goal in life has been to be someone approachable and who seems kind#even to people with anxiety and i think growing up with anxiety greatly shaped that#i value being kind and compassionate and understanding to such a degree that i spent and still spend time actively working#towards that goal and unlearning being judgemental and bitter#bc i want to be kind so badly and to put kindness in the world...#no but seirously why do people date ppl they dont like#wym you guys arent so unabashedly in love that you practically see hearts thinking of them#wym your entire chest doesnt fill with joy and the simple prospect of them experiencing lifes small joys no matter how little and mundane#to love so wholly that you strive to be a good person not out of guilt or feeling like you are bad but because you desire so deeply to be#good for them and put as much goodness in their life as you can because its what they deserve...💙💙#ANYWAY LMFAO! im sappy asf as a person sorry everyone but also not sorry#pers
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Steve Rogers was thawed earlier then 2012 and ran out into Times Square May 14, 1998 between 9 and 10pm…
PLEASEGKGDDKJDKL
Steve’s running out into Times Square, SHIELD is running after Steve into Times Square, they all stop for an hour and watch the Seinfeld finale on the screens before resuming their high-octane chase
#okay my response was cracky but like actually can you imagine??#it would give such an air of modernity to the whole scene#the crowds filled with ppl who don’t dress the same don’t talk the same#huge big blaring screens showing some kind of program that everyone’s watching with completely undivided focus#is it an announcement from the government?? is it an update about the war??#no it seems to be some… tv show…? in color??#everyone’s laughing at the same time. gasping at the same time.#who ARE all these ppl?? obviously English-speaking but why are they so transfixed what’s HAPPENING??#oh god it would all be so overwhelming. like underscoring how out of time & out of the loop Steve truly is#honestly I feel like it would be a little traumatic. like I don’t think he’d ever forget how lonely & scared & confused he was#esp bc it’s his FIRST MEMORY of the future??#ugh I love it great thought exercise anon#anon#signed sealed delivered#Steve rogers#mcu#Seinfeld
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why is it always the people who boast about how much they clean who have never actually cleaned deeply in their lives. its always like "oh i shower twice a day" which really means they let shampoo run on them for 5 minutes and wonder why their skin is still oily. or people who are like "i always keep the counters clean" but the cracks are filled with mold because theyre always wet. or people who are "tidy" as in "nothing is left out where u can see it" and really means "i sweep it under the rug/ throw it all in a random drawer with no sense of organization"
#99.txt#this is such a personal gripe. ppl always get some kind of clout for this and like. your house is filled with mildew and oil.#if i leave my wrapper out for the day its much less of a health concern than what you have going on#and people wonder why i dont need to shower as often as them. its cos i actually scrub !!!! i get everything off !!!#listen i dont give a shit about appearances i am all about like. is it actually sanitary. is it actually CLEAN#but ppl are like ''OH MY GODDDDD U DONT MAKE THE BED ???!??!?!?''#literally theres no reason to
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everyone say thank u to my roommate for going to visit her parents this weekend so I can jack it loud and nasty 🙏
#i love her but there are some benefits to having the flat to myself.... love getting to wander around in just my boxers + a tshirt too#things i could do while she was still here if i wasnt a pussy 🙄#jk itd just make her uncomfortable and im too respectful for that#having a lowkey crush on her is an endless comedy to me bc we would be so woefully incompatible romantically#and also sexually.. historically ive only ever stone topped bc ive never been comfortable enough w anyone to let them fuck me#despite very much Not being stone or exclusively a top. and i think shes some form of sex repulsed anyway so like. sits there dead silence#and also shes so in love with her other friends and i showed up late to that party.... ive been feeling kinda guilty lately bc ik-#she misses them a lot and wishes we'd be able to stay roommates w them too. and im a pretty poor replacement for them tbh#and i love spending time with her but whenever i do i feel kinda painfully aware im not them like i could never fill that space#and asking to hang out more with her always feels like im taking away from time she could be talking to them. or even being alone ik she-#likes her own company and i get that a lot too so its chill but ahh.. man#i dont mean this in a bitter or jealous way at all like theyre all such sweet ppl i couldnt ever hold it against them#theyre kind of a 3 headed cerberus type situation and im like. the stray puppy they found on the side of the road#theres nothing they can do differently i was just born to be alienated from other ppl forever until i die. and someday i hope ill-#finally get used to it and accept i wont ever feel like im enough for anyone else or feel like anything else is enough for me#old wounds healed over 5082 times that still hurt to touch but i cant help pressing my fingers into them anyway bc its a familiar pain etc#anyway lost where i was going with this its just been on my mind again recently. i hate to be pitied i hate to feel like im only included-#bc they didnt want me to feel left out i hate feeling like a shoddy secondhand stand-in and its been a lot of that lately#also been a little annoyed bc sometimes it feels like shes trying to micromanage my social life and girl. we're not close enough for that#im sure its well intentioned but im not part of what they have going on i cant compete in that ring so dont try to push me into it..#ahhh. its all ok tho one of the guys is coming to visit next month which will be rly fun but ill try to give them some space too#its good at least im doing this processing now bc group situations can be spike traps of triggers for me sometimes#regardless of how good friends i am w ppl and ive already had a wobble a few weeks ago w how i cope and i dont want it to become a#fully fledged regular issue again bc its so hard to crawl back out of that pit. anyway losing coherence here im gonna stop rambling#and go make myself an early dinner and then back to drawing........#sorry for long tags if ur reading this blows u a kiss but go find a better use of ur time girl!!#.diaries
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matilda and mob psycho 100 are the only works of art ever about gifted children. i'm not interested about the rest.
#i love how their powers do carry the narrative but in a way that is so them#to pursue the things that are right to them#i also love how the adults in there are portrayed for different reasons#matilda is like yeah kids it is right to hate your parents. a power fantasy for me honestly#and mp100 has reigen fucking arataka. who is also shown to be in the wrong but has genuine love for this kid AND shows it#their messages are also opposite but not exactly?#matilda calls for rebellion against unfair adults from a kid standpoint. something i feel gifted kids perceive even more deeply#but it ends with her making a genuine connection with someone who sees her and gets her the accomodations she needs#making her quote unquote normal#and mob psycho 100 is explicitly about a gifted neurodivergent kid who got really lucky#his family supports his weirdness and never pushed the special one title on him#reigen also does this and also teaches him to see it as just one thing he happens to be good at#and yet he hides it bc he's aware it's not just superpowers what he has#in the same way gifted kids aren't only just smart a lot of the time. it's also a difference in perception of reality#and his character arc is insanely compassionate bc of this luck he had#and also filling in the aspects of himself that were hard for him to explore and grow in bc of what makes him different#this wholesomeness can only happen bc the ppl surrounding him are mostly kind#matilda's revenge is the only way she can fight to protect herself due to the environment she's in#they are both very close to me <3
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