#for when ur scared of doing somthing

[same-picture-of-a-rock-every-day]

You're a fucking hero and I love you

12/10 for commitment to the bitment

The rocks first motto is "love yourself wholly because you are amazing and enough, and anyone who tells you otherwise is an idiot"

the second one is "commit to the bit, forever"

[gh0stsp1d3r]

Ok while reading ur teenagers series I kept imagining the reader as the little girl from the univers that got destroyed but in ur fics she happened to make it out. But I also can't stop imagining what would happen if reader found out that her Miguel isn't her actual dad. Cuz let's be honest that's totally somthing he would keep from her. So if ur up to it could u pretty please write something like that 🙏. Maybe include hobie's reaction to??

stop this is so sad

𝐓𝐞𝐞𝐧𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐫𝐬… 𝐩𝐭 𝟕

“You and your dad look nothing alike.”

You always got that, all the time. You questioned if you were even his sometimes.

“No, Lyla. I’m not gonna tell her-“

“She’s old enough. She deserves to know-“

Lyla was about to say something else when you walked into the room. You overheard it.

She’s been pushing Miguel since you turned 12 to tell you. He was always too scared to do so.

“Hey-“ Miguel turned to you quickly.

“What’s up?”

“I was just wondering if Hobie could come over?”

“Sure, yeah, whatever. I’ll see you later, there’s something wrong with Lyla or something and Margo needs me to come check it out or something.”

He was lying.

“Okay. Yeah. See you.” You said as he practically ran out the door.

You looked around his room, realizing you’ve never really snooped around in here.

He was up to something, so you decided to look around.

Hobie decided to help you, he had nothing better to do with his time.

“What do you think he’s hiding exactly..?” He asked, going through some files.

“Something. I just…. Don’t know what.”

He stopped when he saw a folder with your name. He handed you the folder.

Lord of scribbled notes, pictures of you when you were a child, but none when you were a baby. Probably about 4 or 5 in the pictures.

You held them up, and looked at them.

Hobie pulled out a document in the folder, that was hidden.

“DO NOT OPEN.” It said, so he opened it.

He skimmed through it, but stopped for a second.

“Y/n L/n, taken in by Miguel O’Hara when earth-712 was about to collapse, he arrived in time and couldn’t save anyone but the child. He now has legal guardianship of the child. This child may be considered dangerous, and must be under watch AT ALL TIMES.”

He stopped reading and looked at you, you gave him a confused look. He just handed you it to you.

You read through it, tears starting to form.

You looked back at Hobie, who gave you a sympathetic look. He went next to you, rubbing your shoulder as you started to cry into your knees. He held you while you did so.

“I just can’t fucking believe it- I’ve been lied to my whole life.” You sobbed.

“It’s okay, it’s okay. I’m gonna go beat his ass.” He mumbled the last part under his breath.

You laughed at that for a second and went back to crying. It was quiet for a moment, he looked at you.

“C’mon, let’s get up.” He said, grabbing your hand and going to your room. You both sat on your bed for a while in silence.

“Thank you.” You sniffled, wiping your nose with your sweater. You laid down and he still sat down on your bed.

“It’s what I’m here for.”

You smiled slightly at him.

“I love you.”

“I love you more. Do you need anything..?”

“No. Don’t leave. Please.”

“I won’t” he laid down next to you, and held you. You turned on the tv.

“New season?” He asked, he didn’t know there would be one.

“Yeah.” You laughed.

“Alright then.” He got more comfortable, and so did you.

—————————————————

After an hour or two after that, you both fell asleep, the tv going on in the background.

It was late, About 10 pm. Miguel opened the front door. He sighed and took off his shoes, his mask was already gone, and he went into his bedroom.

“Fuck.” He mumbled as he opened the door to his room. It was a mess, and the one file he hoped you never saw was open, dark spots covering it which he guessed was tears.

“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.” He repeated it, cleaning up the files and mess, then looking into your room.

He only opened it a little, he knew you knew. He knew that Hobie would question him about it in the morning. He knew that you would hate him if you didn’t already.

He left and plopped down into his bed, suit still on. He looked at the pictures you had pulled out. Pictures of you when you were younger.

All of it would be gone all because he couldn’t tell you.

———————————————————-

Miguel did not sleep that day, he changed and stared at the ceiling the whole night. And even when the light shined through his window, he didn’t get up.

He only got up when he heard you both shuffling around.

“You got your stuff?” Hobie asked you. You were gonna stay at his for a while, just until you felt ready.

“Where are you going?” Miguel asked, both of you turning to him.

“Away from you.”

“Look, I’m sorry. I was gonna tell you but I couldn’t-“

“You couldn’t? You lied to me my whole fucking life!”

“You have to understand, ever since Gabriella I haven’t known what love was, that was until I found you, okay? I love you. And you can hate me, you can go away, but I will always love you, because even if you’re not my biological daughter, you’re still my daughter. I raised you. And no matter what you do, you can’t run away from that.”

You stayed silent for a moment. Not knowing what to say.

“He’s not wrong, love. He’s your dad.” Hobie said, grabbing your shoulder.

You started to cry again, and went up to Miguel and hugged him. Tightly. He hugged you like he never wanted to let go.

Hobie smiled and Miguel looked at him then back to you.

“I love you.” You mumbled to him.

“I know.”

[littleone]

Earth-42 miles as a caregiver!<3

•miles tries very hard to keep his prowler business away from his little he dosent want them to get involved in any danger or be scared of him he dosent want that he wants to be the best caregiver for his little baby

• he can be a little overprotective at times but it’s only to keep you safe his universe is very dangerous and he doesn't want his little one getting hurt.

•he will SPOIL you lots ! If you want a new plushie you’re getting it ! A new paci? You got it ! A new onsie ? You’re getting it ! He dosent care if you think you don’t deserve it you are getting it no matter what.

•he’s constantly watching you like a hawk to make sure you don’t hurt yourself or get into any trouble if you reggrese under ten he will have you hold his hand when you cross the street or while doing anything really he just wants to make sure his baby’s safe.

•he will keep anything you make him he will hang it up in his room to proudly show off his baby’s artwork!

•he will always make sure your safe and comfortable no matter what is someone’s makes you sad or unhappy he will be very mad (not at you tho) at the person who made you upset he will comfort you and reassure you and take you away from the situation telling you not to worry your pretty little head and how your to little for that.

•he always and I mean always makes sure your in bed before 9pm he will always tuck you in and read you a bedtime story and tell all your stuffie friends goodnight and kiss your forhead and tells you to have sweet dreams and will even plug in a little nightlight incase your scared of the dark ! (Which is okay I’m still scared of the dark lol)

•if he’s working on his gear for his vigilante suit or if he’s working on his gauntlet he”ll have you sit on his lap or be in the room with him.

•he will call you cute nicknames like baby ! Mi amor little one ect!

• he’s not the best at when your upset or crying so he just sits by your side and hums a little lullabie his mama used to hum him when he was little if you wanna hug or to be held he will definitely hold you and make sure your okay

•he will draw with you color with you he loves anything you draw or make him ! It’s okay if you color outside the lines that’s fine ! You’re still a kid !

•he calls you as often as possible he loves hearing your little voice and giggles ! He always promises to get you somthing while on his prowler business he always follows though with his promises getting anything your little heart desires! Anything for his little baby !

•he loves talking to you ! And making sure you feel safe and comfortable! His favorite thing to do is have you in his lap curled up while he had his arms wrapped around you and he gives you little forhead kisses and headpats !

•he understands that littlespace can be scary at times or when you invoulntery reggrese he’s more then happy to take care of you and comfort you he dosent mind taking care of you.

•if he’s busy or has to go on a mission last minute he might ask Gwen or ganke to help babysit you

•he gets a little flustered when you cal him dada/daddy but he’s okay with it!

•he loves u lots! He will always make sure ur safe and comfy

•If you reggrese rlly little and need padding like pull-ups/dippers he’s okay with it! He will always help you and make sure you’re comfortable! If anyone makes you feel bad about needing padding he will make sure they don’t see the light of day again

•he has autism (facts) he can get a little off task but he always has everything on him that you might need ! Like tethers pacis fidgets etc)

•I feel like he’s great at cooking if he dosent have somthing you want he will gladly get it for u! •will def take u out on spray painting dates! •I feel like he will play peak a boo with you since his mask can go from seeing miles till not seeing him he loves hearing your little giggles and smiles! •if you reggrese rlly little one to four he will def put u down for bed like rlly rlly early like 6pm or 5pm

my baby needs sleep so they can have good dreams hmm *gives your forhead a little kiss and tucks you in*

I love you all sm! Make sure to eat and drink water!<3

[thevampirediariesuniverse-1864]

Elijah mikealson x reader mate

Elijah had received a message from rose , to meet him at an old abandoned house near mystic falls so he knew it was something to do with kathrine . When he reached the house he was greeted by rose and the sent off his mate . (Rose …. U have somthing that belongs to me) he says ( bring them up !) rose called . Trever grabbed ur arm and Elena . You fought against him . Screaming ( nooo ! No no !! Let go !!) as he dragged u and Elena kicking and creaming you said ( lena , I’m scared) Elena ( I know me too .. ) trevor threw you and Elena onto the ground infront of Elijah. His blood boils at Trevor seeing how he treated his mate . His eyes did the vampire vein thing , he bared his fangs at Trevor who immediately apologized. You were so scared at the sight . You scooted over cuddling up to Elena . Who wrapped her arms around you ( she’s human ) Elijah said looking at Elena , u stood up in front of Elena , between her and eligha. (You won’t hurt her !) elijah looked at you , almost in tears when he saw you . He brushes you hair around your ear , (hello there ) he says . He grabs your arm pulling you close to him to smell you , (how is this possible ) he says ( a tribrid ?, how did you find her ?) rose said ( she was protecting the Doppelgänger so we snapped her neck

doced her full of vervain and wolfs bane ) ( ummm😐, do I know you ?) you said as he tightly hugged you (not yet but you will elskan ) Elena said (who are u !!??) eligha said (I’m Elijah ) you and Elena looked at eachother .run . You turned with Elena to run but Elijah was already in front of you (where are you going elskan ? Running away from your mate ?) you said (what ? No that’s impossible!) Elijah said ( is it ? Look in my eyes and tell me your not mine ) as you do you know he’s your mate . ( I…. ) Elijah says ( it’s ok , elskan no need to be afraid I just needTo settle some business then we will leave ) he went over to Trevor “ talk talk talk that was on the show “ elijah cuts his head off you almost scream . That’s when Stefan and Damon come do the wishing and swooping around after Elena . And Elijah grabs you bringing you close ( your making a grave mistake if you think that u can beat me …. You can’t !) that’s whe damon drives the wood through his heart . You scream letting out a shock wave so powerful Damon and Stefan dropped to the ground in excruciating pain ( elijah !!!!!) you made Stefan Elena and Damon leave . And you laid there in misery as your mate was killed infront of you . All night you lay at his feet crying until .. he pulls the stake out . He alive !!! You run into his arms . As he tightly hugs you ( it’s ok elskan I’m here , ) ( I love you lijah !) eligha says ( I love you too elskan ) he puts you in his car , and drives you too his masion . (Here elskan , it’s rather dig I think it shall fit you though ) he hands you one of his big shirts . ( oh thankyou lijah ) u go to the bathroom and change . You come out and he picks you up bridal style walking you to the bed . As he tucks you into his bed . It was so fluffy and comfortable , like a queens bed . Then he gets in next to you . (Good night elskan ) you say (good night lijah ) and you cuddle into eachother

[rodbei]

Barbecue bacon burger

Øhm ok i wanted to do this before the party yesterday but now im doing on the train on my way home home on the train

Yesterdayyyy i woke up gave red their fucking vacumm back and we went to school its fucking foggy all the time rn

We had film to start of with we learnt about editing, and omg were watching bits of this one movie AND I WANNA KNOW WHAT HAPPENDS am going insane. But we were in a group of me red a dude who ive become freinds with calleddddd "mail" cause its funny we had the edit this one clip and omg its was so funny me and red had to be acting togheter and holy shit we cant act omg. But theyre was this one girl in our class omg i felt so bad they dont say a lot at all and suddenly they just dissapeered and red was talking about how they werent talking alot and they were scared of keeping them iut if the projekt i added it was their own peoblem and suddenly they emerge from behind this cirner say they were sorry they dident talk alot and we felt so badd ahhhh red tried to comfort them but i think they went home after class wa.

They we had history it was fine i understood more this time but i still hate the way it teached cause it such an intresting subjeckt SO WHY DONT I UNDERSTAND SHIT UR SAYING.

Then we had math and i drew smallish beans and red said we should cosplay hermitcraft togheter i hope we can do it could be so fuuuunn.

After school i found out my back bike whell of my bike WITH UNBREAKABLE wheels had a fucking punctured wheel im screaming mail fixes it but the air was out before we were homing and omg i was sweating on my way home it gets 10 degress varmer on the way home every day so its super cold and then its super varm so im always SWEATING on the way home.

But i got home and procrastinated taking a shower for two hours on tiktok when i finally took a shower i realised it hink im losing weight?! And i dont know how to feel about it. At boarding school always felt horrible cause they gave us so much food and we never really did anything physical so i always felt bad eating wich is fucking stupid and now its like im never really hungry in the same was also i bike 10 km every day so i guess its nice but also wtf.

Anyway after my shower i made the best pb and j with banana ever and called my bf to watch 2 episodes of stranger things YIPPE we also just yapped alot and i hung up my posters i live my bf hes so cute.

I was also weirdly overstimulated after my shower but not overwhelmed more in the way that i could feel my hair in my face, my clothes touching my skin and just EVERYTHING also my toes touching and that everything was sticking to my feet ew ew ew.

But i put a hat on some comfy clothes and socks and it was only a midly horrible.

Then i died for tan hour tryin to figure out what to wear to the party cause it was fucking childs birthday themed. I landed on twd shirt with short pants funky socks and converse yippe.

Then i struggeld to find kale to go to rema but o found them we struggeld to find ea who had a car or somthing. And then mail the whimsical just kinda s p a w n e d. But the car dident car so we just walked to rema and i got some smirnoff and energy drink and alchohol and an AMERICAN lollypop i mean it fit the theme but mail kept saying i was patriotic?! BARBECUE BACON BURGER we go tot the party and then we left to make mails gross gross microwave burger and his choclate milk 😭 i had a LOT of energy oh and red spawned even tho they dislike parties. I went back and fourth frlm the party to them and i drank some smirnoff and here it gets a bittt blurry me and mail had a bit with BARBECUE BACON BURGER cause both him and red dont drink so they were just following me around eventually i got a drink from the bar and omfg shit just tasted like straight up vodka omfg it was eww i also paid some one for a party hat but i paid them with the rest of my lollipop pls wtf😭 i also called viggo at some point and me and mail kept screaming BARBECUE BACON BURGER at eachother omg.

I also called viggo at somepoint THEN I WON IN UNO AGAIN RED AND MAIL YIPPE im a god at uno fr fr. I ran around a lot it was fun i also did reds dishesss?? And mail walked me home at like 23 or somthing and called viggo and went to beddd. OH SHIT RED TOOK A VIDEO OF ME OH NO i tried to do the HOTTOGO dance and i failed oh noooooo

Song of yesterday was the meme BARBECUE BACON BURGER

- Redbei 09:06 21 sep on a train so so eepy

[alasmydearatlas]

how i am feeling rn:

honestly like a woman

negative connotation

like i feel like we’re falling a little into the nag wife manchild husband trope

like were on that slope

Not totally there ofc

but that’s just what its giving

And its frustrating bc its a problem i thought we were better than but were not

And i feel like i’m not the problem this time

For once

But idk how to not be the problem

How do you hold someone else accountable for somth and not be a wicked bitch ab it

I just want more effort

From him

and effective effort like think it through

maturity

considering your actions and how they impact ppl around you

like i feel like consideration is beat into girls from birth

like oh honey don’t be too loud

and boys are just boys

and dismissed like oh hehe they’re just like that

ARGGGG woman dating a man thing

and its not just that

like its also us and our experiences

mental labor fs fs

its so frustrating waiting for someone to catch up all the time and its also frustrating to have to bite your tongue and accommodate all the time

and I’ve planned most of our recent dates and activities and etc

and ik school is stressful and change is stressful

but i’m not just a ball you can drop when things get hard

and also like take me serious when i say things

when i want to go home, i do

its hard to get up when someone is sleepy next to you

and you don’t care ab being late but i do

And when you aren’t helpful in me getting up it i feel super unsupportive and like i’m fighting my sleepies and your sleepies

so i’m doing twice the work for no reason

and when i want to go home or go to bed like please be supportive of that

sleep is hard for me! and that’s not smth u understand

i can’t just nap

i feel like fucking shit when i don’t sleep well

and then i’m resentful

also don’t come to the gym if you’re on angry mode

either get it to fucking gether

or go solo

gym together is fun

do demon shit on your own time where its not gonna ruin my mood

it is so damn jarring and then i just don’t want to be there and i don’t want to be there with you and i just check out and want to go home as soon as possible

i’m sick of fighting in the gym its so cringe

How i want things to go:

I want you to show more effort in like mature adult things and like considerate effort

not just like oh here i tried

like try to do it right

this isn’t completion credit

i just want to feel like you care enough about me and respect me enough to put in genuine effort

i want you to work on some of your habits now bc it takes a long time to change them

look up the science idc - its like roughly two months

you know how to cook and i want you to also be capable of making major food group meals

demonstrated independence

- look up recipes

- cleaning initiative

- cleaning stove and kitchen is great! more of that

- yes ik ur a boy but i’m not lowering my standards that’s just shitty for me, also maybe examine why boys aren’t as clean (bc its not expected, its not demonstrated, societal attitudes towards who’s job it is to do stuff)

- i want to to feel like equal partnership

- look for housing: proactive in developing criteria and getting familiar with the market and how things go

- just bc ur scared of your roommates doesn’t mean you wait days to do your dishes, like a little bit of face your uncomfortable-ness

- i want moving in together to be an upgrade for me (and for u but it already is)

[kangaroomarko]

existential problem whit general fear. i do have problem whit both, are they some how conected. i say that im uselless and that my life is pontless and then procite to fear of somthing that will effect me.

if my life was so wortless, why dont i go to war, maby ill become war heroe go down in hystory there for giving my life reason, a point a somthing to exist for. all do im still scared of it. what am i scared of.

why am i scared of talking to a girl if that may solve my problme (dont take this litteraly, that wont solve much it will just give me some more meaning and reason). why... idfk,

as i said fears are irracional in most cases, at least i feel like thay are.

and its really hard to deal whit my fears, espesully when ur scared of everything (like me). why r u scared of rsiking somthing if you really see not worth in living what so ever?

i guess im just a scared pussy

i suck

[yanderestevenuniverse]

yandere rhodonite or squaridot?? :0 also i love ur writingssss!!

ohhhhh thank you now I haven’t played the su games so I’ll just do rohdanite

Shes very insecure

.at first she wouldnt be a yandere i think that when you would first meet her the relationship would be ”normal” she would be quite skitish and shy introverted even. But after a time she would begain to get more and more paranoid. what if Their going out wwith some one else? no THE wouldnt do that right? i dont like her family she spends to much time with them. WHY HAVNT THEY RESPONDED ITS BEEN 5 MINUTES! eventually she would get so scared and paranoid she’d just have to take you

. she’d try to take you silently. she dosnt want to disturb you if you did wake up then shed try (key word being try) to knock you out but she wouldnt be able to go through with it instead just draging you kicking and screaming inbetween mubled apoliges

. shed try to kill for you but would never be able to bring herself to do it she would just be to scared to go through with it which is why she may deem to kidnap you instead

. She would try to punish you(give her a brake guys she trying) maybe she would threaten you or scream at you or maybe in a fit of rage she might raise somthing above her head like she was going to throw it at you but never go through with it

. she can be very affentionste when she really tries althought sometimes hugs last far too long or are too tight or her kisses just too rough she would be giving lots of comfort and would try to get you anything you need even taking as much stuff as she can with her when she kidnaps you. but everything would have a desperate clingy vibe to it

i hope you enjoyed have a good day/night

[saturnsstufff]

please can we get some angsty techno please? like the voices are acting up and you’re just kinda comforting him after an accident idm - also ur series is incredible and one of my favourites already!!!!!! very talented yes thank you

One agnsty techno comin right up!! And thank you hon!! I accidentally went off side ways in the first draft, so I will post that separate mostly because I think it went away from agnsty.

Warnings: none that I can think of

This is seprate from my "The Empress" series as well!

It was a colder night in the tundra, steve was well asleep curled up by the fire. Him and techo having played 'fetch' hours ago to tire him out. You could tell techno wasnt feeling well, not so much physically, but mentally somthing was weighing down on him.

The walls, and floor boards of the usal warm cottage were now ice to your hand due to the low temperatures that have crossed unannounced. Techno had retired to a bath about a hour ago, explaining of his rather pounding headace. Your heart weighed heavy for your lover. You knew he perfered to keep his problems to himself as to not worry you. But you worried about him regardless. You knew enough to not to pressure him into telling you what was wrong, but you also wanted to know how to help him. He was a strong man, but even the strong need to admit when they need assistance.

Your light pitter patter of your bare feet was herd as you went up the stairs. The bathroom door was slightly ajar, showing techno laying in the bath, his long hair draped out of the tub well his head rested back. A cloth was placed on his head, you assumed for his headace. His proflie was one to be envious of, he looked just like the painting of a god.

When you had nudged the door open slightly more his tender voice responced, the voice that he only used on you. "Sorry to keep you waiting princess... i'll be out momentarily..." You walked closer and set a stool by the side of the tub. Gently placing a cup full of tea with honey on it.

"Dont hurry yourself... I know your not feeling ok" you said gently. Carefully you took the cloth off his head. Kneeling down so your head was becide his. "Please my love" you breifly paused your tone ever so gentle and loving. "Tell me whats wrong... I want to help you..." His eyes fallowed you breifly, they were filled with swirling emotions, ranging from love, sadness and admiration. Your lips brushed his cheek. Placing gentle kisses up to his forhead well your hands gently cupped his face. Rubbing his cheek bones well you peppered kisses.

"S'nothing to worry about" he said slowly. His eyes looking up at you. The water was long cooled off now. He only sat in the tub for the light feeling of floating. But now that he could look up at you, he longed to stay just to see you like this.

"You say that ever time, im not a fool" Your eyes gazed down into his. In this moment knew he should tell you. But he was also hesatant, what would you say? What if you decided to leave him?

"Its the voices..." He muttered. Looking up to you, he didnt look menacing. He looked defeated.

"What about them troubles you?" He could have melted under your touch, you were so gentle with him. Yet he knew deep down he was a blood thirsty monster. He let out a shakey sigh, you knew it bother him deeply now.

"They wont quiet down... They want blood, volience, skulls... princess, I dont want to kill. I want to settle down. I like life with you and steve. I want a family. I.." His tone was pained and his eyes shown his sadness "I'm a person.. and their.. their painting me a monster" He took a deep breath. Forcing his tears back. You felt horrible. You knew he wasnt a monster. You saw beyond that, you knew he was a kind soul, but you weren't sure how to convince him. "I.. I want a family.. but what if.. what if I kill it.. what if its scared of me?.." You could only rub his cheek. Looking down into his soft saddened eyes, you shown you were listening intently.

"Technoblade.. your not a monster... If you want a family, I would love to give you one. I know you wouldn't harm them... And they would love you endlessly. Just as I do" His hand came up and ran his finger over your cheek ever so delicately. Amost as if you were glass.

"Princess if I hurt my kin, I wouldn't forgive myself... but Phil has told me of what im like when angered... what if I-" You pressed a finger to his lips gently.

"I know you techno, you wouldn't let anything hurt your family. Your worry on it speaks volumes. Yes, the voices demand blood. I can't tell you thats ok because I don't live with them.. But, I promise I'll stay with you until they ease on you. I wont leave your side" You reassured him with a soft tone.

"...Could you join me?" He asked quietly, you were comfort to him. He just wanted to burrow his head into your neck and listen to your heart. He knew the voices wouldn't stop anytime soon. But with you next to him he knew he could lessen them. You always calmed his blood thirst.

You nodded and stood, taking your sleep attire off. Letting them fall next to his pile. Well you stepped in the tub he watched you. Wrapping his arms around you firmly when you laied on him. The warmth from his body was A warm welcome to you, To him your presence was so comforting. He wordlessly nuzzled into your neck. Keeping you close, almost afraid you would leave instantly. "Thank you princess..." he muttered into your neck.

"Anything for you my love... anything."

[tiptapricot]

MK liveblog moments, The Goldfish Problem

Steven checks for footprints when getting up and winces at his ankle

I love Steven I love him so much

Oh my god episode one has so much foreshadowing

Wonder where Steven keeps his name tag when he’s at home bc he takes it from his chest pocket

I NEED to see the convo that happened w Dylan in a season two also she seems so fun

Taweret plushies my beloved

STEVEN CALLS DONNA CAP’N

I literally cannot see Steven as Oscar they just look diff it’s ridiculous

Ammit plushies :-)

GODD THE MUSIC IN EP ONE IS FUCKING RIDICULOUS

Steven already had a crush on Dylan n I’m just… thinking ab Jake or Marc setting that up for him again

The sound effects r so nice but on these speakers the dialogue is less crisp

Steven looks like he’s eating cereal while researching?

What is the origin of the staying awake thing like what is it for bc it sounds like it’s for somth paranormal

THE CUT FROM THE BED RO THE ALPS IS ALWAYS SO GOOD

Marc bestie whYYY did u jump out the window ily

Steven’s lips look nice w blood he should wear lipgloss

I wonder if Steven got shot while running away nnjust didn’t notice bc he was too scared

One of the ladies brings a dog to see harrow it’s v cute

Shaky cam following Steven is so gOood

“Call me Arthur” I’ll call u a bitch that’s what I’ll do fuck off

When harrow tells the lady he believes she’s been good but that the scales don’t lie it hits weird when u know he knows he’s unbalanced

I wonder where Marc n Harrow have met before. Like it had to b through or bc of Khonshu or somth with the avatar switch n I wanna know like… bc he doesn’t seem to have actually met met him so maybe he’s been watching the caped stories from afar?? V intriguing.

Steven’s lil eye crinklies :-)

The. Score. I’m. HMGGGHG.

I rlly wanna know which of the Alps switches r Marc vs Jake

Wham :-)

There should b more wham songs in MK and in action movies in general esp beyond Wake Me Up bc there’s some other fantastic songs

I’m glad that we see Steven swear normally bc it wouldn’t feel right if he didn’t

We need to hear him say fuck tho

I like that Khonshu’s voice always seems to be coming from above, like he’s in the overvoid

Oscar has such good acting in every ep but this one esp it’s like

He does such a good job w Steven’s panic

I hope Dylan n Steven get to b friends again

The failed date scene… aughhhhh

I NEED TO SEE

FRENCHIE

Call 32 looking at u so hard

Watching this on a big screen in a dark room truly brings out the creep factor n makes all the darker scenes so much more fun n dramatic

Also Steven mentions contacts which I assume he actually had w the glasses

Also fuck that lady in the elevator who freaked out from Steven just bc he was acting distressed

Also I wonder what Marc did that evening when he took back over for Steven

Also he dressed him in a flat shirt instead of a patterned one that’s such an interesting deet

Idk if I just dk how displays work but are the pillars in the gallery w Ammit on em like remakes or are those real n just not behind glass

Steven asks “are you going to kill me?” So plainly I love him. And hen Khonshu flickers the lights bc no way his avatar isn’t gonna die. Also the speech harrow gives Steven is ab Khonshu but it probably hits more like ab Marc to steven

Steven’s fingers twitch while harrow judges the body

THE PART WHERE HE LOOKS AT HIS REFLECTION N WALKS AWAY N IT DOESNT I LOVE THIS EP GODDDDD

I wonder if Steven watches horror or not I could see him being interested in the effects

I LOVE HOW OSCAR MAKES HIM MOVE N WALK ITS SO FUCKING HHHHHHGVBBB

His poor arm :-(

THE BATHROOM SCENE THE BATHROOM SCENE AHHHGGHHHGGHH

Ur not gonna die. Let me save us.

GOING OUT TO SPACE AHHHH

The way the bandages r hesitant n slow bc the switch is

The wedding ring being cracked in three haha Layla ur marrying three guys

Also didn’t realize the bullet hole in the glass in the credits has their face reflected in it

[kristalpepsi]

Temptation Stairway Thoughts™ + Theory Discussion

TW: blood + Death mentions, Implied (forced/pushed) integration (systems), racism (against asians), unreality stuff bc the show is Like That, Trauma causd by therapy

TL;DR = I mainly talk about implied integration, n as some1 in a system tht! mkes me uncomfy! I mainly will talk abt wht I’m calling the multi-ena theory (n anothr theory ill call the Multiple/Multi-Enaverse Theory) thts been popping up n disccng how thts kind of the bggst thng keepng me on board! I won’t LIE I might b a little biased bc I rlly do like thise show b I am NOT blind so I will try 2 address som things. I also talk alot abt the Shepard n Phindol bc I love themb so much they make me very heart Big.

DISCLAIMERS:

Obviously Joel G Highkey/definitely/most probbly did not intend 4 any of thise, but media is very complic8d so u cn end up accidntlly making problmtc things or implyng not great things

I hav a typing quirkkkk so if u cant understand my post I rlly dont blame u! I’m sorry how I type is Incomprehensible™

Not an angry post, more like my brain is holding me host-ge until i talk abt everyth dskfjhd!!

DO NOT Send anyone in thise post hate or angry asks/messages or perish by my sword

OK so this recnt episde has me w vry vry mixd feelngs!!! I’m both happy n exctd! b litrlly 2 things is whts bothrng me. While I CLD jst say :I Am Lookng Away: i rlly do need 2 write it down. Under a Read-more bc im secure SKSJ

Part 0: I’m uncomfortable help

The Section wher i tlk abt n bring up othr ppl’s concerns

So fr most if nt all the frnds I hav who also wtch Ena ALSO has a vry “vr vry mixd feelngs now tht I’ve seen the episde!!” mood twrds Temptation Stairway! It’s 4 a bunch of rsns, like thise post (tw racism) mde by a frnd whch brings up a good point

Part 1: The Actual Intro

Episode 1 = Auction day (AD) Episode 2 = Extinction Party (EP) Episode 3 = Tempation Stairway (TS)

Who is Ena

Ena can b describd as an "abstract girl split in half, w 1 blue side n the other is her yellow side!" Each side (emotion/mood, 2 b specific) seems 2 hav their own voic actor credited along with seper8 credits 4 each mood! So far the canon sides r Ena (happy), Ena (sad), n Ena (drunk)! They seem 2 act accordingly: Happy acts happy n optimistc, Sad acts sad n especlly depressd, n Drunk acts confused n dizzy [In the Credits, it would look like thise: Ena (happy) by Gabe V., Ena (sad) by Lizzie Freeman, (drunk) Ena by Sam Meza

4 Episodes 1-2, thy follow thise pattern exctly! So we cn expect wht 2 see from them, n each voice actor is creditd accordngly as seper8 b all a part of Ena

On epside 3, Ena is seen as actng diffrnt!! She's suddnly less predictabl! I say thise bc Suddenly, her voic Actors r not stuck 2 Only their sides. Thise is also emphasized when looking at the credit list! No longer is it "Ena (happy) by Gabe V., Ena (sad) by Lizzie Freeman" it's now jst "ENA by Gabe V. and Lizzie Freeman"

Happy's voic can sound STRESSED n sad, Happy can tlk w Blue's side in mor control n Sad's voic can sound Really happy n optimistic. Somth's Diffrnt n Not The Same

Temptation Stairway Summary

Skipping 2 my point, The summary of the episode Temptation stairway is tht Moony and Ena have a bet 2 race 2 the Great Runas! The Great Runas, can grnt u any wish accordng 2 Moony n som of those Ena passes by on the wy. The wager, is tht "whoever reaches the top of the Great Runas n makes their wish 1st, has 2 pay the debts of the loser" (yes it’s phrased like that) As Ena journeys thru, The DIFFERENCES between Ena Temptation Stairway and Ena Extinction Party n Below, is mor obvious as the epsde progrsses, even 2 wher Happy's voic actor is the 1 screamng in agony 2 jst get murdered already. The Episode ends w Moony beatng Ena (but it's 100% possibl it can be the other way arnd, that ENA Beat Moony, b thats somth I'll discuss in a bit L8r). Moony splits in half, revealing that according 2 her, "she wished 2 be skinny" n a humanoid coms out of her previous form. As 4 Ena, Her blue side slowly dispprs n its not answrd why.

Theories so far, are:

Moony wished 4 Ena 2 b happy (or 4 her sad/blu side 2 go awy. 4 wht reason can b eithr wholsom or 2 Moony's advntge [like so she "doesnt have 2 deal w Sad Ena"]) - b if Moony wished 4 Ena 2 b happy/b rid of her sad side, tht wld mean perhaps she lied about wishing 2 be skinny (her new humanoid form may be how she is "paying her debt 2 the loser"). Unless the Runas can grant u more than 1 wish.

Ena ws the 1 who wished her blu side awy, whch is a little depressng tbh

If both the above r tru, it may b possibl bc it wsnt clarified (afaik) tht the great runas can only grant ONE person a wish (or more). I think we only get tht implica8ion bc we see 1 (open) door while in the distance, ther r more doors tht look like their eyes r closed. We hav 2 remembr Moony said "whoever makes their wish 1st whch means Ena n Moony can totlly mke wishes @ the sme time

Somhow, turning pure yellow/only happy is how Moony is payng her debt 2 Ena(??) (opposite 2 the 1st theory)

OR If Ena won the race, it can even b possibl 2 consider tht Ena did not make ANY wish, n her debt 2 pay 2 Moony is her sad/blue side removed (I do not subscribe 2 thise) 

This info that was brought up 2 me is high evidenc that Moony won the race, n it explains how Moony surprises Ena whn Ena arrives. “I’m The Best and you’re the worst! I wonder who got the hair chest?” said by Ena, is a direct reference 2 a phrase usd by kids when they lose that goes “First is the worst, second is the best, third is the one with the hairy chest.”

“Whoever reaches the top of the Great Runas n makes their wish 1st, has 2 pay the debts of the loser.“ Might be phrased tht way as a weird way 2 pay 4 ur greed? (Last minute addition from me since some people wld think this is quoted wrong in and outside of the youtube comments)

i'm p sure ther may even b mor theories b i dont rmmbr them OOPS

Part 2: The Implied Integration Part AKA: How the System!Ena theory is affected by this episode

TW: Final fusion discussion, medical trauma (Is that the right word)

Disclaimer: This is 100% unintended by Joel G. That’s y the Alternative title 2 thise part is “How the System!Ena theory is affected by this episode”

2 GET IN2 the whole Implied Integr8ion part of my Essay™ I hav a theory calld system ena or sys!ena! (Check out my #system ena tag. This is in chronologicl order!) While thers no canon explan8ion 4 how Ena herslf is how she is, she mkes very intrstng n almst good accdntl Sys Represent8ion 2 me! They even show cofronting rlly well! I headcanon Ena as a system bc of the accidentl system!rep, but it explains 2 me y n how she switches! she has triggers 4 when she switchs 2 a diffrnt side, etc!

Ther hav been theories about Temptation Stairway in the past (before the episode cme out) wher ppl try 2 explain y the trailer Looks Like Tht. Besides theorizing abt the introduction of a new forme (I'm ok w just calling it Scared/Anxiety 4 now until 4rthr notic), 1 of the theories ive seen is tht Temptation Stairway's new introduced forme is due 2 being something akin 2 being "integr8d" (probably by force, accordin 2 the OP) (in other words, all her sides merge in2 one) n Ena being devast8td abt it

While tht theory is now DEBUNKED, bc the new forme clearly did not come out bc of being One Single Mind now, the "integr8ion" part of tht theory is unfortun8ly a littl tru

What is Integr8ion?

Integr8ion is not inherently a bad thing. In systems, ther are 2 definitions: "the breaking down of barriers 2 form healthy multiplicity, n then healthy communic8ion n less amnesiac barriers" and the othr, n mor FAMOUS definition bc its the oldest 1, is "final fusion"

Fnal Fusion is when all the members "fuse/merge" 2gether until ther is 1 single mind left. While not necssrlly a bad thng, final fusion n ther4 "integr8ion" is a scry thing 4 a lot of systems 2 talk abt, because in the history of Treatment, Final fusion is uslly somthng forcd on2 systems 4 the longest time :^(

Very valid 2 hav final fusion as a goal, b showng it as a desire n end goal is uslly seen as a sad n even scry thing 2 promote accdntly or not in media, bc of the previous traumas in the medicl/therapy world of system treatment etc

What's Worse. is tht if we apply the Ending 2 Temptation Stairway to the System!Ena Theory, thts wht hurts!!!

Scrolling back up 2 the possibl theories of who won the race and wht happened aftr, Either Moony or Ena wishing 4 the blue side/Sad Ena 2 go awy is rlly painful!

B I'll be honest, thts a RLLY biased n personal opinion i hav!! I've seen ppl think its rlly wholsom altho a bit Sad, tht the blue side disappears. I've seen ppl think its rlly sweet esp if it was Moony who mde tht wish

BSCLLY If I were to hold on2 the System!Ena headcanon while watchng the Temptation Stairway episode, its Hurtful, not rlly bc of the implied Integr8ion of Sides, but bc most top theories r that the blue side disappeard on Purpose either from Moony or Ena wishing her away or involvng the debt! It's like asking 4 ur sibling irl 2 Disappear and cease 2 exist. it's scary n rlly sad esp whn the audienc can c tht Sad, Happy, n Drunk cn almst b seen as their own persons n mite even b abl 2 interact w each othr (as seen by the many fanart of Happy n Sad having their own seper8 forms)

  Ok so Now tht ive described my intro n Main Beef w the Episode, here's a theory I cn rlly get behind tht dsnt mke me wnna cry behind a Denny's. Prsnlly it's a rlly relievng theory even if it mite b hard 2 take in

Ther's no name 4 it, som call it the Enaverse, b just so it dsnt get confusd w other definitions (like, u wldnt call it the Marvel Cinematic Universe theory, the MCU is jst wht it is) I'm gnna call it the Multi-Ena theory! Bsclly, there's mor than 1 Ena in thise universe. But I'll get in2 a sub/partner theory tht is also possibl: ther is mor than 1 enaverse n somhow u may or may not b abl 2 travel between them

Part 3: The Multi-Ena theory

Something interesting I noticed was that the shepherds says “another ENA troublemaker?” Which definitely means more than one ENA/person has been there before.

(I blockd out the rest of the commnt not bc it ws bad, b i wantd 2 focus on this part of the commnt, but thise commnt will come up again L8r)

Not connected 2 System!Ena or the integr8ion issue I mentioned earlier, the multi-ena theory seems 2 b 1 of the top suggstd theories bc of many thngs! Bsclly n in short, thise theory believs tht in the series (or Enaverse), ther is multipl ena's! So fr i havent seen a post tht RLLY went in2 depth on thise so here is my attempt!

Evidence:

(See: above explanation on how the voic actors r credited 4 their roles individlly 2 explain my system!ena theory/intro) In episodes 1-2, Ena's diffrnt emotions/sides r creditd individually! In Temptation Stairway, Gabe n Lizzie Freeman r all creditd undr the sme nme, just as "Ena" (mening thise is a completely different Ena from the past)

Again, as said in my summry 4 Tempt8ion Stairway, thise Ena acts compltly diffrnt n is not follwng the sme "pattern" or rules as Ena did in Episodes 1-2! (Read above in my summary section) Either ther r stuff we've missd between Extinction Party n Temptation Stairway, or thise is a diffrnt Ena entirely.  I'd hav 2 sy prsnlly tht I'm leanng 2wrds the latter bc of how the VA's are crdtd. but if ur not convinced, let me continu:

When we meet the Shepard in 7:52 of the episode, they say (verbatim) "Arghh... Another ENA trouble maker." which implies there r more than 1 Ena's

9:08 - 9:19 when Ena jumps in2 the "Holy Code" where we head undrwtr in2 a sea of diffrnt doors, we see floating Ena models (n the comment section seems 2 gravit8 2 callng them "dead bodies") (Honorary mention: You'll notic they glitch in2 Mannequins if u pay attention 2 them). This piec of info is Direct Evidence 2 the multi-ena theory, bc ther r Explicitly mor thn 1 ena's on screen! wht's concernng n unanswrd tho, is y do they glitch in2 mannequins? Does tht mean all the mannequins we sw on screen in the begnng of the video (n onwards) were all previously an Ena? Is it only an Ena tht can transform in2 a mannequin or cn othr chrctrs also become mannequins?

Not the strongst evidenc b i'll input it anywy: Ena's Action boxes (Like when she receivs or gives items) spell her nme her as ƎNA (with a backwrds E). The thing abt thise 1 is tht we can't compare it with Auction Day n Extinction Part bc they don't have any action boxes. BUT What we CAN compare is how she is spelled in the dialogue boxes of those speakng in diffrnt languages AND in the Credits! In Episodes 1-2, She's Spelled as Ena with this captialis8ion. In Temptation Stairway the dialogue and credits consitntly spell her as ENA in all caps. May or may not allude 2 her being diffrnt, b i will admit this is the most Strechiest piec of evidnc. Tru or not, I'd like 2 refer 2 Tempt8ion Stairway ena as TS!Ena or ƎNA, prsnlly 2 differenti8 her frm the othr episodes

Pronounci8ion: BUT 2 build on the above evidence, In the beginning of the episode, Moony DOES pronounc Ena's name in different wys a lot, startng w I-NA (ai-na), ENA (ehna), n finally JENA. And this isnt new! She’s been doing it sinc Auction Day (ee-nah/ii-na) n Extinction Party (ay-nah). Thise may or my not sggst that perhaps Moony's inconsistancy is bc these othr pronunci8ions or names cld b of other ena's she's met in the past w similr or diffrnt preferences! I’d say because of her constant switchng in the beginning of Temptation Stairway, it would lean 2wards that she may know different Ena’s @ once. Otherwise, c the Multi-Enaverse theory below

Note: Every othr charctr besides Moony (So far; Merci and the Shepard) Pronounces Ena as ehna (or ehna) so it might be that perhaps Eh-na is the universal way of pronouncng Ena?

Conlusions/thghts on this theory: I prsnlly like thise a lot!! It makes Enasonas Very Possible, b also tht any interpret8ion of Ena cn b corrct or possibl! It knda saddens me tho bc im not rlly sure if we'll ever return 2 the Ena we're used 2, I wldnt rlly want 2 b stuck w/o Sad bc I thnk her role is rlly neat n can b importnt, b im biasd. I also rlly subscribe 2 thise theory bc it means whtvr happend 2 TS!Ena ds not hav 2 be permanent in the long run; Again litrlly the only thng keepng me from gettng supr upset abt the ending of Temptation Stairway, is tht the prev ena’s r not the sme n wld possibly not do thise, or tht ther r othr ena’s out ther besides THISE episod 1, who wld nvr do tht, etc

Part 4: The Multiple Enaverses/Multi-Enaverse Theory AKA The Alternative In Defense of Moony Mispronouncing Ena’s name over and over

An alterntve 2 the Multi-Ena theory, is tht there is MORE thn 1 Enaverse! So bsclly, a multiverse theory. Primarily thise my explain Not jst Ena's sudden Shift in how diffrnt she is in thise episode b may also explain how Diffrnt Moony is actng in thise episode 2. While thise isnt the top theory i prsnlly subscribe 2 (sinc ther isnt explicit evidence besides it bein an explan8ion 4 Moony n Ena's weird/diffrnt behavior), it DOES open a lot of doors 2 intrstng things 2 thnk abt!

Bsclly Moony keeps mispronouncing Ena’s name a lot (in Tempation Stairway) n its Really Rude, esp consdrng she’s always said it properly (As in @ least 1nce in an episode n not switchng multiple times) b4! so 2 Explain her Sudden change in behavior, this is actlly a Different Moony, besides a different Ena. this is a whole different universe/timeline!

LIKE If not multiple Ena's, The different Loca8ions in Ena cn probbly b traversible across dimensions! The Holy Code may b the door 2 diffrnt enaverses. The Shepard's garden cld b an interdimensionl place tht is singular n deals w diffrnt beings passing thru! While i dnt hav mch 2 sy on thise, its RLLY Interestng 2 thnk abt

Like the Multi-Ena theory, thise also opens the doors 2 enasonas being vry possibl :^) Som ppl's evidences r all involvng Moony besides how Ena's rlly diffrnt

Moony can skateboard??

Moony's square shape hole can shrink 2 hold an item

while not strong ATM or frm wht i cn see, its still very inch restng!!! Tho I would sy it is VERY on par w the Multi-Ena theory anyway

Part 5: Honorary Mentions: Mini Theories

The Great Runas is actlly a play on the "Run As" Command! I'm not very Smart engh 2 break thise down vry well, b bsclly w all the allusion 2 "codes" n the Blood ID looking like a Chip, The Great Runas being abl 2 grant u wishes makes a lot of sense! This ws brought up 2 me from a friend (@ambercard​)!

like its a command line. so then the great runas being able to grant wishes makes sense if its digital world like all the code stuff says Allows a user to run specific tools and programs with different permissions than the user's current logon provides.

Runas is a command-line tool that is built into Windows Vista. To use runas at the command line, open a command prompt, type runas with the appropriate parameters, and then press ENTER.

In the user interface for Windows Vista, the Run as… command has been changed to Run as administrator. However, you should rarely have to use the Run as administrator command because Windows Vista will automatically prompt you for an administrator password when it is needed.

and my friend who i was talking to said that probably explains what the password was for and the blood id being a login or something?

its possible using the blood id akin to using the run as administrator command since idk their name but one of the people ena met said the blood id didnt seem like her which is like. if she isnt administrator then it would make sense that using that command wouldnt match who she is

My response:

man do u realiz Ena uslly does not hav the corrct passwrd/admin privileges all the tme? Bc the guardian entity in extinction party askd her 4 1 b i guess it ws so Low Game tht it wsnt supr necsrry in the end

The Enaverse is all a computer code of some sort- most probbaly a game! AKA: This is a digital world

... If we were too treat this world as a video game this would make more sense since different play through bus and all that. Oh god this feels like a fnaf situation, taking a video that just wants to be a video and turning it into a big serious thing

Going with the whole ‘there are multiple enas representing the player’ theory, perhaps this ENA realized that she’s in a video game and isn’t taking it too well? But the game is kind of glitching out because of it.

Honorable Mentions: Random Info + Unanswered Questions

Ena seems self-aware of smth! (10:24 Ena screams "YOU'RE ALL LIVING A LIE!") May help the Run as command idea n the video game/digital reality idea! If not a video gme, they sure r Somewhere

What does the Great Runas look like?? is it the door? is ther mor thn 1 Runas?

What is Mariya n Gabo's Job? R they just like the Guardian Entity in Extinction Party but are assignd 2 this part/location of where they are?

In 6:30, wht does Ulysses mean by "Desires r never fulfilled nor quenched"? "You Will fail like the rest of them" Is he referring 2 the other Ena's that's passed by? who else have come n failed?

This Post Also brings up som good points I hvnt noticd yet!

Thise comment pretty much says everythng:

Standout things from this animation:

-This Ena switches between a male & female voice at seemingly random instead Happy speaking with a male voice and Sad speaking with a Sad voice. The text boxes noticeably refer to this Ena with a reversed E, and The Shepard says "Another Ena troublemaker", implying that there are multiple Enas. We also see some Ena corpses flickering into the mannequin bodies at one point. Third, at the end we see Ena's sad half turn from blue to yellow over the course of Ena & Moony's conversation. My personal theory is that this Ena is possibly 'broken' in some manner. -Moony either doesn't care or dosen't realize that Ena's voices aren't matching the personalities anymore. -The grey personality appears to come out when Ena gets too stressed out. Notably the transformation involves the happy half turning into static and exploding out, erasing Ena's face in the process. It also appears that some physical trauma (in this case, Brick Frog kicking Ena) is necessary to exit the grey personality, unlike the previously seen 'blackout' personalities which can possibly be switched by the other personality exerting themselves (in the auction episode, Ena enters her sad blackout/depressed personality, then switches to Happy!Ena, who apologizes to Moony about her depressed outburst). -Moony's hole is capable of closing to hold things, and she also knows how to skateboard. -Judging by Ena's reaction, Moony's transformation at the end is weird even by this universe's standards.

aaaand thats all 4 now! I really hope thats all my brain can think of skjsdhfsdfkh

Feel free 2 send me asks abt Ena theories n stuff! While this is a Comprehensiv post, it’s definitely mor focused on the Multi-Ena theory n my thghts on the episode whn it comes 2 how it affects the System Ena theory. I’m open 2 questions!!

Last Edit: Feb 19 2021 (GMT +8)

[shunsuiken]

can you please write hc's about kita having a crush on a female s/o who is terrified of being abandoned or cheated on, so she try to stay away from love relationships or from the boys. but kita knows that she loves him back but she is very scared, what would he do? I'm very sorry if i wrote something in the wrong way on english i hope you got me 🥺👉🏼👈🏼 thank you sm 🤍🤍🤍

aaaa i love love LOVE this man sm!! and don’t worry ur english is fine, thank u for your request anon <3

tw. mentions of cheating.

kita has a crush on a female s/o who’s scared of love.

you were traumatised of the idea of love that it had made you dense and oblivious to many things

and one of those things was kita’s Massive crush on you

the idea of crushes and people having crushes on you scared you to the bone. what if you couldn’t satisfy them? and what if they’d leave you right after? it was a recurring cycle of these types of questions

like imagine pouring your soul out for someone you love so much just to find out that they were only using you or cheating on you

thats gonna hurt like shit. and since you’ve seen it happen to a couple of your friends, you wanted to avoid all the shebang at ALL costs

now back to kita’s crush on you.

the entire inarizaki vbc knows.

its literally old news.

the only people who have the actual guts to tease him about it is aran, who does not get beat up and atsumu who, even if he does get beat up, will never back down to tease one of his favourite upperclassmen

the rest of the vbc kinda just vibe around when they see kita walk threateningly towards atsumu cus they know shits about to go down and ‘atsumu totally deserves it,’ says osamu

“kita-san?? are you SMILING?? is it ‘cus ya saw y/n pa-” kita will pinch this man to deaTh

he’ll also not hesitate to file a restraining order against atsumu and osamu completely understands because he, too, would file one as well

now one day you’ll be passing by the volleyball court in search of kita, still completely oblivious to his feelings

you had to return a notebook your friend borrowed from him and she knew kita liked you so she OBVIOUSLY set this up but did you know that???

nOOOOO

so you’re literally this 👌🏼 close to sliding the door open until you hear some yelling

“kita-san, i think ya should just tell y/n ya like her! i’ve got a feeling she has no idea at all.” its atsumu’s voice!!

wait what

“kita-san i think ya should just tell y/n ya like her”

KITA LIKES YOU ?-?-?2?2?:?2?/?2?2?1?

you can’t even fathom the way you’re feeling, you’re sort of... relieved??? pressured?? happy??? scared?? but happy????

now your head is filled with way too many questions

when? and HOW?? how on earth could the sweetest boy have feelings for someone as broken as you ??

so you back away from the door slowly, turning on your heel, rewinding your memories and searching for the littlest of hints of kita’s crush on you

“y/n-san, could you help me distribute these homeworks out?” “y/n-san, walk home safely.” “y/n-san, make sure to stay hydrated.” “y/n-san, i heard you wanted an onigiri, so i bought one for you.” his stares on you always linger a little longer and he hopes its enough as a hint of how he feels

the corner of your lip rises, heart warming at how kind kita has always been to you. the genuine smile on his face never left your head after every interaction.

and wait a sec..... “of course!! give me some papers, i’ll help you out.” “i will, kita-kun!” “of course, kita-kun!” “you didn’t have to buy one for me! but thank you, i appreciate it!” you feel a heat spread over your cheeks and then you realise

have u literally been crushing on him too ???

“oh my god.” you hadn’t realised that you stopped walking, standing right next to the vbc club room, patting the notebook onto your lips, still deep in thought of your interactions with him

“y/n-san?” you flinched, flustered that someone had to interrupt your thoughts just to bring you back to reality

suddenly you’ve forgotten how to compose yourself. “kita-kun!! i uh-” you glanced at the notebook. “right!! this is yours.” you hand it to him and he takes it from you, observing your expression and stance.

the red on your face is evident and kita tries to stop himself from overthinking it. “you heard atsumu, didn’t you?”

your gaze falls to the ground behind him, you feel so bad, you don’t even know if you can accept his feelings..... this was the type of stuff that made your heart race and made you incredibly nervous. “i did.” you bit your inner lip, attempting to hide your anxiety.

but wait theres a part of you that wants to tell him you like him back??

“i like you, y/n, i like you very much.” he confesses, tilting his head to meet your eyes, you let out a soft laugh, heart overflowing in the one thing you feared most

and maybe this once, you’re willing to let that fear go. “kita-kun, i like you very much as well.”

he’ll offer to walk you home after and while he does, he’ll swing his hand close to yours, just to capture it and slip his fingers through. you won’t notice but hes literally doing his best to not grin its so cute

you’ll blush at the sight of your hands intertwined, thinking about how you’ve never felt happier to let go of somthing that has been holding you down for so long.

[akaashisbabygirl]

Hi wifey I hopes u r doing well and getting ur school work and other stuff done and drinking water........u-um imma about to word vomit it might not make sense but I just need to get it off my chest I’m sorry

It’s currently 11:14 am I got bored yesterday so I rewatched fairy tail from the beginning cried a lot (I’m a emotional anime watcher) I’ve watched it for 12+ hrs I have not slept I’m on my 4-5th bowl of lucky charms which I shouldn’t have bc I’ve eaten ramens noodles and 5 big chicken wings some pop corn and way way to much soda I’m burnt out on drawing which I love to do I even tried to do Diffrent techniques and Diffrent medians but they all just look awful I haven’t been able to sleep more than 3-4 hrs a day I feel like crap I think my house is haunted I haven’t done laundry which I really need to do but it’s a lot of energy just to get up to shower and I don’t really have that energy either I’ve been crying for the past 8 minutes for ABSOLUTELY NO REASON I feel like crap I don’t wanna do anything and I’m really scared bc I know there signs my depressions spiking and Ik it’s bc of the holidays and I don’t wanna bug my parents bc I feel they just put up with me at this point bc when ever we even see each other they r either saying a list of chores we need to do or somthing we haven’t done I feel like I’m stuck and trapped and I can’t do anything bc all the friends I had before arent my friends anymore bc they were super toxic and I could deal with the drama they brought with them bc I’d alway be the third wheel friend and I didn’t wanna do that anymore

I’m really sorry I just needed to tell somebody anybody beside my self bc my self it’s saying super good things to me right now I’m sorry to bug you

hi lovely, i’m currently on my break now, so please feel free to talk with me about anything. it’s understandable to feel like you’re stuck and trapped, and not being able to understand your feelings and have anyone who is able to understand how you’re feeling. it’s okay that you’re confused about your feelings, and it’s okay to cry whenever you need to cry. you don’t need a reason to cry, and sometimes, it does help let your emotions out when your words can’t even explain it. 

i pray that your friends will start acting a little differently, involving you more and making you feel like you are included. even if they don’t, i really hope you meet people who will make you feel like you’re worth something, because you are. i send you all my love and wishes, and i hope that everything goes well for you, i only want the best for you. if you ever need to talk to anybody, i’m always here for you :)

[yukikozummm]

HELLO YUKI!! U don’t have to do this if ur not comfy dw :3 get to know your mutuals!! when you get this, it means someone wants to know more about you, so list 5 things about yourself you want your followers to know. they can be as simple as your age or as complex as your deepest fear, as long as it’s something you’re comfortable with sharing. when you’re done, send this to 10 people you want to get to know better! Ty for being moots I luv ur art 👉👈

DAN!! IM SO HAPPY U SENT THIS TO ME!! THANK YOUU i love ur art as well💝!! stay safe 💕💕

1. other than drawing/painting, i also love singing! i used to join a lot of singing contests and auditioned once for the voice (only got to the 3rd screening level lol) bc my dad used to be in a band and my grandma was supposed to be a music artist until she married my grandpa, they told me how the ent. company didn't allow relationships like that lmao

2. im actually really scared of not getting to experience love properly? imean its fucked enough to think that there is a “proper” way to love bc there isn’t lol but i feel really insecure abt who i really am and if that hinders how much love my s/o can give aaahhh

3. i love love love listening to songs that would either make me  feel angry or sad. defo makes me wander through things that have happened in my life and how i should have felt  nd understood said events ❤️ no happiness here smoochie❤️

4. i like reading dark fics as a way to cope or comfort?? somth abt reading messed up people go on about their atrocious self makes me feel relaxed HAHAHAHA or like said messed up/toxic ppl do terrible things and we don’t even have the ‘heroes’ as the main focus bonus points if the writing is vvv poetic and is in the toxic person’s pov lol

5. i am very unconfident with my digital art lmao 😳 bc i feel like i dont understand much about the programs i use and i see all these artists use this tool and that press this smingleshingalooga YAFEEL??

ne ways miss dani thanks again! finished this pretty late bc i didnt know what to put lmao

[werewolfofthebloodmoon]

this is candy. candy is an undertale fandom oc. candy is an energitic happy boi. he hardly gets underthe weather unless somthing really bad happens. he's a bit of a show off but he's very sweet on the inside. he also has a candy like tail but it can crack open to a sharp sugar coated mouth with lots of sharp teeth anf poisines sugar like substance that smels sweet like honey.

likes: compliments,people trying to flirt with him,animals, being a tad bit evil, harmless pranks loves:attention,food,trying to win a flirting battle,cute stuff,being called cute dislikes:people being plain assholes,innsults,made fun of,being alone hates:being called ugly,poeple being mean to small cute stuff or animals,peeps not taking him seriously,peeps not listning when he says no. 

(the backstory is very long so I will put it under the keep reading. read it if ya wanna)

backstory. when candy was little he was a bundle of trouble. causing fights getting himself hurt exploring strictly forbidden places. his parents once decided they had enough after some royal guards brought home a muddy colorful child. explaining he somehow had manged to break into an area nobody except the king and his top scientists were allowed. and that the security nearly killed hi before realising he was only a small child. his parents yelled and beat him before they chucked him out. they didn't want anything to do with him anymore. since he caused so much trouble. candy was left out in the cold. he didn't really know what to do. he was bleeding quite a bit from his parents and the security of  where he went. he knew his parent's probably wanted him to dust this time. so he left where he was and tried to find somewhere that wasn't as cold. he decided it would be best to just go to an abandoned area he found once climbing the biggest trees he could find in snowdin. he got there and sat under a buncha planks of wood he made into a small den. he would notice a little bunny near where he was. he would lighten up a bit before going on his knees patting his legs as if trying to encourage the rabbit to come closer. he recognised it. it was one he used to give treats to before he ran off and started trouble. the bunny would come to him expecting treats. but when it saw none would be a little confused sniffing his hands.it would let candy pet it a little though. after awhile candy got used to being cold and sleeping in the snow. about 10 years later he was 16 years old. that’s when he started causing trouble like last time. however he wasn't as easy to catch anymore. he would steal break things and scare people passing through the woods. once he scared a small child well he thought it was a child. they screamed rather loud and high pitched when he dropped down and dangled in their face his tail holding him upside down. the smol creature he scared to death was a skeleton like him. he would let go from the tree branch and do a small fast flip so he landed on his feet he would lean over the small skeliton before sayin 'heyyyy kid.uh you ok? did irealy scare u to ur death?' he would giggle a little but the skelliton would open his eyes slowly get u and poin his finger in his face and scream 'IM NOT A KID! IM 15!' they would seem really annoyed he would gesture to his hight but that only made them more pissed 'So it's because im short?? THATS RUDE HOW WOULD U LIKE IT IF I CALLED U A  FKN TREE CUZ UR TALL?! im a perfectly avarge hight il have you know.' they would pout before picking their stuff nk up and grabbing a pen with a bird keyring on it. candy would watch them before snatching he pen from them. it would have the word .Blue. written on the side. candy would look at them and go soooo do u just like the colour blue aor is it ur name or sumthin? regardless this pen thingy is mine now. they woul simply just make his hand glow blue and slowly it would go to the floor it didn't hurt but he coulden't dtop it. they would grab the pen and say 'im not in the mood to play games with someone calling me a child and calling me short.' tthey wud make a portal with it before grtting rid of the magic ristricting Candys hand Candy would smile and dive into the portal knocking the small skelliton over again before the portal closed up. candy wud be running everywhere like 'EVERYTHING IS FKN WHITE COOL!'  blue wud be very consed and annoyed he would just sit down make another pen with a small candy keywring before just placing it on the floor and leaving to go bk to biscuit. candy would eventually find it  nd start going to random places. he felt happier creating whatever he wanted and going where he wanted even though he fucks up portals most he time.

that's all :3

[cockroaches-hiss-at-pedos]

Hey :(( I think my dad is a map. What should I do? I can't tell anyone and he keeps doing nasty things despite me telling him I'm uncomfortable. I don't wanna ruin him and mom's marriage either, and a lot of times he's super nice and funny but sometimes it gets really bad! I'm terrified... what do I do?

o goodness, i am so sorry....... if he is makeing u uncomfortable, you need to alert an adult you trust. a teacher, therapist, doctor, etc. i kno it can be difficult if it is someone u ar related to, or somone you care about!! but if they are sexualy abusing u, ther is nothing that can excuse that. and your momther should want to protect u from someon whom is hurting you!!!!!!!

abusers ar not always outwardly cruel or malicious. thay can be funny an smart and kind. they may even think they r doin somthing good for you, or may think this is just a way to show their lov for u......... but this is abuse and emotional manipulation and they are still abusers. it is wrong and if ur dad is hurting you, u should not stay silent!!!!!!!

i will tell an story: my human persons grandfather was a “map”. he claimed to lov them v much and said he wanted to hav an special relationship with them. they hid the abuse their granfather inflicted on them for many many years becaus they were scared an did not want to hurt their fambily by exposing him as a pedofile, evn though the abuse had been goin g on since they only had 3 years of life!!!!! but they told an family member and now they never hav to see him again. it is important to look after yuorself, even when it is scarey to do so!!!

i implor you to pleas seek help from a trusted adult adn/or authority figure. u should not have to endure abuse from somone, whether they ar famly or friend or boss or lover. you deserve to live a life free from abuse!!!!!!!