#forever perplexed

[mueritos]

its crazy how coming into clinical social work, i really just thought I was up against systems and cycles of trauma....but it turns out i'm up against those two things AND other therapists. the amount of work spent correcting mistakes from other clinicians--whether with clients or during the classroom--is fucking crazy.

i totally get we're all on different journeys in terms of being clinicians. but it is insane finding out day after day of therapists and clinicians saying the worst things ever to clients. demeaning them, telling them "it's all in their head", the racism and the ableism and harm that is caused. like no fucking wonder people are afraid to seek therapy (on top of the accessibility issues). while i'm a little biased and think that at the very least clinical social work training focuses on viewing people within their environments (so not engaging in the medical/individualist models of practice that a lot of counseling programs focus on), that doesn't mean it gives every person the skills to be an effective therapist. i'm also not saying i'm the best clinician ever--I'm literally in training--but boy! it is jarring seeing how some of my peers interact in class and wondering...is that how you are with your clients??

my social work program at the very least also has a focus on anti-racism, but i know students from other programs and some of them don't even mention racism AT ALL and focus entirely on diagnosing people "correctly", or finding the perfect form of therapy to use on a client. but man, what none of these programs teach are basic life skills. wanting to be a clinician isn't enough, especially considering that an inhumane amount of people in my program are 1. so nervous about making mistakes that they lose scope of their practice 2. have so much internalized racism/white guilt to work thru 3. or they have absolutely no listening skills.

again, im not trying to make it seem like I am the number 1 clinician in the world ever. I don't even have a psych background or bachelor's in social work. my reasons for going into social work are quite selfish (I want a job that is very flexible, easily transferable, and can be done in different contexts), and the helping people part is just a plus. i'm just saying it's very jarring seeing other people in training and realizing they too are working with clients. i have conversation after conversation about these issues with other BIPOC/queer/marginalized clinicians, so I know i'm not the only person worried about some of the people that will be out of this program in a few years practicing on their own or with vulnerable populations.

[teatitty]

Anytime this scene pops back up on twitter it never fails to make me laugh this was by far the funniest and best moment from that tedious war arc but what this screenshot misses is when Madara ACTUALLY LISTENS and spends a bit sulking right after. It's so good I love this glimpse into what their relationship was like when they were alive

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

What are your thought on First Ninja when he was introduced or just made a major role in the finale of the first season of “Randy Cunningham 9th Grade Ninja?”

Honestly, I wasn't the greatest fan of a very random time travel episode at first. But when it came to First Ninja himself - I was so excited! Because look!!! Cool Ninja Prime who held the mask first!!! What secrets and lore we will glimpse from him?! And his entrance was so epic, not to mention his design was just fun to see.

And then I got a little disappointed because they did him so dirty in the rest of the episode. ;( He literally gave up and was ready to walk away because his plan failed and Sorcerer got an upper hand, like HUH?????! And this man supposedly was part of the Clan that was chasing Sorcerer for YEARS across CONTINENTS and lost ALL OF HIS SIBLINGS in the process. Like?? What.

I know all of it was done so Randy could be the cool one in the episode, but like?? Come on! If creators spent less time on jokes about Plop Plop's name (and just bathroom jokes in general), we could have gotten an actual super epic fight between First Ninja and Sorcerer, instead of Randy just doing all the battle and First Ninja literally just punching Sorcerer once and dunking him in a hole.

And I know, I know it was done in the same vein as the whole show, and I usually like RC9GN humour in general, but even the silliest of cartoons can sometimes make the most epic and serious episodes, especially finales, and I wished if anything it was that one. They still could have done the same haha funnies, but also like?? it could have been so much better.

So in conclusion, if I ever wanted to rewrite an episode, it would be the 13th Century Ninja, tbh.

[sydchan]

I genuinely don’t understand people who don’t ship the BW Protag with N. Which full respect, cause I know it’s a lot of people who don’t. But I truly don’t understand it. Like did we play the same game?? Did the Protag not abandon everyone they know for like 2 years to search for this man?!?! Their stories are so intertwined with each other how can they not be together in at least some capacity post BW?!?!?!?!

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

[gravedigest]

Thinking about how San doesn't know Doc's driving and just talking with Dei and saying how he doesn't want to be in a car with Doc while Dei agrees. However, it's for entirely different reasons. Sanford because doesn't trust Doc and think he'll Do Something (lol) if San takes the offer. And Deimos because holy shit this guy's driving sucks so much ass who taught this guy, why is he like this. I don't know if they think they share the same opinion or not but I just think it'd be funny if San also thinks Dei is super suspicious of Doc and Dei thinks San has experienced the Doc Express even thought they're both wrong about this. Although Dei I'm p sure he is also kind of wary of Doc but not to same degree as San

Comedy gold: Deimos and Sanford are on the same wavelengths all the time, but sometimes on different channels.

Like, they’ll respond the same way to a question but their reasoning will be wildly fucking different when asked to explain why they answered the way they did.

But since they usually are agreeing with eachother, they think the other one has the same idea, ergo; they never really communicate further than the surface level.

The eventuality is that at some point they come to a topic where they have to actually explain why they hate the idea of Doc being near a car.

“Wait, you’ve never ridden with Doc? Then why d’you have a problem with him driving?”

“Because I think he’s going to put me in the trunk. If you’ve ridden with him, why do you have a problem with it?”

“Because the BD in 2BD stands for Bad Driver, it’s like hitting a pedestrian is the goal.”

This obviously does not make them realize they need to communicate more and they just do this song and dance over and over ad nauseam.

[justalittlebluetiefling]

I sort my music by putting it into folders based on "which character do I like that this resonates with" and then whatever the hell my computer decides to default sort it into after that.

I'm the character music anon- it has taken me a full twenty minutes since I saw your post to see the word "books" (I mostly just skimmed over the text, read it as music somehow, and decided that you were just kinda weird for calling a musician an author)

This was a VERY funny follow up and I often have to make myself read things multiple times to make sure I'm actually processing it correctly (and still don't) so I get you.

But also, what if you want to listen to a specific song??? How do you find your music??? Do you associate that song with the character enough that it reminds you that it's in that folder?

[rebornofstars]

* I know I’m technically a focus on art but I also want to chat as writer—what’s one of your favorite troupes that you rarely write whether it’s because you feel you can’t do it justice or just because you don’t? Me personally I am an AVID fan of mind bending/un-reality fics, but I can never write them to a satisfactory level. They’re so fun to read especially when they’re multi-chapter and you’ve gotta theorize on wtf is going on!!! It’s quirky and fun!!!! No one knows what’s going on and I ADORE that type of confusion. Learning to write is fun but I’m not at that level yet and I’m excited for when I can GGHRAAAHHH!!!!

OH BOY. oh boy. hello there thank you so much for the ask i absolutely love it. this took me a while to respond to because i had to get my thoughts in order 😅 i like a good never-say-never attitude, but there are many many things i write that are not as good as the blurry versions of themselves rotating around the inside of my head! the potential, u know? i can never do the potential justice. somehow i don't think that will ever change.

one thing i definitely struggle with is long-term character development - whether it's romantic, like a slow burn, or platonic or just in terms of narrative structure, whatever. i can't seem to get it happening to my satisfaction. i am so comfortable collecting snapshots of specific points of a character's journey, but when i try to slowly allow them to grow and change, it always feels cheap idk 😬😭 i'm also not so good at writing stories which span a longer period of time and/or have timeskips. it's mostly due to lack of practice with longer stories, and i'm working on improving!

in terms of more specific tropes or genres, though.... mysteries. i can never figure out how heavy or subtle the foreshadowing should be. comedy is also hard, although i've been practicing that one and i think i'm slowly getting the hang of a few different styles that are more humourous. and sometimes i read, like, Feist and Wurts' Empire trilogy, or Rothfuss' The Name of the Wind, and realise all over again i have a looooong way yet to go when it comes to introducing worldbuilding into a story naturally and intuitively. also, this might be silly, because the LU fic i'm most known for is literally about this, but reveals? i'm not so confident i can live up to the hype or satisfactorily fulfill the tension i've built. i hope my cursebreaker readers are not going to be disappointed by the payoff/reveal i have planned 🤞🤞😁

that being said, though, i keep writing all of those tropes and genres anyway, and it's really an honour to have the space and encouragement to be giving it a shot. i'm so grateful that all my recurring readers have put their trust in me and my ability to deliver a good story. throughout my childhood writing has always been a very solitary endeavour for me and i cannot express how much fun i've been having on ao3 over the last year, and tumblr the last few months. i've never had a fandom community like this before 💕 and i like to think that while i'm still growing my skills, i also have the potential inside me for anything, if i give it a good shot and keep at it. i think we all do.

i'm very sorry for all of this word vomit 😁 i guess, to chat as a writer, all i can say is i also LOVE reality bending stories, and they're SO FUN and you're SO RIGHT, and i don't have so much one problem writing as i do a lot of smaller more general ones, because i like to throw myself into my problems head-first, and i believe that you too have a million potentials inside you if you keep at it, and i for one am very, very excited to see where you go. i guess this whole answer was a gesture of enouragement, in the end. 🤩🥰

[fluffypotatey]

While i do think shadowpeach never actually fell out of love despite everything (well at least macaque definitely) , what do you think their reaction would be when they realized they no longer loved the other? Cause i do feel a small part of them would feel grief about something they had and treasured for so long

And to keep from being too sad, what is their reaction at inevitably falling back in love. That i think would involved lots of cursing at the gods and tearing out hair

anon, i just want to let you know that i did prepare an answer for you, and it was a lengthy one as well. but last night the internet for my house wasn’t working, so when i hit post, my screen froze and couldn’t refresh until this morning, making me lose everything i wrote T^T BUT! i will do my best to reanswer this to the best of my abilities (and it was a good fucking answer too 🫠)

thus:

so, ignoring my gut reaction (which is me shouting, “impossible! those monkeys are too attached to lose feelings!”) I will consider the following but have my own spin to it! meaning, that while both believe they’re live for the other faded away, it in fact was dormant this whole time! (because i am incapable of seeing a world where either or both idiots fall out of love for the other)

also, fun tidbit: both idiots believe the other fell out of love first which then prompts them into trying to ignore and bury their affections bc if “X can easily set aside their centuries old relationship, then so can I!”

with Wukong, the guy has more time to truly process the grief and loss bc he actually has the time and companions to help him out. you have Ao Lie and Wukong cuddling more, Wukong crying to Guanyin (bc their relationship is fun in JTTW and I am still holding out for lmk to give us another cameo or glimpse of her, lmk please—) with her walking Wukong through the grief and his own pain, and parallel play with Tripitaka (the play being Tripitaka mediates while Wukong practices his forms/showing off his forms to his master) as well as Tripitaka providing more insight about grief

with Macky, i can see him starting that grief after his death. so like, post-resurrection either before s1 or at some point during the show (but NOT s3 or 4) like, after the angry and bitterness, Macky feels hollow and believes that to mean he’s lost those old feelings of love. and at this point, Macky would think he’d be relieved because finally! he is rid of Wukong not just as a friend, but also, Wukong’s hold is gone, but it isn’t relief he feels from that realization, but grief and loss. and because he still isn’t emotionally stable and is hell-bent on revenge, he takes that grief and fuels it to his anger for killing Wukong because maybe then the relief will come.

i do think that in s4, Macky was starting to process his own grief and feelings and death in a sort of healthy way, so he might have come to some indifference about Wukong, still believing he has begun to feel nothing for his old friend until he goes into the memory scroll (but he could chalk that up to nostalgia)

anyway, as for rekindling: slow burn 2.0 lmaoooooo

maybe it’s simply because i am a sucker for slow burns, but I highly doubt Sun Wukong and Macky would be able to go back to being lovers or whatever they had going on pre-war on Heaven because they’re fucking stupid when it comes to actually interacting with each other. communication who???? they don’t know her!!! catch them falling into old habits without knowing but never acknowledging it and leading to confused feelings 💅✨

also, s5 please let them be petty exes to each other!!! petty as in minor offenses, as in one of them stole the other’s clothes and is lying to the guy’s face whilst wearing said stolen clothes. they should go from “ugh, i guess we can work together……for MK” to “ugh, fuck not again!!!” to “I know they only see me as an acquaintance/ally for MK, but I have started to see them once again as someone I want to hold forever and why am I pining for this idiot again I should know better—”

in conclusion, i cheated and gave myself a win-win scenario with your question. but reactions to realizing the fell out of love: Wukong’s would be one where he tries to isolate but his friend never allow him to, and Macky is one with angry screaming bc he’s sO stable.

[fubbytime]

new friend!

All things considered, they arrived in better condition than i thought and faster (Canada to U.S.A. shipping)(why did they go from one side of canada to the other to the side of the us farthest from me. to me. was there nothing closer?) So far just some battery box corrosion, also i nicknamed them "mr grumpy and stinky fub senior" due to having an issue with one side of their mouth not closing, having a birthday of Jan 4th, 1999 (almost 25!), and coming with a peculiar smell I'm pretty sure is coming from the motor. Currently this little guy is getting a nice, long bath (the 3rd bath)(VERY stinky n still dirty) and I'm working on getting the corrosion out (so far my isopropyl alcohol isn't helping much). Very excited to do the naming and gender reveal ritual once I fix the battery box! I almost hesitated to share them so early since they need to be in their best condition for the ritual and i KNOW i can get them working. Also doing a push start just in case so I'll know for a fact what's wrong when the batteries go in. Wanna be on the safe side and troubleshoot to prevent. SO excited cannot wait to see what I can do for them.

[duskandcobalt]

Everywhere everything is my roman empire haha. Can’t wait to see how the story plays out :)

Another one 😭😭😭 why is everyone being so nice to me 🥹

I’m so excited for you to see how it all comes together ✨

[mirmidones]

i like giving gifts, i like looking for something that the other person will actually appreciate, but most of all i like making gifts with my own clumsy hands. i pour my love into it. it's my affection made tangible. so then naturally it means the world to me when i find out they really like it like i hoped they would :')

[galaxae]

i wantto infodump about my game and my plans for it sooo bad

[midnightcaptions]

rattling at the gates of discords like lemme innnn

[starscelly]

can i get tyler on the first powerplay unit. can i PLEASE get tyler on the first powerplay unit

[greedbent]

❛  are ya sure yer okay, bro?  ❜ HAHAHAHA

@yukikorogashi || Five Word Sentence Starters

Did this...? Did this child just refer to him as "bro"?

Momentarily, Kaz is bemused into silence. A man with such strict control over his expressions—guaranteeing he give nothing away he does not intend on giving away—trips in more than just one instance here. He's messy, first in giving the girl any reason for concern at all when his lips involuntarily twist in discomfort, and second in the present, as he's left blinking in disbelief at what he swears he's heard correctly—

Which somehow doesn't make it any more believable she actually said it.

He shifts where his shoulder's pressed against the alcove, missing his cane now more than ever. As a hand discreetly massages the muscles in his thigh, Kaz sets his jaw and shakes his head. "I'll be more 'okay' once you've scurried off," he exhales through his teeth, simultaneously straightening up to test his weight on that leg again. "So be a good girl and run along, now."

And it's not a suggestion.