#forkimdennard

[dessakeepswriting]

“We were never perfect. We argued from mundane things that we failed to do. From words that we said unintentionally but had been understood in a different way. From actions that we did yet we only saw the flaws in them. Yet, it did not stop me from loving you genuinely.”

— Thoughts of Dessa 🌻

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I’m still missing you in every beat of my heart.

Thoughts of Dessa 🌻

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It will never be the same anymore. No more good morning, good night, take care, I miss you — no more I love you. And I don’t know why it’s still a habit to check my phone frequently.

Thoughts of Dessa 🌻

[dessakeepswriting]

A friend asked me “How hurtful it is since he left?” I only stared at her and there was a long silence. Until she said “Perhaps your lost for words to answer my question would mean that it is beyond any words to describe pain.”

Thoughts of Dessa 🌻

[dessakeepswriting]

I am worth the fight.

I am worth the wait.

I am worth loving.

Despite my imperfections,

I am worth for you.

If only you see

my real worth,

the way I see

your worth in my life.

Thoughts of Dessa 🌻

[dessakeepswriting]

You should’ve warned me that you will never stay longer in my life rather than leaving without any trace. I could’ve prepared myself at least for this unbearable pain.

Thoughts of Dessa

[dessakeepswriting]

We broke up and no matter how difficult it is for me to accept the truth, I have been gradually trying to forget everything. So, I keep moving forward despite the bitterness. Yet, with just one unexpected call from you after all this time — made me think of how far I’ve really gone. Have I really moved on? Or am I still lying to myself that I am fine and getting better? I wish I know the answers, I wish I could.

Thoughts of Dessa

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How do I meet you again? When you turned to be someone who doesn’t want to be found? Would you even remember that once in your life I am someone that you’ve met - the one you wished for? I am filled with questions that perhaps by chances or destiny will only be answered.

Thoughts of Dessa

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It simply ended with “You deserve someone better than me.”

Thoughts of Dessa

[dessakeepswriting]

Nothing has changed.

It’s still him.

It’s still him,

I wish to love again.

[dessakeepswriting]

Maybe my hopes got way too high that you would love me more than how I should’ve felt it.

Thoughts of Dessa

[dessakeepswriting]

I have never closed my heart for you. So come back and tell me you love me still. And let’s start and redo everything more than how it used to be.

Thoughts of Dessa

[dessakeepswriting]

I've never forgotten you. I've never forgotten how I feel for you. No matter how impossible I seem to be because of how I act but I am still in love with you. I don't give a shit, if people think I'm crazy loving you. Because I care for you and I love you. I just hate that every thing is so untimely for us. That is really what hurting me. I'm still longing to see you. I really do.

--- Thoughts of Dessa

[dessakeepswriting]

The pain is really unbearable when you chose someone who never even considered choosing you. That’s really worst.

Thoughts of Dessa🌻

[dessakeepswriting]

Maybe I was wrong about everything that happened between us. Maybe I thought it was you whom I had been wishing for to come into my life. Maybe I was too indulged in the thought of being someone's special and loved one. Maybe I trusted you too much that I didn't see that you could hurt me more than the way I had been hurt before. Maybe I was so engrossed that I was the one who saved you when you felt deserted. Maybe I cared for you so much that I had forgotten as well how I should do the same thing for myself. Maybe I fell too much for you and I thought you felt the same way. Maybe you didn't love me at all because we don't hurt the people that we love. Or, maybe now I am the only one hurting after all because I genuinely and deeply loved you.

Thoughts of Dessa