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clowneree · 2 years

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shakes uni AUUUGH gusto ko lang naman mag-bakasyon

#ree txt #wdym exams start on the 9th i am UNINFORMED #fuck this lol i dont even care anymore it is what it is #fuck grades #but also dont let me fail already im so close to the end of this sem pleasepeldseelfl;

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scentofpines · 4 months

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have you ever considered...that identifying out of woman/girlhood because you don't relate to the societal implications, expectations, etc... contributes to making womanhood (feel) even more restrictive? maybe you feel better when thinking of yourself as anything but a girl/woman because you do not feel like a woman (what does that even mean?) but in my opinion you just added another brick into the prisonwall that is gender.

#just my opinion #i wish it was more accepted to question gender identity and to encourage others to question WHY they dont feel like #they “fit” their gender #and your actions have consequences for others too #there will be girls after you who UNDERSTANDABLY hate being perceived as female but their take away will not be that society sucks for wome #and needs to be changed and change happens with every gnc woman and girl who stands her ground and says fuck you to the gendered expectatio #placed upon her from the moment of her birth #but she will take away that as she does not fit the narrow societal definition of womanhood that there is no space for her in it and #that SHE needs to change and this goes on and on until womanhood is simply the label for people who present the most sexist stereotype of #what a woman is #and the fact that i get asked for my pronouns since having short hair and the girl with long hair next to me isnt is a fucking sign of that #and also i beg you to question why a pronoun a tiny word other ppl use when talking about you is SO loaded with negative/positive #implications that it holds so much importance for you #all this applies specifically for ppl without dysphoria btw #i also believe that dysphoria is at least heavily influenced by societal expectations too but its a bit more complicated #personal #you may send me death threats now lol i dont even care anymore #radfem safe #radblr #radfems do touch

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acedavestrider · 17 days

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being at this job regularly makes me want to cry but nowhere is hiring and i keep getting rejections all the fucking time and i dont know what to do

#me @ me: no one cares #i dont know what to doooo i fucking hate being here and im so exhausted im so tired #i cant even put my head down on my desk for a few minutes anymore because we have a new hire in my section #ive worked with like four different recruiters and they all ghosted me lol like just stopped responding to me #and i cant stop falling asleep at my desk #ive been sleeping fine i havent even been taking sleep aids or anything and im still so so tired at my desk every single day #its awful. its just awful. i cant seem to wake up #very close to just giving up. i dont think i can explain the type of fatigue im dealing with at the moment

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stupidrant · 6 months

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i think the most we will get is PC release (if that) this year but that means we gotta deal with those trolls bc changing angrb0da’s skin color is such a big deal to these mfs and i still dont understand that sweet baby inc shit bcuz all the information im seeing is just bundled bullshit LMFAOOO i feel like her actual character gets overshadowed by the made up problems and no one actually talks abt HER as a character or even analyses her fr (outside of here ofc) lol sms abt to make a banger with her and atreus istg

#Truth be told i dont even wanna talk abt this anymore but this topic gets brought up pretty much every week atp #How weird is it that u would only accept her if she were white #Thats literally you admitting you like her character but her being black is a deal breaker #I feel like no matter how much they want her to be a white girl changing her skin wouldnt change their opinion abt her #Theres this one (big) acct in particular thats constantly shitting on rag and its like bro u need to just leave if ur not happy #or take a long ass break and come back at times and then leave again cuz hes just miserable as fuck and yall know exactly who im talking ab #I do see more people getting annoyed with this topic and i dont blame them #its getting super out of hand and dragged out atp #Once again i do not want ppl to like her out of PITY. she deserves a very honest group of fans and if those fans are ppl #That disliked her at first but started to like her later on thats fine as long as its out of being genuine #I cannot wait for her to gain more fans fr but i have to be careful what i wish for bcuz i dont want ppl to become too crazy lol #I might just post smth on that god forsaken reddit as an appreciation post of her or smth idk yet LMFAOOO #I for sure will have to be more brave and visible with my love for her one of these days #also very grateful for that one ragnarok vp. he loves angie for sure #Anyways #Love angie for life #Gow #god of war ragnarok #rant

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widevibratobitch · 3 months

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omg you hate nozze??? you hate mozart???? this is literally the first time im hearing this opinion of yours that literally no one ever asked for should we tell everybody should we throw a party

#i cant with these people #cannot fucking mention mozart in passing without this girl needing to state out loud that he sucks and that nozze is the worst opera ever #and then she complains that some guy responded that he doesnt like godunov when she said she does and that 'that was so rude??' like girl???#be sooo fckn fr rn #cant find that 'all music before the 19th century is worthless' post #but christ knows i could reblog it after every single conversation with these people #this is unbearable #cant have a single conversation with them and her especially without her mentioning how much my most beloved music sucks #or sometimes not even saying anything just laughing in my face when i mention it like ???????#like jokes are jokes and i get them. we all joke that way. but when it happens in literally EVERY SINGLE conversation #that's not joking anymore. that's just being a bitch. and i really couldn't care less that we dont like the same music #thats not what this is about and you know it girl. i just dont understand what you get from it lol

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carcarrot · 4 months

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do i really want to make individual drinks again

#reaching back into the file cabinets of my mind to remember how i made certain drinks when i worked at the cafe #in preparation for the possibility of this new job #it would certainly mean far less goofing off time than i have at my current job. and i value my goofing off time dearly #but the people here are so fucking annoying lmao. i hate them soooo much #not that the people at this new job would be any better. we're still dealing with investment bankers #godddddd. what i really would want (which would be impossible)#would be to go back to working at the cafe but like. still have paid time off and insurance lmao #but the cafe was a small business and he was not offering paid time off and insurance. and the pay was way less #but i did get to play whatever music i wanted. unfortunately you cant live on that #like i can always say no to this new job if its offered to me. but is my goofing off time worth:#2 dollars less in pay and a half hour to an hour's more commute. well i dont know #a shorter commute would mean i could sleep more. and have more time at home .#i mean i probably don't Need all this goofing off time. but its nice #i dont knowwwwwww #like even though im a bit nervous abt doing it again i know that i would easily fall back into the routine of making drinks #which i was fairly good at. my one drawback is that i cant do latte art but i dont know that theyd really care here #and (because i found the menu of where id work) theres not a ton of drink options?? just the standard stuff #its being called a starbucks cafe but 1) its not managed by them and 2) it does not have their 5 billion drink options #so thats good. less to worry about #doesnt look like i even have to make anything foodwise which i had to at the cafe #here it looks like people can just buy a pastry and thats it #the hours are like. the same i work now. also good #sorry im like using this post to think through my thoughts.#uhhhh oh i looked up the manager who looks like a weenie so im not keen on the prospect of interviewing with him #but i probably would have thought that about my current manager if id seen a pic of him prior to interviewing. i guess???#and with these kind of catering units it seems you dont often deal directly with the manager that much anyway #i just gotta see if i get good vibes #rn i have unsure vibes. but i need a sign to see if this could be good for me #oh id also save money on transportation. and taxes! bc i wouldnt be working in ny anymore #lol oops tag limit. well i hope you enjoyed my job thoughts you probably didnt i know i didnt

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bunnihearted · 4 months

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#im in such a bad and low mood :<#it's not just my period hormones 🥴#my wireless headphones worked fine all of yesterday and today when i wake up they're blinking #they're liked fucked up... i turn them off but they constantly turn themselves back on. when i connect them to my ipad they constantly #keep disconnecting and shutting off and turning on 🙃 it makes me so angry bc i need to wear them basically all the time #bc all the noise from neighbors and my family and outside is driving me crazy #but they just dont work anymore?? plus i cant afford new ones... esp now which brings me to my next point #bc of my mom having troubles w school and loans and work etc she was like yeah u guys might have to pay for me this summer so we'll be #proper poor 😄 she doesnt WANT that either but it just sucks bc i got $300 every month and i can barely afford anything as is #yeah so there is no chance of me buying new headphones until at least august or september ......#then im annoyed bc my sisters are passive aggressive 24/7 and hate my existence and my mom is depressed lol #and i have no one to talk to or be with. it's summer and i wanna do stuff but i just dont wanna do it alone lmao #and then im just sad bc of many things.....#also i hate myself bc im a loser failure piece of shit but like yeah that's normal for me to feel #i just hate everything and it's so hard to endure this lame ass existence skskskskks #why cant ANYTHING be good ever in my life??#i am garbage and im surrounded by bad things lmao... anyways can i just stop breathing now pls #and it's not just a 'tiny' thing like my headphones not working like it might seem to others #but when u live a life where NOTHING is good or NOTHING works everything just piles on #ppl dont seem to understand that normally bc most ppl have some good things in their lives #so they just cannot comprehend what it's like when nothing works on any level in your life lok #ofc im depressed ofc im angry and bitter and dejected. i have no good things or moments at all in my life. that tears u down #i mean ofc i could be living in an active warzone and that'd be .. pretty awful i can imagine. but yeah... my situation is still not ideal #like i mean i do actually try to practice gratitude of having a roof over my head my own room water in the pipes and food so i dont starve #i am thankful for that bc many ppl dont even have that #i still feel depressed tho <3 #idk what im talking abt now i just feel SO bad and i have no one to talk to #i have nothing to do... no help no treatment... everyone hates me and wants me dead......#why should i fight when no one cares abt me anyway... well.. i mean i do wanna experience more nature but like idk #im just so exhausted... why cant i ever have smth good in my life that also dont go away after a short while lol

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madame-mongoose · 1 year

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I remember why I don't try and post my art in bigger discord servers anymore LMAO

#ughhh #really fucking disheartening!!!#when you post something #and get like one person that looks at it #and then someone posts something right after you #and the entire server comments it and also tells that person how much they all love them #like idk my art is worse inknow but i wish people would PRETEND to care about me #someone jeff the kill me please im so tored of feeling like shit all the time over stuff like this #i dont even care about venting anymore bc none of those people look at my posts anyway #or care about me lol #so its whatever what fucking ever #i hate it here #monnie rambles

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apathyfairy · 18 days

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me at 13: by the time im 30 i will probably be married and maybe have a kid but for sure i will be living in my dream city and have my dream job. and also a lot of money

me at almost 30: i think i will treat myself to a corn dog this weekend

#i want a corn dog so bad rn #ngl u guys im actually really struggling with turning 30 at the end of the year lmao #not lmao bc it really is bothering me which is so stupid i know I Know #but. and i know we're All struggling with this. but it's like god i have done nothing with my life #like fr. everyone says that but i literally have done nothing. ive never had a real 9-5 ive been freelancing since college #and tbh i guess that's not a bad thing? but self worth wise i feel like a complete loser.#but ive just made one mistake after another and i know that's what your 20s are for and u know what this is my tags and im not going #to keep contradicting myself i feel like shit bc i feel like shit and ive wasted my whole life thats that #i just feel like such a sham like i cant believe this is what 30 is like i on god feel like im still a teenager #not in a carefree kind of way OBVIOUSLY. which i never was anyway. but i just ?? feel like that #scary fucking episode of rugrats where tommy and chuckie become their dads and they go to work and theyre so fucked up bc #well theyre babies and they dont know anything. and even the fact that i just referenced rugrats to explain how i feel lmaooooo #relationship wise well u guys know how that is. and i truly couldnt care less about what people think about me not being in a relationship #ever and tbqh i dont give a fuck anymore either like. and here i go bringing this up again. but after my ex im like ok life truly is so #short fr i dont even care like anyway. anyway. the point is there is just no reality whatsoever where i pictured my life where i am now #once again living with the abusive relative i moved across the ocean to get away from.#no love life to speak of. fr dont care but god wouldnt it be nice to be loved fr.....#no career. living in a state i hate with all my heart. barely surviving money wise. which is everyone rn but #if i had known 10 years ago this would be my life i would have honestly killed myself.#like if i knew it would all turn out like this i wouldnt have moved i wouldve just fr killed myself and i wish i did lol #to be fair. i didnt see myself living past 18 but like. i just thought something would have saved me by now

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g0thsoojin · 29 days

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#honestlyyyu #life without him is so boring....#idk... just imagining my life without him makes me feel bored lol #i want to be with him i think ...#but it is difficult bc we live on two different continents #and relationships between nations are difficult bc you're not allowed to just move anywhere lol #idk how it could work #plus ... also he's 20+ years older than me.. to me it isnt an issue more than #1) he wont live as long as me (if we both die of old age that is lol)#2) everyone are very judgemental and even if both of us mainly want to just have us and not any social circles #it will be hard.. and how am i supposed to tell my mom....?#the thing with that is hard because of my avpd.. im not normal #i never will be. even if i like met a guy my age now in school and we started dating i wouldnt want to tell me my mom #i cant explain how i feel to normal ppl but yeah... im just someone who wants to live isolated to myself #i dont want to be like yeah hi mom heres my bf who i fuck and love and now lets go for family dinner woooop #idk ... i could never. i just cannot do that normal life.#so then its like.. it isnt purely bc im 'ashamed' of him and the age gap #im just someone who feels shame about everything.... so i wouldnt wanna tell my mom anyway #but then it feels like im 'betraying' her. if i move away to another country to be happy on my own #and she wont even ever get to meet my bf or hear abt him... i'll get married (bc of convenience) and she wont know #that feels bad.. like im hurting her. but i know in my heart that even if i met a bf my own age here #i would NEVER want a wedding. my avpd.. im not a normal functioning person.. i'd want just me and the other person there. not infront of my #family... idk i just cant do normal life things..#maybe sometimes i dream abt having a few friends and being cared for. but that is a DREAM #theres no way of knowing if i'd ever find ppl like that. im also very different and cant connect to basically anyone i meet fkn EVER!!!!!#he's the only one i've ever met that im this compatible with.. and he is real. and i know him. should i let go of him just for ppl i havent #even met? who i might never even meet? bc yeah the thing is that with him we wouldnt have a conventional life. it'd be just us #and thats not really a bad thing. its just that w my avpd i never know what i really want bc i want smth but when it gets real #and i can actually have it suddenly i dont anymore. and i want the other thing i didnt want before...#so i have sm fears.. what if i choose him but then will never get that comfortable job in a cozy school and my own apartment

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dream-sans-mogai · 1 month

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Ive officially exited my " oh God! I don't wanna get called out and harassed by the mogai community! I value this community but I hate all the inner policing! I'm so scared to say anything and accidentally upset people, I'm just gonna be quiet and hide" era and entered my " fuck off, get blocked and glocked. Im here to post flags and identities and that's fuckin it. I litterally don't care anymore, nothing you say is based in reality or matters outside of this horrendous site. No one is thinking about any of this other than you and like 500 other people, if that, so I'm not apologizing for shit." era so watch out for the debris.

#clover speaks #i dont care anymore lol #ive been really quiet for awhile but honestly its not worth it #if i piss you off cause i stood up for myself or said something that wasnt worded in your perfect little ways #just take your ass and leave #if you genuinely care about all the little shit you have lining your dni about inate online identities that will never see sunlight #you have bigger problems than me saying something on this webbed sight that dosent 10000% align with everything you've ever believed #im not clarifying anything this is not a safe space its a blog with flags and identities #you will have to face people who disagree with you in your daily life and cope with it #btw this wasnt particularly started by anything and isnt a vague or anything about any muturals or something #ive just decided finally that i dont care anymore and im just gonna do and interact with what i please #and if you stick around great #enjoy that #if not you wont be missed #bye 👋🏼#im just gonna start blocking people who say stupid shit that makes no sense for my mental health #i cant handle half this shit and i dont really need to so fuck it lol #im here for flags your here for flags who gives a litteral shit about identity 3748394747393847373838 #no one will physically even say it irl because its so obscure #i will still call out people for doing stupid shit but im leaving this stage and making my own #fuck all that noise have fun and fuck off doing so #btw im not abandoning the community im still gonna make shit lol and so will sunny and ink #its just with alot less nice words and being pushed over

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toastsnaffler · 2 months

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anyway yeah relevant to that post abt being deaf/hoh and ppl excluding u from conversation bc of it (even unintentionally), that's smth that's been really deeply bothering me lately bc there are a few ppl I routinely have to deal with who do it a lot and it Pisses Me The Fuck Off I've lost all patience w them. giving up and calling it ableism and walking out idc anymore 🚶‍♂️