#grae blogging era

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I think we, DPS fans, don't talk about Charlie during the school's tribute to Neil enough.

He's not singing.

Meeks, Pitts and Knox are singing, letting all their feelings out.

Cameron is singing a little calmer. You can see the sadness in him though.

Todd is stuttering words, not even singing—but he's trying.

Charlie does not sing.

I'm sorry for the picture's quality.

At first I thought he didn't sing because he was angry at Neil for leaving all of them; the Dead Poets, Keating and his dreams of becoming an actor. We saw at the beginning of the film how Charlie tried to convince Neil to speak up to his parents. I think he really wanted Neil to be happy, and he knew he wouldn't be if he stayed silent and pursued being a doctor because of his father.

During Neil and Mr. Keating's talk in the office, Neil mentioned Charlie: "We are not a rich family like Charlie's" (quoted by memory). Charlie tried to make Neil pursue acting when they had different social backgrounds; Charlie could go against his parents and not ruin everything. But Neil was an only child from a family that was mantained by his father and no one else... and not particularly wealthy either.

Even if they had those differences, they didn't separate them. And both of them were boys with dreams they couldn't follow easily. Charlie was more rebellious (especially when it came to school's authorities). Neil was more of the type to go with whatever people wanted. Charlie was more risk-taking. Neil's risk in the whole movie was participating in the play (yes, the club wasn't a Neil risk; it was all of the poets').

Charlie was really proud of Neil for finally following his dreams.

"He's good. He's really good."

Sounds familiar?

"I was good. I was really good."

This parallel makes sense to me, especially if we analyze the very first scene of Charlie and Neil in the movie. As I said, Charlie wanted Neil to speak up to his father. And when he did and it all broke apart; Neil said words Charlie had said about him during the play.

Obviously, Charlie disliked Neil's dad. We can be sure about that, definitely.

The school's tribute to Neil was either Mr. Perry's idea or he gave the permission to do it. The authorities thought of Neil's death as the institution's problem. Keating was suspicious from the beginning because of his unconventional teaching methods (plus Mr. Perry thought Keating told Neil to keep his place in the performance, which he did—but he made it look like it was a real problem... 1950s, let's go).

Charlie didn't think this event of singing words of grief and so on was for Neil. Neil didn't die to be missed. Neil died because he would miss out on what he wanted to do. But that reasoning didn't even come across the authorities' heads.

I think of Charlie as a person who has an internal philosophy, a reasoning that most people wouldn't think of. So, when every single one of his friends are singing because they miss Neil; Charlie does not sing because this is a way to pay respects to Mr. Perry for losing his son. A way to say the authorities are right. A way to say "Neil... poor boy." Neil was miserable because he wasn't free. And his only way to be free was... not living.

I believe this "Charlie wasn't singing" thing can be interpreted in many, many ways. I probably overanalyzed it because 6 years of DPS make someone go insane eventually. What I do think is clear is that Neil and Charlie's friendship was very obvious from the start. And yes, the not singing thing is something to observe and think about... but their whole friendship isn't very talked about in the fandom! And I had the idea to write about not only the movie's scenes that have both of them, but also how I perceive it (hence why I would describe this post as a theory rather than facts).

I would love to see other people's takes on this subject too !!

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X: there's no way [insert character] is part of the LGBTQIA+ community-

Me: Wrong.

X: ???

Me: Aroace beam. Happy pride month.

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Me, about to take a Physics exam, sighing: Steven Meeks from Dead Poets Society (1989) would be proud of me.

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I kinda need a Floyrid week- WAIT WHO SAID THAT 🤣🤣🤣🤣 (I just can't write anything)

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First date idea: I play my silly little games in my silly laptop and silly phone and you are far away from me, in another room or whatever so I don't lose focus on my silly little rhythm games that I'm trying to get a full combo in. You stay SILENT so all the music blasts in the place and I can listen to the notes. You DON'T look at me so I don't feel pressured under your gaze because I AM GAMING and LOSING.

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Realizing you are aroace after thinking and acting like you felt those types of attraction for a long while is so frustrating. Don't get me wrong- I'm far happier with myself now that I realized I don't have to force myself feel a certain way. But people get so confused and even stubborn about it??? Like, what do you mean I'm "giving up"?? What do you mean I have a "romantic vibe" with this person?? What do you mean this is supposed to be my (allo) "lesbian awakening"?? Who are you to comment on MY stuff that you do not understand?? Smh.

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Tell me some facts about yourself and I'll assign you either an MBTI, enneagram subtype, trifix, instinctual variant or psychosophy type!

*not typing people, this is just for fun ! don't take it seriously

**put as many facts as you want, it can also be only one

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I think we, as a society, should normalize sleeping with day clothes on

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Won the idgaf war because I ignored a character so much only to realize he is me-coded and I am scared to admit it

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The impulse to have a blog for each one of my interests. Everything's organized. I can be insane about DPS, then yap about Twisted Wonderland, and proceed to make essays about typology. Sadly, having more than 3 accounts is too much work, so y'all have to deal with all my interests in this one 🎀

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I don't know what type of late night thoughts you all have, but these are my type of thoughts after 11pm:

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My little sister: Why do you say chat in normal conversations so much? You don't have followers-

Me, who doesn't even have Twitch installed: Life feels like a Twitch stream.

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I need to change my username.......... but to what

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Ik my new header doesn't really match but I think everyone should see it ♡

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Me: Omfg I should finish Percy Jackson right now-

Also me, but 1 second later: Wait... what about Lolita... you were at a crucial part-

Me: Oh okay, you are right... I started it before Percy Jackson anyways...

Me after reading 3 pages: That was too much Frenglish for today.

Me: Wait. I have this book somewhere... I only had 20 pages left.

Second thought: Nah, you don't want to finish that one.

Me: Right... it's a really nice book.

Me after checking my shelves: I should start Crime and Punishment!!

Book I should read for school: what about me.

Me: You are scheduled to be read the night before the discussion in class. Sorry-

Me, having a sudden realization: OH MY GOD. I CAN READ ENNEAGRAM BOOKS!!

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I REALLY wanna do the dps characters handwriting thing........ but the real ones know how AWFUL MY HANDWRITING IS!!! So I'm either 1. Going to fake it, or 2. Fuck it we ball mentality and no one will be able to read whatever I'll write. Trust me on faking a prescription because: