#graphis requests

[neteyamyawne]

Titsyul ♡

Pairing: Jake x fem!metkayina!Twin!pregnant!Reader x Neytiri

Request: [@avatar4life] Hello how are you doing? I hope well, if you don't mind i have an idea.

So jake x reader x neytiri they're about to fight the tulkun killers and quaritch but reader found out they were pregnant but went to fight anyway, fast forward, reader neytiri and tuk are stuck and almost drowned but luckily got saved but reader's body went to a coma to save the baby(s) due to the stress of the fight, while the family is worried but also shocked about the fact that reader is pregnant with twins ( girls) due to the fact she's a twin herself and her brother is a healer ( he took care of her in the coma) ofc they all became overprotective once she wakes up

Fast forward reader is in labor and cursing everywhere, her brother is just laughing in the background while everyone is worried sick, the twin girls are healthy and everyone is happy.Jake's hand hurt but he's shutting up about it

Oh and i forgot to mention the twins skin is omaticaya along with how the rest of their body look like but they have reader face and nose and eyes but also have eyebrows and ten fingers

Mawey 🤍

❈ Warning : pregnancy, graphi birth, water birth, war, injury, going in coma, war, tsaheylu, claustrophobic!reader, lots of fluff + ft. Spider

❈ word count : 6.9k proof read.

"word" - dialogue

❈ Note : I watched the movie again to get more inspiration to write this but instead i ended up crying the whole movie and a hour after that, great times 🙂

❈ Extras : hey love 😊 thank you for requesting, I'm doing amazing and I loved this idea!!! (Te'yul - is the twin brother's made up name) I've been listening to Bajirao Mastani songs while writing this and omg the feels I got 😭

❈ Glossary : kelku - living space, Eywa - Na'vi deity, yawne - beloved, mawey - calm, Tiyawn - love, Mauri - metkayina living space, Sa'nok - Mother, Utumauti - Banana fruit, Sayrip - Handsome, syulang - flower, paskalin - sweet berry, Skxwang - Moron, Txe'lan - Heart, Zola' u niprrte nga prrnen - welcome your child, Tweng - loin cloth

You paced in your kelku, your hand going to your stomach unconsciously as you thought about your mates and children being out there fighting those demons all by themselves, you couldn't just sit here on the shore and wait for them to come back, you knew the risk but you weren't about to let your mates be alone on the battlefield.

your twin watched as you dug a pit in the middle of your mauri as you paced back and forth, his eyes never leaving your worried form walking out of the kelku, as you called your ilu he stopped you "y/n…." He said softly, looking down at your abdomen and back up into your eyes but you shook your head "not now, te" was your only reply, instantly mounting your ilu and making your way towards the raging cold waters of the battle.

You were horrified to see the sight in front of you, the demon ship was crashed on the rock Island, people fighting and killing whoever in sight, your ears going flat against your forehead as you made your way towards the ship cautiously, the sky was dark and gloomy, sun setting down in the distance, the only light was from the fire that shone over the ship was from the explosion.

You climbed on the cold metal as the scene unfolding on the sinking dock made your blood run cold, Kiri in the grasp of that demon, his knife against her throat, Neytiri standing in front of them with her own knife against a human's chest, but a loud cry from tuk grabbed your attention as she ran into your arms "MAMA!!" you picked her up hurriedly.

Jake immediately pulled you behind him, his eyes wide in fear "what are you doing here?!" He whisper-yelled at you in concern, though you tried to answer but the na’vi looking man in demon clothes let Kiri go with a yell as Neytiri almost killed the human child in her grasp, a ruby red cut marred his chest now, Jake instantly pushed you behind him “stay behind” he ordered, tuk wrapped her arms around your neck, clinging onto your side, while burying her face in the crook of your neck and shoulder, Neytiri jogged back to you as she kissed your and tuk's foreheads, checking for any cuts and bruises “thank Eywa, are you okay, ma’yawne?” Her voice was strained from the fight, everything was happening too fast for her to comprehend “I’m okay… for now i guess” you answered back as the unease inside you grew, the only thing she knew is that she needed you and her family safe.

Walking away from the scene, Neytiri's arm around your waist as you carried tuk on your hip, the water filling in, breaths shivering out of everyone's lips, Kiri and the human child, Spider, walking behind you, your eyes going back to Jake as he fought the demon with all his might.

The distraction was enough as your foot slipped going straight into the open door of the sinking ship, the water sucking you in forcefully as tuk screamed in your neck, holding tightly as Neytiri yelled, wide eyed, holding onto your hand but the force was too great and her hold went slack, your body slamming onto the metal bottom with a loud ‘thud’, the water drowning out your cries for help as you struggled to keep tuk close to you, coughing and spitting out the salty water at the sudden impact but strong arms pulled you up, face to face with Neytiri, her hands wiping the water out of your eyes, pulling you and tuk close to her chest "oh eywa, thank you great mother" she whispered kissing you softly before pulling you through the tunnels of the ship, water pouring in heavily as tuk clinged to your hip once again, face buried in your neck "mama….I'm scared" Her voice quivering and shaking as you held her close, walking through the cold water "shhh we'll be okay, stay close to me, okay?" You whispered back with as much of a steady voice you could muster, her little nod was all you needed.

Falling and tumbling through the hallways and rooms, you were now trapped, the tunnel filling in will water, Neytiri held you and tuk close to her, your heart beating fast as you looked around the closed walls, ears flat on your skull, tail swaying as your body starts to tremble, the lights going out one by one making your heartbeat pace faster than rolling winds, your breaths getting cut short and Neytiri noticed your change in behavior, carefully making you look at her by hooking a finger under your chin "ma'y/n, mawey, tiyawn mawey" she whispered caressing your cheek, making you breathe evenly with her "it's okay, yawne, we will get out of this, we will" she whispered, looking in your eyes, her statement firm at the end, tuk looked at your disheveled state "mama, it will be okay" she said kissing your cheek to reassure you.

You tried to calm down but the fear reside, hands shaking, body trembling, head light as feather and bile rising up your throat, you knew something was terribly wrong, neytiri rubbed your back, whispering sweet nothings in your ear to distract you but the water levels were rising, though you were a water na'vi the rising water made you uneasy and nervous, the surface of it was now up to your necks, your breathes coming out in short puffs of air as you held tuk as High above as possible, the three of you huddled together, praying to eywa to get out of here when a sudden bright light filled the space, hundreds of glowing fishes swam towards your direction and soon kiri's head popped up at the end of the tunnel with a big squeal from tuk, happy to see her sister again,even with a smile playing on your lip you knew your state was getting worse and worse and Neytiri saw it as her arm was supporting your waist as she held you close to her.

Getting out of the sinking ship as your group broke the water surface taking deep, enriching breaths of air, reaching payakan slowly, Jake pulled you into his arms, hugging you tightly as his own breaths puffed up, but you couldn't care less, eyes drooping close as your body went limp in his arms, the stress from the confinement and war taking a toll on your body, the only sign of you being alive is your steady breathing and heartbeats thundering in your chest.

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Bright morning rays of the sun filled the entirety of your tent, the war was over but the tension in the environment was still the same, your unconscious body was lying comfortably on a mat, your twin and tsahik working together on getting you back in a conscious state, Kiri rubbing the sole of your feet to keep you warm, Neytiri was worried sick holding your hand in her’s as Ronal had a hand placed on your stomach as her eyes wide while pressing lightly around your abdomen to be sure of what she was feeling, te'yul cringed as he had promised you he'll keep it a secret until you decided it was the right time.

Ronal checked again just to be one hundred percent sure, Jake was pacing outside the tent with Neteyam, Lo'ak and spider trying to sneak inside, Kiri sitting near your feet, rubbing some warmth into them when Ronal looked at neytiri with a vexed expression "Did you know?" her voice angered and upset, Neytiri furrowed her non-existent eyebrows, a big question mark visible on her face "what?!" Ronal was fuming at this point "Did. You. Know?" This time Neytiri was taken aback and even Jake entered the tent from the anticipation of what's going on with Ronal’s raised voices at Neytiri and because his legs were aching from the amount of pacing he did outside, the couple were worried for their mate as you laid with your eyes closed "what's going on?" Jake asked carefully as he saw Ronal's enraged face and demeanor.

Te'yul came in between the budding argument, resting a hand on Ronal's shoulder to calm her down as he faced Jake and neytiri to see their confused expressions, he apologized internally to you for breaking your promise without your permission he was worried for all the reactions he’ll get after this, his tone was tuned down as he spoke "y/n is pregnant…..with twins"

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The whole sully family sat around your sleeping form, Jake's arms wrapped around Neytiri's shoulders comforting her as best as he could, tuk was laying beside you, hugging you close as she slept next to you, her little arms thrown over your torso, kiri, Neteyam, Lo'ak and spider huddled together as they watched you and tuk sleeping together, te'yul sitting in a corner as he worked on some pastes and herbs for you, preparing some syrups for your future symptoms of the pregnancy, waiting for you to wake up soon.

The word of your health spread throughout metkayina like wildfire, everyone's new topic of gossip was your pregnancy, of course this is the first time a child with both metkayina and omaticaya features would be born, that too not one but two babies at once, a miracle by eywa herself, though it was quite predictable given you were a twin and Jake was a twin as well, it was bound to happen.

After a week and a half of no sign of movement your eyes fluttered open, the soft rays of the sunset hitting your irises making them dilate and contract quickly, tuk saw you waking up first, as she refused to leave your side, and squealed running around telling everyone “MAMA WOKE UP! MAMA WOKE UP!” Te'yul immediately coming up to your side as Neytiri and Jake did, ignoring the fact that Jake almost ran over a kid to get to you, you didn't blame him for it, he was worried after all, Ronal was called as they all looked down at you, Ronal and Te'yul working on you as they tried to bring you back to your full consciousness, ronal with her ear pressed to your chest then to your stomach, Te’yul applying a soothing paste to the base of your throat, Jake on the other hand was a nervous wreck, he sent out a message to norm and team to come by, it's not like he didn't trust the metkayina healers or your own brother at that matter but for his own peace of mind.

A few hours later when everyone calmed down and with Te'yul forcing you to drink a bitter syrup with a "it's good for the babies'' which you had no idea what it did, now you were finally relaxing with your family, again the word of you waking up was all around the village but the Sully's didn't care, all they cared about is that you're awake, well and very much alive, Jake almost cried tears of relief when norm said everything was okay with you and your babies, for the family there wasn't anything more happier than you and the babies okay and healthy.

Now that the environment was much calmer not one of them was ready to leave your side, Jake and Neytiri were on your side, tuk cuddled into your chest, kiri in between you and Neytiri, Lo’ak in between Jake and you while Neteyam had his head snuggled on your stomach, being careful so he won’t “hurt” his new baby brothers or sisters, all of you were a tangled pile of limbs and love, Jake would lovingly give you a few kisses while Lo’ak who was in between grimaced and gagged at the sight, Neytiri chuckled and shook her head, snuggling close to everyone she gave tuk a small kiss on her temple as she slept on your chest, this was the best time for the family to be all together, at peace and happy as they all drift asleep as their love for one another floated in the air strong and radiant.

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~ 2 months pregnant ~

You were given complete bed rest for the time being and Neytiri was adamant on not letting you step out of the hammock let alone the mauri, constantly checking over you every two hours, bringing you fruits, soups, and whatnot.

Jake wasn't anything less than Neytiri was, he'd walk into your shared mauri with a worried expression. Run a hand over your slightly swollen belly, give you a kiss on your forehead and if you were awake he’d bombard you with questions for several minutes on end “are you feeling okay, babygirl?” “Do you feel nauseous?” “Does your stomach hurt? Does your back hurt? I can give you a massage if you want”

he’d pestered continuously back and forth in his visits throughout the day, he was worried as twin pregnancies are rare in na’vi, plus the babies being half omaticayan and half metkayian, it added more tension to his growing worry day by day as the pregnancy progressed.

“ma’Jake, I’m fine! I’m pregnant, not dying!” you spoke with a hint of annoyance tracing your voice after his 1000th query of your health and it's not even complete 2 months yet “baby, i know that, but you’re pregnant with MY twins and I’m worried, so its better you answer those questions to me, tiyawn” he whispered in your ear and planted a soft kiss on your temple, you knew there was no escaping his sweet slick words.

Neytiri and the kids were nothing less than Jake, tuk was glued to your side, being the youngest she was mesmerized by your belly and happy that she won’t be the youngest anymore, while neteyan, being used to seeing his mom pregnant with his siblings before, he was just the gentleman to you as his father, always making sure if your comfortable or not, bringing in fresh fruits and meat for you, placing his head on your belly to hear the babies’ heartbeats, while Lo’ak did his best to keep up with the fact that he’s getting not just one but TWO new siblings at the same time, poor boy would cling to you and ask if you’d love him and the others less because you’re getting your own babies now, you’d hold him tight in your arms and reassure him that you’d love him just as much as before and the others, that the babies won’t change it as he opens up to you “mama, i still want to spend our swims together after this” he’d whisper hugging you “of course we will, you and i will have lots of fun once i have your siblings, i’ll even take you to my favorite place” a smirk dancing on your lips as you reassured him and pressed a kiss on his head.

Spider was nervous and intrigued by everything about you, not having met you before he was a little scared if you’d accept him, though Neytiri was reluctant to let him be anywhere near you, she quickly backed down when you reassured her that it was okay, your warm and welcoming smile was enough to let him feel at ease, he grew more attached to you day by day, looking up to you like a mother he never had, you didn’t expect yourself to as protective of him, not knowing whether it was your pregnancy or because he was so small compared to others, you were protective of him immediately.

“Spider, why don’t you sit with me? I’ll put your hair up for you” you’d say with a loving voice he couldn’t ignore, but there was a hint of worry too, he didn’t know the way of the water and you didn’t him to be hurt plus it was nice to have some company, He’d comply every time you asked him though, he wasn’t about to refuse some head pets from you, it’s not even been a few months living with you and he was already calling you ‘mom’ which surely melted your heart every time he called you that “coming, sa’nok” he’d say before coming right up to you with a hug or cuddles, it was his favorite thing to do now, he still kept in mind about your belly before doing so.

Jake was happy to see you and him bonding together, he was nervous on how neytiri would react but it surprised him how quickly she backed down when you asked her to, still he was happy about the fact that spider was finally getting the love and attention he deserved.

~ 6 months pregnant ~

The babies were growing and thriving, while also leaving you at the mercy of their cravings, the night shone bright, the chirping of the creatures outside weren’t doing anything to put you back to sleep, Jake and Neytiri were on your sides sleeping peacefully while you laid awake, mouth watering with the thought of tasting utumauti at such ungodly hour, you looked at jake who was snoring softly, one arm wrapped around your swollen middle while you were using his other arm as a pillow, his bioluminescent freckles glowing bright in the darkness as he slept.

“ma’Jake, wake up…. Please” you whispered to him as you couldn’t help yourself now, you needed to taste it, midnight or not, instead of him Neytiri woke up as she looked at your attempts to wake him “do you need anything, paskalin?” her voice was soft yet rough from the sleep which startled you a bit, now you were a bit embarrassed to say that you were hungry even after eating a big dinner “ohh tiri… it’s just… um i wanted some utumauti” she chuckled getting up from the hammock “that’s it? You could have asked me sooner, ma’txelan” she said pressing a kiss on your temple before heading outside to get some for you.

In a few minutes she was back with quite a few Utumauti in her arms, keeping silent as she cut them up in cubes while you sat beside her near the fireplace, everything was quiet, all the kids and the village sleeping, the only sounds that could be heard were Jake’s snoring, creatures chirping, waves crashing outside while you munched on the fruit pieces.

“Is that good or do you need more?” her voice was sweet and filled with love as she watched you eat, her hand caressing your back gently, you shook your head “No, this is enough, thank you” your giggle bringing a smile on her face as you had already eaten at least five utumauti by now, she didn’t mind though, she’d bring the whole damn tree if you asked her.

When jake turned in the hammock and felt both you and neytiri out of place, he woke up to the sight of you and Neytiri sitting close together while you satisfied your midnight cravings, she had her arms wrapped around your midsection, he felt a warm feeling build up inside his chest at the scene in front of him, though he wasn’t a part of it, he was still content and happy to just witness it, going back to sleep while the memory played in his mind and a smile lingered on his lips.

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The twins could now move and kick very well, which also made all the sully’s take turn and sit in front of you with their hands on your growing belly, Jake was the most persistent one as he still didn’t get to feel the baby while everyone else felt one or both the babies move or kick, even Rotxo had his turn fulfilled and Jake didn’t, which frustrated the hell out of him.

“Ma’Jake, you can’t force the babies to move if they don’t want to” you spoke as you and Neytiri were holding back your laughs so you wouldn’t frustrate him even more “but they moved for everyone else!” he said in almost a whiny voice as he removed his hands from your stomach.

Your stomach, that now held your twins with a beautiful curve to it didn’t show any movement, he let out an exasperated sigh with a frown looking at your belly, Neytiri decided to tease him more “maybe the babies love their sa’nok and sa’nu more” she said with a smirk as she placed her hand on the top of your belly and to everyone's surprise one of the babies moved under her touch as if agreeing with her, Neytiri in result bursted out laughing not able to hold in any longer, Jake on the other hand frowned even more as you tried to comfort him while trying not to laugh yourself as he crossed his arms across his chest “they’re not even born and they already don’t like me” which only caused Neytiri to laugh more and Jake to roll his eyes at her, you were now stuck with a sulking Jake and overjoyed Neytiri “they will move for you jake, give them some time, sayrip” you said with a smile as he sulked.

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You were having a particularly hard day walking around, back strained, legs and ankles swollen, Jake was the one overlooking you as Neytiri was out for once after being cooped up with you for the period of the entire pregnancy, she went out fishing to try new things, the kids were out as Tsireya invited them the night over at their mauri and Jake couldn’t be more happier to have you all for himself all day and then with Neytiri at night, once again you were restricted to the hammock but this time you were grateful for it, the nap was treating you well after all those sleepless and restless nights, Jake, on the other hand, was preparing a meal for when you wake up, as the day went on you woke up with a slight pain in your abdomen, dismissing it as you got up.

Eating with Jake in a peaceful silence when the pain was getting harder to ignore, your hand instinctively moving towards his hand as a dull yet sharp pain went through your abdomen, which definitely caught Jake's attention “darling, you okay?” his eyes going wide in alarm as he grabbed onto want just happened, forgetting all about the food as he connected the dots, the sudden tiredness, unusual cramps, constant back pains, it was clear you were going into labor, he knew the signs after three times with Neytiri, getting to your side as his rough calloused hand caressed the side of your head “shhh it’s gonna be okay, don’t panic, stay calm and breath okay? I’ll call Ronal and your brother, stay here!” he whispered soothingly as you caught onto the moment and nodded this was it…..you are going to give birth.

After waiting for jake to come back, you were on all fours as you felt the first of the contractions coming which were in no way pleasant, they immediately got to work, easing you in a more comfortable position as the pain and adrenaline starts to kick in, Jake getting behind you as he rubbed your back, kissing your forehead “there you go, hold onto me and relax, deep breathes remember?” he whispered directly in your ear as he tangled his hand in your hair but only one thing ran through your mind “Call Neytiri!! I can’t do this without her!! I want tiri” your cries were heard as someone was sent to get her.

She came running and stumbled back to your shared mauri, bursting through the flaps dropping her bow and arrows in an instance as she got to you “I’m here, I’m here syulang” she said encouragingly as she kissed your forehead, her breaths were quick and short but she didn't care, you were her first priority and the babies, that’s all she cared about.

You were kneeling on the woven flooring of the mauri, your breaths coming in short puffs of air, cheeks red and wet from the efforts as Jake supported you from behind and neytiri was kneeling in front of you, gently caressing your contracting abdomen, kissing your temple lovingly as they both tried to comfort you through the pain, tears flowing down your cheeks as your head was buried in neytiri’s shoulder.

“tiri, it hurts so much, i can’t do this ahh please ughh'' your whimpers were painful for her to hear, she ran a hand through your hair, kissing the top of it “it’ll be over soon, paskalin, you can do this just hold on a little longer” her whispers of reassurance did wonders to calm you down but the contractions that racked your womb pulled another scream of pain from your throat.

you rocked your body back and forth to soothe the pain holding onto neytiri for dear life “ohhh GREAT MOTHER! Why does this have to hurt so much!!!” your cries ringing through the mauri and te’yul let out a chuckle.

“i told you so, it's your fault that you decided to get pregnant and-” a loud groan from you shuts him up “shut the fuck up for moment, you skxwang! I didn’t ask for your opinion right now! I swear to eywa I’ll-” your rant was stopped by Jake as he made you look at him with his finger under your chin, though everyone was surprised at your outburst.

“easy, easy there, sweetheart, take a deep breath with me, i know it hurts but you have to calm down for the babies'' he whispered looking down in your ocean blue eye that now welled up with tears, holding your hand in his as he ran the pad of his thumb over your knuckles then glared daggers at te’yul for his remark while you're twin just shrugged.

you groaned not having the patience to go through all this, Ronal hits te’yul upside his head with a quick reprimand about not to rile a laboring woman, you groan loudly, throwing your head back on jake’s shoulder as you squeezed his hand in a vice like grip while bearing through the contraction “I hate you jake! You did this to me! I hate you so much” you cried, eyes screwed shut in pain, your grip on his hand so tight it sprained his wrist but he didn’t dare to utter a single word against it as he saw the amount of pain you were in was way greater than his sprained wrist, he smiled “I’m sorry, sweetheart, now please concentrate” he whispered, not taking your comments to heart, Neytiri chuckled kissing your forehead and looked at Jake with a smile, she yelled the same things to him while giving birth to Neteyam, Lo’ak and tuk so he was now used to it by now, he didn't mind being the punching bag, verbally and physically.

“Its okay, ma’tiyawn, you can blame him, it's his fault anyways” she said with a smile, adding fuel to the already blazing fire while Jake rolled his eyes at her trying to distract you from the pain as much as possible, but you weren’t in the mood to smile or laugh as the contractions were numbing your thought process.

Ronal had a worried look on her face “let her speak what she want, it's better she if lets it out” as she came up to the three of you with a bowl of dark green liquid in it, kneeling down beside you she brought the bowl to your lips “drink this, child, you’ll feel better, let your body do its thing, do not hold back” you drank the, for once, sweet liquid in two gulps, you tried to relax but it was easier said than done.

Neytiri and Jake did their best to calm you down through your screams of agony, the liquid will take a few minutes to show effect but when it does the moan of relief you let out is louder than any scream you let out before, which earned another fit of chuckles from te’yul while Ronal glared at him this time, even Jake couldn’t hold back his smile at that, you placed your head on Neytiri’s shoulder again as she rubs your back lovingly while Jake holds his hand on your hip, the other sprained one was still being used as a stress ball by you, even while you were in such immense pain te’yul couldn’t help but smile, you were his sister, yes, but he’ll also make puns about this moment when all of this is over.

Ronal walked over to Neytiri as she placed a hand on your shoulder “i think we should go to the hot water springs, the warm water would help her a lot” she said sympathetically looking at your worn out and exhausted state and both Jake and Neytiri nodded in agreement.

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Your twin and Ronal were both working on getting the place ready to help you through the birth but that was still a long way ahead, Jake carried you in his arms bridal style to the springs, your eyes closed, mind clouded with pain as soft mewls left your lips while your nails dug into his shoulder and arms, reaching the pond he slowly lowered your body into the warm water, the liquid immediately helping with the soreness and subside the pain to some extent.

Jake got behind you, once again giving you support to lean on, your body was already drenched in cold sweat before, the beads of water and sweat ran down your skin, Neytiri got into the water as well, standing in front of you as she caressed your cheek, giving you a sweet kiss on your lips as your face scrunched up in agony from the new contractions “shhh you’re nearly there, yawne, just a little more and you’ll meet your babies, breathe ma’txe’lan breathe, in and out” she whispered stroking your swollen stomach and rubbing your back, Jake kissed the nape of your neck ��you’re doing so good, sweetie, we’ve already gone through the first half of it, this is the last stretch, i know you can do it” their words of encouragement gave you motivation to push through it, head rolling back on his shoulder, by now you didn’t have it in you to scream anyways, Exhaustion was taking its toll on your body, the soft groans and tears that were rolling down your already wet cheeks were the only signs of your ongoing suffering.

Ronal checked your dilation as Neytiri wiped the sweat and tears from your face and neck, helping you drink some water to keep you hydrated while going through such painful period which she was familiar with but even the simplest act of drinking a sip of water was difficult with the oncoming waves of contractions in your womb, new batch of tears stream down your cheeks as Neytiri wiped them away gently.

Her’s and Jake’s faces were twisted in a frown as they hated to even see you get a scratch let alone to see you writhe in pain like this was making them worried sick by the passing second, Neytiri’s hands massaged your hips to loosen any tense muscles to help the parturition even more, another intense pain ripped through your abdomen as you grit your teeth against it, eyes shut tightly in pain, lips pressed in a thin line and Jake couldn’t see you in pain anymore “okay, this is enough…” he whispered as he brought his queue forward and connected it yours, Ronal tried to say otherwise but the decision was made, Neytiri following suit connecting with the two of you, the full force of the pain now washing over them, Neytiri was accustomed to it by now but still shuddered at the sudden rush of feelings and even when Jake had assisted Neytiri with all her births like this but the feeling of the pain was always unexpected for him.

Now with the queues connected they held you, gently caressing and massaging your body to ease you in any possible way, you felt their calming thoughts filling your mind as your braids connected together "you can do it, tiyawn, just push through it, Love, everything will be over soon, it will be all worth it" Jake's whispers of affection and comfort falling over deaf ears when the first of the twins started to make an appearance resulting in your roars of pain and clutching Jake's already sprained wrist as the first baby started to crown.

Ronal held your legs apart, Neytiri caressed your face and neck, while Jake ran his hand down on your waist as your sobs were clearly heard through the pain "We understand, syulang, we understand, now please push as hard as you can, zola' u niprrte nga prrnen" Neytiri said calmly, guiding you through the pain to push and encourage to bring these children to life.

Hot tears rolled down your cheeks as you gave a push "ngghhhh get them out!!" Your screams of desperation were heartfelt for everyone who heard them, Neytiri's face was full of concern as you screamed "shhh just push the best you can, you want to see them right? You can't give up now that you're so close….i know it hurts, yawne, i know but you can't lose everything when you're so close, push one more time, for us, for the babies" she whispered softly as you stare at her with a tear soaked face, snort running down your nose as sweat dripped down your scalp, the water washed over to your chest giving you an effect of weightlessness, with a new kind of determination take over your body, you began to push.

The saying childbirth is the worst pain anyone can experience was really starting to become very clear to you now, you grit your teeth taking a deep breath and pushed but soon turned into a scream and then a sob, the burning sensation was too overwhelming, even taking a breath felt like a laboring act, Ronal held your hand gently in hers “shh calm down, calm down… breath, y/n, breath”

She guided your hand between your thighs, letting your fingers brush against the baby’s head, you stared at her as your expression went from pained to one of awe and longing, the fact that you were so close to meeting your babies, ignited a deep urge to keep going no matter how bad the pain was, after taking a moment to catch up, you beared down with the next contraction, eyes shut tightly, toes curled up as you screamed head bowed down, jake held your hand while you squeezed it, his other arm holding you in place, Neytiri rubbed your back soothingly.

Ronal cupped the crowning head of the baby with her hand when finally the head slipped out followed by your groan, now the time ticked, you had to push to get the shoulders out soon with the next contraction, she urged you to push again, tugging on the baby gently with the next push as your whole body trembled from the effort as the baby’s shoulders passed through the canal with the final push, Ronal and te’yul immediately took the newborn to clean up, your breaths becoming shallow while Neytiri smiled caressing your cheek “there, that’s it, you’re okay” she whispered leaning her forehead against yours.

Jake stroked your waist kissing your forehead gently “good girl, very good, one down one to go” he said softly, currently looking absolutely proud of you as he placed several kisses on your head, tears forming in his eyes “I’m so proud of you, you did so good, just a little more, sweetheart” his words were spoken from shere love and appreciation.

Neytiri was looking at you with just as much pride as jake, patting your cheek when finally a piercing cry rang through the air, grabbing all your attention, the cry was mighty enough to make your heart sore but the pain wasn’t done yet, Ronal coming back in front of you as she held you by your shoulders “a little more and it's done, push when you feel like” but exhaustion made you feel like your head was underwater, even being in the hot spring wasn’t helping that much, head rolling back on Jake’s chest, only getting out of the daze when the burning sensation came back in the nether regions, blinking back your tears as you pushed, this was relatively easier than the first and the second twin came out faster than you expected, which was more than a big relief.

In the most fastest few minutes of your life, Ronal and Neytiri held your daughters in their arms as Jake held you tired body in his, admiring the sight in front of him “You did it, sweetheart, You did it, you’re absolutely wonderful” he whispered as your ears twitched from his warm breath, your tail swishing underwater, a tired smile on your face as you stared at your newborn daughters, your own daughters and you couldn’t be more proud “go ahead, name them sweetie” he said proudly as he caressed your arm and neytiri nodded along “you should name them, paskalin”

After thinking for a few minutes, you came up with a pair of names you thought were the best “Pe’rul and Peyal” your voice strained and rough but the emotions behind it melted everyone's heart as they all agreed that those were good names “those are beautiful name, tiyawn” neytiri said as she brought peyal closer to you and jake and ronal nodded as well, ronal swam forward as well both the babies went quiet as they were laid on your chest, going silent as they felt their mother’s touch, it was a beautiful sight for all of them while te’yul cheered and howled in happiness in the background as he was officially an uncle now as Ronal now carefully bandaged Jake’s sprained wrist while you gave him a apologetic smile in return he just chuckled and pecked your forehead.

»»————-　♡　————-««

A few weeks have passed since the day of arrival of the twins, the happiness of the clan was quadrupled as the babies were the most miraculous things they have witnessed, azure skin like Jake and Neytiri but soft ocean blue eyes and teal stripes like yours, the combination made the pair look blessed by Eywa herself, lanky and long tails like the omaticaya but slightly broader with a tuft of hair at the tail ends, seemingly they were the most beautiful babies to be seen on the land of metkayina.

If Jake and Neytiri weren’t overprotective before now it was like being smothered in their love, which was more overwhelming than anything, and boy oh boy did Neytiri took care of you after the birth, knowing damn well how down and depressed a new mother can feel after the birth, she did everything in her power to keep you happy, making necklaces, shawls, blankets, tops for you everyday, kissing your postpartum belly, all the stretch marks, massaging your back, making your favorite foods, pampering you in any way possible, she made sure to make you feel like a queen.

While Neytiri takes care of you, Jake and the kids are on the duty to take care of the twins, and eywa bless him, he’s taking that job very seriously, now father of seven, including spider, he was almost delirious at the amount of children he has, to think at one point in his life he gave up hope to ever have the joy of a family of his own and to now with two mates and seven children, oh how things have changed, for good this once.

Overjoyed was an understatement for Neteyam and the gang, two little baby sisters? You bet the protection levels are through the clouds, may the great mother help the person who even looks or breathes at the twins in a wrong way, Kiri held Peyal with the most widest grin possible, while Neteyam held Pe’rul as if she was the most precious thing on pandora and as of now she was, Lo’ak and tuk were in their thoughts as how he won’t be the only middle child and tuk was happy as she won’t be the youngest anymore, for spider, the more siblings the better.

Uncle te’yul made the first song chords for the babies as gift which you then attached it to the band of their tewng, adding a pearl as the memory of their birth to your song chord as well, right next to the bead Jake gave you which symbolized your mating with the couple, plus adding two similar pearls on the twins song chords as a symbol to the start of their journey in this new and amazing world.

The whole family huddled together. You in the middle, Jake and Neytiri on your sides as the twins laid on top of you, Lo’ak and spider beside Jake while Neteyam and Kiri were beside Neytiri, tuk was sandwiched between you and Jake but she didn’t mind, as everyone’s attention was on the newest members of the family while they slept on your chest, Neytiri caressed your cheek and jake went a step ahead, pecking your lips sweetly “we are so proud of you, txe’lan” Neytiri nodding in agreement as all of the others groaned and fake gagged at the public display of affection, tuk and Kiri just giggled, Neteyam laughing his ass off with a loud “Gross” from Lo’ak and spider while you, Jake and tiri burst out laughing, love floated in the air, it was a beautiful beginning, which you'll cherish forever.

A/n : I had so much fun writing this! The amount of time i spent researching everything omggg, i hope y'all would enjoy!

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[xxhaunteddiscoxx]

AHHHH OOKAY

Can I request a Subspace ( the pink one ) and Medkit ( the cyan one ) from Phighting rentry graphic with the colors #EC0C64 and #13D1BD , with the names Aron and Magnus included ,, uh TRANSGENDER FLAG TOO IF ABLE ! Oh and, id prefer if you used the artist : @shipsnfishes05 on X if able, ill give some art I have, uh source stuff is okay too if u don't wanna use art !!!!

I literally love u btw / p

your so sigma bro.

thank you!! Uhm I deadass didn't know what to do with this and also rushed because I just went to the hospital to get my like elbow part thing like fuck idk BUT LIKE IT LOOKED SO COOL I LOVE MEDICAL STUFF uhm here's your graphi!!! Sorry it it's not what you expected! English isn't my first language...

Medkit & subspace graphic!

Multiple variations because of my dumb ass

Requested by : @starozzes

F2u with credits unless you r the requester!

Thank you for requesting uhm uhmmm I think the last one is when I realized you wanted just those colors... j didn't read right HEKP

[intronaeternum]

MASTERPOST & RULES

squish • /skwɪʃ/ verb

To grab, hold, or capture people (especially middle aged men), keep them in captivity, and enact other suffering they may or may not deserve in high security facility, in a non-sexual way.

This blog is run by me (iNTRON) and my boyfriend (Omu). You can also find me on Bluesky and discord, linked below.

https://bsky.app/profile/intronaeternum.bsky.social

https://discord.gg/6qpKkVKHev

Interaction is mandatory. Feel free to ask me anything you curious about Exogenic Bioscience and Professor cat man or request lore drop. From statistics my art progress is correlate to interaction I receive. Suggestions and ideas are encourage, but I do not take free art request or commission. This is a SFW whump only content, there will be NO gore or sexual content in here.

This masterpost will be updated as-needed

Introduction

This is a blog about Professor cat man and his life inside big biotech corpo lab as both biological asset and scientific asset. Professor cat man will be subject to both live cell harvest and scientific work under strict control by the handler.

More lore will be added as the story developed.

RULES

I’m very welcome to fan art and fan fic. But there is some house rule you need to consider when making one

1. No porn, no gore, no gross. No horny, no genderchange, no romance. No “art fix” bullshit. This is hard rule where I draw the line. Breaking this rule will get you blocked.

2. No A/I slop trash. I want to see fan work made by people who care about my work and details put into it. Not by randomized pixel or potentially nice word string together by machine. It doesn’t need to be masterpiece, just need to be made with care by you

3. If you making fan art or fan fic, pls send me copy of manuscript. I usually keep all of them to see/read again the day I feel bad or want to quit

About the Author

INTRON, a biochem lab grunt. Aerospace engineer and chemist speedrun% to become biochemist. Graphi design is my passion. CRAP hater and believe all GPU power should go to AlphaFold, not trash randomized pixel made from stolen artist work.

I draw things but do not call me artist. ESL and have no respect for english language grammar outside academic setting.

[hazyaltcare]

hi! i was wondering if you would do a request that i personally feel is adjacent to name/pronoun suggestions, but i understand if youre not up for that! i was looking for some help brainstorming bird based puns for a typing quirk... specifically doves and quails but birds in general work as well! think the cat/dog puns and the mlp brony ones like everypony [i already got everybirdie....] i understand if this is a request you can fulfill but thank you for your time anyway! have a nice day

Yes, absolutely. I could not find much dove/quail-specific puns, but I hope these can help you a little!

Mod Vintage (AC)

General Puns

all the words beginning with "ex-" can be replaced with "eggs-", like

eggsciting: exciting

egging (someone) on: provoking someone

eggcellent: excellent

eggceptional: exceptional

eggspletive: expletive

eggsperimental: experimental

Phrases

the bird flew the coop: someone left

how's your bird?: a slightly suggestive way to ask "how are you?"

a gilded (bird)cage

a little bird told me

bird's eye view

(someone's) goose is cooked

eat crow

etc.

(and more below the cut!)

Puns in Alphabetical Order

adove: above

aves: apex

beak: peak, beat

caw: call

cawght: caught

caws: cause, thus becaws: because

chirp, sing, caw, coo: can be used to replace "said"

coo: coolcood: could

covey, flock, bevy: a group of quails

covey: cove, cozy

crow: row, grow

dule: a group of doves

emusing: amusing

emutional: emotional

feather: weather, whether

flap: tap, rap, snap...

flapping (someone) off: flipping (someone) off

flipping the bird

flight: frightfly: lie, why

flying, flight: to describe moving

goose: whose, who's

hawk: gawk

hawkward: awkward

impeckcable: impeccable

left-wing, right-wing...

lovebirds

lovenest: loveseat

luck: cluck

nest: next

nest: house, dwelling, home

owl: all

owlright: alright

peck, pluck, fluff, duck, flock: can be used as swear words

peep: people, peek

perchase: purchase

perching: sitting

perchtaining: pertaining

pigeon: pidgin

propagander: propaganda

quail: pale, pail, sail, etc.

quailify: qualify

raven: raving

robin: robbing

tweet: beat, fleet...

winging it: to improvise something

wings: things, wins, rings...

Now, some puns from the scientific names of doves and quails:

areni: aren't

columb: column

cryptophaps: crypto... you know, graphy, economy, etc.

galli: gall

gravis: graphic

rupephaps: perhaps

trygonometry: trigonometry

[learning-how-to-draw-furries]

This request is from @graphi-horse-time ! I loved drawing Graphi Jr. The design was so fun!

Reminder that the form for requests is pinned if you want me to draw your fursona!

[ohlookiehereanotheruser]

Masterlist of Denied Requests 5

Please take a crack at it everyone! Fifth Wave! More will be added later on!

Mogai

Coinings:

None Submitted

Editblr

Blinkies/Pixels/Stamps/Widgets:

Is it possible for you to make hyena or sun bear emojis? (sad, happy, angry, nervous, etc, you can do whatever you want :D)

Userboxes:

None Submitted

Moodboard/Stimboards:

could I request a stimboard of Gangle from amazing digital circus? she’s my comfort character :> and just cooll! With themes of wood, ribbons, masks, water, tap shoes, and metal?

could you possibly do a matcha alcremie moodboard with nature and earthy themes?

may i request an aranea stimboard with psychic and nature themes?

could i get a william wisp(jrwi prime defenders) stimboard? id like ghost hunting and wolves and the color blue if possible. thanks! -for @/william-wisp

Can I have a BoTW/ToTK Link stimboard with lots of nature and swords. No slime please! -

May I request a stimboard of abandoned Disney attractions? Preferably gifs of exploration after closing, or if there is none, footage of it in operation is fine!

could i request a moodboard for dokuro chan from bludgeoning angel dokuro chan? don’t really care too much about themes or whatever buuuut if i had to give some ermm maybe angelcore, animecore?

Can I please have a moodboard for season 1 Steven from Steven universe? Can it have themes of adventuring with the gems and relaxing around beach city?

ould I,, maybe request a ririka from nnd compass stimboard? if it's okay, could it have a menhera/yami kawaii theme?

May I request a moodboard for Yato from 'Noragami'? Sky blue and inky black colors will do. As for theme.. maybe shedding an inner psychological darkness? -

Can you do a pine marten + pastel goth moodboard please?

Ishmael Limbus Company water slime board?

Could I ask for a Hajime Hinata stimboard?

May I request a Moodboard for Circe x Telemachus from epic? (Gigi’s version if that’s okay) with love spell themes?

Could I request a stimboard for FranknFurter from the Rocky horror picture show? Preferably for when he’s in his green lab coat

Icon Requests:

if its okay, can i have some replycons for hawks (mha) ? i do prefer the manga but i wouldn’t mind the show at all

could i have a montgomery gator icon with either the dissociation agere flag or the Age Regressor flag? ✅

wolf therian icons?

Can I request an icon/icons for Eclipse from FNAF with nonbinary and boyflux themes?

maybe some Gay Bowie (Total Drama) Icons? -

Can you do Death (Puss In Boots) Icons?

can I request icons for Peppino Spaghetti from Pizza Tower?

could I request some icons of the protagonist from persona 5 royal? (game)

Murdoc Niccals Gorillaz pfps perhaps?

can i please request The Collector (The owl house) icons with the stellaripped (https://www.tumblr.com/lunentity/ 747086228326940672?source=share) flag? circle or square is ok! thanks very much! ✅ -

can you do silver the hedgehog lesbian icons pls?

Can I rq for genderfae lesbian celestia icons from mlp?

May I please request black and white circle icons of Todoroki Shouto? ✅

lesbian lottie mattthews icons from pre crash?

Can you please make a few icons of Guzma or a luxray with the Trans flag? -

can i request antarcticite from land of the lustrous w/ the oriented aroace flag?

may i please request faded heart iconw w/ this magicalgirlic flag w/ boothill!?

could you possibly do a Lacey from lacies game icons? Theme just webcore and lacey ofc :3 tysm!

Rentry Graphics:

May I please request some ticci toby graphics?

could i req linzer rentry graphics (from crk ofc !) ?

May I request a Jinx ( from arcane/league of legends) rentry graphics?

pleaese make chase total drama graphics?

zhongli rentry graphics pretty pelase?

graphics of any character from identity v? little girl/memory or gardener/emma woods preferred please? -

Hiii can I please request rentry graphics of jirai chan please?

i was wondering if i could please have some tim drake (any version! robin or red hood, any comics/games) rentry graphics?

May I request your take on some rentry graphics for a character named A.B.A from Guilty Gear -Strive- ?

shoto todoroki graphics?

can i rq some Bon from the Walten Files graphics? -

can i request a spinner (mha) graphic?

Can I get an Eevee rentry graphic?

NPTs/SNPTs/Usernames:

can ghost ask for princess peach titles please? (Titles)

Sigma from bsd Id Pack please?

Can I get some Name and Pronouns for smartass from toon patrol?

can i get name + pronouns reccs for hunter (TOH)?

Names for Captain Spaceboy from Omori? -

i just wanted to ask if u take requests for tgcf/heaven officials blessing? could i please request hualian (as a whole) themed npts? if you're not able to do hualian, a xie lian npt!

May I ask for a columbina (genshin) npt pack?

can you please do an id pack based off of monitoring by deco27?

May I request some ramuda amemura from hypnosis mic npts if possible?

could you pretty pretty please do red panda NPTS? tysmm

-

May I PLEASE get OHSHC haru themed npts please? - nptscinema

could i request an npt list relating to detectives and film noir?

Dividers/Borders/Headers:

None Yet

Custom NPTs/SNPTs

None Submitted

PNG/Render/Mask Requests/Sprite Edits:

could i get a junko sprite edit/redesign with pink/blue heterochromia eyes? ✅

are u able to get nekomura iroha pngs/pixels or overlays?

Layout Requests:

Hello may I please request a layout for Black Swan from hsr?

If it's alright, may i request some Twitter layouts for nahida from genshin impact?

If possible could I please have a tumblr layout for Rin Okumura (Blue Exorcist)? -

could i please request a layout of Naruto from Naruto?

If it's alright, may i request an Indian inspired Tumblr layout for nahida from genshin?

Can I please request a Furina layout with themes of royalty?

selen tatsuki layouts please?

blue madara mikejima tumblr layouts ? -

can i request a kou minamoto discord layout?

can i request momoka sakurai/menhera-chan discord lays?

Could you do glisten from Dandy's Discord layout please?

could i req a habit (emh) discord layout please?

Can you make a Astro (from Dandy’s World) tumblr layout? -

HIIII can I request yuuna from love angel syndrome layout?

I was hoping if I could request Tumblr layouts with beartic?

could you do a naruto discord layout with a orange/redish color?

Hello may I please request a layout for Black Swan from hsr?

If it's alright, may i request some Twitter layouts for nahida from genshin impact?

If possible could I please have a tumblr layout for Rin Okumura (Blue Exorcist)? -

could i please request a layout of Naruto from Naruto?

If it's alright, may i request an Indian inspired Tumblr layout for nahida from genshin?

Can I please request a Furina layout with themes of royalty?

selen tatsuki layouts please?

blue madara mikejima tumblr layouts ? -

can i request a kou minamoto discord layout?

can i request momoka sakurai/menhera-chan discord lays?

Could you do glisten from Dandy's Discord layout please?

could i req a habit (emh) discord layout please?

Can you make a Astro (from Dandy’s World) tumblr layout? -

HIIII can I request yuuna from love angel syndrome layout?

I was hoping if I could request Tumblr layouts with beartic?

could you do a naruto discord layout with a orange/redish color?

IF ITS OKAY could you possibly do a red themed cirrus baek (litc) discord layout ?!

Package/Themepack Request:

will you make tumblr graphic / layout + replycons + graphic for pinned of draculaura from monster high (gen 1 or 3 please)?

can you do yuri lcb replycons and icons? with a red tech theme maybe?

s it possible that you could make a lunala themepack, please?

Template Request

can I get an oka ruto template?

helloooooo may i request a momo from dandadan template?

This is the fifth list, at this point, went back to surfing the past, please tell me if an ask has been shown twice by accident.

[thexsanctuaryx]

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[graphitesatellite]

Hi, I’m Phi! 💜 I also go by Graphite, Graphi, or Graph, I’m 25, I use any and all pronouns, and this is my personal blog where I post about whatever catches my fancy!

I used to be big into The Arcana, and I still enjoy it a lot, but it’s not a main focus for me anymore (tho you can still read my old headcanons and fics if you’re so inclined)

I also used to be really into writing, but I haven’t written anything in a very long time, and while I hope that’ll change eventually, I just don’t know! So I’m not taking any requests at this time, but my ask box is open for anything else

Things you might see me post about:

Pokémon (this is the big one I’m always playing Pokémon and I love shiny hunting)

Dungeon Meshi/Delicious in Dungeon

Deltarune, once the next chapter comes out or if I end up replaying previous chapters

The Arcana, probably, sometimes

More stuff that I can’t think of rn lmao

Also this blog isn’t explicitly nsfw, but I’m an adult, and I like to dabble in suggestive things, so any minors that directly interact with me will be blocked

Thanks for stopping by! 💜

[sparkledgroove]

may i request amy rose classic version rentry graphies with possible header included ?

^_^ thank youu

hey anon ! I’ll work on this request with the rentry graphics , but hy would like to know what you mean by a header ? Apologies , I’m very stupid when it comes to certain things ;; if you could specify I’ll make sure to add them ! ^_^

[jbbuckybarnes]

Damn, y'all made me hit 600 followers!? Thank you!!!

Send be drabble requests (/w character) and requests for lockscreens/banners if you want. I'll try my best to do all of them ���️

[akashi-tetsuki]

Hypmic || Phone Wallpaper 720 x 1560 ↳ requested by ME1ONCANDY  thank you for this request!!  

• like/reblog if you save ☆* • If you share out of tumblr give credits  ☆*

[gayrezi]

hey y'all, i'm bored at a football game, feel free send me some asks!!

[claudiaaaana]

Here me out, secret agent/spy AU where Natsu is a field agent and Lucy is his support, basically feeding him his Intel through a piece in his ear while he's on missions. They rarely ever spend time in person, rather they bond almost entirely through banter while on missions.

Honestly, this reminds me of Healer—a kdrama where the guy was also kind of like a field agent and he had this woman (no ship or anything, this lady was way too older) who was his partner through the ear thing. She would arrange his missions, get the information for him, all through the computer BUT!! They didn’t know each other personally, he didn’t even know how she looked like, only she knew him physically because she would always see him through the computers and everything.

Now lemme drop some headcanons for that:

•Lucy’s office is a mess. Scattered books, manila folder, and files all over the place, a map with red strings pinned to her wall and ceilings, book shelves attached to the wall like a whole fvcking library, the place is always dark as she sits in front of the computer, being the only source of light in the room. She always wears skimpy outfits and likes to chew gum a lot, which drives Natsu insane when he can hear it through the earbud, not to mention he has super sensitive ears. She wears glasses sometimes. She’s one of the youngest in the organization Fairy Tail (lolol, can't think of any other name) because of her hacker skills and her tactician brain, and she gets paid very well, but she doesn’t have a fancy house or anything because she’s just horrible at being responsible with her money. She just buys lots of pink cars, pink motorbikes, and books. And just recently, she purchased different types of whips, and a set of latex. And she doesn't have any idea why she bought them, let alone where and when to use them.

•Anyway, quick background. Basically, Fairy Tail is a home for missions, agents, retired CIA, military or whatsoever. Their main vision is to destroy rings, auction and underground markets that sell women and children for -----graphy and blood rituals. They also take requests from the government, sometimes helping the paramilitary from destroying the terrorist. They also once unraveled the dirty secret of the previous government, some of them funding rings and auction. The previous gov can't overthrow their org since they're worldwide 🤷, and has several co-org like the Sabers, Lamia, and Mermaid. Has several warehouses and hq where they can take care of their saved victims and give them shelter and protection before reuniting them with their families. If they don't have one, FT gladly takes them in. Their org is invisible. The main hq, which is sitting in the middle of the busy city, is a tourist hotel. Some of their hq(globally) are restaurant, boutique, arcade, hotels, resorts, apartment, and etc. It takes any form and names, but they are all in one org, to not look too suspicious in the eyes of rivalry and corrupt gov. With Mira as the receptionist of the main hq, when someone slides a gold coin with intricate insignia of their org on her counter, she knows who they are, what is their position and rank based on the carved symbol on the back of the coin, and she exactly knows what to do with them (just watch John Wick. But the coin in JW is not exactly the way I describe it above) And Lucy is not working in any of their hq, she decided to have her own apartment and make it her own workplace instead. But from time to time, she would pay a visit. Only Mira and the manager (of course, Makarov) knows the faces of their field agents and hackers. While the agents themselves didn't know their support (their hacker partner) faces and identities, their support exactly knows who they are. Some field agents didn't even know that they already bumped their support in the middle of the street.

•Natsu's first meeting with Gray, and they almost killed each other. They didn't know each other, and didn't even know that they're co-field agents of FT. It just happened, you know, bumping into each other's shoulder in a banquet while they were in the middle of their own mission when they started throwing punches. Got them punished by the second arm of the manager, Erza. And finally learning each other's identities, they would still be at each other's throat. But seriously, they started to have a drink in an exclusive club after their tiring mission. They wouldn't admit it to themselves but they became the best of best friends. Still trying to kill each other, tho.)

•Natsu is a mess. Literally, a mess. He could look like Natsu with his hair down (idk, I like him more if his hair is down or wet🤷), but his role as a secret field agent forces him to use a black wig sometimes and other things, which he hates—no, loathes since it reminds him of Gray. He didn't have any other choice. With his unusual hair color, he'll be doomed if someone recognizes his trademark. Have this intricate dragon tattoo in his back. So whenever it's his duty, he needs to cover it with full coverage cream, can't take the chance of the enemy catching a glimpse of his tattoo if he ever ruined his attire, especially if he was wearing a tux.

•One day, he has this very difficult urgent mission and Lucy sends him a box, with a letter neatly folded inside, "Use this attire for tomorrow.” (Sometimes, field agents are obliged to wear a dress code like for example a tux, camouflage, waiter uniform, etc., according to the higher ups orders). So when Natsu opens the box he sees the female clothes: a tight sexy ass dress, heels, blonde wig, some makeup, full coverage cream to cover his tattoo, skin tone silicone gloves, fake silicone boobs and butt, a flash drive, and some special firearms with silencer. Fresh from the bath and with only a towel wrapped around his hips, he curses under his breath and brushes his wet hair back. He picks up the earpiece from his nightstand, and puts it in his ear, ready to wage war with her. It's not like it's her fault, it's the higher ups' order, anyway. Becoming a bait.

•Because she needs to hack the cameras of the building or whatsoever to keep track with him, whenever Lucy sees Natsu fights and manhandle someone, she can't help her mind but to wonder what would it feel like to be manhandle or headlock by him. And Natsu would literally yells at her because she's not answering him.

•They like to troll each other. But Lucy is in different level. She LOVES to troll Natsu as she talks to him through the intel earbud, in the middle of their assignment. When he has to talk to some people to get information, she would sometimes tell him the things he has to say, and sometimes she says random shit like “Fix your uneven eyebrows” or "I fvck with your mom" and since he's obedient as a fvcking dog, he would literally say it. Out loud.

•Like I mentioned before, they have never met personally. Natsu always complains and whines about the fact that she does know how he looks, but he doesn’t. After a mission is over, they *insert romantic ballad from kdramas* have some cute talks at night while Natsu wanders the nights of the city by himself. There are moments when they just stay silent...not really knowing what to say, and Natsu can’t see that Lucy is repressing a smile, and sometimes it’s like “Uhh, uhm…okay, so… I guess we’ll talk tomorrow". And Natsu would be like, “Oh, s-sure, yeah, if I need anything, uh, I’ll call you”. Lucy: "Don’t bother me too much, it’s really annoying having to listen to your whiny voice 24 hours at day. I'm done.” Natsu would snorts, and then she ends the call with a smile sjhsfkhdjghsddgja.

•Natsu smokes sometimes, but he's not a chain smoker. He just smoke to calm his nerves or if he's stressing the fvck out. So whenever Lucy see him through the camera or hear him inhaling the cancer stick, she will raise hell. She will constantly reminds him not to smoke nor litter. And guess what? He will listen, grumbling something under his breath as he crashes the stick in his fist before flicking it right to the trash can. He has this whole pack inside his drawer, and when Lucy got tired of scolding him, she said she hates the smells of it and hates people smoking it. He throws it all away in a heartbeat. Literally, emptying his drawer and throwing away all of his lighter.

•Natsu always tells her that one day he will take her out for dinner or for stargazing because she had mentioned before that she loves staring at the sky covered with twinkling star, and Natsu know some spot perfect for that. Lucy makes fun of him, but at the same time she feels a little bad because for some weird reason, the policy of their org doesn’t allow the field-agent and their support to meet personally? Who knows, but that increases their frustration when they are starting to like each other. Natsu has never seen her, so he literally ends up falling in love with her voice only. Sometimes, he spends time talking to her about how he thinks she looks.

"Brunette?"

"Nu-uh."

“Ginger?”

“Nope.”

“Uh, are you tall?”

“Jeez, are you really expecting me to be a super tall ginger or brunette porn star?”

“What? I wasn’t—!”

“I'm super short, you would probably have to look at the floor to see my face.”

•And he makes fun of her and her height, which ends up of him eating her series of curses and screeches before she cuts the connection.

•One day, he asks her if she has big boobs, big butt and wide hips. Lucy dies in embarrasment and ends the call.

•The fact that they’re constantly talking through an earbud DOESN’T GIVE YOU AN AMAZING NSFW THOUGHTS????👀👀👀👀👀🔥🔥🔥🔥 INTENSE AND MIND FVCKING ORGASMIC PHONESEX!!!!

•Talking about nsfw, imagine how intense their first encounter would be, after talking through a little device for years without being in front of each other…They would probably stay up all night, eating each other out, fighting for dominance, and fvcking each others' brains out. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) idc what anyone says but Mashima's artwork definitely confirmed that they were both sub and dom. You know, that chain thingy.

•Also it’s super bad for Natsu because sometimes Lucy gets into trouble with the organization (Lol, let's reverse the role. She’s a rebel here—Actually, no, they're both rebels. Idc), and they sanction her for days, even weeks, and she’s not allowed to speak to him or any of her co-workers friends out of work, so Natsu feels super worried all the time because she doesn’t get the chance to warn him first. He was given a temporary support, and he hates every minute of someone giving him instructions instead of Lucy. She just disappears and their organization is very dangerous (they’re spies, so they get into trouble with other people quite often) so he’s always scared that something bad might had happened to her. She then returns telling him that she’s fine, that she just got sanctioned for answering back or something. He then gets super mad at her, and she would give her rebuttal, "You're no better than me, idiot! Don't tell me you've already forgotten about the last month issue? YOU GOT SANCTIONED AS WELL! AND WORSE PUNISHED BY HER!!! BY ERZA!!!" And he would be like, "Oh, yeah? Then let me tell you something." And then they stays up late all night bickering and annoying each other. But once they're done and finally cuts the connection, there's a smile on their faces as Lucy laid her head on her pillow, while Natsu blows out a thick icy smoke from the cold as he rest his arms against the bridge railings, and looks up at the dark sky.

•Natsu once picks up a strange blue cat while still in the middle of the mission. Literally holding the poor blue cat close to his chest as he bangs his assailants' head against the table and wall. And he can hear Lucy's little cheer through the ear piece. They become fur-parent for this blue cat (we know who it is).

•Lucy also gets a bit salty when he’s on a mission and he has to flirt with a girl to get information, or when the girl starts flirting with him. Natsu doesn’t know how to flirt, so he’s always asking her to tell him things to say to the girls. As a little revenge, Lucy says “Tell her that her hair smells like spicy chicken salad". And oh boy, Natsu thinks that the smell of spicy chicken salad is really good, he loves that food, but the girl in front of him takes that as an insult and ends up slapping him. Lucy giggles at the other side, even if that will get her into trouble with the organization for not helping Natsu in the mission.

•I LOVE THIS SO MUCH. Lucy gets in trouble one day like one of their enemies storm her work place and abduct her to get information out of her, and Natsu's next mission is to retrieve her.

•Well, you know, the night before the retrieving-Lucy mission as he prepares, he gets anxious. Literally freaking himself out. And itching to inhale his old addiction (after meeting Lucy and becoming his partner, she became his new addiction, tho). And now that she's gone, he can't help but to light the devil. With only a first puff, he immediately regrets it. With the cigarette stick resting in between his lips, he can hear her in his ears. Angry adorable voice scolding him. He grits his teeth, nearly crushing the stick between his lips, before he chuckles softly and forcibly pulls out the stick out of his mouth and throws it away in the river under the bridge. He looks up at the night sky(his usual spot) and whispers, "I'm sorry, I littered again. Please, come back home. It's getting lonely here."

•Just imagine trying to stay calm as he infiltrate the enemy's base. But he can't help but be brutal to them. Silently yet brutally ending them with a bullet, and not giving them any mercy. He will stare at them dead in the eyes, asking them with only one question in his head, "Where is she?" And probably his eyes will be the last thing they see as he sends them off dead when they can't give him the answer.

•Imagine him first time seeing her personally. (well, he has already seen her in the picture before the mission). After an agonizing two weeks without hearing her voice, he finally hear her calling his name. She's here, in the flesh. Her in a not-so-good situation, tied up, black and blue bruise, blood, but she's putting up a fight. And him going in a rampage, sending someone in hell with his death burning glare. Insert dramatic kdrama OST.

[dragoncxv360]

Aight, makin a new pinned post

I'm sorry for the lack of image IDs on most of my art, I just don't really have the spoons to write them most of the time

Any nsfw posts will now go on a sideblog. Suggestive stuff will still go here (with tags of course)

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Info post on my security sun au

Info post on You're Everything I'm Not

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Fics are listed in the order they’ve been posted (based on the first chapter for multichapter fics). Please look to ao3 for reference to which au each fic belongs to and what order they’re in (they’re listed in chronological order unless specified otherwise but you don’t need to read them in that order or read all the fics in the series)

Blood and Oil

Explicit

Major character death, graphic depictions of violence

Sun x Moon (past, sort of), Moon x Monty (there are other background ships but these are the main ones)

Incomplete, ongoing

This fic deals with or eventually will deal with: death, murder, grief, ptsd, trauma, nightmares, hallucinations, self harm, dissisociation, and toxic relationships and coping habits. It will also deal with sex and sexual themes, including sexual hallucinations. While this fic will deal with complicated feelings around sex and self worth in relation to sex, it will NOT deal with rape/non con. Please use caution when reading this story

Moon is patrolling one night when he comes across an intruder with more violent intentions. Things go downhill fast and just when he thinks he's going to die and this is the end, Sun sacrifices herself and saves Moon. Now left in a world without his lifelong partner and other half, Moon must figure out how to survive alone.

Good Girl

Explicit

No archive warnings apply

Sun x Moon, Sun x Moon x Monty

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 5,081

Sun accidentally calls Moon a good girl during daycare hours and Moon likes it more than he thought he would

Don't Cry, Firefly

Explicit

No archieve warnings apply

Sun x Moon

Complete, 3/3 chapters

Wordcount: 10,904

He felt his face heat up as he realized what was going on. He was about to walk away to give Sun some privacy when he heard them whimper, "M-Moonlight, I need you."

Moon froze. It wasn't the first time he'd walked in on Sun masturbating, but it was the first time he'd ever heard them say his name during it.

Claws and Teeth

Explicit

No archive warnings apply

Sundrop x Moondrop x Eclipse x Nova (oc)

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 4,447

Eclipse couldn't believe how he'd ended up in this position. Everything had started as a normal night with his partners, watching a movie and playing games, and now they were making out with him on the couch and biting him.

Eclipse has a fun night with his partners in a role he doesn't normally take, the sub

Stitch Me Up

Explicit

No Archieve Warnings Apply

Eclipse x Nova (oc)

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 1,565

After being sent to the hospital for a bad panic attack that resulted in self harm, Nova comforts Eclipse with some soft sex

This fic mentions depression, anxiety, and self harm. Please don’t read it if you are sensitive to those topics

Sunflowers and Stardust

Mature

Graphic depictions of violence

Sun x Moon, other relationships to be added

Incomplete, ongoing

The main fic for my security Sun au

Starting a few months after the virus has been fixed, this fic will explore Sun and Moon's future over the next 11 years, and delve into what the prior 10 years were like for them. There will be lots of shenanigans and lots of self discovery as they grow and heal. The glamrocks, Foxy, and DJ will be in the fic but won't be focused on as much as Sun and Moon. There will also be lots of relationships explored in this fic as most of the characters are poly in some way. I will update the relationship tags as needed.

Any smut will be contained to separate fics so that people who don't like that stuff don't have to read it. However, there are discussions of Moon’s sex repulsion and Sun’s lack thereof, meaning there are vague mentions of how Sun feels. There will not be any explicit sex or masturbation scenes in the fic though, merely discussions of boundaries on these sorts of things.

Making Starlings

Explicit

No Archive Warnings Apply

Sundrop x Moondrop x Eclipse x Nova (oc)

Complete, 3 chapters

Wordcount: 9,941

Moondrop plans a fun night of movies and sex with their other partners, Nova and Eclipse, for Sundrop, but gets worked up before the movies even begin.

This fic will deal with the begining of pregnancy in later chapters so be aware of that

Why Am I So Hot?

Explicit

No Archieve Warnings Apply

Sun x Moon x Monty, Sun x Moon

Complete, Chapters 3/3

Wordcount: 6,747

Sun goes into heat and Moon and Monty help him

Chapter 2 is Moon's heat, chapter 3 is Monty's heat

Sometimes Things Start With Love And All We Get Is What's Left Over

Explicit

No Archieve Warnings Apply

Sun x Moon, Sun and Moon and reader (platonic, not romantic or sexual)

Incomplete, ongoing

Fantasy au where Sun and Moon run an odds and ends shop and meet y/n when they come in looking for lavender. Moon is instantly smitten and Sun teases his partner endlessly about it.

Lune and Moon

Explicit

No Archive Warnings Apply

Sun x Moon, Moon x Monty, Moon x Moon

Chapters 2/3

Warning: contains spoilers for the end of Blood and Oil

Completely non canon thing where the two different versions of the security sun au cast meet and both Moons fall for each other

Lune is the Moon from Blood and Oil, she's transitioned and changed her name

Language, Darling

Explicit

No Archive Warnings Apply

Sun x Moon, Sun x Moon x Eclipse

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 3,011

Eclipse gets worked up after Sun and Moon tickle it and they end up fucking it

Wreck and Recovery

Explicit

Graphic Depictions of Violence, Rape/Non-Con

Eclipse x Nova (oc), past Eclipse x Monty

Complete, 2 chapters

Wordcount: 4,633

The first chapter does not deal with rape, the second chapter does. Please heed the tags as the second chapter is violent.

A prequel of sorts to the Organic/Recovery au's current fics, explaining Eclipse's past with Monty and initial relationship with Nova

(Also, I shouldn't really have to say this but no I don't condone this shit, and this is likely the only time I'll write it actually happening instead of it being an attempt and being stopped)

Aftermath

Explicit

Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Eclipse x Nova (oc)

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 2,460

I wanted to write a bit more detail about the aftermath of Wreck and Recovery so I wrote this

CW: mentions of past abuse and mentions of past rape

Set 3 or so months after Wreck and Recovery, Eclipse and Nova are working through the complex emotions they're both feeling and trying to talk to each other about new boundaries

And I'll Love You Softly

Explicit

No Archieve Warnings Apply

Eclipse x Nova (oc) x Sundrop x Moondrop

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 9,148

“Did you wake up like this?” he repeated his question from earlier.

They nodded. “Y-yeah. I was really hot and—ohhh,” they moaned as their clit slid at the perfect angle across his thigh, “a-and really horny,” they finished. “Nngh, just wanna be bred,” they whined, wiggling their hips in circles.

He frowned, brows furrowed in a mix of confusion and concern. “It's almost like you're in—” he cut off, eyes going wide. “Oh…” he said quietly. “I…didn't know that would happen.”

“Th-that what would happen?” they asked, unable to stop the whining building up in their throat at the spike of anxiety and confusion coursing through them.

He bit his lip, blushing and looking away. “Y-you're in heat,” he finally said, cupping their cheek in his hand as he glanced back up at them.

...

Eclipse goes into a pseudo heat

I also have a handful of short stories that I wrote in like 2019 on there

[alj4890]

Hello there, I love your writings specially the way you write liam's character and so I had an ask, whenever I listen to Champange Problems by Taylor Swift, I imagine Riley denying Liam's proposal for marriage. It just gives me that royal feeling you know, I would like to request you to write a short excerpt on this scenario. For her personal reasons, Riley, turning Liam's proposal down. I hope it isn't too much to ask for. Thankyou.

I can see why that song made you think of them. It is filled with TRR angst! 😂 I love it when songs make us not only think of our favorite Choices stories and characters but also help in inspiring fan fics for them. I have started a list of songs that I have saved over the years that remind me of certain pairings/storylines. This one is definitely going under The Royal Romance section 😉

I'm making this first person from Riley's point of view for this particular prompt and having it like she is talking directly to us. Thanks so much again @megha-graphy ❤ hope you enjoy it. This is the perfect prompt to get me back into the swing of writing again now that everything is getting back to normal.

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Rating PG for a word or two.

Song inspiration: Champagne Problems

Masterlist

Champagne Problems

Why??? What was she thinking? How could she do that to Liam?

I'm sure those are the questions revolving in everyone's mind who know what happened. They certainly have been the very ones that I have asked myself every single night since this began, along with a few others.

Why did they have to come into my bar that night? What was it about Liam's actions that prompted Maxwell to ask me of all people to come to Cordonia? How did it get to this point? Why didn't I see it sooner?

Why did I let this happen?

Am I the villain in my own story? I guess in a way I am. I can try to blame others like Constantine. Maybe even Madeleine. But no one made me say it. No one made me cause that expression of pain in Liam's face.

I did this.

Perhaps I could, yes I think I should. Let me start at the beginning. Then maybe you will at least see why I did what I did.

Maybe I will finally understand it myself. I really don't know how it ended like it did.

It's just...*sigh* I...

Forget it. Let's start from the night I met the men who had a hand in changing my life forever.

A year ago...

There are few things that can leave me speechless and on this particular night, I was struck nearly dumb from one such man. I don't think I've ever seen a man more handsome than this one. No wonder he was the one the bachelor party was for.

What girl wouldn't snatch him up as fast as she could? Those blue eyes of his alone are enough to cause heartfelt sighs. Add on his charm, that body of his, that hint of bashfulness. Ugh. No wonder I stayed out all night with him.

Who could refuse him anything when he asked for nothing?

So...lack of sleep, nearly swooning over this real life Prince Charming, and the fact that this seemed like a once in a lifetime opportunity (I mean, is it really once in a lifetime? I doubt this happens even in a thousand years!) I said, yes, to Maxwell's offer.

Not only is it a free trip to Europe, it's a chance for romance and adventure. Who wouldn't agree to something like this?! Right? Surely I'm not the only person who wouldn't even pause to think about it.

If only I had taken a moment to think it through.

To be honest, I didn't really know what I was getting myself into. I didn't think that the end game to all this was a marriage proposal. I mean, I knew that was what was supposed to happen. I guess...I guess I simply refused to acknowledge that it would be me Liam would propose to. Maybe I thought it would all work out.

I mean, if it's meant to be then it will happen, right? All the feelings will be there. The moment will be perfect. There won't be any doubts.

Won't it be like that?

*Sigh*

It should have. I can't believe I did that to...let's get back to the story.

That first night in Cordonia was pure magic. The palace's ballroom was something straight out of all my fairytale fantasies! The people were gorgeous in their costumes. Liam looked like he had stepped out of the movies! That silver mask highlighted those mesmerizing blue eyes of his. Our game of tag after the ball was so freaking cute.

I can still remember how he looked at me as if I was the one who had stepped out of a dream. He was absolutely adorable. I had to kiss him. With the costumes, the setting, the way he touched my cheek...how could I not sink fully into this romantic atmosphere?

Then his worry that he would hurt me in the end. Liam hurt me? *Bitter laugh* If only that had been the case.

If only my heart was the one broken.

After that night, things kinda turned into a competition. It was always one, but I guess I focused on that aspect of it instead of really looking at what the prize was.

I should have. I should have realized that I wasn't taking part in some stupid game. I was playing with people's emotions. I was going to affect a country! I was going to hurt so many.

So many.

Liam.

Drake.

Maxwell.

Hana.

Olivia.

Tariq.

Madeleine.

Bertrand.

Maybe even Regina.

I can't believe I ended up the villain.

*clears throat*

Anyway, while fighting to win top spot in all those ridiculous contests, I got to know Liam, Drake, Maxwell, and Hana. They were all so, I guess lost is the word I'm looking for. It's like none of them have ever had a normal life. I was their chance to experience freedom. Sorta. I mean, can one really be free in this type of environment?

Liam and I would sometimes sneak off alone. I never could resist kissing him in these moments. The way he held me in his arms. *sigh*. He made it so easy to fall in love.

Then Drake and I started to do the same. Just the two of us. I started to see why this commoner was so disillusioned with the life he was living. His troubles touched something in my heart.

I should have just walked away. Told him I was there for Liam only. But no. I was so sure I could handle all this. All these unexpected feelings.

Why did I let him kiss me after the mess with Tariq? Why did I chase him down at the Beaumont's to tell him I had feelings for both him and Liam? That right there should have been a huge red flag!

I'm such an idiot.

And Hana! She'd never had a friend before. She'd never had someone say how great she was. She didn't know how to handle her feelings.

Why didn't I see they went further than mere friendship?

So, as you know from all the news articles that came out, I was caught nearly naked in the arms of Tariq. Liam chose Madeleine the night of his Coronation. And I was hauled off to the airport. I guess I was banished.

Things would have been made right if I had just gotten on that damn plane.

But no. I was talked into returning by the Beaumont Brothers. I was then given the chance to be Liam's love in secret. He made it sound exciting and romantic.

Am I a masochist? Why would I go back for months of insults? Months of trying to win back a prince turned king? Why would I then develop feelings for yet another one of my friends?

How screwed up am I?

Poor Maxwell. Forced to have me as his doll to dress up for every event. I shouldn't have sneaked into his tent that night in Paris. He might have then continued to think of me as nothing more than a friend.

But I needed him and his never ending optimism and support. Nothing was harder than trying to prove I belonged with this group of nobles. I was so tired of my messed up reputation.

Maybe I deserved the scandal. Didn't I walk the fine line of a scandalous woman with men other than Tariq?

Yeah. I think, yeah, I did.

Did I still want Liam? Was I only doing this as a way to prove that not only could I get him but that I could restore my name? My reputation? Rub it in their faces that I, a simple American waitress, was worthy to be queen?

Queen. How did I remain blind to the fact that I was nowhere near capable enough to be queen of a nation? I don't know the first thing about Cordonia's government. I hardly make sense when discussing America's! I slept through my classes in school that taught all that.

And yet, I dared to think I was the right person for Liam. For Cordonia.

No one deserves someone like me, I'm a phony. A mere villain in too expensive designer dresses.

*head drops in hands*

You know what happened next. I kept all these people around me, making them think I was the best. Making them fall even harder for me. I even had Olivia, someone who was in love with Liam, believing I was what he deserved!

*tears begin to fall.*

What you don't know is that Liam told his father to make it right because he...he....

That last night in New York.

I know you know about Liam ending his engagement to Madeleine. I'm sure you know why he did it. You saw Tariq taking the blame for everything that happened, making me innocent once more in the eyes of the world. What you don't know is that Constantine orchestrated it all.

He knew I wasn't good enough for Liam. He knew I was the last person on earth who should be given power over people's lives.

*sobs*

Loved me. Would have chosen me from the very beginning.

And that last night in New York with Lady Liberty as our only witness, he proposed.

To me.

And I...

I...

Said.

*deep breath*

No.

Why, you might ask. Why would I refuse a man, one of the best men I know? Why would I deliberately break his heart? Why didn't I tell him sooner that I didn't feel the same for him? Why did I let him propose?

I don't know. I kept thinking when it happens I'll know who I love. I really thought I loved him. I mean, I do. Who wouldn't love Liam? But to return a love like his, one of such complete adoration. Devotion. A love with one's entire heart laid before you.

I didn't have that. I had feelings for him. Drake. Maxwell. Feelings I shouldn't have if I was meant to marry and spend my life with him.

And I mean, come on. Do I look like queen material? At any point in my story did I look like I deserved any of what I was given, much less the chance to rule a nation?

Nope. Not one bit.

I was selfish. I was self-absorbed. I only thought of the fun parts. The competition. Me winning. Me taking Liam from Madeleine. Me showing everyone I was better than what I actually was.

Me. Me. Me.

I really am the villain of my own story.

*wipes tears*

So, you're probably wondering what happened next. I ended up saying goodbye to everyone. I couldn't be with any of them, not after the realization that my heart was too stupid to choose between them.

Liam, too good for this world Liam, offered me a chance to have a home in Cordonia as a freaking duchess! Who does that? Can you even begin to imagine the type of love this man must have after I refused to marry him??? I can't. I know I don't have that within me. I wouldn't give my ex anything much less a home and better life.

I at least had the decency to say no to that too.

Liam left. They all did. I didn't stay in New York. I was afraid that I might see them again if they returned for U.N. visits. I erased all their numbers then changed mine before I left town.

No need to remind them of sadness. Broken hearts.

How awful I ended up treating them.

I moved to Reno. I waitress at one of the smaller casinos. There's no chance a king and nobles will come here. They'd go to Las Vegas before thinking of coming to Reno. I have a pretty decent apartment. I've made a couple of friends. Even been out on some dates. Nothing too serious, which is good.

I still keep up with Cordonian news. Liam recently announced his engagement to a noble from a nearby country. The way they look in photographs let's me know it is a love match. They each have the biggest smiles on their faces when they look at one another.

Hana has even been seen on the arm of a handsome noble that I remember meeting once or twice. She too seems to have given him her heart.

Maxwell is now a writer. His latest book is being turned into a movie. I was a little scared when I heard he was back in America, but he is spending his time in Hollywood. He's got a ton of actresses and models wanting his attention.

I don't know anything about how Drake is. I usually see him in the background of photos. Hopefully he's happy. Hopefully he found someone else to give his heart to.

Madeleine has been spending most of her time in the U.K., at her father's duchy. I guess she's okay.

Olivia is another one I don't hear much about. I hope Liam's new engagement doesn't hurt her more than the other did.

Tariq was granted a pardon of sorts from Liam. Maybe he can go home soon and live the life he once had.

Bertrand ended up marrying Drake's sister. They seem to be doing well if the few pictures and articles I've read are anything to go by.

Regina has moved on now that Constantine is dead. She is probably helping plan Liam's wedding to his new love.

They've all gone on without me. My part in their lives was brief and I pray that it didn't do any lasting damage. I never wanted to hurt them. Never planned it.

But I never stopped it from happening either.

*sigh*

I guess that's it. I think I did the right thing by walking away from everyone and everything that came from my brief time in Cordonia.

Didn't I?

[ssadreamer]