#grief is disgusting

[jamminvroomvroom]

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[dirtytransmasc]

atwow hot take:

if jake had said his "son for a son" shit out loud and spider had heard him, he would have been so beyond pissed, he would be seeing red.

spider loved his little siblings so much, neteyam included, even after they grew apart. he loved them like they were his own blood and protected them like they were too (we see a lot more of them together in the comics, where spider is the big brother without a doubt). neteyam's death most certainly rocked him hard, even if he hasn't really been able to show it (how could he? he's already going through all the shit with his dad and the RDA and their nonsense, he can't grieve around neytiri, he's just so tired after it all. he doesn't have the room or the energy to grieve yet)

so if jake had the audacity to say that to/around spider not even a few hours after he watched his little brother get shot after coming to save him, after he stared at the bullet hole in his back, after he watched him take his last breaths, after he watched the light leave his eyes, after he watched his little brother die for him; if he said that while his little brother's body lay in a pool of his own blood not even ten feet away, not even cold yet, blood still clinging to his chest, the scent of it still filling the air: he would have lost his shit.

because the disrespect for his brother is wild.

jake was an active player in spider's neglect and abuse for the last 16 years, he let it happen, he helped it happen. he tried to send spider with the humans, tried to take him away from his siblings, from the forests, from eywa to live with his foster family that didn't love him (not to mention Nash was an asswipe of epic proportions) and the RDA of all people. he had referred to spider as a stray animal since he was little. he was the reason spiders life was hell.

and after all that, years and years of putting him in shit positions and allowing him to suffer the fate of being forever unloved and uncared for (by an adult authority figure, cause I love the kids, but they don't make up for the gap left by a parent), this is what it took for jake to care about him? his little brother had to die in front of him first? he had to be traded out to fill the space of a corpse, to fill in the gap left by his little brother's death?

in canon, spider was in deep in shock with nothing to break him from it, he wasn't in the place to really think about any of it, and I'm sure we're gonna see this anger in the coming movies, but if jake had said it out loud, that would have been enough to snap spider right out of it, and he would have given jake a piece of his mind, I just know it.

[stood-onthecliffside]

i think platonic love is such a sick and rotten work. i would do it everyday for you (@iknowitwontwork)

[decolonize-the-left]

There are true crime tik toks about her. And even one of ppl trying to visit her apartment. The crime scene.

Sometimes idk what this blog is for. I can't reach everyone and sometimes it feels like none of us will ever be human enough for settlers to treat us as human. I'm so tired of begging for the bare minimum and being told it's too much while bodies that look just like mine pile up.

[elliesbelle]

NOW I HEAR YOUR VOICE EVERYTIME THAT I THINK I’M NOT ENOUGH

[clarabow-mp3]

well that's just not true at all is it.

[xeilon]

My hot take(?) of this update's going to be that Albrechts laments of how he doesn't deserve Loid are completely justified because he actually really doesn't, but at the same time this is (thank god) not about what he deserves but what Loid is willing to give, and we already know that that is more than likely everything, so shut up grandpa and if you're so bothered by you being unworthy than try to change That.

[martyrbat]

wrote a long thing about people not talking about rose's actions being spurred on originally by grief and how her grief was used to manipulate her until she turnt it to anger—the equivalent of a bandaid over a gaping wound, surviving but not living. but then realized. lol. who cares. (i do i care sooo much but. i am so shy. 👍)

[theladystrikesagain]

you gotta stop reading these works of emotional terrorism disguised as books man. your heart-rending sobs of anguish are scaring the hoes :(

[bizlybebo]

ghostknife making me homophobic again

[meyus-blvd]

It’s almost like the mind has an empty stomach and a taste for brutal truth. No, it wasn’t hunger that drove me mad, but hatred: lives in my heart, creating darkness out of nothingness so only death could attest for it.

It’s almost like my mind telling me I shouldn’t have been born and it’s right. Even God regrets their creation.

I once saw a poem looks like me, miserable and hideous. Mother said I never been more wrong, so her fingers touched to a pen and started writing. Begging to paper to make me feel wrong. But mother I know I always been wrong. Look at me, just a fool.

Tomorrow is a reflection of yesterday. Today’s thinking was a sob. And talking will soon vanish. My mind doesn’t let hope come inside. My mind craves violence, filled with disgust.

Only thing I’ll ever know is torment and grief. My life is full of sorrow. Once I felt regret, wished I never made my mother sad. But I was born as a sinner, will die as a sinner.

~Meyus

[stood-onthecliffside]

hits different x bigger than the whole sky

[asthevermincrawls]

the thing is. you can't let anger overtake your heart. it will turn you bitter and helpless, chewing your own tongue till it bleeds while nothing gets done. you have to let your love for the indigenous peoples of turtle island, of aotearoa, of australia, of palestine, to guide you to action, to ignite your heart in hope. justice is possible. many hands make the burden light

[antihibikase-archive]

We as non-Palestinians don't have the right to be hopeless. We don't have the right to decide there's nothing we can do. We can't afford to feel hopeless, because the moment we do, we shut ourselves out.

Keep sharing posts, keep uplifting their voices. It's not about what we can't do, it's about what we can do, and that's making sure no one forgets.

[seavoice]

read every one of arundhati roy's essays, but especially read this one every single time the supreme bastard opens his fucking mouth.