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aeliem · 1 month

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ink is not doing well (click for better quality)

so this is a vent? kinda? i mean i did start drawing this when i felt like shit but it turned into its own thing at the end so idk

loosely inspired by this dtiys

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#my art #utmv #ink sans #ink #underverse #rainbow #blood #cw blood #rainbow blood #vent #some context #school has been beating me up with stress for the past few months #and the moment i started to finally relax i got sick #had to stay in bed for a few days #and drained my energy for the next two weeks #thankfully its starting to go away #was a real pain in the ass though #also drawing the pattern on ink's bones was really relaxing for some reason

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irhabiya · 3 months

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literally howwwww do u cope with knowing your parents are getting older :'))))

#it's killing me it hit me a few days ago that i remind them to take their meds and schedule their appointments and make sure they go to bed #on time #the last one. god. GOD #my dad has trouble sleeping and yesterday i had to remind him not to stay up late and made sure he took his medications before bed #then i went back to my room to study and like 15 minutes pass and i heard something in the living room #and he was sitting there and he smiled apologetically at me. i used to do that😭😭😭 god i used to sneak out of bed too #i haven't stopped thinking about it since yesterday im gonna fucking cry if i keep thinking about it #enoughdhdhdj

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starbuck · 5 months

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i am literally so happy

#just feeling great #i stayed home tonight and that was a TOP NOTCH decision #i have not had an evening fully OFF since Sunday #so i needed this #got a LOT of shit done #there’s still more to do - but i’m on a great track #AND had lots of time to read and work on Duolingo #i’m about halfway through the book now!#i could be going faster but i want to savor it #i want to stay with it as long as possible #something something if you just keep quiet it’ll stay like this forever i feel certain of it now #NOW i’m gonna refill my water glass and check my laundry and brush my teeth and get in BED #maybe write a few more lines of my fic before i go to sleep #a good day. a real good day

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imwritesometimes · 5 months

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wouldn't it be funny if I could write again lollollol........

#got a very sweet comment on a fic today and I was like oh my god. oh my goddddddd. ppl *still* like my stuff.#ppl still like my silly little stupid little stuff that I had stupid silly fin working on & it's dumb and silly but I shared it!#and ppl like it!#and I'm like not pushing myself anymore. like before I was kinda trying to force shit to happen #like sitting in bed with an open notebook/laptop like CREATE BITCH!#and I'm not doing that anymore lol and being on my meds has really made me feel SO much better #but also like I just don't.... have any ideas anymore. can't rotate blorbo like a rotisserie chicken anymore #I lay down to go to sleep now and because my body is not operating under severe extreme toxic anxiety levels anymore #I just fckn fall asleep. like I'm OUT. good night. sleepin. snoozin. zonked. 7+ hours.#no more blorbo thoughts at the end of the day I'm TIRED and my brain FINALLY shuts off #I hope one day I'll write again. I had so much fun with it. I have had a couple Thoughts #since I have been on my meds #but they're nothing more than a few quick sentences scrawled in a notebook.#it's like I'm doing so much other stuff and having fun in other ways and SLEEPING FINLALLY SWEET GOD ALMIGHTY #there's just like zero processing left for original blorbo ideas #this doesn't make sense and I bet you were all relieved cause I haven't ranted in tags in like months but hahaha #🤡 I STAY HONKIN'!!!! 🤡#(I'm actually really in a really good place mentally rn I promise like the best I've felt in years I'm just ahhh!! tonight lol)#erin explains it all

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vixenicks · 1 month

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status of the now. i have not slept its 5am

#i am so tired but theres so much i need to do and i wont get it done if i sleep #because like ive been putting off showering and cleaning for multiple days now because i keep blacking out #and then shocker! person with chronic pain and probable heart issues is too tired to do anything but doomscroll in bed eat and then pass out #i wish i was like seven again so i could get rewarded for very menial tasks #give me a small dollar tree knick knack for brushing my teeth #i did not get knick knacks for chores at age seven but hypothetically #not a depressive episode but ive had zero motivation for anything lately #and i think its just because of my poor self care as of the past few weeks #its so hard to stay. in a routine though when you need to sit on the floor because you wiped down the counters #showering is such an ordeal i always narrowly avoid passing out #i need a shower chair probably but my parents would be pissy so sigh #also i dont own one #told alfie this already but i should invest in a walker #theres dust building in my room again too because i dont have the energy to stand on a chair and clean it #that and the last time i stood on a chair and blacked out and fell off #love being disabled slash ess #skyler posting #sorry for the rant this is my diary you understand

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satiricaily · 10 months

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crazy thing abt life is u can have bad day on top of bad day for two weeks nonstop but at the end ur still gonna be writing that exam and attend those driving lessons and permit exam and prepare for that end of year finals and whatever the fuck else bullshit u need to do so like whatever. the bigger picture will never give a shit anyways i just literally need to go through it no other option

#like idk idk ive been literally been in such a shit fucking week and just when i thought today wont be as bad #ANOTHER fucking thing happens that's just utterly devastating and i was SO exhausted i just stayed silent and moved on #ive cried enough already during the past 3 days i was stuck in bed too depressed to do anything else #and the worst part is the world moves on no matter fucking what #i can do shit on my exam in a few days and i cant even tell my lecturers it was bc i had a really god awful week #i just need to keep moving and moving and i do not know when i will be able to relax but it's definitely not soon #personal

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ppulverse · 3 months

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patrick and teresa are so pathetically in love atp homegirl really wanted him to protest against the idea of her moving to dc with marcus and felt lowkey disappointed that he actually supported the idea 💀 but it was so painfully obvious that he wasn't comfortable with that but he didn't wanna interfere with her decision bc although he doesn't want her to be away from him he just wants her to be happy and he knows marcus is treating her right and he's probably thinking "oh he's so much better for her than i could ever be" and 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 fuck this show i haven't cared this much about a ship in YEARS

#calli watches the mentalist #it's been a while #stopped watching it a few months ago but then my therapist asked me if i had finished it #and when i said no she encouraged me to do so bc it'd be good to have a moment to relax #so she suggested watching it before bed #bc allegedly watching an episode of something before bed could help me sleep better bc i'd be more relaxed #i don't think she was counting on the heatwave making me sleep all day and consequentially stay up all night though #my blood pressure goes 📉📉📉📉📉 when it's too hot and i end up going 😴😴😴😴#anyway i'm rambling. guess i'm sleepy now #but i'm staying up until 12 pm i can't miss soobin's cover #🌙.txt

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steampoweredskeleton · 6 months

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#delete later #god i wish i was neurotypical #found out my flatmate is going to be away for a few days after they left and bc id had no warning my anxiety spiked so hard #that i had such a wave of nausea i had to lie down #idk why that fucking happened. ridiculous. irs not like it really affects that much. just the thing of my home being changed in any way #without warning freaks me the fuck out. couldnt do any work til id laid under my weighted blanket at lunch #and like obvs this is an entirely me thing. i dont expect my flatmates to tell me every detail of what they're doing #not sure how to keep myself from freaking over it though. will think on it #but yeah. if i was neurotypical id be fine. i also want to play ky video games after work but im akways so exhausted that all i can do #is lie in bed under my weighted blanket. it is so frustrating. im so tired. not helped that pain is fucking me up in new ways #so im also upset aboit that. and that christmas is approaching abd that changes the routine completely #and is always overwhelming #but this year im staying home so i will be able to keep it quiet and low key and it'll be just me so i dont have to think about #masking in any way which is kind of nice as even the vibe of Christmas takes a lot oit of me #i enjoy the thought of it and always hate the day. same as my birthday. fun in theory. incredibly stressful actually #idk whether it's work stressing me oit long term but right now any change to what im expecting from my routine is making me #so so so frustrated and upset #i had to go get meds after work on tiesday and became so upset by it that i was awake until 1am and was super nauseous #not enjoying that as a primary symptom of anxiety rn. i find eating hard enough as it is #the hair washing routine has given ne sone stability this week which was very nice abd made me feel calm. abd mt physio routine #the energy it takes to do it is outweighed by the relief i get when ive done that part of my routine and then go to bed #work is hard. working full time is so hard. im coping but not well. defo think i need to try getting regular therapy sessions if only #to help me plan for what i need to do and work through coping strategies bc im really hitting a wall. i need to problem solve all #these things but im so exhausted that i can't. so they just keep piling up

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creative-hanyou-girl · 1 year

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Y'all I so want to participate in InuKag Week but I don't think I even have the energy to pick up a pen let alone draw stuff 😩😭

#i just got back from a week and a half learning how to drive by my brother and let me tell you he took the job VERY SERIOUSLY #which is good but he'd drag me outta bed by 8 or sometimes 6 so we could practice #plus we did a lot of stuff together or had friends of his and family come over to interact with or entertain #I actually had a mothers day drawing I got started on but couldn't finish bc we were so busy.#i still might post it tho so don't worry #and then we drove down to FL where we met up with my mom and aunt and stayed a few days #then we had to rush home because I had work scheduled this weekend #so then we got home and i had barely 45 minutes to get dressed for work & I finished work only for us to go to dinner bc it was my b-day #and then I worked again today and tomorrow will be the first day in forever where I dont need to be anywhere and meet people #oh and I also have summer classes starting on May 30th #I had a lot of fun of course and I enjoy seeing people and like my job but I'm so freaking tired guys and my feet hurt😩#so of I end up not posting any art for InuKag Week ya'll will at least know I'm not dead #i know I usually only post 1 or 2 drawings for the Week anyway but still #inuyasha #kagome higurashi #inukag #the hanyou and his miko #inukag week #inukag week 2023 #story of my life

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lilgynt · 2 months

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birthdays haven’t been too bad the last few years but with picking my dad up from rehab last year i’ve been getting antsy about it again and my work is gonna leave balloons and a note on my desk and i do work that day and i thought i had the saving grace of my brother doing a thing with me the DAY after but due to work things were now doin it on the day and it’s just looming closer and closer 😰

#personal #you have like 5 bad birthdays in a row and suddenly have an actual fear of ur bday #again it didn’t happen for a few years so i was fine but dad thing now is scared again 🙄#anyway i would have said no to the work thing but i wanted to be normal and encourage good will between my coworkers #i mean on my 45 day review perfect notes but my supervisor had to specify leadership when talking about communication bc i DONT be #talking to my coworkers #which totally fine doesn’t effect my work at all but.#idk i didn’t want to be like no when i already don’t talk to people #but did start a convo today!!!#i’m not bad at talking with people or even strangers i’m not even super shy i’m just bad at being a person #anyway so said yes even tho it does make me antsy thinking about #and i hate working on my birthday bc it feels like.#any event on my bday freaks me out or at least used to and does again #like ideal birthday stay home in bed and survive just don’t want to encourage chance or take any risks #i just want to stay still until it’s over and everyone’s okay #but now i’m working and people are gonna say happy birthday and there will be balloons and a note #and my brothers taking me out which yay love him love solo time gonna ask for sushi #but i’m also scared like what if something happens to him?#but it’s silly to live in fear and he’s only here for like a day #and even if my dad came home i also got my first birthday surprise with my friends lying #and saying they needed art supplies and gave me a cake and hannibal stuff and it was so sweet i cried :)))

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pussymasterdooku · 6 months

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just this week the cats have finally learned to snuggle but the only place all three of them like and can collectively fit on is this couch and specifically this couch with the blanket eva made from scrap yarn (that she calls her “crazy caron blanket”) and so every picture i get they are SO cute and the blanket is just. like this

#this couch is also one of our least favorite pieces of furniture to see yet it is. so comfy sometimes #so it’s like. Worst Visuals In Our Home zone #and the three of them say Oh Great Thanks!!!#i think they also learned because my mom stayed with us for a few days last week bc condo sale logistics and we gave her my room #and so a) george was scared shitless and b) bobo had to get locked out once my mom brought in her plants #so lady and bobo both slept on us together in eva’s bed and george was under the bed so they all did a LOT of close proximity resting #and now lady FINALLY can refrain from smacking the others if they sit near her. and because it’s cold out #they’re all a little more interested in snuggling #it’s been a tough couple days i hurt my back in a Bobo Accident™️ on friday and. it sucks!!!!!!!!!#so this has been a really exciting development when i need something to feel positive about LOL #a ten is blogging

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permanentreverie · 8 months

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a moment of joy in days of tired darkness!!!