#hahaha i don't know if you all watch bleach

[reallyhardy]

Loren, have you started watching Scott Pilgrim Takes Off!? I'm on episode 5 rn, interested in your thoughts if you have started watching

YES hello!

i thought it was brilliant! i loved the subversion of expectation (i mean i WOULD deffo have been happy to sit there any just watch The Story I Know yet again, but it was SO exciting when i realised they were doing something different.) i love love LOVED the animation, all the action sequences looked so fantastic, and... i loved the addition of the sparks ✨ i thought it was SO so cute. SPOILERSSSS below:

i thought will forte playing older/even older scott was a fantastic choice (channelling phil tandy miller from the last man on earth for sure)

i also adored the scene with kim and knives bonding through music, and all of knives becoming part of the band... the whole thing with todd and wallace was absolutely nuts...

i thought it was nice expanding on all the exes stories and having ramona go in and make up with (most of) them. the story with roxie was particularly good and had me tearing up! and i was absolutely sobbing by the end of the series haha although i think a lot of it had to do with the nostalgic angle for me and how much i'd loved the movie as a teen hahaha and then having the story come back for a third time in my life in a way that felt kinder and more redemptive was really something.

at first i was sad they didn't get into things like steven being gay but then i realised... ofc with it ending in a similar place 'let's try this' but also really it actually ended chronologically not long after the original story starts... it had me realise oh actually there's still so much possiblity for these characters and their lives. they could still have a lot of those adventures and discoveries that happen in the later comics even if we don't see them, it ends on the hopeful note that lets you know they're all going to try, even in the face of knowing that it Could All Go Wrong as shown by older scott & ramona's story, that there is always hope and they may as well give it a shot. BUT i also thought that part with Ultimate Ramona saying "i'm probably going to struggle with this later, so let me tell you this now, i love you" IDKKK i know to that-timeline scott that's early af but to ultimate ramona it's a real present thing since she's got all of that knowledge and history inside her. ANYWAY MADE ME EMOTIONAL also loved the visual reference to the kiss from the end of ponyo :')

.............ramona RE-BLEACHING and dyeing her hair THAT much was absolutely insane though 🤣 i've seen ppl say 'WITH A DEVELOPER BASE!?' too although I PERSONALLY believe she was maybe. mixing with conditioner. that's the only thing i could think of that would make it even remotely acceptable to bleach it that much (but also its a cartoon so ofc not realistic haha)

also i THOROUGHLY enjoyed the nicholas angel & danny butterman cameos 🤣 i was like wait why are these two security guards english.....? oh wait. oh okay. i see.

[gozine-translate]

Terminally-ill Genius Dark Knight - 145

145 - Moonlight Sword [1]

"Newcomer!"

Without realizing it, I shouted, but all I could do was watch as the brazen newcomer, who had taken the hit meant for me, was trapped in the water prison.

His bleached white hair, his merciful pupils, inside unknown magic, no, inside alchemy were confined and dying

Yet, despite that. his unwavering arrogant gaze as if he doesn't feel any pain, it can be said it was similar to his father's

Now the situation was dire.

Even if he can manage mana to the level of an inhuman realm, can he endure it?

He could only last at most ten minutes

If I don't deal with Jagan within that time, newcomer will die

My eyes involuntarily grow heavy,

An indescribable emotion starts to bind me

Why is that? What is the origin of this emotion I'm feeling now?

I can't quite grasp it, but at least I know this feeling can be expressed as abnormal. 

At least to me, this unfamiliar sensation is wrapping around my body, making me tremble with anger.

"Jagan"

[It was an attack meant for you... too bad]

Jagan spoke as if disappointed while licking his own lips

I take a breath and clear my head.

No, that’s what I tried to do.

But this bastard quickly figured out that it's not that simple

Jagan smirked at me with a sly grin and continued

[Bitch... you’re afraid that piece of trash might die, aren’t you? Isn’t that right? Hahaha! This is why humans are weak. Why protect someone else instead of yourself? I just don’t get it. It’s ridiculous]

A demon like Jagan who is one of the 72 demons, can easily read the emotions of his opponent.

And right now, I’m several times more shaken than usual. Even if it's not what I wanted, I have to endure it somehow.

If not, I won’t be able to get out of this situation.

Right

Just like when newcomer dealt with Paimon in the past.

I have to calm down and focus, or I won’t be able to do anything.

"Lunatic never betrays anyone, demon. Even if it is just a newcomer"

[Foolish]

Jagan grins and fires a stream of water at me.

Shwaah!

With the power of the second form [Full Moon], I easily block his attack with my enhanced "Cold Moon"

'The creation of that water prison has lessened his destructive power'

I gathered that from just one exchange.

But something still feels off.

Is it just my imagination?

'There's no time.'

Clenching my teeth, I grip my sword tightly.

'Right now, the priority is to kill that bastard.'

With both feet planted on the ground, I leap forward.

Now exactly one minute has passed

The scenery around me, bathed in pale moonlight, scatters the golden light reflected off my hair.

Creating a strange afterimage, which is soon swallowed by the dark moon and disappears.

Shwaah! Shwaah! Shwaah!

Streams of water shoot at me in rapid succession, with a chimera occasionally targeting me as well. While dealing with them, I press forward.

Even if he’s been strengthened by alchemy, now that he’s weakened by using that water prison.

He should be about as strong as when we first fought.

I need to finish this quickly and scold that brazen newcomer for disobeying my orders.

As that thought crosses my mind.

I’m already right in front of Jagan.

The blade of "Cold Moon" is poised to strike.

The suppressed words escape my lips.

"Die, Jagan."

[Indeed, you are strong... There was a reason Archduke Paimon died. But do you know this? Successor of the Moonlight Sword, if you strike me down now, that boy will never wake up again.]

"... What?"

My sword wavers for a moment.

His words, I cannot grasp his ulterior motive.

Jagan, as if amused, continued.

[That water prison is the culmination of my life's work in alchemy. Even if I die, it won’t break. Only from the inside can the prison-like barrier be broken.]

"If what you say is true"

[Indeed! To save that brat, you have only two choices: either I personally lift the alchemy or he breaks the water prison from the inside and escapes.]

But is that even possible?

Jagan laughs heartily while saying that. flashing a sly grin, as I quickly put some distance between us.

If I kill him now, does that mean newcomer will die too?

My head goes completely blank and cold. 

Endlessly, over and over again.

The last time I felt something like this was when I witnessed my master’s death.

Why am I so shaken right now?

In this casino in Avilat, bathed in moonlight that shatters into white fragments. 

All buildings here were destroyed, with a crimson moon hanging overhead.

The only difference from the forest I am familiar with is the enormous water prison formed from blood that’s covering the moon, painting the whole area in red and,

the dirty reality that my comrade is trapped inside.

"You’re a devil."

[Thanks for the compliment.]

Jagan's smile was filled with joy.

But I felt nothing.

The strength left my hand that gripping the sword, my heart pounded like crazy

It was a strange feeling, similar to when I first faced the light of the lunatic moon. I immediately knew the reason.

I can’t kill that bastard.

Because I can’t abandon my comrade.

At that very moment, I heard a telepathic message go through my mind.

[Captain, are you still okay over there?]

It was unmistakably the voice of a boy I was familiar with.

Nox von Reinhaver.

He was casually speaking to me from inside the water prison. 

----------------------

Water Prison

As I struggled to stay afloat inside Jagan's ultimate alchemy skill, I looked at Luna who faced the opponent

I could barely open my eyes, and even more, the blood made it hard to see, but there was no other way right now.

With my blurred vision, I made a choice from among many options.

I had to take full responsibility for this decision.

'Choosing to save Luna.'

If I don't prove that this decision was the right one, a bad ending awaits me. Everyone, including myself, will die.

'The second episode.'

When I first went through this, I never thought such a dangerous moment would come. Either way, it was just supposed to be a buildup to the third chapter.

When I was enjoying the game, it was difficult to rate episode 2 more than that. But now, I have to think differently.

I’m dying.

No, I’ve been dying from the beginning.

Every moment, every second. I’ve been dying.

I didn’t want to remember it this way, anyway, it was like that.

'At the moment, there's around 8 minutes remaining'

[Warning! The oxygen level in the player's body is critically low!]

[In 8 minutes, cardiac arrest will occur, and in 9 minutes, the player will die.]

So, they’re giving me one extra minute?

After finishing that insignificant thought, I quickly activated [Telepathy]. Even then, the system was definitely scaring me.

[Warning! Using a skill forcefully can shorten the player's lifespan.]

I know.

[Do you still want to activate the 'Telepathy' skill?]

Yes.

I responded shortly and reached out to Luna. 

Since I had already learned her mana pattern, pinpointing one person was not difficult. After all, isn’t she the leader of Lunatic and my captain?

Even if our alliance was formed out of mutual interests, I trust her. I can only hope she feels the same.

[Captain, are you still okay over there?]

No answer.

I calmly asked again.

[Captain, I’m still alive.]

[Stop using magic right now! If you keep consuming mana, you’ll die even faster! Don’t you understand? If you don't stop..]

Captain shouted. 

Luna's unexpected figure made me hesitate for a moment, but I quickly continued.

[I know that. But I have a way to save everyone, and it’s only possible if you trust me, Captain.]

[Trust you?]

Luna shot a question back to me.

The scene outside, where countless enemies were being slaughtered, the sight of pandemonium occasionally came into view. There really wasn’t much time left.

[Yes. Captain, I’m going to give you two choices. Choose whichever you prefer.]

Choices.

The weight of this word reached Luna.

She’s probably hesitating.

Maybe even trembling with fear.

If I think about her master's episode in the past and the story behind it, the choice she has to make will be cruel once again. 

But she has to do it.

Luna is the only one who can turn this situation around.

[The first choice is to leave me to die and go ahead and cut off Jagan's head. Since you've fought him I'm sure you've realized, but he couldn't exert his power properly in order to keep me trapped. If you take him down quickly..]

[I will hear the second choice]

Luna growled, urging me

She seems pretty angry.

Why, though?

The question crosses my mind like a tide for a moment.

Sure, Luna has a personality of taking good care of her team, no leader like her for those who believe in and follow her

But I’m just a newcomer who joined not too long ago. does she need to go this far for me, who's not more than just a newbie? I don’t understand

I’m sure even she knows that sacrificing me would be the easiest choice. Jagan's dirty, wicked words might have made her hesitate for a moment, but I was convinced she’d cut him down

So, why? 

Why does Luna want to hear the next choice?

The second choice is much harder and more complicated. 

The best outcome would come from the first choice...

Damn it. 

But if she chooses that, I’m crooked.

No matter what, there is no other except to trust Luna's ability now.

[The second choice is simple]

I said, closing my eyes tightly and raising my voice. 

[Teach me your 'Moonlight Sword.']

[..What?]

I knew it would come to this.

If you didn’t want to do it, you should’ve just chosen the first choice. Why make me hope like this...?'

[...Alright. This time too, you must have a plan, right?]

Her response caught me off guard. 

I hesitated for a moment, then reflected on what she said.

Is Luna, one of the three sword emperors, really going to teach me, who's even yet to be a second-year student her sword technique?

A sword technique that her teacher had yet to pass down except to one person,

the [Moonlight Sword]?

[Are you serious?]

[Get into position and get ready. I will explain assuming you already have everything needed]

Luna seemed serious.

If that’s how it’s going to be, then I have no choice either.

A grin naturally spread across my face.

Jagan, this insect bastard, it wouldn't be long before I cut his neck

Of course, that’s assuming I can perfectly master the third super-form of the Moonlight Sword.

[ofpineapplesanddawns]

Always my ineffable husbands! I'll keep coming back asking for sweet, cute, lovely stories of them! 😊

Well. Until you tell me to go away.

Hahaha, I won't tell you to go away.

Hmmm, no prompt, but I can still write something that's sweet, cute, and lovely! Hopefully!

Here's a little thing of them living together in the South Downs.

Warning: minor injury

On with the fic!

--

"In all our years on Earth, have you really never ridden a velocipede before?" Aziraphale asked, watching as Crowley waved a hand over the old, rusted bicycle. It had been in a much worse condition than Anathema's had been when Aziraphale had repaired it, and that poor bicycle should have been put out of its misery eons ago.

They had found this one in a patch of woods near their home and Crowley had loudly proclaimed it as his and that he was going to ride it.

The demon glowered at the angel. "I have actually ridden a bicycle before, angel." He huffed, sarcastically pronouncing the word 'bicycle'. "I just stopped once the car took off. Cars are so much faster than penny farthings."

"Well, yes, but it's been quite a long time since you've ridden one, yes?"

"Eh, isn't there a human saying about how you never forget how to ride one?" Crowley asked as he pushed the newly repaired device to the path outside their home. Aziraphale noted it was no longer a long-since sun bleached blue, but now a shiny red with black accents.

Aziraphale clucked his tongue. "Well, yes, but still... shall I miracle up for you a helmet? Or maybe some pads for your knees and elbows?"

"Don't need 'em." Crowley said as he got himself on the bicycle, wobbling a little as he tried to balance it and himself. "Alright! Let's get ridin'!"

And he was off, down the road of their home. Aziraphale frowned, wringing his hands as he watched Crowley ride, then swiftly swing around and come back, cackling as he did.

"See! Told you I still knew how to-!" And Crowley suddenly went from passing Aziraphale by to being on the dirt road with a shout.

"Oh goodness, Crowley!" Aziraphale rushed over, helping the groaning demon to sit up. "Are you alright?"

"Ngk, just... my pride is hurt." Crowley grumbled, then started to rub his arm. "And this, and my hip. Aaand my inner thigh where the bike landed on it, ow."

"At least you didn't hurt your poor head." Aziraphale said as he helped him stand, then snapped his fingers. The bicycle was upright and rolling back to the house, where it went past the gate and up to the cottage as Aziraphale walked Crowley home.

The device was leaning against the wall under their kitchen window when they walked up the path to the door and Aziraphale gave it a nod. "Let's get you all patched up, dear, and then maybe try it again?"

"Sure." Crowley said, pouting.

"And maybe this time you'll take my suggestion of protection to heart?"

"Uhg."

Aziraphale smiled, already knowing a helmet and pads were sitting in the living room, waiting for Crowley to put them on.

--

[purplesurveys]

1873

[SHOWERS]

When taking a shower, does your hair become straight or is it still somewhat curly (if your hair is curly)? It becomes straight, then wavier as it dries, then it either remains wavy or very frizzy, depending on the weather.

What kind of shower/bath would you have if you could have any shower/bath in the world? Idk if they have an official name, but those rain-type kind of shower heads. They seem very comfortable; the luxury feel of it is a bonus.

Do you use expensive or cheap shampoos, and does it matter either way? Both of mine are on the relatively more expensive side since my hair requires more maintenance (it's dyed purple, and generally, has undergone bleaching more times than I can count lol). I've tried cheaper products before and it's always led to my hair being excessively dry and losing its color so much more quickly.

What kind of shower head do you have? Just your standard handheld one.

Do you ever burn your skin while taking a shower? Not to that extent, but it's hurt before.

[TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS]

Have you ever been in a relationship (romantic or not) that was considered toxic, and who was that person and how were/are they toxic to you? My mom and I are the quintessential toxic relationship; like if there was a book on all you needed to know about toxic relationships, I'd be pretty offended if we weren't called to be on the cover LOL. I don't feel like delving into it. My one and only relationship was also very toxic on both sides.

Do you know anyone who has been in a toxic relationship, and what made that relationship toxic? I know someone who's been cheated on recently. To her credit she stormed out as soon as she heard, but she's also resumed talking to the guy again. They talk everyday, just like the days they were still together – but like she will also be randomly passive-aggressive? like she will make shots at the cheating from time to time. An example is if she walks by this restaurant she could go, "Remember this place? This is where you went on a date with her hahaha" What kind of response from the guy is she even wanting from all the references she's throwing around? Anyway, kinda sad and also kind of an ick.

How you do feel about people going back to their toxic relationships, and can you relate or do you find them dumb for ever considering to go back? It's understandable to see such dynamics. I went through it as well, and for me it was both because 1) I had already invested a lot into the relationship so "what a waste" if it doesn't succeed and might as well try until the very end; and 2) I've grown so used to the relationship and the person that imagining how life would be without them seems impossible and such a really big adjustment to cope with. Eventually you just have to learn to make a brave face and move on.

What kind of toxic relationships do you find more damaging: Romantic, friendship, or family member? Toxicity is damaging, period.

Now, out of these options, which do you find the most damaging: Physical, emotional, or verbal? I never liked the idea of comparing different kinds of abuse/pain.

[Cartoons]

Would you rather watch little kid’s cartoons, older kid’s cartoons, or adult cartoons? Older kid. It satisfies the nostalgia bug + many of the jokes I still laugh at anyway, hahaha.

How about watching regular cartoons or anime? I don't like anime. But what does regular cartoon even mean if not for younger and older kids?

Would you rather watch cartoons on Disney, Nick (Nick Toons/Boomerang doesn’t count), or Cartoon Network? Nickelodeon did the cartoons better; but I preferred Disney for the real-life shows. From Cartoon Network I really only liked Pokemon.

What cartoons/anime do you actually like, if you like any at all? I don't watch any these days.

If you could bring back one cartoon/anime from your childhood, which cartoon/anime would it be? I'm fine, I grew out of them a long time ago haha.

[Jobs]

Do you have a job right now, are you content with your job, and, if you don’t have a job, are you looking, underage, or just don’t care enough to have a job right now? I do. I am quite neutral about it at the moment – I've reached a point where I've mastered most things and can do stuff blindfolded, but I no longer have that fresh-grad-spark-in-my-eyes kind of excitement for it. Which I think is fine and nothing to worry about Work is work. I still have passion and I still feel happiness and fulfillment, but I reserve that now for my personal life; vs the past where I equated work with life.

What is your dream job that you could have at your age right now? The dream job I NEVER even considered having was being a PR director. I just aimed to be a manager and figured I'd be stuck there until I can find another company. Then they promoted me a step higher hahaha. It's been fine, but I hate how intertwined with business development it is.

Have you ever read notalwaysright, and what is the worst story you have read on there; if you haven’t read any story on there, have you seen or heard any stories about awful customers? Never heard of that.

What are a few “dream” jobs you have in general? In-house PR for WWE; museum curator; historian.

What are a few places you would refuse to work at? Anything that would deal very directly with customer service, like a restaurant manager. I'm too nonchalant with people's complaints.

[Cultures]

Out of all the cultures in the world, what culture do you find the most interesting? I find all of them equally interesting :)

If you get rid of one culture in the world, what culture would you rid of? ?

What is your culture like, do you like your culture, and do you even follow your culture at all? Filipinos are non-confrontational and are accepting of whatever and whoever we encounter – that's why we're always described as hospitable (would do *anything* for a visitor) and resilient (cracking jokes and making memes during a chest-level typhoon flood). For a long time we thought it a source of pride that we embrace whatever comes our way; but the sentiment has shifted more so for the younger generation to be more like "Why should we just accept things as they are?" anyway we have a long way to go but at least there've been some starting blocks.

Filipino culture is also very religious, conservative, community- and family-based, and uhhhh idk just a very messy pot of mostly Western influences lmao. No thanks to the Spanish, Americans, and Japanese who took away our identity and killed a lot of us too :D :D

Do you have friends of different cultures? I know a few of Chinese ancestry.

Are there any cultures that are very similar to yours, and how about the most different? Similar would 100% be Southeast Asia. Most different, idk probably Europe? The individualism stuff is definitely different from what I'm used to; as someone who comes from an extremely community-based background it's very fascinating to imagine doing most stuff alone or being away from my family all the time.

[ayamisc]

new addiction

So yes.. I still go "ga ga" over Naruto, BLEACH, Vampire Knight, Ouran High School Host Club, and Full Metal Alchemist… the 5 periodic mangas i read that are still "ongoing"

demo.. [wahahaha… oopsies… i mean.. BUT…]

I have recently discovered.. or rather… ADMITTED and ACCEPTED to myself.. this NEW addiction i have..

ASIAN DRAMAS…….

japanese and taiwanese ones at that..

and to think i HAVEN'T delved into the korean drama world yet.. at the present time…. my most recent explorations on that being the ones 5 years ago..

so….. i began watching around december….. and it was just that. watching..

but then…. it became more often.. i mean.. it is still controllable.. but.. i suppose i'm watching.. in an UNHEALTHY rate.

and so… with watching these dramas.. i found new favorite actors and singers..

and now.. it's a habit of mine to SEARCH youtube every night.. before i sleep [like what i'm doing right now..] of videos of these asian celebrities OUTSIDE of their dramas.. aka… guest shows and variety shows..

and so….. apparently.. yes. I'm a fan.

wow. in the past i could never bring myself to say that so casually.. because let's face it..

you know me. if you ask who my fave actor is.. i probably won't give you an answer..

now.. i can still confidently say i do not have a favorite FAVORITE actor.. but there are now ones i can call… my… "favorite" .. the ones i'm interest to at the moment..

so.. because i HAVE to LET IT OUT… I will name them here in this blog. [wow. this is the first time i've referred to my writing as a blog]

Fahrenheit [Fei Lun Hai]

they're Taiwanese.. consisting of Wu Chun, Calvin Chen, Jiro Wang, and Aaron Yan. I like Aaron Yan [Yan Ya Lun] and Jiro Wang [Wang Dong Cheng] ….yes they're… cute and they appeal to me.. but it's not the "OMG ILOVEU" kind of thing. it's just…. a simple admiration.

Danson Tang [Tang Yu Zhe]

Taiwanese. he is often confused to be a member of Fahrenheit….. but he's actually a solo artist. uhm…. i dunno what to say about him….. i don't go "ga ga" over him.. i just like him.. and i think he's either my number 1 or number 2 taiwanese celebrity… i'm not too sure who i like more: him and aaron yan..hahahaha

Arashi

Japanese. OFFICIALLY my favorite japanese boyband… because…. their songs are AWESOME. it's like.. when you hear it you go…. "wow.. it's a nice feeling" kind of thing. hahaha… so anyway.. a LOT of girls [and i mean A LOT] like MatsuJun of Arashi.. but.. meh.. he's OKAAAAY… hahaha.. i mean, he has appeal all right. like… sex appeal. haha… but.. he's okay.. hahaha As for the leader Ohno Satoshi.. he's a GREAT actor. AWESOME!

KAT-TUN

Japanese honestly, when i first saw their poster i was like "they're all ugly" but….. can't deny they have APPEAL.. and they tend to grow on you so now.. In Kat-Tun I like.. Kamenashi Kazuya and Akanishi Jin yep….. they're funny. hahahaha… but yeah.. they're still ugly though.. but i think they're hot. yes, hot. i DID say that….. uhm… yeah..

NEWS -Japanese. ok.. so maybe NOT the whole of news.. just their leader Yamashita Tomohisa… Yamapi.. for short. He's.. COOL. Again, like kame and jin.. when i first heard about him.. i said "I WILL NEVER LIKE HIM!" because my cousin is CRAAAAAAAAZY for him and it's annoying to hear her talk about him 24/7….. but.. after watching one of his shows…. WHOOOOOO. i like him too. hahahaha….. if kame and jin are HOT.. this one is SIZZLING. hahahaha

Ikuta Toma

Japanese. Sadly, this guy has NOT debuted as a singer yet…. stupid company of theirs.. [same company as the other japanese mentioned above] BUT….. he's a GREAT ACTOR. and… i think he's my favorite japanese actor…. because… i don't go "ga ga" over him like the others… ok so maybe i do….. but in a shallow level… instead.. i am ELATED when i watch him. it's a.. different type of fangirlism.. i suppose you could say.. haha.. so yeah.. toma-kun is awesome.

Eita -Japanese Unlike all the other Japanese guys i mentioned above.. this guy is from a different talent agency and not from Johnny's Entertainment.. uhm.. i' ve only seen ONE of his shows.. and i think he's cute like a child.. haha

Horikita Maki -Japanese

I LOVE HER! she is AWESOME. i've seen TWO of her shows and one movie… and.. yeah ^__^

so there you have it. comment as you please kudasai. WAHAHA

PS. This blog was originally posted on DeviantArt.

[upperranktwo]

Hey, sky 🤗

Thank you for telling me more about why you love gaming so much. I can see now why you are so passionate about it.😁 And I am happy to know that whatever happens you will have something that will distract /cheer you up.

I read more into Doma... He is such an interesting character! I love characters like him. He is complex and there is no reason behind why he is the way that he is. He was born that way. I like that!

The food is my favorite part of Christmas, since I'm too old for presents now. What foods do you usually enjoy for Christmas? And do you have any favorite Christmas movies? Christmas anime/animation? I recommend watching Tokyo' godfathers if you already haven't.

I'm spending Christmas with my family as well. I also would like to visit Japan and South Korea! And I also have a twin sister ! It's nice to know we have that in come🤭 I'm curious whose older? Are you identical? You guys seem like (from what you told me) opposites. Do you have some interests in common with your sister? What's the most annoying question you've been asked relating to being a twin? Mine is: "whose the evil one/naughty one?" Sorry with my twin's questions. It's not often I meet someone who also has a twin.

It was really lovely getting to know you over these past few weeks. I will be posting your gift soon. 🎁

Merry Christmas and a happy new year 🎉

your secret santa

I really love that about Douma as well! But I also feel so sorry for him. It's obvious from his childhood he was groomed into the cult leader position from birth and it's all he really knows :( poor baby! But he is also just a complete prick and I love him for that!!!

I am a vegetarian so I don't have a normal Christmas Dinner with chicken and all that. Tomorrow I am gonna have cheese pizza and mochi. I like eating lots of chocolate at Christmas!!! I havent really watched any Christmas anime that I can think from the top of my head but I tend to watch a lot of British comedies which have Christmas episodes. But the last couple weeks it's been constant Peppa Pig since my nephews love it 😭

Omg I love finding people who are twins!!! We're not identical but people still mistake us for one another! We're different but the same, she is very serious but has her moments where she lets her hair down! Whilst I have always been the more humours one! She is slightly taller than me and has natural red hair which is her defining feature! She enjoys art and learning about different cultures but she also enjoys anime, she likes the Ghibli films, Bleach and KNY!

Omg we get asked that as well hahaha 😭 people think i'm the evil one since I am protective of my siblings (can't help being the eldest one!) Or we get asked all the time who is our parents favourite (they always say they don't have one) or we get asked if we're really twins because i'm not as smart as she is 😭 I try my best tho!

I've enjoyed talking to you as well!!! I'm very excited to see your gift 🥺 i'm sure I will love it!!!

[theorist-influencer-untitled]

6.27.23 Tuesday

1 am

I have windblow trap... I need a massage therapy on Elsie, my legs feel numb and I have pelvic/ priformis/ sciatica pain... Waiting for alms...

7:25 am

Uncle Jun is up already preparing going to Georgia'Z forest ( Still, hate them ).

Still, have windblow trap and aging for nothing, I feel frustrated... I wanna compete but I can't compete ( I mean compete in life to achieve some personal goals and achievement or to buy stuff that I wanted or better life than this flatness ). I wanna appear but I can't exist... I feel fat, ugly and old angels...

I'm thinking of money and my job and I wanna have my xfactor back ( where I can gain positive new friends most specially mature men with sanity and stability to lift me up,even a lil ).

Or still, I wanna leave the hometown.... I wanna cry everyday...

7:45 am

Uncle Jun went to forest and I'm watching "Arnold's" life story ( coz there is no movie in the Philippines where they narrate their lives but me here hahaha but I'm just a human here ) a frustrated human being.....I watched all the massacres of some FilipiNOSE as in every film of massacre and it is weird... It is bad to say that I'm a fanatic of massacre film no! I just want awareness... Every massacre film here in the Philippines are based on real-life story and I always think why and why...

I have no bike and I can't afford to have one these days but I used to have when I was 7 or 8 that I didn't know the meaning of having it... Now, that I know everything, I can't have it....The sad part in me these days...

9:41 am

Accidentally watching ASPN Net 25 ( which I'm doubting some church of christ these days ) but that is my nana's favorite channel these days...

This Dr. John David Commandante is something negative but good thing he is discussing an awakening thing for us about "National Poison Prevention Week". I don't actually watch tagalog not being plastics coz I was raised up by my adoptive parent's but we chose Tagalog if we feel something that there is something on them.

How can you have poison in your home??? Home must be your homebased!

I sense something on some FilipiNOSE and I don't trust Uncle DD in the family when it comes to doing good things... Do they have sanity? Even other members of your family...

Is Uncle Jun sane? Is Cavite people have sanity?

4:32 pm

Just got back from our family errands... But I'm not satisfied and not contented on the way of Uncle DD handling us here or me? I'm thankful but again the money bridging per week is not enough! I mean I can't say that I'm ohkay with these coz I'm not....

They got some deals on other people perhaps, deal on me since 2007? Deal on my adoptive mother... And I can't do kitchen chores without gloves coz my original upbringing was middle-class and I had assistant... That hoping Uncle DD is giving me a care to maintain my original entity... I need lotions and I can't buy bleaching creams for my butt and scrubbing salt for my skin though I'm on the go but my original entity was prettifying or fixing yourself coz that is "self-love"!

I just wanna make a pin-point on Uncle DD perhaps conspiracy plan, that he wanted to be a father figure on Aunt Karen's son meaning they have money and they will reverse my entire entity...

There is no extra for coffee per week, I need a lot of cleaning materials such as rat or mouse paper trap, zonrox, lysol liquid, disinfectant spray... I hate sticking down with cheap point of view! I want some style and art in the house... I need ac, I need modern appliances.. I can't stand being cheap angels! I'm hurting...

7:01 pm

Whew! John left side is somehow done! John is double coated so he needs a constantly brushing his fur...

I still need to buy him his new or actual brush for double coated...

7:10 pm

Uncle Jun suddenly put a padlock on our gate... Strange...

8:53 pm

Also somehow done on the right side of John, it is a matter of timing...

This Uncle Jun is sleeping already...

Me? I still feel frustrated and this life is very province life that I lost all my original entity and I lost friends and I missed having new friends on the uppish and I miss some of my old good friends ( I wonder where are they? )....

I'm praying to have a bf, my favorite now is colored alien bf ( I wanna be amused of his foreign language most specially English ) but I don't hold my future... My point opening myself to a possible colored alien bf not only on the sacrum but on my backbone...

I'm thinking of money and job and a bf who is having maturity and sincerity... Someone who can be my " support system".... Someone who can accept me that I have a son-dog!

Why other women who actually got a child ( human child ) I mean those single mother but still can rock the world of some men or a particular man... They still attract single men... Sometimes, I'm thinking what'a wrong with me? I'm losing my self-esteem... I feel fat,ugly and old... I badly need to remove my " deep smile lines"...

I wanna remove my "deep smile lines"....I want someone sensitive and very sensitive on my woman's vanity ( coz I already feel the personal insecurity on me, deep within ) what do you expect? Will be 42 in a lil while...

[chelleztjs18]

Hello sickly other half of the eyebags 😅 uh oh body aches and head ache combo is just the worst. You probably don't want to do anything today.

So I did a research, you are right, his is a recurve bow and arrow thats collapsible. I guess it looked like what you had so I got confused haha

I have always wanted a German Shepard ever since I was little. I haven't really thought of names to give a puppy. Maybe Donut or Michael. Hahaha how about you, what would you name a dog?

I swore to myself not to dye my hair at all, but then after watching Marvel AOU, I wanted the platinum silver hair the Pietro had. Of course, it couldn't turn out that way because my hair is thick and black, have to do multiple bleaches. My hair is short right now, how about you?

Nice, yep I've heard of those bands before. I've been to one concert so far. I want to change that next year though.

So what do you usually do when you get sick?

- CuriousGeorge

Hello hello.. haha thats my name now, the sickly other half of eyebags? Lol thats funny. I take it, because im pretty sick right now. I took a nap earlier n just woke up like 30 mins ago.

No, i dont wanna do anything, i dont even write.. n im thinking to sleep early tonight if i can 😅 but dont worry, we can still talk until im in bed tonight. 😁

Haha yeah, hawkeye's bow is recurve one but i think the one in the series, they both use the compound one.but im not sure. The guy at the store at first suggest me the recurve bow but my husband's coworker who does archery as well n bow hunting, says that the best one is the compound bow, so we picked the compound bow. Maybe one day if im good enough i will go bow and arrow deer hunting 🤭

Aaw yeah i like german sheppard too. I dont know why i forgot about that breed. Donut is a cute name. But michael it's a pretty human-ish name 😅🤭😁 but good too.

If i can name my dog, i will name them Vodka, Baileys, Martini or if it's not too big dog i will name it Thor 😅

My sister n i have a dog in indonesia, n i named him. His name is Capucinno n we call him Cino for short. 😅

How short is ur hair?mine is down to my shoulder,but didnt pass my shoulder. I used to have long hair for a while but now i always keep it short n burgundy red most of the time. My hair is thin n a little wavy.haha.

Thats cool, platinum silver..my hair doesnt take dye very easily. I tried many dye to finally fine one that give me the color i want but it takes 3-4 hours.

Oh so what concert u gonna watch next year?

When im sick, i try to toughen up myself.lol n do my things like usual unless if it's really bad like today, i take naps n sleep early. N i usually eat something soupy. Thats probably what im gonna have for dinner tonight. What about u?

Next question?

Cheerio!

[eleteo125]

Even More Model Baji

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

Some manga spoilers here

I'm imagining a scenario where a Baji fan came to the pet store trying their luck that maybe he's working on the front that specific day. Then they caught sight of the long hair and they get so excited and started to ramble how much they love Baji and the guy turns around and it's Kazutora 😂😂😂

Chifuyu and Baji definitely had a good laugh at that. Of course being the good best friends they are they told the story to the others and it's become a running joke.

Baji even invites Kazutora to model with him jokingly nah he kinda serious he wants him and Chifuyu be models with him even just for pet related stuff hehe

Every single one of his friends, yes every member in toman will have healthy hair. Doesn't matter if they got a head full of hair or a buzz cut they will have healthy hair.

And the reason for that is because he models for a bunch of hair products that he gets a lot of free stuff from them. He appreciates it but yea it can get too much so he gives the extra ones to his squad.

Hecc they don't even worry about hair care products they know Baji's got their back hahaha. In fact it's gotten to the point where they'd rely on him for hair care products 😂

You know how Mikey always wants his hair different? He always consults Baji for it hahaha. Baji makes sure that Mikey doesn't end up with crusty dead hair cause he changes it so much.

From wanting it long like Baji's, to cutting it short like Shinichiro to wanting it to looks like Izana and many more.

Izana almost wanted to beat Baji for encouraging his brother 😂😂😂

Sometimes Baji gets tired of Mikey and just sends him to his trusted hair dresser...WHICH IS AKKUN LET'S GOOOO!!!!

I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT AKKUN AND BAJI WILL GET ALONG JUST BECAUSE OF THIS COMMON INTEREST.

Takemichi might be Akkun's first client, but Baji is definitely his most frequent client. Takemichi probably used this fact back when they were in toman to convince Baji to let them in the gang.

Akkun wants to start a hair care brand and you know Baji will model for it free of charge.

OMG now I'm just thinking how Baji and Akkun's friendship will be like hahaha.

I feel like whenever they have a get together they would have a little roast session with their bad bleached and dyed hair. Takemichi might be the butt of the joke most of the time.

Ok we know Baji has made a name for himself as a model so fans are definitely a thing. So bodyguards must be a thing too for him. Except most of the time unless it's a public or formal event, his bodyguards are his friends haha. Like they know he can handle himself (I mean come on 1 vs 50 that's insane haha) but these are fans and not rough delinquents out for blood.

So we know Baji and Emma are childhood friends right. Watch her be the most efficient bodyguard of his😂. She knows what these fans want and knows exactly how to shut them down. And also she would be low-key judging their taste because in her mind it'll be like 'Baji, really???😒' in the most loving way hahaha. They behave like siblings you cannot change my mind.

Watch Emma's face contort in disgust when rumors about her and Baji start spreading haha. She would use Yuzuha's help to track down the person who wrote that article and gave them a lesson.

A public picture of her and Draken kissing? Hell yeah. And Baji will be promoting Draken's bike shop😂

So you know how Hakkai used to have long hair in high school? Yea he's also the reason Baji has modelling as a side gig. The company said they needed another model and the first person to come to mind was Baji.

They were about to meet up and talk about it but coincidentally said company scouted him the same day hahaha. Can't resist that long flowy luscious dark locks of his haha.

I like to think that Baji learned to care for his hair because of his mom so he definitely spoils her. Not just in hair products but in everything. Being a model gives you extra spending money and why not spend it to your loved ones. Also in his mind it's his way of saying thanks you for caring for him and as an apology for always making her worry.

Once again Model Baji won't leave my mind. My brain can't stop. I'm not really complaining I love all this fluff haha.

✨Model Baji Brainrot✨

I think the reason why I can't stop thinking of stuff like this is because the last few episodes this season is gonna be...y'know haha

Pssst @manilaruins even more Baji model here haha

[depths-of-your-soul]

Could you do an hc with Aizawa, Keigo, and Bakugou where their s.o gets really loopy/delirious when they're really sleepy/half asleep? Like they ask a simple question: "Hey where's the leftovers?" "We don't have a dog. What are you talking about?" Or something like that🤣

Delirious!S/o when sleepy

Pairs: Katsuki Bakugou x reader, Shouta Aizawa x reader, Keigo Takami x reader

Notes: HAHAHA I can honestly see this happening to some of my friends ksksksk

Katsuki Bakugou

• There are many things Katsuki doesn't tolerate

• In fact, there are only a few things he tolerates at all

• One of them is you

• Every.single.damn.time you do something stupid, he would just judge himself as to why he even thinks you're cute

• It's simply a mystery for both everyone and himself

• The first time he found out about your habit of such things, he was both surprised and annoyed

• To think that you could get any dumber was out of the question for him

• That's why it was such a scene seeing you in that state

• Honestly? It would be more disastrous for you

• Your sleepy state causes you to confess your secrets to him, be it bad or good

• "Katsuuuuuuu~ I lwuv yu~", thinking it was a dream, or "Kaccchhhaaaaaannnn *sobs* I'm sorry for taking your clothessss *sobs sobs* It smelled like you s-so *hiccup* I had to wear it to sleep", thinking he was scolding you for any wrong you have committed

• As you can see, humiliating is the word to describe your actions

• He would honestly just let you continue in your stupid state just for his own entertainment

• He will hug you afterwards though, he appreciates all of the love you showered him with

• Pomeranian boi lives to watch you in such a state

Shouta Aizawa

• Shouta knows the meaning of sleep deprived

• Sleep is such a luxury for him and hence is why he wishes for you to get quality sleep

• At first, he was amused at your actions

• You looked like a walking dead to him

• But then came your sobs and cries

• It hurt his heart so see you crying so much

• So he decided to just make you sleep so that you won't cry anymore

• He will ensure that you sleep right away before you do something you would regret

• His dad side is coming out

• If you even try to resist his orders to sleep, he will zip you up into a sleeping bag and hold you down

• You can't get out of it until you sleep properly >:(

• Besides, you can request for a cuddle session while talking about how unicorns and mutant horses with bleached hair

• "Babe, get some sleep. Your mind is scaring me"

• He says while taking note of whatever you just said, lovingly watching you

Keigo Takami

• He is mischievious and you know it

• He adores seeing you so cute and adorable while sleeping

• Your stupid antics while in that state is the highlight of his weeks

• He would be like,"Dove, where are the snacks?"

• And he would get,"Uhhhhhhhhhh..... My dog ate them"

• "...We don't own a pet"

• When you see a bird on your balcony and talk to it like "Hey babes, hows your metaphor going on?"

• And he'd be there just confused as fuck, "Dove, first of all, that is not me. Secondly, it's metamorphosis."

• He would be telling you how worried he is whenever you turn all sleepy while watching through all of the videos he recorded while you did dumb shit

• Sooner or later, he will make them into a compiled video and just binge that 2 hour long movie of you being a dork

• You can't tell me otherwise

[sweetchup]

A Helping Hand 2: A Check Up

Type: Shalnark x reader

Au?: Savior Au

Word Count: 6,500 (Holy Cannoli!)

Warnings: Hospital, Medicine, Cursing, sexual innuendos, mentions sexual assault, Angry Irish lady and Shalnark being a shark.

Author Note: Ahh I’m so glad I finally got this done. Actually when I woke up the morning after I got half way, I check the polls only to find out Family 2 had totally surpassed Helping Hand 😨 (which was way in the lead the night before). I guess Family 2 is next haha😋. Also I hope @lvndrhwis​ and @meromelodi​ enjoy because you two have been waiting for a part 2 for a while 💕💕💕.

<—(Pt.1) / (Pt.3)—>

“Doctor (l/n), oh there you are. Patient 104 and 122 is in need of a check up today in order to determine if they are allowed to be discharged.”

“Okay. Let’s see.” Your hand quickly grabs the paperwork from the nurse. You skim the paper quickly before giving it back to him, “Yes I’ll get that done sometime after I check the files of patient 66.”

The bright bleach white walls burn your eyes as you finally make your way into the intensive care’s central office. You’ve mentioned countless times to management that they need to get dimmer light bulbs in here, but they just don’t seem to want to listen to you. Stupid higher ups.

But that didn’t exactly matter right now, you could deal with that problem later. Ever so sluggishly, due to lack of caffeine and sleep, you walk over to one of the many metal file cabinets decorating the room. The freezing cold surface of the metal gives you goosebumps as you skim your hand down its surface. After passing two drawers you find the one you were looking for, named “R-W”, and open it up.

“Let’s see… Shalnark Ryuseih’s progress report, where did I put it?” You mutter under your breath, your diligent and quick fingers skimming back and forth between the many files trying to find it. Occasionally you pull a file out, only to put it back when you realize it’s not the one you were looking for. Where in the world is that file? It definitely shouldn’t be hard to find, not that many people have first and last names that either start with R-W. Actually you shouldn’t say that, there are some pretty unusual names out there. Like, Shooter, Slayer, Twinkle, Zi … wow... names can be pretty much anything nowadays.

“Ah!” Finally you had found the file, it had just been tucked into the wrong place. Opening up the yellow thick file paper, the first thing you see is the newest report given from PT and rehab sector. Reading it, you can’t help but allow a small smile to force its way onto your face.

You’ve been incredibly busy lately which has led you to not having much time to stop by on Shalnark. The only times being to make sure he falls asleep and to bring him food and meds since he doesn’t trust anyone else but you with those things. You had truly felt sad not being able to hang out with the smiley dorky man. Though, at the same time, a tiny bit of you on the inside was relieved not spending as much time with a sadistic mass murder.

But, all in all, you were just glad that even in your absence he has been making good progress. Shal had even recently moved to being able to walk around with crutches, a huge step forward for him (pun intended), and being able to messily begin to write the alphabet. You actually should go see him right now to tell him how pleased you were before checking on other patients.

That idea was soon lost though as the central office door was busted open, breaking your train of thought.

“Ah! (Y/n). There you are!”

Looking up from the file, you see Mal, the Front Desk women of the Intensive Care unit, and… a man you don’t recognize?

“Jeremiah, This is Doctor (L/n). (Y/n), this is Jeremiah. He has been transferred here from Abagail Union Hospital, Two cities away.”

The brunette male flashes you a charming smile as Mal introduces him, which you return with a small one of your own. In a welcoming gesture, you stick out your hand and you two share a quick hand shake; giving quick hello’s.

As your hand retracts you couldn’t help but feel…. off? Everything seemed okay but you couldn’t help but feel as if something was off, like as if the room changed somehow. It felt oddly familiar like you should know what it was… right? But, what exactly was off?

“I’m sure you remember this (y/n), but Jeremiah has never been a part of an intensive care unit before so management was hoping you could show him the ropes.”

Ah… That’s what it was, you had forgotten that management dropped another chore for you to do. They must be out for your throat or something.

“Of course!” You give Mal a wave as she leaves the room and Jeremiah in your hands. You quickly turn away from the man and put away Shalnark’s paperwork. Though, you can’t help but don’t want to put the file away, it was as if your hand was physically fighting against you letting it go. You let out a sigh and a small frown. Sorry Shal, I promise I’ll visit you tomorrow. Finally, your hand lets you put the file away after making that promise. But you still can’t help but feel as if you are physically hurt by your action.

You hear an awkward cough behind you and you turn back around.

“Sorry about that. Now let’s get you started right?” You say as enthusiastic as you can muster. You still are low on sleep and Caffeine after all.

“Yes of course, Doctor (l/n).”

“Please, just call me (y/n). It makes me feel old when people refer to me as Doctor.”

Jeremiah lets out a chuckle. “Okay, (y/n). Lead the way then, I’m glad you’re the one showing me the ropes”

Though, even with the cheerful small talk you have with Jeremiah as you two exit the room, you can’t help but hope you haven’t forgotten anything else.

Afterall,.... that strange feeling hasn’t left yet.

————🚨📱🚨————

“So, then…. hahaha….my sister said, ‘Fuck you I’m gonna do whatever I want’.” Suzanne explains to Jez and you as the three of you walk down the long and busy corridor. Small bits of chatter and talk from other people bouncing off the walls through the hallway

The two ladies let out a giggle as you end up almost choking on your drink. “Oh god. I swear everyone should know it’s common knowledge that whenever someone says that, nothing ever turns out well.” You explain letting out a sigh at the end.

“I know right!”

“Yep and that’s exactly what ends up happening next.”

“Oh god What happened?”

“Right after she finished her sentence. She ends up falling off the curve and landing face first into a huge muddy puddle. Like I’m talking huge.”

Jez lets out a gasp while you break out into a huge chuckle. “In her new satin dress?!” Jez says stunned.

“Yep! It was expensive too.”

“Well, it serves her right for— Oh crap.” You cut yourself off as you suddenly remember something. You quickly check your watch and begin to back step your path. It was time to bring Shalnark his food and meds. He would get so pissed if you forgot or was late. “I’m sorry I forgot to do something, I'll be right back.”

You finally turn around, almost bumping into someone as well, and begin to sprint down the corridor towards the lunch room. You can hear Suzanne and Jez let out a laugh.

“Don’t keep us waiting (y/n)! You-know-who is going to be sitting with us for lunch!”

“Yep and it would hurt if you miss out on him. Especially with how close you have gotten to him in the last two weeks.”

“I have not!” You shout back while turning around to glare at them; earning strange looks from doctors, nurses and patients around you as you do so. Their stares and whispers cause your cheeks to flare up in embarrassment and you let out a squeaky apology as you go back to scurrying to the lunch room. All the while you hear Jaz and Suzanne laughing getting louder and louder. Curse those two.

You haven’t gotten that close to Jeremiah. Sure, you’ve been helping him out every day since he joined the team two weeks ago. Along with the fact you practically spent every minute of your work day with him… okay, maybe they were correct. Maybe you and Jeremiah have gotten a little close but you didn’t feel anything for him, right?

You picture Jeremiah in your head. Yep.... just as you thought. Nothing.

Though at the same time…

As you thought about or are with Shalnark. There was this feeling; something ever so strange. It wasn’t in just one place either, it reached from the top of your head to the tips of your toes and fingers. First, it usually starts with your face feeling hot and, if you are able to see yourself, your cheeks are a light red flush shade. Then you can feel those... those butterflies? Yes, butterflies, in your stomach along with an ever so faster heartbeat. On top of that there were also other things that happened depending on the situation. The tingly feeling in your fingers when they accidentally brush his. The ghosting feeling of his hand prints and arms along your body the next day after he held you the night before. And finally, the one that drives you insane, when your eyes just lock onto his lips while he’s going on and on about whatever electronic or game thing he’s been interested in recently and you just feel that desperate need to just lean over and kiss him.

“(Y/n)!”

All of sudden you come out of your thoughts and realize you are standing right in front of Lara, the head worker of the canteen. She’s giving you a weird look and holding her hand up in your face. It seemed like she had been trying to get your attention for quite a bit.

“Are you okay, Lass? Your face is as red as Santa’s big red ass. Ya’ better not be driving any sickness or crazy mutating bullshitting disease into my canteen. Ya’ hear me!?”

“A-aa. I-I’m not sick, don't worry. I was just… Just lost in my thoughts, you know?” You scramble your hands around to help explain. How embarrassing… Shalnark is your patient and you are his doctor. It's part of your job that you keep a professional relationship with him,a hospital isn’t the place to fall in love. Plus what are you thinking having such feelings for a man that has ruined the lives of so many others.

Your explanation about why your face was red didn’t help though as you see Lara, being the cheeky leprechaun looking woman she is, flashing you a mischievous smile.

“Lost in your thoughts, eh? What type of thoughts are we talking about here~ Doctor (l/n)~.”

“N-no not those thoughts la—“

“Oh really? I swear I saw your face get a little bit more red just now~” Lara teases, poking a freezing cold finger to your burning cheeks. You quickly slap her finger away and attempt to explain.

“I-It’s because I’m embarr—“

“Ah. Ah. Ahhh~ I know a liar when I see one.” Lara leans over the counter and puts a hand to block the side of her mouth as if she’s sharing a super duper big secret with you. “Was it about Mr. BDE?”

“Mr. BDE?” BDE? What does BDE stand for.. is this another tiktik trend I don’t know about? I swear I told Lara a thousand times I’m never joining that cult like app.

“She's talking about the male patient you always come with or without to grab food for. The blonde one.”

Startled by the sudden new voice, you turn around to see Clara, another canteen worker, with her usual emotionless face watching you two converse.

“Well I guessed that. I was just confused about—“

“Well it should be hard to guess now! Especially now that you’ve been spending so much time with…” Lara let’s out an exaggerated gag and you only roll your eyes. You look towards Clara for help and thankfully she decides to be kind enough by grabbing you some food. “Ugh... Mr. SDE”

•

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•

“M-Mr. SDE?” What is with these weird nicknames Sara is dishing out?

“She’s talking about the new doctor Jeremiah.” Clara shouts over to you two. You spare a glance over and see that she’s filling the tray full of Shalnark’s most liked foods. Even being nice enough to add a birthday cake flavored pudding cup. You aren’t sure exactly why but Shalnark is obsessed with birthday cake flavored foods. Though at the same time it makes sense, only the worst of the worst and monsters like birthday cake flavor.

“Well I have to spend time with Jeremiah. It’s my job to help—“

“How dare you (y/n)!” You look back over to Sara to see her sulking in the corner. What in the world? “I can’t believe ya’ betrayed your one true husbando like that.”

“WILL YOU STOP CUTTING ME OFF!?” you shout at the top of your lungs, about to go over and clobber Sara on top of the head. Though you are stopped by the fact that Clara has brought you Shalnark’s food. “Thank you, Clara. This is much appreciated unlike something else.”

You give one last glare at Sara, causing her to scramble away to the kitchen. Finally you can just leave and begin the long peaceful walk to Shalnark’s room.

“Ah wait. (Y/n)” Clara calls out as she remembers something.

“Hmm?”

Clara leans over and whispers something in your ear. You feel your face heat up and you start to shake with anger.

“OH, SO THAT'S WHAT ‘BDE’ MEANS. SARA GET YOUR BUTT BACK OUT HERE!”

————🚨📱🚨————

It was peaceful in Shalnark’s room, the only noise being the clicking noise of the keys on his laptop as he was coding something. Though that is soon disturbed as a sudden knock comes at his door.

“Come in.” Shalnark calls, not even bothering to look up to see who is coming in. The door opens with a soft whoosh and Shalnark suddenly surrounded by the aroma of warm cooked food. His stomach growls as a reaction and he hadn’t even realized that he was practically starving up until now. How long had he been messing around with his computer? 2 hours? No that wasn’t right.

Checking the clock in the corner of his computer screen he realizes it’s been more than 9 hours since he’s started.

Hearing the clicking noise of the door shut up, which snaps him out of his thinking, he looks up to see you are there. Though, he can’t clearly see you as you are faced away from him as you closed the door shut.

“Why hello there Doctor~. What do—“ His singsong tone is stopped as you finally turn around; giving him a good look at you. “oh wow (y/n) what happened to you?”

“O-oh it’s nothing. Don’t worry about it.”

“Huh? But it looks like you got in a fight somehow.” Shalnark muses, his bright green eyes observing you closer as you make your way to his bedside. It seemed pretty obvious to him you had gotten into some sort of complication, especially with your unusually wrinkled clothes, a light sweat glistening your skin and the messy state of your hair.

“Oh no, not at all. It’s just been a busy day that’s all. So I haven’t had the chance to constantly keep myself neat.” You lie as you sit in the chair next to the bedside, not wanting to exactly explain to Shalnark why you had to chase Sara around the canteen with a rolling pin in hand. As you place the tray of warm food on Shalnark’s lap, you feel a ghost-like touch on the skin of your face.

You flinch away at the strange feeling, but a sturdy hand grabs the back of your neck that stops you from moving any further.

“Sit still (y/n).” Shalnark says. You look towards his face as he flashes you a wide smile and reaches with his other hand to your hair. You normally would stop Shalnark from touching you like this unless absolutely needed but decided it wouldn’t hurt to allow him this time.

Honestly, for a man that was considered by so many as a demon or the devil himself, he looked like a true saint in this moment while he was concentrating on fixing your hair. From his sunny hair shining like pure gold strands to his delicate soft pale skin looking like sculpted marble, He truly looked like something not of this world. It also didn’t help that the sunlight from the afternoon sun bounced off his features giving him an ethereal glow. “There you go. Oh wait...”

Your snap out of your daze as you feel shalnark put something in your hair. Suddenly, the ever so soft scent of a sweet, possibly vanilla or candy-like, scent fills your senses. Shakily, and almost hesitantly, you reach up a hand to feel what was put in your hair.

“Ah ah ahh. You’ll knock it out of place if you do that.” Shalnark teases as his hand stops yours from touching the item. He gives you an extra cheeky smile as he cheekily interlocks his fingers with yours.

“O-oh sorry.” You mumble shyly out. Crap, you feel your face begin to burn up. In a quick decision to try and save yourself, you turn your head away from him to act as if you are grabbing some medicine to add to his food. Thankfully, you soon feel your blush dial down quickly and you grab the right pill bottle to pop the right dosage into his food.

Turning around and mixing the medication in, you finally turn your attention back to Shalnark. You confusingly blink a couple of times at him. What in the world?

“Shal…. Are you catching flies with your mouth or something?” You say as you continue to look at Shalnark. You were extremely confused at why his mouth was slightly opened.

Shalnark raises an eyebrow at your comment but his happy mood doesn’t seem to be faltered in any way. “How rude (y/n)! I’m your patient shouldn't you be helping me eat?”

“Exactly what are you trying to get at?”

“I thought you were smarter than this (y/n).” Shal says in pout, “I’m telling you to feed me.”

“Not happening.” You deadpanned causing the blonde man to pout even more in front of you.

“Awww but why not?!”

“You have two perfectly good arms, Shalnark. I…” You trail off at the end as you lock eyes with Shalnark. You recognize that glint in his eyes. Oh great you had made the mistake of letting your guard down, exactly why did you compare him to a saint before?

“Huh? Doctor that isn’t very nice of you. I struggle even writing my name but you think I’m ready to try something as tough and painful as attempting to hold a weighted spoon. I find that cruel and it would be such a shame if—“

“Yeah, yeah, I get it. ‘It would be such a shame if unfair treatment and unkindly behavior gets reported to management.’” You recite the rest of his words. Afterall, this isn’t the first time Shalnark has attempted to be manipulative in getting special rights from you or other staff. You especially wanted to strangle him the time he went too far. Also known as the time he really dug into a poor nurse in training when she wouldn’t give him rights to his electronics. The poor girl ended up running out of the hospital bawling and never showing up again.

“Soooo….. you’ll help me?” Shalnark says in a sickly sweet tone, as if he didn’t just threaten you.

“Yes, yes. I’ll feed you, you Manipulative asshole” You answered, monotoned, all the while grabbing the tray from off his lap and getting a spoonful of the lunch food.

“Oh? Are we using big girl words now, Doctor?” Shalnark teases. You aren’t looking at his face but you bet you could practically hear his smile growing by the second.

“Yes I am.” You take the filled spoon and put it to his lips, “Open up.”

•

•

•

You feel your hand begin to shake. Not from holding it up but from your increasing anger. Shalnark's smile had just grown more as he continued to keep his mouth shut and refuse to open it. You could even swear you could hear the petty asshole internally making fun of you.

“Say ah?”

Nope. That didn’t work as he continued to refuse to open up.

“P-P-Please open up?” You say out, trying your hardest to not lose your cool.

Jesus Christ. You were just about ready to chuck this lunch tray in Shalnark’s stupid handsome face. But you knew that would only mean Shalnark had won. Afterall, you too could play this game.

Even if it didn’t look like it, you could tell Shalnark got confused as you suddenly placed the tray down on the table next to you.

“Shal.” You say, catching his attention. The blonde hair man could feel himself suddenly struggle to breath as you softly place a hand on his shoulder and lightly lean your top half against his. With the close proximity of you two he could even smell the faint scent of what was believed to be the shampoo you use.

Shalnark let out a loud gulp as he attempted to calm down his racing heartbeat. He watches for what feel like hours as you bat your eyes at him and make eye contact. “Open up, pretty please.”

Finally, with mild hesitation, Shalnark opens his mouth, giving you the opportunity to feed him. Hahaha, suits him right. You win~

You give him a couple spoonfuls like that before what you are doing finally hits you. You desperately and quickly back away. You are supposed to be professional. He’s your patient. Not someone you can flirt with or your boyfriend. A patient.

Your actions today have crossed a line. You don’t even deserve to call yourself a Doctor if you act this way while on duty.

“I apologize. That was extremely unprofessional of me.” You say embarrassed; unable to meet his gaze.

Shalnark feels as if his heart is clogged up in his throat as he watches you. He’s never felt this feeling before. He’s actually never felt any of this domesticated stuff before. From the nice feeling of being safe and loved in your arms that sometimes makes him want to cry tears of joy to the bubbly feeling in his stomach when he hears your ever so pretty laugh fill up the room. This was all so strange to him. Yet he can’t stop himself from wanting more of it; more of you. He truly is a very greedy man.

Ever so carefully he reaches a hand out in an attempt to grab yours. His fingertips were just about to ghost your skin as he finally spoke.

“(Y/—“ The door suddenly bursts open, cutting off whatever shalnark was about to say and causes him to quickly retract his hand. “(Y/n)! There you are.”

Looking to the door you see Jeremiah standing there, somewhat leaning on the doorway. “Oh…, are you busy right now?”

“A-ah I’m just about finished up. I just needed to help give Mr. Ryuseih his food and meds.” You explain, giving Jeremiah a small smile. Thank goodness he hadn’t walked in any earlier.

“Oh really? You need help?” You watch as Jeremiah walks closer to you. He goes right next to you, practically almost touching you, and grabs the tray on the table. “Ah it’s already been partially eaten? Does this patient not want to eat?”

“No. I was just offering to help feeding him to help him sinc—”

“Well that’s not needed. Mr. Ryuseih has perfectly good capability over his hands and arms so he can feed himself.” Jeremiah explains. Placing the plate on Shalnark’s lap. “Plus it’s your lunch break right now and as a doctor of the intensive care unit it’s important you eat.”

“Yes but, it’s also my duty to help patients. Shalnark—”

“You mean Mr. Ryuseih.” Jeremiah says; cutting you off.

“Huh? What do—“

“(Y/n),... I’m going to tell you this because I care about you as a fellow doctor and a friend. There’s been some rumors popping up around the office about yours and Mr. Ryuseih’s.... relationship.” Jeremiah explains, moving to sit on the edge of the bed. You can practically hear your heart pounding out of your chest at this point. “Relationships between staff and patients don’t go against our contract and are allowed but…, as you know, they are regarded as highly inappropriate. So, if management does get a wind of these rumors it could have some consequences.”

“But-t it’s not like that. I’m just making sure that Shal—“ Jeremiah cuts you off as he places a hand on your shoulder.

“(Y/n), for both your sake and along with your patient,” Jeremiah gestures to Shalnark, who is unusually not smiling like usual. “I would suggest dialing down on the friendly… interactions. You know?”

“I-I—“ You feel dread and this pressure just all around as you struggle to form your thoughts into coherent sentences.

“It’s for the best, (y—“ “I would suggest that you quit cutting her off.”

Both of you are surprised as Shalnark suddenly speaks. You are extra stunned as you have never heard Shalnark speak in such a serious tone before.

“Pardon?”

“I said ‘quit cutting her off.’”

There’s a long pause before Jeremiah lets out a sigh. “You are right. I apologize for being so rude (y/n), I only meant to help you. Not to make you feel bad.”

Jeremiah gives you a pat on the back and a small smile. “I’ll be taking my leave. I hope this doesn’t deteriorate our friendship in any way.”

You do want to forgive Jeremiah since it seems like his intentions were to be helpful. But, from stress and shock at everything being told, you can’t speak. It is even starting to feel hard to breath in here. What’s going on?

“Calm down.”

Suddenly, a soothing voice enters your ringing ears and you are being pulled down into a safe embrace. Originally it felt nice but now you slowly begin to realize who it is holding you.

“S-s-shal-l-l. N...o…” You struggle to even get out the simplest of words, not even considering the struggle it is to even attempt to move.

“(Y/n) he’s gone. No one is here but you and I. Don’t worry about that. You need to calm down.”

As Shalnark says that, you realize the cotton shirt beneath your face is damp. You were crying. Maybe even full on bawling and you hadn’t even realized it. Were you going through some sort of panic attack? Or possibly a state of shock? You didn’t even know.

Suddenly, the sweet sound of whistling fills the room. You feel yourself unintentionally focusing on the soft tune. Then, ever so slowly, after a little bit of time you can feel yourself relaxing and slowly coming back to the world around you.

Shalnark ever so softly puts one of his hands on your back. Running his fingers in careful, almost methodically, circles and shapes. He really wanted to strangle that guy. No, he wanted that asshole to feel the pain of hell and back. But, what was with that feeling?

Something was off about the room when the guy entered. Yet, Shalnark just couldn’t put his finger on exactly what it was.  

That’s what was pissing him off the most.

————🚨📱🚨————

“Mr. Ryuseih.” A nurse calls but Shalnark can’t hear her. He’s too far into his own thoughts, trying to figure out what in the world was that strange feeling yesterday afternoon.

Was it just the mood of the room? No, it affected (y/n) and I too much to be just the ‘mood of the room’.

“Mr. Ryuseih.”

Was it just tense aura?... No, that isn’t it either. I would be able to tell right away. Along with that, when he was left alone with me later to help with my crutches I didn’t feel that feeling again… It has to be something to do with (y/n). But, what exactly?

“Mr. Ryuseih!”

“Huh?” Shalnark snaps out of his thoughts as he realizes a nurse is on the side of his bed holding a pair of crutches.

“It’s time for morning PT and I’m here to make sure you whippersnapper make your way there safely. We better get going unless you want to be late, mister.” The nurse scolds, shaking her finger.

“Oh. Apologies.” Shalnark says, grabbing the crutches from her. “Let’s get going.”

Now… where was I. So I had just figured out it had a connection with (y/n). But what? Revenge? No, (y/n) hasn’t let a patient die under her care yet and all major surgeries are mostly by high class surgeons so she wouldn’t be involved if someone did end up dying without her knowledge.

Could it be me? Something to do with me? No, he had plenty of opportunities to end me especially with the weak state I am in now. Espec—

A scream rings down the hallway causing everyone to look over. Everyone was curious about what had caused the scream but no one was as curious as Shalnark. Especially when he felt that all too familiar feeling. What had Jeremiah done?

Wait a minute…

Shalnark eyes widen as he finally is able to see the scene. A nurse was huddled on the ground while a man stood in the doorway. It wasn’t Jeremiah causing that feeling. It was someone else. But how and why?

“Viv! What happened?” A doctor shouts, coming to the nurse’s aid.

“H-h-h-he” The nurse stutters out, struggling to make a coherent sentence. The next words made Shalnark’s stomach drop. “He molested me. He put his hand up my-y…”

A gasp resounds around the hallway and the bodyguard swoop in to grab the man for questioning.

“How awful… Hey! Mr. Ryuseih where are you going?!” The elderly nurse shouts, now realizing shalnark was making his way as fast he can, with crutches, down the opposite way of the hallway. The way that was in the direction of the Intensive Care Unit.

All the while Shalnark was cursing himself out. How could he be so stupid and have forgotten? It was the Nen basics. Bloodlust is based on someone’s intentions to harm another person. That strange feeling all along was Jeremiah’s bloodlust. Jeremiah’s intention to assault (y/n). Intentions which changed the usual feeling of harmful aura.

Shalnark finally makes his way to the front desk and slams his hand down, startling Mal who was cleaning her glasses.

“Where’s doctor (l/n)? I need her immediately!”

Putting on her glasses, she looks up at Shalnark. “D-Doctor (l/n) had to leave early today.”

“Huh!? How come?”

“She wasn’t feeling well. It seemed like she had drank some bad milk in her coffee.”

“Bad milk?—“ “Hey blondie! What’s up with ya’?” A loud voice cuts Shalnark off.

Shalnark angrily turned around to see…. a leprechaun like women?

“My good friend (Y/n) will be back tomorrow. No need to cause a ruckus. Ya’ can tell her whatever you want tomorrow~~” She says, placing a hand on his shoulder. Shalnark cringes. He could tell she must be an enhancer with such a strong grip. Wait, a moment…did she just call (y/n) a friend?

A lightbulb goes off in Shalnark’s head.

“You don’t understand. I can’t wait for tomorrow!”

“Hmm? How come?”

Shalnark leans over and whispers in the lady’s ear.

“Oh hell nAH! Mal!” The lady screeches, startling the poor women again, “Where’s that Donkey Ass Doctor?!”

“D-D-Donkey Ass Doctor…?” Mal recites, confused.

“She means Jeremiah.” A monotone voice calls from behind Shalnark. Swiveling his head around he sees a blank face woman. She bows at Shalnark, “I apologize for Lara. I’m Clara, her Co-worker.”

“Clara you don’t understand! (Y/n) is in danger! She’s—” Lara shouts.

“Calm down and explain, Lara. You babbling isn’t getting us anywhere.” Clara coldly says causing Lara to freeze. Carefully, due to her being careful not to piss Clara off, Lara softly whispers what’s going on in Clara’s ear. Suddenly, Clara turns her ice cold gaze to Mal, “Where. Is. Jeremiah?”

Poor Mal. She’s already having to start off the day with a bad morning.

“J-J-Jeremiah is helping (y/n) going home.” Everyone's heart dropped.

“What?!” Lara barked out.

“I-I-It’s because H-he felt bad because he’s technically the one that made her coffee-e which got her sick. T-they just left a couple of minutes ago-o, they should be making their way to the parking garage.

The puzzle piece finally clicked in Shalnark’s head. This was likely not Jeremiah’s first time doing this. So probably the reason he transferred here was to get away from suspicion from a previous assault case. When he got here he decided to have (y/n) as his next victim and was trying to get close with her. But, he couldn’t do that with me. (Y/n) spent her breakfast, lunch, and dinner breaks with me and, based on what’s going on, he was unable to use his usual method of drugging his victims’ food or drink.

But, because of what happened yesterday, she decided to spend breakfast away from me. Giving him his opportunity.

“Mal, call security! (Y/n) is in danger. Let’s go blondie!!”

“O-okay!” Mal says, quickly pumping in security’s number into the telephone.

Shalnark snaps out his thoughts as Lara pushes him into a wheelchair.

“Hold on tight!!” She shouts, grabbing the handles and pushing Shalnark through the exit doors of the intensive care unit.

Lara with Clara in tow rush down as fast as they can down the hallway. Shalnark held tightly onto the arm rests of the wheelchair, afraid for his life, as Lara was barking for people to get out the way.

“Crap,” Lara suddenly mutters. Stopping dead in her tracks as they reach the humongous parking garage, “Hey Clara! How are we going to find them in the parking garage?!”

“Use En idiot. We can split up to make it faster so you go to the right side of the parking lot while I go to the left side. Just try to find (y/n)’s or Jeremiah’s aura.” Clara says, quickly running off to the left entrance.

“O~ K~”

Shalnark can’t help but bite his lip in frustration. He felt totally useless in this situation. Sure, he could use En to help find (y/n) but he still hasn’t gotten his special ability back and was also physically weak. He was practically utterly dead weight if Jeremiah put up a fight.

“Ughhh nothing on the first floor!” Lara groans in frustration.

2nd floor…

3rd….

4th….

Come on (y/n) where are you?

The last and 5th floor…. nothing… They were too late. Shalnark looks to the ground in defeat and anger.

“Lara!!” Shalnark looks up at the sudden loud call.

Looking off in the distance from where he heard the call, he sees that Clara had found Jeremiah and was struggling to keep him pinned to the ground. Lara quickly runs over to aid Clara, leaving Shalnark alone.

Slightly struggling, Shalnark is able to slowly wheel himself over to Jeremiah and the black car he’s being pinned outside of. Deciding to look through the windows, his eyes scan the inside of the car and he holds his breath as he is finally able to see you. Only to release it when he realizes you are, thankfully, perfectly fine and just asleep. It looked like they had just gotten there in the nick of time.

Thank goodness...

————🚨📱🚨————

“Why the hell are ya’ here?” Lara shouts, catching the attention of people in the hallway as she begins to shake you around.

“L-l-Lara calm dowwwn” You say between breaths, you feel as if your breath has been knocked out of you. Literally. It also didn’t help that the hallway around you was getting more and more hard to make out as you get more and more dizzy.

“Lara.”

Lara pauses as she hears Clara's cold tone. Quickly she pulls her hands off of you and scurries backwards. “And you.”

You freeze as Clara turns her ice piercing gaze to you. Oh, crap crap crap.

“You should be at home resting. You literally were so close to getting assaulted yesterday. You shouldn’t be working after a day like that. You need time off.”

“Well actually Management ordered me to take two to three weeks off with pay. So I’m not here to work.” You explain, rubbing the back of your neck due to the pressure of Clara’s gaze.

“I don’t buy that. You—“ “Wait, hold up Clara. She might actually be telling us the truth.” Lara says, cutting off Clara and also pointing at your clothes. You blush lightly as they examine your outfit.

“You dressed pretty nicely today, (y/n). How come?”

“Y-yeah. Well I wanted to give this to you two in appreciation of my gratitude.” You mumble, slightly embarrassed. Opening up your big hobo bag, you hand an item to each of them.

“Strawberry ShortCake!” “CCCCAAAAROOT CAKE!” Lara and Clara shout together in excitement. Practically drooling as they examine their gifts. You swear your friends followed their stomachs more than their brains sometimes, though, at the same time, it makes sense since they work in the canteen.

Clara gives you a little bow. “Thank you (y/n). But you didn’t really have to get us anything.”

“Yeah (y/n)!! I mean you are such a sweetheart to give us gifts! But ya’ didn’t have to, we were just doing what friends do.” Lara bawls, giving you a bone breaking hug.

“Careful Lara, you’ll break the other cake she has.”

“Other cake?”

Lara sneakily looks into your bag to see that there was indeed another cake in the bag. The cheeky leprechaun girl looks up and gives you a smirk. “Oh ho ho~ looks like (y/n) is also going to say thanks to Mr. Prince Charming.”

“Shut up Lara.” You groan, pulling your bag away from her clutches. You turn away from the two and begin to walk down the hallway to Shalnark’s room. “I-I have to go. Enjoy your cake you two.”

Your face turns a bright red as you feel a hard slap to your behind. “And I’m sure Shalnark will enjoy your cake as well~~”

“LARA FROST!”

[crestfallen-infatuation]

Pull the trigger, Budd Dwyer, hahaha

(Pull the trigger, Budd Dwyer)

(North, North) Haha, you mad (Northside)

(In this bitch, with my cap on) Yeah

(Time to go back to speak that lingo)

I'm back in this bitch like a menace

Running these hoes just like tennis

Fuck what you thought of my image

Blocka blocka blocka blow

Semi auto with the scope

I'm back in this bitch with the cult

I'm back in this bitch with the phonk

Scrim back in this bitch better know

I'm back and I'm hating and plotting

Back and I'm scoping with robbers

Come back and then jaws get to dropping

Come hard when you step in my yard

Scamming

Gimme your card

Off of a couple them bars

Choppa k-k-kicking

Auto f-f-spitting

Talking a lot of that guala

From the eses to the shottas

Lil wetto with yoppas

Get my pills straight from the doctor

Off of the jump with my shit

Offer the dump off my hip

50 shots like I'm back in the crack

Smoking that pack off the jack

OD slowly

OD slowly, OD slowly

OD slowly, OD slowly (Slowly)

OD slowly, OD slowly (Ho)

Hahaha

Stop telling me what to think

Stop telling me what to think

Stop telling me what to think

Stop telling me what to think

Stop telling me what to think

Stop telling me what to think (Assumptions, assumptions, assumptions)

Stop telling me what to think, to think

Stop, stop telling me, stop telling what to think

(Assumptions always being that)

Stop, stop telling me what to think (Stop)

I have become what I hate

Sad to say I saw this coming from miles away

Too bad that it ain't a race

Coughing my lungs out

Stuck in last place

Always in bad shape

Blunt to the face

I want all the smoke

Let me get a fucking taste

What the fuck you gotta say?

Yung plague untamed

Yung plague got nothing to hide

Now I've never been one for picking sides, but I choose $UICIDE

Yeah I reject almost everything bout this new world

I reject all the people inside

They can run

They can hide

They can swim

They can fly

But I'll hunt 'em day and night for the rest of my life just to watch them die

Then shed tears like a crocodile

All the while my choppa smiles

Wipe the bullet

That's not my style

Belly full of lead and stomach bile

You thought that your life would be worth while

Just another fucking rank-n-file

First came school

Then you got a job

Now your fucking bitch is walking down the aisle

Safe neighborhood for the domicile

Redoing the kitchen picking out new tiles

Don't touch that fucking dial

Let's see what's on TV!

World war III in a couple hours

But at least the house is clean

Bodies will be piled for miles and miles

But the maid service was free

[myvelouri]

My old best friend. I met him in 5th grade. We became close. I was very weird but very funny. I would joke a lot. I was talkative and loved messing with people. I was friends with all the girls, most of them. I was this fat kid, who drew really well, but for some reason got made fun of a lot. Girls would see it and feel bad for me and try to protect me at times. But the pretty girls would bully me too.

Anyway, my old best friend, Georgie. I love him still. We used to sit together, he bleached his front hair, then so did I. We got close man. My sense of humor matched his so well, he was so goofy like me. I was more so though. Like, if you saw us together he'd look like the quiet one. But yeah I'd go to his house after school sometimes. His older sister was so hot lol. Me and him would go out and play on bikes or walk around the neighborhood. What we really did was draw, we drew a lot. It was me, Georgie and a few others in a group, we had our little friend group, we ALL drew. I think it was because of me it started. I drew since I was 4 so I was extremely good. My friends saw it and were so impressed. I'm actually really good though, I really am!! I practiced a lot!! I also just naturally was good at it, it's like the only thing I was extremely good at. And so the group looked up to me just in that sense, or recognized me as the best artist haha. They'd make jokes like "oh yeah, he could draw that so fast" because one of our buddies in the group was a bit jealous and he'd always say his older brother could draw better than me. My friends all would clown him lol. We had a girl in our group too, Jill. I had a crush on her.

But me and Georgie, yeah, way close. I'm a very loving and sentimental person. I may have cared about him more than he did me. Because the day I was forced to move states and leave behind Georgie, and all my friends, my whole life, I told him to call me but he wasn't consistent with it. I missed him a lot. But we were driven apart.

I was in middle school. I had a home economics class. I was so fucking talkative and funny, all the girls loved me. None would want me sexually, I was the funny as fuck guy everyone loved. It was really nice! I was also really good at the easy crap we did in class cause, idk, a lot of home ec shit was shit I did with my grandma growing up lol. So everyone and the teacher was inpressed. They loved me so much. So much so that when I told them I'm moving they actually threw me a surprise party and gave me a card, a huge one with everyone in class' signature. Everyone signed it! My heart! My personality was so big that I was so loved, these people cared I was leaving so much! It makes me cry even to this day. And this was my personality before I had depression. Depression came about 5 years later and wiped away my entire personality, passion, humor, and just me in general.

I miss Georgie at times. He was this beautiful kid who got all the girls. I was always the ugly fat friend. Everytime man. But everyone in all our classes knew I drew well. I drew during class too. Kids started wanting to buy my art. I was amazed. So I started selling. I made a bit if money just in middle school. Lmao kids would pay with their lunch money.

It was such a wild life

Pre-depression me is a totally different entity. Man, I died long, LONG ago.

So Georgie, he's still in New York. I don't draw anymore as well, it's difficult to attempt to emotionally for me now, depression and a lot of sadness behind it. I don't know. If I draw, I get overwhelming sad now. So I don't anymore. But Georgie is now a tattoo artist. He's got his own shop in NY. He's been doing it for like ten years now. We hit each other up every now and then. He offered to pay for my flight to come see him. It was so sweet!! But do you know why I declined? Because I'm afraid of him seeing me like THIS.. I'm not who he remembers, I feel ashamed of myself. Depression and life ruined me BADLY. And I don't want to destroy the image of the "real" me he has in his head. Also I haven't kept up with drawing so it's embarrassing. I would disappoint him badly and I can't... Everyone thought I'd be something big. I even drew comics for the school paper.

I'm so sad

One time during P.E. we were playing dodgeball and we weren't on the same side. But we were so good that we knocked out ALL players from both sides and it was just ME and GEORGIE 1v1! Can you believe that? It's like something out of a movie, it was so hype. Me and him were special lmao. It was great. Well, the WHOLE class is watching, Georgie throws the ball at me, I see it coming AND BOOM! I catch it with one hand. He's out! I win! Hahaha. Everyone was amazed. I was pretty athletic for a fat kid, I told you, before depression I was very good at a lot of things.

I've lost it completely. My brain is totally damaged. My depression is severe. It's hard to just think. I'm not kidding.

But yeah

Ha

[deantrblandbananauyu]

I had a dream: Deantrbl grew a beard!

Soooo I just had a dream last night and I'm glad I still remember some part of it which were probably the most epic parts of it and I would like to post it here and share with you guys because I want to remember this dream till the day I die hahaha jk (or maybe not lol)

Note: this will be like a fanfic or scenario kind of things and most of it don't make sense because again it is a dream and dreams don't usually make sense.

WARNING! I never write anything like this so if my story telling is confusing the excuse me lol. I'm not used to doing this kind of stuff I just want to share what I had in my dream last night (jan. 6, 2019) also I haven't had sleep so please try to understand if I have typos lol

Characters/real & unreal? people involved:

Dean( Deantrbl/deanfluenza/Kwon Hyuk)

Zico(Block B, Woo Jiho)

An old funky,adorable,kinda mischievous type of Granny (yep that's right there's an old lady involved)

Me(the dream is in my P.O.V.)

G.soul(in his red hair era) kinda the antagonist but not really

SimonD(but I'm not sure if it really is him or some other rapper..idk) kinda the antagonist's side kick lol

Ok so here it is...

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I went in a room that seems like a basement mancave kinda dark and with neon lights around the room. As I walk in towards the couch I saw Dean sitting in a very comfortable way like he's chillin with his arms spread across the backrest of the couch and on the other couch beside it was Zico who was also chillin. But what shookt me the most was Dean, Kwon freakin Hyuk had a freakin BEARD!!! And it looked so good on him. (He actually looked soooooo hot and he was wearing a loose green t-shirt that exposes half of his arms and his neck and also his hair...omg his hair...he still had it in a man bun but the curls were much better. He had a cute twirt on the sides of his face like how he likes to have it haha and he bleached his hair again close to the roots and it was a bit lighter so he looked really cool and hot ajdjhadfgjdz.) And then suddenly I turned into a youtube viewer wherein I was watching that actually scene I saw few moments ago...and I was practically trying to screenshot every single angle dean has because that bearded Dean is a rare jewel (idk if he's ever gonna think of growing a beard lol) so I'm saving all that screenshots for my life. (Also I was low key waiting for my phone notifs of dean's fan accounts to pop up and see if they saw dean's new look but there weren't any) so I kinda felt a bit excited knowing I was one of the first to see him like that HAHAHA...

Then I got back to the actual scene (no longer a youtube viewer) and so I walked closer towards them then suddenly a pizza appeared on both of them and they were eating it exaggeratedly as if they're filming a pizza commercial (their expressions after eating the pizza are oscar worthy hahaha). And I was like whuuuuuut?! And I was just like watching them dunno if I'm suppose to praise them or laugh at them but they seem to be really proud of what their doing and wanted to hear some praises like lil dorky kids haha

Also the lil granny appeared out of nowhere sitting next to Dean and dean was now laying on the other couch (him amd zico kinda switch places) then the granny tried to lay beside dean as if wanting for a cuddle hahaha ( ok this might seem weird and all but in my dream it was kinda cute scene cause the granny had a cute innocemt vibe to her and everybody loves her but she kinda has a funny/naughty side to her but not in a cougar/slutty kinda way lol if u know what I'm sayin)

And so dean hugged her cutely from behind and I was supposed to feel jealous (as if I am dean's gf Ha! I wish it was real lol) but I was not jealous at all instead I kinda jokingly said it's ok granny I'll let you borrow deam for.a while hahaha

Then the action kicks in!

Suddenly a guy break in the room through the window and was holding a gun pointing at our direction like those police trying to arrest people...and it was G.soul in his bright red hair then came in after him was I think SimonD or someone else and he was kinda out of the place and clueless but just follow what g.soul does haha

Then I looked at the couch and saw zico holding armalites (like long guns..idk what it's called) and he was suddenly like in rambo mode with lots of gun hanging on to him then he handed out one to Dean and their like ready to fight but the it didn't feel dangerous or hostile and I was still like..whuuuuuuuuuut?! (Whut is happening?what are u guys doing? Is this for real? Should I fight too?) Then I shift my sight to Dean and he put the gun on the other side and grab something....He picked a granade and tried to take the pin out with his teeth but then he realized something. . .It wasn't an actual granade but a soft squishy one and he was like "whuuuuut the?" ~

then he found out it was the granny's squishy toy that she use as a stress ball kinda and he handed it over to her while giggling then the granny was amused saying "my squishy! u found my squishy~" then she squeezed it on her cheeks while smiling and I was like...aweeee

Somewhere in the background the I can sense or hear the 3 guys intensely fighting (but don't worry I think nobody got injured or died and there were no gorey/bloody scenes)

And then my dream was cut cause I woke up

The End

Here's Dean with beard. I tried to mimic the actual look he has in my dream but can't find a nice angle I've seen a few pics of him showing that kind of vibe but his angles on the pic were not good to put a beard on (cuz I only used a beard app haha)

He kinda look like a homeless guy here but trust me he looks so hot in my dream and it actually suits him haha

Here's another one much cleaner looking lol

[sungtaro]

I just worry abt hyunsuks hair bc he's had it bleached so many times like is his scalp okay??? 😭😭😭 and yeah junkyu dyed hair whennnnn??? i'm waiting for that too!

I'll probably get the full album, besides i don't wanna risk it with the shipping bc i'm planning to get it sent to me when i'm on holiday (cheaper shipping lol) but it's right when the cb drops and if it takes too long then i'd p much lose it 😭 so not taking any chances (besides i love all the songs from the full album already!)

Yeah idk anything about this cb's packaging versions and what not so i can't be of any help 😔 hopefully we'll get concept photos soon!

seriously the amount of words in like... the world.. u literally see it even now that the j-line boys are p much fluent in korean, they still sometimes have to ask what sth means and i feel seen lmao like same!! i do not know!! lmao

anyways it's night time here so i'm gonna have dinner <3 i loved this omg none of my friends are into treasure so i love coming here to talk about it 🥰 (and ur so nice!)

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campaigning to save hyunsuk's hairline starting today KJHDBJ although i will say i do love his hair blonde 😭 he has had a lot of colors though hasn't he ... come on share with kyu ... would love to see him peach-ified personally ~

i support this decision and the full album comes w those baby pic pulls !! it's rly pretty overall i think you'll be happy with it <3 if you order it pls let me know who you pull for everything i live for that stuff 🤩 i hope we start to get the concept photos and teasers soon too !! content starved for too long here 😭

omg yeah ! it's so wild how we've gotten to see them improve, but i'm sure it's an ongoing process. and there's always something comforting about seeing our idols go through something that resonates with us like that 🥺 i remember watching jihoon during a tlog just like . reviewing his mc flashcards at his desk late at night and feeling momentarily understood as a busy student hahaha

i hope you enjoy your dinner and sleep well tonight !! you are always welcome here hehe u are so lovely and i'm always happy to gush about treasure ... not enough teumes on this site anymore 😭 i hope we'll bring in more new friends with this cb !! 💓

[cosmo-era-yuto]

The Yuto-Wooseok-Yanan triangle is so great ;w; And the raw talent of Jinho and Hui <3 I agree, Shinwon is such a wild card!

tbh I legit cannot pick a bias, I love them all. I could go on a mini essay for each member about how much I love them. I love them loving each other!

Thanks for your b-side breakdown! It's exactly what I wanted to hear. And don't apologize for writing something lengthy! I'm the same, and I love to read everything, so it's really nice to find a kindred spirit! Give me those essays!

"Lose Yourself"-- I love this song a lot and I'm glad someone else does too. That's funny, liking "Like This" too much! But yeah, it goes hard and makes you Feel Things, hence it being probably my fav PTG song. And I agree, Shinwon needs to write more music! "Worship U" is so good, it could have been a title track if it had been on another album. I keep forgetting to put "Dazzling" on my ipod, so I haven't listened to it very much. I should rectify this. You seem to favor the Japanese tracks, haha! Do you speak it, or is it just coincidence?

You know what's funny, I didn't really like any Triple H stuff...I'm sorry Hui and Dawn...but I'm glad that it was a gateway to PTG for you!

I really applaud you for giving Pentagon a second chance and trying a second song. So many people out there would only listen to one track and then drop the group if they hated it. I can see how past you hated "Humph!," it's got a very simple melody with a basic repeated motif.

omg, "Can You Feel It" also made me a PTG convert! At least, music-wise. The decision to stan Pentagon as people/a group came after that. Summer 2020, some friends were visiting me and they were playing a bunch of k-pop, which was something I hadn't been into for years. So I was like, "Yeah, maybe I should get back into this, can you make me a rec list?" So one friend made me a playlist and I played it at work on YT for like 3 months. Ironically, there was no Pentagon on there, but PTG was connected to a bunch of other groups on the rec list, plus RTK had just happened, so PTG kept showing up on the suggested videos list on the side. I don't know what song I listened to first, but I remember "Violet" was one of the first ones, and I wasn't into it. But once I listened to "Can You Feel It," it was all over. I must have listened to that song like 5 times in a row at work (I usually hate listening to a song on repeat) and actually started searching out their music instead of just casually picking them out from the suggested videos. But then one day I saw the performance video for "Shine," and my life changed. They looked so happy! They were actually enjoying themselves and having fun! They were shouting along with the music and laughing with each other! It was so different from all the other groups I had seen in their performance/dance practice videos. Like, Pentagon members were *real people,* not just performers. And that's when I fell in love and actually started stanning them. I immediately started watching all content I could find of them on YT and began to memorize their faces and names. And now here we are, hahaha!

(I like plenty of other groups' music, but I don't try to learn members' names or watch their non-MV content. That's the difference for me.)

So in the continued string of coincidences, I think we both became Unis around the same time XD

Maybe I'll get into the b-side question another time, I feel like I've gone on long enough already, haha

Yes we seem really similar, maybe too similar

Nah I’m kidding! It’s actually a really neat surprise

My favoring the Japanese tracks may have to do with the fact that I like the sound of J-pop music or maybe the fact that I’m half Japanese 🤠 As for my speaking it, hahahaha funny you should ask 😅 So my mother never taught me Japanese or spoke it around me because she didn’t know that I’d be able to learn it alongside English. She thought I would get confused and that it would hinder my own English. She’s trying to teach me now as a teenager but it’s a very slow process. However I will admit that I get ecstatic when I’m able to read a sentence written in the language (albeit a really short sentence with basic Kanji characters)

Oh that’s interesting, I actually love 365 Fresh and Retro Future is good as well, I haven’t heard any other song from them, though. Even so, the music can never compare to how Hui looked. OH HOW I MISS TRIPLE H HUI SO

And thank you! That’s what I usually do when it comes to listening to new groups. If I hear a song a like I need to hear other songs to see if I actually like the group’s music, or just that one song. Same with if I don’t like the first song I hear.

Yessssss Can You Feel It was the moment. I also remember not vibing with Violet the first time I heard it. Once again I’m fine with it now, but I might skip it if it comes on the playlist 😬

Can I just say that Pentagon was the first group with a lot of members I tried to stan, so learning their faces was so hard 😭 Blackpink is what got me into Kpop in 2019 and they were the only group I listened to before Pentagon. I, for the life of me, could not stop mixing up Hyunggu and Hongseok. The only way I could tell them apart was because Hongseok was tanner, so if the lighting in a video was weird it was all over for me. Then I realized that Hongseok had a longer neck, so that helped. On the other hand Shinwon, Hui, Dawn, and Wooseok I could identify right away. Shinwon has a fox like face, Hui has a very straight (almost Greek) nose, almost every time I saw Dawn he had bleach blond hair, and Wooseok has wide eyes and a bigger nose. I would actually like to know, if you remember, who you had trouble identifying and who were easy for you? I always find that different people have have trouble with different Kpop idols which is interesting.

I actually don’t really indulge myself with content from other groups. Sometimes I’ll listen to songs from other groups, for example God’s Menu by Stray Kids is staying on my playlist even though all I know about the group is that there’s a guy named Felix. Also while we’re on the topic, who else do you listen to? I consider myself stans of girl groups Blackpink, Wooah, StayC, and Twice (I just started getting into the last two), boy groups TO1 and Kingdom, and I go HARD FOR KARD!!! Pentagon happens to be my ult group, though.

Anyhow, I can’t wait to hear your answers for the b-side questions! I hope you have a good rest of your day and until next time 👾