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s0ulm8s · 3 years

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boys like you (2.0)

✿ summary : alone and left in a mansion with nothing but your canvases and the dust slowly collecting on the window sills - a commission and a call from a childhood friend completely changes your life

✿ genre : hybrid au, deer!seokjin, black panther!yoongi, wolf!namjoon, great dane!hoseok, calico cat!jimin, tiger!taehyung, bunny!jungkook

✿ warnings : mentions of death, abuse, angst, maybe some mentions of assault, some fluff (let me know if i’ve missed anything)

✿ word count : 3.0K

✿ taglist : @gee-nee @narcissism-iskey @anongirl007

✿ series masterlist! | 3.0

you had spent all night examining each pack member’s file, each hybrid had vastly different personalities, likes, dislikes, etc. - and you had to admit it was a lot to take in. you had also taken the time to search online and purchase all that you thought would be necessary in helping assimilate the hybrids into your home, new beds, dressers, food, utensils, etc. even scheduling reconstruction of your estate, updating the model and calculating up floor plans to change the biggest common room in the home in order to accommodate all seven of the hybrids, incase they wished to stay together in a bedroom where they could all fit comfortably. perhaps you were way too ahead of yourself, but that inheritance money needed to go somewhere.

it was now 3 hours before your scheduled time to meet the hybrids, and possibly sign their adoption papers. that is, if all parties want to be adopted by you. you scanned their files again.

birthdate: december 4, 1992

sign: sagittarius

age: 28 years

type: white-tailed dear

role: care giver, protector

(tends to be subordinate, dominant traits)

as the oldest, kim seokjin falls into role of protector and caregiver naturally within the dynamics of his pack - trusting that there is no imminent danger. but outside of pack dynamics, he can fall into prey instincts quite quickly. this explains his dependance on wolf hybrid, kim namjoon. he shows more care- giving nature, resorting to protection in that case of the younger members more than the older predators.

seokjin enjoys spring, cooking, and familiarity. though he is quite outspoken and quick to defend, he is not the natural leader of the pack. he can be skeptical of humans, as in the wild, humans can be the deer populations top predator. he is respectful, intelligent, trustworthy, and resourceful. he is family orientated and selfless, as expected.

birthdate: march 9, 1993

sign: pisces

age: 27 years

type: black panther

role: protector

(predominantly dominant traits)

as the second in age, and an apex predator, min yoongi is a fierce protector. maybe even sometimes to a fault. he doesnt shy away from threats, especially those directed toward his pack.

he is quiet, and quite reserved. he enjoys the piano, writing, and sleep. his harsh exterior is hard to break through as those within his pack are the only ones who have managed. he is quick to action. he, along with the instinctual pattern of his panther tendencies, sports an “act first, ask later” attitude. his counterpart, great dane hybrid, jung hoseok, helps balance this.

birthdate: february 18, 1994

sign: aquarius

age: 26 years

type: great dane

role: protector

(predominantly dominant traits)

jung hoseok is the level headed protector, along with that of his successor in age, kim namjoon. as a domestic predator, he still sometimes falls into that category of protectee, but not inherently. in terms of owner, this is where his loyalty lies. where his instincts decide protection is needed most, as his pack members know how to protect themselves.

his personality is very bright, and quite bubbly. he is easy to talk to and offers sensible advice. his is found to be a bit goofy, and tends to lift the packs spirits when needed. hobbies include primarily dancing, and writing. he enjoys deep thinking.

birthdate: september 12, 1994

sign: virgo

age: 26 years

type: black timber wolf

role: protector

(predominantly dominant traits)

kim namjoon is the packs natural leader. though he isn’t the oldest, he seems to be the one they look to for answers. in terms of owners, it seems he will display what’s best for his pack while keeping his own desires hidden. but much like his descendant, the domesticated hybrid, he will still put owner first when accepted as part of said pack. he is exceptionally intelligent and wise, violence isn’t his first instinct - but it is still a prominent trait.

though he is the leader, and can sport a hard and critical exterior, he has been observed to show a quite fun and loving side. as ancestor to the domesticated hybrid, he shows immense loyalty. sporting a bond for an owner that cannot be broken once trust is established. he can be very playful, he loves to read, and write music. he enjoys stimulating conversation.

birthdate: october 13, 1995

sign: libra

age: 25 years

type: calico cat

role: protectee

(both dominant and subordinate traits)

though a predator, he is domestic, and when his instincts don’t call for action - park jimin knows he is protected by his elder counterparts. with this knowledge, he falls into the role of protectee quite effortlessly. though, he does show protector qualities when it comes to their youngest, jeon jungkook.

he is feisty and argumentative, but exceptionally loving. as a domesticated hybrid, he can be quite lazy and enjoys lots of rest but displays many burst of energy that seem to stimulate the rest of the pack. he enjoys singing, and is extremely affectionate - unafraid to show his affection for those he trusts.

sign: capricorn

birthdate: december 30, 1995

age: 25 years

type: bengal tiger

role: inconclusive

(both dominant and subordinate traits)

as an apex predator, kim taehyung should fall into category of protector. over years of observation, the hybrid is willing protect but doesn’t display it prominently. as he is just as easily protected by his elders as that of counterpart, park jimin. and much like him, he will fall to defense of youngest, jeon jungkook, quickly. but his position remains inconclusive as he displays traits of both equally. the dynamic still works with the pack seamlessly.

he can seem quiet upon first meetings, but the hybrid is quite playful and excitable - especially with his agemate and younger counterpart. he likes to protect and be protected. he is an art connoisseur and seems to always be collecting new knowledge where he can find it.

sign: virgo

birthdate: september 1, 1997

age: 23 years

type: rabbit

role: protectee

(predominantly subordinate traits, does occasionally show dominant qualities)

youngest, jeon jungkook, falls into category of protectee quite easily. as prey, and categorically falling so low on the tree, it makes sense that his predator pack members would shield him. but he also shows fervent attachment to prey, kim seokjin.

the youngest can be rather shy when it comes to those who may or may not pose a threat, the ambiguity alone is enough to trigger is prey instincts. though, within his pack, those he trusts, he is extremely impulsive and affectionate. he also enjoys music, and singing, along with drawing and creating art. he is very lovable and fun.

* all pack members have experienced past neglect, abuse, and trauma.

each file was as meticulous as you could expect it to be, giving you the rundown of their diets, habits, personalities, etc. you heart stung at the last sentence and the realization that they had been observed for years, meaning they had been in the shelter for years.

though the idea was a bit overwhelming, you had to admit reading about them felt like a little glimpse into who they were - and you were suddenly very hopeful you’d be able to adopt them all.

though that didn’t come without nerves, you skimmed over each file, realizing then that even the youngest was a year older than you. you hoped your age wouldn’t pose a problem to seeing you in the light of owner, as someone they could look to for help or protection. you wiped away the thought, saving it for when it happened instead of creating a problem that didn’t exist yet.

looking up at the clock, you decided you should get ready. putting the files away into your bag neatly, you climbed up the stairs to the room you had made you own. wearing your hair down and applying a light layer of make up, you decided you should look somewhat presentable.

you didn’t know why you were so nervous suddenly, discarding outfit after outfit before realizing you were about to be late and finally deciding on a pair of loose jeans and a fitted sage green top. you hoped you looked as friendly as possible.

finally, you made it to the shelter, letting out a heavy breath and turning your car off - you tried to ease your nerves. you greeted yeosang at the front desk once again, along with dr. park as they directed you to the “interview deck.” there you found mingi, waiting for you with a stack of papers.

“y/n!” he called happily as he wrapped you in a firm embrace and you paid him a sweet smile. seven sets of ears perked up on the other side of the door, growing anxious as the seven boys paid each other glances. their skin buzzing wildly. “they’re all inside now. knowing you, i’m sure you did extensive research... i’m confident they’ll love you.” mingi reassured, as you stayed quiet. “whenever you’re ready.” he finally spoke, moving out of the way as you finally let out the breath you were holding.

you gripped the handle before thinking fuck it, and twisting it completely, stepping inside almost silently.

you can’t say you had expected the hybrids to look the way they did as you started at them wide-eyed, the moment seeming to move in slow motion as the tingling feeling you felt the day before returned, except it was incredibly more intense.

“hi -” you tried to speak before a large body came crashing into yours, almost knocking the wind of out you as you stumbled slightly. the tall boy wrapped his long arms over you shoulders, burying his face into your neck. you could feel him smiling against you skin.

“i’m so glad you came back for us.” the small voice rang out muffled against your hot skin. heartbeat thumping rapidly, and you know they could all hear it with their heightened senses. as you scanned the group, six set of eyes watching you intently, you noticed the only pair of ears missing were those of the bunny you met the day prior

“of course i came back.” you muttered softly, returning his embrace as he exhaled into you at the contact of your arms joining around his toned waist. you can’t say you figured the bunny would be so tall and broad, he clearly worked out to maintain his figure, perhaps to make up for being prey.

“jungkookie, let her breathe.” a deep voice echoed. the tone so deep and domineering you almost shook.

“right.” the younger boy laughed, pulling away with a deep blush that matched your own. “sorry.” he breathed out.

“that’s okay...” you whispered softly. “it’s nice to finally meet you properly, jungkook.” you finish, genuinely, giving him a happy smile and watching the tension fall out of his broad shoulders.

the owner of the deeper voice had now stood and was approaching confidently. gaze trained and focused on your much smaller frame, as you looked up at him towering about you, tall and strong.

his eyes raked your figure, petite and short, even shorter than jimin - and his instincts were screaming at him to protect you and usher you even further into the room, away from any possible danger. he ignored it, for now.

you observed his ashy black ears and tail, the traits matching his shaggy hair perfectly. “you must be, namjoon.” you concurred, as he tilted his head, just like a wolf would. his gaze made you squirm a bit.

“yes, that’s me.” he nodded, gesturing toward the chair sat directly in front of the couch that seven of them were sat on. “please.” he said firmly, as you nodded. finally, taking a seat and feeling a bit more at ease. “this is seokjin, our oldest” he spoke for the group, gesturing to the broad shouldered man on the far side of the couch, closest to the door. there was an empty spot next to him from where namjoon had just stood.

his skin was fair and spotless, and his clean cut dark hair was adorned with a pair of clean antlers. his plump lips formed in a small u-shaped smile as he bid you a polite nod that you returned.

“hoseok,” he introduced next. referring now to the honey-skinned great dane hybrid. he seemed to be bursting at the seems with energy but hid it well, despite his tail wagging quickly - grey/brown ears perking upward.

“hello!” he cheered happily, taking all of his energy and focussing it on not wrapping you in a tight embrace, much like jungkook had. he could smell you so vividly, they all could.

“hi!” you giggled a bit, his ears turning toward the noise. “it’s nice to meet you.” you both beam. you think maybe he was made by the sun itself, at how much warmth and happiness he radiates.

“yoongi.” he spoke next, just as the man next to hobi swatted the great dane’s wagging tail with a small snarl. he barely tilted his head back at you, seemingly uninterested in the whole encounter.

“jimin.” he said next, sending yoongi a death glare that the panther pointedly ignored. you smiled genuinely at the panther, before looking to jimin.

“ah, yes! we met yesterday as well.” you cheer softly as jimin cracked a proud smile at your acknowledgement, leaning forward to shake your free hand and place a quick kiss to it.

“i’m glad you’re here.” jimin spoke hushed, before letting your hand go and smirking at your blush, only nodding your head to him.

“and you’ve met jungkook,” he spoke next as the bunny waved at you again, one ear flopping down, long hair falling into his eyes. you waved back and he smiled brightly.

“and then finally, taehyung.” namjoon introduced last, as you face the last hybrid. his skin was tanned and soft, and his dark hair parted down the middle in soft waves. you could see his bengal features in his eyes. he paid you a respectful smile, reaching forward to shake your hand formally.

“it’s lovely to meet you.” he said, voice just as deep as namjoon’s, laced with a low purr. you gave another small smile, face tense.

“and you, taehyung.” you replied, as his soft hand let go of your own. namjoon let out a breath and sat down in his previous place as you met all of their gaze once more, only yoongi’s was trained on the floor. they looked expectant.

“i take it mingi has told you most of it, but my name’s y/n. i own an estate off the countryside, it’s quiet there. and, to be entirely honest with you, i never saw myself adopting a hybrid in general.. let alone seven but... i want to give you a proper home, and the freedom you deserve. if you’ll let me.” you spoke softly, but loud enough for each hybrid to hear. they studied your features, and the growing heat of their skin, staring quizzically.

“if you -“ you started speaking just as namjoon did. you chuckled lightly. “go ahead.” you gesture.

“would it be alright if we asked you some questions?” namjoon asked respectful, as you immediately nod your head in approval.

“of course. anything at all.” you encourage as you met seokjin’s trained gaze.

“not to be.. abrupt or rude, but, how old are you, y/n?” seokjin asked, voice melodic and pretty.

“oh, i-i’m 22... i know i’m younger than you all, but i can confidently say i can provide for you. i had to grow up pretty quickly.” you admit, and the boy take note of that last thought. namjoon wonder’s why but chooses not to pry. fore now.

“i trust you.” seokjin spoke, ceasing your explanation as the two of you held a piercing gaze until you nodded to him - silently thanking him.

“what do you do?” hoseok asked next, leaning forward a bit and smiling. they watch your expression beam a bit at the question.

“i’m an artist! i - i work from home so i’ll be able to devote as much time to each of you as possible, if that’s what you want, of course.” you tell him happily, reflecting on your work as he takes note of every expression you make.

“an artist? kookie likes to draw a lot, too!” jimin explained, wrapping an arm around jungkook’s shoulders and ruffling his hair as the boys laughed.

“i’d love to see your work sometime.” you admit sweetly as jungkook blushes. the rest of the boys ask you basic questions abbot your life, why you’re here, all except yoongi.

the conversation dwindles quite naturally before yoongi finally speaks up, “so why would a 22 year old girl want to adopt seven hybrids? what are your intentions?” yoongi’s voice is laced with venom, his question makes you sit straight as your gazes finally meet.

the two of you stare at one another, studying the other’s gaze, trying to read them. both parties becoming inwardly frustrated when they fail.

though hoseok gives yoongi’s thigh a squeeze in quiet warning, he also looks at you expectantly. along with the five other boys. you take in a deep breath.

“just like you, i have to gain your trust just as much as you have to gain mine. if you give me a chance, let me get to know you and in turn get to know me - i think i can give you what the seven of you need. a home... a safe haven... i want to be that for you, if you’ll let me. i’ve been blessed with the resources to do so. my heart aches at the thought of the seven of you being here for so long, and there is no string of words that i can say to even begin to ease the burden of what you’ve been through, but i want to try. i want to understand. and i want the seven of you... if you want me, too.” you answered honestly, voice lower as you start at the floor, rolling your hands together.

you finally look back up at yoongi whose dark gaze has now softened. previous potentials who had even considered meeting all seven of the hybrids would give up on them at yoongi’s harsh tone and hot attitude - using it as an excuse to decline their adoption. but you didn’t. you met his words with sincerity and kindness, and it’s not something any of them had experienced. and the fact that you hadn’t given up yet, spoke wonders to the seven of them.

they all shared a knowing glance, “okay... we want you, too.” namjoon finally spoke, as you broke into a happy smile.

✿ author’s note : thank you so much for all the love on the first part so far, I really wasn’t expecting it. i’m posting part one and two tonight as to get the story rolling and will hopefully have part three out tomorrow night! i can’t have a set schedule as my work and school schedules fluctuate but i’ll be as consistent as possible as i’m just as invested! thank you!

#hybrid au #hybrid bts #ot7 #bts ot7 #ot7 bts #poly au #poly bts #soulmate au #bts #bts imagines #bts smut #smut #bts drabble

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insinirate · 2 years

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if capt got a bad case of the dad disease, thatd be so fucking hilarious. didnt even realize he signed the adoption papers but everyone with a brain knows that pico has become John's Boy, with Pico agreeing begrudgingly. only capt doesnt know. pico got him the "Best Mom" mug as a present and capt went through 5 different emotions before making a weak sarcastic comment, and now he uses that mug every goddamn day because "pink is manly now"

john, constantly: dont get it twisted kid im not your dad, youre not getting spoiled here

also john: marks date and sets alarms for picos birthday and major celebrations, tucks his teenage ass in bed, makes him breakfast, looks out for him on the field, accepts a best mom mug from him and glues it back together after it breaks just so he can keep using it

#anonymous

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journey-to-the-attic · 2 years

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so you said that about ik's kidification you might end up writing the side characters in the future, and in the meantime, im here to share my headcanons bc its been engulfing my thoughts for days.

i personally think luke's reaction would be pretty funny because now ik, the only person in the devildom his size, is now Smol and Tiny and also very Babey. he is bluescreening, he does not know what to do. doesnt know how to answer her kid questions, so he'll pass her off to simeon.

simeon is signing adoption papers as we speak. he is like asmo in that he internally bluescreens so hard when he sees her. also takes her kid questions very seriously, and will carry her just about anywhere.

solomon is gonna be that fun uncle that lets you do stupid stuff and eat dirt or whatever, and just laughs in the face of chaos. (lucifer is losing his sanity). solomon responds in the most chaotic and nonsensical way to her questions, or he gets a mad scientist look in his eyes and is like "lets find out" (lucifer has now banned him from interacting with kid ik unsupervised. doesn't stop the man in the slightest. also dont tell anyone but he'd also put on magic shows for ik and would be a total show-off about it to her. anyone who finds out suddenly and mysteriously disappears)

i'll be sure to do some notes for the side characters with kidified ik, since it was so fun to write the brothers! since it'll probably be a week or two before then, though, allow me to address your own hcs real quick:

luke: definitely blue screens so hard as soon as he realises what's going on, but also would be v happy to like play and draw with ik!!also the more innocent of her kid questions he can manage, it's once she starts heading into either absurd or dread-inducing territory that he goes 'uuhhh actuALLY I THINK YOU SHOULD GO SEE SIMEON'. he bakes so many things for her and she says she loves absolutely everything and luke basically glows with pride

simeon: if he has not legally adopted this tiny child within twenty four hours he is GOING to blow something up. (good luck with that custody battle, buddy, you've got like five competitors). yes he is like asmo, he nearly bursts into tears nearly every time he lays eyes on her for the first few hours. oh and he is SO happy to like hold ik high up in the air and go "you're flying!!!" and then ik will spread her arms and go ''i'm flying!!!!' and now simeon's crying even harder

solomon: [lucifer voice] i am so damn tired. ik will ask him whether he could fly by tying a bunch of balloons to himself, and he'll immediately be hauling her off to the shop to buy 9383398 packets of party balloons like "LET'S FIND OUT!". lucifer has to physically restrain him at times while urgently yelling at beel to get ik out of there

also solomon gets such an ego trip from ik thinking literally any trick he does is the coolest thing ever. he's like "i pull THIS giant teddy bear from THIS tiny cup" and she goes "WOAOAOAOAOAOAOAOOHH" and solomon's internally going [punches air] 'i am the MAN'. he does a thing where he's like "ik you think i'm the coolest one right? right?" and ik replies "yeah!!" because he just gave her the giant teddy bear he magicked up, so solomon goes "and you like me best, right?" and ik just goes along with it like "yeah!!!!", and then solomon immediately calls everyone else like "GUESS WHAT IK JUST SAID"

#answering asks #anon asks #should there be a tag for this baby ik prompt??#if anyone has any good ideas please send them in!!#solomon got an extra paragraph but you know what that's alright #this is such a word vomit but i can't be bothered to format it differently #i kid you not

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inexplicifics · 3 years

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Figured I saw how you liked peeps putting their own flair into your universe so thought id actually sit down and join in, because ive had Thoughts about my own self insert in your universe already so why not share! Anyway heres a bullet list about them, Purnella of the Crane School!

first off gen. trivia—

-Was fifteen and fresh from their trials when Ciri was brought to Kaer Morhen

-Was one of the late comers to join the Warlord, since word is slow coming when you’re at sea without a sorcerer or xenovox

-Has a sketchbook filled with ink sketches of all the various creatures theyve come to know in their experience, and they use these illustrations to narrow down what a victim has seen because You have No Idea how little ‘It looked like a giant snake with pointy teeth and white eyes!’ narrows it down when it comes to sea creatures. They use the ribbon their best friend gave them as a bookmark in it.

-All cranes love gadgets. This is common knowledge. But the amount of different and unique devices Purnella uses is insane even by their standards— harpoon gun, crossbow with a grappling hook shot, pistol rounds that explode into a net when fired to easily take down and entangle targets without wounding them, and their favorite— a little wrist mounted hooking/trolley device that lets them navigate ship rigging like a zipline.

(this is just part one btw;;)

(ok heres part two)

now further plot slash backstory because im incredibly hyper-focused on character plots

-Early childhood was spent in an orphanage after being dropped off there as an infant, matron was never certain but most assumed they were born under a black sun

-Matron was always very strict when it came to chores, telling them if they dont make themselves useful , shell turn them out on the streets alone. Was probably never truly serious, but Purnella assumed she was and internalized the idea that ‘If I make myself useful, I get to stay with my friends/my school/the crew/etc’

-As a result they overworked themselves to the point of exhaustion for years, until they actually got sat down by Triss for it when the sorcerers joined them in the keep.

-Had a best friend named Shiloh, a elven girl who also lived in the orphanage (this is literally just my oc from dragon age inquisition, ive put a version of her and cole(a canon character from da:i) into quite a few diff medias because im unhealthily attached to them both. purnella is already my self insert im being self indulgent already so why not) who gifted her a little lilac ribbon the day they left after being ‘adopted’. Shiloh calls them Purnie. Shiloh also once taught them how to fold paper into shapes that look like various animals. no this isnt a joke about paper cranes what are you saying—

-Was ‘adopted’ by a noble who fancied himself a scientist and wanted to discover what makes the children of the black sun dangerous, as well as figure out if theres any distinct sign that someone was born under the black sun in general

-As a result, even before becoming a witcher they were covered in scars from multiple experiments. the main one being scars from a procedure more similar to a vivisection or autopsy than an actual surgery(they were ‘lucky’ enough that the bastard was rich enough to have proper medicine because he damn well wasnt properly trained)

-His manse laid on a seaside cliff, and when he had a Specially Important Visitor interested in his ‘findings’, Purnella was able to free themselves from their cell and launch themselves through a window, over the cliff, and into the sea

- cough cough it was stregobor the visitor was stregobor

-Purnella woke up on a ship, where theyd been pulled aboard after the crew had noticed something floating in the sea water

-This boat had a crane witcher on it, resulting in Purnella eventually being taken ‘under his wing’ as a trainee.

-Shiloh eventually shows up at Kaer Morhen to entreaty the White Wolf to help her avenge her friend, who never ended up visiting her again after being adopted by a man who has gone on to experiment and murder Several More children of the black sun since then

-Tbh Purnellas mostly just happy to see Shiloh and learn that she remembered them, and should probably be worried about the situation but is mostly just! rlly happy!!

—also side note shiloh had No Idea their friend purnie was actually Alive! and There!! so shes extremely happy. also she grew up to become someone with an encyclopedic knowledge of veterinarian medicine and animal trivia, so she ends up staying at the keep as their trusty vet along with her boyfriend cole who isnt actually human, hes a garkain, but hes shy and kind and helpful and doesnt hurt anyone and im Refusing to separate Shiloh and Cole in Any Universe i put them in, and so there

is this all an excuse to have them hunt down and go to war with/murder stregobor? yes because fuck him— and i cannot stress this enough— in the face with a chainsaw covered in pissed off hornets.

anyway im a big fan and keep coming back to this series for more so i hope you liked this slash wasnt annoyed by the ramblings;; have a good day!

Purnella sounds like a delight! I am extremely pleased to know you're having such fun in my sandbox.

(I couldn't figure in how to copy over the picrew but Purnella looks great!)

#questions answered #fic of my fic

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coco96 · 4 years

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LDAF - TS Parental/Familial

TONY STARK - PARENTAL

On The Off Chance (Tony Stark X Fem!Reader) Warnings: Mention of spitting in a drink and some threats of violence, and mention of violence Request: Tony stark parental figure with “i know you’re joking but on the off chance you aren’t, no”

Arranged Plans Cancelled (Peter Parker X Fem!Stark!Reader) Warnings: Bad friends Request: Stark!Reader is often hurt by others, like people will arrange plans + blow her off/friends will make plans in front of her + not invite her. people will get her to do their homework for them bc they know she can’t say no. Peter Parker thinks its really unfair but she handles it really well + doesn’t make a fuss. one day Steve/Tony/someone accidentally upsets her (maybe they cancel plans she’s been really looking forward to or something) and Peter just loses it. she’s really shocked that he noticed and he’s standing up for her. She goes to Midtown too …

Homework Struggles (Tony Stark X Fem!Teen!Reader) Request: What about a reader x father figure tony where the reader is really struggling in school and feels like she’s failing him but instead of being upset he just helps them out and discovers they have adhd and gets them the help they need?

Accidentally Coming Out (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Accidentally coming out, fear of homophobia Request: … reader accidentally makes a comment about being gay and panics bc she’s not out to him yet? And she tries to run away but someone catches her and brings her home?

Taking the Lead (Tony Stark X Son!Reader) Warnings: Spoilers to Infinity War and Endgame, death Requests: … the one who survives in infinity turns to dust and the one did is alive. the reader didn’t urn to dust and he missed his father, even throught they don’t have nice relationship. he learns that he has a sister and he helped to take care of them as he is like a father figure to Morgan. when endgame happened, the reader do the snap. it like the reader do the snap instead of tony

More Like Pepper (Tony Stark X Teenage!Reader) Request: Could I request a fic where the reader is Tony’s kid but lowkey has no time for the teams shit and is savage?

Hiding Hickies (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Hickies/bruises Request: Would you be open to writing a tony x daughter reader where the daughter goes out with a boy for the first time and has to hide hickies? And tony finds out and she’s expecting him to freak out but he just accepts it and is really chill about it?

Metallic Limbs (Peter Parker X Fem!Reader) Warnings: Mention of injury and loss of limbs, mention of surgery Request: … Reader is a quadruple amputee after the Chitauri attack in Manhattan. Tony, As the one who found her in the rubble, feels inclined to watch over her and help her in any way he can. So he has her fitted with state of the art cybernetic limbs. Years later, reader is coming to the avengers HQ to get a tune up and she meets the friendly neighbourhood sideman without the mask. Tony is unsure if he’s okay with them being so chummy together.

Never There (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Absent father, swearing, threatening Request: ... reader has been under Tony’s financial care since she was a child but he never saw her as his child and saw no need to spend time with her until after the Ultron situation. But with all the years or ignorance, is the damage already done?

Science Fair (Tony Stark X Son!Reader) Warnings: Mention of neglectful parent Request: Son male reader x tony stark where tony wants to be better of a parent than Howard to male reader

Bitten (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Blood, near death Request: One more please if available. Tony stark and daughter were she gets bitten by a vampire and tony and team are extremly worried and strange is the only one that can save her? Fluff and angst. Pepper is her mom.

Left Behind (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Mention of death of a parent, a wittle bit of swearing Request: … Tony wants to adopt a kid and he choiced the reader. But the reader is actually Tony’s child by blood m, but he doesn’t know that. and she knows that she is relateted and hates Tony for ‘leaving’ her. …

Looking for Advice (Tony Stark X Son!Reader) Request: Could you maybe do a tony stark x son male reader where the male reader ask for advise to ask a girl out

Dentist Appointment (Tony X Daughter!Reader) Request: Could you write one where the reader needs to have oral surgery to remove some problem teeth but she’s petrified to make the call. But she’s in tears all nigh from the pain? Her dad Tony stark, makes the call behind her back cause he hates seeing her in pain. When they arrive at the hospital she nearly freaks out saying he betrayed her so he hugs her and says it will be ok; but when he did that he also got her in the neck with a sedative to knock her out to make it easier on everyone? Lol

Session (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM AND DEPRESSION Request: … reader is Tony’s daughter and has a history with self harming so he sends her to therapy for depression. Tony went to intro session with y/n and she says that she doesnt cut anymore and still maintains the lie and then Tony begins to notice all of the signs that point to her self harming and realises she never actually stopped? If thats okay? If not, i understand?

Dip (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Depression, self-doubt Request: Tony stark x daughter reader where her grades slip bad because of depression and she panics but Tony’s there for her and makes sure she knows it’s okay to fail?

Helping (Avengers X Teen!Reader) Warnings: Bulimia, throwing up, bullying, self conscious reader. Request: I was wondering if you would write one where the reader is Tony’s daughter (although all of them are protective of her) and she has bulimia and she gets caught purging by one of the team members.

Feeling Loved Again (Father!Tony X Teen!Reader) Warnings: Swearing Request:I had an idea. Where the reader is Tony Starks daughter (15-16 yr old) but she lives with her mom. She’s kind of tomboyish and dyes her hair funky colors so her mom gets sick of it and drops her off at the tower unexpectedly and tells tony she’s his problem now. So he gladly signs the custody papers. He totally adores her and celebrates her first night with him with take out and movies with the whole team.

Parker! (Peter Parker X Fem!Reader) Warnings: Bit of bullying, angry over protective dad. Request: Tony Stark’s daughter is popular and in a band and at a concert, Peter is getting picked on for being alone so Reader goes and kisses him and hugs him, surprising everyone with their secret relationship, much to Tony’s disapproval.

Five Days (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) SERIOUS WARNING: EATING DISORDER Other Warnings: Bullying/ teasing Request: Hey love! I was wondering if you could write something along the lines of where the reader has been in recovery from an eating disorder and then has a hard relapse? Maybe with a platonic or father Tony Stark?

It’ll Work Out (Stony X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Spoilers of Civil War, emotions Request: Hey can you do one where reader is stonys daughter and it’s just about how the family is torn apart lots of angst ends in fluff

New Environment (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Mentions of bad background and illegal activities. Request: Do you think you can do a roleplay where tonys daughter doesn’t come from the same background as him and maybe is coming from the ‘ghetto where she lived with her mom and she’s trying to act tough and stuff buts she’s actually really scared? …

Sit Down (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Injury Request: … reader sprains her ankle and still tries to do loads of things and won’t let it heal because she’s stubborn af and tony gets all protective? …

Fight Me (Peter Parker X Fem!Reader, Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Threatening (not serious) Request: Hey can I get a Tony x daughter reader where she’s always says fight me like someone says “I Was sitting there” and she says fight me ect. Anyway lots of fluff a little Peter x reader too- Og I forgot Tony x daughter reader fight me she like pure™ thanks😘

To Make You Happy (Tony X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Hints of depression Request: … She’s been depressed and going through a rough time. So to cheer her up her dad gets her a kitten even though he isn’t fond of animals. He knew she always wanted one. And she does start to cheer up and they share a dad daughter fluffy moment.

My Daughter (Tony X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Mention of death of a parent Request: … Tony has a teenage daughter he didn’t know about but the mom dies, so he takes custody and introduces her around and just overall becomes a dad of a teenager? (You don’t have to if it makes you uncomfortable)

Supporting Dad (Tony Stark X Reader) Request: Could you do reader being Tony’s kid and they’re as smart as him and decide to go into music instead of inventing? Like with Tony being the super proud band parent at every concert or somth about him being supportive

Caring Father (Tony X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Self Conscious reader, protective father, verbal abuse, body shaming Request: … reader who is on the phone with their mom and Tony (their bf, or dad, you choose!), being the overprotective dad/bf he is, has been noticing that the reader has been skipping meals. Like, the reader would only eat around lunchtime, and sometimes dinner, but thats it. He overhears her mom chastising her about how the reader needs to lose weight, ect. Can it be really fluffy?

Delirious (Tony X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Sickness Request: Tony stark x daughter request? Where she’s sick with a really high fever and completely delirious and keeps saying crazy shit. As concerned as tony is he can’t help not to laugh at some of her antics so he takes video. When she’s better he shows her the video and they both share a laugh over it.

Bookworms (Loki X Fem!Reader) Request: Hey could I request one where the reader is Tony’s daughter and she does a bunch of reading with Loki, but finds out he hasn’t read Harry Potter, freaks, and makes him read all of them?

Your Daughter (Tony X Daughter!Reader) | Part 2 Warnings: Minor Spoilers of Civil War Request: ... reader is Tony’s teenage daughter and he doesn’t know about her and during the airport scene in Civil war this teenage girl arrives in an iron man suit and stops the fight and Tony’s like who are you and then she’s replies with “your daughter” ...

Telling Him (Peter Parker X Male!Reader) Warnings: Mentions of coming out and past murder Request: ... reader is Tony’s son (probably an adoption situation?) and is closeted gay… maybe after Peter is already a part of the avengers, and not during Civil War? ...

I’m Here Now (Tony X Daughter!Reader) | Part 2 Warnings: Mention of car crash, death, injury Request: ... Her and her mom got into a bad accident. The mom dies and reader needs a blood transfusion so when the drs test her they match her to Stark. He gets the call and rushes over. Realizing he’s a dad to a teenage girl now he has the team ready a room and he welcomes her into his heart and makes her feel extra special since she lost her mom.

Who Is It? (Tony X Daughter!Reader) | Part 2 Request: ... Tonys daughter is sitting in the living room being like ‘hey I hacked into your system 'cause I’m your super smart daughter and have no where else to go’ and Tony starts to get really protectiv over her. And then finds out that she is falling in love with Peter, but Tony is basically the last one to find out? ...

Missing My Voice (Tony X Fem!Reader, Peter x Fem!Reader) | Part 2 Warnings: Blood, surgery, needles, injury Request: ... reader loves to sing and play the guitar and a ton of other instruments but goes mute during a mission (due to an injury), and how it impacts Peter and Tony? And can Tony like, go to a ton of doctors and stuff to try and find a solution? ...

Sit Down (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Injury Request: ... reader sprains her ankle and still tries to do loads of things and won’t let it heal because she’s stubborn af and tony gets all protective? ...

Being Tony Stark’s Adopted Daughter Would Include…

Be Careful (Tony X Daughter!Reader, Peter X Fem!Reader) | Part 2 Warnings: Blood, getting shot Request: ... reader is Tony’s teenage daughter who’s dating Peter and she’s just the type of person everyone loves but she’s also a really good hacker and fighter so she does missions sometimes and she ends up getting shot? ...

Caring Father (Tony X Daughter!Reader) Warnings: Self Conscious reader, protective father, verbal abuse, body shaming Request: ... reader who is on the phone with their mom and Tony ... has been noticing that the reader has been skipping meals. Like, the reader would only eat around lunchtime, and sometimes dinner, but thats it. He overhears her mom chastising her about how the reader needs to lose weight, ect. ...

Approving (Peter Parker X Reader, Tony X Daughter!Reader) Request: ... Tony says to his daughter that he doesn’t like the idea of them dating but behind her back he’s talking to the Avengers about how happy he is that his daughter found a good guy. ...

Warning Signs (Tony and Peter X Fem!Reader) Warnings: Mentions of Domestic abuse Request: ... reader goes to peter Parkers school and she also started interning at the avengers tower as a lab assistant? She gets along with the team and considers them family. She ends up not showing up at school or the tower for a few days so Peter goes to her house to check on her and finds out she’s being abused by her parents. ...

Parental Advice (Tony Stark X Daughter!Reader) | Part 2 Warnings: Teasing Request: ... Tony goes on with his life as an Avenger and all and it’s getting harder on him ... Meanwhile, you’re struggling with your social life ... you become pretty lonely and your favorite place is the tower with the avengers ... Finally, one morning, you and Tony are both up early(like, 4 am) and you talk to each other about your troubles. ...

Being Pepper’s Adopted Daughter and Tony Adopting You Would Include…

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TONY STARK - FAMILIAL

A Little Dense (Tony Stark X Sister!Reader, Clint Barton X Fem!Reader) Warnings: A bit of swearing Request: Clint and tony’s sister. You are trying to tell him that Clints gonna be a dad and tony is gonna be a uncle? The rest of the team finds out at the end. Some cute and fluff.

Meeting Her Husband (Loki X Stark!Reader) Warnings: Pregnancy Request: Tony and sister reader: he and the team discover you are in a secret relationship with Loki and you both are happily married and you are a few months pregnant with loki’s baby and he is not happy about it.

A Little Talk (Tony Stark X Brother!Reader) | Part 2 Warnings: Swearing, alcoholism Request: one with Tony as your big brother and you’re both going through a hard time or something?

Unfinished Business (Tony X Brother!Reader) Warnings: Death, death of parents, presumed death, a lot of emotions coming your way Request: … Reader is Tony Starks brother who, at a young age, runaway and now is coming back at Tony? But like Reader has some sort of a supernatural power like seeing ppl? …

I Still Love You (Bucky Barnes X Fem!Reader) Warnings: Spoilers of Civil War Request: With the stark reader and Bucky one, can you do where he blames himself for the death of readers and Tony’s parents, but she still loves him, even though Tony doesn’t allow it. Eventually Tony and reader have a heart to heart and gives her his blessing. Bucky puts aside his guilt?

Passing The Test. (Pietro X Fem!Reader) Warnings: Death threats, unplanned pregnancy, minor violence. Request: … reader being Tony´s sister. She dates Pietro for a long time and gets pregnant, and the avengers find out (exept tony) and their reaction, and at the end Tony realize because of her tummy and wants to kill pietro but at the end he is proud …

Better Choice (Tony Stark X Cousin!Reader, Peter Parker X Reader) Warnings: One swears and mentions of bed relationships and breakups Request: The reader is Tonys younger cousin (teenager) and she starts falling for Peter and tony just pets it happen because he’s better than any boyfriend the reader has had before

Where’s Nat? (Avengers X Teen!Reader) Warnings: Blood. Looooots of blood. Request: teen reader has period and goes to avengers for help but Nat isn’t home – Tony is her uncle!

Overprotective much? (Avengers X Fem!Reader) Warnings: One swear word, threatening, flirting, drinking and attempted murder by an overprotective brother. Request: ... reader is Tony´s sister and she is really beautiful (thats why Tony won´t introduce her) and the avengers are surprised and start bothering Tony and he gots really jealous and protective ...

#marvel cinematic universe #tony stark #iron man #tony stark x reader #iron man x reader #marvel #mcu #lazydoodlesandfanfic #lazydoodlesandfanfic masterlist

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alyafae-a · 2 years

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𝐇𝐀𝐖𝐊𝐄𝐘𝐄 𝐒𝐏𝐎𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐑𝐒 ( 1x06, this is long ) [ personals do not like do not reblog ]

— “ kate, you’re my partner. your mess is my mess. ” first of all. kate is his mess already thank you very much. second of all, YES HI THATS WHEN HE SIGNED THE ADOPTION PAPERS. and in a side note: wanna bet this is what he said to natasha as well? BC THATS WHAT HE DID — look, clint building all these cool trick arrows is still my jam! i love it so much i can’t even explain it. like. just think about him sitting there, tinkering, building these cool arrows, trying out new ones etc. THIS IS FUN — yel’s hairsytle is just so on point in this episode it’s a dream UGH I CANT — the way i get nat & clint vibes from yel and kate. like it’s different of course but... it’s also the same — kate tries so hard to just press another button. she tries. so. hard. AND JUST SLAPS YEL ngl hot. but got she’s like that smol child that just wants to push all the buttons. this is why clint needs a vacation! (he loves her of course) — kate and yel ‘fighting’ is what i would have imagined them to be like if they had been in cw also the vibes again — no but love how supportive they are, giving compliments and stuff. that’s what we want to see :3 — natasha watching her sis trying to shoot clint like “sis... no... don’t” — kate is beauty kate is grace ... not so much grace; also the way everyone makes clear they know her full name — her and that dude talking about his relationship and how her advice has been helpful i CANT — can’tget over jack either like... that dude... what — clint didn’t even bother to try harder to fend off the dude... a mood — LOOK CLINT SITTING IN THAT BIG ASS CHRISTMAS TREE IS EXACTLY WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE WHEN MY CAT IS SITTING IN OUR TREE = clint is a cat ... ALSO THAT OWL OH MY I LOVE IT — NO BUT THE LARPERS SHOWING UP IN COSTUME GIVES ME ASGIA.RDIANS/ETER.NALS FROM WISH VIBES — “ we’re all gonna die *laughs* ” yes clint good that’s the vibe we want WHY IS THIS SO FUNNY — the way clint didn’t want KATE to get her down from this tree. i wonder how long he would have been up there until he found a safe way down. it did look fun tho, would take that ride as well — OKAY BUT CLINTS COSTUME! ITS SOMETHING ITS NOTHING I LOVE THE COLOR THO IT MAKES ME HAPPY — kate getting the dangerous arrows is literally just a puppy getting a new toy — god them fighting together CHILLS they have no business being so epic. THE TOY CAR THO STOLEN BY AN OWL — look, lesbian but clint shooting arrows without looking and hitting its aim is just so damn hot. like SERIOUSLY — “ nice shot ” - “ yeah, no shit ” ngl this reply does something to me? we love some good confidence. clint always has nice shots! that’s his whole game — maya with her hair open hits differently

— NO BC THE WAY @whistlewidow AND I HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT THIS AND ITS SO CLOSE TO BEING EXACTLY WHAT WE TALKED ABOUT !! THE FIGHT/CONVERSATION!!!! YEL NOT BELIEVING HIM AT FIRST AND HE PROVES IT TO HER LIKE!!!!!! — I FEEL SO VALIDATED OKAY YOU HAVE NO IDEA !!!! — ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE WAY CLINT REALLY DOESNT EVEN TRY TO HURT YEL ??? HE ONLY BLOCKS HER AND IS JUST SO PASSIVE!! BC !!! HE KNOWS NAT WOULDNT WANT THIS — cIint’s “ i couldn’t stop her ” bc he has always known she’s better than him WE FOUGHT BUT SHE WAS BETTER THAN ME — “ why do you deserve it? ” - “ i don’t ” my fucking clint its bc she loved her fam and wanted to do this for them — THE WAY HE LETS HER HIT HIM!!!! — THE WHISTLE!!!! IT HAD TO BE SOMETHING LIKE THAT !! IT HAD TO BE SOMETHING SPECIAL BC OF COURSE NAT WOULD TALK ABOUT YEL “ SHE TALKED ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME ” — also thank you for summing up bw — “ SHE LOVED YOU ” i TOLD you he would say that I TOLD YOU SO — “ i loved her so much ” - “ me too ” : NO BUT THE WAY THIS VALIDATES ME EVEN MORE bc my hc is still that clint and nat are soulmates (platonic & romantic) AND LIKE ITS ALWAYS BEEN OBVIOUS HOW IMPORTANT SHE IS TO HIM BUT TO HAVE HIM SAY IT HITS DIFFERENTLY I AM NOT OKAY THIS IS GIVING ME SO MUCH — well, i wanted them to hug tho... like yeah wasn’t going to happen but... LOOK i wanted them to celebrate christmas together. she was supposed to meet his kids who loves auntie nat

— kate saving her mom like, youre a good hero. also uh, kin.gpin’s hat is nice — hmmmm the stab stab from maya :/ well done girl — also yeah i thought eleanor was going to die. but i guess... her being imprisoned ... close enough? — the way she underestimates her own daughter like??? make it more obvious you don’t know her. but it’s okay that’s why clint adopts her — the dude had an arrow in his chest of course this wouldn’t kill him. oh well but maya. hot. — GOD THE LARPERS also the girl flirting with jack? i mean, good for you. the way i wanna write jack tho? pathetic — “ every now and then you come across somebody that just makes you better in every way ” this is so wholesome BC YES KATE MAKES HIM BETTER NAT MADE HIM BETTER for the sake of the show YES LAURA AND THE KIDS MAKE HIM BETTER!!! — just clint being a dork tho, that’s my jam. that’s my boy — “ AND I AM SO PROUD OF YOU ” CLINT IS SUCH A PROUD DAD AND HE LOVES HER DAD MODE ACTIVATE — “ we gotta walk that dog ” don’t wanna know what lucky did all this time... bet he’s like vina — GOD YES ALL OF THEM CELEBRATING TOGETHER IS JUST !! obvious BUT SWEET! and how they all welcomed kate bc yeah she’s part of the fam now — LOOK LAURA!!!! also obvious but LOVE HOW MY CHARACTER TAG FOR HER IS EVEN MORE VALID NOW agent minx — headcanon confrimed: clint sees a stray, clint must adopt — kate’s name ideas YES i mean they suck but!!! — “ I ACTUALLY HAVE AN IDEA ” ... TITLE

— the way, in my mind, they would all celebrate christmas together. the bird fam, kate, lucky and yel.

— this fucking musical i can’t this is hell i mean i hate musicals in general but ... this hurts. x.x

thx for reading if you made it this far. <3

#𝐀 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐀𝐍 𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐁𝐎𝐖. ooc post #i don't want this in the tags #so there's a title and a read more #also wow my voice is really annoying?

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astreakofgay · 3 years

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cynthia houston headcanons because it’s Pride month

credit to @ashowstoppingstarkid for the format!!

- cynthia has a weakness no one would ever suspect

- people think it’s her ego. or the way she scares and threatens and attempts to harm her own agents. surely there’s no loyalty among any of them? there is. that’s another story

- no one would suspect it’s one woman

- a woman who scares the hell out of cynthia. the only person cynthia is genuinely 100% afraid of. is she a fellow agent? is she an assassin? is she even a threat?

- nope

- she’s pure sunshine of a human being. just the absolute sweetest woman you will ever meet in your life. she’s happy and kind and cute and dresses like a 50′s housewife and it’s rare to catch her without a smile. her name is julie. she is the golden retriever stereotype. she would cry if she hurt a fly

- she terrifies cynthia

- because she gives cynthia Feelings and makes cynthia smile. it’s disgusting. because julie is the first person who has ever made cynthia blush. because a damn compliment and taking liberties by brushing cynthia’s hair out of her face make cynthia’s cheeks go warm against her will. because when cynthia threatens everything this woman has ever loved if she dares tell anyone what just happened

- julie laughs. julie laughs at cynthia houston right to her face. julie says it’s only fair when cynthia has been making her blush since they met

- she’s going to hurt everything julie ever loved? please don’t. she’d hate to have to take cynthia to the hospital on such a nice day

- cynthia glares at her and debates taking out the knife in her pocket. she should show this damn woman she’s not a person to underestimate. it takes a few moments for the implication to register. there’s that blush again. cynthia will remove that fucking smile off julie’s face whatever it takes

- turns out julie’s lips are just as soft as they look. it doesnt work. julie is smiling even bigger. cynthia is still blushing. julie is now blushing too at least? she’ll just have to keep trying until it works. (it never works)

- cynthia can’t figure out this woman. she’s a liability. she’s a damn threat to cynthia’s well-being. she is cynthia fucking houston and she needs to Control the things that scare her

- so she marries julie

- the logical choice, obviously. she does it to keep a close eye on her. no other reason. definitely not because she’s in love. abso-fucking-lutely not. cynthia houston doesnt do love

- she manages this in the 1950′s because again. cynthia houston. who’s gonna stop her?

- she called in two (2) major favors for the marriage certificate. she doesn’t regret it. the officiator who signed it laughed when she glared at him the whole time with her hand hovering over her gun. she shot him. he was wearing a vest. that she did regret. she should have checked if he had a vest on

- their wedding pictures are the only time she’s smiled without restraint for a photo. one of them has that blush that started all this shit. cynthia burns it.

- cynthia comes home one day to it framed in their bedroom. how the HELL-

- she comes home every day to someone happy to see her. to a woman who took her last name like she doesn’t know that name is intertwined with blood and terror. a woman who wears the ring cynthia gave her like being a houston is something to be proud of

- cynthia never once regrets putting that ring on her

- cynthia yelled at julie one time. once. it was on a shitfest of a day, she lost agents to a mistake. she blamed herself. she took it out on julie. julie’s face when she did it was worse than getting shot. julie turned and walked out of the room without a word. it’s the first time cynthia ever apologizes for yelling. her wife smiles and opens her arms in response and that’s that. cynthia never did it again

- they’ve been married for 5 years when curtis gets hired. more and more often cynthia comes homes with fire in her eyes and yelling about this man having delusions of competence. about this man who is flying up through the ranks. about this man who nearly ruined the damn mission but ended up saving their asses

- by the time curt meets owen, julie just sips her wine and reads the newspaper while cynthia rants about this idiot she wants to strangle. julie knows that tone. she’s expecting the adoption papers anyday now

- julie houston is a threat to national security. if anything happened to her, cynthia wouldn’t hesitate to wipe out every single person involved in the slowest and most painful way possible. she would get her back. no matter who or what she has to betray

- julie houston is cynthia’s weakness. she’s also the only reason some days that cynthia doesnt give up on the world entirely

#cynthia houston #spies are forever #headcanons #god i love cynthia #and i love the idea of how she'd react to falling in love #she'd be disgusted #there is so much more where this came from #this is just my cliffnotes #feel free to send me Any asks about this if you want!#i love sharing everything i think about cynthia

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gothfoxx · 3 years

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So I was reading your Tumblr prompts posted on Ao3. Thank you for doing the ones I sent in. I love them and I just read With a Heart of Kryptonite and this little bunny jumped into my head. What if Marinette biodad was Lex Lurther. And Super in a way is his son to. So what if after finding out how Super boybis treated by both Lex &Superman. The Dupain-Cheng family shit up as Mari parents know she is a hero now and go bring their son/brother home after giving people a talking to the need it

that would be very interesting, the Dupain-Cheng family seems very close and very loving so it would be a great place for Conner to grow up. In the teen justice they had him just never age past 16 which was always weird to me but maybe with creation magic he can age normally. Looking so much alike could help Conner feel a connection to Earth and humanity that being raised in a superhero fortress with kids so unlike himself and never getting to see what a family should look like wasnt good for him. Just really it would be so good for his mental and emotional health to be raised with his half-sister and her parents.

Tom and Sabine are both shown to be fierce and smart, they would fight hell and high-water to get Conner as soon as they are aware he exists and that he is Mari's brother. Even if they dont know and they just happen to find out that Superman rejected his kid because the kid was an experiment they would be like, "Square up Superman, meet us in the pit!" because they are pissed that just because the kid is a surprise the high and mighty alien doesnt want him, "like hello! so many human children are surprises and most of them still are loved by their parents! We dont know where you grew up but we where we were we were taught to love our kids!"

And then theres the how is Lex the bio dad of Mari, maybe Mari is a failed super clone herself but she didnt get any Kryptonian powers so Lex put her up for adoption with fake papers? Maybe her mom had a fling and Lex signed over his rights cause he didnt want a kid(at the time)? maybe Lex corp sought out couples that would have Lex's kids so he could pick an heir later on from all the kids once he retired? IDK anything is possible with Lex really, hes nuts!

But yeah i would love for them to adopt Conner and give him the best life and Mari to be the best big sister and teach him to be a kid and his own person away from the shadows of his fathers.

#vixen-uchiha #mlb DC crossover #mlb au #bio!dad lex

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houseki-no-suffering · 5 years

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on ch 82 and what the hell is the deal with phos

super long wall of words ahead, you've been warned. also, im not qualified to discuss the emotional effects of trauma, so please correct me where im wrong and don’t hesitate to add on this post

contains an analysis of phos’ character arc, explanation on why and how they snapped and what might happen to our child next:

1. genki phos 2. post winter phos 3. laphos 4. on trauma 5. on snapping 6. speculations about the future

so, first things first, I could not help but notice the sheer number of parallels between this chapter and other significant points of the story. it seems to me that parallels are becoming more and more frequent as the moon arc goes on, and that’s not just because there are simply more chapters to draw parallels from as the story grows in size.

I believe that we’re at a turning point in the story, or even that the turning point has been reached, (aechmea telling barbata to fix phos for the umpteenth time is most likely going to give phos the last treasure, but ill get to it).

so, to try and understand what in the seven hells is going on with our baby at this point (the fandom collectively adopted phos since chapter 2, sign the papers if you haven’t already and donate to the fund to send phos to therapy) let’s retrace phos’ character journey.

1: genki phos

the phos who is too good for this world, too pure, the cinnamon roll who has no idea what the hell is gonna happen to them. oh joy.

hnk sets off as a coming of age story. phos is the youngest, they’re seemingly useless in a society that values usefulness above anything else so genki phos is initially driven by lack of purpose.

i’ve speculated already on the characteristics of the lustrous society, a society that emphasizes sameness over difference and that has no place for outcasts like phos and cinnabar. your value, in lustrous society, is dictated by how much and in which way you can contribute to the survival of the species, with elite fighters (the diamonds) being at the apex of the social pyramid and everyone else coming after.

additionally, while gems live in a highly interdependent and close-knitted society, such interdependence never takes into account emotions, loss, imagination, introspection and free-thinking. the society is extremely practical, apathetic, immobile, and everyone is expected to conform to that.

think about antarc: they’re the poster child of lustrous society: a 3 mohs hardness gem who managed to become an elite fighter out of sheer willpower, who’s blindly loyal to sensei, who sacrifices themselves for the greater good (the group’s interests > the individual’s interests), that does little if any introspection and that is happy about all of this and wants to leave it this way.

phos isn’t like this at all.

since the very beginning of the series we learn that phos is an anomaly. and that’s okay, other gems have been anomalies, like padparadscha, cinnabar, even antarcticite, but while those gems found a way to tip toe to the margins of lustrous society to remain unobtrusive exceptions, or forge themselves into proper, useful members of the group, phos cannot do that. which is ironic, because we know that one of phos’ core characteristics is that they’re able to change and to bring about change in a world that is as immobile and still and stiff as… well.. rock.

like @ruddy-rutile pointed out in a past analysis, phos’ problem wasn’t so much that they didn’t fit in, but that they didn’t fit in the appropriate way: they’re emotional, they’re loud, they’re unreliable, they’re not apathetic. they’re kind. compassionate. imaginative. and imagination is something the other gems lack.

this fuels a deep sense of self-hatred that even at this early stages of the story is lying just beneath the surface and oozes out quite easily, like when phos wants to help ventricosus and mumbles that it’s no problem if they die in the attempt, they’re a good for nothing after all, what difference would it make if they dont come back. at least they were able to help someone, contrary to how they were unable to help cinnabar.

this is the leitmotif of the series: phos is a kind, selfless gem who cultivates a deep sense of self-hatred. the internalized pressure and need to feel useful turns into a necessity for change. they need to save cinnabar, they need to save ventricosus, they need to become a fighter, they need to help sensei.

contrary to most of the other gems, phos loves and loves openly and unconditionally, they’re self-less by nature and that selflessness is a barrier that hides the real reason theyre so ready to put their life on the line for other people: the fact that phos thinks that their own life isnt wort a scrap.

as someone who believes to be worthless, guided by shame and guilt just for being alive and fueled by a deep desire to feel loved and accepted (just like a child), phos is unable to cope with grief and emotion if not by guilt tripping themselves even further.

the fact that the amethysts were almost taken is their fault, the fact that cinnabar is suicidal is their fault, the fact that antarc was taken is their fault, same with ghost’s abduction. the only way phos knows to cope with this guilt is by doing what every other gem does: bury these feelings deep inside their head and throw themselves into work. be useful, like alexandrite, rutile or red beryl.

2. post winter phos

what was a story about purpose, about phos’ coming of age, reaches an end at this very point, with antarc’s death. phos has become stronger at this point of the story, they have agathe legs and gold arms and they have grief to cope with, trauma.

just like alex’s job is studying the enemy and red’s job is making clothes, phos’ job is the one they originally desired for themselves: to fight. because there is nothing as valued as a good fighter in gem society and probably young phos unconsciously hoped to overcome self-hatred by taking on the most useful job there is.

post winter antarc is a skilled soldier, so skilled that bort wants to pair up with them. phos has reached their old goal: through loss and maturity, now they have a place within their society, they’re accepted and appreciated, valued but not loved. because these gems are so, so bad at emotions.

and this is where ms ichikawa begins to fool us all. she had us think that this story would be simple, but now hnk starts its steep and unrelenting detour toward existentialism and phos begins their dance toward madness and bottomless grief.

post winter phos is a soldier, they can fight off lunarians, but theyre still blaming themselves for antarc’s death.

we already said that phos is a very emotional gem and they possess a fervid imagination (probably just like lapis). so what do they do? they start thinking. “maybe i can retrieve antarc if we collect enough pieces. if i can communicate with the lunarians. if i can understand why we’re fighting.”

thinking quickly turns into questioning: why are we fighting? why are we so weak? why am i different? what changed me? is it the new additions, is it just life experiences? can we change? how can we change? antarc told me i shouldnt shy away from life, so im gonna push myself further and further.

that’s when shiro’s arc happens and sensei seems to know something about it, something he won’t tell the gems. phos’ questions suddenly turn to him.

phos is pretty much paranoid at this point of the narrative: they have experienced loss for the first time. consumed by guilt and grief for antarc’s recent abduction (even if phos still doesnt know what death means, we’ll get to that in a while), phos cannot think straight. they can’t be questioning the one authority every gem recognizes, the person phos and everyone else wants to protect, their leader, father, teacher.

phos feels like scum just for even thinking about it, as loyal and young as they are. and yet once you start questioning one minuscule thing about the way you have always lived your life, more and more will follow. it’s a cascade effect and it becomes faster the higher the number of questions, until you’re left with nothing but doubts and you must take into your hands the responsibility to find out for yourself.

this is more or less what happens to phos. they feel awful for doubting sensei the first time, in chapter 27, so they spill their guts to cinnabar, confessing their sins. but what cinnabar says does anything but put phos at ease: of course phos is doubting sensei: he’s shady, everyone knows.

however, while cinnabar is a quiet outcast, extremely prudent (and cowardly if you want) in the way they decide to face life, phos is the total opposite. they just needed a little nudge, they were already on the edge of a cliff of doubts and existential fears. cinnabar’s words are the second, big step that sets phos off on their path to the moon.

chapter 28 is when we see phos self-destructing because of this inner conflict for the first time, a pattern that will be repeated again and again the more phos loses sight of the truth, of a reliable something, a goal to cling onto and find direction.

it is ironic, because phos becomes a direction, a goal, the gems and the moon people’s hope (ch 59 and 72), but in doing so they have no hope left for themselves. let’s not forget that phos is very young by gems’ standards, not to mention in comparison to the moon people. how fair is to expect from a traumatized child to save the world and find answers to questions that run thousands of years deep and give phos nothing in return?

the pressure is enough to break phos and it does, quite literally, over and over and over again.

3. Laphos

lapis’ head comes at a time when phos was literally no longer able to manage this pressure.

it brings a waft of fresh air, it brings what emotional, kind phos needed to detach themselves from grief: coldness, rationality. and yet, it takes something away from phos as well: laphos is the phos that can no longer talk with cinnabar, the phos that brings cairn to reject the gems altogether and launch themselves into their kin’s killer’s arms. laphos is the gems and lunarians’ hope for a brief time, then it becomes the enemy.

i find it interesting how phos feels responsible for goshe and morga’s abduction too, even if phos was unconscious when it happened. phos has no clear boundaries between themselves and the rest of the world. they feel responsible for everything and guilty for everything. whatever they do will never be enough neither to make up for their past mistakes nor to find everyone a clear sense of purpose, safety, truth.

ichikawa plays with truth a lot. truth is that the lunarians are bad people and the gems must defend themselves, truth is that sensei is shady, truth is that the moon people are actually good, truth is that death is real, truth is that sensei is evil, truth is that cinnabar hates phos, truth is that the gems are evil, truth is that sensei is the only one that loves phos. who knows what the next truth will be, but can you call it truth, at this point?

if there is one point, i believe, that ichikawa is trying to make clear is that truth is subjective and that it changes, just like phos’ goal, the more knowledge you acquire and the more mistakes you make. truth is subjective but it must be sought after: you gotta keep fighting, you gotta move on even if you keep making mistakes, even if you cant undo your actions.

and another thing i think she’s trying to say is that you cannot make it alone. the moment phos tried to take it all on their shoulders, they moment they acquired lapis’ head, is the moment everything came crumbling down ten times faster than before.

and the most ironic part is that phos is still kind, even underneath that mantle of aloofness: they tried to do everything by themselves because they didn’t want to put anyone in danger, but in doing so they manipulated the gems just like aechmea. and aechmea knows and he’s been using phos for this.

4. Even more trauma

running after truth and after newer and more nuanced goals, phos has completely lost sight of themselves.

where do their alliances lie? what about their history? phos wakes up in ch 72 after the night raid and immediately breaks into pieces because they’re reminded of how cinnabar attacked them, the one gem they thought was their friend. one of the few truths phos had been clinging to.

phos wakes up after the night raid and asks the enemy “to the lunarians i look like a gem and to the gems i look like a lunarian. what am i?”

they break into pieces because they still believe they’re useless. they couldn't save cinnabar, they couldn't save antarc, they couldn't communicate with the earth gems, they couldn't even see adamant.

this is reminiscent of the very beginning of the manga: phos needs to feel useful, they need a goal, they need to be good at something. and just like they were ready to get lost at sea forever to help ventricosus they’re ready to die for someone else’s cause (not even phos’ own because they have no idea what to believe in at this point) just to be of use. after all, to phos, phos is nothing more than a scrap.

euc disagrees. ch 71 “we need you in our future” is a sentence that phos has probably ached to hear for centuries. “we need you. you are loved, you mean something, you are enough. you belong. we cannot build a future where you aren’t part of the equation. you matter”

and look at the way phos looks at euc. they can barely believe them and in fact they don’t. phos expresses some concern about dying (”after all, those less than 5 includes me”) but they still throw themselves into danger, they still take no care of themselves.

Phos’ self hatred and self-destructive tendencies run deeper than euc’s words could ever cut. those words meant well, but they were too little too late. phos thinks they don’t deserve this kind of hope, they cannot understand it, cannot fathom a world in which they are true and so they will go on believing that they are alone and worthless. next time they go on earth, they’ll go alone and unharmed

it is ironic. they did so much, they went to the moon and back multiple times, put their life on the line multiple times, made more progress toward unveiling the truth about the lunarians and finding a way for them to be free of samsara than anyone else did in hundreds (presumably) of thousands of years. they did it by themselves. in barely three hundred years. that’s impressive. and yet it’s not enough for phos. in their mind, they just keep failing.

so what’s the big deal? they can sacrifice themselves, it’s the least they can do and no one will miss them after all. unfortunately, this is true, at least to some extent.

im appalled by how little even the moon gems care about phos. they’re so self-centered it’s almost funny.

even alex, who has gone through loss and grief if not as much at least in a way similar to phos cannot find enough compassion in themselves to be concerned about phos’ wellbeing after a few months on the moon.

ive heard people mention how this could be a result of the moon people injecting who knows what into the gems or manipulating them someway or another, but i believe that there was no need to. phos is an anomaly after all, their kindness is an anomaly. the lustrous are little more than self-centered children: they are able of little if no introspection and they cannot process complex emotions like grief if not by shutting off those emotions altogether.

the moon gems are still vaguely concerned about phos. in ch 76, when phos departs for earth for the last time, they do tell them to be careful and come back if things get bad, but they do little more than that. it’s little comfort and too little emotional closeness and by no means close to the huge amount of support and (emotional) assistance that phos needs at this point.

phos tries to make do with what they have: a will to end this war and the superficial words of what should be their family, but it’s not even remotely enough. and yet phos, just like any other lustrous, is very bad at introspection: they don’t notice or if they notice they repress it. what’s one more thing down the subconscious after all? it’s fine. phos can take it, until they can no more and they snap without having any idea that they will snap.

phos’ journey, which has made them increasingly more emotional, fragile and human (the last one quite literally) has also made phos even more alone than they were at the beginning of the story. more alone, with the same sense of worthlessness, the same urgency to be good for something or self-destroy, and so much more grief, trauma, guilt and repressed emotions.

5. snapping

“I mustn’t think of anything” phos reminds themselves in ch 76. because thinking never brought anything good and because euc would see right through it.

once again, phos is repressing emotions. here they go, trying to be a cold blooded killer, ready to betray sensei again, the one person who has been good to them and that phos tried to hate with all their heart but just couldnt.

as ive written in a previous analysis, one of aechmea’s lowest blows was to tell the gems he was exploiting and manipulating to reach a salvation he doesnt deserve that if the gems want to acquire freedom they must do so by themselves. talk about coherence.

but that isnt all, he sinks even lower than this: he makes phos and the others question sensei’s affection for them. he says that sensei’s love is fake, it’s synthetic, the gems should totally make him pray or destroy him, no remorse, no strings attached. it’s such a dirty move.

no wonder it confuses phos even more. phos believes it, or tries to, they say they want to break sensei into pieces, but after the night raid they realize that it cant be that simple. sensei never attacked them. he has always been good to phos. and phos feels even more worthless, more of a traitor for daring believe in love, in sensei’s affection, when here they are, on the lunarians’ side, ready to betray him again.

how dare phos hope for anything? they dont deserve love, they dont deserve hope, they dont deserve happiness. they can try to give it to other people, they’ll kill themselves in order to do so, but they have no more hope and no love left for themselves, and they had so little to begin with.

as ive said, phos has little self-awareness and little introspection. i do believe that they had no idea they were going to snap until they did. even in ch 77, when sensei tells them he cannot pray, phos spends their last seconds of consciousness (before being attacked by all of the gems) to kindly ask him to pray. they dont care about themselves, but they dont reflect long enough to consider that reaching out to sensei like that could be interpreted as hostile by the paranoid earth gems. i think this is the first sign that phos is about to snap: they’re quite literally desperate.

tired beyond measure and forced to spend 220 more years in isolation, broken into pieces scattered all over the island, when phos comes to their senses again once kongo reassembles them they’re beyond despair. this war is taking the last toll on them and phos has no more energy to go on.

“please,” they say “pray. do it for no one else but me. grant me mercy,” from one bodhisattva to the other. they’re still somewhat normal, but when sensei fails to pray again phos can’t take it anymore. desperation and rage, fueled by hopelessness, worthlessness, grief and exhaustion make phos launch themselves against sensei, which, ironically, it’s exactly what the story needs.

apparently, phos is human enough to activate sensei but not human enough to make him pray. however, when the two of them join hands, sensei can actually pray. maybe it’s because both phos and sensei are intended to be bodhisattva? maybe because human voice commands are not as strong as contact? i have no idea.

phos has snapped by the way, and it’s weird how they go from “If only you weren’t here” to “sensei actually loves me” in a couple of chapters. in a certain way, we’re seeing phos going back to their roots: they love sensei and trust in sensei’s love, they’re once again openly emotional and impulsive, they’re once again ostracized by the gems (of course, much more violently this time).

i have written about how, after ‘fusing’ with sensei for a brief second, phos doesnt speak for the entirety of ch 81. they look and act like a literal monster, a scared animal, which is ironic since we know that they’re now human. i hypothesized that they might be reborn and that’s why they don’t speak, they’re a literal infant, but in light of ch 82, i think they’re simply hurt beyond measure.

they reversed to their old emotional persona, vomiting out all the emotions and pain and rage and hate they repressed during these 300 years. and yet they still don’t hurt anyone, not as much and as deliberately as they could at least.

they’re conscious enough to recognize the notebook and be reminded of their lost friends, realize how little the earth gems care for phos and for what they’re doing. and, i believe, when phos is rescued and comes back to the moon, they are, for the first time in the whole manga, enraged by the earth gems’ stupidity and sheer ungratefulness.

phos has been fighting for the wellbeing of everyone for centuries, putting their life on the line, never asking for anything in return and always believing that they were doing the right thing. and yet it’s not enough.

aechmea is a clever politician, and like every good politician he’s good at picking up changes and turning them in his favor.

he notices that there’s something wrong with phos and with the way they feel about the gems. maybe he doesnt yet realize that phos is angry at them for being ungrateful, but he senses something so he provokes phos: “you said to leave you on earth last time. did you change your mind?” that is “i’m not your enemy. see? im doing what you want me to do. not quite like those people down there on earth. oh, wait, were those your friends? aw, such a pity. to think they attacked you after everything you’ve done for them. but they’re your family, right? i’ll send you back to them if this is what you want. see? i’ll listen to your wishes. i am grateful.”

look how intently he looks at phos as phos incoherently and obsessively repeats the same thing over and over: “he would have prayed. he would have prayed for me. he loves me. he would have prayed.” if you want, this is also a syìubtle way for phos to apologize: they still feel responsible for their failure, but aechmea must understand: phos did everything they could, it would have worked, it was the gems’ fault.

adamant put phos back together, showing phos that he still cares. he is the only one that loves phos, while the gems (all gems, phos doesnt care much for differences at this point) keep hurting phos even if phos is only trying to help. so they must be killed. to hell with them all. and, notice, phos doesnt include themselves in the ‘gem’ category: they’re no longer a lustrous. they’re a monster, a liminal creature.

with nothing left to believe in if not sensei’s love and a promise to make him pray and then die in peace, phos wants to destroy the only thing that they believe stands between them and finally being useful, but also between them and freedom (freedom from suffering, from guilt, from existing, from their pain, from being): the gems.

this isn’t the first time that phos wants to kill something: in ch 68 they spoke about crushing sensei to pieces. it’s heartbreaking how phos went from “if only the moon people weren’t here” to “if only sensei weren’t here” to “if only the gems weren’t here.” will it turn into: “if only i weren’t here?” who are phos’ allies? who does phos feel kinship with? who is phos? they no longer know, and they’ve not known for a long time.

aechmea has noticed and he’s quick to turn the situation to his advantage. he shakes phos’ hand, he’ll grant them freedom just like phos will grant the lunarians’ freedom. he’ll forgive phos for failing, for their sins, for the bottomless despair and guilt that phos has been living with for centuries. salvation, hope, that is all phos needs.

as @rinboz pointed out, phos’ gold in ch 82 takes the shape of a lotus seed pod, a direct reference to when antarc was abducted and the gold had turned into a lotus flower.

through pain, phos had blossomed into a new character that day, marking the beginning of their long journey toward truth and toward discovering that there is no truth. the day the story changed from a coming of age manga to something much, much more intricate.

phos’ pod is empty, they have nothing left to lose, it’s a dead flower. this is the end of the journey that started with antarc’s abduction. when phos wakes up again, it will probably be with new memories and a new addition to their body, possibly red diamond.

phos’ self destruction has reached its apex because it finally became so intense to extend outwards, to other people that, in their immense grief, phos wants to bring down with them. this might be a minuscule form of progress: anger is better than repressing emotions at least, but phos’ problems are far from being solved.

6. on the future

what will be of phos then? it really depends.

the fact that they’re finally showing all that sufferance and those emotions they tried so hard to repress is good, but aechmea is still there to take advantage of it.

phos will never be free as long as they dont associate themselves with someone that truly loves them and as long as they cant find someone that can help them deal with their emotions. aechmea is just using them and only ichikawa knows what he meant when he told barbata to be careful with those 200 years emotions.

theoretically, phos was unconscious during the timelapse, but if there are emotions to treat carefully maybe they weren’t? maybe the change we’ve seen in phos this chapter depends on what they had to endure during that time. or maybe aechmea simply wants to make sure that his pet is easy to use.

i do believe we’re close to the end. i dont know if it will be the end of the series or just the end of phos as we know them. i could hope for something good to finally happen to them and for them to heal, but it would take a therapist or someone that loves phos.

maybe euclase could side up with sensei, they seemed the most concerned about phos’ status and the most prone to believe them. maybe goshe and cicada could do something again, maybe rutile will fix padpa once more and padpa will talk with the earth gems (not very likely, but im throwing theories left and right at this point), or maybe barbata will refuse to follow aechmea’s instructions, at least in part, and try to help phos.

as always, im afraid we’ll have to wait. in the meantime, please hug phos. if you read up to this point hug phos. hug them now and shower them with love, because no one else will

#houseki no kuni #land of the lustrous #hnk #phosphophyllite #meta #best

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Taemin is adjusting well :D does he ever get the courage to go visit his guardian angel parents in prison after a few years? Write them because he still loves them? Or is he advised by sooman and his therapist to completly block them out of his life?

Upside Down: The Letter

(tw abuse, kidnapping)

Taemin is advised by both his therapist and Sooman to not seek out any contact with the couple who kidnapped him, at least not so soon. It might do more harm than good right now, they told him.

They’re in jail for a long time, but not forever. Fifteen years. Taemin had been told that was a lenient sentencing. He didn’t think it sounded very lenient.

It wasn’t hard to find out how to contact them. A private browser and a few searches later, and he had mailing addresses for both of them, for the two separate prisons they were in. It still made his heart ache at the idea of his parents being in prison. Like criminals. They weren’t criminals.

He can’t go visit them. There was no way it would work. He’s a minor and the supposed victim and he would no doubt need Sooman to sign him in, not to mention how he would even get there?

So he decided to write a letter. The same one to both of them, pretty much.

Hi Mom,

It feels really weird writing you a letter and not being able to just talk to you. But a lot of people told me I can’t talk to you yet, so I can’t even try to call you and it sucks a lot. I want to visit you so so bad but I know no one will let me. I just want you to know I miss you a lot and I want to see you really bad, but for now all I can do is send you letters. It’s better than nothing I guess. I hope you’ll write me back.

This has been the absolute worst year of my entire life. Every time I thought it couldn’t get worse, it got a million times worse.

The people they sent me to, my “parents,” were the worst. They were evil. Completely evil. Then they said I was actually fourteen not sixteen and they wouldn’t even let me go in the right grade at school, they would get all pissed whenever I said I wasnt supposed to be in first year, and they made me repeat it. I hated it. My new school was stupid and gross and everyone was stupid and gross.

I won’t tell you what else happened because I don’t want to make you upset. I ended up getting taken away from them after a few months. I was happy to be away from them. But I thought it would mean I would get to go back to you, but it didn’t, and it just made everything worse. But they’re not my parents. You and Dad are my parents. I just want you to know you’re still my parents. You’ll always be my parents, I don’t care what anyone else says. Everyone else says I have Stockholm Syndrome. I don’t even really know what Stockholm Syndrome is but I know I don’t have it.

Then I ended up at this group home. It was called a boys home or something. Like forty other teenage boys all in this one big gross house and there were four of us in each room and it was the worst. I’m never gonna complain about the SHINee dorm ever again.

Then I got sent to another new school and they still put me in first year and I hated it even more and no one would listen to me at all. And my roommates were crazy and evil.

But then Lee Sooman visited me and he promised everything would be okay. I thought he was gonna say he found a way for me to go back to you and Dad. But he said I had to wait. And to fight back if anyone hurt me.

So I fought back but then I got in a lot of trouble and so I ran away. I went to the company building. And then Sooman adopted me. He adopted both of us. And I hadn’t seen brother at all and I missed him so much but he’s here now. I still can’t believe Sooman adopted him too. He’s really nice. I think he’s a good dad.

And I still don’t really know what’s going and everyone still says I’m only fifteen and it all feels like a nightmare.

I miss you. I miss you so much. Please write me back because I miss you more than anything and I still feel like I’m in a nightmare.

I told everyone I think you and Dad are my guardian angels. Because you didn’t kidnap me, you saved me. Right? Because you love me.

I love you. Please write me back.

Love,

Taemin

Taemin includes both the address for the dorm and for home for them to write him back. And for weeks, Taemin checks both mailboxes religiously, to best anyone else to them, so no one will see if he gets a letter from a prison. It has to be a secret. It has to be a total secret.

But when he still hasn’t gotten any letters after three weeks, he loses hope. He gets frustrated and upset and angry, and he thinks he’s never going to hear from his parents ever again.

Until he comes home after school one day to find Sooman sitting at the kitchen table holding his head up, a letter in front of him. Just a single letter, still in the envelope. Unopened.

“Are you mad at me?” is the first thing out of Taemin’s mouth.

“No,” Sooman says immediately, and he sits up straight and motions for Taemin to come sit down with him.

So Taemin goes over, sits in the furthest end from Sooman as he can, and he keeps his backpack on his lap to hug close to him.

It’s a letter from his mom. Sitting there in the table. Staring at him.

“Can I open it?”

Sooman sighs and runs a hand over his face, but he pushes the letter over to Taemin.

“You can open it,” he says softly. “But I want you to read it here first. With me.”

“Out loud?”

“No, not if you don’t want,” Sooman says. “I just would like to be with you while you read it.”

Taemin tears into the envelope with eager fingers, rips the paper out, and unfolds it so fast he almost tears it in half.

And the first thing he does is run his fingers over his name written in his mom’s handwriting. Because it’s something so simple but he missed seeing it, reminds him that she still exists, that she’s still there and still thinking about him.

But not even halfway through the letter, he’s gripping the paper too tight and he’s got tears in his eyes. Because she’s telling him he’s wrong. The one person in the world who should be agreeing with him, who should think exactly the same as him. And she’s saying exactly what everyone else is.

Taemin, your father and I love you more than anything. We took you in because we love you. But we aren’t your guardian angels. And we never were.

What we did was wrong. We wanted to help you and we wanted you to be our child, but we did it the wrong way. And we will never regret taking you or your brother, because we will always love you, but that doesn’t make it right.

“She’s wrong,” he argues through fresh tears, shaking his head. “She’s wrong. They are my guardian angels, they are. I know it.”

He’s crying and his head is dipped low, the letter crinkling in his hands.

All Sooman does is move into the chair next to Taemin, and he puts a comforting arm around Taemin’s shoulders, squeezing his arm. Taemin tries reading the rest, tries to get through the end of the letter, but the tears are blurring his vision and the sobs he refuses to let out are wracking his entire body, and he just can’t.

“I think now,” Sooman says softly, letting Taemin turn into him, hugging him back, “you understand why we said it was too soon to try to contact them.”

“But why?” he asks, his voice muffled. “I don’t - I don’t understand.”

“I don’t either,” Sooman says. “They may not even understand.”

“I just - I can’t-” he stammers, “If they’re not my guardian angels, then - then what are they?”

Sooman is quiet. Doesn’t answer for a few minutes, just continues holding Taemin close. And Taemin is sure he’s going to get lectured or yelled at about how his guardian angel idea is stupid and childish and he’s been told before that it isn’t true so he needs to stop believing it.

Instead, Sooman’s voice is soft and reassuring as he tells Taemin, “They were your parents. And in many ways, they will always be your parents. Because I do truly believe they loved you. And they loved your brother. And they loved the family you all were together.”

It surprises Taemin, because it’s not really something Sooman has ever said, not really something anyone has said since all of this started.

“But I want you to know,” Sooman says, “that you have a family right here that loves you, too. And we all only want what’s best for you.”

Taemin nods, tears still falling from his eyes.

The letter is put away somewhere safe. Somewhere Taemin can read it again later. When he’s ready. And when the letter from his dad comes, Taemin asks Sooman to keep it with the letter from his mom.

“Just until I’m ready,” he says.

“Just until you’re ready,” Sooman agrees. “And you can tell me whenever that is.”

It helps. Taemin is glad to know they’re in a safe place, even if he doesnt know when he’ll be ready to finally read them.

#taemin #shinee #upside down au

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irkenheretic · 4 years

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okay i promised id do it and im doing it: Explaining The Plot Of That AU I’m Vague About: The Post

(as i was preparing to write this i actually got my 250th follower, which slapped)

so i’m just gonna start with the simple version, which is this: it’s a rebel AU which primarily centers around the tallest, who are both defective. they give up on trying to make any meaningful changes as figureheads, and instead direct their attention to being involved with the “neo defect revolution,” or NDR. they do manage to make one change as tallest- there is a garbage dump planet turned into a sanctuary for defectives (who in this au are executed once discovered,) and eventually enough of the populace finds out about it that the tallest have to deal with it. they finesse their way into kicking it out of the empire, so now it’s its own planet with its own rules, governments, and most importantly, immigration policies and protections

a lot of stuff happens and it’s gonna be structured using arcs, and each arc has a separate protagonist/deuteragonist/tritagonist lineup (but that doesnt mean the same lineup won’t be used multiple times!) and yes the insane list of OCs are for this au alone: some arcs are very OC-centric, some have OCs as supporting characters, and a couple are all-OC or mostly-OC.

its going to be very longform and it’ll span from the tallest’s elite training days to twenty years after zim arrives on earth. (the 20 year gap btwn zim arriving on earth and the story proper isnt as tightly plotted as later tho.) the point is to see how a revolution on the scale of the NDR works, who was fucked over by defact laws, who was fucked over by other laws, etc. theres a lot of lore and a lot of headcanons i made for this AU and even a conlang. i am a being of hubris. itll be a series of fics, some multichapter and some oneshots.

the series as a whole is gonna be called Invader Zim: Annexed or just Annexed for short. its a pun on an irken word that sounds similar but means the exact opposite. i am not explaining more bc itll be explained in the fic itself. but thats why the tag for it is #anx lmao

i didnt mean for this to be as long as it got but under the cut im gonna breakdown some of the early arcs:

so it all starts with a fanfic called Love Is The H-Word (no the “h-word” isn’t “hell.) it centers around red and purple as elites-in-training, who do a little whoopsie and have an egg. purple doesnt wanna smuggle it into a smeetery, bc then he’ll never see it again, so they go to the defect sanctuary (still a part of the empire at this point.) purple knows he’s defective while red has a hard time accepting that he is as well, due to events from his past. but being around all these other defects are starting to wear down his denial, and the fic is all about that. it also sets up some plot stuff, like how defects adopted a self-identifier in the word “heretic,” hence the sanctuary being named, “heretirk.” (hey look my url!) (no, the “h-word” is not heretic, either.)

i dont wanna say what happens in that fic bc spoilers, but stuff Happens. its also when we meet some ocs that end up being important, and the existence of others are foreshadowed. this is also where we meet the tallests’ future advisor, rarl kove, for the first time, as a local who decides to keep them company. purple bonds with kove due to their shared interest in politics, while red reluctantly bonds with titch, a young irken (a smeet in heretirken standards, an adult in imperial standards- did i mention he and red are roughly the same age? lol) who is interested in military stuff and thrill-seeking and general destruction. titch is pissed because he claims his father is stealthing on devastis as a military commander, but won’t let titch sneak in as a soldier, as titch is deaf.

(fun facts: in the au, “titch” is regional slang for “a little bit.” ironically, titch the character is above-average in height.)

due to titch’s deafness, he developed “gesturespeak,” irken sign language, so he can communicate. this existing becomes important later

a oneshot called invade the system is right after h-word in publishing order. it details zim’s exploits in leaving foodcourtia, where he was assigned and infiltrating the invading academy he eventually graduates from (in this au, zim is too short to be an invader, which sucks because the hight minimums for the military are really short to begin with lmao)

the fic chronoligically after H-Word focuses on red and purple being back in their platoon on devastis, specifically red navigating his training and his relationships with two defective platoonmates, pon and zi (who are in h-word a little,) after the realization that he too is defective. it also focuses on how the irken military works, and how they train their soldiers.

the first arc overall focuses on red and purple going thru training and such, and ends after they graduate and are on the field, working to get commander rank. (they planned to gain commander rank then leave and go back to heretirk to train an army there, as heretirk has.... no army.) in the middle of this, they’re pulled out and told they are to become the next tallest. they debate over staying and taking the job or just running to heretirk, and they ultimately decide to stay.

the next arc i call the “bridge,” tbh. its less tightly plotted than the other arcs; fics are spread apart from each other chronologically and all that. it spans the time after the tallest being appointed to a little after zim arrives on earth. it also has a couple of anthologies focusing on imperial defects- each chapter is a new character. these guys are all important and the easiest way for me to introduce their backstories without cluttering everything up is anthology style, lmao. other things that happen are a look into how the tallest work, eventually culminating with the resolution of the tallest having to Deal With Heretirk, tenn’s rescue from meekrob, and zim on earth obtaining a half-irken smeet named pip due to stealing an Unethical Science Experiment from dib (which is pip.) the bridge is basically just. “heres some stuff that happens between point A and point B so when we get to point B you’re not confused as all hell.”

the next arc focuses on zim. in the first fic, pip is sick and zim is trying to get into his neighbor’s pants, to cope. this basically sets up that zim in this au has no idea how to find personal fulfillment in living- he’s only OK if he focuses on pleasing someone else, be it taking care of pip or doting on the neighbor, some rando human named piqu (pronounced, “peek.”) this is mainly a cute romance story with the underlying veneer of “a child is slowly and painfully dying” in the background. fun!

without spoiling the circumstances, zim and pip end up on heretirk, which at this point is its own independent planet. pip is in the hospital for most of it so zim has to do his own thing. computer fans rejoice bc hes basically zims dad at this point, who tells him to go outside and get some fresh air and talk to the locals instead of schmooping or screaming in anxiety. im sneakily introducing more characters like ini, the “next-gen zim;” a short bio-engineer (she works on PAKs) who was constantly passed over by everyone because they dont trust someone that short or they dont trust someone that spazzy, even though shes actually brilliant. also her brother mo, who’s a pilot that NOBODY will teach military-class ships to (at this point, HTK has a population of ex-military that had their old ships, but still no formal army) because he doesnt talk and they think hes “slow” as a result. for the curious, he is physically able to talk most times, he just doesnt like it. zim ends up teaching him how to fly military-class which ends up being important laterrr

(haha ini and mo. wheres meenie and minie? ILL GET TO THEM)

no really, theyre quadruplets. named ini, myni, minie, and mo. these are real characters.

minie isnt introduced till later. shes too cool to be the side character in someone elses arc. she is feel uncomfortable when we are not about her.

myni is busy palling around with pip and pip’s friend “elly” (real name elevenn, with two N’s.) elly is a half-meekrob War Crime Baby and tenn’s smeet. he has vision problems (he can “see” energy signatures of things, as opposed to conventional sight. everything is monochrome and he has to really focus to see like, words on a paper. also fuck tablets) but the trade-up is telekinetic powers (that he cant use too much or his brain will melt. fun!) this isnt relevant until the arc AFTER zim’s, where they end up poking around a historical site due to myni’s interest in that kind of thing, and they find logs of an old revolution (that was actually pretty successful in their goal, before they were caught and executed,) that lead them to a man named lefy. he helps with revolutions and helped these guys, and the trio go to seek him out; myni because he wants to impress his parents with helping them, pip because after they’ve recovered enough to walk around and do stuff, feel like they need to justify the choice to save their life and make their dad proud and all that, elly because he doesnt want pip to get hurt and die. And thats where the stuff REALLY starts happening and i cant tell u more sorry

this seemed kind of disjointed but thats bc i cant really be too detailed otherwise id like.... spoil it lmfao. but thats the summary of the first few arcs.

#*falls over and dies* my poor hands and fingeys #yall better mf read this.....#ill post a fic later today or maybe tomorrow #its being betad rn #take this lol! i finally explain myself #for those of you on mobile i am SO sorry #this is fine to rb in case ur wondering. dk why u would wanna but its chill #anarchisma au #live from conventia #long post

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wondershawns · 4 years

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can u make another part to wordless communication where she doesnt wanna keep the baby and like everyone supports her and its so angsty but literally everyone (manny, karen, peter, shawn) but ESPECIALLY raul are there for her 24/7 and telling her they love her no matter what i- 😭😭😭😭😭

A/N: Warning: If you’re not comfortable with abortions, don’t read this lovelies. If you’re against the right to abortions get off my blog. This is a part 4 to Wordless Communication.

“Can we talk now?” Raul brought it up again the next morning. “I know it’s a lot, but I feel like it’s important we both know where we stand.”

“I don’t think I can do this, Raul.” You told him, fearing his reaction, but he only nodded. He had thought about it long and hard last night, and he was expecting this answer from you.

“Okay.” He breathed out, accepting it because there was nothing else for him to do. He would stick with you through everything, like he promised.

“Just okay?”

“It’s not my decision to make, honey.” He went back to what he had told you the previous night. “I’m with you, and I do want a baby with you, but if you’re not ready for that I get it. This is your body, not mine.”

“What if I’m never ready to have a baby? Where do you stand then?” You bit the inside of your cheek, a lot more scared of his reaction to this.

“You don’t want kids at all?” His heart deflated and his face fell.

“No I- I think I do? Just… not now, and I don’t want to be pregnant.” You explained, but he still couldn’t see where you were going.

“Okay?” He said it like it was a question, he didn’t understand what you meant and you took a deep breath before clarifying.

“I don’t want to be pregnant, put myself through that and bring a kid into the world when there’s thousands of them that don’t have families.”

“So you only want to adopt?” He checked and you nodded. “Yeah, okay.”

“You don’t want a baby that’s yours? That everyone can say “oh he’s got your eyes about”?” You frowned, because that’s the kind of things people always told you. If you said you didn’t want kids they’d bring up everything they could think of to make you change your mind.

“Honey,” Raul chuckled. “I don’t need this anymore than you do. I need you. I work with children, of course I love them, and of course I want one, maybe more, but you know what else I see? I see babies being put up for adoption, kids in the foster system, teenagers that never got to have a real family. I want to give them that, with you, when we’re ready.”

“Do you even know how much I love you?” You sniffled, burying your face in his shoulder when he pulled you into a hug.

“Oh love,” He kissed the side of your head. “It’s okay, I love you so much. Just breathe, everything’s okay.”

“I don’t even know how to do any of this.”

“Baby, abortions are really common, okay?” He cupped your cheek and reassured you. “It’s a really short procedure.”

“Okay, but like, I don’t know how any of it works and where to go and-”

“Hello,” Raul chuckled, his thumb caressing your cheek. “Pediatric surgeon right here, I know how bodies work. I’ll take you to the appointment, alright? We can go to the clinic together, they’re going to explain everything to you, they’ll need to go through some exams, it’s going to involve a lot of questions and there’s papers to fill in but that’s it. It’s safe, it’s fast, and you won’t feel it, alright? Two to three days of recovery at the most.”

“Okay,” You swallowed heavily, holding onto him for dear life because he was the only one who made you feel safe right now, like everything would be just fine.

“I’ll sign you up for an appointment when I go to the hospital tomorrow, so we’ll go before this week end.” He knew for a fact it’d be hard to get an appointment the day he’d go to check their time slots, but a day or two wouldn’t change much.

“What do they do then?”

“They’re gonna explain how it works, go through a few tests to know how far along you are exactly, and ask if you’re sure you want to do this. Then it’ll be a health checkup, some information on how to be ready for the procedure. The next appointment is procedure day, they’ll just make you fill in some more papers.” Raul ran you through the general steps and you nodded, feeling like a weight was being lifted off your chest.

He made it so easy, he just needed you to make the decision and then he was there to walk you through every step of what you’d need to do. You were less stressed when you were in control, and he gave it to you by explaining how things worked clearly. He was going to be with you the whole time, he wasn’t going to leave, he was okay with you never wanting to be pregnant, he respected your choice and he loved you for all of it. You didn’t know how you ended up with someone like him but you were thankful for it every day.

He had an appointment booked for you outside of your work hours in no time, and he picked you up to take you there even though he was supposed to be at the hospital for the whole day.

“Do you know how abortions work?” The woman asked you and you shook your head no, you knew the general idea but not the details. “The procedure is relatively simple and should take less than twenty minutes, the general idea is just to dilate your cervix, insert a small tube through it into your uterus to use a suction device that will take out all the pregnancy tissue.”

“You can be fully sedated or not, either way you won’t feel a thing,” Raul added, his hand resting on your thigh. “Sorry,” He apologised to the doctor. “I’m a pediatric surgeon, well last year of residency, so not yet but yeah.”

“That’s alright.” She chuckled. “At least you’ll know what you’re talking about, and not the five minutes of research you’ve done on our website.”

“Uh, yeah,” He turned silent, letting her explain the rest of the procedure to you, potential complications, everything you needed to know.

“Are you working that day?” You murmured and Raul shook his head when it was time to book the second appointment.

“I’ll get out of it, I’ll come whatever day works for you.” He didn’t care when it was, he’d just be there.

“Raul you work with sick kids, you can’t just get out of it to come here and sit in a waiting room.” You reminded him, but this time he really didn’t care.

“Yes I can.” He squeezed your thigh. “And I will, just pick a date that works for you.”

Once the appointment was scheduled Raul took you home, and he cuddled you on the couch for a while before anything was said between you.

“You’re alright princess?”

“Mmh, that’s a new one.” You smiled sleepily, bringing your linked hands up from your stomach to your lips to leave a kiss on his knuckles.

“You don’t like it?” He chuckled, he was always trying the most ridiculous nicknames on you, he thought this one wasn’t the worst.

“I think you should stick with honey and sweetheart.” You giggled, twisting your head to look at him.

“Not princess? Hotstuff? Gorgeous? Kitten?” He tried through chuckles.

“Raul!” You exclaimed, and he only laughed harder.

“Yeah, that’s it, say my name baby.” He took a high pitched voice, making you laugh so hard that you almost fell off the couch.

“You’re such an idiot,” You sat up, your grin taking up half of your face.

“Yeah? Come back here and give your idiot a kiss.”

“Ask nicely.”

“Beautiful, will you please give me a kiss,” He pouted, and your heart just melted.

“Okay, that one you can use.” You leaned in and kissed him.

“So um,” Peter said when Raul came home that night, leaning on his older brother’s desk. “Shawn told mom and dad.”

“What?” Raul looked up from the clothes he was folding.

“About the pregnancy?”

“Oh,” He nodded. “Yeah no, we’re not gonna have a baby.”

“What?” It was Peter’s turn not to understand.

“She doesn’t want a baby. I took her to the clinic today, I’m taking her again on Monday.” Raul explained, knowing he’d have to do it again for the rest of his family.

“Oh, god, I had it stuck in my head that you wanted the kid, I didn’t realise.”

“Yeah,” Raul shrugged. “I do want the kid, but not if she doesn’t, we’re going to look into adoption when we think we’re ready.”

“That’s great dude,” Peter smiled, knowing his brother would bring every orphan home from the hospital if he could. “Do you still need help picking a ring this week end or are we moving that?”

“We’re moving that, I’ll go tell Shawn too. And mom and dad while I’m at it.” He added, leaving what he was doing to get his brother from his bedroom. “Come downstairs,” He asked, leading the way there to find his parents in the living room.

“You go dude,” Peter patted his shoulder and sat on the couch with everyone else.

“So, uh, I know Shawn told you about the pregnancy,” He got nods from everyone and smiles, but he didn’t let it go on for too long. “Yeah, we’re not going to have a baby. We decided to go along with an abortion, well, she did, so I’m taking her to do that on Monday. So Shawn, we’re gonna go ring hunting on another week end because frankly this month has been strong enough in emotions.”

“Yeah, of course,” He nodded in understanding.

“What time on Monday?” His dad asked and he checked his phone to give them the time.

“Well you tell her that if she needs anything we’re here, okay?” Karen gave him a hug and he hugged back.

“Thanks, I will. I just figured you guys should know, but I’m gonna go back to her for dinner, I don’t think she feels like being alone right now.”

“We still have that dinner on Saturday, bring her along, will you?” Manny added, making sure you’d be included in every family plan.

Raul stayed with you constantly through the end of the week. He was either at your place or taking you back to his family home when he had plans with them, and you found yourself loving the proximity. You promised him you were fine staying home alone, but he just wanted to be with you and his whole family was asking to see you too, so you ended up spending more time with them than usual.

It was nice to be included in this huge mess of love and jokes, and Raul was grinning from ear to ear at the idea of you being with him like this on a daily basis. You still had your separate apartments, but there was no point when you were constantly together. He was buzzing to propose to you, to officially move in with you, to have his whole life with the girl of his dreams.

He made you feel loved and gave you his undivided attention to make you forget the nervousness of the abortion. You were sure of your decision and he knew it, but doctors had never been your thing, which was ironic, and he was well aware of how uncomfortable you were with the idea of anesthesia. You had opted to stay awake during the procedure, you were too scared to go for general anesthesia, but you also knew that you’d have to be there and overthink the whole thing.

Raul was mad at himself when he had to leave on monday morning, he wanted to wake up with you at your place and just take you to the clinic once it was time. Instead he had to go home and leave you in bed with a kiss and your promise that you really didn’t mind seeing him later. He knew you’d just meet him in a while, and you got dressed as soon as you were up to drive to his house.

“Oh hi honey,” Karen gave you a hug after letting you in.

“Hi, is Raul upstairs?” You asked shyly. She had never made you feel anything but comfortable in her home, but you had been off since the previous day and you just needed someone to be close to you, preferably Raul.

“Yes, you’re alright just going with him, yeah?” She had both of her hands on her arms, and you nodded weakly. “We’re here for you if you need anything.”

“Thanks.” You whispered and gave her a small smile, but instead of letting you go find Raul she gave you another hug.

“It’s going to be okay sweetie,” She rubbed your back as you teared up, sniffling quietly.

“Aww,” You opened your eyes to see Shawn approach. “It’s okay, we love you.” He wrapped his arms around you too.

“Who do we love?” Peter looked up from his phone. “Oh, yes we do.” He engulfed you in his arms, joining the group hug.

“I love you guys,”

“But you love me more, yeah?” Raul leaned against the wall, waiting for everyone to part so that he could take you in his arms.

“Of course I do.” You hid your face in his strong chest, and he knew not to pull away until the space had cleared.

“You ready to go honey?” He asked softly, kissing your forehead reassuringly. “We’ve got a little bit of time, we can cuddle here, or go for a quick walk, or just go to the clinic and wait there?”

“Can we just go for a drive?” You bit your lips and he nodded.

“Yeah, lemme grab my jacket.”

He drove for as long as he could, singing along to the songs you picked because he had your whole playlist memorised by now. His hand was on your thigh through the whole drive, rubbing soothing motions until he parked and walked in with you.

“You don’t have to stay the whole time,” You insisted. “I’ll be in there for over an hour before they let me leave anyway, you can just go do something while you wait, go get coffee or something.”

“Listen,” He held your face. “I’m going to be sitting in a chair here whether you want it or not. I’ll sit with a cup of coffee if it makes you feel better but I’m gonna stay here, and then when you get out you’ll need to rest so I’m gonna take you home and cuddle the shit out of you.”

“Okay.” You let him kiss you softly, and he kissed your forehead again too.

“You good to go?”

“Yes.”

“Alright then,” He sat with you through the last appointment, and he stayed while you filled out some more forms before you had to go in on your own.

“I love you.”

“I love you more, I’ll be right out here.” He kissed your forehead and let you go.

You were glad to find him as soon as you walked out, letting him sign the discharge papers so that you could leave.

“Are you okay?” He hugged you before you went in the car.

“I’m fine,” You nodded against his chest. “Just really hate doctors.”

“I know,” He kissed the top of your head. “Let’s go home now.”

The drive back to your place was short, and you were surprised at how prepared he was. He had a whole bag of supplies that he set on your bed the second you were inside.

“We’ve got snacks, a whole comfy bed, a hot water bottle, and I got some extra pads because you might be bleeding more than normal for a couple of days. Are you getting cramps?”

“A little,” You admitted as you sat on his bed, melting at how much he had done to take care of you lately. “Thank you.”

“Always love, I’ll be right back.” He grabbed the hot water bottle to go fill it in the kitchen, and you tucked yourself into his bed during that time. You knew he had a favorite pillow but you grabbed it for yourself anyway, it was the one that smelled the most like him, and it was just what you wanted.

“Thanks.” You grabbed the hot water bottle when he handed it to you and held it against your stomach.

“You need anything else?”

“Just you.” You shook your head, closing your eyes when he slid in behind you and pulled you back into his chest.

He spooned you tightly, kissing the back of your head once he was done getting comfortable.

“How do you feel?” He asked, checking in on you one last time, mostly worried about the physical aspect of things.

“Really relieved.” You sighed, finally able to breathe. Knowing Raul would stick with you no matter your decision really helped, but now that it was over you felt even better.

“Good.” He squeezed your hand, it was all he needed to hear to be fine too.

“You?” You wanted to check on him too, all of this had been about you, and while you had needed the support it was your turn to give.

“I feel good,” He rubbed his hand up and down your arm. “I’ve got you, you’ve got me, we’re on the same page, I don’t know what else I could ever need. I love you.”

“I love you too.”

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#mendes triplets #shawn peter raul mendes #shawn mendes #peter mendes #raul mendes #writing #request #the mendes triplets

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lifeandtimesofallmyfandoms · 4 years

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EVERYTHING she said about what it's like when someone leaves and how not being able to reach them eventually deciding it isnt worth it and it's time to stop trying cause it only continues to hurt you is 100% true

My father left us when I was 23 having him a part of my childhood just to leave in my young adulthood stings, like horribly.

My sisters were only 19 and 12

my 12 year old gave up on him and went to live with her mom and step dad (who adopted her...yes my dad really signed the adoption papers) full time...imagine a 12 year old realizing she's in a place where she's not wanted and making that decision to leave! And be adopted by her stepdad cause she doesnt even want her father's last name!

We tried very hard to keep him a part of our lives' eventually it got to the point where he wouldn't even answer our calls, texts, or emails anymore

I was probably the only one that kept trying the longest and I guess the moment that made me realize it was time to stop trying and give up was when I sent him a text one day and got a text back saying "you have the wrong number" ... I know I had the right number because I got it from my grandparents (his mom and dad who he no longer talks to now)

So he either he changed his number, or thinks we're pretty stupid Imagine your father not wanting to be bothered by you SO BAD that he changes his number or pretends you have the wrong number

As much he's hurt me though I still ache not having him in my life, I was very much a daddy's girl growing up so i feel like his leaving probably hurt me the most

#Kelly ckarkson #Piece by piece #Absent father #Deadbeat dad #Personal #Youtube

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klaus-is-the-real-number-1 · 5 years

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Dear God (PrivateSchool!Five x PrivateSchool!Reader)

A/N: so this is an AU where reggie still adopted 7 children but they just never had powers so he decided to make the academy into a boarding school making his children into prefects. bare with me on this lmao cool cool.

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Tag list: @spazclaiire

Harsh beeping sounded throughout the Academy, alerting all students that they had a mere 30 minuets before breakfast, a shrill warning to make sure everyone was up, dressed, rooms cleaned and down in front of their seats ready for the most important meal of the day. Silence was mandatory, as Mr Hargreeves suggested it was a period of reflection and even though the ‘quest’ for knowledge was admirable, breakfast was not time for that.

The Umbrella Academy was possibly one of the most prestigious boarding schools in the country, only allowing the very rich parents to send their students there. You, however, were an exception, rightfully earning a scholarship into the Academy based on pure intelligence. The hall was silent except the ramblings of the vinyl in the background, you never cared enough to listen to it, especially today. The room was tense as there was only one student missing, Five Hargreeves, one of the seven Hargreeves children, a prefect but not head boy.

As Mr Hargreeves told everyone to sit you couldn’t help but glance between the empty seat opposite you and towards the door, Five had never missed a meal and he wouldn’t just run away without telling you, or at least you hoped he would tell you before making a rash decision. Mr Hargreeves didn’t seem to even care about the gap in which his son should fill and with every passing moment your nerves grew, an anxious feeling filling your chest.

You knew talking was forbidden during meal times, but with Mr Hargreeves mere feet away, you couldn’t help yourself. “Mr Hargreeves, where’s Five?” You saw him tense and his fists clench, out of everyone in the school, you should be the last person to speak up, seen as you’re the only student who doesnt pay to come to the Academy. You have the most to lose.

“Miss L/N, meal time is no time for talking, let alone asking questions!” Mr Hargreeves said with authority dripping from his voice, anger laced onto his features. You had had more than enough run ins with Mr Hargreeves, you only had slight comfort that as you were one of the top achieving students he wouldn’t expel you.

You sat, silence filling the room again, tension increasing with every passing second until you were all dismissed for lessons to begin but it didn’t ease your worry. You knew Five had a strained relationship with his father, he would never fail to let you know what his father had done ‘this time’ or that as soon as he graduated he was gone and he was taking you with him. Often your nights would be filled with you both sat in his room, quietly giggling, faces filled with joy while muttering sweet nothings to each other, knowing what was happening was forbidden but neither of you cared.

The day dragged, the aching feeling in your chest grew when Five was absent from all the lessons during the long hours of the day, the seat opposite you remained empty during lunch and tea and none of the teachers seemed to care, Mr Hargreeves never mentioned a word.

You watch the clock on the wall count down too the end of your last lesson and as soon as the clock reached 8 o’clock you raced out of the classroom towards your dorm, hoping, praying, Five had left something for you that signified his whereabouts. Lo and behold, a folded piece of paper lay neatly on your made bed, ‘y/n’ written messily on the front of it. With shaking hands, you open it, instantly feeling relieved as you see Fives very recognisable messy writing sprawled across the sheet ‘meet me at 10, my room, were going to griddy’s’. You were glad that in your dorm you were closest to the door, each room had 4 occupants with a wardrobe each and a crate at the foot of each bed. It was the same throughout the house except for the Hargreeves who all got their own room but it made it very easy to go and see Five when you wanted, or at least to an extent seen as you always had to sneak around.

At 10 o’clock you quietly opened Fives bedroom door, gently closing it behind you. As soon as you turned around to face the room, Five had already pushed you against his door, lips hungrily against yours. He pulled away breathlessly, taking in your features before pulling you into an embrace. “I’ll explain everything at Griddy’s” He whispered, pulling you too his already opened window.

Cold nipped at your face as you walked to Griddy’s hand in hand with Five, swinging your interlocked hands. As soon as soon as Griddys’ neon sign came into view you feel Five squeeze your hand, quickening his pace to get inside out of the harsh cold of the night.

You find a booth and sit down, all you can do is look at Five expectantly, waiting for his answer. It wasn’t unusual for the two of you to be found in Griddy’s late at night, Agnes knew your order as soon as she saw both of you sit down, coming over cheerily with a light hearted “The usual?” as you both responded with nods. As soon as Agnes had left to make your order you heard Five sigh.

“The sadistic prick locked me in isolation the entire day.” He said, face filled with anger.

“The Academy has an isolation?” You knew the school was big but you had never once came across any form of ‘isolation’ room. “Why did he do that?” You knew exactly who Five meant when he said ‘sadistic prick’.

He sighed again. “We had a disagreement, I think he knows about us,” He gestured between you with his hands. “He said that I need to stop being so distracted and if it came to it he’d have to remove any distractions, so I told him to fuck off.” Your mouth hung open as you heard his words before a small laugh erupted from you. You see his face go from annoyance to a small smile at your reaction.

“How’s he going to ‘remove’ me, he wouldn’t dare,” you scoffed. “I’m the highest achieving student in the Academy and we’ve got like, 2 months until we leave and graduate. There would be absolutely no point.”

He looks up and gives Agnes a smile as she places your order down and walks away. Five takes your hand and runs his thumbs over your knuckles. “Just you wait y/n, as soon as we graduate I’m getting us as far away as possible, nothing can stop us.” You smile at his words, imagining a world where you didn’t have to sneak around with your relationship, where you wouldn’t have to hide in fear of someone telling.

You finish your drinks, talking about where you’re both going to go as soon as you graduate and what you both plan to do with yourselves. You didn’t want to go back to the Academy, it meant going back to pretending. As you begin your slow walk back to school, hand in hand, you were so grateful that you’d met Five, you don’t think you would of survived the 7 years you’d spent in the Academy without him, he was the only person you’d truly connected with throughout your time here and in a mere 2 months you can finally ‘officially’ be together without Mr Hargreeves watching your every move.

You climb back in through Fives open window, giggling like small children as you did. You get ready to leave until Five pulls you closer to him by your waist. “Stay for tonight, I’ll wake you up early so you can go back to your room.”

Without responding you just peck him on the lips and pull him too his bed, muttering about how his bed is much nicer than your anyways. He just smirks as you get into your ‘pyjamas’ which was just one of his oversized T-shirts, and then you snuggle into his bed and more importantly into his arms, safe and sound where you belong.

You feel Five place a kiss onto the side of your head, squeezing your waist “Just wait till we get out of here y/n, it’s going to be just you and I against the world.” And you knew he wasn’t lying one bit. You drifted off to sleep in Fives arms, hoping the bliss would never end.

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