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wellcollapse · 6 months

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the way i would pay for oliver to write meta about buck's character

#like. he Gets it. i've been thinking about buck in this ep for five days straight and he said it better in one sentence than any paragraph #i could ever come up with #people are arguing over whether buck #acted the way he did bc he wanted tommy's attention or eddie's attention or bc he was feeling left out or whatever but i don't think it's #any one thing i think it was just a general feeling of Wrongness when tommy showed up borne from thirty years of repressing his sexuality #and he tried to rationalize it as jealousy or whatever and worked through the fact that his behavior was completely unreasonable but #it wasn't until tommy kissed him that all of the rage that was trapped inside him was allowed to escape bc he finally had a name for it #he's been turning over parts of himself for years trying to find that final piece and getting more and more upset when it eludes him #n this kiss was the kind of cathartic relief that he so desperately needed bc it allowed him to understand what's been missing #anyway. oliver stark i love you so much i'm so grateful you play buck #buck #rae.txt #911

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novantinuum · 1 month

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somewhere up above the stars the wreckage of a Universe floats past

an AU ancient lonely god Steven I have. his moniker is Astra and I am obsessed with him right now.

#his Most Basic Deal is that he is a steven who actually took the diamonds up on their offer of the throne in the movie #believing it to be the best way for him to enact lasting change and help fellow gems #and he Does! but the job pulls him away from humanity over time- and not only that but he Also suffers a horrible loss #when his connie dies in a freak incident and he's not around on Earth at the time to be able to resurrect her #he never works through the stuff he does in SUF and he also just Stops Aging at a certain point... entirely unshackled from his humanity #billions of years of guardianship over his dimension later he is still a Soft and Kind and Benevolent soul #just... intensely lonely. yearning for connection but terrified of actually being vulnerable again #desperate to find a means to feel Human again but too terrified of the idea of meeting his end without someone to share it With #if i'm quiet on tumblr lately this is bc This Guy is all i can think about rn so sorry #my sad mans....#su #su future #steven universe #su fanart #my art stuff

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casualavocados · 2 months

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I asked myself why I failed to notice. It was the first time we'd been apart that long. I found the birthday gifts you prepared for me in my room, from my 18th to my 21st. ...Shut up. I started to think about what you were doing back then. Were you celebrating my birthday all by yourself?

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 12

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #chen yi x ai di #ai di x chen yi #nat chen #chen bowen #louis chiang #chiang tien #jiang dian #userspring #userrain #uservid #userspicy #userjjessi #pdribs #*cajedit #*gif #do you ever cry about the chen yi that woke up to find ai di gone.#do you ever think about the chen yi that felt ai di's tears on his face and reached up to hold him closer. to comfort him.#who saw & chose in a moment the true ai di that had always been by his side then lost him in the next. & woke up to learn it was his fault #cuz i think about the chen yi during ai di's prison time a lot. i think about him going over so many of his memories #reevaluating ai di's anger and teasing and realizing it was all heartbreak. THAT IT WAS ALL HEARTBREAK.#the guilt...the desperation & need to get through to ai di so he never makes him feel that way again. understanding that he loves ai di too #the way he gently touches ai di's hands and face here... he tied him up to keep him from running but hes being so earnest and SO careful #with ai di's pain & ai di's love. his expressions & the way he takes deep breaths before admitting things out loud like its clear #hes thinking hard abt what he wants to say and how he wants to say it. bc he has to make ai di understand how much he means this #how much he misses him. how much he wants to make this right. how he wants & needs to be by ai di's side forever bc he loves him!#he loves him!!!!!!!!! GOD. i love chen yi.

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zehl0w · 23 days

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Zenitsu agatsuma has got to be the biggest egg I have ever seen in my entire life

#demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #zenitsu agatsuma #nezuko kamado #there’s genuinely no way bro doesn’t have smth going on with his gender #nezukos bamboo necklace is chewlery btw hehe #I hope I was able to capture the expression of like #just genuine tender yearning #it’s something he’s always had the longing for but never quite understood where it came from #or even what it was #just a very empty hole in his body that he could only ever describe as self hatred and disgust even if he knew that wasn’t quite right #I think when they’re older nezuko would rlly help him like #get comfortable w the idea of actually exploring his identity #he’s spent so much of his life just truly and bitterly hating himself to the core #he couldn’t stomach the idea of thinking about who he was beyond the surface level #I think nezuko would make him feel so much more okay with himself and help try to get him to a point of at the very least knowing who he is #it’s a very long road that zenitsu really honestly isn’t sure if he’s comfortable with #but he can’t help but at least try #if not for himself but for the ache of the child inside himself who has so desperately longed for comfort and love and belonging #he wants to know that child who was so brutally outcasted could eventually find a home #he wants to believe there’s hope for himself #Zenko chan I love you so much #she is so important 2 me…..#sorry transed your zenitsu. no yeah we can’t undo it. yeah he’s a she now. sorry nothin I can do.

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finalgirlsamwinchester · 6 months

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guy who so desperately tries to find god. who wants to have faith in a higher authority to guide him out of the hole he's in. from the weight of guilt from simply existing, as the person he is. but every time he thinks he's answered his higher calling it turns out he's made the Morally Incorrect choice and his path to goodness and holiness was the road to the devil all along

#now trusting god will give you a way out? there's your real crime!!!#guy betrayed by the protestant promise of a direct connection with god. but is also somehow. joan of arc.#see he never achieves actual martyrdom tho bc he's not allowed to stay dead lmaooo #sam somehow the most unintentionally catholic AND protestant character of all time #dean the atheist who sees religious predestination as the curse it is from the get go. framed as the narrative's Real Moral Authority #but also in the process reifying patriarchal familial power n authority. very very important Value of the Church #i don't think it's that deep. the show's attempt at critiquing christianity. but the way it reinforces christian cultural values???#'religious predestination and absolute faith in a higher authority...bad'#nice nice ok tell me more?#“so you should put your faith in family. in your patriarch (big brother)”#?????????#the thematic incoherence of it all. it's like the world's stupidest puzzle box to me. i can't leave it alone.#sam = maybe i can find god thru following my destined path. wait oh shit.#cas = maybe i can find god thru rebellion and seeking my own destiny. wait oh shit.#dean = god is fucking dead and me i also feel not so good #the “guy who so desperately wants to find god parallel” <- me coming out as a secret sastiel fan #both of them...finding god in de-[sniper on the roof kills me in one shot]#spn bible studies #j.txt

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canisalbus · 11 months

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Is that canon!?! Was Machete just really naive/didn't really understand the implications of his relationship to Vasco? Did his mentor ever find out about them or discuss such things with him? I assume bc he didn't have parents, he kinda didn't get educated on sex or anything. Was it a big shock to realize he was "sinning"?

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#eh I was just exaggerating it for comedy because the page was so unintentionally funny and fitting #he might've been a little bit naive but was painfully aware he was in a relationship with a man and that it was forbidden #his mentor was all about asceticism and mortification and extreme self-denial #and had drilled it into his head that practically all romantic feelings let alone sex were foolish and sinful and should be shunned #so his feelings about the whole thing were complicated but in the end Vasco was more important #not to sound corny #but there was a hole in his heart that he had desperately tried to fill with god that never seemed to care about him #and once he got some of that love he had been aching for #from another living person #he had to do what it takes to make room for that in his belief system #how could such a tender fulfilling and healing thing be wrong #answered #anonymous #his mentor did eventually find out about them and wasn't very happy about it #to put it mildly #but by that point Machete had managed to mostly inch his way out from under his heel #he was graduating and getting ordained and wouldn't be going back to Naples #if it were up to him he'd never want to see him again

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einaudis · 6 months

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ALL OF US STRANGERS (2023) dir. ANDREW HAIGH

#filmedit #filmgifs #movieedit #moviegifs #All of Us Strangers #aousedit #filmtvdaily #filmtvcentral #cinemapix #fyeahmovies #dailyflicks #mine*#mygifs #movies*#I can't believe this is done. and you won't believe how long it took me to make it. insane... because it's just a scene #I didn't even use different fonts. or a cool template. or transitions... it was a single scene... but look... I made captures for 10 gifs #and things kept happening and I kept finding little gestures and beautiful things and I just couldn't keep them out the gifs #I mean look at Harry and that slow realization. please look at the glow around his shoulders at the beginning #and how ethereal and out of this world he already is AND THEN when Adam says 'I found you' he becomes more... real and present!#and those eyes and the intensity of that 'you're here' and their eyes and faces and smiles and how Harry's desperate but Adam calms him dow #and his voice when he asks 'how come no one found me?' the realization that people didn't care to check on him. it screamed to my soul #I haven't stopped thinking about that scene since the moment I first watched it #honestly... I wish I could live in this scene forever #now this is a super long post and I know it won't get many notes and it was surely made before... but I needed to make this for myself...#so here it is :) I'm tired but I love it #GOD the way Harry goes full baby when Adam caresses his cheek and he SMILES LIKE THAT! AHHHHHHH!#*runs down the hill screaming*

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cowboysmp3 · 1 year

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ok not to be insane but the whole tom putting the bidding sticker on greg situ is SO indicative of their entire relationship bc its all about Tom’s desire for control and ownership over something (due to him feeling powerless and out of control in his relationship with shiv). Him putting that sticker on Greg wasnt just a hehe ill look after you way it was much more ‘I own you. You are reliant on me now and I OWN you’. Which is a sentiment that is the very FABRIC of their relationship, calling back to the ‘I will not let go of what is mine’ water bottle scene. Obsessed actually

#tomgreg #succession #succession spoilers #like its a small detail BUT ITS SO!!!!#their dynamic is fun BECAUSE its so fucked up #it also shows toms biggest weakness (his inability to understand when someone is using him/doesnt see him as an equal/will always betray him #whilst the tomgreg and the tomshiv relationships are very DIFFERENT #theres so many ways in which they are the same #mainly around toms desperate loneliness and desire to simply BE desired #for him to feel important to someone #and i think throughout his marriage he has felt undesired and unimportant #so he seeks importance from controlling greg #OUGH im obsessed with him actually #he also cant take the risk that would be finding someone who authentically values and wants him without wanting something from him #hes so trapped in the Roy Web #i have many thoughts about tom wamsgans #i love you mr wamsgans

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multiiocular-mushroom · 3 months

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francis madoka magica crozier

#the terror #puella magi madoka magica #obligatory magical girl au sketchdump #digital art #krita #francis crozier #harry goodsir #james fitzjames #john bridgens #cornelius hickey #also jopson would be SO homura coded that i cannot even handle drawing that someone please help me out with it #everyone is plagued by white magical beasts big and small x2. now with kyubey in the mix #you'd think finding the passage would be easier with their powers - and yet -#anyway sir john held back on becoming an mg until he was desperate to make a break for it #his wish was for the passage to be found - but he did not specify it would be him who'd find it #so he died long before that eventually happened #also no cat ears here if you see them that's just a diadem or another headpiece sorry #thinking about if hickey made his deal after the flogging #again in a bad state and with bad phrasing - just something like 'i wish to get out of here'#and then his ears perked up when they left the ships and he jumped at the chance to get everyone together because he thought he WOULD #get himself and all his boyfriends out.#well. they did leave crozier's camp #anyway i'm probably not gonna draw more of these so if anyone wants to join in i'd like to see some takes on their witch forms!#also yeah. crozier's shoulder pieces ARE modelled after tricorn hats #both bc he lost the other two captains and had to bear the responsibility for the expedition on his shoulders #and because i just wanted to use a symbol of power in a silly way as some mg outfits do #and yes jfj has a cprset and yes i was thinking of orpheus while drawing bridgens #and goodsir in a beret just felt right lol #also made hickey's clothes less open than the others' bc reasons #the soul gem passage

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moorishflower · 1 year

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I'm watching Cunk on Earth and the image I got in my brain was one of retired Dream, new and fragile and trying to get his bearings, and Hob tells him "Let's put on something funny? I've been meaning to watch this one." And he puts on Cunk on Earth, and Hob finds it hilarious (especially when she gets to the medieval bits), right up until Dream, who has been -- unbeknownst to Hob -- getting himself well and truly lathered over the past 40-60 minutes, bursts into tears.

"Fuck," Hob says, and scrambles to get into a better position, the awkwardness of sitting beside someone on a sofa not the ideal way to comfort someone who is, by all indications, in the process of having some sort of horrific existential crisis. "Oh, fuck, Dream, sorry, sorry, I don't even know what I'm sorry for, please stop crying, why are we crying?"

(Hob has tried to cultivate a sense of empathy since the 1700s, and sometimes, like now, he thinks he might have overdone it a bit.)

And Dream, sniffling, red-eyed and tear tracks down his cheeks and snot glistening around his nostrils in a way that wouldn't be charming on any other human except for him, says, "All of the things she is saying are wrong."

#dream of the endless #hob gadling #the sandman #laughing and sniffling over the idea of newly-retired Dream being unable to find the humor in absurdism #because he can no longer tell when someone is being wrong on purpose #or lying #or wrong because they just don't know better #Dream trying desperately to find this funny because Hob does #and just getting more and more worked up because he can't #and he wants to be angry but there's no one to be angry AT so it's just tears all the way down

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bonebabbles · 6 months

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average day in the tiktok warriors fandom

he's. he's literally described on the page as enjoying the feeling of making cats viciously maul each other. He gets "validation" for his feelings constantly through Gray Wing and his other sycophants kissing his ass, and still maliciously and intentionally torments them. He beats women and children for telling him no

What they want is BREEZEPELT. This describes BREEZEPELT. BREEZE. PELT.

The cat who is ACTUALLY reprimanded by authority for being angry all the time?? The one whose dad screeches at him for having basic needs?? A character who is explicitly shown to be manipulated by an evil force because they're the only ones who validate his feelings??

THAT Breezepelt?? Ringing any BELLS?

Lemmie guess. Tiktok probably doesn't like Breezepelt much because if you acknowledge that he's a child abuse victim, you can't keep woobifying Crowfeather into a sad boy. Lol.

#INCREDIBLE briainrot on tiktok #Clear Sky literally has a scene in Book 2 where all his cats gather around and validate him #During that speech where he decides to steal more land by killing more natives #Frost is one of them and then he still shoves Thunder's face into his wound so he ''knows'' why Frost needs to die #Clear Sky is CONSTANTLY getting his toes sucked and having people tell him he's the bees knees #You see he was just slaughtering indigenous people and beating women and children because he's sad :(#How dare you call him a heartless monster he's just angry :(((#(Meanwhile Clear Sky is in the background slobbering over a young woman with traits that remind him of his kid)#Re: the simple truth that people are more interested in sorrowful abusers than messy victims #Because that's what Clear Sky and Crowfeather are. And they will DESPERATELY find ways to woobify them further #so that they can keep ignoring the children they abused.

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lunarharp · 4 months

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revamped looong mermaid orufrey au :')

#witch hat tag #orufrey #partial nudity /#about half of it is new the other half is redrawn from last year. Why would you rescribble some scribbles. Well it was bad.#i always underestimate how much i've improved in a year last may was questionable. also it's not even may any more so why mermaids now.#sorry if you remember this but at least half is new story. i'll just paste more explanation from twt....#first qifrey was cursed by EVIL WITCH eye taken and thrown into the sea #memory-less. then kind little witch boy oru found him on the beach & they became friends #they drifted apart after falling for each other bc qif knew he could never be with him.#oru walked on the beach every day for years hoping to see him again until so desperate he goes into the sea (on a ship?) & is dying #qifrey saved him with a kiss. they got closer &oru swore to find a way to save him that wasnt dangerous but qif knew hed need a dark witch.#(that witch was probably the one who cursed him..just toying with him...) in with the spell oru DOES forget him for real #even tho he needs to give Kiss Of True Love before qif turns totally blind for qif to stay human for good or become seafoam. but oru someho #the oldest magic is love..the ability to break through the curses of loneliness and despair. qif already did that for him #so oru was able to do it back later. he fell in love with him again..but also realised it was obviously him....well anyway......#originally the 'finding oru stranded like that guy in the little mermaid' was a separate au but it still makes sense to combine them #i dont want them to have not met in childhood...thats the orufrey thing....#im going to work on Proper drawings next instead of silly comics as usual....

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floorpancakes · 6 months

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ok but im rly into the idea of till having a new era that brings the light back to his eyes and drives him forward if he gets to escape the arena. idk where he'd go from there but i want to see ivans sacrifice both haunt him and drive him to actually live his damn life after being the captured bird refusing freedom cause of mizi. once he knows she's alive with the resistance he might be able to actually experience other things and widen his world and if that happens and he puts his personal sense of rebellion towards the human cause OR settles into finding some other way to feel fulfilment that isn't a single person that could be deeply fascinating to me i think

#alien stage #ramble #idk #till alien stage #as an xxxholic fan i want to see caged birds fly and all the fear and loss and grit and progress that comes with it #till era would be so fucking fun #especially when characters r built arnd one person or one goal or something you want to see them find new things to suffer or thrive abt (?)#random inconsequential thought imagine till hooking up with hyunas besties and they become a resistance throuple #idk i just want till to experience the wider world as the one that was the most restrained by his heart AND literally #cause even compared to the other anakt kids he suffered so much in those damn buildings and labs #i wanna see him freed and what that means for ivans legacy as the person who was unseen but someone who both contributed to and desperately #tried to stop his pain and confinement no matter what #honestly the thing i wanna see most rn off the top of my head is #till coming to terms with what he knows and sees about ivan now #no matter how he feels about it i think ivan wont be forgotten that easily #i want to know whats going thru tills head rn immediately in this moment #cause this snapped him in some way and he is acutely aware of things he didnt even notice before #while handling the mizi desth thing #that he assumed was happening #if he is assumedly saved i want to see the explosion that is knowung mizi is alive #knowing ivan is dead and how ivan felt #and knowing he has a way out of the cage #because its a triple whammy #i want to see his brain exploding in real time thinking abt all these things #and what sort of person the revelations will make him become #also i want to see mizi and till have like an actual conversation cause itd be a wildcard especially right now

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the-woman-upstairs · 4 months

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It’s just…so painful to watch Armand readily submit in order to obtain the love he so desperately craves. And while it’s most assuredly a manipulative tactic, it’s still one borne out of fear and desperation. He cannot lose this person he’s come to love and so will become whatever they want, do whatever they want just so they’ll stay with him. But it won’t be enough. No matter how much he acquiesces or seeks to control (himself, others, the environment), he won’t be able to make Louis stay with him in the perfect life, perfect self he built in the hopes of finally being loved. It will all crumble with Armand left alone in the rubble of what he created, the author of his own abandonment.

#this unfortunately hits way too close to home for me #let’s not even get into Claudia’s anger at never being enough #iwtv spoilers #interview with the vampire #armand #this is just me speaking from personal experience…but there is definite manipulation at play here from Armand #and I don’t necessarily mean that pejoratively- when you’re desperate for people to like/love you you’ll become whatever they want #or whatever you think they’d want and you give it to them so they’ll want to keep you around #I’ve done it so often with the people in my life- and make no mistake it’s also a survival tactic #you give someone what they want they won’t hurt you #and when that’s how you survive for years and years it becomes the default method of interacting with others #even with normal people who genuinely mean you no harm you revert to that people pleasing mode #as a means of control both external and internal #this is what i see armand doing- his way of surviving that he’s never truly broken out of #armand ceding coven control to Louis and curating the Dubai penthouse for Louis are part of the same pattern of behavior #and even tho it’s ultimately harmful and will only end badly for armand and Louis’ relationship #idk if armand knows how to not exist that way with someone he loves/desires #all of this also ties into louis and daniel #because of course Armand will lose it over Louis finding connection and interest with someone else aside from him #someone HUMAN no less #and I can see Armand taking out his anger on Daniel as a way of expressing his own frustration at still not being enough for Louis #breaking daniel’s mind in a desperate attempt to understand why this human could reach Louis in ways he couldn’t #not saying any of this to excuse Armand and his behavior obviously (I’m very upset and worried over the trial looming on the horizon)#but I do understand this impulse and how you’ll throw ANYONE under the bus in order to preserve your place with loved ones #it’s all horrifying but unfortunately I empathize #like even if Louis is right to walk out on him when he learns/remembers the truth of what happened to Claudia #I’ll probably still find myself saddened by Armand’s fate because I’ve absolutely been there myself #it’s a tragedy of his own making- his fear and desperation birthing manipulative and controlling behaviors #that ultimately result in your own abandonment #god this fucking show

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lucianinsanity · 1 year

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I decided to buy the bnha manga from the beginning, I have the first one now, and look

Why are you like this, Izuku?

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melverie · 1 year

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So Levi mentioned that MC has been asleep for 3 days, right

And Satan said that he and Solomon are trying their hardest to find a way to break the curse

And the demon bros are probably unaware, but Solomon definitely knows that humans can survive for 3 days without drinking water

So how devastated do you guys think Solomon must have felt when day 3 rolled around and they neither had any lead on how to save MC nor was there any sign of MC waking up

#he must have been so desperate to find a way to save them bc he was painfully aware of the time limit #also i'm choosing to believe that he didn't even consider putting mc in some kind of stasis via magic #bc he was too overwhelmed with the situation #also bc it has a greater angst potential :)#obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me solomon #mel's starry musings

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