#he's so disconnected from himself and it's very hard to get into that mindset

[realbeefman]

9 ^_^ (& 12!)

my VISION my dream story is to write a werewolf!chase x hunter!foreman au where foreman catches chase changing and. he never really BELIEVED in all that monster stuff his dad was always talking about growing up. always chalked it up to more religious talk and disregarded it. but here is chase, who he's known for years, becoming something WRONG right in front of him and it fucks him up real bad and blah blah eventually they have werewolf sex in the hospital you get the gist. i have the ENTIRE thing plotted out so perfectly in my mind but i just CANT write foreman's voice for the life of me. he's my specialest little guy and it kills me that i cant get inside his head the way i can for other characters. i understand why and how he reacts to things the way he does i GET him on a psychological level but if you asked me to write like three lines of realistic foreman dialogue i'd be incapable of it. ill write this fic someday but until then i have to study my fucked up little guy like a bug intently under a microscope until i can put him in Situations in a way that feels true to his character.

[cryptidmickle]

hi your amnesiac au has me in SHAMBLES plsplspls im crying sobbing stabbing the floor

im so glad i discovered your blog 😭 your art is so lovely and nice and just. Yes. eats everythibg snd leaves no crumbs /silly

PLEASE i require more info about amnesiac au.

could this happen to the other Beasts? if it can happen to Shadow Milk, it might be possible with the others, should their Ancient counterparts get lucky with their attacks

does Shadow Milk gradually become less of an ass? does he seek answers as to Why he was so awful? does he care at all?

how horrified is he at the revelation that he was such a huge issue for the faeries + PV, if at all? he already doesn't know much about himself, so would not knowing he was such a problem, such an awful person, terrify him, considering he doesn't remember any of this?

idk. i personally would be so so incredibly horrified and terrified that i was so terrible and..well, monstrous, if i may. i kinda project onto Shadow Milk im ngl so that's probably why im saying any of this

IM SORRY THIS IS SO LONG im just so,,, AAAUAGTHYBHLRHTLBFLTTKG /POS abt this entire au. hoenstly it inspires me; both your art and your ideas and concepts

hope you have a good day!! stay safe /gen

SOBS IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE THIS AU!!! i read all the tags on my posts btw so if any of u went crazy in there i saw it and went crazy w u. im deranged and mentally ill if u cant tell.

i would say the cracking of the souljam and loss of power is very possible for the other beasts! the amnesia however is a Very special case of pure vanilla fucking up the spell he cast

the other beasts would be depowered and much weaker, but retain their memories...... actually, would their corruption break as well since the souljam disconnected entirely from them? hm, i think redemption would be more possible if an ancient got a lucky shot, in that case

shadow milk does in fact become less of a jerk! what with no longer being secluded in a spire losing his mind and sense of identity all by himself, his personality is forced to become. eh. LESS THORNY.

pure vanilla is socializing him like a dog and he is NOT enjoying it. but i am. put that guy in situations.

shadow milk does in fact seek answers to why he did so many terrible things! he knows his... current personality isn't the greatest, but he can't imagine doing some of the things described

he feels a certain disconnect to the him others describe terrorizing them to the him of present, while he feels bad for what happened to them he doesn't really feel apologetic because was it really him? how's he supposed to know?

should he feel sorry because it technically was him, just.. evil? would that excuse it if he doesn't feel sorry at all?

this is where shadow milk and white lily have similar dilemmas because they both have previously done terrible things to others, especially pure vanilla. they feel bad about it, they dont wanna hurt him or others like that ever again

but then this is where they separate because shadow milk doesn't feel at fault, he doesn't remember doing all those things, he doesn't even know who that was! you want me to grovel forever about it? pathetic, what's done is done anyways, why not try to do something now?

white lily absolutely despises that mindset as she's competing with pv over who can hate themselves more, and she is winning. she thinks they both deserve to repent forever for their crimes but is constantly reminded of the fact that she remembers but shadow milk doesn't! she knows what she did, why she did it, it was bad and terrible, but she understands and that's what's important and she must repent for it

shadow milk doesn't know, he doesn't know anything at all and theres even more that they can't tell him as he's apparently been evil for centuries. it's hard to argue that he needs to feel bad when the personalities are truly separated.

......i went on a ramble again.

he doesn't feel bad about what he did but he is in fact, very unnerved that he may be capable of those actions again, and with pure vanilla trying to teach him to be good and kind its...... panic inducing sometimes, that maybe he can do something terrible again, that the evil is possibly just lurking under the surface and hes fooling himself and everyone around him

[caldella]

Yet another HB fan theory that may never get confirmed/answered.

Sooo this turned into a 200 word mini essay. Sorry. 😭 I've been sitting on this for a while, thinking about a very popular question among us Stolitz shippers:

What got Blitzø to start falling for Stolas so hard?

AKA "Stolas' detachment from realistic expectations was actually crucial as much as it messed things up."

We know pretty well what Stolas sees in Blitzø - his 'take charge' personality, his ambition, how Blitzø is always full of ideas and determined to go through with them. But what about Blitzø getting so attached to Stolas? How did this emotionally repressed cat lizard get so tied to this socially inept owl? I've discussed reasons in other posts, but I feel like there's one detail I haven't brought up RE when they first reconnected as adults:

Stolas was the first person from Blitzø's youth who met him as an adult and not only didn't reject him, but still believed in him and who he wanted to be. Potentially more than his own friends/employees in some ways.

Blitzø lost every close childhood connection after the fire and basically changed his entire self to create distance from who he was, even altering his name. When the show started, everyone who had known the old him (his dad, Fizz, Barbie) hated him. The Blitzø before Full Moon didn't value himself. He put on a cocky facade and tried not to think about the implications of his behavior.

And this was his mindset when he went to steal the grimoire. We're not sure if the IMP crew knew he was trying to obtain it. Personal guess? He told them he had an idea to improve their business and didn't elaborate. He knew how easy it had been to steal from Stolas as a kid and convinced himself it would work this time, too. Blitzø didn't let himself think too hard about the risks, or if Stolas didn't deserve to be stolen from a second time. Sure, he seemed to think Stolas was decent by the end of their time as kids. But that was 25 years ago. Blitzø was shitty now, life was shitty, everyone was shitty, surely Stolas was shitty now too, and everyone hated Blitzø anyway, so what did it matter if what he was doing was unethical?

But Stolas didn't see him as shitty. It would've been completely acceptable for a prince to have the imp who broke into his home obliterated. He didn't do that, or have him arrested, or even question him besides some teasing remarks. Stolas saw the grownup version of the kid he once admired and sat him down for conversation.

And that same vulnerability/callback to their child selves was also what snapped Blitzø out of his decision to just take the book and go. And his 'real fast' didn't end up being that.

And here's where my fan theory comes in.

This was Stolas' first situation where he felt wanted, where he had a crack of light in his very dark life that made him believe he could make choices for himself. But what about Blitzø? This dude got down bad, too. What happened that might've started the cracks in his own emotional walls?

Based on S1E1, Stolas allowed him to take the grimoire instead of Blitzø stealing it, and he knew Blitzø intended to use it for his work. Which meant at some point in this "real fast" night, Blitzø must have explained what he wanted it for.

This IMP concept was, from the start, an anomaly. Imps don't own their own business, especially in the Pride Ring despite this literally being Imp City. They don't have their own office. And Blitzø hadn't told the rest of his crew about the office before leasing it. When we got the flashback to Blitzø first renting it, his best friend, the person who believes he can do anything, thought he was reaching higher than she and the crew could handle.

But you know who would never doubt this goal of Blitzø's at all? Who would've completely supported this bonkers idea and boosted Blitzø's confidence that he could do it?

Who was disconnected enough from working class reality that he wouldn't realize how out-of-touch this dream potentially was?

Stolas.

If Blitzø mentioned any of this - the IMP business, the goal of having Sinner clients, renting their own office - Stolas didn't see an imp trying to aim too high. He saw the same ambitious kid he used to know, working toward the dream he always had - even if the nature of the business changed. And he very well might have mentioned that, too. I think this childhood dream was something Blitzø had buried in the back of his head. But he'd spent 15 years losing or separating himself from who he was since the fire. He might not have made the connection that this dream of IMP was, essentially, who he always has been.

Stolas was the first person in Blitzø's life who knew him as a kid and still validated him as an adult. Who never treated any of his goals as out of reach. Who started making Blitzø confront that, under his new persona, and despite all the shit he'd been through, the Blitzø he had been as a kid was still there. (Edit - I'm actually wondering if that's part of why, when we see flashbacks of their interactions from Blitzø's POV, Stolas always looks rounder/softer and more like his kid self.) Stolas made a link between young Blitzø's and adult Blitzø's dreams and wanted to see them succeed, even if the methods used were illegal and could carry significant consequences.

And then we had Blitzø, who grew up in a circus where coworkers/family were one and the same, using Stolas' grimoire for his own business. He tried to convince himself that Stolas' affections were fake. But as others have pointed out, he never tried alternate methods to access the living world when he could have. In my personal fan opinion, Blitzø started to tie Stolas into IMP's success the moment Stolas believed in Blitzø's goal and decided to support it, even if he didn't realize it. Blitzø does not want to do things alone. Even if this faith in him was fake - it had to be fake! Everyone hates him! - it was constant, and he didn't want to lose it. There was not IMP without Stolas' support, literally at first and eventually because Blitzø didn't want there to be.

And Stolas, for his part, never rescinded that support. Even when IMP was captured by humans. Even when the grimoire was easily stolen out of Blitzø's own office. Even when things started breaking down between them, Stolas tried to reassure Blitzø that his work wasn't in jeopardy. Because he knew this office, this business, was Blitzø's dream. It was more than a job - it was part of Blitzø's identity, who he was.

Stolas fumbled over this in Full Moon at first, when asking for the book back, but he made it very clear right after that he did not want to make any decisions that would prevent Blitzø from being himself. Even as he felt he was losing Blitzø, he believed in him.

We've realized over S2 how much Blitzø did for his IMP team, and also Stolas. But I think this is an important connection, and I hope it gets touched on in S3, even if just in a brief conversation. Yes, Stolas was guilty of putting Blitzø on a pedestal many, many times. But I think that unfaltering belief was part of what made Blitzø get so attached to him. And why part of his breakdown in Ghostfuckers included letting the IMP business falter and nearly crash. The Full Moon not-a-breakup caused a spiral in his self-loathing, and his self-destructive fear that he would push everyone away. But additionally, IMP it currently was - the office, the clientele, etc. - only got off the ground because Stolas unequivocally believed in Blitzø. He had been an unseen force/support behind IMP and Blitzø ever since S1.

And if the person who most believed in Blitzø's success was gone, what was the point of having it?

[theambitiouswoman]

How do I overcome self-esteem issues in dating?

Growing up, I don't have pretty privilege like some of my girl friends do, and guys normally would not approach me because I come across as "intimidating" (I have a RBF). I've approached guys I had crushes on at school but I always get rejected, they say that I'm better as a friend than a romantic partner.

I thought my luck finally turned around when I met my ex on a dating app. He checked off many things on my list e.g., successful career, financially independent, exercises regularly and takes care of himself. But after several months I realized that he only dated me because he was lonely and it was convenient for him. He didn't want to commit to me when I asked for something serious. I was crushed. I felt like I was undeserving of love and am convinced that I'll never find someone who will accept me as a partner because I'm not my type's type.

I'm trying to pick myself back up again. I started going to the gym, doing proper skincare, eating healthier, and dressing up better to feel good about myself. But I still find myself secretly hoping for the validation of successful and attractive men when I'm in social settings, as if that proves that I am an equal or "at their level".

I'm aware that this mindset is toxic but I'm struggling to find an effective way to grow out of it. Appreciate your thoughts on this.

Hi beautiful girl

I just want to say how much I admire your self awareness and the effort you’re putting into bettering yourself. It makes you stand out in the best way 🤍 It’s so hard to be dedicated to growth when we don’t feel our best. Use this as a building block for your confidence in case no one has ever told you.

Now, let’s talk about this whole “pretty privilege” thing. Yes, some girls might have an easier time getting attention, but attention and genuine connection are two very different things. You’re not looking for surface level validation—you’re looking for someone who truly sees you & trust me, that’s worth way more than a few extra DMs from guys who just like a pretty face who want you for bad reasons. Pretty privilege is not just about looks and I hate how much the internet emphasizes it. Because pretty privilege is also about your confidence and self respect. How tall you stand. How you put yourself together. How you treat others. I see countless girls who aren’t wildly attractive by societal standards who get treated with “pretty privilege” and you know why? Because they are confident.

I totally get the frustration of feeling like you’re “not your type’s type,” but that’s just a story your past experiences have made you believe—it’s not a fact. First of all, men don’t date who they want, they date at the level of their self esteem. I’ve said this many times before and I’ll repeat it. Men literally never know what they want. Anything you hear men say that they do, it really means the opposite. I’ve never seen this not be true. Because men will always cling to a woman who makes them FEEL, since men have so much trouble with emotion. The right person will find you incredibly attractive, not just in looks but in energy, presence, and personality. You already have so much to offer & you don’t need to prove your worth to anyone, especially men who don’t recognize it. So instead of worrying about if a guy likes you, ask yourself if you like him. Learning to disconnect from the approval of others is important for confidence. And if you approve of yourself, you don’t care what other people think.

You’re already doing amazing things for yourself—the gym, skincare, eating well, dressing up—and that’s exactly where your focus should be. Instead of seeking validation, shift the energy into being the woman you admire. And when you walk into a room, don’t wonder if successful men will notice you—ask yourself, Do I even find them impressive? (promise most aren’t lol — you’re going to have to trust me on this) Do they bring the same value to the table that I do? That little mindset shift will change everything.

Become your own biggest fan. Ask yourself, If no one could see or comment on what I do, would I still want to do it? If the answer is yes, that’s self approval. Unfollow or distance yourself from anything that makes you feel like you need to prove your worth. Instead of trying to impress others, focus on whether they impress you. The most magnetic people are unapologetically themselves. Thats incredibly hot. And everyone is drawn to a woman whose life revolves around herself. Seriously that’s all you’re missing!!! You’re doing so great!

Decenter everyone and center yourself!

You’re not behind, you’re not lacking and you’re absolutely deserving of a love that feels easy, mutual, and aligned. Keep growing, keep glowing and trust that the right people will come into your life because of the confidence and self worth you’re building—not because of how much you chase external validation.

Love you, most of these guys don’t deserve you anyway. Especially with all of the work you’re doing for yourself. Too good for most. A man needs to earn you and work twice as hard to keep you. And men love working for something babygirl.

[lullabyalikpoptarot]

Stray Kids as Husbands

Okay, this was requested a while ago, so I will start this series with this group. Let's see what they show me.

Bang Chan (Pisces/3 of Cups/3 of Pentacles/Judgment)

I did hear husband material at first and these cards kind of show that, which is nice. I see him being very emotionally connected and affectionate with his partner. He will be very attuned to his partner where he may struggle to distinguish himself from his partner. I can see him being very idealistic and may not see the reality of a situation as well. I can see him being a husband that will still want to maintain friendships. I can see him wanting big parties or gathering with friends every so often, along with his partner's friends as well and them getting along. I can see him wanting to get along with his partner's friends. I see him wanting to be a support system for his partner, but he also would want that for himself or have a strong support system around himself and his partner. I don't see him wanting them to solely depend on each other, but have a community around them, which is interesting that he is stressing this. I see him wanting them to grow old together and also grow together on a personal level. I see him wanting the relationship to flourish and to nurture the bond as long as it last.

Lee Know (House 12/The Star/The Devil/4 of Cups)

I see there will be a lot of healing and lessons he will need to learn in Marriage. It will be something he can grow on a spiritual level from. I feel like Marriage and him being a husband will be a big lesson for him in this lifetime. This could stem from a past lifetime and being a husband is a lesson to learn and grow from in this lifetime. I see him needing to release old patterns and learn to let go. He will need to learn the art of forgiveness, to himself and to his future spouse. He may struggle to forgive, and this Marriage can be a lesson for him to learn that. He will need to work on opening his heart and to learn to be more vulnerable and to stop hiding these aspects of himself or guard it. I am getting it is hard for him to open up, as a husband he will need to learn to do so to heal in this lifetime. He may struggle to stay in the relationship emotionally and could get quite bored quickly and need some new excitement. I can see him disconnecting eventually and wanting something new. So, I see being a husband will be a challenge for him.

Changbin (Venus/3 of Wands/Wheel of Fortune/Ace of Pentacles)

He is cute! He will be all about giving and receiving love. He will have a strong connection and attraction to his spouse. I think of the Lovers card when I see this Venus card. He wants someone he can connect and vibe with. I can see him enjoying the company of his spouse and wanting to try and do things together. He could be madly in love with his future spouse. I can see him being a passionate husband. He will want to travel with them and do fun things, to step outside and try new things, to go on adventures together. He will want things to be fun and exciting. He will be someone who enjoys progress and taking steps forward. He is not about the past, and he doesn't like dwelling on it. He prefers to look ahead. He wants a stable footnote and to build a strong secure unit with his partner. I can see money being a thing and him wanting to make money. I see him being steady, stable and calm as a husband. He isn't the type to get overly emotional or unstable. He will be a solid source as a husband. I can also see him being realistic about things in Marriage. I can see him not having this la la land mindset as a husband. I see him keeping it real. And he knows what is needed to make a good solid marriage work. Man, I want him now reading this lol I love his energy.

Hyunjin (House 8/The Hermit/Sacral Chakra/8 of Swords)

Oh my dear Hyunjin *sighs.* Why am I getting the message he is a broken soul, did I not get that in his perspective reading? Interesting. Umm, there is some karmic ties he will need to release as a husband. I do hope he isn't in a karmic bond within this marriage, because those relationships are not the greatest. This card is about death and rebirth and facing one's fear, so he may need to do this as a husband. I sense he will need his time alone, or he will spend a lot of time alone to search for himself through this Marriage. It can also help him find himself as well. Sexual intimacy could be important to him, or that is something he may need to work on healing. But the sacral chakra is about creative energy, his desires, vulnerability, so he may struggle with that as a husband, but he may also, if comfortable enough, can express this energy very well as a husband. He may struggle to see the light at the end of the tunnel. He can feel lost and hopeless and feel he can't do things. He's got to work on opening himself up to the possibilities and release the restrictions he may put on himself. There is a need for him to take the blinders off.

Han (Chiron/6 of Wands/The Hanged Man/The World)

So, as a husband he may have some wounds he will need to work on healing as well. This energy is rough that needs to be healed and worked through, and he will need to accept this challenge in his life, through that he can heal and move past it. Not sure why Marriage and him being a husband will be a triggering experience for him, but it is a lesson for his personal growth to figure out. He can be a husband that can give a boost to his partner. To be their biggest ally, but he would have to learn to gain belief and confidence in himself, if he can do that, he can inspire and lift his spouse up. I see him having a lot of pride for his spouse. He should work on not resisting things in the Marriage, observe and let things be and to accept things as it is. This is all a lesson for him. I can see him being passive about things and struggling to take action as well, just letting things be, now there is a time and place for that and he will need to do that, but he should also show passion and fight for things that he feels he should, so the passive approach won't always work in his favor. So, if he just allows things to slowly fall into place, he will find wholeness and peace within himself. He will need to work on stop fighting certain things, there is a time and place for that, but it shouldn't be constant. It seems he can always be on fight mode. I am referring to flight or fight mode. The 6 of wands can also refer to him needing or having a desire to win all the time, or be on top, so he will need to work on letting go and giving his spouse a chance to take a win every so often.

Felix (Cancer/The Emperor/The High Priestess/4 of Pentacles)

I see him as a husband that likes to have control and take the lead when it comes to his Marriage. He is all about the family and building a stable and comfortable home for the family. I can see him wanting to be the provider. I can also see him as a husband who is very protective of his spouse and family. I can see him being pretty private about it. I don't see him being to open about his family life. He would like to keep things behind closed doors. To keep things a mystery. I see him being a husband of action, planning out things. I can see him being a good listener as well. I don't particularly see him being that open with his partner or showing much emotion or vulnerability. I see him more so being more logical and wanting to be a strong stable force for his spouse. But he does have that Cancer energy, which is very sensitive and soft energy, so he does have that, but may not reveal it too much. He can be very loving and warm, but he may repress that to keep the home as stable as it can be and not to show too much vulnerability as he may think things will crack is he does so. His need to control things and keep things together can block him from showing a more loving and carefree energy that is in him, so he would need to work on opening himself up more to be a more loving doting husband, rather than a control freak that may piss of his fs and make things harder for their relationship to thrive.

Seungmin (Yin/3 of Swords/4 of Wands/9 of Cups)

I see him having some strong feminine energy as a husband. Someone who is calmer, still, patient, intuitive and more receptive to his partner. He may want them to take more of the lead. He may also be someone who can keep things to himself to keep the peace. He is also a husband that trust and just let's things be, so he can be a bit passive and nonchalant and lack initiative as well. It seems like he will struggle to communicate his struggles, hurt and needs and will do his best to keep it to himself, which may make him feel alone and isolated, because of the lack of communication skills he has. He would like things to be jovial and happy and would want a happy home for his spouse. He would provide joy and warmth to his spouse. Marriage and meeting his fs will be a dream come true for him, but I also see him really wanting to make his spouse happy, so he may disregard his needs to please his spouse. He would want Marriage to be a happy occasion, so he will do his best to bring happiness to his spouse as a husband.

I.N (Aries/2 of Pentacles/The Hanged Man/2 of Cups)

I can see him having an aggressive energy as a husband. Kind of dominating, but would like a challenge, or a spouse to challenge him. He will have lots of passion and fire as a husband. Someone who is the initiator and would like to take the lead, but he would want his spouse to do so as well. We got two two's here, so balance is necessary for him. As a husband he is good at juggling things multi-tasking, so all his priorities may not be on his spouse. I can see this as him wanting them both to bring something to the table in the marriage. He brings something and they bring another thing. He would want them to be a good mix. He wouldn't want to put in all the effort as a husband. He would like them to share duties. Although, he can be the initiator. He does also take a passive approach and likes to observe his spouse and learn from them. I can see him being very aware of what his spouse does, so I would say he is observant. But I can see him open to new ideas and perspectives, so he can learn from his spouse as a husband, so I don't see him stuck on an idea, or being too stubborn. He would like a strong spiritual and emotional connection between the two. Two people coming together as a whole, so he will be a loving husband. I see him open to love and to receive it. I see him being tough, but also has a soft side.

Okay, this was fun, probably my favorite reading to do of them. I will do this for the other groups I normally do too as well.

[t1wl1ghts]

If you have any, what are some darker headcanons you have of Killer!Sans?

MY FIRST ASK WOOOOOOO!!

TW: SELF HARM, HALLUCINATIONS, SUBSTANCE ABUSE, EATING DISORDER (?)

꩜ I like the idea of his vision either being normal or extremely messed up depending on what stage he's at! (inspo: astray-anomaly)

꩜ But not just does his vision get incredibly blurry but he has a form of prosopagnosia that gets worse around stage 3 or 4. Where he even struggles to differentiate the Star Sanes from his team.

꩜ He is rarely in stage 1, it's very rare to see him like that. The only person who's been able to see him like that is Nightmare and Color, no one else would see him like that.

꩜ I do think he would have DID or at least something similar to it. Along with MAJOR PTSD, he would have some major trust issues. So getting close to him would be EXTREMELY hard, he most likely would be hypervigilant, and have flashbacks.

꩜ He has depersonalization disorder, I think for him he would have the mindset/coping mechanism of "This is all a game nothing is real", and would try to disconnect from reality and what he's doing. This would cause him to feel like he's just watching himself act out his violent behavior without controlling it.

꩜ He experiences hallucinations, not to the same degree as Dust who would have constant hallucinations, but Killer would have his moments. He'd mainly suffer from auditory hallucinations, voices constantly whispering to him. Some examples are commanding voices such as a voice saying, "Hurt him now," "Kill her," or "End your life." or some voices insulting him "You deserved everything' or "You deserve this punishment", Voices arguing with each other Example: Voices saying, "We should kill him," followed by another voice saying, "No, wait, he isn’t ready yet," making him paranoid. And last distorted sounds of violence, the sound of a knife cutting through flesh, yelling, screaming even in a silent room.

꩜ Bro abuses percs like his life depends on it, even though sometimes it can cause his paranoia and hallucinations to get worse but the highs where he just gets a rush of pure euphoria, all the negative emotions and thoughts leaving him, all the aches and pains in his body magically fading away replaced by warmth and numbness are what keeps him coming back to it.

꩜ He cuts himself for sure, there is nothing he can do to permanently escape from the quilt he feels from killing everyone he loves, his friends, his neighbors, and his brother. He definitely gets a rush whenever he cuts a little too deep, even though he doesn't actively try to kill himself he's not opposed to one day just bleeding out. He won't take care of the wounds either, he'll leave them to fester, bleed, and possibly get an infection. He'll even get injured on purpose during battles, just in case one day it'll kill him. Also because he just likes the physical pain, it's easier to focus on than what's going on inside his head.

꩜ Since he hardly takes care of his own wounds, he doesn't bother to bathe that much, he'll hardly ever change his clothes unless they're completely torn up or nightmare says something about it, though he hardly does. Even if he was to change he'll just get into less dirty clothes. He doesn't do his laundry anyway. Showers, brushing his teeth, and taking care of himself in general are basically nonexistent to him. He claims it's because he's lazy if asked why, but he just doesn't see himself worthy of such things.

꩜ He doesn't eat much either, he doesn't completely starve himself but just like every other problem he has, he just doesn't see himself good enough to eat.

꩜ He has major night terrors, he hardly gets any sleep which absolutely crushes him, if there's anything a Sans is good at it's sleeping. For him, it's just another soul-crushing reminder of what he used to be, happy, punny, a fun-loving skeleton...now he's just a shell of what he used to be.

[bouquetface]

Jimin Vedic Chart - 11:58 AM

Per request.

I hope everyone just takes this as fun. I do not mean any disrespect in making assumptions. Please take it as entertainment.

It is unknown whether his birthtime is AM or PM so I'll do a second post using PM. And you guys can go with the one that sounds most like him.

This is using a Vedic chart. Thus, the planets will be in different signs than a tropical chart.

Personality:

8th house ruler in 3rd house suggests he desires to get to the root of the topic/issue. He has an investigative/researcher type mindset. He can experience a feeling of disconnect with his younger sibling.

His father can be one of his best friends. There is true respect and camaraderie between the them. HIs father can be money-minded and very hardworking. Jimin may have gotten these traits from him.

He is likely to have a more scientific way of thinking. He isn't overly emotional. He'll remove himself from the equation/situation and use logic to make his choice. This is something he naturally learns to do through experiencing a lot of emotional turmoil in youth.

First house ruler (Jupiter) debilitated in 2nd + Venus conjunct Mars in 12th house shows he can get anxious about money. Expenses and big purchases can create a bit of anxiety/stress. Regardless of being wealthy, he can find himself unable to fully relax until he knows his money is right - ex: he needs to know his bills are paid, he needs to know where and when his next sources of income are coming from, etc. Physical activity can be how he releases all the pent up stress.

His reputation would be that he is a clever person. People likely respect how he does business. They see him as an authority in the workplace not just another client.

Romantic Relationships:

Jimin is likely to marry someone from a different background than him (religion, ethnicity, nationality). The spouse has simply grown up culturally different than him. She will be able to share and educate him on a whole new perspective/outlook.

When he meets his spouse, it is likely a work related event that is occurring far from his birth place. This can be in a different country or same country but in a different state/province/district. However, this won't be their first time truly meeting. It is highly likely he has encountered her before - ex: you've been in the same building but weren't properly introduced to one another. Or someone you've known about but never gotten the chance to know until years later.

If you believe in past lives, this shows marrying someone from a past life. There is a sense of familiarity with the spouse.

They will keep their relationship very private. At the start, they may tell very few they are seeing each other. It can be like a secret workplace affair. There may be something forbidden about the relationship at the start - possibly they know they shouldn't be dating someone who is somehow work related or they know they shouldn't be dating this person because of how other's will react.

After marriage, he is likely to move far from his birth place - possibly abroad. His children are likely to be born far from his birth place too. This move is unlikely to occur instantly, it'll be a gradual process + choice. He will find life to be more exciting after he has moved.

In married life, before falling asleep he is likely to on occasion bicker with his spouse. They fight in private. She will be very social. She will have a lot of business connections. Her career will involve communications. She may be a performer herself, possibly a writer, maybe even a journalist type career. She is successful in what she does. She has worked very hard and accomplished a lot in her career. She may have workaholic tendencies.

She will be a private person but she is not introverted. If need be, she can charm almost anyone in the room with her words. She is clever, witty, sarcastic & observant.

She is unlikely to bring in any significant income or possessions into the marriage. They are likely to bicker about her spending habits after marriage. This does not mean she is broke and using him, she could be very wealthy but it won't match his wealth.

They are likely to keep their money separate from one another. It's more so he is trying to help her by telling her these purchases are too much or unnecessary. But they have different attitudes toward money and spending - they just won't see eye to eye.

Physical Appearance:

She is likely short to medium height.

She is likely a fit and active person. S

he may have long dark hair.

Timing:

rmr to take this only as entertainment. for celebs they basically have chance to marry at any point in their life.

2025-2028:

This is his Saturn/Mercury Period. Mercury rules his 7th house and is in his 10th house - making relationships and career the main focus for this period.

He is likely to meet a love interest in this period.

2029-2032:

This will span his Venus and Sun bhukti. This is when he is likely to marry his partner. Although, it may not be the same partner from the 2025-2028 period.

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headcanon anon here so glad to be back on the internet I actually wanted to pick up a convo we had about mick being a little gremlin while the guys are his caretakers now I recently discovered something called age regression where a person will go back to the mindset of a kid or any age of childhood to cope with extreme amounts of trauma and we know that mick definitely has so much trauma so how about a scenario where mick accidentally regressed after being yelled at by nikki or something and mick is just straight up sobbing his heart out which is really out of character and nikki panic and thinks wtf is up with our old man right now?? and maybe mick didn't know he was an age regressor all he knows is that he feels fuzzy and small and far away

headcanon anon!! ok ok, i have to say this: i’ve had this lil fic i wrote like ages ago that had to do with the whole age regression thing with mick. (i’m glad i’m not the only one who’s thought about this now!) i’ve never posted it though so don’t go trying to find it lollll! it was just a little something for myself because the whole age regression thing interested me. i’m not sure this whole thing will be accurate in any way cause i still don’t know a whole lot about age regression, but i’m going to try my best anyways!

Here’s: father figure reversal party!

- we all know mick is a pretty stoic guy. he doesn’t usually like to show emotion. he’s not about to show his vulnerability to just anyone! that being said, he’s still a pretty sensitive guy as well. he’s much more susceptible to being hurt or traumatized because of it, and lets be real… he’s been pretty traumatized throughout his life.

- but… the Crüe doesn’t realize that. they don’t understand that he’s very sensitive and is prone to shutting in on himself whenever he’s stuck in a fight with one of them. usually mick can just ignore them when they get loud, choosing to just walk away and wait for them to cool down before engaging again.

- one day though, nikki is being rather loud and obnoxious. he constantly instigates fights with mick, goading him into conflict. mick is just confused and annoyed, and for once, he tries to fight back. it’s the sort of conflict that could be entirely avoided, and every time he tries to redirect the conversation and resolve it, nikki just continues to bicker. they get to a point where nikki just starts yelling at him and it triggers something in mick. this innate fear that he can’t push down or get away from. for one reason or another, mick just shuts down. he can feel his reasoning fly out the window as his lips start quivering and his eyes start tearing up.

- almost immediately, nikki stops and watches as his old man starts crying, quite hard as well! micks face gets red as he slowly sinks to the floor, trying to hide his face in his hands. nikki literally freezes cause he really doesn’t know what to do. he’s never once seen mick cry, even in all the moments he was justified a good cry. but now, here he was breaking down right in front of him.

-(nikki would probably just start looking around, like he’s looking for someone else to deal with mick because he’s so lost and unsure of what to do. i guess this is just the consequences of mick babying the other boys so now they have no idea how to actually comfort someone!)

- and mick is just out of it. his mind feels fuzzy, he feels almost disconnected from the whole thing. it doesn’t help that the lights are too bright, noises are too loud, nikki’s now getting too close to him, everything is on fire and he doesn’t know why, which only makes him cry harder.

- and meanwhile nikki’s just panicking, trying to figure out what to do. he bends down in front of mick and awkwardly pats him on the shoulder and asks him what’s wrong, why he’s crying and if he wanted a tissue. it would be a bit cute if both of them didn’t really know what was going on. like, mick doesn’t know why he’s acting like this, and nikki’s concerned because… having not seen the old man cry at all (and that hard) before.

- when mick calms down enough to talk, all he can say is “you yelled at me, you hate me.” in this pathetically small voice. despite his lack of emotion intelligence, nikki’s heart breaks and he immediately pulls mick into a warm hug. with the softest voice he can muster, nikki has to reassure him that what he thinks isn’t true. though he really has no idea what’s going on, nikki still understands that mick is in a very fragile state and needs a gentler approach more than ever. like he starts out not knowing what to do and maybe thinking it’s all a joke, but then he sees his old man display that kind of childlike angst that he himself displayed at such a young age. it makes nikki realize no one cared for him when he was sad, so i feel like he’d take care of mick in the way that he wanted to be taken care of. he doesn’t even realize mick age regresses (both of them don’t) but he just has an inkling that he just has to heal the broken child mick has within him.

- bonus: and just because i can’t ever just be angsty, i’ll add this: after micks calmed down enough, nikki brings him to a quieter place that just sits with him and cuddles him to make him feel better. and if mick is embarrassed by what he did outside of that kid mindset, nikki promises him he won’t tell a soul about what happened.

-bonus bonus hc: once mick and nikki both realize what mick is doing is age regressing, maybe nikki offers to look out for him whenever it happens. mick is very against regressing in front of tommy and vince and begs nikki to make sure he’s not around them if he were to regress accidentally. and nikki would be so diligent about caring for mick, even if mick doesn’t specifically ask him to. they both know mick only trusts himself around nikki because of the good job he did the first time around, so it just becomes a routine/secret between the two of them.

ok that’s all i have!! i know these weren’t much but idk all of my hcs today have been doo doo lmaooo!! i guess i’m running out of ideas or something. sorry about that though, cause this was a great idea that i still want to work around in my own time so i should have been more prepared for this! you had a great idea though headcanon anon, i like these kinds of hc ngl!!

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So I have been thinking that Jon while being more trusting of his close family compared to Rhaegar who understandably always stays alert is pretty disconnected from it in itself? He doesn't feel the need to pick a Targaryen name for neither himself or his hatchling and isn't all that invested in Targaryen family history or legacy. Same goes for being a Stark. He follows old gods and carries himself with a certain manner but that comes with being raised in the north. First and foremost he's a bastard, has always been and ironically still is on some level despite what Rhea and Daemon did for him and Rhaegar. The world has never let him forget and he certainly never has. He still thinks about it: before coming to King's Landing when him and Rhaegar thought they were bastards, when meeting Jace, Luke and Joff, seeing them being cared for by Rhaenys. I really love this theme and I am intrigued with where it will go. I wonder what Rhaegar thinks about it since he knows more about Jon and his past than anyone and as an adult was very connected to both his house and the prophecy regarding it. I am also curious whether Daemon will fully pick up on it. He has been doing it a bit already, giving Jon space and noticing his distress and melancholy (damn Daemon doesn't get enough credit for being sharp! I mean it's fair since we have Rhaegar right there and Daemon's feelings cloud his senses sometimes). On one hand here Jon is a young bastard boy who grew up in the Vale and has been violently pulled away from that life (which Daemon acknowledges to himself!) but on the other he has been aware of his parentage for quite some time. This matter intrigues me because it feels so real. Jon's struggle with finding his identity in his families is a real thing. I am excited to see where it's all headed. Wonder what perspective Daemon and Rhaegar will bring with them, since as I said they both were and are closely tied to Targaryen's family history, legacy and prophecies!

Yeah, Jon's disconnect with both of his heritages (Stark and Targaryen and now Royce) is an ongoing theme. For his Targaryen heritage, he didn't learn of it until he was an adult, so he never had a chance to connect with it. It's one of the reasons I have him as not really bonding to Rhaegal--whether because Dany's dragons were all semi-bonded to her or because Jon didn't really accept that part of him fully, it's hard to say.

He's a child again, so there is in theory a chance for him to actually grow to accept his heritage, but then there's the wrinkle of his Royce ties now. It's quite possible he'll be tapped for Lord of Runestone, so what does that mean for his identity? Is he forever doomed to be trapped between two houses/regions, neither of which quite feel like home? Can a person be two things? Or even three? (His past connection to the North hasn't disappeared suddenly, after all.)

I don't even know if it's a struggle Jon is particularly conscious of. He's used to being an outsider, not quite fitting in, always different/held apart.

Daemon may or may not be helpful with this. Although he's softened on the "RUNESTONE? ABORT ABORT" mindset due to Rhaegar's struggles, that doesn't mean he wants either of his children to embrace their Vale identity, and he still would prefer if they abandoned it entirely. If anything, he probably worries they don't feel worthy of their Targaryen heritage and will overcorrect in pushing it on them. (Rhaegar's not going to mind, so long as Daemon isn't outright disparaging the Vale, but it may feel overwhelming to Jon.)

(Daemon's very sensitive himself about Targaryen heritage, as he feels that people like the Hightowers are pushing to erase it, which is another reason why he's more likely to be aggressive in preserving it through his children. He sees it as defending against it being lost.)

Rhaegar is more likely to guess what's bothering Jon and try to help him work through it since, as you mentioned, he has a lot more context than Daemon. How exactly he thinks it should be solved, and how Daemon helps (or doesn't) and what Jon feels about it all is for us to watch unfold!

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Han's Reading

November 25, 2024

Right Now

He feels like he’s hit his limit, like he’s on the verge of throwing everything away and giving up. It’s like nothing in his life is going right. Now work is stressing him out, and parts of his life are just falling apart. He’s not doing much about it because he’s fed up. Lately, he’s been diving deep into spirituality—studying religion and spirituality—and he’s really focused on that right now.

Love Life

He’s not in a relationship, but there’s someone he admires who’s in the spotlight. It’s not something he talks about much, though.

There’s even a chance this person shared a past life with him. Like a soulmate.

But overall, he gets really disappointed with the people who show up in his love life. Most of them seem to only care about his money, and they don’t have the healthiest mindset, you know?

The people he usually likes are his friends, and it doesn’t work out because they don’t see him in the same way.

He believes he’ll meet someone great, and his friends are very supportive of that. I think he talks to a lot of people about it, and honestly, he even doubts his own judgment because he listens to others’ opinions so much. He ends up doing things he doesn’t even want to do, just because someone else thinks it’s best.

Career

He’s trying to let go of the material world a bit. I feel like he’s becoming more spiritual, so he’s taking action—getting rid of some belongings because it makes him feel better.

There’s someone in his circle he’s wary of. He thinks this person sees themselves as some kind of Buddha or saint, and it bothers him because they can be really hypocritical and never own up to their flaws. It’s been upsetting him a lot. He’s feeling very down.

It’s like his work has lost its purpose for him. He’s isolating himself, just going through the motions but not really into it. I think he might be traveling somewhere soon to take a break and escape this work grind for something more exciting.

Family

I think his mom is a major provider alongside him, and maybe she does a lot of physically demanding tasks that leave her really tired. This bothers him a lot—seeing his mom still pushing herself so hard.

This has made him question if he’s doing enough for his family, if he’s providing enough. Sometimes it’s hard for him to be emotionally present with them. He helps financially, but he feels like it’s not enough.

He wants to find that balance.

He even feels a little burdened by his family because he’s not as involved as he thinks he should be. But maybe it’s just in his head. This also makes him withdraw, and I think they compare him a lot to a woman in the family who’s super present and altruistic. That really gets to him.

Friendships

His friendships aren’t great right now. In fact, he just ended one, and it was a messy breakup. He said some terrible things to the person, and he regrets it a lot. He turned his back on this friend.

This friend might be a Fire sign, maybe Leo. He’s grieving this friendship—it’s been really hard for him. He’s trying to find hope, but he still has unresolved issues from past friendships that occasionally haunt him.

Future

He’s about to go through some emotional challenges that will bring him down. He’ll feel very disconnected from how his fans perceive him, and it’ll take him a while to accept himself and see himself for who he truly is.

I think he and that friend might try to talk again in the future, but it won’t work out. He might reach out just to apologize for the way he spoke, and that’ll be it. I don’t see them going back to the way things were.

But in love and work, he’s going to be really satisfied—both financially and emotionally. He’ll meet someone he’s deeply passionate about, and they’ll feel the same way about him. It’ll be everything he’s ever wished for, his ideal type.

As for his family, though, I see a lot of chaos. I think there are ongoing conflicts, and maybe a male family member will reappear with some argument or issue that’s going to stir things up for everyone.

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I’ve never done one of these before but I would love to get a character matchup from you, if still available, preferably from Fear and Hunger 2!

I have two characters I think I’d have good chemistry with but I’d love another opinion!

I’m 21, an INTP and a Virgo, 5’10, I consider myself a gentle giant, I can be kind and understanding, I can sometimes put friends before me in terms of mental health. I’m introverted, but once I get close with people I can crawl out of my shell! I consider myself funny but can also be slow to get a joke, I also struggle with severe anxiety (specifically GAD) as well as ADHD and depression, I can also be lazy and paranoid.

I love drawing, and video games. I enjoy collecting things such as figures and dolls. I love animals, in particular birds and cats! My favorite color is gray (because every color combined should be a gray or mud color). I love Dungeons and Dragons or any ttrpg! Making characters is one of my favorite things to do! I’m also an illustration major, I aspire to be a concept artist!

I have dislikes that I struggle to remember, I can be very picky with food or going out, things have to be perfect and I struggle with change, one of my biggest pet peeves is hearing people chew/eat or breathe. I dislike the heat and summer, I struggle with loud noises as well.

If you aren’t taking these anymore please ignore this ask but otherwise thank you very much for your time! <3

Daan is your first match! Purple is a colour associated with royalty that is found in the themes of Elise's Stitch design, so it's safe to assume that Daan took on the colour after being accepted into the baron's family. Now that he's lost all ties to his past, he's disconnected from his whole identity, a 'blank soul'.

Your love of grey reminds me of the green, or pink, or yellow, or blue lady who only dress and decorum their entire life around one colour, whose documentaries can be found on YouTube. All the ladies embodying their colour have it imbued in their personality. Grey is associated with the same maturity, calmness and warmth, you would get from a kind gentle giant like yourself.

These traits demonstrate a confidence in identity that he could only pretend to have, he'd be drawn to your strong character. Showcasing your portfolio he'd gravitate to the character illustrations, as part of being a gentleman is maintaining class through style. Discussing your work through fashion, he'd be curious for the reason behind your fixation on such a seemingly dull colour.

And while grey can be numbness, it can also be like you said, representing the whole colour spectrum; endless possibilities and a new beginning.

Explaining your reasoning introduces this positive mindset in the form of a revelation. He wonders as he looks up to you as an example, what it means to find your true colours. Though purple suits Daan's personality quite well; a sauve, charming man; he needs help to see that.

Probably the most self-sacrificing person you'll know besides yourself, he's the first to offer to use Sylvian magic despite the sexual trauma that's tied to it. Asking him to play, he'd propose he fulfill the role of Dungeon Master, while you design the characters and do the worldbuilding, without much hesitation. Weaving stories with his wit, how hard can it be?

Acts of service are a reoccurring theme in all his relationships. But unlike the sacrificial role he usually takes on, this gives him a unique opportunity to explore his identity through characters and worldbuilding, without the codependency on his other half.

People with mental health issues often can use fantasy as an escape. Unlike Daan, coping with his depression through the bottom of a bottle, roleplaying games offer a much healthier alternative. The suspension of disbelief that comes with fiction, helps him be a little more comfortable with himself outside of roleplay.

Your best match by far is with Abella! The way you described yourself reminds me of the relationship dynamic between Abella and Olivia, with some key differences that make the relationship more romantic.

While Abella loves to dote on those she cares about, her nurturing and protective side seem to cross over, where she's only acknowledged as an asset for war, through the strength and support she can provide to her family.

Your shared 'gentle giant' status makes her feel more comfortable taking on the role of a protector, without being insecure about her physique.

Abella's nurturing side is frequently brought out with Olivia, when Olivia is struggling with her likewise anxiety. When Olivia apologizes repeatedly for talking about her interests, Abella reassures her she's 'golden, darling.'

While Marina and Abella share banter over their sense of humour, Marina struggles to engage with Olivia when she's slow to get the joke. The type of person to joke with someone rather than at, Abella would go out of her way to make someone feel included in the joke.

She would cater towards your sensitivities. Tuned in to make sure the volume, your food, she herself is not setting you off. She would delicately check-in to ask if anything was upsetting you. Her insecurities creating a problem that doesn't exist, she'd mostly question if her own breathing/chewing is the problem. She would feel loved to have the reassurance that she's nothing short of the lady you know she is.

Abella is a canonical big fan of romance fiction. Context clues hint that these tastes expand to all sorts, specifically we know those that involve mystery, thrillers and adventure. Cooped up at home, she dreamed of going on her own daring tale, and went headfirst into danger when the opportunity came her way.

She would immediately be intrigued by the concept of going on a tabletop adventure. A mechanic is a quintessential unconventional problem solver, just like your INTP personality type describes. Your analytical minds help navigate the world to create unconventional scenarios that keep the fun going and story fresh.

Tldr; Daan and Abella, but overall I think Abella is your best match.

[scribeforchrist-blog]

I’m Standing on His Will

MEMORY VERSE OF THE WEEK

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+ Isaiah 1:19 If you are willing and obedient, you shall eat the good of the land.

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VERSE OF THE DAY

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+ 1 Samuel 15:24 Then Saul said to Samuel, “I have sinned. I violated the Lord’s command and your instructions. I was afraid of the men, so I gave in to them.

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SUBJECT:  I’m Standing on His Will

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** SAY THIS BEFORE YOU READ; HERE’S SOME CHRISTIAN TRUTHS **

I AM LOOKING TO THE KING

I AM BEING LED BY GOD

I AM A HEARER

I AM A DOER

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  Accepting God's will can be very hard; the Israelites had their plans. They wanted to mingle with other groups of people. They wanted to do whatever they wanted to do without God in it, and they even went as far as going against the plans he had for them. Many didn’t reach the promised land because they continued to sin and anger God.

  Look at King Saul. He was instructed on what to do but didn’t want to accept those plans .1 Samuel 15:24 Then Saul said to Samuel, “I have sinned. I violated the Lord’s command and your instructions. I was afraid of the men, so I gave in to them.

 He said I was afraid of the men, he was afraid of mere humans, and David said one time in the scriptures he said what can mere humans do to me, and they can do nothing to us, but the word of God also says don’t fear what someone can do with the body but fear him who can do something to the soul.

   •Matthew 10:28: Don’t fear those who kill the body but are not able to kill the soul; rather, fear him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.

  •Psalm 118: 6 The Lord is for me; I will not be afraid. What can a mere mortal do to me?

    Sometimes, we don’t accept God's plans or will for our lives because we are too busy worrying about what family and friends will say or do to us. What we must understand is that when we obey God, whatever he has instored for us, no man can stop, nobody can close the door, and no man can hurt you, but to disobey God, to ignore his plans, and not accept them can be far worse than anything.

  How do we accept his plans? How do we get into this mindset? We must understand what He wants us to do is best, and we must let go of our plans and not return to them; some of us will do what God wants for a little while and then return to our plans, but we don’t know what is best, we don’t.

  King Saul completely lost the kingdom out of fear. David lost a son because of his sin and look at Samson; he lost his hair and his strength because he wanted to please a woman. We can lose out on so much because of people and things, and at the end of the day, all we have is God’s love to help us through, and disobeying him or grieving the Holy Spirit will only make us have a more challenging time.

   King Saul was so off balance and disconnected from God that he went to a witch to raise Samuel from the dead so he could get guidance. Sometimes, we try to get help from anywhere and go where we shouldn’t , but the main advise we should seek is God. Saul knew God wasn't listening to him, and he went to where he thought was best, which it wasn’t; we must stop running to the quick fix and go to the right one, the only one, which is God

1 Samuel 28:8 So Saul disguised himself, putting on other clothes, and at night he and two men went to the woman. “Consult a spirit for me,” he said, “and bring up for me the one I name.”

  He wanted to know so badly . Look at what he did , verse 15: “Samuel said to Saul, “Why have you disturbed me by bringing me up? ” I am in great distress,” Saul said. “The Philistines are fighting against me, and God has departed from me. He no longer answers me, either by prophets or by dreams. So, I have called on you to tell me what to do.””

  He said God has departed from me. When we deliberately disobey God, he will step away so we can do what we like; he will step back to let us do what we want, but as long as we accept him and do what he says, he won't leave; some of us will find this hard to believe, God will step back. Still, Samuel departed from him because Saul had done something against the will of God. After all, he wanted to please people. God even said he regretted that I made you king; 1 Samuel 15:11: “I regret that I have made Saul king because he has turned away from me and has not carried out my instructions.” Samuel was angry and cried out to the LORD all night.”

 God is looking for people who will be obedient in challenging situations. God is looking for people who will deny themselves and follow him. Are you that person? Are you accepting God's will? Are you trying to be obedient and can't get it right? Ask God what you are doing to keep you from accepting his plans.

  1 Samuel 15:22 And Samuel said, “Has the Lord as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the Lord? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to listen than the fat of rams.”

  We, as Christians or believers of God, need to understand that it is better to obey the voice of God than a man because man will always fail, but God won’t; man will always hurt you, but God won’t; he might not do what we want, but we must always obey God.

  ***Today, we learned how David ,Samson and Saul were disobedient and what consequences they faced because of their disobedience. We as believers must always lean on God; we must always listen for the voice of God; we talked about this last week that it is essential , paramount that we wait for the voice of God, and if he says no, that means no, that doesn’t mean do what you want, anytime we do something different than what God is telling us to do. We are being disobedient.

  No, this is something many people don’t like to talk about. God won’t leave us, but he will step back and allow us to do whatever we want, and when he does this, you will be confused. You’re going to call out to him, but the only way he will answer you is when you come back with the contrite heart ;and ready to be obedient, stepping back and leaving are two different things he will let you do what you want because it is your life, but you are playing a dangerous game with the Lord and don’t let what other people do lead you away from who you know which is God. ©Seer~ Prophetess Lee

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Heavenly Father, we thank you for today. We asked you to be with us to cover us. Your blood helps us to be obedient. Help us to hear you when you speak; help us ignore other people's advice and lean on you. Please give us an increase of discernment; help us to be more like you, Lord. Every day, we lean on you and thank you for your mercy. Grace in Jesus' name amen

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+ James 1:22 But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves.

 

+ Luke 11:28 But he said, “Blessed instead are those who hear the word of God and keep it!

 

+ John 14:21 Whoever has my commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves me. And he who loves me will be loved by my father, and I will love him and manifest myself to him

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Proverbs 16

Luke 3

Numbers 36

2 Kings 14

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YES and like it's less directly referenced, but the show also touches on how wirt's negative self image and "nobody wants me I must be doomed to walk this life alone" bit, where he simultaneously longs for social connection/acceptance while also romanticizing and waxing poetic about his isolation and inclination self reliance, is likely being reinforced by his experience in the blended family dynamic.

he feels disconnected from his family, like an outsider. While some kids get angry at the new parent/siblings that are introduced, wirt projects the "blame" inward onto himself. its possible he feels like greg + Greg's dad his mom's preferred or *real* family and he's just a reminder of a past mistake and is unwanted. And/or he might just feel like there's not a space for himself in his mom's new life.

Especially with their age difference there was probably several years where the majority of the mental and emotional energy in the family was focused on taking care of the new baby. So wirt has developed a mentality of self reliance tinted with some feelings of being unwanted/unlikable (this mentality can definitely be seen in his social anxiety around his classmates and how he thinks they all hate him when they are mostly just neutral about him).

So he doesn't have a strong sense of belonging within his family unit or among his peers at school. So he tends to turn inward and pace around in his own head stewing on his thoughts and worries. and likely seeks out and clings tightly to any glimpses of representation he can find in the media he consumes (poetry, music, books etc). So he ends up idealizing this sort of misunderstood lone genius/artist archetype, bc it's a narrative that celebrates other people who feel lonely and misunderstood by the rest of society just like he does.

Also wirt is like 13/14? Puberty is a bitch and psychology 101 will tell you that during the teen years the most important relationships in a person's life shift from being family bonds to bonds with friends and peers.

So wirt is going through this internal struggle between

1 - The part of him that is resigned to isolation and is maybe even proud of it (bc it makes him fit the tragic artist archetype he idolizes)

and

2 - the part of him that feels lonely and is desperately seeking belonging and understanding from others.

And like,,that's rough buddy, puberty is hard I get it.

But as OP pointed out, he's so absorbed in his own internal conflicts and feelings that he brushes off Greg constantly, to the point that he doesn't even realize the unconditional love and acceptance greg is already giving him freely (obv it's not the same type of belonging he needs/wants from peers but it's a start and, crucially, it disproves the idea that he is some tragic loner doomed to a life without love--his family loves him--Greg loves him--he does have a place of belonging in his family-- they want him there!)

and it takes greg almost dying for him to snap out of it and accept the olive branch Greg's been trying to give him the whole time and start repairing his sense of belonging in his family (which in turn seems to help boost his confidence interacting with his peers)

ig in summary: I think wirt's experience with blended family dynamics actually does a lot in terms of helping establish the mindset, characterization, and therefore character development of wirt throughout the series.

like yeah it's easy to say he's just a grumpy teenager who thinks his little brother is lame but he's a teenager with a very specific lived experience that explains and influences how and why he pushes his brother (and other people like his classmates) away when they try to connect with him.

i dont think enough otgw fans talk about the exploration of complex family dynamics that the show manages to weave through pretty much every episode. like the relationship between wirt and greg seems so innocuous in the beginning, just normal aloofness due to the age gap, but as the episodes go on it becomes clear that wirt full on resents greg and actively dismisses him as “his stepdad’s kid,” while greg openly admires/loves wirt and doesnt understand why he wont spend time with him. theres so many little moments that make the lack of reciprocity in their relationship obvious, and it literally takes almost DYING for wirt to understand that he needs to treat his brother better. like holy fuck man ill be shocked if the person who wrote their backstory doesnt have a step/half-sibling cause WOW they got it right

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i got so distracted from my choir music . my very sincere apologies. however i was thinking about csollux so. you get my thoughts now.

i think so much about how secluded he is. i think he finds it hard to form actual relationships with people. because what if he isn't around them and he starts hearing their voice one day. he's probably known so much loss already that he has just. lost all will to engage with LIFE. he is so surrounded by the imminence of death that he finds it hard to treasure life. he is SUCH a pessimist. i think he's got a mindset of “if everything is going to end, why did it exist in the first place? if i'm going to die, if EVERYONE is, why try living?” and oh my god. it really shows. you know how you mentioned the lack of self preservation? yeah . you were right.

i think the bastion was especially loud for him. all of the magma cubes and the different piglins that he had to kill before they killed him. do you think he starts hearing something's voice and thinks it's fate that he has to kill it? do you think he believes in free will? he is so.

and caradia. oh my god. he's trying so fucking hard to never have to talk to her again after the nether, but let me tell you dude. he wants company so bad. if he were TRULY defeatist, truly pessimistic about it all, why would he keep bees around? why would he (sometimes) tend to their flowers? he wants company, but cannot, by any means, let himself become comfortable in it.

those were very very disconnected thoughts . but for some reason i am also thinking about nsmp vriska and john

GOD HE IS SO. OHHMYGID. SHAKES HIM.

i am also. thinking about cvriska and cjohn . i don't know why :( /pos

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Teahyun's Love Reading

Disclaimer: No facts, all alleged, just my interpretation.

I had to laugh when the first card came flying out, Tae sweetie, you are so predictable, anyway, he starts with Scorpio energy. This boy is intense in love, he falls deeply, madly in love in relationships. He can be pretty vengeful, petty and jealous as well. I don't sense someone in the picture, although I do see an Empress, I can also sense this as his energy, anyway, getting ahead of myself.

He does also have the 8 of swords, so he may struggle to see things for what it is. He may feel binded and may face fears in relationships. I am getting he struggles to see the reality of the situation. He also struggles to take action on certain things, not sure what that is.

Now, with this Bully and Liberator card. He can be pretty aggressive in relationships, hopefully that doesn't manifest into anything physical, but he seems to have this mindset that he knows best, this is where I feel this Empress card comes up and why I sense it is his energy. He can be very protective and coddling, and way to nurturing.

I just sense he feels he knows best, and they should follow what he does or what he says. He could end up acting like a caregiver to his partner. Always feeling like he has to tend to them. I just heard, dude this person isn't your child lol There is a sense he likes to free his partner, but sometimes people just have their own beliefs and like doing the things they want to do, so this is a struggle for him.

I am getting a sense from these cards there is a need for him to release some things and that relationships are a healing lesson from him. Maybe this need for him to let go of this attachment he could have to his partners in relationships, and this need to control things. From his perspective he is doing it to protect them, but it can manifest to being over controlling.

With this teach card, this is showing me he wants to give guidance to his partner, to lead them in the right direction. I say if they do things he doesn't feel is right, he will try to direct them in a better direction, but at the end of the day, he's got to learn people need to make their own decisions and fail on their own accord. He can't bubble wrap this person. He's got to learn this; to let them make their mistakes and learn themselves, it is the only way they will learn.

He's got to work on being more flexible, to bend a little, and to not be too stubborn and strict with things, this dude is stubborn af though. It is hard for him to change his stance on things. But he's got to learn or his relationships will suffer.

I can see him being burdened and stress with the weight he puts on himself and how worried he can be for his partner. It can be physically demanding for him. I can see arguments and fights with him and his partner and it weighing on him too.

I see him being very loyal and dependable and very patient, he stays the course, but this also shows he is consistent, and it is hard to change him. He could change, but it could be a slow process. I can see him being emotionally done and disconnected, maybe a relationship did end with him, or he is reflecting over past relationships and how it went down. It seems it is hard for him his mind to relax and chill in relationships. He struggles to just relax, let go and let things be. I can also see it is hard for him to let go as well.

So yeah, he has a lot to heal when it comes to love. He doesn't seem to handle relationships very well. This may be a working progress for him. I will say, this was a very easy reading, messages just came through. He is very chatty when it came to this reading. It is like he really wanted to get this message off his chest. This one of the quickest readings for me. I also thought the messaging was quite interesting.

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hi! if you’re open to it, can you do a dynamic reading on sunoo and sunghoon? thank you! 🤍

sunoo and sunghoon's dynamic based on tarot, take it with a grain of salt

what is their dynamic like?

9ofp+devil, 5ofswrx+queofcrx, 10ofc&sun

wow. these two definitely had to go through some challenging times to get to the place they're at now. see, when they're together, they actually make a beautiful team. the 10 of cups is basically the happiest a connection can get, combined with the card of happiness, the sun, it's like a match made in heaven. their friendship is based on pure moments of joy, harmony and warmth. i really think the existence of the other lights up both of their lives.

however, it seems like sunghoon and sunoo are on pretty different pages. sunoo is extremely self-reliant. in a way that's almost getting toxic and destructive. he was (probably still is) in this "i don't care about anyone but me" mindset. i honestly see it as a protection shield at this point. i think this boy has been through a lot and is overly protective over who he lets into his heart. sunghoon seemed to have struggled connecting with his bandmate for a while. there seemed to have been a period where he truly wanted to be there for him, but he couldn't because sunoo didn't seem to let anyone in. i'm getting feelings of powerlessness and frustration, he just couldn't connect to this bandmate although he wished to. tbh, this seems to have been a very specific period, since many members felt that way towards him. it has gotten better since, but i think there still is a certain emotional disconnect because of sunoo's protective barrier.

how does sunghoon feel towards sunoo?

aceofc, 4ofprx, 5ofp, 6ofsw, empr&5ofw

sunghoon cares a lot about sunoo. like a lot. and it seems to cause an inner conflict in him. it's like this constant battle between genuinely wanting to help his bandmate and be there for him, but also accepting a person as closed off as sunoo just can't be helped. it seems like whenever he tried getting to him, he'd hit a dead end every time. sunoo can be a very hot and cold type of person. in one moment he can be incredibly sweet, soft and invested in others, but also be extremely selfish in the next. it can be confusing, so in a way it's hard to know where you really stand with him? i think, much of sunghoon's frustration comes from that. his friend just isn't open about his true emotions. so even if you care about him a lot, you never really know if your attempt to help had any effect on him or not. sunghoon's kinda tired of that.

how does sunoo feel towards sunghoon?

hangm, 6ofp&pagofw, 9ofw+9ofc

this is kinda cute. despite sunghoon feeling pretty helpless, sunoo actually feels like he's getting a lot of support from his friend. he thinks that his bandmate is someone who stands by his side whenever he feels insecure and helps him find more trust and belief in himself. the hanged man does signify that there was a time where their friendship was pretty stagnant. but, i honestly think that sunghoon is one of the few members sunoo actually feels very comfortable with. he doesn't feel the need to put up a shield as much with him, he can let his guard down a little. you know how it's important to spend your time with people, who make you feel like you're being your best, most authentic self. and i think that sunghoon is an existence like that to sunoo. he seems grateful to be in the same group as him. however, he just doesn't express it as openly, which is why there is this continuous disconnect. well, sunoo just feels a lot in general, so it can be hard for him to express it without it getting overwhelming.