FATHER, SAINT AND MARY!!!!
I had a vision and subconsciously spent the last 3 hours doing this, I've just woken up and I might’ve lost some of my sanity in that process
But hey! Religious Soul! Always a treat
(This was originally going to be a piece for my AU, and still technically is, but I figured I'd also make it a Two Wuv tribute bcus I fuckin love that song)
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Patchouli bout to smash Nine wake UP bitch ❤
Another one from before this under the cut (feat. Six as well)
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Going to keep an eye on things while on a newly prescribed medicine for my heart, but occasionally I've been feeling like crying from joy/relief. I didn't know it was possible to live with little to zero chest pain and other issues on a daily basis.
I started feeling its improvements on day 2, and then all day yesterday has been like a literal weight off my chest. Slept a bit for the night, woke up around 4am and I'm just... Breathing so comfortably. I feel relaxed. That feeling of pressure in my chest is hardly there anymore.
This cardiologist said I'd notice changes after just a day or two if it helps. And it's happening!!
Guess it's very much confirming I've had pericarditis for who-knows-how-long. Could've been overlooked since having my cardiac ablation in 2019. Been so freaking rough living with this stuff. All my symptoms were assumed to be part of my WPW Syndrome ('cause the ablation didn't get all of the accessory pathways.) This sort of inflammation can be caused by heart procedures though. -sigh- Why didn't anyone watch out for that or suspect it earlier?
I'll be having a new echo done in a month or two (forgot which appointment date it is among other tests coming up). Crossing my fingers I don't have the pericardia effusion there anymore too if the pericarditis is getting tackled by this new med! 🤞
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Holter round two for the baby! Cross your fingers and toes for us, hoping for AT LEAST the same and hopefully better results.
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that chronic illness feeling when you suddenly get weird chest pains like someone with a spiked glove is gripping the inside of your chest, and you google the symptoms of a heart attack cause you're a little worried. But turns out most of the symptoms of a heart attack are just things that are normal everyday things for you...
Like dizzyness? check. shortness of breath? yeah. Nausea? sadly... shoulder and or back pain? lol always.
Do I actually think I am currently experiencing a heart attack? no not really. it's more likely to be an air bubble caught in my chest somewhere and I just gotta dislodge it so I can burp it out.
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just got my car serviced and i feel like such a sterotypical woman
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🌈💖yarrow 💖🌈
peace and gay love on planet earth
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I also found out I have pretty pretty high cholesterol. This wasn't something my doctor flagged for me just 4 years ago when I last had labs, meaning it's a pretty new issue. That checks out since I've always had good cholesterol.
In good news I'm not even in the ballpark of at risk for diabetes which is the one everyone's worried about for me constantly cuz im fat.
Made an appointment with a psych but I can't get in till May. But once I get my vitamin D under control and get on some kind of mental health pills/assistance and get some energy back it'll be a lot easier to exercise. Until then I'm just gonna focus on eating meat and dairy a little more discerningly and drinking more water cuz my labs came back dehydrated too >_>;
I really wish my doctor had given me some more specific instructions than just "go on a diet and exercise" without even asking me about my diet or activity levels but what can you do. Once you're over 300 pounds you're not really a person to a doctor until you've lost half that.
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God I swear I’m not trying to be all doom and gloom talking about my health I know it’s annoying I just really need a break and everyone irl is already done with my shit bc I’ve been too anxious to go back to the doctor bc the last one told me I’d just have to deal with it and potentially get more surgeries and I’m 23 dude. It took nearly 3 years before my doctor even agreed that that surgery was necessary and it didn’t even fully fix my shit it just lessened the pain — which I’m grateful for, don’t get me wrong! But I haven’t had full limb function in my left arm since I was 15 and they made it sound like the surgery would fix it and then acted like I was overreacting when it didn’t. And my left leg has been deeply fucked for nearly as long, and at least slightly fucked at least since I hit double digits, and has gotten progressively worse. So like I know, I get it that I need to go to a doctor, but why would it go better now? What’s going to make a doctor take me seriously now?
I want to be angry, but I’m too tired.
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Jughead Jones would have beef with Michelle Obama over her 'The Healthy, Hunger-Free Kids' Act of 2010.
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It's so funny looking on my patient portal for my doctors and seeing "patient looks well nourished" on all my visit summaries when it is documented by my blood work that I am, in fact, very much NOT well nourished and have been prescribed multiple high dose supplements now to make up for how malnourished I actually am.
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literally every doctor I've visited ever: what the fuck is wrong with your heart
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lord help me i'm about to become the patient every doctor hates and argue with my psychiatrist based on google
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my mom got very very drunk yesterday and she's an aggressive drunk, not physically but it amplifies her anger and irritation by like 6, and she's already a very very explosive and volatile woman. she got in a fight with her boyfriend and was screaming and drove off to the middle of nowhere and that's why my sister called and im so proud of her for reaching out and asking me to call, and i think she is too, she said she wants to call me more for sure and wants to ask more, and that she felt a lot better after we called. that feels good for me, even if im worrying about it now, at her age i didn't have anyone to turn to or call, so im glad i get to be that for her. i fucking hate my parents man
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Why does the shit that makes me cry always happen the evening after I have therapy and not before -_-
Like damn now I gotta wait another week+ before talking about this like fuck I gotta process this all by myself
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