#heartsink

[s-milesart]

The Babe. and The Bullion.

A child has been abandoned at the steps of the Abbey. The sisters take the babe in, but underneath the kit lies a fortune of substantial value. Mercenaries have come to collect.

“An abandoned basket softly weeps. The fortune within, attracts more than just trouble.”

[w-armansky-blog]

[porcelainerose]

heartbeat, heartsink

heart broke, don’t think

don’t love, don’t trust, the memory of you turns to rust!

used to be just us, used to be honest, used to be- used to be-

everyone uses me!

under your dewy skin

how did you get so thin?

planted flowers in my head, now they’re rotten wilted!

[whilereadingandwalking]

Pain and Prejudice: A Call to Arms for Women and Their Bodies by Gabrielle Jackson is an excellent addition to my health feminism and bias in medicine shelves.

She does an excellent job of laying out why there are no incentives for treating or researching chronic pain, and how the healthcare system must adjust; she also makes a good case for why this change should come from the government and their funding. She breaks down well how the system is not set up for something like chronic pain, and highlights the issues of 'heartsink' patients, the pressure on doctors to cure and have all the answers rather than mitigate or investigate, and how a higher life expectancy does not necessarily mean a better life quality.

I've reviewed many of these books and so I want to highlight specifics that Jackson brings to the table that I did not find in other books. These include a breakdown of Chronic Overlapping Pain Conditions (COPCs), descriptions of each of the primary ones and how they intersect, and a focus on chronic pain conditions overall throughout the book. She has a especially excellent breakdown of how the lack of knowledge of female biology overall results in hysteria narratives, an enforced need for women to go to the doctor more often for basic prescriptions due to an inherent distrust or policing, and how overall misogyny and sexism ties in with our inability to believe women about their pain. I appreciated how Jackson paired her discussion of a lack of education in female biology and chronic pain with an in-depth education about those things for women who might need it.

I also appreciated her quoting and acknowledging Maya Dusenbery. I've found that many books recently quietly use her research or issues she brought to the forefront but bypass her specifically, and so I really appreciated how much she was highlighted for her analysis of this issue.

Overall, Jackson's book is a tremendous success and call-to-action about the bias in medicine against women, the failures of the health-care system to treat or consider chronic pain conditions, and what can be changed. Her own endometriosis story influences much of her writing, and it adds a particular indignation throughout that is tremendously satisfying and convincing.

Content warnings for sexual assault, compulsory sexuality, misogyny, medical trauma.

[sergeantnarwhalwrites]

One song for every oc

Thanks for the tag @aether-wasteland-s! I will truly be dragging every oc into this. XD This is gonna be fun.

I tag @dumbthunder @outpost51 @the-void-writes @liv-is @leighvalentin @kingkendrick7 (Only if you want! Open tag too!)

Cosma

Greeter

Arc

Tharion

It's On by Korn

Green

Losing My Religion by R.E.M

Peace

Learn to Love the Lie by Four Year Strong

Donnie

Digits

Hollis

Saz

Less goofy song Heartsink by Blood Red Shoes

Elliot

Julie

Ian

[postpunkindustrial]

PURGIST - Heartsink

[zerogate]

According to a report by the Royal College of Physicians and the Royal College of Psychiatrists, as many as half of all those who present themselves as out-patients for ostensibly medical reasons are suffering from psychological problems. Although they have physical symptoms such as pains, palpitations or breathlessness they have no detectable physical disease. Doctors perhaps understandably focus on the physical symptoms rather than the psychological problems. One consequence is that huge amounts of time and money are wasted on diagnostic tests and treatments for elusive diseases. A substantial proportion of patients – a fifth or more – prove very difficult for doctors to deal with. Either their illness cannot be diagnosed at all, or, when a diagnosis is proposed, they find it unacceptable. Their treatment, if any, is frequently ineffective and they keep returning to the doctor over and over again, distressed and dissatisfied. These are the so-called heartsink patients.

-- Paul Martin, The Sickening Mind: Brain, Behaviour, Immunity and Disease

[transandor]

something that will never fade is the delight of seeing jordan in a fic and then the heartsinking disappointment of realizing they did him so dirty

[a-typical]

Doctors often use the term ‘heartsink patients’ to describe people like this teenage girl and other patients with complex problems. Rachael Tait says it’s often people of lower socioeconomic background, with complex health problems and lifestyle issues who get put into the heartsink category. She says, ‘When you’re looking at patients who are already really entrenched with these problems, to be honest, I think a lot of people almost write them off and see them as hopeless cases.’ They’re the ones with depression, fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome, who don’t go away, who never get better. They are hard to treat because not enough research has been done on their conditions. Many doctors don’t like them. Other doctors believe diagnoses such as fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome are harmful labels because there’s no good treatment and it stigmatises the patient. Three different doctors told me fibromyalgia was an unhelpful label—not because they didn’t believe the patient was ill, quite the opposite, because they believed other medical practitioners wouldn’t take the patient seriously with that diagnosis or else would just give them opiates which could make their problems worse. Young’s research suggests that doctors don’t label patients as hysterical or difficult with the intention of subordinating them—it’s just that their medical education taught them they knew all about the human body and that it’s their job to fix people. This is why Young and her colleagues have argued that it’s the culture of medicine we need to address, not individual clinicians.

Young explains the doctor’s dilemma to me: ‘Doctors feel a lot of pressure to provide their patients with answers no matter what … normally something very tangible like a drug or a surgery. And when they don’t have an answer, it seems to be in the case of endometriosis, that they draw upon these really repressive medical discourses and they look for a fault within the women themselves, and they say, “well this isn’t my fault, this is your fault, it’s clearly something you’re doing, a choice in your life, you’re not trying hard enough, you’re not exercising enough, you took too long to have a baby”, or—a classic—“the symptoms must be in your head. I’ve done everything that the text books and papers have told me to do and now I can’t do it anymore.”’

Pain and Prejudice — Gabrielle Jackson

[s-milesart]

Are you willing to die for this tomorrow you seek?

Are you ready to carry The Weight of The World?

[w-armansky-blog]

It's cold this morning. The sky is being painted like a canvas. I’m updating your profile. With cup of black coffee,

I can't stop thinking about us losing each other. Our picture's on the table. And the slightest thing makes me tremble.

Relax, Relax, Relax A herbal tea will calm my nerves, with a warm bath and cigar.

Still, a dream can't heal my soul. Nor herbal tea. Your keys are in the kitchen. Oh god how I miss you!

How are you doing, wherever you are? How are you there? Is there someone gently kissing you in the morning?

How are you there? How are you there? Are you warm? Who's gonna visit you in your dreams tonight?

How are you there? Well, how are you there? I miss your hands’ touch so much

How are you there? How are you there? I know that time heals. But it is not getting any easier for me yet.

Minor notes again We're both stubborn idiots It feels like I'm dying every morning. I can't stop thinking about how we are, without each other. But, if you can I can too.

Relax, Relax, Relax But it's so hard not to think about us Looks like I'm hopeless

Well, my soul can't be healed. Neither with sleep nor herbal tea Why are you so quiet? I miss you so.

Alekseev Как ты там (Kak ty tam), 2019 Alekseev How are you? (Wherever You Are), 2019 Translated into English by Phil Ambro

[rishiaivyred]

Ren's Adolescent Semi-Goth Death-Metal "Freak Flag" Playlist

or at least my best stab at making one also the words freak flag link to what I'm referencing

Part 1 - Death of the Party

Narrow Head - Nancy France

American Football - But the Regrets Are Killing Me

Funeral Diner - I Was The Sword

Johnny Goth - Nothin' You Can Do

Part 2 - Naofumi vs. Myne

Tigers Jaw - Nervous Kids

Basement - Promise Everything

Part 3 - Cursed

Mike Krol - Left For Dead

Seepage - Nothing Left For Me

Basement - Black

Skillet - Monster

Three Days Grace - Animal I Have Become

Part 4 - Duel Aftermath

Narrow Head - Stay

Basement - Are You The One

Narrow Head - See You Around

Abandoned Pools - Start Over

Part 5 - Lurolona

Narrow Head - 12th House

Blood Red Shoes - Heartsink

DIIV - Out Of Mind

Tigers Jaw - Teen Rocket

Johnny Goth - Waves

Mike Krol - Blue and Pink

[slowissmoothandsmoothisfast]

Heartbeat, heartsink Heart broke, don't think Don't love, don't trust The memory of you turns to rust Used to be just us Used to be honest Used to be, used to be Everyone uses me Under your dewy skin How did you get so thin? Planted flowers in my head Now they're rotten, wilted I would still walk barefoot on the glass I would still bleed out just for you I would still love you ten-thousand years from now Inferno, inferno If only you saw me then Holding out both my hands Over fire, over flames Just to keep you Safe

[pasta-and-hedgehogs]

I wish I could take back my heart wish I knew how to unbare my soul take back the hours spent gushing about you and thinking about you. I didnt hug you the last time we met come to think about it We have never touched at all I want to hold you but I wouldn't be able to let go. I told you my name and my eating disorder the words fell out of my mouth I was sick in front of you all I wanted was to lie down on your legs curled up wanting you to stroke my hair. Im trying to avoid heartbreak trying to get over you but I feel like all im doing is ruining what could be a fufilling friendship that is caring I didnt know how to hug you goodbye without you figuring out why I want to. I'm never going to forget how we talked until the early morning I loved it but I hate how much I told you stuck in a perpetual limbo the of two swords one in each hand deciding which one will hurt less when I fall onto it and slowly bleed before the sound of deaths horse approaches a rythmic lullaby to bring me to my final sleep. I accidentally broke your glass just as you did my heart only we picked up the pieces of glass and where able to let it go. I sit wonder how to next see you I will give myself the chance to see you and live in the my delusions for a few seconds longer thought they where endless but now they are limited already relying on borrowed time already just pleading for a few scraps more. I really do love you but I wish we had never met even if there would just be someone else who would take up the role maybe I should be greatful that at least you remember my name which is better than most of the men who I love. Not even the vodka could bring me to tell you the truth I hope one day this will seem funny to us both able to look back at how stupid I was I just wish that wasnt improbable. Every text I get my heartsinks thinking its from you it never is but the moment of excitment and dread makes the dissapointment worth it.I really do love you Owen but I know that you dont love me back I hope you never see this but I hope you remember me or that someone will.

[one-song-one-day]

Now With Feeling- The Cowboys

Hi! Welcome back.

Today’s selection is “Now With Feeling” by The Cowboys. (No, not the football team)

This song is very bittersweet. Like making a pie from a recipe your dead grandmother wrote.

It makes you think of those movies like Garden State or 500 Days of Summer. This song is a definitely a fixture on any manic pixie dream girl’s playlist. She’d show it to the guy obsessed with her and he wouldn’t be able to understand it until the end of the movie; where it’d play over the credits.

Anyway, why I like this song is not only in its bittersweetness, but the unifying fact that we’ve all felt it. That feeling of letting go.

That bassline and sax solo ain’t bad either. ;)

I also dig the vocals on this one. I love a good raspy vocal. I like how perfectly imperfect it is yet it conveys the emotion it’s supposed to. Heartsinking and heart elating at the same time. Something hard to pull off. But by Jove they did it. And I love them for it.

That’s all for today. Come back tomorrow for another.

[deathbypopunk]

Hey not sure if you were taking recommendations but Taking It Slow by Heartsink and Long Gone by Jamie Lenman/ Justine Jones :D

I’m always taking recommendations!!! I’m super into these :)