#here's to not cringing at my old writing

[complicit-rot]

i love deleting my posts like No i take that back actually. never said anything. it was a drift in the wind you saw

[northern-passage]

Hi, I was wondering if you’ll ever make the old Patreon art/writing public since iirc you don’t intend to reactivate it for a long time? I was a member while it was active but I accidentally updated my app so I can’t view them anymore, I understand if you can’t/won’t though.

i can do that if people are interested! particularly thinking about those harvest festival snippets i wrote, those are well over a year (maybe even 2 years? time is fake) old and were on patreon the entire time & it's almost fall here... i say thru clenched teeth while it's still 100 degrees outside....

the majority of the snippets that were up were definitely like closing in on at least a year old so i do think it's been long enough and it would be fair to post them now... maybe i'll pick a random week and post them all one day at a time lmfao since iirc there's at least one for each companion (thinking specifically about the nsfw ones)

the art i don't plan to repost here though, mainly because i don't like it anymore 💀 but also because i dislike the way tumblr is handling their content moderation and i'm not interested in getting this blog flagged after 3 years because some human moderator decided my tasteful nude drawings of trans people (that 100% follow tumblr guidelines btw) are actually too offensive for their delicate constitution... but that's a whole other complaint for another post lmfao. i haven't had any issues at least with posting written nsfw so i'm less hesitant about posting that stuff instead.

but yeah i think maybe next month i can do the harvest festival snippets for october? i'll probably edit them a little bit since they're so old but i think that could be fun :-)

[steelthroat]

I feel like I should have done this at the end of 2023 or smth, but maybe not.

I just took a picture of my desktop, and this is the work of one year, almost 200k words of ideas and wips that I wasn't able to finish and publish through the year now passed. But I don't want to look at this and say it's a failure, maybe it is but it's also the foundation for all the things I'm gonna do, continue and possibly finish in this new year.

And lol, silly me for not writing some of the ideas down because I honestly don't remember what some of these documents were about - damn.

Writers, write your ideas and plots down because the brain is stupid, but y'all already know this, don't ya 💀

So, like... this is my 2023 writing recap, yayyy. 44 wips (and some more that are just titles/ideas and I haven't started yet) and 5 published works.

If someone is curious about something hit me up... I'll always answer as fast as I can unless I'm sleeping, so yeah. We'll see what happens in 2024... so now.

[bonefall]

do you have a discord server or something for the rewrite/clan culture?

NAH, I don't want to deal with finding moderators, vetting them, making sure everyone's safe and happy, make sure I'm not ghosting people when I don't feel chatty, let alone if dumbshit drama erupted and I had to break up arguments...

Too much headache, basically. I have a strict "Discord is for close friends only" policy for my mental health.

[skyetheprophet22]

Glass Garden

I live in a garden of glass

A beautiful array of see-through plants

But heaven forbid you ever see a crack

For it could all shatter just like that

[todayisafridaynight]

i wish i could spot the signs of when im about to become terminally obsessed with a character but i simply cannot. one day im normal and then next my brain is a broken shitty printer that keeps printing out pics of whoever ive decided im going to wring serotonin out of this month until the ink is thin and blotchy and messy and bordrline indistinguishable as my brain squeezes out every last drop

[damiemontclair]

For the ask a reader meme: A1, B5, B6, C2, C9 and D10 😎

Hello Tyu! o/

A1 - When did you start reading fanfiction?

That is a very good question and my best guess would be ~2014? I know I got on ao3 in 2015 and I was reading on DA before that so.

B5 - Which story have you read more than any other? How many times?

Ok first of all, rude. I am a chronic re-reader and I have 2+k bookmarks and almost 500 pages in my history (since 2019), how am I supposed to answer this? Second of all... There's a bunch of fics I've re-read 5+ times, I couldn't say which exactly was the one I read the most? And ao3 doesn't exactly offer a handy way to check so. This one will have to remain a mystery.

As a treat, I can give you my most recent re-read tho: Rest in Peace Vagabond (What have you seen?) by Cer1dwen (Fandom: Bleach. Re-read count: 2).

B6 - What is your favourite story trope? Why?

.... Well there are multiple more or less specific answers I could give here but at the end of the day, it all boils down to hurt/comfort. And I try not to examine the why too closely, lest I discover things about myself I'd prefer not to know

C2 - What word or expression always makes you cringe when you read it?

Well Tyu... You know me. The list is long. But since I have recently been dipping my toes in anime fandoms again, the amount of [hair colour]ette has been really testing my patience. In fact, the number of ways people will bend over backwards to avoid saying a characters name or repeating their pronouns is truly amazing....

C9 - What show did you really try to watch, but you just couldn't?

Ooof.... Theres a fair number of shows that would qualify, but the most notable one is unfortunately the one piece anime. I couldn't make it through the first 10min. I am too picky about art/animation style and one piece was just Not It for me. No matter how much people around me praise its plot and worldbuilding. (Also. Game of thrones. Couldn't get into it at all, and I really tried since I was in school and everyone 'cool' was talking about it. (I was distinctly not cool. I was the loser in the corner with my book. It wasn't the worst place to be, in hindsight. Nobody bothered me 😂))

D10 - What is one story idea you really want to read but no one has written yet?

The one that lives rent free in my head, thanks for reminding me 🤣🤣🤣

Jokes aside tho... I wanted to read some Xie Lian amnesia picking up on his 'who this'-moment in the communication array after his 3rd ascension bc it really gives you places to go with an amnesia fic where XL doesn't remember his past beyond maybe a century or two (at the most) but I couldn't find any. Big sad. Will have to write it myself. :(

[dabisspouse]

I regret going back to see the old writing i did when i was 13 </3 and seeing how i used to text makes me laugh

[crest-of-gautier]

ohh when i finally look through my old clips from splatoon and have time to edit weapon splats compilation(s) + that salmon run death compilation i keep saying i’ll do it’ll be over for all of you...

[anneapocalypse]

On the upside Fallout 3 is making me nostalgic for when I first got into Fallout and on the other hand it's making me think about my early fandom days. 😬

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[meat-pvppet]

GAAAAH THE HORRIBLE CRINGE NEED TO ACTUALLY WRITE OUT MY FUNGER SONA 

[noxtivagus]

ffxv makes me so emotional oh my god 🥹🫶🏼

[harrowscore]

reread the last chapter of awaken and oh god it really is my best fic. and it's about fucking [redacted]. embarassing

[icharchivist]

a bit of thinking out loud on my part but i’ve been thinking for a while know about constantly slamming stuff for “bad writing”, more in the sense of “no one talks like that” or “this sentence was so badly worded” more than “it didn’t make sense in the end” as if it’s a deal breaker makes me think that we really moved too far away from suspension of disbelief and not wanting to just, fill in the steps kind of?

Like, i’m thinking about how ff7cc has some of the cringiest dialogues i could think of and some characterizations suffer a lot from that. When i don’t play the game for a long time, i’m always coming back to it and laugh at how they overuse “protect your honor”, or everything about Loveless, and stuff like that.  but when i want to seriously play the game too, i want to give the game a benefit of a doubt. Of, okay, i find it ridiculous but you’re taking it seriously, so i’m going to try to take it as seriously as possible. What are you doing to do with that. And thanks to that i think i can properly experience some of the more visceral elements of the game, despite how much of its emotional core resting on this specific idea that i find cringe. 

And it’s just like, idk, i think constantly wanting something to be really well written and getting rid of the cringe completely is kind of trapping yourself into an echo chamber where you’ll only get to hear the same old things. Eventually to experience new things it’s good to go into horizons that you’d consider cringe and try to see if there’s something you can get out of it, if you take it as seriously as ever. And sometimes cringe is unfiltered sincerity, which has its place especially in emotional story telling.

I kinda feel like there’s an overuse of “wanting realism” in stories (again “real people don’t talk like that”), that it’s easy to just close yourself from anything slightly challenging what you’re willing to accept as realistic.  in a way i’m just refusing to think “realism” is the same thing as “immersive” and if something is unrealistic to me, i don’t think it specifically breaks immersion and i care much more about immersion than realism. But even so, Immersion often comes with just, accepting what the story wants you to accept as normal. you have to do some work as the person receiving the story for it to work.

Feels stilted and boring and it’s kinda sad how often i see it brought up that “bad writing” in term of, clumsy sentence structure and stuff, can take someone out of something this badly. 

I guess it’s just to each their sensibilities but, how dull....

[danielnelsen]

im reading all my old hwu fanfics oh god.. like i was a decent writer but some of the stuff i wrote smh......... and like.. the ships. or one in particular. had to write for the most popular ship if i wanted anyone to read anything i wrote but please know that i HATED it