#hidekane ask

[hakucho-art]

free pass to talk about touken

HAHA, you're really indulging me huh

Ohhh what to talk about. It's funny, they occupy my brain 24/7 but as soon as someone asks me about them then there's nothing in that little head of mine. I guess I'm just gonna ramble lol.

Today I've been headcanoning about Touka sitting and waiting next to Kaneki while he's in his coma. Saiko and Urie being next to her as well and Saiko asking her who she is since she and Urie shouldnnttt really know her iirc. She introduces herself and also says that she's nekis wife (I will never get over her "MY HUSBANDS WAITING FOR ME UP THERE" MY GOD, I DIED AND ASCENDED HEAVEN THAT DAY) and saiko and urie getting shocked at that.

Saiko gets sad about the fact that she missed the wedding (calling her mamans wife from then on 😭♥️) and Urie mutters "First Takeomi, now Haise......." which catches Touka's attention. Since they visited yorikos wedding, she probably asked Kaneki who the man is she's marrying and what he's like. So if they know takeomi then they should also know what happened to yoriko!

And she freezes up because since she found out about the execution, she probs completely avoided thinking about it nor engaging with the topic in any way. She already did canonically with Kaneki but he knows how she feels and how that is and can give her comfort in the nights when the pain is too much to bear. Touka silently crying while Kaneki hugs her and kisses her trying to ease the pain if not at least a little 🥺

She is too scared to even ask if yoriko's still alive, too afraid of the answer. And while she starts trying to form the question, she unconsciously holds kaneki's hand enclosed between her two hands and squeezes it. Trying to find the strength to ask that question.

Urie starts answering before she even finished forming her sentence, assuming maybe she wants to ask where they are and tells her that they left the city (IIRC LMAO).

She falls forward, relief going through her whole body and holds kanekis hand against her forehead. Saiko and Urie ask her if she's okay since her body starts shaking but she says that she's fine. Knowing that Yoriko is alive and well and away from all the insanity that is happening right now in Tokyo, she couldnt be more happier about it. Now she only needs the person in front of her to wake up.

Gahhhh, I'm just.... soooo damn soft for hurt/comfort AND THATS LITERALLY TOUKENS WHOLE THING. Makes me think about the way Kaneki was nervous about seeing Hide again after all these years and going for Touka's hand, wanting to hold it in order to ease that nervousness 😭🤲🤲🤲 THEY ALWAYS GO FOR EACHOTHERS HANDS WHENEVER THEY ARE IN NEED OF COMFORT.

Although I also really like the thought of Kaneki needing lots of physical comfort and touka needing emotional comfort while the way that they give comfort is both the opposite, Kaneki giving emotional comfort and touka giving physical one. Perfectly aligning <3

I AM SO. DAMN. SOFT ABOUT TOUKEN

THEY ARE A SET, DO NOT SEPERATE THEM. LIKE HINAMI SAID, ONEECHAN AND ONIICHAN ARE BETTER TOGETHER.

I LOVE THEMM SO MUCHHHHH

[tg-headcanons]

hidekane song(s)? I offer Brightside by The Lumineers

First YOU ARE SO CORRECT

Hidekane songs!

Little Talks by Of Monsters And Men! I think of this as Kaneki in CCG custody having these ghosts of half-memories of Hide, not knowing who he is or why he feels like he’s missing someone and not knowing that he’s still out there trying to help him

Angel Of Small Death And The Codeine Scene by Hozier! It feels like Kaneki trying to explain or rationalize his love for Hide but being unable to describe what it’s like because he makes him feel human even when he can’t be anymore

Life by Mother Mother! Gotta love a dynamic where they both see themselves as awful and the other as perfect and only believe themselves worthy when the other loves them

2econd 2ight 2eer by Will Wood! This feels like Hide knowing Kaneki is a ghoul and being SO into it knowing damn well it could get him killed or arrested and preparing to sacrifice himself and lie to the government for that sweet sweet ghoul ass

[yutamayo]

Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks....

Oh shit!! No I have never been asked this (you're like my fifth ask ever) so I am very grateful for a chance to share!

Alright, so favorites? It'll probs be for a million diff reasons; the characters will have shaped me/my perspective on things in life bc I'm never a fan of things I don't find meaningful. But I want to make sure this list is based on the actual character and not just scenes/the media itself resonating with me. I chose these characters BC of who they are, their choices, their feelings...

Kaneki Ken

Hideyoshi Nagachika

Biaggio (The Kings of Summer)

Effy Stonem (Skins UK)

Samwise Gamgee the Brave (LOTR)

Armin Arlert

Arya Stark (GoT)

Light Yagami

Edward Elric

Hodaka Morishima (Weathering With You)

I don't think I can put it in any specific order bc I love them all for so many different ways, but here's my lil explanations...

Kaneki: Tokyo Ghoul was one of my first anime/manga, and will always hold a spot in my heart for that reason. Kaneki I love specifically bc of his character development. I'll say it now and I will say it again: character development is one of the biggest things for me. I want to be able to look at a character on the first episode and then at the finale of the show and I want to see two completely different people. That's what we got with Kaneki, but also him as a person; I personally connect with his reserved life and his complications around being a good person vs living for yourself and whatnot. We also will never get tired of a psychological break + white hair I mean, c'mon. The anime did the manga dirty 100% so if you're reading this and thinking Kaneki is shit I really do reccomend the manga; it truly shows the depth of his kindness, his trauma and his strength. Love that for him.

Hide: Fucking ray of sunshine sunflower boy my love. Anyways, I will always appreciate a subtly hyper-aware character. His nonchalance and lightheartedness wasn't a show or anything, but it was intentionally to relax the mood of the people around him all the while taking specific note of the things happening/his surroundings. Plus his dedication to the person he loves; I enjoyed that it wasn't an obvious and intense depiction (although it sucked he got so little screentime) but I do think he's intentionally shown to be someone who doesn't need to make a show of their love or dedication. Hide was in it till the end, and he didn't ever stop to get acknowledgment for that. He didn't need to BC that's just who he was and I love him for that.

Biaggio: The Kings of Summer (2013) is a movie that I grew up rewatching, it's amazing and reccomend it 1000% but my fave character is literally the side character (not the protagonist or even the second main character he's genuinely just there.) He is magnificent. This is partly a comedy movie and Biaggio is one of my favorite versions of comedy, the kind where he is clueless and absolutely on the spectrum, so fucking wholesome deadass funny and badass (I don't want to give spoilers but mans went head to head with a rattlesnake for a friend) and he's even more important to me BC my best friend and I had a special saying from the movie that we used for like personal and meaningful reference. Even going to get the line tattooed on my thigh. "Biaggio's right here." Yes. I'm getting that tattooed. And ik I'm not supposed to hype the media just the character but this movie also has one of my favorite lines in the world that I also want to figure into a tattoo. "I have no idea where he's getting the chives." (Yes, they're talking about Biaggio).

Effy: Skins UK is also one of the shows of my youth. Effy Stonem... When I first watched it she was everything I wanted to be, which, if you know Skins is a real fucking problem. My love for her used to be kinda toxic but my mental health at the time when I zeroed in on her as a character wasn't great. That being said, she probably means more to me BC of that. Her personally; her aesthetic and the way she really did not give a shit about things, but also the way it was obvious she wanted people to know she didn't give a shit, the way she sometimes cracked and asked for help, I loved the way she looked like she was unbreakable even while looking like a fucking mess. Then she turned out to be mentally ill and I resonated even more but not in a good way. I thought ab her over the years on and off, she was also smthn that fueled my ED so when things were bad my headspace was around there. Then the final season she was still a mess, but she was an adult and she was getting her shit done and making the most of her days. I started taking inspiration from that Effy. Got some character development of my own :)

Sam: Lord of the rings is smthn I grew up on (am I gonna repeat this every time...) my fam would watch the 12hr extended edition every Christmas. My main man is Samwise the fucking Brave. This man dedicated his heart and soul to his best friend. He was a dimensional character it wasn't just plain devotion; he saw the potential in frodo when he didn't himself and Sam just reminds me of support systems in general. Also my relationship with my own best friend. I'll never forget the way he cried, the way his heart was in it for a friend. He was strong yet he thought so little of himself. He's someone I can reference when I think of the fact that there are a billion different ways to be strong. And an infinite amount of ways to show love. I'm grateful for that.

Armin: Armin was my fave AOT character from the jump and still is. I saw his potential the moment those babyblues crouched over that mf book and that dumbass bowl cut hovered over the pages. I love him. He's smart, will go all the way for his friends, even if it's detrimental to himself. He grew up, well, is still growing up, and he's pretty much been forced to become confident in himself BC he's aware there's too much on the line not to be. I enjoyed that Armin as a person had those powerful qualities from the start, I enjoyed even more having them knocked out of him and put to use like cracking open an acorn shell.

Also just fucking baby non-binary twink whore baby

Arya: Arya. ARYA. I binged all of Game of Thrones like last year, I was never into the show when it was airing it was just kinda a thing. I tried reading the first book and enjoyed it but decided I just wanted to watch. So, when I start this shit, even when reading I fuckin loved Arya. Tomboy badass who won't take no for an answer and won't say yes if she doesn't mean it. The fact that from the begginging she was my fave, this little girl with trauma and determination (we seeing a trend here?) I will always appreciate that they made her wholeheartedly devoted to her revenge. No half-measures, no room for what everyone thinks should come with revenge; dissatisfaction. She was oh so very satisfied. I love characters that aren't good or bad, just people that believe in their reasons enough to devote themselves to them. And then of all fucking things, the goddamn finale she is the one who saves the world?! My girl, who I knew from the moment she appeared would do great things... Saved everybody's ass. So her.

Light: Okay now death note was actually like the second anime I ever watched and in those days (a decade or so ago) it was even more team L or team Light that it is now, it had it's own fucking Edward/Jacob twilight energy. Anyways I dedicated myself to team Light BC I rationalized his side in the begginging. The best part ab rewatching a show is seeing things in new light. At first he was badass and smart, next watch I realized he was pissboy. Even so, I fucking love him. I love that he's crazy and evil and delusional and has a god complex the size of the fucking Library of Alexandria. I like bad people, I do. I wouldn't irl but I find fictional media is a beautiful way to appreciate the ideal of things rather than the implications of them. So yes, Light lowered the goddamn crime rate and he had a great thing going. I wanna be Misa so bad, they'd have ruled the fucking world, if it weren't for L and those meddling kids.

Edward: Ed, my love. So FMAB was my first ever ever ever anime and my eternal genuine favorite. Edward, aside from the immense familial dedication and love, just really made me smile. I liked seeing his abrasiveness holding hands with his kindness. He made me personally invested in him too?? Idk why there's one scene where he saves/does something but ends up with a metal pole through his side under some rubble and yeah they get him out and it's fine but they didn't really acknowledge it and idk I remember constantly wondering why they didn't acknowledge how far Ed just went or how far he fucking goes to help people. I also love the mecha limbs aesthetic. Can't say no to that cyborg energy.

Hodaka: Weathering With You (2019) is probs my fave anime movie if I really think about it. Hodaka, I truly love BC his actions showed the purity of wanting someone you love to be safe by your side. He took notice of things that were beautiful, like in the way he was in awe of a home cooked meal. He wasn't afraid to yell or cry or push himself to the limit, if it meant protecting the people he loved. I liked that he's a "kid" but the whole time shows his maturity BC all these heavy things were thrown his way. He's dumb sometimes, whiny and essentially unrealistic.

Unrealistic. That's what you say when you've lost the determination to hope. To know and to try anyways. He never lost those things, and we could all take a lesson from him on that one.

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So there's my silly little (Jesus it's so long) list of the silly little loves of my life. I know I'm gonna end up remembering someone at some point and wishing I had put them here but that's just the dumb bitch juice I had with breakfast talking.

Hope you enjoyed!! Y'all feel free to drop your faves and reasons in the replies!! Inbox always always open, and thank you so fucking much for sending this my way!! ❤️❤️❤️

[w0mbatrrstar]

Hey does anyone remeber the name of this fic??

A hidekane au tokyo ghoul fanfic on ao3 im prty sure where hides a ccg guy

It starts w hide chasing a bug gang of ghouls and then he falls into the 'spider' ghouls den where injurued, he meets kaneki

Then hide faints and wakes up in the hospital where amon and him recall kaneki

Sumtime later he meets kaneki at a shop where hes buying cookie ingridients, hide makes a move and the cashier gives them weird glances or smth

Uhh they leave ig

Something something

Hide needs help to find some professor ghoul? So asks kaneki for help by putting 2 and 2 that ghouls probs work at coffee shops

Hide slinks around and meets yoriko by pretending to b a baker judge or smth, then kaneki finds him and is pod

Turns out yoriko is friends w the professor and so they stage a raid on yorikos frat party house or smth??

Kaneki breaks down, then breaks up w hide and nearly dies by aoigiri(who prof works for) and idk akira and touka fight the professor and win ??

Thats all i remeber but if anyone knows the name of the fic itd rly help thannkss

[thyandrawrites]

20 questions for fic writers

this is very late but thank you @sualne for tagging me! it was a lot of fun

1) how many works do you have on ao3?

currently 48!

2) what's your total ao3 word count?

381,539 spread out across nearly a decade tho

3) what are your top five fics by kudos?

1. Butterfly effect 2. You can't trap the sky in a bottle 3. Things change, things stay the same 4. Lingering 5. Red-tailed hawks mate for life All bnha fanfics! mostly dbhwks except for two

4) what fandoms do you write for?

eh, currently none since I haven't yet found a new hyperfixation. But in the past I've mostly written for bnha and tokyo ghoul (on ao3)

5) do you respond to comments? why or why not?

I try my best to answer, yes! I'm terrible at doing so in a timely manner tho (this just reminded me I have some I have yet to reply to, damn). as for why, well, not that long ago I was a reader who was self-conscious about my english and always apologized for it when I found the courage to comment, so... I guess that stuck with me and I want to show my appreciation to the people who find that courage too

6) what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

it has to be my MCD hidekane fic ("How to save a life". I know, I know, misleading title). I don't really do MCD or tragic endings so that fic is an outlier

7) what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I... actually have no idea! Pretty much all my fics except the one above have hopeful endings cause I don't like writing stories about pure despair with no resolution. But idk if anything I wrote classifies as a happy ending, per se. I'll have to turn this question back to my readers and let them decide!

8) do you get hate on fics?

thankfully not. I only did once on a tokyo ghoul fanfic but it was clear that person hadn't read a single word and just wanted to hate on the pairing I was writing for. I deleted it without giving it any weight. I got plenty of hate mail for my meta tho if that counts lol

9) do you write smut?

nope. I never felt any interest in it, tho I know it can be a fun way to explore a character or a dynamic, much like any other genre

10) do you write crossovers?

nope

11) have you ever had a fic stolen?

yes. It was a gaara songfic of all things. It wasn't even one of my best stories so idk why someone decided to repost it. Thankfully the mods took it down in a timely manner

12) have you ever had a fic translated?

yeah! I wish they'd given me links so I could link back to their translations, but I have been asked permission to before and it was a huge honor for me! and I know this wasn't part of the question but I have translated fanfics too :') proud to spread the love

13) have you ever cowritten a fic before?

yep! With my cousin, back in our naruto days. It was a crackfic based on real events that we found absurd enough to put our favorite blorbos through for the lolz. It was fun because the concept itself was stupid and I got along well with the other writer, but I found that co-writing isn't really for me. I prefer the creative freedom of working alone better, if that makes sense

14) what's your all time favorite ship?

Good question. I think I have to answer dabihawks here purely because it had a chokehold on me for so long (seven years, jeez. my fixations usually last two). But truth be told, it hasn't had that same pull on me since I don't feel compelled about Hawks anymore. But through these characters I explored so many themes and things about myself that I still feel a bit attached to it. Tho all that's left now is a mix of nostalgia and disappointment for all the loose ends I wish the series had addressed about their respective arcs that make me click on fic updates occasionally

15) what's the wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I currently have no wips! The well of my writing creativity has been dry for years now, and I miss it. Painfully so. But idk if it's coming back to me anytime soon. It seems hard right now, what with having no active fandoms I want to read fanfic for, let alone write it, but I guess never say never?

16) what are your writing strengths?

mmh, I wanna say introspections cause that's what draws me to writing in the first place, but idk if other people would agree that's my strength. I have the most fun with that, though. Dissecting the way a character thinks / experiences the world and their relationships is my favorite part of writing so it takes up a big portion of my stories

17) what are your writing weaknesses?

Descriptions. I know I suck at them, and I know I don't include them as much as I should, but I just. hhhhh. I subconsciously zone out when I read them so I guess I tend to avoid them as a writer by extension. I did collabs with artists in the past and one thing that came up frequently was that I didn't describe the setting in a lot of detail, or that I didn't focus on stuff like clothing / appearance. Which can be okay if the scene is static and focuses on emotions, I guess, but it was a problem whenever I had to write fight scenes. I want to get better at it at some point!

18) thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

technically I already have since english is not my first language, haha. but as a language nerd I think that could be fun. It's never come up before tho since I haven't written any multiethnic or bilingual character yet

19) first fandom you wrote for?

Technically my very first was Card captor Sakura when I was a middle schooler, lmao. First fic posted, though? Naruto

20) favourite fic you've ever written?

I had to really ponder this because I have recency bias, but I admit my favorite is actually Stitches. It's not my most popular work by a long shot, but it's the one that comes closest to what my original writing style was like! When I shifted to english and ao3, my style changed a lot. It used to be a lot more introspective and full of purple prose, haha. I think I managed to tone down the latter over the years and refine my skill at writing dialogue, and I think Stitches is the work that best shows that growth while still staying true to my beginning :') Other than that, I'm attached to it because of the themes I explored in it, as well as the Touya and Rei dynamic, which is dear to me!

tagging: no pressure to do this! @misssleepless12 if you see this and some of my old writing buddies @linkspooky @starship--phoenix @draphrawrites to wish you all well on your current projects :') Feel free to ignore the tag if you've done it before

[eltheabberation]

opinion on hidekane?

HIHI SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG

Ngl when I first read tg I liked hidekane but to me it was. the least interesting of the kaneki ships ;w; It was just kind of the generic mc x his best friend to me for a while and I never really payed much attention to it

It was actually Tokyo that made the ship actually interesting to me ;w; and also all ur blog posts about the two of them. I'm lowkey scared of saying anything because I'll get them wrong but uh idk I love blind devotion <3 Uh I like them a decent amount but it's difficult to find stuff that makes their relationship actually interesting like Tokyo ;w;

Ty for the ask! Hope ur doing well!

[derowen]

Scenes from my HideKane RP:

Kaneki went back from work and Hide smiles at him, holding a coffee

Kaneki: Coffee! takes it from Hide I missed you so much.

Hide: Yeaah, 'fcourse, it's nice to see you too.

Kaneki: Oh, Hide, you're here too?

Hide: Aha, I can go, if you want.

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Kaneki: You didn't changed at all. You're still very loud.

Hide: Huh?! And you're still a bookworm! Some day books will take you away from me completely...

Kaneki: Well, if work won't be first.

Hide: Do you want me to be jealous about work too?

Kaneki: I don't know, work seems attractive.

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Hide: You should take a break from time to time. You'll work yourself to death.

Kaneki: It's not that bad... There are people, who work a lot harder. And I take a break soon, so...

Hide: They work harder, but not so often, you practically live for work. You seriously need to rest, when you had this break.

Kaneki: Ofcourse, I'm not going to wake up until 12. sigh And I don't live only for work! My weekends are rereserved completely for Ichi, I've been going out with you all the time lately...

Hide: Taking care of Ichi is your work in a way too. And you're going out with me, because I'm dragging you. Before my arrival, how often did you go out somewhere by yourself?

Kaneki: Oh, ehm... shopping caunts?

Hide: Ofcourse not.

Kaneki: Library?

Hide: That's your addiction, so no.

Kaneki: grimaces So I wasn't going out...

Hide: I knew it.

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Hide: Daaaamn

Kaneki: Damn what?

Hide: I have to go out somewhere...

Kaneki: Who would think you're such a homebody.

Hide: Hey, not my falut, I was planing to listen to a new song.

Kaneki: You can do it in the way, right? Where are you going anyway?

Hide: I have to take care of something on the post office.

Kaneki: Ooooh, I understand. I have to do some things too today... And I promised Ichi, I'll take her to the zoo.

Hide: excited The zoo?!

Kaneki: I was going to ask you, if you want to go too, but while you're occupied...

Hide: I HAVE TIME.

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Kaneki: I have nothing against such energetic music... But I don't think I'm in the mood for something overly cheerful.

Hide: Do you ever had been in that mood?

Kaneki: *ironically* Oh, ha-ha-ha.

Kaneki: But you know, I quite often listen to happy music right now, since I have a 5-years-old doughter. If I ever hear the alphabet song again, I'm going to die.

Hide:

Hide: *sings loudly the alphabet song*

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Tsukiyama: Tell me, what is this girl, who stole your heart?

Kaneki: Umm, Akemi-san. She's a... single mother, just like me. Her family take care of shinto temple.

Hide: Akemi-san is super cute and she have a little boy, Ichi-chan likes him and Kaneki likes the mummy. *laughs* Oh, does it seem like you're into mummies now?

Kaneki: I'm not into any... Okay, maybe I am. Maybe this whole being single father thing bothers me a little, but it's good to have someone, I can talk about it.

Hide: So the commercials like "Hot mummies in your neiborhood" work for you, huh?

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The alarm clock rings, but Kaneki turns it off

Kaneki: 5 more minutes...

Ichika: No! When you say that, we're always late!

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Kaneki: Hide? I was thinking, do you have something more formal in your wardrobe?

Hide: Hmmm... I don't think so. Right after the end of the school I burned out my uniform, it was amazing to watch how it's on fire.

Kaneki: sigh I mean, everyone on the TSC meeting will be dressed formally, so I thought, you should fit in.

Hide: Ka-ne-ki. Are you really thinking I would wear a suit?

Kaneki: It's not like you have to dress no one knows how elegant. Just... as if you were going to a job interview.

Hide: Lastly I went to a job interview dressed just like I went to your place.

Kaneki:

Kaneki: You know what, not my problem. I won't be the one who people looks at like at a weirdo.

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Chie Hori: How did you met?

Hide: Oooooh, it's a funny story...

Kaneki: You just came up to me and out of the blue asked me if I'll be your friend.

Hide: Hey, that's not fair! You're presenting it wrong! That was you, who only sitted and readed books all day! And you looked awfully lonely! And it's so unfair, it wasn't out of the blue, it was at sunset!

Kaneki: And what's the difference?

Hide: Cause it wasn't me, who looked like a sad kitten and then like a happy puppy.

Kaneki: Okay, whatever you say... I was just a very shy kid and you were an eternally happy puppy. You still are.

Hide: Hehehehe, I a— Hey! I'm not a puppy!

Kaneki: No, ofcourse. Not at all.

Hide: *turns back to him* Mhm! Okay! Good!

Kaneki: Hey, it was a compliment! Are you cooking with me or not...

Hide: Yes, but I'm doing it just for Ichi.

Kaneki: Since when you're so melodramatic?

Hide: melo... meloda... meloma... Oh, nevermind!

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Kaneki: Ayato didn't bother you?

Hide: He didn't, it was fun.

Kaneki: Oh yeah? *makes the position of the policeman at interrogation* In what sense?

Hide: Hmmmm, I didn't had to wait in the queue to the lawyer, thanks to him. Why, mister policeman, jealous?

Kaneki: What? Nooo... I just... You can tell me everything, you know?

Hide: Yes, I know it, Ka-ne-ki.

Kaneki: That's fine... And... I don't know. Ayato can be impulsive.

Hide: I know it. Despite everything he's nice in his own way.

Kaneki: Nice in his own way? It sounds pretty euphemistically, you know?

Hide: Euge... euphe... what?

Kaneki: Euphemism. That's when you use milder terms to not be too blunt.

Hide: Heeey, that's not true. He's really nice in his own way. And very cute. And he have sweet blushes. And pretty smile. And...

Kaneki: Blushes? It sounds like you're into him...

Hide: H-huh? What are you talking about?

Kaneki: Well... I never heared you talking about someone in that way... *looks down*

Hide: S-sorry, I said too much. *changes the topic*

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Hide: How you can talk with him about books? He's crazy in this regard.

Hinami: Well, the answer is easy. I'm crazy about books too.

Hide: *squats next to her* I beg you, don't become such an ufo like Kaneki!

Kaneki: *offended* What?

Hinami: Ufo? What are you talking about?

Hide: H-he didn't had any friends, it was sad, he was such lonely cute ufo, don't become like him!

Kaneki: Hide, stop it! I wasn't an ufo, I just... Uhm... It definitelly wasn't because of books...

Hide: You see? Total brainwashing, don't become just like him.

Hinami: Hmm... okay?

Hide: *laughs and stands up* Can I talk with you?

Hinami: About books...?

Kaneki: I'm not sure, if Hide can read...

Hide: Kaneki, next time I'll hide Ichi so good, you'll never find her.

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Ichika: Uncle? You knew mom, right?

Hide: Yes.

Ichika: What was she like?

Hide: H-huh? Um, it's hard to say.

Ichika: Why?

Hide: She could bevave very differently. She could stay calm one moment and then explode with emotion the next. One thing is certain. She hated, when someone was hurting her loved ones. And she loved coffee.

Ichika: What's up with the coffee, coffee is bleugh. And what else did she liked? Was she reading as much as dad?

Hide: Oh no, she definitelly wasn't reading as much as your dad... Hmmm... She liked....

Kaneki: Rabbits. She liked rabbits. She had a lot of things with this motiv. And... she couldn't ride a bike at all. I tryed to teach her, but it ended up rather tragically... for me and for the bike.

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Hide: Coooome oooon! Come for a hug!

Ayato: No.

Hinami: *whispers* Attack by surprise?

Hide: *noddes*

Hinami&Hide: *hugs him by surprise from both sides*

Ayato: Hey! Let go of me!

Hide: No way!

Hinami: And quieter, you're going to wake up the kids.

The kid: *wakes up* What are you doing...?

Ayato: They're harrasing me!

Hide: We try to silence Ayato, go to sleep, sweatheart.

The kid: Okay, just be quiet... *falls asleep again*

Ayato:

Ayato: Okay, I'm doing it just because I don't want to wake them up with bang I do, when I'll throw you off me.

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Hide: AYATO, WAIT! *throws himself at him*

Ayato: I'M NOT GOING TO LET YOU HUG ME ANYMORE!

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Hide: *puts a dish in front of Ichika that looks not very pretty*

Ichika: eeee... *hesitates, but eats it anyway* EY, IT'S GOOD.

Kaneki: Seriously?! It's a pity, I can't try it...

Hide: It is! Maybe it really doesn't look the best... Okay, it looks awfull, but as long as it tastes good, it's okay!

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Hide: A-Ayato, did you smiled? Are you sick? Something hurts you?

Ayato: Geez, I smile sometimes. If I have a reason.

Hide: You're not such dark emo as I thought!

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Hide and Kaneki are in the thrift store and Hide convinced Kaneki to wear whatever he wants

Kaneki: So, what's next?

Hide: Thiiiiis *gives him red shorts and rainbow shirt*

Kaneki: Are you trying to kill me?

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Hide: Colors look good on you.

Kaneki: I don't know... I don't like it.

Hide: Because you're emo.

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Hinami: You can't drink! You're driving!

Ayato: But that's not my car.

Hinami: So whose then?

Ayato: Kaneki's.

Kaneki: And why I know nothing about it?

Ayato: Well, now you know.

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Akira: You look good, Hide.

Hide: Hahahaha, you really think that? Maybe it's the new conditioner.

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Saiko: Yeah, it will be an amazing party! Especially when Saiko will be there!

Urie: And you, what do you plan to prepare?

Saiko: Eeeeeee...

Urie: *sigh* You can take care of decorations.

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Urie: Wait, why Mutsuki would move out to my room?

Saiko: You're not dating?

Urie: No.

Saiko: But you're the only one to get his messages! Even Maman doesn't have any e-mails from him!

Urie: Can we not discuss private topics on formal meeting, please?

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Hide: *swings Ichika on a swing highly*

Kaneki: Hey, be carefull.

Hide: Don't worry, nothing will happen.

Kaneki: Hide, it's a kid, not a stuntwoman.

Hide: Kaneki, it's a kid, not a porcelain doll.

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Okay, that's it, that's long enough xd

[ren-rambles-often]

Hello.... If you don't mind me asking, who are your favorite romantic relationship's couples in books/ manga/ anime/movies/tv series (can be canon or non-canon)? Feel free if you want to write the reasons or not of why you love them...Thanks if you want to answer....

Thanks for the ask and damn I'm always so excited when it comes to these so ofc I don't mind, also warning I'm about to kinda go off. It's a pretty long list so I'll only talk about the ones that left the biggest impression on me.

Warning for mentions of twincest, incest and age gaps.

Starting off with the ship that indoctrinated me into the bl life style *drumroll*

Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter (aka Drarry); enemies/rivals to lovers, blond x ravenette, they basically set the precedent for every ship I pick up like a stray cat these days.

Bakugou Katsuki/Midoriya Izuku (Bakudeku): Enemies to lovers, plus constantly on each other's mind as a motivation in one way or the other. I love them so much.

Mikage Reo/Nagi Seishiro (NagiReo): one of my current hyperfixations, mainly cuz they're one of the few ships I have that wasn't introduced as rivals from the start as well as being extremely close canonically. They click so well despite their miscommunication (more like no communication but I'll probably get to that another day).

Gojo Saturou/Itadori Yuuji (GoYuu): Most of my blog will you a clue already lol.

Sukuna/Itadori Yuuji (SukuIta): Number one toxic ship rn, but would you believe I prefer their siblings falling in forbidden love trope?

Mikaela Hyakuya/Yuuichiro Hyakuya (MikaYuu): Found family lovers that will give anything for each other? Sign me up.

Tyki Milk/Allen Walker: I walked into the D.gray man fandom late and I will never not regret it, I need more people that at least know who they are (〒﹏〒)

Eren Jeager/Armin Arlet & Eren Jaeger/Levi Ackerman (Eremin & Ereri): Getting these two out of the way at the same time cuz while I think Eren is undeniably his best self a lot with Armin, I love the thought of Levi being there as his inspiration.

Itoshi Rin/Itoshi Sae: Their beef is adorable but they need to fuck.

Roy Mustang/Edward Elric: I love their banter and they've both been through way too much together.

Bruce Wayne/Clark Kent (Superbat): one is batman the other is superman...Need I say more?

Dick Grayson/Tim Drake: I watched Titans and they had me.

Luka/Adrian (Lukachat): I stopped watch Miraculous at like S3 but these two are the only salvageable treasure from that mess to me.

Sherlock Holmes/William James Moriarty (Sherliam): From Moriarty the Patriot not any other adaptations please. There was that one movie tho. I love how they're constantly teasing and trying to outsmart each other like yeah babes, burn that city down to get his attention.

Kageyama Tobio/Hinata Shoyo (Kagehina): I haven't finished Haikyuu S2, spare me.

Kagami Taiga/Kuroko Tetsuya: what's with sports anime and K names, that aside, I don't know but their separation leaves me in tears everytime.

Yukio Okumura/Rin Okumura: Rin cares so much, Yukio stop being a yandere you closeted brocon! I know you!!!

Wei Wuxian/Lan Wangji: I have a thing for broody possessive tops and oblivious bottoms and they were my awakening.

Hideyoshi Nagachika/Ken Kaneki (Hidekane): Receiving Tokyo ghoul spoilers of how things ended kept from finishing the show or starting the manga, what even is the point .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.

Draken/Mikey/Takemichi & Draken/Mikey: DraMiTake is something I'd consume if I find it cuz I read this one precious fic I will forever cherise but DraMikey has way too much angst potential on its own. Tugs my heart to know Draken keeps Mikey grounded.

Baji Keisuke/Chifuyu Matsuno: Kazutora I will never fucking forgive you.

Hanma shuji/Kisaki Tetta: psychotic boyfriends, we love to see it (✿ ♡‿♡)

Reinhard Van Astrea/Natsuki Subaru: They are literally my banner plus he's one of the few people that doesn't give Subaru a hard time (I only watched S1)

Sebastian Michaelis/Ciel Phantomhive: Butler x master, what else do I need to add. I do absolutely adore the thought of Sebastian being cheeky when putting his young master in his place. I also love soft Sebastian, go figure.

Carnegie/Jonathan Sterling: No one remembers Darkside so I won't even dive into it. These two are the reason I'm trying to finish the series right now, book girlies, read Darkside by Tom Becker and come find me please ಥ‿ಥ

Dante/Vergil: It just makes sense ngl.

If you made it this far...why did you lollll, but honestly thanks for reading, talking about ships is one of my things and be free to ask again if you want me to expand upon or analyze any of these, that or if you just want recs. I'm down for anything.

[uriekukistan]

hello rinnnnn i wld love to hear more about your thoughts on tg!itfs + maybe nobara , specifically in terms of kagune !! full transparency since u sent me that ask the concept has been marinating in my brain and even if it'll probably b a while before i get around 2 designing anything i welcome th opportunity 2 hear any outside ideas !!!!

hii hina :D hope ur doing well !!! dkjgh i love this ask thank u for sending it

tbh i kept going back and forth between drawing my ideas out or not but i think im gonna explain them w words bc im better at that and i trust my ability to convey ideas that way....compared to art where i Do Not

also disclaimer this is within the context of the mini au i have created in my brain (and google docs. but i need to redo it. no longer satisfied)

anyway! tbh i had imagined yuuji as just a human, mostly bc he reminds me a lot of hide at times :') and he takes a similar role in the story i had planned, so i dont rlly have a kagune design in mind for him unforch, but if i could imagine one i'd kinda take inspo from true form sukuna and give him smth like this (saiko's kagune that she used against urie when he framed out pt 2. it's a rinkaku, i never understood the ghoul biology stuff tbsh)

megumi is the one i had the clearest idea for, he's an artificial one-eye, and again i dont understand ghoul biology, but i took design inspo from nue bc hello nue is so cool. my fav shikigami in terms of design. i havent determined how, but he does end up w a half-kakuja (probably gonna put him thru the horrors so he'll cannibalize) mostly bc i wanted to give him a beak-like mask. and then his kagune is kinda like. ayato mixed w yomo if i had to give it a good comparison. wing shaped + electricity (theyre both ukakus so ig that makes him an ukaku, im just picking things based of their techniques in jjk)

for nobara, i'm leaning towards a koukaku bc its pretty dense and durable like....a hammer :D most of the users in tg have it as a blade, but urie has used it as a blade and a shield (tsukiyama too maybe? i have urie tunnel vision hence the username) anyway im not picturing it as being exactly hammer shaped but more vague. hammer inspired if you will (rlly leaning on the technique -> kagune crutch, character design is not my forte and i cannot visualize things to save my life). i also had her as either an artificial half ghoul (quinx?) or as a full ghoul waitress at anteiku

my plot needs some serious reworking, but i have yuuji and megumi as childhood besties à la hidekane, and megumi is the one who gets kanekied (sort of). secret long term pining megumi who doesnt think yuuji would be interested bc hes focused on getting a girlfriend. he doesn't have qualms abt eating ppl, but he does worry abt killing people (at least at first, there will be spiral of doom). it rlly needs to be redone overall,,,but external circumstances prompted me to push it to the side and take up another project instead

this feels super disorganized sorry omg TT_TT i think bc i decided to nuclear bomb my previous idea recently, and now i have nothing bc i never started rebuilding the plot or anything

[myndless88]

Ken Kaneki is a ghost singer for up-and-coming star Kichimura Washū. Hideyoshi Nagachika is a global sensation popstar with a huge international fanbase, millions of best-selling albums & multiple awards. For his new upcoming single, he wants to collaborate with an obscure, lesser-known singer. And Washū might just be the ideal choice, despite his selfish & manipulative personality. Of course, it's only a matter of time until Hide discovers the identity of the real person behind Washū's success.

I'm intrigued!

[hinamie]

i had a good question for u the other day but i forgot it before i could send it ✋ have not remembered it yet BUT as one of my few mutuals who are or haven been into both jjk and tokyo ghoul i must ask u this:

how do u think itafushi would react to getting kanekied/ghoulified? i have been thinking abt this + their similarities w hidekane since forever so if u have any thoughts...🧐

anyway! hope ur doing well hina <33

HI RIN OH m y god thank u fr reminding me *bumps tg!itfs designs Up the to-draw list*

I think that yuuji's initial reaction would be very similar if not identical to kaneki's i can picture SO easily the desperation fr it not to be true the trying to cling to humanity through food despite the ultimate futility ,, like the entire scene of kaneki crying hyperventilating making himself sick trying to eat??? i can picture yuuji There and Like That 1:1 no questions asked. following that though and following the slow horrific dawning acceptance I think we would slip right back into yuuji "I'm a Cog" itadori . him forcing himself 2 smother the self-loathing and do what has to be done to pursue his ideals and protect the people he loves no matter who he has to kill or Eat and no matter the monster it turns him into

megumi,,,,...ngl it's a Lot harder fr me to imagine his reaction sighs gotta love a stoic king ,, i think his realization that this is my life now would be a lot more . nihilistic? like whereas with yuuji it would act as a sort of driving force (move forward, fight, make it Worth something) for megumi i think him becoming a ghoul and being forced to accept it would b an amalgamation of his shame and self hatred and perceived weakness. it would b a burden it wld be a mental block in combat, him resenting himself fr what he is and what he allowed himself to become . i think he would fight to hurt himself and hate to eat. btw bonus kagune type hcs: yuuji either rinkaku or koukaku megumi bikaku ty fr coming 2 my ted talk :)

[friends-to-lovers-tournament]

Friends to Lovers Tournament: Round 2, Side B, Match 7

propaganda under the cut!

Hidekane:

"Submission 1 Let me tell you, when I say they should have been canon, they should have been canon! Let's start from the beginning, shall we? (Major spoilers for the whole series lmao)

Hide and Kaneki met as children, around the ages of 7-10. Kaneki has always been a big bookworm while Hide has always been a big extrovert. Unbeknown to anyone yet, Hide had recently lost his father and was just adopted and was having a hard time adjusting and fitting in at this new school despite his cheerful personality. He kinda just walked up to Kaneki and asked to be his friend and he said yes.

They grew up together, Hide being Kaneki's only salvation in the world as he lost his mother and was stuck in a neglectful, nearly abusive situation living with his aunt. They usually just talked about stupid stuff, but Hide's friendship meant everything to Kaneki. Eventually, they began attending the same university, Kamii. Kaneki took literature while Hide studied foreign languages, majoring in English. They were only in their first year when Kaneki was involved in an accident. In this world, creatures known as ghouls exist among humans, look and act just like them, but they eat human flesh. It's the only thing their bodies can digest, everything else tastes disgusting and makes them sick.

Kaneki went out with a girl, but found out she was actually a ghoul when she tried to eat him. He ran away into a construction zone where steel beams fell on the girl and he passed out. He was rushed to the hospital and needed a kidney transplant, but the hospital had none and so they used the girl's, or so the doctor said. In reality, the doctor transplanted the girl's kakuho, an organ unique to ghouls, into him. Slowly, Kaneki began to notice changes to his body. Food tasted gross and people started to sound appetizing (this all sounds off topic but trust me it's necessary to understand the depths of Kaneki and Hide's relationship).

While dealing with this revalation, Kaneki skipped out on quite a few days of class. Once he retuned, Hide immediately hugged him, saying that he's been lonely and that rabbits die of loneliness. Later in the day, Hide is attacked by a ghoul and knocked unconscious while Kaneki tries to fight the ghoul off. Kaneki is very weak at this point and can't do much, but tries to defend his friend until the bitter end. When it really looks like Hide is about to die and be eaten, Kaneki is able to unleash his kagune (a hunting limb/organ thing ghouls use to fight) to fight off the ghoul and save Hide. The two of them are saved and cared for, and Kaneki talks to another ghoul about how he's no longer human in the same room Hide is sleeping in but little does he know that Hide is actually awake.

They started drifting away because of this, with Kaneki wanting to keep Hide out of danger. At one point, Kaneki is kidnapped and goes missing and so Hide spends his time looking for him, tailing shady people, and joining the CCG (Comission of Counter Ghoul, aka the ghoul cops) as an intern to look for files on him. Eventually a few months later, they find each other again. Kaneki has changed a lot, having been tortured and been through a lot of other stuff. The CCG is on a mission called the Owl Execution Operation to locate and kill an extremely powerful ghoul known as the Owl with Kaneki fighting on the side of the ghouls and Hide (technically) with the CCG. Kaneki is beginning to lose his mind while struggling to regenerate a severe wound when Hide shows up. Kaneki freaks out because he doesn't want Hide to know that he's a ghoul, but Hide just pats him on the shoulder and says ""I knew all along man!"" There's a very strong CCG fighter blocking the only exit to the area and Kaneki needs to be at full strength to have a chance at winning so Hide tells Kaneki to eat him. Kaneki gives Hide one hell of a kiss, eating his lips and part of his cheek and neck.

Flash forward three/four years later, Kaneki had amnesia but regained his memories at this point. Kaneki is fighting an extremely strong adversary and is losing horribly. He is about to drown when Hide appears in his dreams. They talk about the situation, joking around a bit too. Kaneki cries, saying how much he misses him, with Hide responding ""what are you, a rabbit?"" Hide convinces Kaneki to keep fighting and not to throw his life away, saying ""it may not be stylish, but live."

Meanwhile, the real Hide has dedicated his life to finding help for Kaneki these last few years. After some really big stuff that I can't even begin to explain happens, Hide comes out from the shadows and takes the lead in helping Kaneki out of this shitshow of a situation. When one person asks ""why go this far for Ken Kaneki?"", Hide simply responds ""Because I love him.""

Submission 2

They're lifelong friends. Kaneki has a bad family history and Hide looks like a sunflower and has the personality of a golden retriever. When Kaneki gets turned into a ghoul, Hide figures it out pretty much immediately and doesn't say anything, because he's waiting for Kaneki to feel comfortable enough to confess. Even as Kaneki drifts away, Hide gets more and more involved in the world of ghouls so he can continue looking after him. At the end of the first series, Kaneki ends up starved for human flesh and on the brink of being captured. Hide, who has joined the enemy side because it's the only way to stay close, finds him in the sewers and offers himself to be eaten. Fade to black.

In the second series, when Kaneki regains his memories, he wants to die in style, like he thinks Hide did, protecting the people he loves. His hallucinations of Hide talk him out of this. He gets ghoul-married to another ghoul by leaving non-fatal bites on each other. This is relevant because Hide isn't dead; just heavily scarred (his jaw and throat are just gone, like a makeout session gone very badly), and he's been going around in disguise as a scarecrow for the past several years, manipulating things so that Kaneki will be as safe as possible.

Percabeth:

Submission 1

they are the cutest thing ever with 5 books of slow burn

Submission 2

HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE THEM?? THEY ARE THE BEST OTP! THEY START OFF WITH UNCERTAINTIES BUT ANNABETH CHOOSES TO BE HIS FRIEND, HER FIRST INDEPENDENT STEP TO NOT CONSIDER THE OLYMPIAN'S WISHES WHEN MAKING CHOICES. SHE IGNORED HER MOM'S OPINION GUYS, THAT IS BIG! AND HE DOESNT REALLY HAVE FRIENDS UNTIL THE SUMMER HE TURNS 13 AND SHE IS ONE OF THEM. SHE AND HIM ARE ALWAYS BY EACHOTHER'S SIDES (METAPHORICALLY AT LEAST). THEY WORK TOGETHER ON QUESTS SOO WELL BECAUSE THEY KNOW EACH OTHER THAT WELL. AND SHE KISSED THEM DURING THE LABYRINTH QUEST AND HE KINDA IGNORED IT FOR LIKE A YEAR. AND SHE WAS HIS ANCHOR TO THE MORTAL WORLD. AND HE TOLD HER ABOUT HIS ACHILLES HEEL. AND SHE BACKS HIM UP ALL THE TIME. AND IT WAS THE GREATEST UNDERWATER KISS OF ALL TIME. AND WHEN HE WENT MISSING SHE DID NOT SLEEP. AND SHE WAS ALL HE REMEMBERED WHEN HERA TRIED HER SHENANIGANS. AND THEY FELL TOGETHER. AND THEY ARE EACH OTHERS BEST FRIENDS (sorry grover, but you get it) AND I LOVE THEM TOGETHER SO MUCH. THEY EMAILED EACH OTHER AT 13 BECAUSE CELL PHONES WERE A BIG N O! AND HE KEPT A PICTURE OF HER IN HIS BINDER. AND SHE WANTS TO BUILD SOMETHING PERMANENT WITH HIM.

[amoneki-ramblings]

and if you have time 002 Kaneki :) (I am asking everyone)

Let's go !!

002 | Give me a character & I will tell you

How i feel about this character: Ironically I cannot verbalize my thoughts about Kaneki coherently whatsoever. I need him dead. I need to hit him over the head with several hammers. I need him to let himself just relax and drink some coffee and read a good book. He sucks I hate him /affectionate he’s also so fucking cringe Jesus. For every coherent and analytical thought I have about the other characters I have none for Kaneki he simply. Is. He’s Kaneki he’s That Guy he brings me immense pain and he’s so self-destructive and he tries so hard and it Sucks /pos I need to stuff him into a blender

All the people I ship romantically with this character: Hmm oh boy I sure do wonder…Well, aside from the obvious I think Shuuneki could be very interesting when done right, and while I’m not as inclined towards their relationship romantically Hidekane definitely hurts my soul, especially thinking of them before everything went to shit for our poor protagonist

My non-romantic OTP for this character: I love his relationship with Hinami so much he’s such a good big bro :(( Even when he’s out trying to hunt down people and change the world he still sets aside time for her, but even then she’s so concerned for his wellbeing because she can tell how he’s Changed and how he’s pushing himself she just wants him to be happy and take a break :((

My unpopular opinion about this character: Hmmm not sure if I have any at the moment?? I’d agree with anything as long as it’s accurate to his character. Whether you love or despise this guy I will nod my head, I guess just don’t say he’s flawless, person/moral-wise, there’s a lot of good argument for why he can suck actually, but I feel like most people know that.

One thing I wish would happen/had happened with this character in canon: I remember seeing in the original storyboards for Root A that Shironeki and Kuroneki actually interact more. While I like how it was saved until the end in the original series (when they hugged) I wouldn’t have minded seeing more of it beforehand. Kuroneki is Shironeki’s doubts voiced back to himself, the more uncertain version of himself that he locks away, and Shironeki simply calls that part of him weak. It makes me miserable. I love it

my OTP: *whistles, looks away*

my cross over ship: Don’t think I have any

a headcanon fact: This is gonna be so random (read: projection) but Kaneki probably bites a lot of things. He bites pencils, he chews straws, he’s especially guilty of biting/chewing his hands/fingers and when he was a human it used to leave marks all over his hands. The hand biting problem gets even worse after the torture. If you put your hand in front of his face he’ll probably bite your fingers. Like a weirdo. He needs to be stopped (I say, fully supporting this behavior; let him be weird and a little unnatural :thumbsup:)

[therealsasori]

To talks and being honest, and oh good coffee Pt.3 (a hidekane fic)

(I am finally back on my bullshit. This took way longer than I had intented but I wantef it to be as good as possible and I think I am pretty happy with it. Enjoy!)

Snippet: Acting more on autopilot than really thinking about his actions, which wasn't unusal for Kaneki in retrospect- the half ghoul retracted his hands from his friends in favor of fisting them tightly in Hides shirt and pulling the human up and up towards him.

The kitchen felt cold and sterile, only bathed in the low glow of the small table light that had been switched on. Then again you could assume a ghouls kitchen to be sterile, not a lot of cooking going on there.

Hide was tired. Cycling across the city past 1 am to meet up with his crying best friend, he had been trying to avoid for the past week, had not been in his bingo cards.

To top it off he hadn't been doing a whole bunch of sleeping for the last 7 days in general. It was definetly catching up with him.

More than a little awkward and a whole lot of uncomfortable, thats how Hide was feeling sitting in the ghoul kings kitchen. Kaneki was currently taking a quick shower, the blonde had thought this would give him some time to think things over - as it stands the waiting was just down right terrible. Prolonging his torture.

Hide had listened to the shower running, heard it being turned off and only a few minutes later another person entered the darkend room. Kaneki had looked, for lack of a better term, rough when Hide had gotten here. Now his pale friend looked a lot more clean but still just as miserable.

Sighing Hide turned to face his childhood friend, he had known that they eventually would have to talk about this. He just didn't want to.

"How are you feeling? Any better?" The human part of the duo decided to break the silence. He felt sorry for the white haired boy - Kaneki seemed so small and fragile. Any other time Hide might have thought of it as funny.

Said 'boy' groaned and shook his head, hiding his face behind his hands.

"Not really. Hide... I am so sorry for making you come here in the middle of the night thinking something bad happened to me, when I was just - just upset."

It was quiet for a moment, Kaneki peeked trough a small gap between his fingers and said in a soft, tiny thing of a voice.

"I- i would however like for you to stay. I really missed you."

Hide was conflicted. On one hand he had also missed his friend, more than he could ever put into words, he also felt sorry for Kaneki in this situation. The last thing he had ever wanted is to cause the half ghoul suffering or pain. But.. Hide didn't want to have this conversation. He was scared as all hell. Dreaded it. This conversations he had been avoiding for a week. The conversation he was sure would tear him apart.

But he will do it. Has to. So he stays.

Two cups of steaming coffee later they were both seated across from each other, at the small kitchen table Kaneki owned. Neither quit sure how to go about this. It was frustrating. Hide wanted to pull his hair out and maybe some of Kens, for dramatic effect.

"Ok, this sucks balls,dude. Worst sleepover ever."

Hide had always had a way with words. Very eloquent.

It had its desired effect though. Which was making the other part of this conversation laugh and cutting trough the thick tention.

"It really really does." Kaneki chuckled and gave the blonde a soft, shy smile. He seemed more at ease.

And Hide was a goner. An absolute fool. He would do anything for the half ghoul just to see him smile like that. Shit, he'd rip out his heart and serve it on a silver platter if Kaneki so much as asked him to.

But he also knew this had to be a serious conversation. Dealing with true emotions and vulnerabilities and he was no big fan of those. Hide didn't like putting his real feelings and thoughts out there. It made him easy to attack and he always avoided that. But this time he had to.

"Alright. Kaneki I think we both know- we have to talk. Like seriously talk. About... what happened between- eeeh - us...?" The human closed his eyes and shook his head, throwing his hands up.

"Let me start of by saying - I am so incredibly sorry. I should not have done that, at all. I understand if you feel uncomfortable about it and I want to make it clear that something like that will never happen again. Seriously not cool of me dude."

Never happen again? Feeling sorry about it? Kaneki was perplexed that his first reaction to Hides words was- disappointment? He was certainly not feeling satisfied with that answer but couldn't quit pinpoint why.

The half ghoul cocked an eyebrow at his companion, looking rather unimpressed by said mans speech. He crossed his arms over his chest and regarded Hide for a long moment. Yes, the only reason the brown eyed man was here is because Kaneki called him while crying - however, Kaneki felt a lot calmer than he expected. He was and had been confused about his emotiones and thoughts for the last 7 days and this was his chance to get to the bottom of them. He needed this conversation and he was determined to take it to the finish line. Deciding to brush over his friends words for now, and shaking off his conflicting feelings, he decided to go with:

"You've been avoiding me."

The words seemed a lot less accusatory and more so, plain sad. Kaneki couldn't hide the pain in his voice, the same pain he saw in the humans eyes.

"I know. I am sorry about that too. Wasn't the most adult way of handling the situation, I'll admit. I just didn't know how to face you. I -" The blonde was clearly struggling, words getting caught in his throat and twisting on his tongue. Kaneki knew he needed to be patient. Hide had never been one to talk much about his feelings, trying to shield Ken from anything that could possibly upset him. So the half ghoul gave his friend his best encouraging smile he could muster and waited.

Pinching his nose, eyes closed Hide took a deep breath.

"I was ... scared. Shit. I still am."

Kaneki nodded, trying to understand Hides feelings. Taking in the words. He had to ask, even if he already knew, he had to hear it.

"Scared of what?"

Hide, who had intently been studying the pattern of the wooden table, snapped his head up. The sudden movement making the ghoul king flinch. Incredulous, big brown eyes were staring at him. Something about the way Hide was staring at him made him want to sink into the ground, take back the question and just move on. But he couldn't back down now. He needed this. Needed Hide to tell him everything.

The blonde was tense, jaw clenched he averted his eyes. They sat in silence again for what could have been minutes or hours, Ken didn't know. His best friend finally nodded slowly as if he made a decision in his mind.

"I am not good at this sort of thing, Ken. Talking about feelings has always scared me to be honest, maybe because I never learned how to as a child...but no getting out of this one I suppose." he shook his head and chuckled, a sad one. It made Kanekis heart hurt.

"To answer your question - I was scared, no wait, I am scared that I ruined everything. Because I was selfish. Because in a stupid moment of weakness I might have ruined my relationship with the most important person in my life. I am scared that you'll look at me differently now, that you hate me even. That you are possibly uncomfortable around me, when all I ever wanted was to make you feel safe and cared for, loved. I hate to think I've ruined that for you." Hide took a big gulp of air, feeling like his lungs were going to collapse on him. Every fiber of his being was on fire, he felt hot and cold and all together like an absolute mess.

"Hide -" Kaneki started to speak but Hide couldn't let him. Not yet. Shaking his head vehemently he cut the half ghoul off.

"Please let me finish Ken. You know how people say that home doesn't have to be a place? That it can also be another person? I always wanted to be that for you. I am sorry if I ruined this for you. That was never my intention. Advancing on you like that was never my intention. I had been totally planing on and content with keeping this all inside and just being by your side. That's all I ever wanted. But, as I have put this out there... there is no point in denying it anymore. I love you. So much. And no not like a best friend should, not like a brother should. I am in love with you. I had never planned on telling you this. I don't want to interfere with your relationship with your wife. Honestly all I ever wanted for you was to be happy. And if thats not with me, so be it. Sucks for me, I guess. But you are so much more important than me. You deserve happiness Ken. I'll always cheer for you from the sidelines. Thats a promise." Speaking so fast made Hides head spin, his mouth felt like the desert, his heart was hammering against his ribcage but his shoulders felt oddly lighter.

He had done it. He had confessed to his best friend. Looking at Kaneki finally Hide couldn't help but smile. He loved the half ghoul so much and now said half ghoul knew, no matter what that was a fact. And Kaneki deserved to know how loved he was. Always.

Kanekis heart was doing summer saults, stomach in a knot. This was plenty to take in. He felt tears well up in his eyes. Hide was in love with him. Kanekis vision got blurry, focused and got blurry again. He had to blink away tears.

"How long?" The half ghoul sounded alot more breathless than he intented. His throat closing in on him, overwhelmed by emotions.

Hide, as usual, understood him perfectly fine, even if Kaneki couldn't phrase a complete sentence. The blonde laughed airily.

"How long have I been in love with you? Honestly, forever maybe. I can't really pin point it- maybe since we were around 12ish. Thats when I clearly remember being aware of it. But maybe even earlier. Seriously, dude, hearing you talk about all the ladies you liked over the years really sucked. I am glad you found the right one tho- hey, man, why are you crying? Don't cry please, Neki. Shit."

Kaneki was a mess. Again. A slobbering, snotty, crying mess. Hide was by his side in seconds, hovering around him like a satellite. Not sure how much physical closeness Kaneki would allow him. It made Kaneki wail. Grabbing blindly for Hide he caught him by one hand and the collar of his red shirt. Kaneki pulled him close, buring his face in the crook of Hides neck.

"I- i'm so sorry!"

"Nah, man you're fine. Really."

"B-but weren't you h-hurting? Wh-why didn't y-you say.."

Using his free hand Hide took the risk and started to stroke it trough Kanekis hair, that used to always calm the crying boy down.

"Yeah, but it's alright, Neki. It's fine and nothing you should worry about. And well - I was scared to loose you, silly. You're my favourite person in the whole world after all."

After a few more minutes of sobbing and head petting, the mighty one eyed king seemed to have calmed down. Kaneki lifted his head of off Hides shoulder, hands still firmly grabbing the humans shirt, keeping him in place.

Glassy, puffy grey eyes were studying Hides face intently. The blonde gave a lopsided grin and wiggled his eyebrows. Acting like a dumb clown usually did the trick of getting out of too tense moments.

It only earned the human a shake of the head though.

"You're incredible. I- feel so stupid. How could I have never noticed? I only ever saw my problems and-.... Hide! I could never hate you! NEVER, you hear me? You are home to me. You always were. I- i don't deserve you. You're way to good for me. You could have anyone you want. W-why me?"

The blonde couldn't help but gently wipe away the tear rolling down Kanekis cheek. Hide smiled at his friend, eyes warm and sad.

"Because I just love you. I don't need a reason. But if you so desperatly need one-" Hide knelt down in front of the chair the half ghoul was perched on and took both of Kanekis hands into his.

"You're the most amazing and complex person I have ever met, Neki. You're so smart, witty, funny and gentle. You're loving, you try to see the good in everyone, you're forgiving. And you are so so incredibly strong. I love how your brow creases when you read a interesting passage of a book. I love how passionate you get when you talk about and totally nerd out about something you like. I love how groggy you are in the mornings. I love how eloquent you are with your words and how you always go out of your way to help others. I love the sound of your voice. I love the crinkles by your eyes when you laugh. I love when you smile at me. I love your eyes so much because they hold so many emotions. You are just beautiful. Everything." For a moment Hide was looking down at their hands, watching his thumbs stroke gentle circles on the paler skin.

"I know you think you are hard to love Kaneki. You aren't. Not to me. Never."

Kaneki was stunned. Eyes wide and breath coming hard. Never in his life had anyone used words like these to describe him. How Hide always knew exactly what to say was a mystery he could never figure out. Hides touch was burning holes into his icy hands. Kaneki couldn't stop his heart from beating so fast it almost hurt, bruising his chest with its force. He couldn't look away either, transfixed by the warm chocolate ones holding so much love.

The ghoul kings head was a mess. Too many thoughts to sift trough, to even make sense off. They were circling and coming so fast that most of them got interrupted by the next. One was persistent though, a mantra in the back of his head almost. What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?

He had been mulling over that kiss for the past week, couldn't even make it out of bed because Hide refused to go out of his way for once to aknowledge him and take care of him. Because Hide for once took time for himself to nurture his own wounds. And yet, Kaneki had made him come to him in the middle of the night. Wanted him to come to him. Made Hide practically spill his guts and lay it all out in the open. Kaneki needed to give Hide an answer. A conclusion. Something. Anything.

Acting more on autopilot than really thinking about his actions, which wasn't unusal for Kaneki in retrospect- the half ghoul retracted his hands from his friends in favor of fisting them tightly in Hides shirt and pulling the human up and up towards him.

Hide gasped, as his body was maneuvered by strength he couldn't imagine. He felt momentarily disorientated by the ghouls reaction. His heart had already been jumping out of his chest as he had spilled it all. Hide stretched out his arms in reflex, stabilizing himself by gripping the back of the chair his friend was sitting on. As all movement ceased Hide stared down at Kanekis pale hands. Said hands were shaking by the force they were gripping his shirt with, as if Ken was scared he would dissapear if he let go. The blonde lifted his gaze from the hands and ended up with Kanekis face only inches, barely even- he could feel the half ghouls breath on his face, away from his.

Everything stopped- his breathing, his heart, the world spinning, everything.

Kaneki had honestly no idea what he was doing. This close he could study Hides face- from the warm brown eyes and the long dark lashes framing them, the strands of blonde hair hanging slightly in Hides face since the human has been letting his hair grow, the spotting of freckles across his cheeks and between those thick brows. Hides tan skin, that looked so soft and Kaneki had always thought Hides skin color was so much prettier than his. In general his friends overall coloring had always been something Kaneki admired - Hide was all incompassing warmth, from his hair to his skin to those beautiful eyes. Hide was beautiful. Letting his grey eyes drift over his friends freckled nose and down to those soft pink lips. He could observe faint scaring but all the procedures the human had gone trough and modern technology had accomplished restoring Hides face almost completely. Kanekis eyes snapped back to those lips in an instant. Said lips had opened slightly and Kaneki could make out a slight tremble.

"You're really pretty, do you know that?" The half ghoul murmerd. Delighted he took in his humans stuttered breath and the lovely blush spreading across those delicate cheeks. The blonde numbly shook his head, no. Amused Kaneki smiled, removing one of his hands from Hides shirt, using it to gently trace the blondes jawline in fascination.

"I gotta be honest, I - i have never even considered this, you. I had no idea Hide, really. It never occured to me-"

Swallowing loudly the human shook his head again, "it's fine, Ken. I understand completely- you don't swing that way and that-"

Tightening the grip on the blondes jaw slightly and earning a adorable gasp, the ghoul king tskd.

"You don't get to decide that. I might actually very much swing that way. Also it's rude to interrupt someone while they're speaking. Now, what I had wanted to say was - it makes total sense. If I think about so many things in our past now, it makes perfect sense. Thank you, for everything really."

Hide went slightly slack jawed. He couldn't help but think that this was him witnessing more the demeanor of the one eyed king than bookworm Kaneki. It probably gave Ken confidence to speak more freely without shying away. Hide didn't dislike the whole situation, he actually liked it very much. He had to gain back his composure and control himself. Wait, what?

"Y- you MIGHT SWING THAT WAY? KANEKIII WHAT THE HELL-  What are you saying?! Do not play with me right now" The human had decided grabbing his friends shoulders and shaking him, while decidedly not controling himself was the best option.

Said friend, laughed an airy melodic and beautiful laugh, wrapping his hands around Hides wrist to stop the shaking.

"God, Hide don't yell at me! So loud. And stop shaking me, please." The grey eyed gave him a soft smile as the shaking came to a halt.

"And you heard what I said, Hide. I might swing that way, actually. I just had never considered it before." The half ghoul shrugged.

Hide was gaping at his friend. Opening and closing his mouth multiple times, the clever blonde tried to find the words. Swallowing the hope stupidly blossoming in his chest.

"Neki.. you gotta understand what you're implying here. You're practically saying you could possibly be into men- That's insane. Why would you think that? I mean why - don't say that stuff to me, if you don't mean it. And I am sure you don't actually mean it right now."

Kaneki decided to stop Hides rambling and to ease that inner turmoil, so clear by his furrowed brows and that desperation in his eyes. Resting their foreheads against each other Kaneki took a deep breath. Glanzing at Hides lips and back up at those warm eyes, the half ghoul offered a shy smile and whispered gently.

"Then tell me why I've been thinking about kissing you this whole time. And if I am being honest with myself for the last 7 days."

Every ounce of self control Hide had, left the building the exact moment Kaneki had whispered those words. Letting all the air in his lungs rush out Hide closed the little sacred space that had been left betweem their faces. It was a timid, gentle kiss. More a soft brush of lips than anything else. Too scared to cross another boundary Hide stopped himself from deepening the touch. It was all Hide had ever wanted but over to soon. About to pull away he tried to bask in the moment that had only lasted a few seconds.

A hand slid into the hair at the back of Hides head, a caress of his jaw line with a thumb and Hide was pulled back in. Lips colliding alot firmer than before and Hides head was spinning. A soft noise escaping his throat and his hands cupped soft cheeks. The kiss was still only lip on lip contact, nothing crazy but it lasted longer and still made Hide forget how to breath.

They pulled apart and he was staring into light grey eyes and realization struck. Hide pulled away like he had been burned, stumbling and falling onto the ground, landing on his butt with a pained oof. The half ghoul gasped and jumped up immediatly wanting to reach for the blonde.

"Oh god, Hide. Are you alright?" Concern was clearly laced into Kanekis words. Hide waved his concern away with his hand. Brown panicked eyes met grey worried once.

"Shit, what the hell. You're married! Oh no, Touka is gonna have my head. I am so dead. Shity fuckery fuck." Hide whined trough his hands, which he had decided to hide his face in.

And Kaneki, just laughed. Incredulous Hide glanced at the laughing form of his best friend trough his fingers. Kaneki was laughing so hard he was holding his stomach and needed to wipe some tears from his eyes. Hide just stared at the display in utter disbelief.

After seemingly having finished his laugh attack the ghoul king regarded Hide with a wide grin. In a speed way out of range for a human to react to, Kaneki had crawled over the floor and advanced onto Hide. Crawling onto his lap and looking rather triumphant the half ghoul giggled. Kaneki seemed to make up his mind and leaned down to nuzzle his nose against Hides.

"Relax, Touka knows. You're all I've been talking about for a week, of course she wanted to know what happened. She was surprisingly understanding. Told me I needed to figure this shit out, and that you are way to good for me. And whatever we come up with she's fine with it and supporting it. She's honestly so cool, I have no idea how I pulled her." He laughed, having set up again and looking down at Hide.

"But then again I seem to have a talent for pulling the most amazing people in the world it seems."

The half ghoul leaned down towards Hides face again, licking his lips. Hide followed the movement transfixed.

"Hide, can I kiss you again?" Ken asked breathily.

Hides heart was hammering against his chest, he swallowed, nodded.

And so Ken did. It was still rather timid. Exploring, curious touches of lips. Sliding against each other and gentle hands. Hide thought he was going to explode, even more so when Kaneki let out a soft satisfied noise. Pulling apart, they stayed close for a moment, breathing the same air. Kaneki set up again, chest heaving and flushed face.

"Dude, you're so hot." Hide blurted, mouth again faster than his brain. He slapped a hand over his mouth watching Kanekis blush deepen and his eyes going wide, breath speeding up even more.

Kaneki bit his lip, taking a breath with closed eyes. When he opens them again he looks calmer and more collected.

"Hide, I- i don't know exactly what this means. I just know I really don't want you to leave, ever. I want you close, all the time. I was so scared of losing you, it almost killed me. And- and I want to kiss you many more times. Over and over. You mean the world to me, Hide. I need you to believe me. I want to try this with you. I really do."

Kaneki looked so determined and serious, Hide thought it was down right adorable. It also made his heart stutter and his stomach fill with warmth, but that was besides the point.

"Look at me, kissing a married man. I never knew I was such a Player." Hide chuckled, wiggling his eyebrows.

Kaneki laughed, smacking Hides chest.

"Shut up." Ken groaned.

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6, 9, and 18 for blorbo asks

6 - if you could talk to your blorbo, what would you say to them?

hiii Kaneki I love you 💕 prettiest boy in the world

9 - describe your blorbo in 3 words

1: I love him

2: he my boy ❤️

18 - do you ship your blorbo with any character?

Not really, I’d look at content of him being with anyone if it was well made and had a good fleshed out dynamic, but I don’t ship him with any one particular character myself. I would ship him with Me but I find it hard to imagine us in a romantic relationship - I feel like the best I’d get with him realistically is maybe a little sibling dynamic? The problem with that though is that he’s just so hot all the time. Which makes it awkward. I think if I was able to be near him at all it’d be difficult since no amount of closeness would ever be enough, I’d want to literally live inside him and even then I don’t know if it’d be enough, which I can’t imagine him being a fan of even if he liked me initially. My main hook to get him in the first place is just going to him and trying to be honest about why I’m here and then offering him whatever information I’ve picked up through the manga, and just hoping he lets me sit in the group and follow him around like a roblox pet in return. Our dynamic is that I’m constantly fawning over him and autistically trying to impress him while he just carries on with his day bc he has more important stuff going on

Anyway to get back on topic some ships I have seen executed well with him include Shuuneki, Hidekane, Touken, Amoneki, Etoken, Kanekane, Rizekane, and Arthurneki (idk what the ship name is called I think it’s my mutual’s character and Kaneki) but if anyone has a new and unique character to ship with him I’m open to it, generally I prefer when he’s the toxic one in the relationship but it’s cool if it goes both ways

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I know the people asked for MutsUrie fluff but my brain decided only HideKane angst would do. I will update this as motivation strikes. Please feel free to read if you love tragic gay people 🫶