#hk;oc mess

[fly-sky-high-bug-games]

DAY 30: COMPANION

Nothing like having couple of friends by your side to face the most dreadful moments of your life~

[ashcoveredtraveler]

First drawing of the year and it's two of my OCs. A bit messy, but after writing something with them in it, I needed to draw them.

[mothsakura]

Grahhh... Ancient debates where the ancients debate different topics, they're all sitting around the fancy debate table. The best debater will get to debate with the council and if they win they have a chance of joining the council (but only if they're trustworthy and or higher class. Higher ranking council members are very picky with who joins the council 😢)

I love ancients augh I need more ancients lore I need to witness an ancient debate.

[squeakyclamart]

seeing a few people put up their submission to nosk party so thought I would show mine too for the shits n giggles . nosk grandma fucking it up!!!!!!

[bumblewish]

Just a bunch of uncolored, mostly low-effort doodles.

[ekholocationn]

we love introducing oc dynamics through meme posts in this household

moth character in the back (atum) belongs to my sister caranoelle ! she doesn't have a tumblr.... yet

[messerkampf]

height comparison sites I love you

[lithominium]

do you have any OCs or original species?

I have three main ocs!

the first one is John Reddington

He is like, 30 years old, a crow, and runs the galaxy's largest criminal empire. he uses this empire to help people and dismantle major corporations that run the galaxy. Hes a god with a revolver (specifically a Unica 6) and excellent at hand to hand combat. (obligatory overpowered OC moment) His parents were murdered when he was 12 and the man who killed them adopted him and made him into the crime god and excellent fighter he is today. after he found out how his parents died, he usurped his adoptive father, killed him, and then made his own empire to right the wrongs he made over the past decade or so.

The second one, is also my fursona (John used to be, before my transed gender) Her name is April Aviatrix.

shes a radio hobbyist who went to college for electrical engineering (ref is outdated). In the universe where my oc's are set, radio is kinda really outdated, and music overall has become boring (think Human music from rick and morty [god forgive i mention it]) and one day, while messing around with radios in the spaceship equivalent of a ford pinto, she intercepted a signal that was playing music she had never heard before (70's progressive rock) and decided to track down where it was coming from, to find a post apocalyptic Earth, where all humans are dead. She found the source of the signal, which is a massive radio beacon, attached to a half destroyed museum of music, which had all kinds of instruments, and gear, and a massive collection of music made by human beings on massive amounts of hard drives. She took all of the music into her futuristic thumbdrive, including schematics for synths, guitar amps, guitar pickups, pianos, etc. just anything and everything that the museum had on its barely functioning computers. she was able to turn all of this stuff into workable stuff, and taught herself guitar and other instruments, and performs in a local bar every once in a while, that she works as a bartender at (the electrical engineering degree didn't do much). anyways eventually (i ahve no idea how) she ends up meeting John Reddington, going "join my emo band (rush cover band)" and he ends up being absolutely Phenomenal on a drumkit. and she ends up second in command in the empire, as her electrical engineering knowledge is extremely helpful, alongside her being the only genuine connection to another person John's had since he was 12. She uses an HK-USP-S

the last one is Vincent, which. Hes kinda in limbo right now. He used to be a seagull:

and that was pretty neat i think, but i stopped really caring about him as much once i transitioned. Hes supposed to be a bluejay now, but i haven't drawn it, and he plays bass (specifically a Thunderbird). He doesn't really have much of a personality anymore, as that job's been taken over by April. He does wield a fucked up sword that looks like a lawnmower blade.

I have ideas for others, like a rwby oc specifically who has bands around her arms that can turn into swords (think Finn's grass sword, only not hold able, and more attached at the back of the hand like the pacific rim sword) or gauntlets or be used for mobility. Shes neat. Still thinking about a semblance for her though.

[the-4l73rn4t1v3]

You know I never got to introduce myself really so I'm gonna do that now

My name's Alternative [ Or Alt ]

I am non-binary and go by They - Them [ He/Him is fine though so dw if ya mess up :) ]

I am a big fan of games/fandoms such as Doors, JSAB, TBOI, HK, Project Arythmia, Bugsnax, Trollge(a little bit), Alan Beckers A.V.A / A.V.M, Minecraft, a little bit of GD, and as of recently, Pizza Tower!

There's other fandoms I'm into aswell but then I'd be going on forever

I don't have any real triggers of sorts, just don't be mean to me or anyone that reposts my stuff and we'll be cool

I do mostly creat doors type things here but I'll also at times just repost a few things and create drawings of my own OC's and representation of myself!!

I can't really draw alot of animal related things just yet as well as big things of armor or just anything complex in general but if the time comes I'll do my best!

That's all I really have to say about me so just enjoy what my Roblox fella looks like aswell as what I represent myself as

[void-rainbow]

Thoughts I'm self-conscious about

Hollow Knight makes me think about gender a lot

--and this isn't really about Hollow Knight but y'know it's my obsession, so, talking about things through this lens XD

Gender is in the game a lot so just. Yeah. I dunno. Keeps coming to my mind. Or me trying to write characters/make ocs, and having to decide on how they feel about gender/pronouns....

And. I keep enjoying looking at things about gender. Via the game I guess. I dunno. Like all the things with the vessels or other characters. People often creating nice hk things concerning gender. Like there was a whole hk gender zine.

Sometimes that just happens with identities that don't have to do with you. Sometimes, I love seeing things with people loving themselves. Such things are beautiful. I wish everyone had room in the world to love themselves, and we can celebrate with each other our various categories/identities

I dunno, it's just. A lot more than I expected with hk. Not like I haven't enjoyed things with nb characters before. And many of my friends/family are nb

Anyway, I made a post with this stuff before. It's still been on my mind. Since it's a weird feeling to me to think on gender so much. The kind of thing that you would expect others would say it would mean something about yourself

I dunno

But what I was thinking today was about something I found. I think. 9 years ago.

I've struggled with mental health stuff for a long time and it messes up everything about my sense of self. Often just feeling like much of me is lost, hidden, inaccessible. Hard to even feel like I exist as a person sometimes

I found once people talking on tumblr about gender being influenced by mental illness. Like various identities for this

I mentioned it to my friend/roommate. Though she immediately shot it down. Saying I was too feminine

I wasn't trying to say it was me, this identity

but

I don't know

in some way

maybe I was a little bit

...

Also was annoyed at the feminine part. Since such things are so arbitrary. Even if there are several things about me that could fall under feminine

Anyway, I guess I didn't think too much further on it. Not sure how much was due to this interaction. But also I've found that sometimes thinking about gender too much is difficult

When your identity is in shambles and it feels easy to feel confused or ungrounded. And a lot of my memories are messed up and it feels like nothing about myself is based off of trustworthy information. For things I've forgotten, or maybe I remember them but they feel so alien to me it's like secondhand information and feels untrustworthy. I dunno I just at some point tried to stop dwelling on it and ignoring those feelings. It was horrible at first. But after years and years and years I couldn't stay shocked forever, couldn't keep up a distressed feeling forever, and it just falls to numbness. It's not good. It's not like it went away. But I learned to.....not even function, but. Sure. "Function". And some of that is coping strategies to try to avoid feeling ungrounded and confused

So even if many things in my memory are fuzzy or I can only remember them sometimes or they feel weird and untrustworthy I just try to take them as true anyway. Like building a fake identity on top of nothingness. Because I have to have something. It's too agonizing to have nothing. Too disorienting

Gender is just one of those things. Like some kind of lode-bearing pillar of fake identity I need to not destabilize everything and feel disoriented and confused

Thinking about gender too long in a personal capacity tends to destabilize things. I start to feel really uncomfortable and possibly distressed, that my mind's going to fall apart. It does fall apart somewhat if I think on it long enough

But yeah I keep thinking about gender when it comes to hk. And I've felt bad some days. Thankfully most of the time not

Just makes me wonder again and again why I want to look at so many things as if they make me personally happy. People being excited about all the nb characters

I dunno maybe it's all of these beings of void, assumed to be empty. Maybe that resonates with me on multiple levels

And Collector out there being a weirdo, which I already know I write to let out feelings about my own mental illness

Still feel weird writing all this out

Weird, fake, bad, thinking too much about things that aren't for me

And I remain a person very weak to shame

I dunno. Just trying to look things up again today. The term I still remember since I head about it in 2014, cloudgender

Which I guess most things coming up for it in tags now is gender relating to clouds which is. Not what I'm looking for

But a little bit about it being related to dp/dr, which is a narrower definition than I remembered. Mm

I dunno I feel like it used to be easier to search for lgbt+ stuff on tumblr and get real content other than vague multi-identity positivity posts and flags, as if that's all you need to know. Just a bit frustrated hoping to find the kinds of things that people actually say about it. Real discussions. I can only assume there's too much algorithm or something out there now. Either that or people stopped having extended conversations on tumblr I dunno

Or maybe since I was previously a sorta. Ace/sj blogger. As was easy to just become on tumblr. Glad to not be anymore, but I saw a lot of great discussion and sometimes I miss the feeling of community. Probably put me in position to see a lot of things about other identities

I dunno. Looking for neurogender is sadly not giving much better results

But anyway

I don't really know what I'm saying with all this except to

to

feel held back by shame in even saying that maybe there's something meaningful to be found in looking up more

[purpleisnotacolor]

OC dump in chronological order!

character info: "Cutout" is an AI computer virus that deletes code from other programs, and is in a gang of other computer viruses. to keep her from manipulating things beyond destroying them, she has no arms, however her tail is prehensile.

her home setting is "The Central Network" by EncrypredOS, basically Osmosis Jones with computers.

first ever drawing of "Cutout" not the best quality but I got the motion and character to come off pretty well.

A messy doodle of her before she lost her arms. the proportions are not accurate to the character I was going for, but I fixed the tail knife to a better shape.

in this version, the anatomy is getting clearer. she's more humanoid that the original but not as much as the second. I know now I want to give her humanoid shoulders to emphasize that she used to have arms.

this isn't 100% my art. the Original was made by EcryptedOS on Deviantart. I specifically wanted Cutout to be part of Noverg's gang (the big four-armed fiery guy). the marks on her hip are brands the higher members of the gang have.

an Icon I made of her. I originally planned to use it as my avatar on DA, but it appeared too small to adequately see the details.

I made a GIF of her dancing around with another OC, but tumblr can't fit it.

I made a conceptual version of her in the style of "Hollow Knight". I liked her character so much I wanted to make alternate versions of her. I knew the rules for making any version of her where that she at least shouldn't have arms, and some alternative way of moving things.

and here's the HK version completed! I decided the way she lost her arms in this version was to the infection (HK lore sorry if you don't know it)

this one was just fun messing around with the Firealpaca watercolor brush.

this is a contest prize/fanart by @tubesann on Deviantart. there are design features I liked, but some that didn't work well for the character, which inspired me to re-redesign her!

for starters, the yellow scars looked cool, but they light gray was already her natural scar color. but it was really cool, so I thought I'd make her "bleed" yellow pixels. I also added a yellow gradient to her spikes

she's very sensitive of her scars, so she usually covers them. so while I did include the lovely neck scar, I gave her a band to cover it. she wears the gray covers to make the brands she has to display more ambiguous.

that's pretty much all

+ here's a version of her without the yellow gradient, closer to the original. I like how it's less cluttered, so for now I'll just say they change color.

her body shape is much clearer now! human shoulders but a gray-hound esque chest.

and on the note of making different versions of her, I made this Picew a while ago to get the feel for a human version (color corrected to fit her better)

[miscellaneous--bones]

shows everyone this oc i made n folks love her and then 2 minutes later come out with new ocs that im even more obsessed with like haha sike sorry. i was gonna wait until i had more drawings of howl but ive already been sittin on em a couple days so yk

anyway these are what came from that doodle page mess from a minute ago, goose was the first but i needed an oc who would work to be shipped w snatcher so then i made howl and decided there were 5 of them. they're supposed to be mostly borzoi/italian greyhound mixes? idk. either way they run on ahit rules but i might use em in other places too idk yet. Summary of their characters are below the cut

so they're a litter of 5 and no one is keeping track of whose oldest or youngest or whatever

unusual i know but i also cant figure out where i want them to be anyway so shut ur face

we'll just go left to right from the top

somewhere on her travels goose ran into hk and bow and was worried about these strange children being alone in space so she decided to come with them and like they arent gonna complain about their new dog

shes not the best with other people but she takes good care of them both and keeps them protected and fed and whatnot.

it works its cute

shes the only one who has a collar because shes the only one who has a person out of her siblings

nk n then howl! howls got a lot going on

they got a fairly dinky ship when they left it was sturdy enough but like not Good good yk

and at some point way before hattie and bow and goose end up there, they pass over harbor because theyre tryna figure out if they wanna stop for a supply run or not and the mafia shows up n makes trouble ofc

she gets the mafia to leave her alone but in the process ends up crash landing somewhere near subcon (not sure if its like in the woods or just off the borders but close enough either way)

in the crash tho, a bunch of time pieces shatter n get fucked up and end up scattered across time

she has to go through and try to clean all THAT up because plain n simple those things are hard to get and just leaving a jumbled mess like that it Very Not Safe

in this whole debacle her family dont know whats happened and the ship is kind of undocumented because the crash basically happened forever ago but also it hasnt yet but also it never did?? so like. shes missing for a good decade before shes finally back to her present (by this time hat n bow have come n gone so she missed goose anyway)

while she was going through time collecting time peices, she got in whole heeps of trouble and while its only been 10 years in her present it feels like its been at least 50

shes gotten acused of witchcraft, cursed about 5 times over, there was that one time she was thrown in a dungeon for 7 years for disrespecting a king or something

point is they came back fucked up

they're half undead and their soul is a little bit missing because someone stole it at some point and they only barely got it back a little bit. also cursed to be tied to shadows so being in the sun too long isnt very good for them.

ive also been playing with the idea they were cursed to live either other people's spirits and energies OR their flesh. not sure which yet

i do feel like it'd be nice if they and snatcher could end out with a deal where he eats the souls and she eats the bodies. or something

this whole change of theirs is supposed to be shown by them loosing their white on their face. theyre the one laying down in the last drawings which is supposed to be them while their in college years and shes got her white face. she looses it when she gets all tied up in the darkness thing. she also gets taller than her siblings they were the shortest originally

neway im till daydreaming abt the whole thing so yk

the other siblings are less important but still cute

duke is also an astronaut but his explorations tend to go better apparently. he comes home with a cute alien boyfriend later

paris owns a boutique that brandy helps her out with- they stayed on their home planet together with their parents when the others went to space.

speaking of, brandy is rlly nice

aside from her different markings which always set her apart real nice shes also trans. so grew up a little bit othered but still very very loved and also her and paris are besties obvi

brandy is good i like her a lot. i think shes be like second eldest if not eldest eldest if i had a real order there

her and howl bond over having different markings from the otherwise when howl finally gets home :)

[a-trying-writer]

rick boston, an old oc of mine that ive been thinking about. related to another oc, xio, but not by blood. also talking about other stuff.

its funny to me how some of my favorite characters tend to be mid-aged men, and i think there might be a psychological thing going on there, daddy issues being the biggest thing. anyway that aside, i got to thinking about him again

rick’s main story is focused on how he works as an individual, guilty with dealing with immoral and unethical experiments on human body. one of the biggest ones is xio, when she was a young child and got caught into a car accident and lost her own father. being a father himself, but divorced because he was forced to choose work over family, seeing xio in critical condition broke his heart. what’s worse was how he was the one chosen to use a highly volatile product to use on her, to see how it would go. either she becomes an abomination, or gets to live a perfectly normal life, with the gift of being able to heal incredibly fast and doesnt have to worry about health, at least physically. mental is a whole different mess.

with all this said, its easy to see that my main inspiration was resi evil, and how they go about things there. but before all this happened, the story, and the characters, took place in a post apocalyptic world, where people have become mutated, rick and xio esp. and there was a third person that was supposed to be more buddy buddy with xio, that turned into max later on in the current version.

i just keep thinking about how much fun rick is to write about, and how i wrote from ricky to r-cter, with how they have somewhat similar themes, but are complete opposites. now, after all my sr--hk focused stories, if i went back to rick, i think i can get his character down better and differently. he will always be a kind, gentle man, but will fight for his life with no hesitation, and deeply cares about xio like his own daughter. he is also a very tired, heavy smoker as he always was, with grey streaks in his brown hair.

he definitely would have a dad bod too. ha~!

but all that aside, for real, i do miss rick. he was a fun character to write, and his familiar relationship with xio always made me smile. xio struggled a lot in her own story, finding a world of magic literally, and fell in love, but lost it, its a whole thing in of itself, and how they still connect despite it all.

and if i were to go back to those stories, ill definitely explore rick, and potentially another character’s, max, for fun. the story will be so bad and so dumb, but i want to have fun writing these stories. i like stupid dumb stories that are just fun to write. thats what creating means to me.

but i will not forget some of my fanfics tho. i got a hh one still as a wip. got the ideas, just need to find the right words. hard to do that without having a, what r-cter would call, sounding board. but i mostly prefer to do it with those that understand my incoherent and dumb thoughts, that im close to, and can give me ideas and a different perspective. eldricth horror is new to me, but honestly, i also really love monsters. they are so cool~!

[fly-sky-high-scug-game]

The urge to write a drabble and check how I want to interpret MHOS but indecisive whether I should mess with canon characters of just make more OCs

One thing I learned from HK experience is that I can make my own canons and have as much freedom as the world gives me if I just make my own characters

But there is always that tiny fun idea of seeing OCs interact with canon that's always snuffed out of worry or fear I'll make it too much out of character (even tho I know that shouldn't stop me lol)

[jimilter]

Hey nim i am having a mental breakdown here🥲TD&HK !!! This fic is making me go insane 💔 i am so freaking frustrated cuz they both think that there is nothing b/w them except lust ..both are in denial that they would want each other to be more than a fuck but i guess i feel where oc is coming from jk has never truly shown any signs of love or affection towards her and his image of being a heartless chaebol who fucks around isnot doing anything good. So oc has this image of him engraved in her mind ..This did came as a shock to me that he has feelings for HER!!!😳 I feel like this misunderstanding b/w them (like jk feeling oc will never accept him for who he is) and (oc feeling that jk could never love someone) will become the path to their tragic end 😶 guess i have to accept that this annoying but endearing couple will not have their happily ever after :) ..cuz even if they confess their feelings to each other they would still need a lot of time to build trust and endless love b/w them which i guess oc will have a hard time with considering the image of jk and jk will need that too considering the insecurity he has that she will never look at him like a lover does ☺️

hello, anon, lemme join u in your breakdown 😭

your analysis is so good and pretty much spot on!!! they're both too scared to confess bec they aren't really sure if the other person feels the same which is an absolute mess of a situation :(

his image of being a heartless chaebol who fucks around isnot doing anything good

^ yes!!! exactly! man's spent a lot of time wrecking shit up and, in fact, oc has been there to clean up after him while she was made to take him under her wing in his initial days at the company. after witnessing all that from so close, she's def gonna need reassurance of his feelings.

but also - she has seen him grow and change from really up close as well. he's still a pain in her ass, but they have been exclusive in their physical relationship and he hasn't made her regret showing him her vulnerable side, so far. so he does have some brownie points in his bags - but if he withdraws from her now, they will probably all be moot :(

cuz even if they confess their feelings to each other they would still need a lot of time to build trust and endless love b/w them

^ yes, they absolutely will! they will need to communicate w each other honestly and openly and give each other a true chance if they really want to build a stable future together.

oc has never had a lot of ppl in her life - while jk is the literal opposite, w entirely too many ppl in his life. that fact also makes their dynamic a lil wonky, i guess :( he's a people person, and tho she isn't an introvert herself, trusting and opening up to people doesn't come as easy to her. yet, she has grown to trust him more in their time spent together, so maybe it'll be for good?

hehe, you'll have to wait and see what happens. there is sure to be a hell lot of angst bec there's a lot to unpack between them - but i won't go as far as to say that they cannot have a happy ending. they need to work on stuff and then we'll see how it turns out for them!

thank you so much for reading this series and sending me your honest opinions and theories, dearest reader! love you loads. 🥺❤❤❤

[aueua]

unioners™ vessel (cardboard, right): @mushrium !