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al-luviec · 2 months

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juvie buddies

#alek art #td duncan #td mal #total drama #total drama all stars #(if i want to get technical)#2024 #duncan is around 15 here... mal is around 16 #ive thought really hard about them these past few days . in my brain they actually knew each other and canon is different #duncan and mike got along really well. in juvie mal refused to speak to anyone about anything and would fight as many people as he could .#he wanted to stay in there and far away from home . they get roomed together and duncan is the first person who mal can talk to . he isnt #scared of him . he relates to him a lot . like -> wow we both act out for attention and people think we are terrible because of it #duncan being a mentally ill teenager seeing mal an also very mentally ill teenager thought 'i can fix him' . mike and duncan speak too here #i cant really see anyone else fronting besides those two . their brain was on lockdown and mike wanted out so bad . i see manitoba as a #gatekeeper so hed handle some sessions with their psych. i want to say they (duncan and mike) get moved to a psyche ward just because #i have more knowledge on being in one and how it goes ... but yeah i like duncan mal a lot . this art isnt ship whatsoever though 🙏 i dont #see them as a couple their dynamic is just better as friends imo #but anyways in all stars they obviously recognize each other but have an unspoken agreement not to say anything abt it #duncan is a known criminal but mike isnt like that . mike hadnt even told zoey about that part of his life . so duncan wanted to respect his #privacy -> then mal starts hurting people and he has to step in . mal isnt a good person by any means but i dont think he was that bad in #juvie . so duncan had to come to terms that his friend wasnt the same person he was years ago (in all stars duncan is ~18 and i think mike #is almost 20... so it had been a while since they last talked)#them getting each other like no other and being in pain because they couldnt really speak . i see them having a conversation still in moon #madness abt their past and history . god i just think abt them and their wasted potential wdym mike and duncan were in juvie together #duncan was in for trespassing or destruction of private property or something really dumb . mal fought his parent(s) and got in for assault #mal was already in when duncan was placed . and duncan was let out early on good behavior + his parents (dad) mostly did it to teach him a #lesson . wrong of them or otherwise . so mal was just kinda stuck there until they realized he was actually not right in the head . think he #knew abt their DID but was only diagnosed in juvie and had to go from there . tbh he shouldve been tried as an adult but td logic . doesnt #matter dw guys . mike gets the 'was put on random meds that made him go braindead' treatment bc that was me . post mental hospital abilify #had me messed up

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acoraxia · 5 days

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‘Erlang’s coming to LMK!’

#Black myrh did his character nicely #lmk will ruin him and i dont want to think about that LMAO #i mean congrats to the ppl excited about it #but they couldnt even handle properly writing macaque without showing bias towards his character #SCRATCH THAT #they couldnt even write WUKONG properly #Wukong is literally a parallel to Erlang #he’s the Red Hood to his Batman or something #and everyones going to think theyre gay or smthing instead of thiking about the fact swk almost beat his ass #anyway #comeback kid #GRANTED this is my opinion so you can ignore me #im just sitting here

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ratatatastic · 1 month

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"Aaron, when you almost fell on the ice with the Stanley Cup—" "Oh, Jesus..." "It's s—o stupid..." "—I mean. Yo, and it would've been okay, man! Like, you know what? You'd be like, 'Oh! He's one of us!' you know? Did you catch yourself? Did you feel yourself slipping a little bit? I think it's kind-of heavy, right?" "My theory is: that I stepped on, like—one of those confettis, maybe? That fall from the sky. That's my theory. 'Cuz it was just a little slide then I turn and I was fine. Did you see Barky almost fell on the TV camera cord as well? Did you see that?" "Oh, shit." "Yeah, there's so much stuff on the ice..." "It was right after he took it from Gary [Bettman] and he put it up and he—Well, I mean he didn't fall. He didn't come anywhere close to falling 'cuz he's Jesus on the ice... on those edges he's incredible..."

The Cam & Strick Podcast | 7.30.24 (x)

nothing delights me more than ekky getting ribbed for being clumsy and instead of just taking it he has to drag sasha down with him XD like oh? i almost fell WELL DID YOU SEE BARKY—girl PIPE DOWN THIS IS ABOUT YOU BABY. BARKY AINT GOT NOTHIN TO DO WITH THIS.

every angle (x)(x) of the almost ekky spill is so funny man and i love to embarrass this man SO FOR THE FOLKS AT HOME ROLL THE CLIP

i think its soooo funny when he says my theory is the confetti sabotaged me 🤓👌 because if you look at the footage

GIRL WHERE. just admit your ankle got weirdly bendy and screeched in after a hard game it happens to the best of us man

also him throwing sasha under the bus especially because i was like huh? sasha almost tripped over a cord? i definitely wouldve noticed that TRUST ME so i looked at the footage to see what he was talking about....

"did you see barky almost fell on the tv camera cord?" (x)

"did you see that?" yeah. did you. did you see the way he didnt not even move at all when he went past it yeah YEAH (x)

me when i lie and want an excuse to not be the only guy thrown under the bus so i bring up a completely nonconsequential annecdote so i can change the narrative of being the only clumsy guy on the ice despite the fact i very much am, and other such things

"hes jesus on the ice" and other normal things to say about your captain while you smile sweetly and reminisce upon him and his amazing skating abilities

#aaron ekblad #aleksander barkov #florida panthers #i love confronting ekky with his most embarrassing moments #and i think being one of the only guys to almost eat shit with the cup is SO EMBARRASSING #but baby couldnt handle being the only guy to get teased about it he has to involve sasha LMAOOOO #but also him quickly admitting sasha didnt fall at all too #FOLDED SO QUICK HUH #COULDNT EVEN STICK TO YOUR GUNS WHEN YOU THOUGHT ABOUT IT FOR A SECOND LONGER HUH #the lady doth protests too much #its okay he redeems himself by complimenting sasha in such a fashion i just stared at my kitchen tiles for a good minute there #“he didnt come anywhere close to falling cuz hes jesus on the ice... on those edges hes incredible...” is a quote and a half for sure #hey man do you like need a few minutes alone or sumn?#bud you can go take care of that #(insert the tails get trolled meme)#everyday im subjected to the utter insanity that comes out of ekkys mouth and i have to continue living my life like nothing happened #may god help us all #feeling very normal about your captain #sasha love clubs standing chairman

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whipitgod · 4 months

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self love is when i cut up fruit for myself like my grandmother used to.

#i remember watching her slice apples and peaches #handling the fruit with a tender strength #never bruising the flesh like i would with my eager hands #she was stronger than me but her hands were gentle in ways that i couldnt fathom #the same gentle hands that washed my hair in the kitchen sink #held fruit with the same level of care that she held my head with #everytime i would try and slice the fruit myself i was overzealous #the juice spilling between my fingers because i didnt understand that my excitement could be violent #something about the kindness in her hands as she held the fruit felt religious #i went to church almost everyday and stared up at the crucifix #but something about the sound of birds coming through the open windows #as she poured all of her love into a bowl of apple slices for me #felt infinitely holier than anything that could happen in a church #she told me that one day i would be strong enough to do it myself #i didnt understand what she meant until i was older #you cant be gentle if you arent strong enough to be violent #poetry #writing #writers on tumblr #prose #thoughts #religion #religious trauma #writing poetry #fandom #poetry fragments #poetry forms #poetry for women #women #religious guilt

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nitw · 3 months

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sydney showed me how to make a full party of custom characters in bg3 yesterday i feel so fucking powerful

#leo.txt #the process SUCKS btw but it's doable. if your pc can handle it JHFBHJFDGBD #mine almost couldnt #bg3 #i think this is how 4 halfling barbarians was made

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quasieli · 4 months

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To the person who saved my disabled ass from heat stroke today at St Cloud pride with electrolytes and gum; thank you, I love you, happy pride ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

#Eli Speaks #pride was so nice but my disabled north east ass cant handle this heat #almost passed out like 3 times 🙃#but the people of st cloud are a gdsend and saved me today #pride is healing #and so is gatorade 😅#and im sad i couldnt find this one person again #but if youre the one who saved the yartzing queer at the OYA booth that was me 😅#and im so grateful 💙💙💙

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tamagotchikgs · 3 months

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last night i was poking around in my mouth as u do and i reached back where i had always felt this hard thing w my tongue for awhile now but was like ah maybe it's just like. my gums being inflamed in the back or smthn BUT,, no i poked that thing with my fingernail n it is a tooth that is a whole ass wisdom tooth

#NO WONDER... MY JAW IS IN PAIN ALMOST ALL THE TIME.... HUH..#i wonder if that period where i literally couldnt move my jaw from the pain for like a week was when it was emerging #otherwise the pain is like not awful. not bad enough it's noticeable u know im used to it i have so many aches n pains in my body naturally #like my entire head has a constant ache. if u touch my cheekbones ill drop my head like a cat into ur hand dude it is .#it's like the most relieving ache . like u have just lifted a massive weight off my shoulders. and it's been that way since i was a kid #i think i googled if thats what it was before n they were like no if it were your wisdom tooth youd know :) it would hurt u so bad #which i despise btw because this means nothing to me BHJAH.... like they said the same thing when i broke my foot the nurse that did intake #i was a kid & she was like dont worry if it were broken youd know and you wouldnt have walked in here on it ... fellas . it was broken #& i could never see anything when i looked in the mirror #but it's just because it's slightly covered by like swollen gums back there which i always thought was just because i chewed too hard #but.#no i guess it;s because something was erupting like an alien #i used my lil pokey tool to squish em out of the way and i can see it #it's so weird just having a tooth u know u shouldnt #like i . i want to just grab it i want to just hold it in my hand #why does it have to be so securely in place whihc is something i wouldnt never say for my other teeth HJBA #i am not going 2 have it removed any time soon im .#i have wanted to go to the dentist my whole life but i am too scared #esp w the damage from my ed and depression im so embarrassed #i honestly want to though #there is nothing that would make me feel more like an actual person then to just. get a cleaning #get my maintenance done LMAO #i do my best at home but u kno #i use an electric spinning toothbrush i floss i use mouthwash i do it all 2 try n handle what damage there already is #but it still would do wonders for my mental health and oral health #apparently partial impactions which is what i have can be really bad n get infected so . aha...h. 👍:).. ..h.

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lostandbackagain · 7 months

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you guys ever wake up evil

#im a little better now but i probably could have killed this morning tbh #my dog woke me up four times last night #i got up and my brothers had trashed the bathrooms so they desperately needed done before i left for work #i picked up my water bottle and the lid wasnt screwed on??? so it dumped everywhere #my dog couldnt wait for me to handle the water spill and peed on the floor #the trash bag i was carrying out broke #was about to pull out of the driveway and realized i left my phone in my room #and i was gonna have my tomato soup i didnt get to have Saturday today for lunch #and for some godforsaken reason there was bacon in it #what the FUCK #i have never had a 'woke up on the wrong side of the bed' day quite like this #and immediately upon clocking in got a call from some lady whose son's truck had been hit and she was just screaming at me #bc SHE had to file a claim and i couldnt for her #i almost lost my job bc of her (was gonna tell her to khs then go home) (only barely held it together)#if i hadnt just bought a doll yesterday i would be buying a doll rn to make life worth living #and i left said doll at home!!! i want her to be in my car so i can stare at her!!!#EVILEVILEVILEVULEVUL #says kenna

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jennilah · 5 months

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I think you're in the right to have a rant! It's shitty how undervalued CGI is as an art form. You do amazing work. I'm absolutely blown away by what was shown on your 2023 reel.

oh thanks! like, its not about what should be used, you can go argue with the director and producers about that. its not about whats better, either- the entire video series details all of that already, Im not going to repeat it. i implore you, they are very good and worth watching.

but people really do learn something was CGI and its on-sight. the only department on a movie that i can think of where the hip cool thing is to tear it apart simply because it exists

even if the effects are done well- they see Godzilla and know its CG and therefore its just bad and will never be as good as the movies with the rubber suits. those ones had heart, you know (you know, the ones that people called corny and stupid and juvenile for decades but now have rose tinted glasses for? You see what Im getting at..?)

i forgot to link it, but this is an oldie but a goodie. This video ran so Jonas' video essay series can SPRINT.

(However I think they both make different points. This one is about how the public tends to turn a blind eye to iffy and aged VFX when its a truly excellent film with a great story, just as you do with movies with bad practical effects. Jonas' series is more about the current trend of completely erasing and minimizing VFX workers' work because its now being treated like a dirty shameful secret and how its creating a very, very bad feedback loop for everyone- both the audience and artists)

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#not to mention im a little more defensive right now as both myself and thousands of others are without jobs #because of the strikes and now the looming threat of AI #so my patience is a little thin but i promise i wouldnt do this if i couldnt handle it. so thousands of people hate my work? nothing new #ive been doin this for almost 7 years now im not gonna hear anything new said about “cgi” that i havent heard already #but this recent trend of saying theres NO cgi hurts in a very unique way that is almost worse at times. again see the videos #just speaking on the 1 subject i know about and trying. TRYING to get us a little more respect around here #jennilargh #jenna answers #im just saying. i saw 1 person saying that the eyeball that was on screen for 2 seconds in Saw X took them entirely out of the experience #and i just think thats so dramatic im sorry. try to not be SO bothered by cgi my goodness. my goodness... it wasnt even bad #and thats one of many incidents of people just being so overboard with the cgi hate

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macaroni-rascal · 10 months

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i dislike my period so much, someone come hysterectomy me for the love of god

#its so stupid #i will never get pregnant #take it out of me #my appetite is either i need to eat it all OR i cant even stomach food #i woke up almost 6 hours ago and i only just ate a small amount of food right now #because i couldnt handle food #and now i feel kinda gross cause i ate #HATE IT

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kuwupikaa · 6 months

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Just watched appa's lost days for the first time ever

#Im not kidding I cried so hard I couldnt breath #that was so sad. fuck.#and he went back to the air temple to look for aang cuz thats what he knows😭💔💔#I can't handle sad animals appa didnt understand what was happening to him and he was scared and alone and wagh😭😭😭#I'm crying again.#AND THAT FUCKING BITCH IN THE END. appa was almost with aang ALMOST and he got captured again godddd I hate it here #my post #atla

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maddestmewmew · 2 years

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"folkpunk is so #goblincore #trashcore its all grimy grody men with slimy guitars" cool. actually i think this genre mostly populated by poor, poc, and/or queer people shouldnt be associated with. grossness. actually.

#as someone who grew up poor and queer i need rich white queers to kindly fucking Stop please?#i love folk punk. i love how. real it feels compared to other genres.#and id . really appreciate it if people stopped treating it like a silly funny life to be in.#most folk punk or midwest emo or whatever you wanna call it is very clearly about growing up with a Struggle.#most songs youll find in the genre are about struggles with mental health #growing up poor facing abuse facing homo/transphobia #the hardships you face being a minority #and . i dunno. the people calling it like . gross and grimy feels. really. bad #when i was little id write songs. in my rat infested almost condemed house. i struggled a lot with duh being poor i was young and autistic #i was a lesbian and i struggled with it. i was expieriencing delusions bc i couldnt handle my reality. i was being abused and neglected.#and music and poetry were my outlets. and i dunno. imagining myself look that little girl in the eye and telling her shes gross. shes grimy #and stinky shes a little trash goblin what the fuck ever. that kind of genuinely makes my skin crawl.

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potato-an0n · 8 months

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Istg, ppl say they want complex characters (esp complex female characters) and wen they get them, suddenly they’re boiled down to only their “negative”/ problematic traits (ESP WITH FEMALE CHARACTERS!!!!)

Also, do ppl know tht in order for stories and characters to grow…..they are flawed in the beginning 😀 right? 😀

Anyways, i found this sc buried in my phone

Also, kinda funny how ppl will defend tf out of complex/ morally gray male characters and make detailed analysis abt their character arcs and what they represent in the real world yet, shit on female characters who are also morally complex and overuse the terms “bad writing” bc some of yall read with your headcanons, not your actual eyes and it shows, even wen yall make your headcanons of ur fav characters.

#being fr #i am ESPECIALLY looking at the pjo fan base #ppl hella complain abt piper and im even more curious abt her #yet there are ppl who say they can understand luke’s character #and even nico (as much as i love the guy)#or moving to a dif fan base ppl saying they have a deep understanding of eren’s character #YET ARE COMPLAINING ABT PRINCESS BUBBLEGUM DONT GET ME STARTED #and i find it funny too tht there ppl saying marceline deserves better wen she was just as toxic too #srsly did yall not watch obsidian #or tht ep wen they went to hunt varments together #OH DONT GET ME STARTED ON FUCKING MY LITTLE PONY #like i saw a twt saying the mane 6 is the most toxic friendgroup #WEN THE WHOLE SHOW IS ABT MAINTAINING FRIENDSHIPS W/ DIF PPL #THEY MADE A WHOLE ASS EPISODE ABT IT TOO #we’re not flawless🎶we’re a work in progress🎶#sorry got a little heated there #OMG I ALMOST FORGOT ABT HOW YALL TREATED AMITY #like some of yall couldnt handle amity

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bobendsneyder64 · 10 months

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I fucking feel like a walking virus

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rivaiin · 1 year

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i finally sold my old tablet that i didnt use anymore and got 85€ for it so guess who has money to get armored core now. hehe

#yes yes i know what ive said about fromsoft games in the past but listen #i eventually settled into trying out sekiro and it was instant love it just clicked for me and i was honestly having the time of my life #until i got to ashina castle and my pc #that doesnt have working gpu drivers cause windows decided to install the generic ones over my good amd ones (i cant fix it ive tried)#just couldnt handle the new area or something idk #i started getting massive frame drops that made the game almost unplayable #and then the controller i use on my pc got a Lot of drift literally overnight #so yeah trying to do the genichiro fight with an average of 20 fps and stick drift wasnt fun at all #i did do the miniboss thats on the well from the start of the game and a few attemps on the seven spears guy #but at that point the drift was just too bad and i had tried a new fix for the drivers thing #and when i attempted genichiro again the game just crashed #so yeah #i Could play sekiro on the xbox but im not paying for a 4 year old game that got its price hiked #and runs at 900p and 30 fps on a new gen console cause the developers refuse to patch it <3 #ill pirate again once i get a new pc sometime next year #Anyways all of this was to say i do sort of get fromsoft games now and ac looks fucking incredible #and it has a pause screen just like sekiro which is a must for me cause i enjoy being able to go pee without having to hide first

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get-more-bald · 10 months

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when you're an inherently bad person🤪

#im a firmly believe that people arent truly or inherently born evil. except me ofc #the thing is that. if im not a bad person or whatever. im just incredibly unpleasant to handle deal with or be around. which may be worse #because im actually trying to be fun to be around. in general. when im not stressed out of my mind or almost (or actively) crying. i do try #and if im inherently unpleasant. it explains everything but it means i wont ever have anyone. not really.#its like a have a bad smell around me that i cant get off. which i also fear may be the reality as well.#i do shower! i do use deodorant and sometimes the fuckign. body mists or perfumes or whatever. nice smelling shite i dont actually ever wan #to use but i must be somewhat pleasant #but do i use too much of it? not enough? do i shower the wrong way? should i isolate myself forever amd not subject people to that smell?#well!#vent post #also i never fucking smile which is apparently important in being approachable. but i can blame that on the autism #god i fucking hate being who i am #im not even talking about personality rn. being trans. and autistic the way i am. and whatever else i fucking probably am. and being a part #of this fucking family and living in this god damned place. i hate it all #its difficult and i dont want to be that anymore but i cant ever stop. i can move out in what. a couple of years? i could eventually go no #contact with that family? i couldnt. but i wont ever stop being who i am at my core. and thats so depressing and it wants me to kill myself #not in a painful way though. no cutting or whatever. pills or a quick jump would be enough

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