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[slythereen]

oh goodie charles will defend for carlos bc he knows what the term teammate means and he’ll actually listen to team orders and

[nylarac]

summary of bad things that have occurred starting in mid december to today:

fractured toe

got covid after managing to avoid it up until now

it's been nearly a month and i am still experiencing lingering symptoms (coughing, my favorite foods no longer being appealing, fatigue, worse asthma, rib/chest pain, congestion)

300 dollar water bill and likely another v expensive water bill to be expected soon since maintenance didn't fix the cause until recently (and i am still not confident that they actually fixed the issue)

got v unexpectedly laid off with 30 days notice

found out that i actually only have a week before i am unemployed and only 2 weeks' severance

my car's ac stopped working again barely a week after i got it fixed so there is almost definitely a leak that will need to also be repaired

dental trouble (a lot to explain but tldr teeth suck insurance sucks and everything is expensive)

which i guess summarizes a lot of this list lmao everything sucks and is expensive

[squeakadeeks]

i love tiktok. someone just said im doing a bad job tucking in my cosplays. so im going to be thinking about that for the rest of the day.

[itwasabeautifulwebbing]

baldur’s gate 3 really is the game of all time for the gays who want to celebrate both sad pathetic wet men AND women’s wrongs

[surreal-duck]

nui shenanigans

[ganondoodle]

so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-

but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again

(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)

i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)

weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward

but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.

right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)

[angelmush]

starting to feel my enjoyment of cooking seeping back in after a long period of intense burnout that had me really slogging along preparing meals with gritted teeth for a good month there. i credit the return of this spark to the much needed break i took on our 3 day vacation that resulted in us eating solely theme park food. while delicious, in all its greasy overpriced glory, i found myself missing the kitchen. so last night for dinner i made heavily spiced chicken wings with crushed peppercorns and garam masala that rendered slowly in its own fat while roasting in the oven, resulting in flavorful charred crisp skin and a really juicy bite. we picked them clean over steamed rice with lime and scallions. i also baked a loaf of marbled pumpkin and dark chocolate bread yesterday for my neighbor as a thank you for doing me a favor last week. it looked delicious. the crumb was tender and plush and velvety, the spiced ginger molasses pumpkin batter swirling alongside the bitter dark chocolate espresso batter, with puddles of dark chocolate bubbling across its top. it looked so lovely i whipped up a second one for us to have for ourselves that's in the oven now, i think it could be a really good breakfast pastry for us this week.

[aracnidaarmagedon]

NEW COALECROUX ANGST JUST UNLOCKED, I AM ACTUALLY CRYING

[beaft]

i'm into horror for a lot of reasons, but one of them is that it has this capability for externalising a kind of violence that is often only felt, not seen. my favourite works of horror use experiences like mental illness or oppression as springboards - they elevate psychological terror into something you can actually see and fight against. like, yeah, depression DOES sometimes feel like you have a monster living in your cellar that nobody can see except you! puberty DOES sometimes feel like you're transforming into something weird and dangerous! that's why i often find horror movies so cathartic - even comforting, in some cases.

and that's why i originally started to explore splatterpunk - because i read exquisite corpse and loved it, because it was a queer novel by a queer author that took the political violence of the aids crisis and made it literal, blew it up to a monstrous scale that matched the monstrous pain felt by the victims and their families. it felt genuinely subversive. it felt visceral. and then i read a bunch of other splatterpunk fiction, and was disappointed to discover that most of it was just an excuse for men to self-publish their badly-written snuff porn.

[nuppu-nuppu]

Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again

[aedeagus]

Say hiii to baby Chantilly

[hole34]

been at the mall for an hour and NO ONE has complimented my getup, not even the hot topic mfs, what is going on.

[mellohiizz]

yay!

(for context death vote is a life series inspired short series that had 5 sessions, the one im talking abt is session 5)

also massive spoilers ig lol

okay, so theres these guys called psyan and spagheters, they became basically best friends at the last session of the series and called themselves piss duo (real btw they called themselves that /gen) and theres a massive threat on the server whos named sloimay whos already killed a bunch of their friends and neither of them could do anything abt it because if they killed someone on their green or yellow life without the moon goddess's permission one of their lives gets taken away.

after sloimay death bans another one of his friends, psyan decides to get rid both of his green and yellow life himself to get rid of sloimay and to protect spagheters, the only person that he can protect now since all of his friends are dead

and to top all of that to hear spagheters shaky voice when he asks deytra if psyan was gonna get rid of his lives, to psyan feeling so shit because he couldnt protect anyone gave me sm heartbreak it pained me sm Q_Q /pos

and for it to all end with both of them dead and their grave put next to eachoter labeled piss bro #1 and piss bro #2 had me like aughhhhhh

anyways yeah thats my dvsmp ramble lol

wait, whoa, that sounds super tragic... i really love angst and doomed relationships(both /p or /r), so that resonated with me. obviously i can't say much, because idk any of these people, but it sounds super sad and tragic. ☹️ my favorite type of thing, yum.

[bl00dw1tch]

Watching someone play afop and im so. Oh my god. Oh my GOD. It's literally just a fucking showcase of all the Exact type of shit that has been happening to indigenous people and people of color have been dealing with for Centuries at the hands of white supremacy and imperialism. Like its literally just Showing all that Shit from the perspective of a Na'vi in universe. So it "demonizes" the RDA accordingly. And uet so many fucking reviewers are joshing on it and calling it Boring and Slow and Uninspired and that it makes human's 'cartoonishly evil' LIKE YOU PEOPLE HAVENT LOOKED AT A SINGLE FUCKING CURRENT EVENT IN YOUR LIVES. Oh my god im so mad at all these fucking reviewers now. The fucking AUDACITY to look at something this fucking Honest about the cruelty humans are capable of, while living during the fucking day and age with all this Knowledge we have at our fingertips -- the fucking audacity to look at this game and what the character goes through and not being able to muster up ANY other fucking emotion besides "ubisoft never was great at story anyway so idc lol" fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you. Like actually. You can't even fucking ATTEMPT to connect to this story emotionally? Not even a fucking Smidge? Jesus fucking christ people need everything to be spoon fed to them these days. God forbid a piece of media actually ask you to meet it in the middle for once.

[zehina]

Maybe

Maybe I just want to be hugged. To not have the crushing burden of being the smart child in this cursed family, to not have been raised that way. Maybe I just want to be happy.

Just a thought.

[locklylemybeloved]

well that was depressing! time to go refuel ! (rewatches show for the seventieth time where gay boy dooms his soulmate's life by loving him too much, too deeply, too strongly, too protectively. where his overflowing love was his bane, where everything he did to avoid his love's destiny - death - just reassured its fulfillment in the end)