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[helenvader]

I am not that thrilled about the football plot of Unseen Academicals, but there are so many gems in the book. Here we have Lord Veterinary 🤣 who did his homework on the subject at hand so well that it makes everybody speechless (no news), and the last part is just... glorious.

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At which point someone tried to slap Vetinari on the back. It happened with remarkable speed and ended possibly even faster than it began, with Vetinari still seated in his chair with his beer mug in one hand and the man’s wrist gripped tightly at head height. He let go and said, ‘Can I help you, sir?’

‘You’re that Lord Veterinary, ain’t ya? I seed you on them postage stamps.’

Ridcully glanced up. Some of Lord Vetinari’s clerks were briskly heading towards them, along with some of the slurred speaker’s friends, who could be defined at this point as people who were slightly more sober than he was and right now were sobering up very, very fast, because when you have just slapped a tyrant on the back you need all the friends you can get. Vetinari nodded at his gentlemen, who evaporated back into the crowd, and then he snapped his fingers at one of the waiters.

‘A chair here, please, for my new friend.’

‘Are you sure?’ said Ridcully, as a chair was pushed under the man who, by happy coincidence, was falling backwards in any case.

‘I mean,’ said the man, ‘everary one saysh you’re a bit of a wnacker, but I saysh you’re awright over thish football fing. ’Sno future in jus’ shlogging away. I should know, I got kicked inna head quite a few times.’

‘Really?’ said Lord Vetinari.

‘And what is your name?’

‘Swithin, shir,’ said the man.

‘Any other name, by any chance?’ said Vetinari.

‘Dustworthy,’ he said. He raised a finger in a kind of salute. ‘Captain, the Cockbill Boars.’

‘Ah, you aren’t having a good season,’ said Vetinari. ‘You need fresh blood in the squad, especially since Jimmy Wilkins got put into the Tanty after eating someone’s nose. Naphill walked all over you because you lost your backbone when both of the Pinchpenny brothers were taken to the Lady Sybil, and you’ve been stuck down in the mud for three seasons. Okay, everyone says that Harry Capstick is making a very good showing since you bought him from Treacle Mine Tuesday for two crates of Winkle’s Old Peculiar and a sack of pork scratchings, which is not bad for a man with a wooden leg, but there’s never anyone in support.’

A circle of silence spread outwards from Vetinari and the swaying Swithin. Ridcully’s mouth had dropped open and Henry’s brandy glass remained half empty, an unusual occurrence for a glass that’s been in the hands of a wizard for more than fifteen seconds.

‘Also, I’m hearing that your pies are leaving a lot to be desired, such as dead, cooked, organic content,’ continued Vetinari. ‘Can’t get the Shove behind you when the pies are seen to walk about.’

‘My ladsh,’ said Swithin, ‘are the besht there ish. It’sh not their fault they’re up againsht better people. They never getsh a chance to play shomeone they can beat. They alwaysh gives it one hundred and twenty pershent and you can’t give more than that. Anyhow, how come you know all this shtuff ? It’s not like we’re big in the league.’

‘Oh, I take an interest,’ said Vetinari. ‘I believe that football is a lot like life.’

‘There ish that, shir, there ish that. You does your besht and then shomeone kicksh you inna fork.’

‘Then I strongly advise you to take an interest in our new football,’ said Vetinari, ‘which will be about speed, skill and thinking.’

‘Oh, yeah, right, I can do all them,’ said Swithin, at which point he fell off his chair.

‘Does this poor man have any friends here?’ said Vetinari, turning to the crowd.

There was some diffidence among them concerning whether or not it was a good idea to be friends with Swithin at this point.

Vetinari raised his voice: ‘I would just like a couple of people to take him back to his home. I would like them to put him to bed and see that no trouble comes to him. Perhaps they ought to stay with him until morning too, because he just might try to commit suicide when he wakes up.’

[therentyoupay]

today, i said goodbye to my little baby iphone se 3 💕 YOU SERVED ME WELL, YOU TINY ANCIENT ARTIFACT

i now join the ranks of the 15-ers (because i refused to level up all the way to the 16, i simply SHAN'T) and am delighted by this camera and THE STORAGE SPACE

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now that the #kriscallicollab CHAOS AND HAZE OF PRODUCTIVITY is settled, i shall also treat myself to a super update to my website, including compiling all of the gorgeous fanart into an organized (per chapter/general) layout with all of the links, credits, and beautiful people who have contributed to this amazing and wonderful and cherished journey 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💕

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liv and i offically have a legitimate and intensive google sheet for tracking our writing word counts throughout the rest of october and all of november! i am consistently reminded that i do my best academic writing when i also feed may fanfiction-writing brain, and vice-versa.

now that the final chapter of more than you know is finished and in calli's beta-ing hands (and we are working to finish the final prep for part II of the jelsa video!!!!!! so that this beautiful project shall FINALLY BE FINISHEDDDDD), i actually wrote a bunch last night for snow globe!!

i hope to finish snow globe this month, and then turn to finishing that one night. it will be poetic justice if i finish that story before i defend my dissertation (!!!)

and then i shall finish technical difficulties and at the center and THEN

oR RATHER SIMULTANEOUSLY

i will defend my dissertation on february 28th (!!!), after which point i can complete my non-fiction manuscript for my mainstream book on my research

AND THEN IT SHALL BE TIME TO WRITE MY NOVEL???????

but today (and every day for the rest of october and november), it starts with writing 1,667+ words 💕💕💕💕🤣💪✨

[gravity-what]

Option #2 for future Omi (option 1 here) and the one that I am imagining fits a little better with the OG Omi/is the ‘happy’ outcome (at least for this point in his life…). And definitely the one I have thought about the most (lol look at all the notes!)

He’s grown in a lot of ways (less hard on himself, more willing to acknowledge faults, has found a good balance between letting himself be himself and being loyal to his friends) but in others he has maybe…well, not ‘regressed’ but decided to actually be a little more selfish. He’s less looking for others approval and more ‘realizing I actually am good enough to exist without approval that will never come and appreciated those who do see me for what I’m worth’. Which is a bit of a tricky place to be since it definitely has led to him not being willing to listen to criticism that he should definitely be listening to from the other Dragons.

It has led to a bit of distance between them all, especially since Omi is also in a stage of his life where he is being a bit more serious in his academics (I know he has always been serious but it’s a difference between childish seriousness and actual full investment in a project) even if he is having more fun in the battlefield. (He is definitely creating and testing out new martial arts moves left and right and is becoming quite prolific with it. At the rate he is going his martial arts moves are going to out-number Dashi’s Wu count!).

When push comes to shove though Omi always comes through to help the other dragons and has never left them high and dry (ha!). Still, there are worrying cracks that are hard to ignore…

Additional note: Omi’s hair is definitely a byproduct of a wu that he decided to keep~

Anyway happy Halloween 🤣

[celestie0]

i’m kind of obsessed with kickoff reader. i wanna know more about her. aside from films, what are her hobbies? does she bake? does she like to cook? what inspired her to pursue film? did she used to make silly little films when she was younger? (and if yes, is it uploaded to an obscure corner of youtube where only Gojo can find one fateful night and never stopped making fun of her for it?)

- maybe i am kickoff Gojo

omg 👁️ kickoff gojo what r u doin here…u r not alowed out of ur cage go back to google docs

thanks for being interested in readerrr :””) oof aside from films n the photog i think she is DEF a HUGE baker n tbh i can see her having a side hustle of being like a food content creator or something where she makes aesthetic baking vids bc she’s got that film background 😭 maybe she has a secret instagram accnt that’s actually very popular 👀…..but she’s too shy to share 🤣

i think she knows how to cook 🤔 she’s not like pro level chef or anything, but she isn’t surviving off instant ramen either haha. most days of the week she just pulls stuff together w whatever her n mina have in the fridge but then every other friday she’ll go all out n make pasta from scratch or sear some lobster or sumn hahah. she is perfectly mediocre at cooking. and although she is known to be a bit more tomboyish w her style, she loves to wear a cute apron every now n then (｡･ω･｡)

omg inspiration for film is a greaaatttt question!!! i kinda want to explore that in main storyline now!!! i think when she was younger, she was a bit more of a quiet kid and was always the english teachers’ fave student bc she was really emotionally intelligent n had great vocabulary and in general a great eye for art n literature, so that academic praise kinda got her into writing stories n watching films, she studied a lot of old hollywood classics n from there she became really interested in film as a whole. i think it became a form of expression for her, since she had kind of a whacky childhood (will uncover more of this in later chaps) i like to think before she applied to college, she wanted to be an english major n become an english teacher but she knew deep down that film was what she really wanted to do and even though her family was reluctant, she went ahead n applied as a film major anyway (btw utokyo is hard to get into for film bc they only have a few spots for their program which is one of the best in the nation so i think she did well for herself :) it’s also why she wants to get into utokyo’s film masters specifically!!)

PLS THE OLD SILLY FILMS IS 100% ACCURATE i mean she has her short films on youtube now n they’ve done decent w views but yea i can see her having older videos that are parodies or i imagine she made a horror film when she was in middle school n looking back on it now it’s so corny n not scary at all 💀🤣 gojo would 100% tease tf outta her for that HAHAHAHA

DAMN I WROTE AN ESSAY IM SORRY i just don’t get many questions ab reader so i indulged a little bit haha tysm bb for the ask!!! (🤨 unless u rly are kickoff gojo, then in that case GET BACK TO CH10 I NEEDTO FINISH EDITING YOU)

[prettyb0ycvnt]

Awww I'm sorry for keeping such a cute little fella waiting! I imagine you've been pawing at your inbox, is there anything I can do to make it up to you puppy? 💞

YOOOO!! Atta boy!! You did so well! You're an academic WEAPON! Absolutely well done for doing so so well! Such a good boy for working so hard! Even if you could have scored more points, you have done beyond amazingly!! 🎉😍🥰

I can imagine you've been such a sleepy boy with all of this academic mastery you've been performing! Hopefully you manage to have a nice and snuggly night of sleep tonight! 💕

I'm currently off of work with an injury I gained somehow! Thus is why I'm up at the moment 🤣 but I will be putting much more effort into making sure that I keep myself in your ask box as much and as often as possible 🫡 especially with you being such a good puppy! I have to make sure you get all of the attention you deserve and need, isn't that right? 😘🥰

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GOOD MORNING HELLO!! i say at 3pm >_< anyway whatever. hai :33 you're right about that i was pawing at my inbox sooo much,, its like when you leave a dog home alone and it gets sooo sad and just sits in one spot and waits until you come back,, </33 but you're heeere now !! mmm i'll have to think about what you can do to make it up to me,,, i bet you missed me all that time you were busy, huh ^_^ ? maybe you could tell me about that <3

THANK YOUU :3 !! im so happy about it yayy yay oh my goodness i was sooo stressed about those exams so it was very relieving to hear i did so well 💫 !! you should've seen how much work i was doing omg... revising up until like 3 am 😓 !? im lucky i have a good memory i managed to memorise like a whole document of essay plans ough. but all that exertion has tired me out,,, hence why this response is a little late 💔 but im all good now!!! all back to normal :33

oh no !? thats not fun... i hope it's not too bad and that you recover soon <33 though i look forward to all the attention you can give me!! fhdkjfjghh that's right,, im always craving any attention i can get from you 💫

[earlysunshines]

hey bae🌹🤵‍♀️ 🔞 LONG TIME NO ASK

just dropping by bc i missed sendinf asks😭💔 and quick update i turned 18 (minors dni) just a few days ago 🤣what the fuck🤣 and got my 4th tattoo last monh because i am a goofy crazy child

IMSTILL AO BUSYcan you believe we have school until the 19th 💔im supposed to be having fun but im over here working on. this damn thesis #lame #as #fuck and

YOURE ALIVE! long time no ASSKK

missed hearing your asks u have such silly energy i love it LOL

OH TEA?? HOORAY!! congrats u can ummmm drink??? depending on where u are… and ummm adopt as far as i know

girl a tattoo is crazy im still not tatted up i need to get on that… not u being tatted before me although i do plan on getting tatted when i go to japan

IMAGINEEE but it’s over now!! i was also burdened academically not too long ago and also with like Other #personal stuff but we are so back and balling now

hope your thesis went well #baller and happy late birthday king keep it up and hoooraaayh missed u!!

[darkfictionjude]

Juuuuuuuuuuudeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I haven't bugged you in a while. How are you? I truly hope all is well, sunshine and rainbows for you ♥️

I'm bugging authors as usual. So if you had yes HAD to choose any character to romance from your IF (Yes the fucked up cast.. i didnt write them ok!!) Who would it be and whyyyyy?

Also do you see that relationship lasting or would u end up killing someone? 👀🤣

Hahaha this is such a fun question. Unfortunately I am straight so my lovely Nia is out of the running (although I feel like she has the power to turn me if she tried)

Now I do like bad boys, and I like blond boys but Lorcan is too… emotional for me. Like all the characters have deep emotional issues but I’m the type to like those suffering in silence types 😭 so I guess it’ll have to be Imre. And that’s just because he’s Latino, he’s incredibly smart and he’s lowkey mysterious.

I feel like our relationship would last but we’d be toxic together. Two emotional avoidant academics with parent issues? Yeah we’d suffer 💀

[kaycode1999]

Hii 💖 if you are still doing them I was wondering if you could do a tfa character match up for me? 💖

Sexuality: Straight

Pronouns: She/her

Personality: I have ADHD and suspected autism so I'm literally all over the place, I'm always moving and and an academic failure 💀 the more comfortable I am with people the more extroverted I am but I do shut off quite quickly if I sense rejection and I'm quite shy and quiet around new people. But I'm an actor so I'm all about flare and lunacy lol I'm also very impulsive and accident prone.

I do love the club and partying but I also love a good formal event like a jazz bar or the theatre.

My style is kinda all over the place, it's kinda a mix between grunge city girl meets Avril lavine meets mcbling 2000s girl lol.

And My type is tall Skinny men in suits 💀💀🤣

I hope I didn't forget anything lmao

Thank youu x 💖 x

I match you with

Bumblebee

He also has very big ADHD😂 so I think you two get along well

In fact when the other Autobots met you their initial feeling was HOLY PRIMUS THERE’S TWO OF THEM *At least once you got comfortable around them*

He can't stay still either so he's up for whatever you want to do

He thinks he's an academic failure too, especially after everything that happened in boot camp so he understands

I think he also has problems with rejection, although not to the same extent. He sympathizes if you’re struggling, and he does his best to make sure you don't feel that way especially in regard to him or your relationship

The funny thing about him is he thrives when you give him responsibility (he has to actually care about the thing but still), so he's right there to catch you with the accident-prone thing. He's not gonna let you get hurt

[nouvxllev]

Reader getting drunk and being a real lightweight and just wanting to jump her girlfriend’s bones. Pippa would be all gentle, taking reader home and helping her get to sleep. What do you think a drunk pip would be like? Maybe goofy or charming 🤣

(I know you haven’t been able to get your hands on the reappearance of Rachel price just yet but I am dying to know what you think of the main character!! I think you’d write her really well.) 🫶

the thing is that pip can handle everything down to murders, stalkers, repeated death threats on her soul, but one thing she cant handle is a drunk reader. the real challenge everytime after reader gets their shit knocked out is having to put them to sleep. pip, being the academic achiever and parttime detective she is, is always and almost always at her desk even at night. so you can just imagine pip having to choose over her academics or her girlfriend whining about she couldn't sleep if pip wasnt spooning her to bed (obviously, pip chose the latter part.)

oh and i feel like pip's the epitome of a goofiness while drunk but also very caring to reader as if shes not the one whos about to pass out cold at one wrong move in her step and reader just thinks she's just the sweetest and cutest version of pip apart from her protective side.

(my first reaction to this was THERES A NEW MAIN CHARACTER??? i seriously need to get my hands of rachel prince but i think shes a well-written character just based on the previews + she feels like pip just introduced with pre-built trauma 😭 and thank you!! i dont know if my writing abilities could really ever live up to holly jacksons way of writing her characters, but ill do my best!)

[folkloresthings]

hi becca!!! congratulations on your milestone 🤩🎉💐 1k is a big deal and you SOOO deserve it!!! proud of you, darling 🥂

may I participate in the 1k celebration? jane eyre - f1 fandom please with my gender perference is male. (please do accept my sincere apologies for the incoming long info about me)

i tend to be too hard on myself, i yearn for academic validation, i am an ambitious person! very much a goal oriented person. i also tend to overthink and scared of failure. i often times blame myself for 'my mistakes'.

ive been called the "mother" or the mature one in my friend group haha. ive always taken the leadership role and people say that i have that commanding aura! well im not the type to be open and welcoming on the first meeting, thats for sure!

i am quite protective of myself and for the people who i cared for, ready to 🤺🤺 for them. i also dont think twice to stand up for people! my loved one can count on me regarding that! im not the type to hide my feelings about others. lets say i dislike that person, my action does reflect that. however, im also quite vocal when it comes showing love that i have for people that i love, hence i love making small gift or writing encouraging words for them.

i would say that my sense of style is chic and classy! oh and people has been complimenting that I exudes "elegance" and "luxury" (am so flattered!) ++i love learning new languages

that was fun! i feel like you know me from inside out now 🤣 thank you for letting me participate. looking forward to see which f1 drivers will you ship me with. have a fantastic day/night

hi!! this was such a lovely ask, ty 🥰

i ship you with: charles leclerc! he, too, is incredibly ambitious and goal—driven. you both know what you want and how to get it, and while you both overthink about it, you’re able to look out for each other. he knows when to tell you to take a break, and you for him. you take care of each other in that sense. very much mom and dad in the paddock. mans needs someone to stand up for him to ferrari too, so i’m enlisting you 🫡 he adores your support of him, and your reassurance whenever he doubts himself. living in monaco with him, you need that elegant dress sense and luxurious aura. you’ll also help charles improve his style a little (he needs it)

[therentyoupay]

How many languages do you know?

💕 english is my first language but i speak both spanish and english at home! i've been studying spanish for 20+ years, i speak spanish exclusively with my husbands' family (they only speak spanish!), and am comfortable getting my point across on most everyday-life things. i read in spanish for fun/to study (i forced my husband to read la sociedad de la nieve with me when we both got obsessed with the movie on netflix, even though he's not a reader at all haha), and we have a house rule about always watching movies in the language in which they were created EXCEPT FOR SHREK, which we both agree is extremely well done and just as funny (if not even funnier) in spanish. we do a lot of code-switching for the most part, and whenever we have kids, we'll follow the One Parent One Language plan, except for when we're out at restaurants, because we always ONLY speak spanish while going out to eat, it's just habit at this point. 😂 i once tried to write fic in spanish back in the early 2010s while living in spain but i felt that i didn't have all the vocab that i needed to give my writing the same vibe as in my first language, so i haven't tried writing fic in spanish since... (maybe i should??) for now i content myself with reading larivera's (@laurakrivera) spanish fic!! however, my academic!professional!spanish is much more developed than my fic!spanish writing style, lol, so when i publish my non-fiction book in english, i will work on writing the spanish translations myself (and force my husband to help me lmao)

i learned japanese fundamentals (e.g., basic vocab/phrases, word order, hiragana, katakana, some core kanji) when i was 12 (like most inuyasha-obsessed kids, maybe?? 🤣) and i learned a LOT when i lived there for a year and a half as an adult! but i never took any formal classes, it was all self-taught and in the streets (LITERALLY lmao, shoutout to the people of tokyo). i wasn't allowed to speak japanese at all in my job, so i turned to apps like hellotalk to practice and make friends who really wanted to engage in language exchange. (duolingo didn't add japanese as a language option until after i came back! 🤣😭) so i was just out there in the wild, picking it all up as i went along. i understand a lot more than i can speak, but i could probably hold a pretty convincing conversation with someone for 2 minutes before it became clear that i'd exhausted my limited repertoire. 🤣 i'd get by with a lot of discourse markers and reaction expressions and いいね! and 本当に!? and そうですね 😊 before i fell off the track completely lol.

i did 3 months of german on duolingo to prepare for a conference i presented at in austria a few years ago! helped with everyday basics, but i'm not currently investing in this language right now since i don't have many opportunities to use it in daily life like i do my other languages.

also just started learning korean literally five days ago. still working on the vowels. 🤣 i'm learning for friends, for potential work opportunities, for K-POP joking joking or am i, and also i'm a big believer in the philosophy of keeping the mind fresh and getting excited about Being "Bad" at Something every once in a while, as i purposefully Try New Things to ward off complacency, keep my brain happy and sharp, and remind myself that i can Do Hard Things. (of course, once you start to learn so many languages, your metalinguistic and metacognitive pattern-seeking skills really kick in, so approaching korean is a lot different than how it was in my other language learning experiences, so far 🤣) stay tuned, i guess haha!!

i guess you can see why i'm so obsessed with the idea of elsa being a serial polyglot/multilingual queen in basically every universe i write her in, not only because it fits with her upbringing/education/oryal duties but also i feel like elsa would appreciate all instances in life in which she could exert control over her surroundings by finding patterns and "rules" in languages and finding beauty in expressing so many meanings through so many different avenues when she herself had so much trouble expressing herself at all for so long should i write a one-shot about elsa's multilingualism as it pertains to NO KRIS NO STOP YOU HAVE WORK NOW KRIS NO

[mylovesstuffs]

Okay first of all — the ✨audacity✨ of Wonwoo to be this fine AND this infuriating. He’s correcting people with his sexy little science brain... sir, this is not the chemistry department newsletter. Calm down.

Back to serious From line one I knew he was trouble. Black-rimmed glasses, judgy stare, a voice that scolds you correctly??? Be so serious. Of course I fell for him in paragraph 2.

The whole "heinous and ugly on the inside" bit had me laughing and then immediately screaming when she went back for the cocoon 😭 girl WHY ARE WE THE SAME. We hate him but also are biologically incapable of ignoring his existence [Help.]

And the chem vs. lit academic low-key rivalry is giving "I think you're dumb but I also wrote a poem for you." I saw myself in the line about chemistry being gibberish even after five hours. Except I’d still somehow do better in it than physics because... God has favorites and I cheat with luck 🧪📚

This fic was 2.2k of pure serotonin and sass. Wonwoo was so smug and so pathetically in love, it was everything. Chemistry?? Found it. It’s me and this fic.

10/10. Boyfriend-shaped. Please give us 100k more words.

Under the cut is just my gibberish. Heavy spoilers!!

Never mind. He’s definitely heinous and ugly on the inside. — lmfao the way she went back to get cocoon 😭

Five hours later and chemistry was still gibberish to your eyes.— relatable. Will somehow get more score in chem than phy but it'll forever be gibberish to me. Like how am I doing well when I don’t even know what orbitals are??

You look awfully pretty when you’re frustrated.— uffff mutual pinninggggggg. LOVE IT. Let them suffer in love a little more 😌

“Quit it.” Mingyu bumps his shoulder to catch his attention. “You’ll scare her. Hell, you’re scaring me.”— Ooooh we have minwon friendship here.

You see him and he looks awfully boyfriend shaped.— boyfriend shaped, wow I love this. Never thought of it.

Wonwoo knows you’d never love him back. He’s not that much of an idiot. — now it seems like he is lol. Our pov because we know it's mutual both ways XD THE DRAMATIC IRONY!!! Let them communicate, please, someone shake him by the shoulders!!

“Read the book.” He says instead. “Please.”— AHHH WONWOOOOO SAY YOU LOVE HER. MY HEART. YEARNING WONWOO. There’s nothing more powerful than a softly desperate Wonwoo. Man is fighting his feelings with LITERATURE 😭

You have an irritatingly smug expression on your face as you greet him. “I heard you failed your exam.”— wasn't expecting this but HAHAHDSGVTYCFCDHAHAH 🤣🤣🤣🤣 She came for his soul and I love that for her.

b(a)d chemistry | j.ww

⭐ starring: jeon wonwoo 💌 genre: fluff/crack | wc: 2.2k 💬 preview: he had brown eyes that looked up at you from behind black-rimmed frames and a voice that scolded your intelligence so infuriatingly right.

cw/tw: chem major! wonwoo x lit studies! reader, sassy man apocalypse, crack, a lot of swearing

🪽fic rating: pg 13 ☁️ masterlist & a/n: i’m writing this in the library with my brightness all the way down. no shame. (maybe just a little shame). the great gatsby x wonwoo agenda is going to haunt every narrative i ever write :)) thank you to @gyubakeries for betaing!

now playing: she by harry styles, the way i loved you by taylor swift, party 4 u by charli xcx

this is an addition to my 500 followers event: click here to read the masterlist!

If heaven was for real, you thought it must look something like him. 

He had brown eyes that looked up at you from behind black-rimmed frames and a voice that scolded your intelligence so infuriatingly right. His fingers emphasized each page flip and his lips pursed against the side of his pencil, eyebrows furrowed with intense concentration and deep seeded fury. 

Jeon Wonwoo was a beast in the classroom and it made your wandering mind wonder how that passion might translate in bed.

“That’s wrong.” He always said it so simply, as if your mistakes were simply unsurprising and a fact. “Change it.”

You roll your eyes. There was a reason Wonwoo was still single despite being one of the most revered guys in your university, and it was because no one had yet to stand their ground when facing his stupid superiority complex and lack of tact. 

“This is dumb.” You poke at your test papers with the butt of your pen, slumping further down your seat. “Why do I have to take chemistry anyways? We’re not even in the same department.” 

He raised an eyebrow at your complaints. “You’re the one who signed up for the week-long major switch experiment.” 

Right. You let out a louder groan than the last. “Boooo..”

Wonwoo laughs, and your lips quirk into a suppressed smile.

“You won’t be laughing when it’s your turn. You swapped with me, remember? I’m a lit major.” 

Wonwoo pales. “I forgot about that.” 

There’s a shared smile that passes between the two of you, as if you were trading some silent understanding of a joke. He’s awfully pretty when he smiles. 

Wonwoo slaps your test paper and it jolts you out of your bubble of bliss. “Back to work, rookie. Your values are still wrong.” 

Never mind. He’s definitely heinous and ugly on the inside.

You watch his glasses slip down his nose. He looks so awfully pretty asleep. 

Shaking your head, you reach over to remove it, placing it on the table in front of him and returning back to your workbooks. 

Five hours later and chemistry was still gibberish to your eyes. 

“Hey, Y/N.” Seokmin stops at your table on his way out of the library, arms ladened with his own workbooks. You vaguely remember that he had switched majors with Seungkwan, trading in his music major for environmental science. It had to be some sort of sheer luck that the two had been paired together, for you knew both boys would succeed at either major anyway. 

“Hi Seok.” You smile lazily his way, glancing at the sleeping Wonwoo next to you. He had not stirred. 

“How’s the swap going?” 

You snort. “I hate chem. And Wonwoo’s berating is not helping.” 

“He’s just trying to help in a way he knows how to.” Seokmin defends the classroom beast and you realize you’ve forgotten that they’re actually pretty good friends.

“I don’t know how you put up with him, Seok. I’ve only been alone with him for less than a day and I want to rip my eyeballs out. Or his eyeballs, I don’t know yet.”

Seokmin laughs. “You’re funny.” He starts walking towards the exit, looking back at you with a smile on his face. “Good luck! Maybe finally having someone smarter than you will do you some good.” 

You’re offended, but you know he jests. “He is not smarter than me!” You protest. “I’m smarter than him, the fuck?” 

You fail to notice Wonwoo’s eyebrows furrowing in his sleep, his lips parting to counter your remark before closing again. 

“Good.” You give your sleeping project partner one last glance before returning to the stupid chemistry question. “Still sleeping. I hope it stays that way.” You mumble the last part mostly to yourself, your eyes already glazing over from the word problem. “Why is Sally mixing so many fucking liquids, just drink water or something.” 

Wonwoo snorts in laughter but passes it off as a snore. He peeks an eye open. You look awfully pretty when you’re frustrated. 

Wonwoo swears he’s not looking at you in an obsessive way. He insists it’s a perfectly normal way to be looking at someone, ignoring how it definitely feels more like a stare than a look. 

You’re hunched over the latest book in your repertoire, pen scratching whatever thoughts down in the margins. 

“Quit it.” Mingyu bumps his shoulder to catch his attention. “You’ll scare her. Hell, you’re scaring me.” 

“Shut up.” He ignores his friend and continues to look. You’re too engrossed in the novel to register his stares anyways. “I bet it’s some stupid book about yearning for love and way too much making out.” 

Mingyu rolls his eyes. “It’s about some guy who throws parties every night hoping one girl might show up.” For a sports major, Mingyu knows a surprising amount about books. 

Wonwoo frowns at the idea. “That’s dumb.” 

“Yeah.” 

He forces himself to look away, staring down at the sandwich in his hands instead. 

“You’re kind of doing that though. Don’t pretend like you didn’t beg Professor Choi to partner the two of you together so you could speak to her. You hate literature.” Mingyu smirks. “You know I’m fucking right.” 

“Shut the fuck up, bro.” 

You see Wonwoo smile a real smile for the first time when you show him your chemistry test grades. 

“Holy shit.” He grabs the papers from you, pushing his glasses up as if it could change the score he was seeing. 

“It’s good, right?” 

He smiles, and it’s one that’s full of teeth and so unguarded. “Yes. You did so well. I can’t believe-” He shuts up the moment he realizes he’s rambling. 

You point a finger at his face, the brightest expression on your face. “You were happy for me. You’re happy for me. You fucking smiled.” It’s a bigger win for you than the actual test score. 

He grabs the hand still pointing in his face and gently pushes it down. “Shut up.”

“Admit it.” You pester on. “Admit you’re happy for me.” 

“I’m happy you didn’t fail miserably.” 

“Shut the fuck up, Jeon.” You laugh when he grimaces. “You–”

His heart lurches because– just for a second– he thinks you’re about to say you’re in love with me. And you’d be right. 

“--smiled.” 

His shoulders sink along with his heart. 

He looked so awfully pretty happy. And you looked so awfully pretty when you were annoying him. 

You look at Wonwoo and realize you can see a future with him. He no longer enrages you with just one glance. You see him and he looks awfully boyfriend shaped. 

You mime a gag at the thought and he turns to look at you. 

“You good?” 

You nod. “Yeah, fine.” 

He’s mindlessly playing with the pages of the book you had given him. “Do I really have to read this? You know I’m going to ace the exam either way.” 

You frown. “You don’t read for the exam, you read to read.” 

“That’s the dumbest thing you’ve said all day.” 

You know he means it as a joke, yet the words sting anyways. “That’s mean.” You tell him. 

“It’s true though. It’s just words.” He pushes the book back to you. “I’m not wasting time on this.” 

The future you saw shatters right before your eyes. You shove the book back towards him. “Why do I even bother?” 

He watches as you leave, your hair bouncing in the afternoon wind. He frowns. He’s always been the smartest in the room. He’s always known exactly what to say. Yet one look at you and he’s rendered as dumb as any other guy. 

He hears you talking about him to his friends the next day. Mingyu has his hand around your waist, and although he knows how close you are with his roommates, it still rubs him the wrong way. 

He figures it hurts him more than usual because he knows he has no right to be feeling any sort of ownership towards you. 

“He’s an idiot.” He hears you complain to Seokmin and Mingyu. 

They nod solemnly. “It’s been known.” 

He fights the urge to roll his eyes. He hated when you insulted his intelligence. 

“And we all know I could’ve aced that chem test without him.” 

Now you were just lying. Wonwoo frowned at your words. 

“You know he’s hopelessly in love with you.” Mingyu tells you, and Wonwoo lets out a low groan. 

You roll your eyes. “Right. And Professor Choi’s in love with Professor Yoon.” 

“Yeah, that actually happened.”

Wonwoo ignores your shocked expression, cranking up the music blasting in his ears. It drowns out whatever Seokmin was enthusiastically telling you, his arms waving passionately in the air. 

Wonwoo knows you’d never love him back. He’s not that much of an idiot. 

His resolve breaks on the third day. Wonwoo’s confronted with the fact that he misses your usual bickering and the way you’d glare at him from behind your computer screen. He misses the sound of your nails clacking on the keyboard, how they’d grow more furious the more frustrated you became with him. He missed riling you up. But most of all, he missed those rare moments where you’d put your rivalry aside and smile at him in a way that made him believe– for a split second– that you could love him. 

Wonwoo finishes the book you gave him in two days. It would have taken him half the time, if it hadn’t been for the time he had taken to read your handwriting in the margins. 

It was the book Mingyu had been talking about, the book he had watched you read in the school courtyard that one time. 

“Angry, and half in love with her, and tremendously sorry, I turned away.” 

He liked that line, and the things you had written in the margins on the side. There is beauty in conversing in a language only two can understand. To the world it looks like fighting, to them it feels like finally finding a worthy opponent. 

Wonwoo can’t help but feel as if the whole novel was one long love letter from you, to him. 

“Y/N!” 

You turn to face him. Your body reacts to his voice despite your brain telling you not to. “What do you want, Jeon?” 

He pushes a battered copy of The Great Gatsby into your hands. Your copy. 

“I finished.” He’s a little breathless as he speaks, looking at you for a reply. 

“I thought–” 

He doesn’t let you finish. “I’m sorry. I was crass. And rude. And I’ve always been a little pretentious.”

“Yes, you have.” You turn to walk past him, but he steps in front of you, blocking your path. 

“Let me finish.” His brown eyes plead with yours, and you relent. 

“I’ve always been those things, you know that. You’ve called me out for it since preschool. But it doesn’t change the fact that you’re the only person I can spar with word for word. You throw my shit back harder and witter and the only time I truly feel alive is when I’m with you. Yes, I’m mean. I’m rude. I make fun of you all too much. But I-” 

He pauses. He can’t say it. That he loves you. 

“Read the book.” He says instead. “Please.” 

He looks awfully pretty begging. 

things i wish i said

god, i have a lot of that

got a bad habit of shoving my foot in my mouth

when i’m around you

like my mind’s spinning far too fast 

i swear i’m not usually like that

i wish i had told you how much i cared 

in such a way that made me fear

wish i had taken a moment to explain to you my mind

that i really do love you despite what it might look like

– that’s what i tell everyone

wish whatever i had to say you already knew

if you could hear exactly how i meant it

see exactly how i see you

feel the jumble of whatever i feel

when i said that i hated you

there were other things i left out

like the fact that i hate you because there was nothing else i could’ve felt

that would’ve made us make more sense 

that i really didn’t hate you, and my words were too harsh

i hated you cause i love you a little bit too hard

i hated the ten foot drop i feel when i see you

not you

i could never really actually hate you

Wonwoo sees you smile a real smile for the first time when you meet him for coffee after his literature exam.

You have an irritatingly smug expression on your face as you greet him. “I heard you failed your exam.” 

“Shut up.” He had failed his exam. “Words are not my forte, alright?”

“Look at that, Jeon Wonwoo, finally admitting he’s not good at something.” 

He laughs, and the sound echoes somewhere deep in your chest. “I guess I’m learning.”

“Nice juxtaposition in the poem, by the way.” You smile at him from behind your coffee mug. 

He frowns. “A what now?” 

You laugh and it feels like the fucking sun shining on his face. 

“I love you too, Jeon. Even if it was a shitty ass poem.” 

He smiles. It’s unguarded and full of teeth. 

[gojoest]

Thank you ai for ur advice. Firstly, I must say you are indeed the right person to share this with. I have always admired the way you prioritise ur peace and ur self confidence. I think you are very much self content.. 😊

I am a big-time people pleaser and a pushover. Only my rbf has protected me all this time. Once they talk to me, they realise I am easy lmao I think. I fear I hurt people's feelings. I feel guilty so easily. But everyone would just walk over me in the same situation. As I have mentioned, I was very introverted. So I don't know how to react like a normal person to each instance. I either please them or mimic how I was treated in the same situation. I'm literally an alien trying to be human 🤣🥲.. I don't wanna be left out.. or lose an opportunity to friend the popular girls.. gosh, I don't even realise when I started obsessing over this. I have a very shittyass close "friend" in clg, who only texts me when she needs academic help. So I am basically still the same loner but covering it up better with trying to friend everyone.

I fear I am already labelled stingy. Clg students should really normalise paying for their own shit. It's not even our money but our parents' 😭

I really need to stay firm in my NOs and boundaries. But I am scared of ending up alone. I was picked on when I was a loner. Old wounds never heal.

So, back to the point, one of her bff is also coming. I am almost sure the rest of the gang would join, too. What if they collect the money from everyone.. In that case, I shall give only the ticket + transport fee 👀

I am sorry if I yapped so much (i tried my best not to 😭). I am really happy that you responded to me. I was scared I was dumping on you. Thank you so much 🫂🫂 i love u sm ai. !

thank you so much for your kind words!! 🥹🤍 i do try to choose myself and prioritize my peace but i still struggle too. there are definitely moments where saying no is really hard for me, i still feel guilty sometimes even though i know taking care of myself isn’t wrong at all

i think it’s honestly so beautiful and brave of you that you’re seeking connections!! i think you’re a deeply considerate person bc you think about how your words or actions might affect others. but please don’t forget to think about yourself too! i know it’s hard to break patterns that feel automatic esp when they come from a place of wanting to be kind and included. but change doesn’t have to be huge or scary, it can start with the smallest baby steps! even something like choosing where you want to sit instead of waiting for everyone else to pick and just taking what’s left is a gentle way of saying “i matter too”

we all want to feel like we belong and sometimes we try so hard to fit into groups and friendships that we start putting ourselves last without even noticing. i really hope you find the kind of friends who see you, who will never let you down, who will help you speak up, back you up and even scold you a little when you’re being too hard on yourself

i used to be super extroverted but life happened LOL and now i’d say im more of an introvert who can be really outgoing with the right ppl. i’ve learned to walk away from spaces and ppl that make me feel small or uncomfortable bc i know that kind of environment doesn’t help me grow. ofc not everything can be avoided, some things you just have to deal with. but learning when to protect your peace is so so important i think

and omg yes literally all college students are broke unless they’re from a super well off family 😭 and even then most of the money they’re spending isn’t even theirs, it’s still their parents’ 🥲

AND YES back to the point, if they end up collecting money beforehand just give what you owe for your ticket and your share for the transport fee! i’m holding your hand tightly and cheering you on!! you’ve got this!!!!! i really hope you end up having a great time 🥹🤍🤍🤍🤍

and pls don’t apologize for sharing all this with me! i’m honestly super happy that you trusted me with it! love you tons!!!!! 🤍

[maiteo]

I'm about to shed a tear or two thank you sooo much for taking the time to answer my rant.I really appreciate it and I value your advice bc I value you as a human.You are correct about python and MATLAB and generally any point you made was insightful ❤️❤️ most of my worries also come from my insecurities as well so I have things to work on... Either way, thank you for the advice and if something comes up I'll be here again to let you know 🤣 p.s the comments from the teacher sting bc I wanna go to his lab for a thesis and I'm not the only one soo the competition can be a lil tough, but eh what more can you do lol.Also ty for the link ilysm ❤️

Stop it this is truly the sweetest meu anjo and it means SO much🥺❤️

I’m always more than happy to talk with other people in stem fields (esp women<3) because it has a way of really isolating you which can be sooo discouraging. I am super glad I could be of positivity, even if it is a lil bit🫶🏽

It is so wild, literally after I typed out that response, I ended up running into a professor who will be teaching a python-based class I’ll be taking next semester😭

And ooooh my gosh I know the competition can be a lot. I know trying to get into certain classes or get certain professors can be stressful as hell (I’m going through that right now😩) also people act as if there is no room for more than one student to be great and it gets ridiculous at times. This, along with all other elements in these types of academic environments gets soooo much easier with time, take my word for it, I promise🫂

[deardiaryxo1]

Today was quite eventful, and overall, it turned out to be a successful day. Let me start from the beginning. I woke up feeling a bit groggy because I stayed up late thinking about various things. One of my late-night activities included googling some weird things, which I found quite amusing. 🤦‍♀️😅

Unfortunately, my late-night adventure caused me to oversleep, and consequently, I arrived at school late. Being short on time, I had to multitask and do my makeup in a hurry. I knew I wouldn't have time to fix myself up after classes, and I definitely didn't want to risk missing my Prince Charming. 🫠

Speaking of my Prince Charming, during my 10 am routine, I noticed him sitting at a table with his girlfriend, but they weren't engaged in a romantic conversation. To my surprise, they were checking their school books together. I never knew he had such a studious side 😂 He has always had the appearance of a wild child with a hint of hopeless romantic, but seeing him involved in academics was unexpected. 😅

As I walked past them, I overheard him saying, "I will show you; it will be easier once you see me doing it." It seems like he was helping her with her studies. Could he be any more perfect? 😫

FAST-FORWARD ⏭️, after my classes ended, I had to hurry to the restroom. I ran so fast that I started sweating and my makeup smudged on my clothes. Luckily, my dress was made of a material that allowed me to wipe it off easily.

I changed into a new outfit in just two minutes and fixed my hair quickly. My eyeliner had smudged because it was windy outside, so I had trouble reapplying it. I decided to use black eyeshadow instead, and it worked well. I felt confident that I looked good again. 💁🏻‍♀️

When I left the restroom, I saw him standing by a window, busy with his phone. I didn't know whether to walk slowly and let him see me, or do something to get his attention, it would look stupid though 🥲. I ended up pretending to talk on the phone, walking past him about a meter away. I said things like, "Yes, we can do that tomorrow, I'm free."

I PRAYED THAT MY PHONE WOULD NOT START RINGING.🤣

Surprisingly, as I got closer, he looked up at me while putting his phone away. It seemed like he might say something, like “alright?” but instead just nodded and smiled awkwardly. I wasn't sure if he thought I looked foolish or if he was impressed with how I looked. 🥹

I felt my phone vibrate, but it wasn't a call, thankfully. I kept up the phone conversation act for a little longer, just in case. 🤣

Once I stepped out of the school door and was out of his sight, I finally ended my fake phone conversation and checked my phone. To my surprise, it was him! 😳😱😱😱😱😱😱 He had sent me a message while I was walking past him.

Instead of opening the message right away, I decided to wait until I got home in about 15 minutes. It seemed like a better idea to have a calm and uninterrupted moment to read and respond to his message. 🫠

The message was sweet and short “Hey you, how was your weekend break? Any plans for today?😊”

The last bit got me nervous as I knew where this is all going…. So without thinking twice I sent him “Hi there , i am good thanks :) wanted to ask why do you want to meet up so much? You have gf.”

I SENT IT WITHOUT READING.

I felt a wave of regret wash over me, and tears welled up in my eyes. I messed up so badly. The day had started off well, and my plan had worked perfectly until I sent that message. I just wanted to crawl into a hole and disappear. All I wanted was for him not to reply, so I could pretend it never happened. 😭😭😭

But if he did reply, I thought maybe I could salvage the situation by pretending I was drunk messaging him. 🤨The problem was, it was only 3 PM in the afternoon, and it would be hard to pass off being drunk at that time. I felt trapped and didn't know how to fix this mess I had created…. 😫

[boneskullravenriver]

He IS an interesting character but the narrative really really makes it difficult to like him. Especially... The business that went down in Golden son. I like to think about him in relation to Darrow because I find them interesting, because upon rereading, strangely enough, the first thing I thought of was these two bitches are like Judas and Jesus. (🤣🤣I know I know). The story really does give Darrow so many religious undertones. The way he tries so hard to see the good in others, to give them second chances and to embrace them as friends, the way others see him borderline being god-like. Even Sevro kinda tried to argue for that in GS and Darrow was like .. I don't want people to worship me like a god.

But he can't exactly control how others see him.

Then there's.... Roque. Honestly, I think Roque was the only one who did not really treat Darrow with that sort of reverence (talking about before him finding out he was Red). And I think that's partially why Darrow gravitated toward him in a way he did not with others. Roque was painted as this quiet academic type, like for Christ sake his nickname was the Poet. His insistence on how they were more than what they were raised as before the Gala kinda made you think he would accept Darrow, and there were definitely moments when I think Darrow was on the edge of spilling the beans. Because Roque was a friend, a friend who seemingly understood him in a way the others just didn't.

I kind of hesitate to call Roque a good man. Putting aside the facism bits for a sec, underneath that calm, quiet academic exterior, Roque... Was.. well .. kind of shitty in a lot of ways. He held things against Darrow (like Quinn and Lea's deaths when that wasn't his fault). There was this underlying tone of their friendship almost being... Transactional on Roque's part, idk if that makes sense. Darrow constantly felt like he needed to love Roque more, more more more or he might lose him. As if there was this invisible score board that gained another tally against Darrow.

A friendship where one feels like they have to prove themselves to earn that person's love is a very toxic friendship. Like... Roque, bestie, not a good look.

Then of course, there's the thing with the Triumph. Roque is Judas. Like... The reference was just blatant. He waited until the very last moment, up until then pretending to be Darrow's friend. He knew what he was doing. He chose the path of blatant, sinister cruelty. And later on he hides behind his supposed superiority. "this is what I am, this is the best that we can be, and you can't change that." Pretty much.

He drank the Society Kool aid, and Darrow still loved him in the end. He felt sad for him. Honestly, Roque's situation is just downright disturbing. For all his smarts, he could not see that he was just a tool for a race of people that could give less of a shit about him. He was full of quiet rage that bordered on cruelty. in the scene where they were having dinner with Romulus, Darrow even remarks that Roque's sin is loving his color too much and it shows.

The glimpses we get from when he talks about how he grew up sound idyllic from a Gold's point of view. But with the way he acted, with his firm belief in Gold supremacy, one can figure out that at least one of his parents or the people around him subtly dehumanized LowColors and instilled in him that idea that humans were better off with the Color hierarchy, and that Golds were naturally on top.

Roque is an example of someone shaped by their environment and who does not want to change. To the point where he would rather kill himself than see a world where people he sees as sub human be seen as on the same equal level as him. I mean, he was shocked (shocked!) that his sex slave would so easily betray him. Shocked that someone forced to be with him through literal slavery didn't actually love him. (Because let's be real, she most likely said a lot of fluff to placate him. Because due to the nature of a Pink's place in the Society, the relationship will always be one of power imbalance)

Like the way he so willingly loves and praises the Society, while acting sorrowful to Darrow in that scene on the ship before he died, it's just... I dunno. It's so slimy.

He's not a bad character, actually he's a well written character and I enjoyed his part in the narrative, but I can see why people would love to strangle him or piss on his grave 🤣.

Just my two cents. Sorry for the long ramble.

I just did a search on here for Roque au Fabii and i fully expected to see people writing in depth character analyses describing how he was a good man tainted by fascism and his shit ass golden upbringing. Turns out everyone just fucking hates him🙃