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sideblogdotjpeg · 3 months

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ive been thinking about the red string superstition recently and also sol bufo always and it makes me sick how uncannily caldwell tanner has made sol to perfectly target me personally

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#naddpod #ba2mia #ba2umia #solum bufo #swag daniels #calliope petrichor #calder kilde #alexandrite #posts by me dot com #okay..... SECRET TAGS RAMBLE!#so basically this superstition is like ... i think a chinese/buddhist/taoist superstition?#ive taken some creative liberties with it... but its mostly accurate to how its been told to me?#but of course theres lots of variations! some more abt bad luck; some say to tie it on the doorknob #etc etc ... lots a variations #i was also rlly interested in the .... weird illogic? of the thing?#like the red attracts and repels spirits at the same time #so thats something i was thinking about with too. red is assocuated with both swag and alexandrite. which to me was kinda reflecting like #i think what murph said . swags place in the wild is in a way. an extension of what he learned from the network #mothership s inextractivle from sol and swags lives. they will always be held doen by it. thats the spirit that will follow them forever #that they choose to hold on too! as much pain as it brought ... some of the experience was worth it #and anyway. theres somethingwrong w me that the minute someone brought up this superstition my brain went #'ohhh just like sol!' < needs to touch grass moment #but i CANT BELIEVE. CALDWELL DID THE RED STRING. AND ITS LITERALLY A MOURNING RITUAL #caldwell keeps accodentally makig that frog ASIAN. to MEEEE!!!!!!#but. anyway. idk. ive always hced sol kept the piece of yarn and it makes me kinda .... what if y let the malicious spirits follow you.#and haunt you. what if its the closest you can get to keeping the person still around #and sol and swag obviously have so much about homes .... so!#(ok. weve reached the pt where maybe nobodys reading? so confession is this is sort of a well. ive just been doodling this comic everyday #after a wake. and it was sort of inspired after realising i was even a bit sad about it maybe. so. idk its about sol but also?#i guess the projection doesnt end at him being asian. hehe. is what i mean. LOL. okay secret tags over . buried lore. dont look here folks)

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nashvillethotchicken · 7 months

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A subtle way you can tell lestat is very selfish and ignorant about race, especially in ep 6 is that he said that they'd go to Argentina, a country which at the time was explicitly looking for white Europeans (including n*zis) to move there after spending decades pushing their black and Indigenous populations to the fringes of society to whiten up the country

#amc iwtv #iwtv #interview with the vampire #lestat de lioncourt #like i dont think hes doing it on purpose #i think he saw somewhere that takes Europeans and he sees claudia and louis as extensions of himself so if he'll be welcomed they'll be too #like i genuinely dont think he thought of moving somewhere that wasnt as segregated for the sake of louis or claudia #and to give the barest of credit. there wereny many places they could both go #lestat isnt allowed in europe cus of armand and them and louis and claudia cant move unencumbered through most of the us bc of segregation #like the only place they could go in the us at the time as an interracial family is ohio (only state with intteraccial marriage in 1940)#and they couldnt even be out there #so i understand leaving the country but picking a place that is already pushing its black population further into the fringes #is just another way to control the movements of louis and claudia. even if lestat doesnt realise or have that intent #like if they decide to leave him when theyre in Argentina theyre literally boned. especially in the 40s when all the n*zis are coming #and tou can see this in other parts of their relationship. like lestat is ok taking louis' to operas where louis has to be a valet to get in #he says that their money had protected them from legal backlash for being gay but not really for louis being black #lestat not getting the multiple microagressions from the lawyer #hell lestat even says “if he had offended you i would have killed him”. implying he doesn't believe that louis had a right to be offended #like lestat is ignorant to race especially in the american context and especially especially in other countries #hes white and french. they invented racism like there is a non 0 chance he saw saarah baartman displayed in a traveling circus in france #like i dont think he is outwardly racist like the alderman or tom but hes ignorant as hell.#he probably didnt see his first black person until he was 25

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calumhoodgoss · 6 months

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Here for comfort because I FUCKING KNEW IT.

I'm posting from bed because I'm too depressed to get up.

OH MY FUCK I DIDNT EVEN NOTICE THAT

Crying

Screaming

Throwing up

WHAT DO WE THINK GUYS IS IT AN ENGAGEMENT RING

#im in denial #i cant believe she wouldnt post showing it off??#like at least a little tiktok wearing the damn thing #wish that i could wake up with amnesia #also just had a huge stalk through a bunch of accounts and why is NO ONE TALKING ABOUT THIS #babes are you the first person to even realise it #an expert in our midst #5sos #5 seconds of summer #amh #ask

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ableedingpromise · 2 months

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God I'm so fucking annoyed how come she gets to treat me however she likes and then gets to say she didn't mean it?????

#have u considered not constantly comparing me to ur abusive husband who hit u??????#since i was like 8 its really fucking weird #like who in their right mind tells their child theyre naturally destructive just like their father and then says ohhhhh but i didnt mean it #are u fucking insane #doesnt help that i look like him too everyone tells me that #and now she acts like me raising my voice once means she needs to walk on eggshells around me wtf #what about how u treated me from ages 13-16 #freak #i cant believe this shes treating me like im some scary stranger as if shes not the one with full financial control and that im this horribl #person go kill yourself omgjdjsjsjwjwwhwhhw #fuck u #last year was the worst year of my life and that was wholy bc of u you showed me what place i really have in this family and that it was not #hing. how is sveryrone so ready to throw me away??#yet everyone else gets to say shes sooo proetctive and loving fuck off you wouldnt even tell them youre treating me badly diedie diediediedi #i want to cut so bad bro #but i promised myself i wont so #i mean i dont even have any way of gettibg blades so whatver #just remembered her reaction to me cutting #nothing. yeah absolutely no reaction. i thought the worat thing that could happen was her gettjbg mad at me again but no #i realised there was somwthing worse. she just straight up doesnt care #useless mother #im fine w u treating me like shit ive accepeted it that i have no place in anyone's life unlesss i hive into this but at least #at least stop trying to confront me like this #just let me rot in peace #i really dont want to do this anymore #any time now she'll ask me if i was pretending to cry so i wpuldnt have to go out w her now #as if that isnt insulting #and then she'll say i wasnt trying to be rude!!! as if she hasnt always treated me like none of my feelings r real. i only ever overeact. ok

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 9 months

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sigh

#i think the universe is playing a prank on me here #that at age 14 i went #'rip to rose but i would never fall in love with the doctor could never be me'#and then to be faced with 13 and the realisation that rip to rose but im not different #and then and THEN #they put this fucker back in there so now im #here #like #ive done my best for my lesbianisms #ive put work into my lesbian tendencies alright #not a lesbian but i believe in their beliefs deeply #so like excuse me mr tennant but you cant just get back in here and have me googling #your fucking eye colour #just bc im that far gone for the thIRTEENTH doctor #thirteen. alright. hear me? mr tennant. thirteen.#its brown btw #which is great for the sentence i was about to write but thats really my only win here #deep deep sigh #i dont even like him!#likewith all due respect it wasnt mr wet sad puppy eyes who had me looking up the kinsey scale at 2 in the morning after the giggle alright #im hijacking his whole noble-temple-doctor happy ending just to write more thasmin and yET #yet i find myself #here. googling david tennants eye colour #we find ways to keep struggling on dont we #hes not that special!!!!!

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hella1975 · 1 year

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hi hella do you have thoughts on the tiktokification of ethel cain (given her leaving social medias) anyway sorry if you dont i just love the way you think xx

i think a very simplified explanation of what tiktok does to music and why it fundamentally always Grates on me is that people on tiktok cannot just listen to a song. it's no longer enough to enjoy a song or an artist. you're not a 'true fan' if you just simply listen to the music and find any level of enjoyment from it. you have to instead know every single lyric, and every meaning of that lyric, and then when that isn't enough because the masses are now also doing that, you then need to know what the artist's thought process was for the lyrics, where they were when they wrote it, exactly what they mean by it. interpretation is no longer allowed because the 'true fans' correct you with what the artist said in a niche interview from 2019 and 'if you really liked the song you would know that'. it doesnt matter what the song means to YOU because it now needs to be consumed in the Exact Way Tiktok Says It Should Be. and then of course it all becomes narrower and narrower and all the while the fans are TEARING the artists apart in an attempt to be the one individual listening to them most often and most correctly and with the most thorough understanding, and the artist is just. some guy. like literally just a person behind a screen reading every stupid as fuck thing and seeing the same stupid as fuck comments over and over and over again and it's like yeah. that would drive me fucking insane too actually

#there is no correct way of consuming media. like this need to be special and the snobbery it creates is something even ive been guilty of #like i will say ive only ever joked about it (like i made a post a while ago about tiktokers not realising gibson girl #was about drugs and prostitution) but i cant think of a time ive ever been ACTUALLY pissed about it #and that was more me being annoyed the tiktok crowd had got ethel cain anyway like IN GENERAL lol #but people on tiktok are actually IN that mindset. like they truly believe there's a correct way to listen to music #and they WILL police you on it if you dont adhere to that and they NEED it to be memeable so they can feel like they have inside jokes #with the artist despite them being a fucking stranger and it's WEIRD and more than anything it's fucking ANNOYING #and at the end of the day someone who listens to gibson girl bc it hypes them up and they have no idea about the lyric meaning #or its context in the rest of the album or in fact who ethel cain even is #are doing just as much justice to the art as people who listen to every single song religiously and know every single meaning #ultimately music is created to make people feel things. art is created to make people feel things #if you felt something listening to it then great. that is literally the only requirement needed. you dont need the artist's social security #number and worst traumatic experience in order to be considered thee fan of all time #ask

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sanest-bsd-delegate · 1 year

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WAIT-

MY DUMB BRAIN CANT-

ATSUSHI IS 18 YEARS OLD (Naur why do people ship him with kids)

AKUTAGAWA IS 20 YEARS OLD (I thought he was 18 smthg)

DAZAI IS 22 YEARS OLD (And i thought he was a 25 year old man)

RANPO IS 26 YEARS OLD ( As they say, he is 26 with the 2 silent)

ANGO IS 26 YEARS OLD (wym he is going to have midlife crisis soon?)

Welp anyways.....

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loveinourowngrave · 16 days

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the thing is. i’m a proponent of samdean starting precanon. not always but in a lot of contexts i like it. it just makes so much SENSE. the reason they act Like That in the first episode. deans constant nostalgiaing about wanting things to go back to the Way They Were Before. two teenagers kept continually isolated from the world (in terms of being unable to build lasting connections) sharing a room in a motel their whole life their only model a guy who’s excellent at blurring lines. but their age gap is 4 years that’s a lot for teenagers. immediate insane power imbalance. icl in any form of weecest sam is a victim on some level no matter how you spin it

#idk like on one level i dont like weecest because of this. like it will alwaysss have that fucked up undertone to me you cant get rid of tha #sam is 4 years younger than him which is a lot for teenagers and dean has soo much authority over him. the power imbalance is impossible to #avoid. there is no weecest which isnt partially grooming. and my issue w this is not that i dont believe it #because i completely do. and in some ways it just makes soodoooo much sense to me. the deference sam still has to dean in canon even when #theyre 36 and 40. the way hell forgive anything. obviously there is more than that but i can’t think on it rn #tldr hendricksen was right #anyway my point was. if i’m thinking about wincest as ~omg so romantic!! i rlllly dont like fixating on weecest and instead prefer to think #it happened spontaneously in s1/2. (s2 is peak romance…….)#but normally i dont view sam and dean like that at all. they’re an abusive relationship. so i dont find it hard to believe that they started #off in a way that neither of them fully realised was Messed Up at the time but completely was #samdean

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cheecats · 2 years

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hi this is Not a request i just wanted to pop in and say Thank You for your rowanclaw posting bc i do genuinely love that guy and i’ve been focusing a lot on tawnyrowan in my fic but i have no critical thinking skills or braincells so i havent been able to dig into the Meat of his character yet

and you pointed out some stuff i hadn’t thought about!! i read avos recently but its been probably at least 5 years since i read anything else so memory?? no.

but i do love him <33 and i think sometimes about how the erins made him tawnypelt’s mate only bc they felt bad for misgendering him in the beginning and what would the world where that didn’t happen look like….hm but anyway

i will leave your inbox now sorry have a good day :)))

Hey there!! Thank-you so much for the kind words! I'm always keen to jot down my thoughts on Rowanclaw, because there's a lot of potential for both the past origins and the future/current actions of his character to be explored upon... neither of which the Erins ever really bother to look into because they're pretty clueless and careless with the cast of characters they already have. They're always keen to just chuck out characters that aren't main players so they can introduce new protagonists which, idk, its spoiled my enjoyment of the series to say the least. Because Rowanclaw definatley isn't the only example I can think of (hell even Tawnypelt kind of fits that discarded potential vibe.)

How exciting though! Good luck with getting your fic done, I'm happy for you to use some of my ramblings to help flesh out your portrayal of Rowanclaw if it helps! Have a RowanTawny blob as a good luck charm!

-- also secret Rowan + Tawny ramblings in the og tags if anyone is interested hee-hee

#wander-wren #cheez rambles #cheez answers #rowanclaw #rowanstar #tawnypelt #rowantawny #// even rowan + tawny have an interesting dynamic w how they both have this tortured yet determined personal relationship with Shadowclan #// and are both constantly trying to find a rocky footing to keep their pride pure when their clan has a murky past #// + their own relationships towards Shadowclan has this dark edge to it that they both cant quite shake #// I recall even Rowanclaw was VERY cruel and condescending to Tawnypelt early on when she was a recent warrior #// he didn't believe in her devotion to the clan because of her half blood and her closeness with Brambleclaw #// and you best believe im gonna interpret that as a mix of projecting his own insecurities on her/his resentment toward Tigerstar #// aka her father who did the exact same exploitative crap with his power like Brokenstar did #// but later on Rowan realising hey... why tf am i judging her for something she didn't do + we're more alike than i thought

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corvid-on-the-rock · 3 months

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tumblr leftists when they think they'd just be able to install their perfect lefty candidate and get them voted in in 3 months, when even the vaguestly left, status quo questioning democratic nominees have been shunned by the American people for the last.. checks notes pretty much since forever actually

Bonus points if they "haven't been following the election" or some variation thereof. Like bro you genuinely don't know what's happening, shut up.

#like you guys are hopeful and that's nice but you genuinely clearly do not understand what is happening here #LOG OFF #LOG THE FUCK OFF AND ACTUALLY ENGAGE WITH THE CLIMATE AND CONVERSATION #Did you know there were other democratic nominees this year? did America vote for them? NO #THEY DID NOT #BECAUSE THE PEOPLE WANT JOE BIDEN #OR AT LEAST #BELIEVE WHAT I DO IN THAT HE'S OUR SAFEST BET RIGHT NOW AND THAT A MINUTELY MORE EXTREME CANDIDATE #LIKE WE CANT AFFORD A HILLARY MARGIN AGAIN #THAT'S WHAT WE'RE ACTUALLY AFRAID OF DONT YOU REALISE #EVEN IF WE GET THE VOTES IN BODIES THERE IS NO GARUNTEE THAT CALCULATES TO ELECTORAL VOTES #GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF THE FUCKING SAND. TAKE SOME HIGH SCHOOL CLASSES BECAUSE Y'ALL ARE AVERAGING A 9TH GRADE UNDERSTANDING OF THIS #prisoner's dilemma 2024

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danvillecheese · 2 years

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no bc im SO excited to see buford in the reboot i miss that guy

#buford van stomm #phineas and ferb #cant believe he was like. lowkey my fave the whole time and i didnt even realise #hes so goofy #pnf revival

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dirt-str1der · 1 year

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just wanna say im obsessed with your mind and i read your posts about kiryu like the morning paper. thank you for your service

(Sweats) e-even the ones about him laying eggs ?

#Thanks for the ask !#HIIIIII thank you for reading my posts im really a serial rambler so that is no easy feat. i just had a lowkey nightmare that was insect #based so its nice to think about different kinds of eggs once in a while. sorry for the eggs i just learned the word gravid and i cant stop #saying it !!! i literally opened tumblr to make another post about kiryu i was gonna say he was probably antisocial in his childhood which #is really a miracle any girls managed to notice him at all. and i believe that he was very dismissive of his clothing and appearance because #you know when youre young and trans and havent realised it but you just randomly hate everything about your appearance and dont even knowwhy #i think his hair was always too long and too shaggy and he would let nishiki comb it sometimes because he really could not stand his mane #and sometimes when it gets wayy too long and shitty the sunflower caretaker would drag him outside and just cut a chunk of it off with a #knife and kiryu would have shoulder length hair for a little while... anyway i need to give him a little girlfriend like how rikiya had one #when he was in school because all trans guys need a little girlfriend or an all girl group of friends to be his girlfriends when hes a kid #so he can carry their shopping bags and wait for them outside the changing room etc and kiryu cant resist a girl so he gets a letter from #nishiki and he tells him yeah this is probably a prank to have you wait there for hours or there might be guys waiting to ambush you and #beat the crap out of you. and kiryus like Nobody beats the crap out of me except our dad. and goes to meet this girl and he actually agrees #to go out with her and this is the thing that keeps him in school because otherwise he would literally not go. like hed walk with yumi and #nishiki and the rest of the kids at sunflower that he doesnt care about to remember the names of. and he would just wave them off at the #gate and wander the town in his school uniform and then after school he’ll meet nishiki and possibly yumi at the gate (yumi probably makes #other friends but its a Must to walk nishiki home because he’ll get lonely) and when kiryu starts going out with this girl hes obligated to #walk her home so he already broke rule one but nishikis like happy for him But he has to walk home with some other random guys now and #eventually theyll broach the topic of ‘his psycho sister’ and nishiki literally has to beat a few guys up to defend kiryus honour and when #he comes back with news of how unpopular kiryu is with the rest of the guys because he looks better with short hair than they do and has a #girlfriend whos super cute. kiryu is just like damn did you commit social suicide to protect my honour? youre my best friend. but whatever #kids get over it fast. but parents dont!! and kiryu walks his girlfriend right to her front door and soon enough her parents are going to #find out that the boyfriend she keeps gushing about is a girl and straight up take her out of school to make her stop being gay and kiryus #like but ... im a boy ... punches the ground and screams to the sky. anyway enough about dysphoria simulator im here to talk about this guy #when hes a bit older because im salivating and shaking over the thought of his bootyass rip kiryu you woulda loved thongs. i think hed hate #ripped jeans but only because he thinks theyre a waste of manufacturing. its literally better for the world that kiryu decided 2 transition #because can you imagine if she was a girl and needed to wear a bra? like she would literally have an itchy back all the time which would #give her a hair trigger temper which means kamurocho a&e room will be very healthily plush indeed. god my battery is dying i need to take a #shower noww anyway really thank you for the nice message you are so sweet ... hi ...

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dizzybevvie · 1 year

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Listen I fully follow wkm lore but like how the FUCK did he come up with any of that

#Markiplier woke up one day and said What if i was a man tortured by himself and his sentient house.#What if you cant die in the house #What if the house lets you fast travel #What if the detective is only a cliche and nothing more; so when he is pressed on the details of the case hes been following for YEARS #hes devastated by the fact that he cant remember a thing?#What if the Damien looked like Darkiplier so that there was a sense of mistrust around him for the whole show #even as he is consistently the only one to help you? What if Damien was nice all along? What if Damien turned out to be Dark anyway?#What if The Actor deliberately made it so that Damien came across as the villain just as he wanted in “DAMIEN”? What if we fell for it?#What if Celine cared so much about her brother that she fucked you over in an attwmpt to help him?#What if she kept him in a winter pocket dimension while you reach out for the cane?#What if he didnt remember everything that happened in the house and is always tired?#What if hes constantly being told “get some sleep damien” and “its time to wake up damien” to show the duality of sharing a body?#What if at the end its all pointless because the ice breaks anyway? What if Damien “life is ours to choose” Mayor makes his first choice #to let his sister sleep while he pilots the body?#What if by the time you arrive back in the present the body Damien and Celine stole from you is looking in the mirror #and just like the ice broke in the pocket dimension; the mirror cracks and you are forever stuck behind the mirror/your device's screen?#What if the detective believes you were killed as he says in WWM? What if The colonel (now Wilford Motherloving Warfstache)#can fast travel; time travel; teleport; and fuck knows what else because he realised he was part of a story?#What if that was the reason the detective was a conglomerate of different noir detective cliches?#What if theres masks on everyone but the detective at the end and I said “what masks?” when asked abt it and you still dk what it means?#What if the gardener didnt have lightning strike after saying “murder” because he hasnt been in the house for years?#what if the house seeded things in the actors head after Celine left him saying about how nothing was his fault and it was all someone else?#What if the house did this for years untik the actor was well and truly manipulated by a force he didnt even know was there?#what if he wanted Damien to be the villain in his “story” which implies that when he figured out how to cheat death in the house-#he also figured out he was a part of a story just like Wilford and eventually Abe did?#What if no one had a happy ending what if everyone was tragic what if people were only what you wrote for them as characters?#And what if the house was my head? What if the house was a metaphor for my brain all along?#and also what if they were all gay?#wkm #who killed markiplier

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 3 months

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having funnn im having fun

#yaz starting this breakdown by going 'and i think im angry'#actualy i mightve edited that out i think she just says 'i hate him sometimes' now ghjfkghjg #cant have your characters say what they meannnnnnn #this is already very direct #but you gotta let them yell sometimes #especially yaz #the doctor opening this scene calling her co-pilot and telling her not to jump out of the tardis #yaz ending this scene by telling her to jump out of the tardis gfhjkghgj #'i love you dont kill yourself' -> 'i dont believe you and actually you know what. do kill yourself'#dhfkjhfgjh <3 girlies #15 in the background like fUCK #hey wait im having a language realisation here #You Who Calls The Shots. the verb agrees with........'it'. right? yeah. you is the.......i have no idea. but not the subject #fun bc i dont even notice these things..............anymore #but in french it's like 'c'est moi qui ai' and im like heyo wtf are you doing 'ai'?? fghkghj #anyway 'if im not who i thought i was'#i dont think yaz ever really bought into........like the flat team structure. bc i think she always felt that her position wasnt equal #or she wouldnt have been so angry abt it in halloween #so i dont think thats a crisis necessarily in terms of identity or position #but i do lately have her ask 'what am i' a lot to the doctor in different words #not from a place of 'i thought i was your equal and now i realise im not'#but more 'i knew i wasnt your equal but jesus am i even WORTH anything to you?'#she knew she was human vs the doctor's superhuman or supernatural a little #but now it feels like. or she feels like. maybe theres a relegation from person to.........toy :/#she knew she wasnt equal but she didnt feel replaceable necessarily #i think now she feels replaceable #not just not a friend in the doctor's eyes. but not a person in the doctor's eyes #and idk maybe thats true #idk how the doctor really thinks abt humans. i think it'd be hard for me to keep thinking of people as people when...youve known so many #maybe they become Friends instead of people

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hella1975 · 1 year

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by pure evil accident taob zuko's current mental state is the exact same as the one ive been stuck in for the past few weeks and that's a bit funny to me. like i started writing this chapter months ago and knew what i was doing with it even longer ago and suddenly ive manifested it into reality. we are both facing the horrors rn

#when the angry character finally learns to acknowledge their rage not as its own problem but as a coping mechanism to the problem #& faces at once the relief of finding the source of all this anger & the horror of realising that the anger itself was never the final boss #and it leaves them in a depressive state where they actually MISS the anger because at least that was active and - in a sense - dignified #whereas this just feels stilted and mopey and like each day is passing and you're losing time doing nothing #but you cant shake it anyway and wow im no longer talking about zuko!!!! we stay embarassing ourselves over taob!!!!#like i realised just now while staring off into space stirring my tea that the reason this particular depressive episode has hit me so hard #(aside the fact it's been a pretty extreme one and my paranoia has rlly flared up to the point ive felt honest to god CRAZY lately haha)#is because it's so DIFFERENT to how i usually respond to feeling like this #like normally my temper gets very quick and i completely isolate and i get mean and sharp #and i convince myself that everyone is out to get me and/or hates me and therefore i must manipulate everyone in my life #and ofc NONE OF THOSE THINGS ARE A GOOD RESPONSE. I AM NOT PROUD OF THEM #THEY ARE ALSO NOT NEARLY AS BAD AS HOW I USED TO BE HENCE I KNOW I AM GETTING BETTER #SLOWLY PAINFULLY WITH MY NAILS DIGGING IN THE DIRT BUT I AM GETTING BETTER ALL THE SAME #but STILL despite how awful those things are they're also very external. like i hurt the people around me in order to protect myself #and there's a dignity to that. there's more control there even if ultimately it's a lack of control causing it #like i have some fucked opinions from my upbringing and ik that like im quite a selfish person and it's bc i was raised to truly believe #that hurting others is always optimal over letting myself be seen as weak. like if my options are to hurt someone even someone i love #or let myself be vulnerable then sometimes i STILL will pick the former (it used to be all the time though <3 progress is progress)#and anger has always been sold to me as a very dignified STRONG emotion and it's how you're SUPPOSED to respond to badness #otherwise you're weak and a baby and pathetic etc etc #and just bc you know something is wrong doesnt mean you didnt internalise the fuck out of it anyway #like i will always see anger as the 'dignified' emotion and unlearning it regardless of that has been one of the hardest things ive done #('wow hella your own journey with mental illness is the literal exact same as taob zuko's-' i will hospitalise the both of us)#whereas currently ive just been sad and pathetic and oversharing to anyone who will listen and desperate for someone to look at me #and be like 'you're not okay' and to fix it FOR ME. like im not ANGRY im SAD and im not used to that response #AND GUESS WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENS THIS CHAPTER BY PURE FUCKING COINCIDENCE?? LITERALLY WHAT #like it's been happening for a few chapters that we're finally moving from anger to sadness on my unofficial healing chart #ever since zuko's outburst with hakoda when zi se had that tantrum #but this is the first time we see Sad Coping Mechanism as a response to a problem instead of Angry Coping Mechanism #taob updates

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andromedamemes · 5 months

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when you reblog this post, make sure to put your follower count range in the tags! with enough responses, i think the results could be really interesting.

#i have more than 1000 followers #most are inactive though!#so reblog to spread this around!#poll #cant believe i made this entire poll without realising that i cant even choose any of the options #because i did not reblog this from anyone

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