#i cant stop thinking about this and i might just have to make it at this point

[starboye]

starring: nerdy!matt sturniolo x male reader

request: matt helping you study (or at least trying to) and you're to horny to even focus so you tease matt the whole time

warnings: smut, cursing, teasing, edging, blow job, nerdy!matt

"c'mon matt you got this just read the paragraph" you coo as if you didn't have your hand wrapped around his cock slowly pumping away, he offered to help you study for your upcoming test but this isn't what he meant, but maybe it was his fault for agreeing to study while laying in bed knowing you would very well do this to him "ngh please y/n we have to study" matt whimpered, his thighs twitching with each slight move of your hand, i mean how could matt be so dumb to think you would actually call him over just to study.

"don't worry about me i'll ace the test because i have my very smart boyfriend to help me study, right" you tease rubbing you thumb across his aching leaky tip "i mean how would i ever do anything with out you helping me" you says kissing his cheek and moving down to lay small kisses on his neck "please" matt whispers "m'gonna need you to speak up matty" you taunt him and now he's not sure how much more of this torture he can take before he blows "ple- mm fuck y/n... please suck me" matt lowly repeats.

"happily" you quickly kiss him before your traveling down and getting comfy in between his legs, you fully take off his underwear and pants and lick his tip, flicking the beads of pre cum onto your tongue "mmm you taste so good matt" you smile before you start slapping his dick onto your tongue, matt by now has thrown the book somewhere onto the bed and as much as he didn't want to bring his eyes to your, fearful of the effect it might have on him he couldn't stop looking at you.

you sunk your mouth onto his twitchy dick and bobbing your head up and down, matts hands flew to grip the sheets of your bed tightly, watching your actions through fluttering eyelashes "fuckkk" matt let out broken guttural moans that sounded like he was on the edge of cumming but you quickly pull off his dick, jerking him off to make up for the loss of your mouth "i cant have you cumming that quick now can i" you tease even more, your hand moving at an agonizingly slow pace that left him just on the edge but never cumming.

"fuck y/n... please i wanna cum" matt whines, thighs twitchy to the touch of your hand "i know but you can hold it for just a little longer" you say leaning down to kiss his thighs, one hand moving to fondle his balls a little "mm mm" he shakes his head, biting down on his lip to silence his moan, he was thanking god that you're family wasn't home right now to hear him and his whiny noises.

you wanted to draw this out for longer, edge him on again and again just to ruin it but his cute face scrunching with each of you teasing moves made you take pity on him, you sink your mouth back onto his cock and resume bobbing your head up and down till matt was writhing uncontrollably in his place before cumming in your mouth, loud whimpers flood from his mouth just as his cum floods your mouth.

you bring your head up and wipe your mouth of the arousal before crawling towards his dazed face and kissing him, you lay flat on his huffing chest "we should study together more often" you say snuggling into him "ye... yeah definitely" matt says finally coming back to his senses "did you really study for that test though" matt asks now rubbing you back "nope" you say unbothered making matt roll his eyes.

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[dissociative-misinfo]

"b-but some people just dont want a diagnosis!"

self suspicion or self diagnosis as people tend to call it exists to be used as a temporary measure to try and guess at what you may be experiencing until you can see a professional. it should never be used in place of a professional diagnosis, and if you use it that way and your journey starts and stops at self diagnosing, you are anti-recovery and misusing the tools of self suspicion and self help.

self suspicion should be "ive been experiencing a lot of depression symptoms for months now and i feel i may have depression. im going to use that knowledge of probably being depressed to be kinder to myself while i wait for my next therapy appointment to discuss it with my therapist." not "i read the simplified criteria for depression once and then parroted a bunch of tumblr posts about depression, im self diagnosing myself with it and i dont want a real diagnosis because a therapist might say i dont have it."

when you stop at self suspicion you are highly likely to be wrong. your self suspicions can be useful to bring up to a therapist, so they can keep those possibilities in mind when assessing you. but you are not a therapist, and you are not capable of doing a full and objective differential on yourself the way a trained professional can. operating under the assumption you have a disorder that you may not even have can have repercussions on your mental health and even on the community you want to represent so bad.

quickfire predicting the comments:

"but if you have a cold you dont always go to the hospitwl you just take cold medicine!" a cold is a physical ailment you can self test via taking cold medicine and observing if that medicine works. cold meds are OTC approved and low risk if you take them unnecessarily. self testing for a cold by taking cold meds to see if your suspicion is right or not is very different to, say, self diagnosing with bipolar. bipolar is also treated with meds, but not OTC approved ones you can safely take to test whether you have bipolar or not. if you take bipolar meds and you arent bipolar, chances are you will experience negative side effects or develop other mental symptoms.

"but the psych industry can be criticized and i personally dont support it!" the psych industry can absolutely be criticized, but throwing it away as a whole is anti science and frankly stupid. if you dont support the psych industry then you dont support the labels we've given to disorders in the first place, rendering your self diagnosis an act of hypocricy. if you really wanted to disown the psych industry you wouldnt use their terms in your tumblr bio.

"i cant get diagnosed im in an unsafe situation!" then your priority should not be which mental disorder you have. being in an unsafe or unstable environment is going to make it harder for you to correctly identify your symptoms. focus on stabalization before you even start digging through the dsm, buddy.

"i cant afford a diagnosis!" fair enough, but that doesnt give you a pass to go around talking about all the disorders you self suspect as though its proven fact. there needs to be more acknowledgement that self diagnosis is a suspicion made by people who are not qualified. it is not fact and it does not give you the right to spout unfounded claims about the disorder simply because you think you might have it.

"well what if i dont care about a diagnosis because i dont care if im wrong?" you are anti recovery and im not dealing with you. im a pro recovery blog. taketh thou bullshit elsewhere.

[casualavocados]

…It's nice. You're so noisy. […] Actually, it'd be better if we died together. That way, neither of us would have to suffer the pain of losing the other, right? Shut up.

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 13

[ganondoodle]

(im maybe thinking a little too much about that totk rewritten project ..)

had a cool idea and wanna know what people would prefer; after you beat ganondorf once, marking the half way point of the game, would you rather:

get a long cutscene in which you see some of his memories, that shows why he ended up there and why he is the way he is, with you occasionally being able to walk around in them

get a few sudden flashes of memories, nothing detailed or clear but have 'miasma hearts' spawn across the surface and underground map, a tree like growth of miasma that holds an important memory from the past; they unlock in order of them happening as there are several stages of growth to them, you can find all before seeing the first one but you cant access the memory until the 'tree' has matured, they will grow more the closer you are to unlocking them; they slowly lead you back towards ganondorf and you need all of them to unlock the endboss

[sonknuxadow]

it was certainly a choice for warrior cats to put a fan's cat in the book and then have his backstory be that his owners put him in a bag and threw him in the river as a kitten

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

[nostalgia-tblr]

I watched Avengers: Age of Ultron (apart from I skipped some overly long action sequences) and I am not sure so can someone tell me whether or not Tony Stark was the baddy in that film? Because about halfway through I was sure he was but then it was maybe just an evil robot after all and I am confused because either this film was surprisingly subversive or it was about robots hitting each other.

[autisticlee]

sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.

but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.

I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.

(continue in tags)

[crazy-fangirl2524]

No you guys don’t understand. Neil was playing as a way to try to live and how he wants to try actually living instead of surviving. Winning against the ravens doesn’t matter to Neil, winning against his father does. But the books don’t end with Baltimore. It ends with the raven game. But this game means more to Kevin than it can ever to any other characters. All for the game. Neil can survive without exy. He can run away and start a new life. But kevin day does not have anything else. This entire series is for kevin day

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[shutup-andletme-go]

I cannot rely on one person for me to be happy my happiness isn't allowed to be only triggered by one person I can be happy at every little thing it doesn't matter about this one person

[spacejammie-eimmajecaps]

Had a doctor tell me quite sincerely this morning that my "life seems miserable" because of my health problems and it immediately made me think of the damn bitch you live like this meme

[wormthing]

@lonely-dog-song and I's button table at a craft fair last week! If you thought I had uploaded many buttons on ko-fi, then you will see that we have a lot more left from that day. (Some of these sold but most did not. We're going back for another event in a month, I guess we'll see how that goes! Thank you to everyone here that has bought stuff from me online!)

[iiusia]

hm.

[strawberri-syrup]

there are more than 130 people booked to come to the course tomorrow plus walkups and its supposed to be in the upper 90s and low 100s all day PLUS HUMIDITY and im working a double

[candlebel]

I cared. I still do. I still think of you and I still cry over you. You were importat to me. You still are.