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flibbetygibbetsbro · 5 months

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guys...it was me the whole time...

#i couldn't hide it anymore #im sorry i lied #i fangirled about keefe a little too hard #keeper of the lost cities #kotlc #kotlc fandom

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fivveweeks · 5 months

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moe moe beam

#limbus company #heathcliff lcb #heathcliff limbus company #project moon #dante lcb #draws #edit: i should make it clear that this isn't meant that heathcliff hated dante before canto 6 lmao #it was that he was still distrustful n couldn't bring himself to show care as openly as he could after canto 6 #a lot of moments where he cared he immediately retracted out of distrust which is understandable #after canto 6 it's clear that he fully trusts dante now #especially after what they did during his canto #it's fitting that they released his announcer lines after that #to show that he now doesn't have to hide his true nature anymore n he has a group of support network now

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wrylu · 8 months

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re-draw of this art from 2 weeks ago because i wanted to make it actually good

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balkanballad · 5 months

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had a day that made me think oh that was a bit heavy on the symbolism, wasn't it

#j. talks #went to visit my brother in his uni city and also connected it with an event there #I know this event because I went there once with a uni course that of course was with my fave former prof #so I know she's usually there but it's a bigger city and Friday and there are a lot of things at different locations #chances are not zero but I thought come on if anything it will be casual running into her #well as I was waiting with my brother and a whole crowd of people to be let in who do I hea #and see :))) yeah it's my fave prof. and I told my brother and he told me to go and say hi but there were so many people already talking to #her and also going there and saying hi so I simply couldn't. I literally froze our shoulders were nearly touching but she wasn't even facin #me and taking and I just followed my brother and he was like???#what was that?? and I didn't know. and he asked my why I looked so shameful out of all the emotions I chose shame #and I don't know. I don't know why shame I consuming me no matter where I go. but she was busy and imagine I go up and she has no idea who #am anymore. they had to burry me right there and then. so that was that :) now #the name of that street of the location burned into my memory as I was facing the wall well it's the name of [redacted] who I never really #get over and it's been 10 years now soon. and we had a similar experience in December :) where I would have loved nothing more really than #to talk (in Decembar definitely also other things that I miss on some days very much) but I barely got a wave #so yeah :) I actually had a great day but I am more than overwhelmed. I feel like crying and hiding #taurus season is apparently not here to save me? idk #is this all about wasted potential and shame stopping me? maybe. but how the fuck do I get it out of me

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running-in-the-dark · 6 months

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#currently crying because I'm alone with my husband's 94 year old grandma and I'm the only one who ever lets her talk about certain topics #so she just talked about her childhood and youth for one and a half hours #which means. the war #I'm not gonna go into it but it makes me cry every time even though I've already heard it all before #how can you not cry about a child who lost two of her teenaged brothers and had to watch the third one very nearly die too #the stories about how careful they had to be because the police constantly went to every house and checked everything #how they had to hide some of the milk from their cows so they could make butter because they couldn't afford to buy it #and how dangerous that was.#idk I'm so tired of people dying over senseless and unnecessary shit forever and ever and nothing ever changes and no one ever seems #to learn from it #or at least the ones in power don't #as long as there's disposable people (men) to send to war it doesn't matter. and now that's not even necessary anymore you can just kill #people from far away and. I'm just tired #and I'll shut up now and not talk about these things again as usual. it's not because I don't care it's because it (literally) drives me #insane to think about it and I know it's weak and pathetic but I have to choose to stay just barely sane enough to stay alive #can't stop crying. 🙃#anyway. shouldn't talk about it so. bye

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ineffable-baker-street · 11 months

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S01E04:

"May you be forgiven."

"I won't be forgiven. Not ever. That's part of a demon's job description, unforgiveable, that's what I am."

S02E06:

"I forgive you."

"Don't bother."

#aziraphale gives crowley the only thing he can which is forgiveness #he knows its the thing that will hurt crowley the very most #and also show him just how much he cares #he wanted to kiss crowley and hate him so much in that moment #so he found a way to express both #he couldn't say all the words he wanted to but he needed crowley to know that he wasn't a demon anymore #at least not the kind the rest of the world saw him as #he was not hell nor heaven incarnate #he is human incarnate #and crowley isnt going to listen to that if aziraphale will only say it at the end of all things #if they can't be together then at least crowley can hide behind his dark glasses and general demonness #when they're apart they are an angel and a demon #when they're together they are two halves of a whole human #i forgive you #do it again #good omens #neil gaiman #crowley and aziraphale #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #ineffable idiots #ineffable kiss #ineffable divorce

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fettery-fetterie · 1 month

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if i was an artist with budget i'd be able to draw the buildup and all. i am not an artist with budget tho. so 3 panels will do

Kinda suggestive/nsfw tags btw go there with caution

anyways i think i huave covid

#perceptive little crow #fettered paintbrushes #never thought i'd be able to make a kiss scene this good. it's not spectacular but yesssssssss it's exactly what i wanted #anyhow i'll die and go to hell #depending on how im feeling I'd give you two answers over how this went down #the first one is that peka just was struggling for his life to get the knot done (he's doing a hard one) so he went #'ok maybe if i make out with her I'll be able to hide the fact i can't do this at all'#the second one is that. man. tying someone's tie? having your hands close to their body in an attempt to do something for them?#SPECIALLY what might as well be the love of your life? the one person that you just can't stop looking up to?#man that's hot as fuck #snd he felt it #of course he couldn't describe it (nor that he knows the words anyways) but he felt it deep down #the way im wording this kinda seems like this would've been their first time. like both kissing/making out and #hell maybe even having sex together #which honestly? kinds fits #i guess one of the things about their relationship is the restrain they have #i don't even know why it'd happen yet. i just feel like they wouldn't really like...allow themselves to be intimate. at all #maybe some hugs here and there but never something actually like. deeper #it's just kind of a fun scenario if the bubble finally broke in such an innocuous moment #only because one of the parties felt a little bit more aroused than usual. and decided to act upon it #i guess that'd make it the more painful once they separate bc they literally wouldn't have time to enjoy each other anymore #anyways thoughts thoughts #sorry for being insane over teorija with a suit i think a sleeper agent just activated on me #anywayssss

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korperlos · 2 months

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fucked up day

#overslept then two trains to work were cancelled and i arrived way too late #and at the time i arrived nobody was at the office anymore so i would have had to work alone #if i didnt have a fucking blackout and locked myself out of my work account and couldn't access shit anymore #cannot let the helpdesk handle this without a boss's confirmation due to security and stuff #so back home i go #just for the train to get stuck in zhe middle of nowhere for another hour due to a faulty signal on the tracks #and next week ill have to catch up on today's hours (and yesterdays work)#no idea how im supposed to handle this #i just want to sleep and hide from thr world #its all too much rn

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aletheialed · 4 months

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"I can't believe it! What do they know?"

Trucy is clearly fuming as she talks aloud to herself; her arms folded defensively across her chest. Even though it's been several hours since she first became upset, she still can't stop herself being bothered, and that frustrates her almost as much as everything else.

When she's talked badly about, she can deal with that. It's not a hugely common occurrence - Trucy is neither popular nor unpopular at school, and is certainly thought of as odd - but she prefers it that way, and there's plenty of people who've fallen for her charms over time. But when the one they're insulting is Phoenix, too...

"Oh! Daddy!" she exclaims suddenly, just having noticed him moving behind her. Turning around to face him, she quickly plasters a smile on her face, and tries to play it off.

"You can't sneak up on me like that! Who knows what might happen next time? Tee hee!"

@lawbnd ( starter for nick! )

#ic #lawbnd #c. trucy.#v. mainverse.#THROWS THIS AT YOU AND HIDES... akfkshjh i know we only talked about a trucy insecurities thread briefly but i couldn't help myself; sorry!#no pressure to reply if you're not interested anymore or want to stick to fewer threads but #i have a lot of muse for her rn so HERE YOU GO :P #gonna work on my reply to your beanix starter @ edgeworth next! <3

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leediavhs · 1 year

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aaron "repressed bisexuality" hotchner

#yes this is about him and john blackwolf #he messed around with boys in his teens #i'm hung on the 'theory' his dad was abusive #he felt the need to hide it from him specifically so just.... never really processed it #then met mizz brooks #settled down did the wife house 2.5 kids white picket fence thing #and then ran into john (cue the taylor swift music)#and i think just sort of... learned to accept himself from there knowing it couldn't be lorded over him as a bad thing anymore #i FULLY believe in between the death of mizz brooks and dating then breaking up with beth he at LEAST went on dates with men #bisexual!!!#aaron hotchner #criminal minds

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montanamp3 · 4 months

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tatimaxxing (something big just happened to me but i can't talk about it on this blog because ive posted face)

#my friend's in the hospital again so i spent 20 on an uber with my other friend to go see her #but by the time we got there visiting hours were over 😭#so we just had dinner at the park #and i told her about The Big Terrible Thing for the first time #straight through without embellishment! yay! i think at least #because ive retold the story in so many different ways that im not actually sure what happened anymore #she was like super chill about it though!! and was like im really impressed that you actively made an effort to not be [REDACTED]#not really what she said more like Making An Effort to No Longer [Redacted]#redacted as an action not as a noun blah blah you know #and she told me about how shes faced discrimination at our super homogeneously chinese church which i feel REALLY BAD ABOUT BUT I DON'T KNOW #HOW TO EXPRESS IT TO HER OR WHAT TO SAY ABOUT IT 😭😭😭😭 GIRL HELP #im being so useless and chinese about it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i don't know how to talk to people about things that matter #and idk like ok v non-tatimaxxing of me to say but ive been so self centered and going Wahhh these normies will never experience my #Deep Secret Emotions unlockable only by spending too much time on tumblr as a child #on the other hand i feel like once this has gotten out of the way i don't really have an excuse for not connecting with my church friends #yknow. like i don't have to hide this from them any more #they're great people!! and they're going through so much and I need to be there for them but I couldn't even get tothe stupidhospital on tim #not cry typing just ran out of space #anyway I wish I could care more about them I wish I could make genuine connections without having to lie to feel some sort of weird #rush of power over them because I know the truth and they don't when I lie so much I don't even know what the truth is #I've been putting my face on here more lately because I want to be genuine and I want to not hide things #but idk if it'll work I think it might just make me unemployable 😭😭😭#cc diary

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queerstudiesnatural · 1 year

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barbie again 🌸

#i wore a corset on top of the dress bc i've put on weight and none of my clothes fit me anymore #i couldn't zip that dress up so i used the corset to hide the open back lol #(not actually funny i'm so 😭)#anyway barbie !!!!!#rain.selfies

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screamingay · 5 months

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yet another dream about killing someone and trying to cover it up.. this is normal right

#first time it was some annoying teenager (i was also a teenager) and he was being a real dick and i bashed his head in with some object #in that one there was a full investigation and the blame was being pinned on an old woman that they thought just #went crazy out of nowhere and they wanted to death sentence her and i couldn't fight for her without drawing attention to myself #so i was just trying to clear the evidence before the cops could get to it #anyway this one i just had i was a housewife with 2 kids and an abusive husband and we were on a road trip in the 70s #and we were staying at a cheap hotel when he said something and i realized i couldnt live with him anymore so i got him into the bedroom #and strangled him to death which took a lot longer than i expected #and i was trying to think of what to do with the body and what to tell the cops like if i should get rid of the body then report him missing #be like ohh i dont know what happened he said he was just going for a walk or to get some beer down the street #anyway i was thinking of that while putting off the body thing when i started going through his stuff and realized how much money he #was hiding and that made it more complicated bc how would i explain getting the money if i put it in savings or spent it??#i woke up around there but i still remember how graphic the killing was. in both these dreams actually #all those damn horror movies probably

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talesfromaurea · 1 year

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In the spirit of disability pride month (and my aching spine), I’m dressing up my back brace so I’m more motivated to wear it and Deal with being self-conscious. So far I’ve affixed a deer skull charm and a little pokemon keychain. Maybe I can build a charm rotation so I can decorate it depending on my mood/outfit? All the outside parts are stretchy fabric so I can’t do stickers. I’m open to ideas if anyone reading this has any 😊

#i have to wear it over a layer of clothing so when it got hot out i stopped wearing it #because i couldn't hide it under sweaters anymore #then i was like 'why is my spine getting worse'#i still have Complicated feelings over it but maybe this will help a little #it's rambling time

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greppelheks · 4 months

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My coworkers have all been so incredibly nice to me since I went home last week because I'm so burnt out. And coworkers who later heard that I'm home sick but not just with the flu have sent me long and thoughtful and kind texts. They're all so incredibly sweet.

#I've been hiding how hard it is for me to combine work and life #but surprisingly enough when i couldn't anymore everybody's been so understanding and kind #my one coworker texted me what was up because she feels something around me that she can't put her finger on #and she's worried for me #so i told her and she was so kind #she even suggested that i should see someone and then reassured me how that's not a bad thing #but I've been going to therapy for like 7 years bless her tho she doesn't know that #if there's any place where I can learn to.... interact with life in a different way and unmask a bit #it's this workplace #theyre all older incredibly kind and understanding women #and i love them #it's been a bit too overwhelming to text everyone back but i might do it today #personal

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potatobugz · 2 years

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opening untitled google doc #7592 so I can attempt to write something again but ultimately never finish it

#rambles #but ill keep doing it bc. if i dont write i will never learn #i had another homestuck scenario i wanted to write but you see i only have an idea for one specific part #and i have 0 writing experience so i cant write it that well if i dont have a good udea 4 what i want to happen #anyways the premise is that feferi ascends to god tier (more like cod tier) after eridan kills her #& she revives nepeta and equius. the rest of the trolls r like hesitant to revive eridan right away #but feferi goes ahead and revives him anyway bc she has very conflicting feelings & shes like 'i just wanna talk 2 him 38('#ofc this backfires #eridan waking up & immediately assuming the worst; freaks out and runs away from her cuz he thinks shes gonna [krill] him again #(fish pun bc i saw the opportunity and couldn't resist)#then he runs into kanaya and freaks out EVEN MORE and then attempts to run down stairs & trips on his dumb scarf (affectionate)#and falls down a flight of stairs #ive had that specific scenario in my mind for like a few days now!!! and ive been dying to put it down somewhere!! augh #other cincepts i havent fleshed out include: eridan hiding from everyone on the meteor. eridan and gamzee alliance maybe.#some exploration on how kanaya feels abt this bc i feel like kanaya is always portrayed as angry at eridan but ppl forget WHY shes angry!!!#shes *greiving*. the matriorb was like the hope for their entire race & she was tasked 2 protect it and it got destroyed #its very sad to me. murderstuck as a whole is tragic 2 me because theyre all children and i dont think any of them shoulda died #idk i hope that makes sense #um also eridan putting themself in a cycle of 'not evil anymore i want to be loved now. evil again' cuz #characters who destroy their relationships w others over and over again mean everything to me. self destructive characters my beloved #and also everyone who was revived makes it to the alpha session so eridan and roxy friendship can thrive <3 (i am ill)#and also eridan transgender arc is mandatory sorry #wow i am sorry 4 talking so much down here ive been DYING 2 get this idea out but like #i cant ramble normally in posts i have to do it in the tags or i get self conscious otherwise agh #feel free to add onto this if youd like i think #homestuck #oh also maybe nonbinary roxy too maybe bc i really like nb roxy headcanon and also t4t pale eriroxy so wonderful

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