#i didn't realize how much i wanna ramble abt them

[kisa-ownworld]

(Part 3) Time for Hyotei team to shine!! Here's my first impression of Hyotei! This team is also really interesting as they are popular (and one of the reasons for their popularity is VERY OBVIOUS *looks at the captain*). As much as i want to talk about Atobe, im afraid i might ended up writing a whole ass essay, but just know that in Gakupuri, he appears in other characters' route so much that i ended up fall in love with him before I even watch his route.

Hyotei characters' route are very cute and hilarious, especially Yuushi's. He's very flirty towards MC but she is just so damn oblivious to all of his attempts and it's so amusing to watch XD Hiyoshi's route is also pretty great, he keeps talking about scary stories and bringing MC to haunted houses knowing that she is scared of them and enjoys it everytime MC clings on to him lol.

Shishido's route has so many dialogues abt him and Otori (compare to the other doubles pairs) that it makes me wonder what was on the writer's mind when they wrote his story and it kinda feels like MC ships them lol.

Kabaji, like Jackal, deserves to have his own route like i won't be surprise if there are fans who would wanna choose him in the game.

(There's actually one more Hyotei member that i didn't include in the slides bcs he didn't even appeared in the game (i think u can only see him in the background or something) so i didn't know anything abt him sorry maybe i'll know once i start watching the anime)

(Part 2, 4)

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f@tt Sangfielle ep. 21 relistening post

(aka my own personal greatest hits)

it's At the Gates of Sapodilla time !!!!!!!

genuinely such a fantastic episode :))) can't wait even for the intro-ish part where he played out the lil game with Jack

anyway !! episode time !!

"If you're cooking a dish, I hope it's going great." "I hope it's going fantastic." <3

Austin making it clear that everybody had that debrief/calm-down conversation after the interview <3 once again, things like that just make me so !! - makes me as a listener feel, like, Safer too to experience these people play games together

Austin and Jack just suddenly diving into Blade Runner lore 😭

the fact alone that you can get interrupted constantly is so fucking stressful to me, this game is so fun, I wish I got to play it with somebody at some point

Tell Me About An Apocalypse That Would Make Birds Excited

also rly love how they discuss the game system and how it doesn't engage honestly with the Actual System in places necessarily

the way they all namedrop Bucho 😭

also the EDITING on that intro. god!!!!!!!

Pickman's deadpan "No I don't", I love her sm and she is SO real for this.

mf glim macula idiots like I Would Not Say That

Pickman not understanding the question/the difference between an objective and an ideal and the agent repeating the question without explaining what they want and getting increasingly. angry? insistent. is so fucking terrifying on like a personal level like please leave her ALONE

(aka this is so fun, I keep having to pause, I had to pause back while listening for the first time already too, just bc i get SO stressed, it's terrible and great)

actually I paused the episode to write the bullet point above and I haven't unpaused yet bc i'm just Thinking it's like, I don't wanna get too oversharing, and I don't think I've ever talked A Lot about the ways in which I like. have the Active Experience of being autistic beside just "wow wild that I just got diagnosed at 30+ years old" and "kinda sad that I can't ever go to a wrestling show live bc it would be overwhelming" but even besides the like. more often talked abt symptoms of autism, while reflecting on it I realized how much this has Always rly influenced my behavior and as a result, how people have treated me. like, it's bad! i'm like!! not/barely a bad at being a person!! like, it makes me behave deeply Weird in ways i even like, Get are off-putting! but the resulting treatment has in turn also influenced me to the point that I was so sure that there's just something deeply and fundamentally Wrong with me that a) I wished I was a robot at like age 13, b) for a while I was sure I was living in some weird simulation/experiment, and c) when I got the diagnosis, I didn't dare to actually apply it to myself for like about a year bc i thought I had cheated my way into getting an excuse for how there's smth wrong with me somehow. and ok this did get oversharing for sure, but I this is just Such an exciting episode for me. it's terrible and i'm stressed and anxious in a very real and genuine way while listening, but it's also kind of cathartic the way fiction can be in such a fun and entertaining way. just. rly good choice of game to show that border interrogation. (which! what I just talked about is just abt my experience with being autistic. that doesn't even get into how tense I've instinctly been every time I crossed a border and how that's NOTHING bc i'm white and swiss)

okay let's pretend I didn't ramble abt my lame lil life

first interview over... rly glad for the lil cooldown conversation between Austin and them afterwards. rly lightens the mood

"Answer honestly. You have nothing to fear." one of the most terrifying sentences in this episode fr

Lyke's interview is So good. also I love that he gets full access, it's just So fitting. Lyke is soooo.... I love him??? i had forgotten how great Lyke is

also. fucking disgusting, the immediate change between how Pickman was sent away and how enthusiastically in comparison Lyke was welcomed

"[thoughtfully and deliberately] Shit.. fuck.. damn."

DUVALL KILLING THE INTERVIEWER and neither I nor I think Austin noticed a THING

also just. Duvall getting so stressed that his bugs decide to intervene is SO good. wish that was me fr

Marn ilyyy

It's not just the way the interview is conducted, there is something very unsettling about some of these Questions as well. Marn's and Lyke's interviews in particular so far have been extremely intense in that way

Marn's (Ali's) nervous chuckling throughout is so relatable

"I wouldn't wanna die." without Really answering the question outright, ough

Virtue I am free Literally whenever

Chine's compliments 😭😭😭

Chine is the only person who lowkey sounds like they're having fun during this lmao

man... what an episode :)))

[homeboi-corn]

VALO-OT4 PRIMARY HEADCANNONS 🌈⭐

Or this is just how I think they would start out in any AU or story I have that includes them<33

the ramble under the cut! (really long post I think)

> Phoenix would be the partner that brought them all together<3

> initially it would've started with phoenix and gekko being best friends only, it was actually iso and gekko who sort of have this cutesy mutual crush on each other but neither have confessed yet

> phoenix finds iso really cool, almost in a 'i wanna see what more this guy can do' and finds himself adoring him a lot

> gekko's the type to get attached and since phoenix is rly handsome, charming, cocky as hell (that was more like a thing he love-hated abt the guy) and loved talking about shoes, he gained a crush on phoenix too

> he opens these feelings to iso and iso actually wants to kind of help gekko get together with phoenix, and surprisingly he's rly chill abt gekko's crush on the other (btw iso doesn't realize he's poly yet, but he'll eventually realize :DD)

> it was a lot of wingmanning situations with these three 😭 it's so stupid as well cuz phoenix thought he should be helping gekko get even closer with iso cuz he thought they had a thing going on!! and phoenix didn't actually wanna ask iso out bec he didn't wanna get in between isekko (phx also doesn't realize he's poly *insert he probs had a crisis at one point in the past)

> the three's feelings for each other eventually went full triangle and they all slowly got to know each other better and began warming up to regular cute dates and such!

> Then maybe like a month and a half into their official relationship, clove finally came into the picture and it was iso who fell first </3

> iso began rambling to gekko abt how clove was really eye-catching and intriguing bec he kinda likes the way clove is so unapologetic and transparent about how they act

> gekko teases iso abt his crush but then he sees clove for himself and he ALSO falls pretty damn hard cuz like "shit they're cute as hell!"

> the two find out phoenix has met clove and he was getting close to them! phoenix, surprised that his boyfriends were familiar with his new friend, decided the four of them should hang out more

> upon hanging out, iso and gekko's feelings grew and phoenix was developing some and I mean who wouldn't??? I think he just loves clove's energy so much and he was honestly surprised abt how they have a number of stuff in common

> then gekko spills to phoenix abt him and iso's feels and phoenix just went like "y'know what? Yeah me too." and the three just kind of take weeks to contemplate on what to do next cuz they've technically been getting to know clove a lot already, even learning the basics of DnD and TTRPG just so they have something that leans more to clove's interests/hobbies (AND THE THREE LOVE IT ACTUALLY)

> kind of fast forward cuz weww details and shit but finally it was gekko who managed to fess up to clove and clove admitted they kind of had an idea but didn't wanna linger cuz they also thought it might just be a them thing

> clove calls them dorks and goes on a few more *actual* dates with the three of them before they officially join their polycule <33

BONUS:

Jett is like THE wingman for phoenix specifically but she's totally best friends with gekko and iso too and she's like watching all of this go down ever since the first three. She thinks clove is very very cool too and she's glad to see phoenix really happy about where he's at right now and the people he's surrounded with 🫶

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Thank you for getting this far 😞🫶 I love these guys a lot and it takes some balls to post these cuz y'know they're an extremely rarepair!

[ichorblossoms]

@magnolia-sunrise was talking abt their oc voices and asked me abt mine so i'm gonna ramble abt that under the cut yeehaw

for the most part they have unique voices in my brain, whether or not i a) have voiceclaims for them b) can articulate what those voices sound like c) can actually write them with different voices is another story but i'm giving it my best shot jfjdjjdjf

grimm- i answered this ask awhile ago and said i didn't have a voiceclaim for them and that was not entirely true bc the beginning of this song to the ~30 second mark is closeish to what i image their voice to be like. i found this song abt a month before i created honeybee so it's Embedded in my mind as a honeybee song despite it only partially fitting hdfgklfhd (timestamped where the lyrics begin)

basically low with a slight raspiness? breathiness? grimm definitely speaks with more of a drawl/twang/cowboy accent than this singer tho (its singing voice is NOT like this at all btw). it also might have some sort of almost-lisp or sound like it's talking around smthin in it's mouth bc its got bonus fangs and its jaw likes to act up

bc of said fangs it doesn't move it's mouth much when talking so that results in a sort-of mumble. concise when they talk, but not clipped unless the situation calls for it. they'll hold a conversation just fine but they're defs someone you can have a whole conversation with and only realize after the fact that you still know almost nothing about them. also will deliver jokes with a deadpan

yarrow- their voice has actually changed a bit from my initial perception in that ask bc i'd say their voice is actually more mid-range and not low, just a guy who's been on t for several years. don't have any refs off the tops of my head, but they have a situational/varying accent depending on who they're talking to, having grown up in a metropolitan area but moved to a rural one later on- smthin that ranges from a slight drawl/twang to an "average" western american accent. VERY expressive and prone to rambling and talking too fast- he's not unsure of himself when he speaks, just has a lot of thoughts all the time, so he'll backtrack to other ideas and restate things and trail off adhd-style. good at being social, and lot of his charm comes from being polite/knowing when to be nice. has definitely adopted a philosophy of "it's okay if i'm weird because people are fine with it if you're nice"

some bonus writing of these two

depending on whose pov the chapter is from i do try to make it sound like their voice/thought process but i am very much of the first draft and don't know what i'm doing ✌️✨

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bc they've existed in my brain for so long, most of the ttw characters also have Voices and i wanna ramble abt them too hehe

serena- originally roberta colindrez' performance in alice isn't dead was The Voiceclaim for her but not quite anymore; i think there's defs a quality to her voice in that performance that aligns with serena's voice, but nowadays i imagine her voice to be a little bit lower and rougher (also timestamped)

she's pretty terse when she talks, but serena's funny bc most of her external standoffishness really is just an awkwardness that comes across as more bitchy that she'd like. but also she is Very sarcastic and has a low tolerance for ppl being dumbasses around her, so how fortunate she is to be in the company of chucklefuck 1 and 2 (pyrithaea and vance) for most of the story.

pyrithaea- there's a line in marigold by mother falcon that i animated a few years back and it's pretty solidly Her Voice. higher-pitched and can get annoying to some people, esp bc she talks a lot and too fast (also adhd style). very expressive and at times dramatic when she talks, doesn't have a full-blown "valley girl" accent but it's there

vance- the music video for still feel by half alive has been very intertwined with vance's whole vibe for like six years, and the lead singer's voice is pretty in-line with how i imagine his voice, except vance's voice might sit in his chest a bit more, if that makes sense? also talks a lot, not as fast as rithaea, but more prone to saying things that don't quite make sense hfgkfdhg. also very expressive and dramatic and gay with hints of that same valley girl accent

leon- actually funny bc the best voiceclaim i have is fucking. gerard way. raspy and kind of nasally and grating

always kind of sounds like their smiling regardless of if you can hear them. also the fucking laugh in this video is their vibe. not their laugh all the time but

skylar and phil don't have as-solid voices yet. skylar's defs smthin androgynous and phil...sounds like a zombie but idk if i want undead and raspy or smthin more light and ghostly yet

bonus ttw writings hehe

[nervocat]

Alright announcement time, but it's about what my writing will be going forward and what I'll be doing with my older fics that I don't rlly like.

I've had so many ideas before that I've since lost bc I just didn't get to them bc I wanted to make a long fic, but couldn't. And idk if anyone has noticed, also bc I don't do this too often but often enough, I drag out fics and add unnecessary stuff to make the fic longer. I've also been struggling to start fics lately, and it's been bugging me bc I wanna write sososo badly but I don't want to be writing a long fic that takes long to proofread. I wanna try and welcome just short, ramble kind of posts so here is what I'll be doing going forward. I'm realizing I had too high of standards for myself and if I want to get better at writing to be an author, this is where I can start and I need to realize not everything has to be long like books, if that makes sense.

I will be separating my mlist into two — longer fics from 300 (maybe 400) and so on. Shorter fics that are kind of rambles from 200 and below, like my recent Leona post. That was abt 170 words and it was so nice to just write smth small and post it and not drag it out and make my mood just plummet with it not turning out like how I imagined.

I want to put my ideas out there and not force them into a fic ppl don't even rlly read. I always want to write fics for my favorite characters and even tho I have ideas for them, they never become a reality and the characters I like come and go in the sense I start to get into more things)new characters come along, and while those characters are still a favorite of mine, they're more on the lower side of that makes sense (like for example, how I was so into Boothill and his lore and now it's like that with Leona and I never got anything out for Boothill (which I'm still sad abt)). I'm getting more comfortable on this blog in the sense of being myself and posting whatever (thank devil for that honestly) even tho I've been writing here for almost a year now (started early/mid September).

And my earlier fics, I will be deleting most of them. I just don't feel proud of them anymore and I wanna get rid of them and it has been bugging me for months. And with my requests — I will still do the ones sent in and future ones, but maybe take 5 down to 3 after this round bc as much as I rlly do love writing for others, I want to give the requesters quality fics and while they may take longer to write, they will hopefully be worth the wait to said requesters.

I'll also add one other thing on. Since I'll be writing some smaller stuff now, pls, send in some ideas if you have any!! Mutuals and ppl who aren't mutuals can send me some stuff they want for me to just ramble abt/hear my opinion on and write smth small for. I always see my mutuals getting some and it has me wishing I did too but I was less open to that stuff I guess. This will probably be smth always open unless I go on a hiatus and won't write anything.

Ok I think that's all I wanted to say. If you have any questions, pls feel free to ask :33

[tsunderedoctor]

hiii it's my first time actually requesting something !! i hope i don't say anything stupid i'm really nervous 😭

as someone who's been diagnosed with this, may i ask for autistic reader with ace and cora? preferably male reader but gn is fine too !

idk if you know much abt it but i do wanna put in some of the stuff i tend to do !! since it is a spectrum, being autustic varies for those who are — but for me personally i have the urge to stim a lot, specifically i get urges to flap and shake my hands often or to just rock back and forth while sitting, or to say certain words like "pop" or "bubble". i really struggle with eye contact and overall most social situations, especially face-to-face but that doesn't mean i'm ignoring them ><

and also sensory issues with how certain things feel/sound/etc, like damp clothing or really loud sounds — sometimes i get really overwhelmed when there's too many things at once ( e.g. flashing lights, loud sounds, too many people, etc. all at once ) and kinda just meltdown uncontrollably. :( but i also love how certain things feel, like soft fur or weighted blankets !! and also certain special interests like aquatic creatures and just the overall marine stuff, or just drawing ! cats too

also random side note i remember seeing you join a one piece artist server i was in and i wanted to say hi so badly since you're my favorite comfort blog !! but i got so scared and nervous and didn't want to bother you so i didn't ☹️ also sorry for rambling a lot i didn't think i would write that many words haha ! that's all i wanted to say though i'll be very happy if you do my request, but it's fine if you don't, just take your time !!!

So, so sorry that you had to wait so long for this!!! I hope you are doing well and know I love you so much!! Also, always feel free to talk to me!! I don’t mind, really!! I’m also in quite a few discords (I left ones I was inactive in-), so feel free to say hi there too!! 💜💜💜

I broke this down into the symptoms you had mentioned and how they first react to now being used to it, so I hope this makes sense!!

Stimming:

When you first presented the stimming, the brunet might be a bit confused at first, but once you explain the situation he just gives you a smile and lets you carry on!

Now he is used to it and doesn’t mind it at all. If anyone says anything rude or gives you dirty looks, be prepared for them to be sat down as he explains the symptoms of Autism to the bystander. If they want to be ignorant, he’s going to teach them a lesson!

Echolalia: 

This one might surprise you, but he is used to Luffy saying random things at times, so he doesn’t even realize it was an issue for you. When you mention it, he just waves it off, it’s not annoying, don’t you worry!

Sometimes he finds himself mimicking you now! You might utter the world “bubble” and the brunet just whispers out “pop” subconsciously, he doesn’t even realize he does it! 

Eye contact:

He also struggles with this! Not from Autism, but due to his trauma. If there is one thing Ace doesn’t feel like he is, is worthy. He doesn’t understand why people always get upset with him, so he is very understanding when you struggle with it too. It’s okay, you’re safe here.

This is something I think would be amazing that you both can work on together! Whenever one another notices the other not looking at them, be direct about it and let them express why they might can’t! It’s a great bonding exercise to get the other to talk and also expressing yourself to others who also might ask! 

Sensory issues:

Do you see this man?? He hardly wears shirts (though I think it’s more to due with his Devil Fruit-), so he totally understands and doesn’t mind supporting some natural looks. As long as you are comfortable and still somewhat decent, he doesn’t mind or won’t get embarrassed! 

As for sounds, he might not realize it until it’s too late. He’s quite the loud man when it comes to fighting and the crew he is in isn’t the quietest either. So with some good communication, the crew and him work on letting you know a head of time! 

Even now he still feels the same way. As long as your clothing choices are kid friendly, he doesn’t mind what you wear or choose not to wear. he also goes out of his way to make sure not to get certain fabrics or have a change of clothes if you happen to get wet.

Selective mutism:

He’s going to be confused at first if you happen to go mute without telling him. He might react negatively too and think he did something wrong, so just let him know through pen and paper you just can’t talk right now and he will be fine. 

Starts to pick up on your low level cues and knows what to expect when you go mute. It’s taken a while, but he is now a pro at it and can speak up for you if needed! 

Stimming:

I like to think that due to his background and education with different countries, Cora would have some knowledge about Autism. So when he sees you stimming for the first time, it just automatically clicks to him and he just goes with the flow as if nothing changed (and nothing has!).

The type to move something out of your reach when you stim just so you don’t accidentally break it or knock it over. He doesn’t want you to feel guilty later when you have better control over your body. 

Echolalia: 

Again, since he has some knowledge he understands what is happening when you say certain words randomly or mimic someone unintentionally. However, he has the book smarts, so he doesn’t have any practical knowledge on this symptom. 

Has more knowledge now and knows how to help you break out of it if you find it difficult on your own. He doesn’t mind it either way, but wants to be helpful to you and your feelings.

Eye contact:

He struggled with this as well, but living in the military had forced this habit on him. That doesn’t mean he is going to force it on you though! He would never do something that causes you discomfort and if you can’t look at him or others, than so be it! 

Let’s people know ahead of time (especially Sengoku) that you might not look at them directly. Just so they don’t go poking around demanding or asking personal questions you don’t want to answer!

Sensory issues:

Might get quite embarrassed if you change your clothes right away when they get wet. Always offers his jackets (even the fluffy coat) for you, even if you are dressed. He just likes seeing you in them and that he can comfort you!

As far as loud sounds go, this man has you covered! He will use his Devil Fruit to mute any loud sounds for around you, giving you a chance to relax and catch your breath again! 

Selective mutism:

He completely understands, he spent years being mute, so when you need a break, just let him know and he will mute you with his Devil Fruit, allowing you to not have to hear others or speak up.

If it comes to people like Doffy, he will let them know you are completely mute. He doesn’t want you to speak to these kinds of people anyway. Call him possessive, but there aren’t many people he is comfortable with you talking to. 

[epickiya722]

I think fandom is also a place in which the majority of people who are really passionate and most active abt it are fans that happened to be queer in some way, so logically, there is going to have quite a big amount of people making these M/M and F/F ships in general. But ALL of the things in that post applies perfectly in one way or another.

For context, this is post!!

Yep, agree with you, Anon. In fandoms, the majority of the fans who are passionate are queer. That's not to say that there isn't passionate fans who aren't queer, before anyone acts up on me.

While it's on my mind, the part of that post that stuck out to me the most is this one...

Yeah I don’t really ship but I do write a fair amount of fanfic, and in most franchises working with the female characters is a chore.

You have to do so much of the work yourself, because the canon left them unfinished, with huge gaps or unexplored contradictions that you have to somehow resolve. Every female character you decide to integrate into your fanwork in some major role constitutes an undertaking in her own right as you patch together an understanding of her sufficient to model a consistent set of reactions and priorities &c.

The dudes just get handed to you. Even the ones whose canon is a mess have properly developed character cores.

That you don’t have to unearth and piece together like some sort of volunteer archeologist coming up with theories way more complex than the available artifacts truly support.

I really felt that as someone who has been writing Miruko-centric fics since March 2022. So, I'll be using BNHA as an example here.

I talked about it in another post of mine, but to summarize; writing Miruko in fics have so far been a wild ride. But a fun one because I get to add onto her character. Compared to male characters, the female characters are blank canvas and honestly, to me, that's what gets my attention more because then my imagination had more freedom.

[I would like to apologize because I had no intentions to make this ask this long (pictures are here), let alone one about BNHA, and I do tend to ramble, that is my bad. So I cut it from here.]

If you asked me now which character I find more interesting between... Miruko and Hawks (I don't hate Hawks), I'm going to say Miruko. Not because she's my favorite. Because Hawks does indeed have too much given about him and it puts me off sometimes. With Miruko, I continue to have questions and those questions turn into my thought posts or fics.

She was already a favorite, but over time I appreciate her more because writing her in fics surely helped me explore more of what I can do in my writing as well as her as what she could have been as a character if she gotten a lot more to her in canon.

It also made me realize that even though a lot of the fandom is queer, when it comes to shipping, there's not a lot of love for F/F ships. Again, comes with the fact that a lot of the cast is male and the male characters have a lot more given to them.

Here's the current count! Look, at the number of F/F fics compared to M/M and F/M.

Looking at this makes me think back to that post about how female characters are often treated to be more accessories to male characters than actual characters or something along those lines.

With F/M coming second to M/M, I wouldn't be surprised if a lot of those fics are written with more male focus perspectives and the female characters are treated as tools to push the fic along. Or those Dekubowl fics where Midoriya is shipped with every single female character. *shivers*

Now, not saying M/M and F/M ships are bad, I have ships within those labels I like.

It just makes one think, you know?

I pressed on the Miruko tag and these are the top results I get. [Press to see full image!]

Now watch when I reduce the number for just Miruko-centric fics.

And you wanna know something crazy? I'm just learning this bit of info about myself. I didn't realize I was doing this!

First page of those 38 fics, the majority of them you will see are my own fics. Most of the additional tags and the top two relationship tags are tags that I used. Out of those 38 fics, guess how many are mine? 19 fics... HALF OF THOSE FICS ARE MINE AND I'M JUST LEARNING THIS!!

[daz4i]

hi hello, are you currently working on any fics or fanart projects? if you are feel free to ramble about it/any of them!

hiiiiii!!

i'm technically in the middle of working on 2 fics, a oneshot and a 5 chapters fic, both skk c:

the oneshot is rated t and it's like a... continuation(?) of that one extremely cursed wan skit of dazai roleplaying as a dog. i took his comment asking chuuya if he could be his dog and went "haha bet" but like, in a wholesome chuuya-taking-care-of-dazai way. still very much with the dog aspect going on tho

the 5ch one is 😳 rated e. i mentioned it in an ask yesterday hehe, feelings realization+kink realization combo, getting together through platonic bdsm. every chapter is ramping up on both the kink aspect and the intimacy between them and it ended up being weirdly wholesome in a way i didn't expect (it was originally planned to be pwp and just an excuse to write some kinks i don't see enough fics of ngl. but i figured i may as well add at least SOME underlying plot, so, feelings.)

haven't worked on either of these in awhile tho unfortunately 🥲

and! i really really wanna turn my bsd borderlands au into a fic series at some point - start with aya and kunikida and setting up their story and the main conflict, then probably go through some other backstory oneshots or 2-3 chaptered stories 🤔

i figure that first story will end with them being saved by fukuzawa, so the one after it will be about fukuzawa and ranpo and how they got to the current situation as well, maybe throw in poe and how he and ranpo met into the mix too. then go on with other characters that play a part in the current conflict, and how they arrived there ofc, what they've been through before this story started, establish what their personal stakes here are and why they're even taking part in this story at all

aside from backstories i think the main story will also be divided into multiple parts - that first set up, its progression, and then some "side quests". like, the main story is about aya and kunikida, but atsushi and akutagawa have their own arc going on throughout it, so they'll have a part focusing on that too. with the main conflict set up, it'll have multiple branching stories that are tied to it on some level, and are all happening at once

. this is so complex and requires a lot of writing so i doubt i'll get far into it if at all, but it's fun to plan both the story itself and its format tbh 😌 there are so many moving parts lol so finding a way to connect them and bring them together into one thing is a fun challenge 🫡

idk if that ramble made any sense esp without details abt what the story actually is hehe but thank you for letting me ramble 🙏🖤

[steeltwigz]

Kinda turned to be more abt Amy at the end, but here u go, my extremely self-indulgent Sonic and Amy-centric fic abt Sonic being aro

"I'm sorry."

It was whispered, like a confession. Combined with the wind and the cheering of the crowd below them, Sonic almost didn't hear it. Almost. He turned towards Amy.

"Sorry?" He said, "For what?"

Amy was staring at the parade, hard, from their shared perch on the edge of a rooftop. If looks could kill, they'd have a lot of cleaning up to do. She gripped a bottle of water tightly in her hands and sighed.

"For everything," she mumbled, turning further away from him. "The way I treated you, how I used to chase you and ..." She trailed off then, and swallowed. She turned to look at Sonic, face determined, like she was staring down some particularly tough badniks instead of sitting on a rooftop overlooking the Station Square Pride festival. "I hurt you. And I'm sorry."

"Amy-" Sonic held out a hand to pat on her shoulder. Amy looked like she was about to explode beside him. She continued.

"And I'm sorry it's so late, I know I should have apologized sooner but with everything that we do, we hardly have time to spend together and I thought maybe the festival was a good excuse, but I see the way you look at couples here and I didn't realize I did so much damage and I'm-"

As Amy started to ramble off more apologies, Sonic blinked, aghast. He snorted. It rose into chuckle, until Amy paused to turn to him, her turn to be aghast, and he broke out in side-splitting laughter. He tumbled backwards onto the roof.

"Sorry, sorry-!" He said, from his new vantage staring up at Amy, "I didn't mean to-" he sat up, but stayed behind the ledge this time, "what do you mean 'the way I look at couples'?"

Amy swallowed and fidgeted with the bottle in her hands. "The way you get... There's this face you make, it- uhm... I didn't mean to stare at you by the way, I just-" Sonic held up a hand to stop her and she muttered a 'right', then turned away to think, furrowing her brow.

"Oh!" She snapped her fingers, "d'you remember that time you tried to feed Knuckles a chili dog? And he got all grossed out, and you laughed at him? It's like that."

Sonic shot forward. "Wh- it is not!" He insisted, laughing again.

"Sonic Maurice Prower, it most definitely is," Amy smiled, her tone stern but joking. She quickly turned thoughtful again though and hugged her knees to her chest, hiding her face in her arms. "And it's my fault. I made you hate dating because I was such a jerk."

Sonic stood for a moment, humming, thoughtful as well. He fought down a nervous chuckle and returned to his perch next to Amy.

"You were a jerk," he began, and noticing how she shrunk in on herself quickly added, "but you apologized! And I appreciate it, Amy, really." He paused. "We can work on that later. But anyway, that isn't why I think dating is weird. I just- uh-" Sonic rubbed his chin. After a moment, he huffed and turned to Amy. "Look, you know I don't wanna date you-"

"Yeah, 'cause I was a creep." She said, and glared at the bottle in her hands.

"No- well, yeah, you shouldn't have done most of that but- what I mean is, even if you were totally respectful and did it all right or whatever, I still wouldn't have." Amy turned toward him then, face still tucked into her arm but looking confused and slightly less like she was ready to crush the bottle in her hands. "I don't really.. do that. The crush thing. Or dating, or any of that." He looked weirdly embarrassed as he tried to wave nonchalantly, nervously running his free hand through his quills.

"To be honest," he continued, scratching his cheek awkwardly, "I didn't think it was something people really did outside of the movies."

He chuckled, but didn't turn back towards Amy for the whole talk, and stayed decidedly still, watching the parade continue on. It was mostly silent as they sat together, cheering from the crowd almost muted below them.

It was weird, Amy thought as she studied the profile of Sonic's face and digested what he had said, that someone could've lived without something so integral to her own life. It made sense, she figured, given the ways Sonic acted. She turned and watched various flags and floats pass by. A certain pattern of white and green caught her eye and Amy sat up slowly, realization dawning.

"Oh." She said.

"Yup." Sonic replied, popping the 'p'. They both watched the parade in silence for a moment, before Amy slapped her hands into her face.

The movement startled Sonic out of his daze, and he turned to Amy who had begun to make a soft squealing sound into her palms. Sonic kicked her foot with his, and ducked into her line of sight.

"Hey, Ames? Y'alright?" He smiled easily, but his voice shook nervously. He tapped his fingers beside him. Amy lowered her hands to meet Sonic's gaze.

"You're aromantic? You could have told me sooner, y'know."

Sonic blinked back at her. He moved backwards and quirked his brow, tilting his head, confused.

"No? I just told you I don't do that, why would I be a romantic?"

Amy watched Sonic for a moment, then turned with a dramatic sigh.

"I forget you used to live in the woods sometimes. Don't you ever read?"

Sonic started to argue with a short, "wh- hey!" But Amy continued.

"I guess not about this if you aren't- it's aromantic, not 'a romantic'. It's um..." She leaned a bit over the roof, scanning the crowd, and pointing down towards the flags after a moment. "There," she said, circling the air with her finger, "see that green one? I'm sure you could go down and ask about it yourself, but that's what it sounds like to me." Amy shrugged and sat back up, turned towards Sonic.

And almost fell off the roof in her haste to catch him, Sonic having leaned much further on the roof than was safe, giving the illusion he was teetering right off the edge. He would've been fine if he fell of course, but that doesn't mean Amy was ever any less nervous. Sonic didn't notice, however, enraptured with the flags below him. Amy kicked his shoe.

He swung his feet in tandem, leaning back to a normal distance from the edge with a soft 'huh'.

They sat in silence, watching the parade. Amy worried the hem of her dress between her fingers as Sonic's posture slowly straightened as he worked through whatever he was thinking, and he say back onto his hands. She cleared her throat.

"So," she began, slowly, smoothing her skirt out and creasing it again, "are we... I mean, is everything...?" The question hung in the air for a moment, as if Sonic was waiting for Amy to finish. He leaned in and bumped her shoulder, something Amy recalled he did with Tails and Knuckles, too.

"We're cool," he said, moving back out of her space. "Like I said, we'll work on it, yeah?" He turned and smiled at her, offering his arm for a bump, like it was the easiest thing in the world, like they were facing down something much more mundane than the biggest issue they'd been fighting about for years. She admired him in that moment, envied how he seemed so relaxed. Personally, Amy felt like her gut was going to twist her in two, and the sheer nerves made her dizzy.

She tapped her arm to his anyways.

Sonic grinned, and it made his face practically glow.

"Amy Rose," he began, tone nonchalant, "I think this is the start of a beautiful friendship."

Amy stared at him for a moment, overcome with a swell of emotions she couldn't quite place. Then, she began to laugh.

"Yeah," she agreed once she calmed down. Sonic's grin turned to something softer, relaxed, as they both turned back to the parade. It'd take a lot of work, she figured, but she knew it would be worth it. And, judging by Sonic's willingness to work it out, despite it all, he thought so too.

'Yeah,' Amy thought again, kicking her feet absentmindedly. 'I can live with that.'

[sublimecatgalaxy]

hii! i have no idea if requests are open but if they are, could u maybe write one abt fezco or elliot comforting u after ur parents fight, cause mine are currently yelling at each other and i need some comfort. completely okay if u don't want to tho

i hope ur having a good day so far <3

I gotchu honey. I'm here for you always. I'll even do short blurbs of both❤️

Fezco:

Fezco hates when you're upset, his fingers clutching the steering wheel as he turns onto your street. His stomach dropped the moment you texted him, begging him to come pick you up and get your out of this angry home.

It didn't even feel like a home anymore but a hostile war-zone where things turned at the drop of a hat. Typically you did your best to stay out of it like Fezco told you to but sometimes it was hard to just sit in your room, listening to the screams go back and forth knowing you're completely helpless. There was nothing for you to do.

So, like you always do in these situations, you call your boyfriend.

You knew that when you called him that it would take everything in his power to not come in, to scream at your parents to set them straight. He wanted them to stop doing this to you, maybe even more than you wanted it to stop happening. Fez saw how much it impacted your day to day life, constantly afraid to leave his house out of fear of returning to more arguments and screams.

Sometimes everything felt better if you could just hold your head in your hands, rocking back and forth as you cried. But instead, you let your boyfriend comfort you, take care of you, rescue you.

Sliding into the passenger seat, your parents shouts still echoing in your ears, you feel Fez take you into his arms. "I got you." He whispers, his lips pressing against your forehead as you cry, just frustrated and over this being your life.

The worst and best part of it is that they probably wouldn't even notice you were gone. It allowed you to stay with Fez as long as you wanted, as long as it took for you to feel better until it just started over at the sound of the next argument you hear or witness.

But you'd allow just this time, sitting in Fez's arms as he protects you from everything and anything. Even yourself.

Elliot:

Your fists rap against Elliot's front door as angry tears stream down your cheeks. This was the third time this week that you'd found solitude and safety in your boyfriends arms, knowing that he always knew what to say and do. You could find zero peace of mind at home, the space around you never quiet enough for you to even think straight. Between your parents arguments, the blaring music of your next door neighbors and the dogs barking in the neighborhood, you were going crazy.

Elliot was disappointed that you constantly had to escape your own house, a place where you were supposed to be comfortable. But he was happy to offer safety in his own home and his arms. He's used to comforting you at this point, taking you to his bed, lighting a joint and just listening to you ramble and rant for hours. He was just happy to have time with you.

The door opens in front of you, realization immediately slapping Elliot across the face as he sends you a sorry smile. His hand reaches out to take yours, pulling you into the house with a small sigh. He wraps his arms around your waist as you melt into him, utterly relieved and relaxed at his touch.

"Wanna watch a movie this time? I'll do whatever you wanna do." He whispers gently in your ear, his lips pressing against your shoulder as you huff. "Or we could break shit. You seem like you wanna break shit." A small teary laugh leaves your lips, pulling back to look at your lovely boy. He reaches up, gently cupping your cheeks in his hands as you smile gently.

No matter what was happening, he always made you laugh.

[sipsteainanxiety]

Listen you, I have loved your fanfic ever since I found it on AO3 and honestly Fukui being Bakugou was obvious and it was great. Knowing who he exactly he was just made mc's feelings so much more meaningful to me and honestly showed why I kinda have a thing for amnesia fics.

In real life they are so much harder on people obviously, and I wanna say I don't mean to take away from their pain in any way.

But I guess I am just so enthralled with the idea of how people can fall in love with the same person again and again. It's so comforting to read fics like that esp about your comfort character or ships.

I also love your fic cause goddamn is that a ride. Like the baby? Bicth I'm ready to get hurt by that plot line. How every time Bakugou looks at her as Bakugou there's always that sadness in his eyes that his love can't remember, and yet he still can't help but love them. Fuhck bro.

Anyways love you and your work looking forward to what see what you do in the future!

omg hello hello!! <33 i'm glad you like fmn so much!! thank you for reading it!! i also have a thing for amnesia fics (with a happy end of course) even though like,,, if that ever happened to me i think i would simply pretend to know the person i forgot bc of social awkwardness..... john mulaney did a skit on that once and i was like dang i agree LMFAO but i digress

yeah, having amnesia is of course harder irl and there is simply no way for me to understand how painful it is. i took a class that went through a bunch of case studies on people with anterograde/retrograde amnesia and it's just heartbreaking :(( did u know there's a fellow tht has a memory span of like 10 seconds. crazy to think abt. he rmbs his wife and things from the past, but he thinks he hasn't seen her in years since, yk, his memory span is so short and he can't retain new info for long. so every time he sees her when she comes to visit him, its like he's seeing her for the first time in ages. there are videos online abt him, it's very sad bc once she leaves he forgets that she was ever there :( i'm rambling again, sorry KJSFHKDJG

but anyways!! yeah there's just something poetic almost abt falling in love with someone again c: looking at fmn from bakugou's pov like... he's very much in love with the reader, and it's very agonizing for him knowing that she doesn't remember him. but those instances where they're in each other's presence and there's just something there, lingering in the air between them that the reader cannot understand but bakugou does is... mmm, the hurt.... that's what prevents him from losing hope and pushes him to pursue her still, even after all the negative reactions she's had to him in the beginning! that and the fact that he doesn't give a FUCK that she doesn't rmb, he'll MAKE HER RMB DAMNIT!!! somehow haha. he... was actually pretty successful, even if he didn't realize.

oooh the baby plotline LMAO. i purposely didn't touch much on that one throughout the fic only cuz it's more of a side thing to make bakugou suffer more LMSDFJHSDFKJH i'm kidding but that was one of the plot twists that i was hoping not a lot of people would pick up on and i think it worked? at least it's less obvious than the fukui one LMFAO i have stuff planned for that in the,,, next next chapter i think.

thank you again for reading my dumb little fanfics <3 ahhh i keep saying this but i really can't blv fmn is almost over skjfskdjfh but i've got this one 150k fantasy au fic that i'm hoping to start releasing sometime this year if i prewrite enough that will just-!! all i'm saying is it'll be absolutely great heehee rip-your-heart-out-plot-twists-galore great >:))

[youeggbastard]

How does Thea get along with her crewmembers? So who is she closest too, who does she have issues with, etc? Ik you mentioned her fighting with Miranda. Also feel free to ramble abt her and Kaidan if you wanna answer!!

I have no control so I'm putting it all under the cut

Thea is honestly a really approachable person, so much so that most people are surprised to find out she's The Commander Shepard, the literal war criminal but most of that surprise is probably due to her only being 5'4. She definitely gives off the vibe of someone who you can talk to and trust, hence literally everyone in the galaxy coming to her with their problems. But anyways, she goes out of her way to connect with all of her crew, so she gets along with all of them, and for most of them would consider them more like family than crew.

The only exception would be during the events of me2 when she was straight up not having a good time and everywhere she looked she was surrounded by Cerberus personnel. Although known of them were responsible for what happened on Akuze they were still part of the organization that was and that was enough for Thea in her mental state. She warmed to most of the crew by the end but it was rough at first. Especially in regard to Miranda and Jacob, Miranda more so. The most she did with Jacob was pull a gun on him when he came clean about Cerberus and tell her she didn't trust him, but otherwise she avoided him (she avoided him in gameplay too since pretty much every dialogue ended up being flirty so I legit talked to the guy once to get his loyalty missions ahjfgajkgj). But Miranda was a little harder to avoid and from the very start they were at each others throats. Miranda was loyal to Cerberus, Thea hated everything about the organization and Miranda was a good outlet for her anger so unfortunately she took the brunt of it. However, by the end of Me2 Miranda ended up being one of Thea's best friends. It just took a bit before Thea realized Miranda was just another tool of Cerberus and then she disobeyed TIM and then Thea and her were the best of friends.

She warmed up to Thane pretty quickly, since the two of them have a lot in common, both two people who are trapped in their past and their memories and have been way too lonely for too long so they became good friends and his death hit her hard but I'm not going to go into that.

Thea and Jack can't be more different but Thea grew to like Jack pretty quickly, largely in part because Jack hated Cerberus and in a den of lions Thea felt having someone who hated the lions was a good ally to have. So, she was willing to let the remarks of her being "too nice" and a pussy slide.

But out of all her crew members Thea is closest to the orginal Normandy crew. Garrus remains her best friend and one of the people she trusts more than anything. With all that being said she did not let him win their shooting contest, her reputation as a sniper was on the line after all and she has a bit of a competitive streak. Tali is like a sister to her and she is as protective of her as she was of her own sisters. She and Liara were close friends from the get go, but they did have a bit of strained relationship during me2 when Thea found out it was Liara who gave her body to Cerberus. Thea said a lot of unkind things along them being that she (thea) was better off dead and she wished she was. Thankfully, by the end of the Shadow Broker quest they had reconciled but it would be a long time before Thea didn't secretly wish she had never been brought to life.

Another honorable mention is Mordin, at first he and Thea didn't get along so well. She was very vocal about her disapproval of the Genophage and Mordin is... Mordin. But she grew to like him and when Mordin mentions that she keeps coming by because she is romantically interested in him (an actual scene in me2) it's probably the first time since her death she has actually laughed. His death also hit really hard.

I've rambled enough I think so I'll try to keep my ramblings about her and Kaiden short. In short, I love them. The universe has given Thea a lot of pain, served on a silver platter and Kaidan is probably the only good thing that came from it. It was tough at first for Thea, it was incredibly easy to talk to him, and that was kind of what was tough about it because its easy to ignore how lonely you are when you don't know what you're missing and suddenly she started developing feelings and wanting to be closer which is incredibly scary for her after she's lost so much. Facing down reapers and geth and whatever are easy for her, letting herself be vulnerable with someone? That's a lot harder. Me2 was hard for a variety of different reasons but one of the biggest one was that she didn't have Kaiden, and then after Horizon.... let's just say she had to adopt a lot of fish and a hamster to cope.

[ghoulishhusband]

I just realized I can actually talk here. Like this is my account fuck u

Fucking uhhhhhh, hi ig lemme ramble abt my God ocs yea?

Ignore this part if you don't wanna hear (likely) unedited rambles lol it doesn't matter

CW: neglect/abuse, assholery/narcissism, manipulation, tread lightly!

read the under cut owo

Also don't steal my art I'll fucking?? Fight you????

So

I have three main gods that I wanna talk abt especially bc they've been on my mind lately.. Less get it, side notes are in (parentheses) and are bolded cause I have perception issues whoo I don't want it to jumble together is my point lol

First up is my asshole,

Giodine

they/them (preferred)

god/godself (i like pronouns that fit my characters, so I'm giving a bunch away for one night only at--)

ID : Giodine is colored with gold-ish yellow skin and ginger hair. Their eyes are a muted purple and they have tiny eyebrows. Their lips are a muted brown and are full looking, their nose is sharp and points down. They have wings for ears and is wearing a blazer with a long-sleeved, collared shirt underneath it. The background is beige with a yellow square and a dark purple square partially encompassing it. It is signed GH (for ghoulish husband), Spork, 21.

(lemme know if that helps at all! I'm sure I can do better so lemme know!)

If they look weird here it's bc I accidentally made their face too long but believe it or not this is in fact just a doodle Ik I'm so fuckin talented babes.

Anyways, they're basically the first God to ever exist on my version of earth (though even that is fickle rn, world-building is hard unless I hyper-focus on it, and haha Guess What I Haven't Been Thinking About) and they're very egotistical and selfish. As I'll probably yap about later is how they're manipulative as well, especially to another God I'll mention, and very neglectful to the other... other one.

Their partner(professionally), or fiend as they call him, is sam who for the first few eons was, unsurprisingly, absolutely terrible to him. A few tender moments are few and far in between in what could only be described as a completely rancid relationship. I'll describe giodine's side and in sam's lil ramble, I'll describe his :]

I have to explain this because it's a big part of the lore and how they can't work together, even when one of them is very much near The Void (technical death for gods) BUT basically, with Sam, giodine created purgatory. The issue here is that they basically seduced sam into doing it. Well, even if they hadn't, sam was in lesbians(happy pride month lmao) with giodine and would've done it anyway. But the ISSUE is that with the creation of purgatory came complications. See, my gods have to take time to develop into their power, and considering giodine was first and sam was around 666th.. you see the issue. Sam wasn't into his complete power yet and thus lost a giant part of it that went into purg.

See, giodine saw no problem with this (until much later, they do get a VERY SLOW BURN redemption arc cause this ain't even the worst of it), they got what they were aching for out of them and thusly had no need for..sam. They laid him in the spot where she was made (fwi it isn't inherently sexual, it can be, but literally, they just merged together-- taking bits and pieces of each other (which sam did not have enough of) and earth and light yadda, yadda I'll post the story I wrote for that later if I'm up to it) and left him there in the grass.

Again, they saw no problem with that, the deed was done, they didn't care anymore. A common issue in their qualms, sam and Giodine. They did find an issue in Sam finding an issue in the lack of aftercare, which resorted to any message going to or coming from sam going straight to his assistant and going back through them for a couple of thousand years. They found that infuriating-- how could he not face them over something so small! and for years?! it was ridiculous. After forcing a face-to-face meeting, a heated proclaim of hurt from sam, and a bitter agreement to meet up every now and again, they got what they wanted from him. Again. It was a business after all, there was no point in making it harder than it needed to be. 

Giodine doesn't necessarily like boundaries and tends to overstep sam's frequently. They also don't like his reaction to his boundaries being long jumped over, which thusly ends up in disgruntled messages being sent back and forth between them and his assistant for a month or three. It slowly gets through to them, but they tend to say some stupid shit and if they want sam to stay, they have to try and avoid mentioning how "overly sensitive" he is to something that happened eons ago.

(quick mention, there isn't like. time. here. so in all honesty, giodine probably counted earth days instead of Heaven 'days' to get that) Soon into their arrangements to meet, they seem to get on at least tolerable terms, obviously, a few meetings where neither of them feels like going apeshit and taking proper shapeless (or in sams case, he's got a newfound form for ANGER OO just for giodine 🤗) forms isn't going to fix a grudge that has yet to be apologized for by the way. But it's a start to a very long process down the road. Tolerance.

Giodine as an entity is very fickle and rude and demanding. They tend to have a short temper that no one else is allowed to have or comment on-- They were the first therefore they were the most important!

This is very obviously an issue. But it's mostly directed to purgatory. Almost all of their seething rage is pointed towards the poor entity, she's barely been alive yet and they already seem to hate her for things she doesn't know how to do. Honestly, I don't think Purg will ever fully forgive them for the unnecessary abuse of her character, but just as Sam and Giodine get on better terms, they had barely just begun fixing the hole in their relationship. As of now, Sam/Giodine don't have any minor plot points with purgatory other than the major one so I don't have a lot to say about their relationship right now. Maybe one day.

I'd go into details, seriously, but I just wanna ramble about their relationships with each other and their impact on each other's existence. Hope you don't mind a few secrets 😉

But, now, it's time for a new God, one I think most people take a liking to...

Sam (Samuel)

He/him

ID: Sam is surrounded by clouds in the light blue, fading to a darker blue sky and the yellow sun. His horns are a darker beige, which is being highlighted by the sun shining down on him, he also has pointed ears. His skin is red which is very prominent in the sun. His eyes are completely yellow, his hair, beard and mustache are also black. He has an orange scar crawling up to his Adams apple. His wings are a darker grey which is also being highlighted by the sun. His nails are painted black and his hand is holding up the black fabric barely covering his shoulders. Around the painting is a gold and red shaded frame with swirls complimenting each side and a crystal at the bottom of it. It is lightly signed GH, for ghoulish husband.

Sam, Sam, Samuel.

If you don't realize right away, Sam is basically Satan, he's the ruler of hell

Like how giodine was the first to appear on earth, as mentioned before sam was 666th for funnie reasons. Sam was made from bugs, dried blood, and sunlight which sounds pretty gross, but he's far from it. He's a silly, yet neat, guy. He wears Hawaiian shirts and khakis (not around giodine lmao) for cryin' out loud! how bad of a person can he be? Apparently to giodine (for a while obviously) he was the most retched entity to exist. This very much hurt him considering the amount of fake care they showed him before. With a mixture of confusing feelings (which wasn't supposed to be a thing but Univerce went "lmao you'll be fine" and left... short explanation, Univerce is the Universe and is the entity who simply builds these planets and gods that'll appear there and leave them to their own devices, xyr not extremely important in this story. Nor would they care.) and feeling used, he decided that no he wasn't going to take that.

If there is one thing Sam knows how to do is to self preserve himself, even if that means getting passive-aggressive notes sent to him every once in a while. While this period, Sam was surprisingly the least productive (unfortunately giodine knew this and eventually mentioned it in one of their meetings which made him hide away cause like hell giodine was going to be critical of /him/) but he managed. It wasn't terrible, but unfortunately, Sam being able to talk it out with someone who does practically the same work as he does and gets newer, more helpful ideas was better in the long run.

Unsurprisingly, Sam was the first to initiate the healing of his and giodine's relationship but it wasn't reciprocated. Who would've figured, aye? Giodine kept pushing it back onto him and ignoring any progress that could've been made before. Which was frustrating.

The painting above was 'painted' by giodine, which is sorta where their relationship gets somewhat on an understanding of each other. Giodine gets to take a deep long look into who Sam is and tries to express it but it never fit him, it makes them realize that they never really-- truly got to know him. And all it does for Sam is make him even more confused about his place in giodine’s mind. He figured it's another fluke to get him to do something, so he ends up distancing himself when they start actually reciprocating his friendship advancements.

Suddenly, like a flash, Sam was forced to stay with giodine which is where the majority. I'll explain.

Sam...isn't actually the ruler of hell. Anymore, anyways depending on the timeline. His and purgatory's relationship has always been complicated, she always avoided him, and when they talked she always seemed scared of him. So in the end, they've never been close. Distant. Sam always wanted to talk to her, he made her, but if she didn't want to talk to him he wouldn't force it. But imagine his surprise as Purg singlehandedly took over hell in a hazed frenzy.

And not only that, had a personal vendetta against him!

Well, that would be the only explanation to Sam considering how he ended up broken and barely 'alive' at the hands of her. Horns broken and in tatters, pain and almost obliterated it felt like a hate crime. He didn't know what to do when he made it to the office, Purgatory was creating chaos outside his door and barely being able to breathe he felt like it was the end. So he called giodine. 

Purgatory

She/her

ID: Purgatory is surrounded by flowers that are dark grey and white. The light fades down into a dark green. The light shines down on top of her straight, white hair that has yellow flowers tucked into it.  Her skin is a dark brown and has a orange-ish yellow scar on her shoulder trailing up to her neck. Her skin is also highlighted by the sun. In one of her eyes, her sclera is black with an orangey, glowing iris. As for the other eye it it has a white sclera and the same, glowing orange iris. She has wings for ears, one dark grey and one white along with beige horns. She has a white fabric covering her chest. The frame is gold with white accents, but also has vines and moss crawling up the side. 

(may have goofed a bit and forgot to color the sclera of her other eye white but ignore that pls)

Purgatory was made by Sam and Giodine, but to her it felt like a mistake. Why make someone that you’re going to be terrible to, she believed. Giodine seemed to hate her and eventually made her section almost obsolete because she simply wasn’t able to keep up with the backlog that she wasn’t taught to deal with. Not only that, she didn’t have any help with any of it, it was almost like she was expected to just do it on her own. Until Death came along to help, but that’s not what we’re going to be talking about right now. 

And also, Purgatory is Purgatory yadda, yadda, I wont insult your intelligence.

Giodine’s thought process (other than wanting to be Real Close to Sam and once that thought filtered out, promptly ignored it) was that all the extras that don’t fit in either category of their thought of good and evil they’d go to her. (doesn’t matter cause in Sam's system it filters through ‘levels of assholery’ and depending on how bad you are you either just vibe in the upper city under rule of capitalism and possibly many under paying jobs or being actually tortured for his amusement if you’re just evil. Morally grey. Anyway, it could work p well in heaven if giodine wasn’t such a damn stickler.) But in the end, every day, less and less people ended up in purgatory, leaving her with barely any people and more verbal abuse from giodine who ‘HAS to take them or they would be more dead than they already are’. You see the pain she has to go through, right? 

~Idea section, this is probably not canon anyways so dont take it serious~ 

My thought is that another oc (BA, you may have heard of him idk) takes over simply because Purg took multiple hims from alternative timelines (which isn’t allowed but what’re they gonna do, undead a dead clown? multiple times from multiple timelines???)) because she adored him and they figured ‘well we gotta redo purgatory may as well do it like this’ and make him a demi-dead-god. i think thats a cool idea right? anyhoo

~Idea section over uwu~

Purgatory overall is a fairly timid character, she doesn’t like conflict, is easily overwhelmed, and generally keeps to herself. She doesn’t see the point in being in any drama if she’s just going to be yelled at and scolded even if it’s not about her. The only way i could describe her taking over hell is this: 

She was tired. She was angry and after feeling like nothing was in control or in her hands, she snapped. Why doesn’t she get anything or get to be ‘all powerful’ but they do? She knew if she took on Giodine she’d likely get thrown to the void, but sam? He felt fair game. Considering her fear of both of these gods, she planned and got her courage up to take him over. She had considered negotiations but in the end, she ended up going into a haze and ruining everything in sight. She was more powerful than she thought and once she started, she didn't stop until Death restrained her and Sam was already in pieces at God’s doorstep. 

The aftermath was fuzzy for her and for everyone really. Godine was planning a take back hell while actually worrying for sam, sam was planning for a retirement, and she was being consoled while trying to get in contact with sam to apologize. Giodine wouldn’t dare let her talk to him, until she just showed up in their office. She didn’t have a problem with Sam, honest, she just was going to take shit over, but it got out of control. 

Spoiler, Sam took her apology and they actually became.. somewhat closer after reaching an understanding. 

I wanna say that giodine took them being okay and sam retiring as good as sam did about purg running hell, but they didn’t. Giodine and purgatory actually barely got along in the first place, and only begun ‘working’ on their bitterness toward each other because they both had sam to encourage it. I can’t say for certain if they’ll get better, as theyre both undying and have time, but I’ll just say for now its uncertain. 

Also, Death is Purgatory’s girlfriend after all of that lmao.

And.. yeah, i hope this makes sense and that you like my drawings and ramblings about my lil story in my head, i guess this is my way to develop it without just keeping it to myself cause god forbid i keep things to myself hshsh. If you made it to the end, thank you for taking the time to read and attempting to process everything, and even if you didnt read and just looked to look at my art thank you to!!

I may post some art over on @ghoulishhusbandart cause.. it was my art account before i completely forgot about it but i might reboot it! But if you wan art NEOWWW follow me on insta (ik cringe lmaoo) by the same name as this account @ghoulishhusband​ or just click that insta link! also ignore the fact that giodine is the only one without a portrait, maybe I’ll replace it the next time i draw but im graduating on monday and my dad’s coming TOMORROW?? so i won’t have too much time to do it... but i hope you like my art anyways :]

ok!! ty!! ily!!

[checkers-dance]

ok so you said i could ramble abt my incest ship so here i GOOO.

so ive been thinking a lot about natsuya and ikuya from free! and HHNNNGH THEY DRIVE ME INSANE. i think they should kiss on the mouth, tongue and everything <3

but anyway, i love this ship a lot and i feel like they have a very interesting relationship that just SCREAMS incest to me. like... they have such a WEIRD dynamic and the easiest way for me to interpret it is "oh they wanna fuck."

So Ikuya and Natsuya were very close growing up, to the point where I might even call it unhealthy. Ikuya was very fixated on his older brother and he didn't seem all that interested in making other friends because to him just having Natsuya was enough. He kinda just... followed Natsuya around and didn't have any other aspirations aside from being with Natsuya and spending time with him.

Natsuya loves Ikuya too, but he's a little concerned about the way Ikuya behaves and in an attempt to protect him ends up pushing him away and essentially tells him that they cant always be together and he should go make friends his age. Ikuya doesn't take this very well. He's so upset by what he perceives as Natsuya rejecting him that he ends up isolating himself completely and after that their relationship becomes very tense. Ikuya stars acting really hostile towards Natsuya and as a result they just... stop getting along and this continues for a really long time.

Eventually, our little prodigy boy Haruka joins Natsuya's swimming club. Natsuya is impressed by him and starts giving Haru a lot of attention, which makes sense because he's the captain. But Ikuya is acting really, really weird. He eventually becomes friends with Haru and some other guys but at least initially his attitude towards Haru was REALLY creepy. He kept staring at him and imitating his EVERY movement and no one really knew why, he just kinda did it.

Eventually Ikuya reveals to them that the reason why he was acting like that was because he thought if he could imitate the way Haru acted, then his brother would look at him the way he looked at Haru.... AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO FEELS LIKE THIS IS A BIZARRE WAY TO WRITE SIBLINGS.... Ikuya and Natsuya's relationship is not what it used to be, but after all those years Ikuya still craves his brother's attention just as much as he did when they were kids.

Fast forward a few years. A bunch of unrelated drama is going on, but Natsuya has been esentially running away from his responsabilities and that includes taking care of Ikuya as his older sibling. After having a realization Natsuya stops doing that shit and gets back into racing, and he ends up going against Ikuya.

I cannot stress how fucking gay for Ikuya he is the entirety of season 3. Whenever Ikuya gets brought up Natsuya just smiles with pride and keeps talking about how much of an amazing little brother he has. When he eventually races against him, its a very emotional moment for the both of them that ends with them hugging each other close. Natsuya and Ikuya love each other SO MUCH, but they also have a very turbulent dynamic. Ikuya's desire for Natsuya's attention was downright unhealthy, while Natsuya is a bit of an irresponsible sibling. But they love each other so, so much and it makes me MELT.

I love to think that part of the reason Natsuya seems to consistently push Ikuya away its because he knows their relationship is fucked up and borderline incestuous but hes afraid of accepting that so instead he just runs away from it. I think its very cute that theyre so obsessed with each other <3

Ok so I've only seen like 1 season of free and that was almost 4 years ago (I think??), so the only name I recognize here is haru BUT. These brothers' dynamic is so codependent, I love it. My 2 biggest weaknesses when it comes to incest ships are twincest and big brother/younger brother (obvs their dynamic fits into the second one). The vibe I get from them is that they have unresolved issues which means they're 0.2 seconds from straight up making out w each other, and I 100% support that. Also the bit abt the younger brother imitating someone the older brother seems to care abt bc he wants that attention for himself but doesn't know how to get it....👀👀

[jemmydoolz]

Edgar Has Always Been Kind of a Bitch

hi okay so it's a little after midnight but I'm posting a fic rn bc it's the first fic I've written in like,, a yr and a half and also I'm rlly excited abt it??

anyway battle buddies/fahc jeremwood angst based on ramblings in a gc

(warning for minor assault implications at the beginning, and brief mentions of a suicide attempt at the end)!!!

Fiona and Gavin decide that what Jeremy needs is a night of bevs, and, to put it simply, get wasted, so the crew settles on going to a club that Friday. Jeremy only has one or two drinks, but boy does he get fucked up.

Ryan’s sitting and talking with Geoff and Jack in a booth, sipping a diet coke. He looks over Jack’s shoulder to see Jeremy standing at the bar with a much taller, more intimidating man looming over him. The guy reaches out toward Jeremy, who leans away from the touch. Jeremy nervously laughs and his eyes frantically dart around for someone, anyone who might be able to help him.

“Hello? Earth to Ryan?” Jack waves her hand in front of Ryan’s face.

“Oh, yeah. Yeah. sorry. Hey, um, I’m gonna go home, I’m just not really feeling great,” Ryan murmurs as he slides out of the booth, already heading toward Jeremy.

“Um, alright, I guess? Drive safe,” Jack calls after him.

Ryan speeds up when he sees the man grab Jeremy’s arm. Jeremy’s face flipped through a thousand emotions at once when he saw Ryan approaching, but eventually landed on confused but grateful. He gave Jeremy a look that said just go with what I’m about to say.

“Hey, babe,” Ryan says. The man immediately drops his grip on Jeremy’s arm. Jeremy does his best not to choke on his own spit when he hears the word babe come out of Ryan’s mouth. He hadn’t heard it in so long, and he didn’t think it would still hurt so much.

“Oh, hey!” Jeremy turns to Ryan and reaches up to peck him on the lips. “Where’d Edgar go? It’s his birthday, I figured he would wanna hang out with his friends!”

Fuck. Mentioning something about their friend ‘Edgar’ was always code for I don’t feel good about this, let’s leave. Edgar’s birthday meant I’m having a panic attack, I need your help. Ryan wanted to punch the guy that was practically feeling Jeremy up. No—he wanted to fucking kill that bastard. He and Jeremy may have had a severe falling out, they may have suffered years of heartache and longing, but he still felt responsible to make sure Jeremy was safe.

“He said he kinda wanted to go home. He went to the bathroom while I found you. You, uh, just about ready?” Ryan’s eyes flitted between Jeremy and the other man, who cleared his throat and mumbled something about needing to go find his friends before walking off.

Jeremy and Ryan both sigh in relief once he’s gone.

“Wanna head outside for some fresh air for a minute?” Ryan asks, getting a meek, obviously shaken-up nod in return.

Jeremy says something that Ryan can’t quite hear over the music as they walk outside.

“Hm?”

“Oh, nothing. It was dumb.” Jeremy shakes his head. Ryan has had enough experience to know that it was better to just leave it alone. They both wordlessly come to a stop and lean against the wall of the building a few yards from the door. Almost as if they had been working as partners for years. They spend a few minutes saying nothing, watching people on the street, looking at the stars in the sky. Ryan can’t help but study the intricacies of Jeremy, realizing that so many things have changed, but somehow almost nothing about him is different. Jeremy’s hair is just a tad bit more grown out than it ever was at the agency (also, it’s bright purple and orange, which is not exactly the most appealing color combination, but that’s a topic for another day), but he still runs his hands through it when he’s lost in thought. It’s curlier than it used to be, but maybe that’s just because it’s longer. He still clenches his jaw so hard it seems like he’s going to break his teeth when he’s scared. He still wears a tank top under his shirt, no matter how hot it is outside. His eyes still crinkle at the corners when he lets out a bark of laughter that Ryan still swears up and down sounds exactly like a squeaky toy. He’s changed, though. Ryan can see in his eyes that he’s become aware of reality. He knows the responsibility he carries, the heavy consequences that come with his actions, that death is around the corner at every moment.

“D’you- d’you want me to take you home?” Ryan says barely above a whisper, but loud enough for Jeremy to hear. “You can go back inside if you want, but I know you always used to want to go home and be alone after Edgar shows up.” Jeremy lets out the tiniest breathy chuckle.

“Edgar has always been kind of a bitch, hasn’t he?” Jeremy says as he looks away from the sky to meet Ryan’s gaze, and his heart falls apart all over again for the thousandth time. That fond look of reminiscence and joy was one Ryan donned frequently at the agency. “I- Yeah. yeah. I’d really appreciate a ride home. I’m just a little too drunk to drive, I think.”

“Alright. I parked just down the street. Penthouse or your apartment?” Ryan hadn’t even noticed that Jeremy did seem somewhat tipsy; his Boston accent slipping in occasionally and his words slurring the tiniest bit.

“Um, apartment,” Jeremy says. “D’you rem-”

“Yes, I remember where your apartment is, Jeremy.”

It’s only a few minutes into the drive to the other side of town when Jeremy pipes up. “I honestly didn’t really expect you to help me. I didn’t expect you to remember Edgar, either. I dunno why I said it, I guess just vaguely hoping you would even though it’s been, what, three years?” he pauses for a moment and just takes in Ryan's profile. “I always hope you remember things from then. I know it went to shit, but we still had so much fun. We made so many memories and did so much dumb shit there. But I’m glad that stupid fuckin’ place collapsed. All of it was complete bullshit. I just wish it all fell apart before we did.”

Ryan doesn’t know how to respond. So he doesn’t.

“All those meetings I had to stay late for? Fuckin’ useless. They served no purpose, and I don't know why I was forced to go to them. I feel like the only reason I had to go to those meetings was because someone was hiding something from me. It was obvious that so many things were kept from us.” Jeremy stops for a second to try to will away the lump rising in his throat. “I thought you were cheating on me. For the longest time. I still don’t know whether you actually were. You were always out on ‘special missions’ and shit.”

The moment Ryan hears Jeremy let out a shaky breath his heart breaks.

“Was it me? Was I not good enough? I promise I tried my hardest to be what you needed. I’m sorry if I wasn’t. All I wanted was the best for you, Ryan. Even now, I just want you to be happy. If you're happier with someone else, then that’s what I want. I don’t blame you, though. I don’t deserve someone like you. You deserve so much better than me. I would do anything for you, Rye. We were together for so long. We did everything together! I thought I was gonna marry you. I was saving up money to get a ring. I guess I was too stupid to see that you didn’t want me anymore.”

Ryan looks over to see the tears staining Jeremy’s cheeks reflecting the soft orange glow of the streetlamps. Is this really what Jeremy thinks?

“I was so in love with you, Ryan Haywood. I’m- I’m still in love with you. I love you so goddamn much it hurts sometimes. Every time I see you hurt, upset, angry, anything other than healthy and happy my heart aches. I’m sorry I wasn't enough. I promise I tried. Fuck, I tried so hard.”

With every sob Jeremy lets out, Ryan's heart breaks just a little bit more. The short distance left until Ryan pulls up to Jeremy’s apartment building is spent wordlessly. Jeremy’s clambering out of the car and reaching to grab the door when Ryan speaks.

“Hey, Jer, do you want me to walk you up? I just want to make sure you’re safe.”

“No. I’m fine. I’ll be fine. I’ve already been a pain in your ass tonight, I don't need to waste even more of your time. I’m sorry. I’m sorry about everything.” Jeremy sniffles and wipes his cheeks, giving a half-hearted smile before shutting the door and walking away.

Ryan sits there for a second, unable to process fully what he just heard. He starts driving without even knowing where he was going, and he’s so lost in his thoughts that suddenly he’s sitting in his car in front of the boardwalk along the beach and crying. He can’t believe anything he was just told—there is no way in hell that the brilliant, witty, talented Jeremy Dooley ever doubts his worth. It’s jarring to think that part of it was because of Ryan. He was going on extra missions because the agency was growing more and more demanding. For months they tormented Ryan with the threat of kicking out Jeremy. They said they’d do other things to him that Ryan doesn’t want to remember. Why did Jeremy never bring it up? Why did he just accept that Ryan had ‘moved on?’ Their lives were so intertwined with one another that Ryan never felt truly whole again. The only reason Ryan went with the break up was that he saw how distant and cold Jeremy had gotten. Ryan had assumed that, for whatever reason, Jeremy had changed his mind. He hated it, he was devastated, but he didn't know how to fix it.

Ryan decides he doesn’t want to go back to the penthouse tonight. He pulls up to the nearest crew safehouse, and suddenly things click.

Jeremy had always struggled with bad self-image and depression. He had gone to Ryan for comfort, which he was always more than willing to give. Jeremy was doing better. At least he told Ryan he was.

Jack had mentioned a while ago that when Jeremy first joined the crew, she had found him after a suicide attempt and barely left his side until he recovered. The only reason for it Jack had told Ryan about was ‘emotional trauma from a past relationship, that he didn’t really want to talk about.’

Ryan did that to him.

Ryan did that to him.

Ryan made the love of his life want to die.

The pieces left of his heart fall into more shards than there are grains of sand in this world.

He collapses onto the couch inside, too exhausted to even get to the bed. He knows he’s not going to be able to sleep, though.

To: Geoff

Dropped Jeremy off at his place, he was pretty drunk though so check on him please

To: Geoff

I’m staying at kung fu safehouse for the night

[nulltune]

String of Theocracy is Angela's theme song aka the one of the mcs to Lobotomy Corporation and Library of Ruina, Angela is an AI created based on a dead woman whom her creator was close to however she didn't turn out to be perfect copy so her creator rejects her and treats her like shit with seeing as a mere machine despite being away that she's fully capable of emotions and other things

putting this under the cut because of spoilers!! i will also be screaming my head off under the cut :) GEJFHSH OK BUT TY ANON FOR SENDING THIS IN!!!!

HOLY SMOKES ANON THIS MAKES ME WANNA WATCH A PLAYTHROUGH OF THIS GAME SOO MUCH BC THIS!!!!!!! SOUNDS LIKE IT'D GIVE ME SO MUCH MUSE FOR HAKUNO----!!!!! LIKE from this first ask alone i already went all 👀👀 bc that sounds similar to hakuno's case!!! and i think it'd be soo interesting if npc hakuno could somehow interact with someone important to human hakuno... but that's topic for another day and so lemme just continue screaming abt angela! though i must ask-- if she's one of the mcs, then does that mean she has her story being the primary focus on a route or sth? because if that's the case then watch me only get into that route--

Library of Ruina happens when Angela overturns her creator's painstakingly planned project that was supposedly improve the shitty world all for a chance for her to finally be free from her role and prison since her creator's project pretty much has her abandoned all alone with no catharsis once the project succeeds

Angela's development in Library of Ruina is how her steadily becoming more human both literally and figuratively like the start of the game she has a robotic body but near the end she has a human body of flesh and blood, There's also Angela absolves all of her faults to her creator during the first half but then starts to feel remorse for her actions and is being nudged to become a better person in the later half

THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN ANGELA AND HER CREATOR SOUND REALLY INTERESTING TO ME--- i'm really wondering what are angela's feelings towards them... and her becoming more human???? I LOVE THAT SMM non-humans learning how to be more human and discovering their humanity is one of my favorite things ever lemme tell ya---

Angela used to been sweet with wanting to help and bond to her fellow co-workers however her creator's project has her basically stuck in a repeating hellish loop where she has to be cold and aloof since every time she tries to be nice, she gets hurt badly as punishment so she has no choice but be harsh and cut off from others as the result

THIS SOUNDS RLLY RLLY INTERESTING TO ME TOO!!!! i don't know the details and i Do Not trust my own monkey brain but i'm assuming this is some kind of time loop? and gotdangit i frikkin love time loop stories!!!! and makes me wonder about her relationships with her co-workers as well!!! i'm sure that'd be vital in her development to being more human, no?

Angela never understands that she desires the love and affection which her creator has denied with always ignoring and neglecting her the whole time so her realizing this as apart of her development is actually required to get the good ending of the game and one of the game's end scenes do has voice of her creator saying sorry to her and congratulating her after so long

and o h my goodness i have -clenches fist- been thinking So Much abt how wanting love and affection and receiving it is definitely a part of being human as well so i'm just--!!!! FOR SOME REASON I REALLY THOUGHT HER CREATOR WOULD DIE IN THE END BTW HDKSHFHDHD i'm really wondering how their relationship would be after all the development angela's been thru 🤔 and how their relationship would be in lobotomy corp!!! AND HELLO THERE ARE DIFFERENT ENDINGS TO THE GAME??? THAT JUST MAKES ME EXTRA CURIOUS HOLY SMOKES and makes me wonder about the bad endings bc i'm evil like that--!!

feels like i'm rambling as much as i normally do but that's bc i don't rlly know much abt the game itself (and i am.......... sleepy) BUT KNOW THAT I AM VERY MUCH INTRIGUED BY ALL THIS!!!!! anon, pls know i'm literally listening to u like this: